#I really dont know what to do

[adeceasedtulip]

Genuine question, should I be locking down my fics? I've heard people talking about this on here about how they feel the need to close their works off to unregistered users due to a few reasons. One being the growing concern that AI poses to authors who want to protect their fics. Others are concerned about their fics being copied to other sites like goodreads or being bound and sold without their knowledge.

I know I'm not writing masterpiece 100k fanfics but I don't know if I should he sealing my works from the guest users on ao3. Does anyone have any opinions on this because I feel a bit stuck for what I should do?

#help #i really dont know what to do #I dont think it's too much of an issue for me but its still worth thinking about. #ao3 #ai #fanfic

[rainingmbappe]

I sleep excessively. I "napped" for 3 hours and I feel physically drained and I just want the mental stability and assurance in myself to study but I don't have that and I feel like this is going to fucking kill me

#i need to pause #please i just wish there was a pause buttom #where do i fucking start #i dont know #i really dont know what to do #school and tuitions are eating my time away i dont know when to do what #and finals are in less than a month #and #i just #want #to run awwy #i cant look at my parents and tell them yet another disappointing mark

[demonichikikomori]

Just cried for like a solid hour because I don’t remember how to region break on an iPhone and I am so tempted to buy an android so I can use Tunnel Bear. I want to barf please please please please please please I need to play this game.

#crying. from. hell #i really dont know what to do #i am going to be distraught for a while over this #maybe this is a sign to make a masterlist #i need syo to talk to me again soon i might need to go to the hospital

[w4yf1nder]

almost at 100 followers. DOES ANYONE HAVE ANY SUGGESTIONS FOR A MILESTONE EVENT BECAUSE 🧎‍♀️

#i really dont know what to do #wren talks;

[cellestiallys]

Mom and brother are still in the hospital...he talked to a psychiatrist and he thinks it might be bpd

My brother also said he hates us. I don't know what to do, how to fix this. I love this kid so much I would die for him and hearing he say that breaks my heart.

I wish I could take all his pain away and shield him from everything forever, hes such a sweet kid, I wish he believed me when I told him that

No one will probably read this lol but if you have bpd/someone you love has bpd, what's the best way to show support??

#feeling so hopeless rn #i really dont know what to do #i just want to die

[lemaldusiecle]

tw : death/suicide

I lost a friend I knew since I was 18. She was in really bad mental condition and really depressed. She has commit suicide and I learned it 3 days ago. I feel so bad that no words can describe it. Life disgusts me. I feel so ashamed that i have not save her and honestly I dont give a damn about anything anymore. I just want to die too. She was the purest girl and only 24.

#i really dont know what to do #except sleeping crying and screaming internally

[just-your-average-tangerine]

I read somewhere that one way to deal with anxiety is to think about the best case scenario, worst case scenario, and most likely scenario, to kind of put it all in perspective. This isn't exactly the same type of anxiety that advice was meant for but I'm going to try it anyway.

Option 1: move back in with my parents out of state.

Pros:

-get away from my roommates bullshit, back to my parents bullshit which I'm used to, my bullshit comfort zone if you will

-a bit more stability

Cons:

-I'd have to temporarily (possibly permanently) stop my transition due to family stuff and lack of access to trans Healthcare in the area

- no ability to socialize because the area is unsafe for me as a trans person

Best case scenario: I work full time for a few years to save money/ gain in state residency then go back to school part time until I get my degree in theater and film and then start working towards a film career.

Worst case scenario: I work full time and cant afford to go back to school so I end up stuck with my parents working a minimum wage job forever.

Most likely scenario: I work full time for a few years until they convince me to give up on film and do something practical. I either go back to school for something other than film or just get a more "career type" job that doesn't require a degree. Eventually I move out of my parents house but still stuck in other ways.

Option 2: keep my current course

Pros:

-staying out of my parents house grants me a little more freedom, not much but...

-can continue hrt (no other aspects of transitioning but I have that at least)

- possibility of a social life, not likely but possible

Cons:

-roommate tries to indirectly control my life to meet his standards (i.e. ruined my last attempt at a romantic relationship because he saw me hug the guy and he doesn't like pda)

- if something goes wrong I have no back up plan, no support system. Constant anxiety that comes with that.

Best case scenario: I finish my associates degree and either find a way to pay to get a bachelor's or start a career in film

Worst case scenario: I stay stuck with my roommate, working a dead end job and not able to afford necessities much less the ability to enjoy things

Most likely scenario: I finish my associates and get a job doing something unrelated just to get by, eventually get enough money to afford a shitty apartment on my own or at least with a different roommate.

#much to think about #hasnt helped yet but maybe once i think about it more #i really dont know what to do #op

[tsui-no-sora]

Personal

#pretty much every artist i looked up to on my secluded sector of the community has declared they are leaving erasing their stuff and #dropping everything #and i understand their reasons for it and i agree with them #but at the same time i wanna keep making my stuff and i know there's people who support me with that decision too #people i incredibly admire as well #but i don't know if its right #and doing it only because i love it seems far too selfish to be acceptable #i dont want to leave and i dont want to become hated for not leaving i think leaving is the easier correct answer even if others would #support me regardless #i really dont know what to do

[thedarkcoven]

i’m exhausted, im frustrated, i am just overall fed up with everything. Crying on and off because it seems like no matter how hard we try, my husband and I get the shit end of everything. We’ve tried everything to fix our problems we have with our shit hole of an apartment and 1) the city isn’t doing anything to help like they should 2) the slumlords we ahve dont care about anything but money; they haven’t fixed ANYTHING in our apartment and its been about 2 years since they’ve became our new landlords.  I am extremely embarrassed to say this but we have dealt with bed bugs for as long as we can remember due to the old tenants that lived in this apartment and we didn’t know about it until it was too late. We ahve tried chemicals, rubbing alcohol, steaming, heat treating, EVERYTHING you can think of even to throwing everything away and we are still dealing with the problem. I am pregnant with my second child and I am just so fed up with not being able to do anything or being able to get out of this place. Rent everywhere is way too god damn high. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I am so helpless and can’t stop crying due to exhaustion and frustration. I just want to find a better place so we can leave all our old shit that’s infested behind in the trash so we can finally be free of the pests. I just don’t know what to do. I’ve lost hope a long time ago. I just can’t anymore. 

#i feel lost #i feel hopeless #i am done with this place #slumlords #new york #new york state #helpless mother #i dont know what to do anymore #i am so embarrassed #and so fed up #i cant stop crying #i really dont know what to do #i want to be able to sleep comfortably again #please #help? maybe? #i just need help #i need a better place #i dont want my children to live like this #i feel so disgusted #i am tired of these landlords not helping #i am at the end of my rope #all i want to do is cry #depression post? #rant #i just really need help #im begging #i cant deal with this shit anymore

[emberglowfox]

Keeper -- a short comic about an angel meeting a robotic lighthouse keeper that doesn't know the world has already ended. Made in about 18 hours for a 24-hour 24-page* black and white comic challenge (that I arrived late to, ha.)

*the actual submission does not include the cover, which was created after the fact for this post.

This was a really great learning experience as someone who's... never really made a completed comic. I ended up really attached to the story by the end of the project (possibly due to all-nighter deliriousness lol) and ultimately am very proud of what I made.There are some things I'd still like to change, particularly text placement, but in keeping with the spirit of the challenge I've elected to leave it as is.

#sparks art #comic #angel #robot #my art #my comics #keeper: the angel #keeper: the lighthouse keeper #my ocs #hoogh. this was a grind yall lmao. but i am pleased with it #i hope you enjoy :pray: also keep your fingers crossed for me that this wins the contest #like it. it wont. because i am up against actual SEQA kids that know what theyre doing. and i dont actually mind really #but it would be funny #long post #very long post #sorry #i hope the readmore works

[possessable]

Hello i'm a normal person here's some stuff i drew to illustrate different traits different "person getting controlled" tropes can have

edit: obligatory possession shorthand code link because people seem to be using this like the possession code but just. without the code part

edit: DO NOT BE HORNY ON MY POST 💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥

#if you see tumblr flagging this its literally not mature i dont know why it got flagged #i like how you can see the artstyle in this change because i drew the first couple a year ago and then picked it up again intermittently #this aws just an excuse to draw a bunch of tiny possessed guys. ''what am i supposed to do with a possession hyperfixation its not like you #can draw possession fanart'' Yes You Can If you really Believe In yourslef #This isn't even all the traits i can think of there's four more but they seem kind of boring to draw and are mostly self explanatory #Less Unique my Ass #ThePossessionHyperfixationIsNeverEnding

[sugaploom]

idk what i want to do anymore. i dont want to work with kids anymore, i want to just focus on art, but i literally. have such a hard time selling anything. marketing online is really difficult and selling irl requires a lot of spare money to buy the spot and all the decor that goes with it. idk. im super overwhelmed and i dont want to work anymore. every day it gets harder and harder to get out of bed, to be so honest

#i really dont know what to do #this job takes my sanity for 4 days of the week which #i know doesnt sound like a lot #but my autism is kicking my ass super hard :3 #i have no energy or drive for anything anymore lollll

[coolxatu]

hey got some important news. the affordable connectivity program that helps poor and disabled people afford internet is going to run out of funding by april 2024 if we can't convince congress to renew it

i know emailing and calling politicians often seems like a waste of time, but this is gonna hurt alot of people (myself included) if this program is allowed to disappear. we really need to raise some awareness and get this program the funding that it needs. ACP is a game changer for literally millions of people. this is the only way many homes can even get internet, and in this day and age internet access is pretty much a necessity for almost everything. its gonna be a huge blow to have this vital program taken away from those who depend on it.

#id appreciate a signal boost on this post cause we really need to get this program secured #i literally dont know what im going to do without it #i really cant stress how big of a deal this is

[catmask]

sometimes while i think about that while a lot of adults did not treat me very well as a kid i also get a lot of 'in hindsight this person was so good to me and i didnt even realize it until now' as an adult. today i was thinking about how the first anime convention i ever went to was when i was 10 and i asked the man working the manga cafe what manga was/what a good place to start was (because the con was very overstimulating for me and i had gotten lost) and he asked how old i was before recommending yotsuba and asking if i wanted any water or something to eat. its really simple but theres a lot of bad things that couldve happened or he could've been careless in his recommendation, but instead yotsuba has remained one of my favorite manga for years, and probably a large portion of why i continue to read manga as an adult... i think adults who try to involve kids in the world safely/kindly even in little ways make so much more of a difference than they ever really know.

#and i know that sounds silly like YES. it was just a bookr ecommendation #but i feel like a lot of people either dont really care about whats a good starting point for younger kids in their shared fan spaces #or dont really take the care to recognize different peoples ages would effect what they would both enjoy or #be capable of engaging with #not to mention theres a lot of manga that would NOT have been appropriate for a 10 year old to read #so the fact that he askedd and even asked what sort of thing i liked at the time #was very sweet. i think about him a lot and i hope hes doing well #txt #scratchpost

[feisaru]

I should remove myself from the internet and never come back. I'm not going to do it but god knows I should. I should remove myself from everything altogether

#im tired of looking at things that make me cry #and of always fucking feeling like this #when is it going to stop #i really dont know what to do #i just

[callmekairi]

After being away soooooo long from tumblr it's always weird getting back. I'm not used to it anymore. So many have left. Who is still here? We where all here ages ago and had so much fun and I where addicted to this site.

Now looking through my feed I'm mostly bored and there isn't much there. Have to really clean up my follow list and add new ones to feel like wanting to get back here again. Maybe I come back? Maybe I just come back when I remember to post my art here? Idk.

Where does all my irl friends hang now online? I miss you guys.

#i really dont know what to do #twitter is twitter but there is where I'm having the most fun #which other social medias are fun to hang on? #where does my friends hang? #and post their art?