#I really miss having free time

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Creative Hubris takes another unsuspecting victim.

#non mdzs #It's not even that many pages and I'm getting my ass kicked! #As much as I have been clawing at the walls - I have learned so much! This project pushed me more than I thought it would #I am so excited to share what I've made. I think its actually some of the best work I've ever done. #but I really do feel like I've stumbled back into the room covered in blood and holding a smoothie. #The issue being: at some point the sunken cost fallacy kicks in and you go: #'well I might as well put in extra polish since I've spent so much time on this already' #That's your EVIL BRAIN talking to you who wants you to live in EVIL COMICS LIMBO. #Sorry to my followers who miss the mdzs comics. I went mad at sea for a month and all I brought back was a short comic. #Posting my silly side doodles to bide me time as I continue to drink the sea water. #Set me free into the plains where the horses roam and I will be able to heal <3

[ghostofcrow]

Management: Roll out the new protocols! Go! Go! Go!

#I've been rereading SL and noticing some things I didn't previously #like management's initial shock and the small implication that they may have tried they're version of exposure therapy before #they really said damn this bitch fixing our robots for free #solar lunacy #ALSO I COMPLETELY MISSED THE SECURITY GUARD THING THE FIRST TIME???? #like???? I knew the break in was probably most definitely Nessa #but ig I somehow skipped over the fact her application was denied #this is why we reread

[twinstxrs]

the gorgug-porter conversation is interesting to me because like. yea for the overwhelming majority of the conversation porter’s being shitty & trying to fit gorgug into a box that gorgug just does not fit into by trying to make gorgug’s relationship with his rage more focused on the aggression aspect of it. but then there’s also this specific thing that brennan brought up again in the ap, which is that gorgug’s relationship with his rage is wholly “this is a tool i use to protect my friends.” which isn’t a bad thing! but that’s his Whole relationship with it, & gorgug seems to place next to no value on his rage in relationship to himself. which is problematic, because it’s first & foremost his rage.

being raised in a household with a sort of toxic positivity largely meant that, whether or not it was his parents’ intention, gorgug internalized the message that more traditionally “negative” emotions such as anger are the wrong response to something. part of the reason he prioritizes his artificing is probably because it’s “fixing” things. in comparison to being a barbarian, which gorgug associates with “breaking” things. good vs. bad behavior, in his eyes.

it’s a totally unacceptable bar to measure a 16 y/o by, but i do think part of porter’s reasoning for not letting gorgug multiclass is him recognizing that gorgug generally does not value anger as a valid emotional response to something, at the very least for himself. & that directly conflicts with what being a barbarian is, because whether you like it or not, that rage is what fuels you. but again, barring a kid from pursuing something they deeply care about in part (not entirely, porter has a lot of more bullshit reasons) because of their fundamental values & world outlook is crazy.

so yes, 98% of porter’s reasoning is pretty shitty, immature, rife with a toxic view that there’s only one proper way to access rage, & generally not a good thing to do as a teacher, but also within that reasoning is the 2% of ‘there is a fundamental part of yourself that you only value if you can use it to take care of other people & you need to accept that as something that can take care of you, too.’ but that’s something to discuss with a therapist or a guidance counselor, not something that should hugely impact gorgug’s academic future.

#gorgug thistlespring #fantasy high #dimension 20 #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #btw these r just my personal opinions u r 100% free to disagree #gorgug & his rage interest me so deeply because of how deeply that rage existing seems to be against gorgug’s own will #like mechanically classes are choices & you can switch stuff around any time. but gorgug as a barbarian always felt like an unwilling choice #like that 14 y/o kid did not want to have rage. & that really interests me. #i’ve seen people before be like ‘what if gorgug dropped barbarian & went full srtificer’ but i feel like that simply can’t happen?? #mechanically yea sure but it always felt like a core part of gorgug that the rage will always be there & it’s a matter of how you channel it #idk. dnd classes narratively being treated as ‘you can not lose this part of you’ even though you technically can #gorgug could be lvl 19 artificer & he’d still have 1 level of barbarian. because that is part of who he is. #btw i don’t think porter truly cares about gorgug valuing his rage only as a way to be a human shield #i think porter just sees that as ‘wrong’ but like. not as in ‘you need to take care of yourself’ & more ‘you aren’t conforming’ #he thinks it’s wrong for the wrong reasons. the nastier ‘this is how you should be’ reasons #ppl being like ‘we r being too hard on porter. it’s an 150% courseload gorgug will be overwhelmed’ i think r missing the point bc like. #that is 100% a valid reason to not approve gorgug for multiclassing! but that’s also 100% not the reason porter rejected him. #that whole interaction was basically porter shoving his percieved version of conformity down gorgug’s throat. was v neurodivergent kid coded #no hate to anyone saying that last point btw these r all just opinions #thinking about last ep wilma & digby being like ‘you’re a great barbarian. you’re so great at it. but look at what you made!!!’ like. #they would never mean it like that. but when you only understand half of your son he is going to prioritize the half you do.

[floccinaucinihilipilificationa]

Are you still active on tumblr?

YES I am!! Sorry friends for dropping off the face of the earth, I got a job and I had to move and it was a lot. But I am less stressed now and I hope I can get back to posting more regularly!! I really missed it (ﾉ^ヮ^)ﾉ*:・ﾟ✧

I will never leave tumblr because there is no other place on the internet where I can tell people that 80% of the time when I try to introduce myself to someone in the office that I haven’t met yet I get so focused on smiling and holding eye contact that I forget the part where I actually have to introduce myself (°□°)

#HELLO FRIENDS #how are you!! I missed you! ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ #I hope you all had a good summer!! #mine was very nice even though there was a lot of stress and new things happening #suddenly there were so many adult things in my life that at the end of the day I just sat on the couch and watched decorating shows #I love decorating shows but today they showed this decorating competition and one woman had to decorate her whole bedroom coral #and then I knew it was time to go back #friends I've done so many new things the past few weeks!! I've really underestimated what this new chapter of my life would be like #it's very nice and I'm glad but I've never thought about things like insurance and taxes and parallel parking before #and I'm in a new apartment and everything!! ✧⁺⸜(●′▾‵●)⸝⁺✧ #it is a very good apartment but the landlord left us so many of their chairs #this does not sound like a problem but we also owned chairs before #so our chair number is doubled now #the kitchen is full of chairs the balcony is full of chairs #I've hidden two chairs behind the TV but I can still see their chair heads and then I feel bad because they do not deserve this #they should be roaming free #also rode a BIKE #they say you never forget how to ride a bike #but my secret is that I never really knew how to ride one #in Germany all students have to do a bicyle test in fourth grade and I was so bad that my teacher asked me #afterwards if I had tried to confuse the other students #I just said 'uh yes' and then he said ok and I passed with the worst bicyle grade of the whole school #I hade made 8 bicyle mistakes #I hope you're doing well friends!! see you soon!! #have a nice day :)

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

HII just wanna let u know i cant stop thinking abt poppy and sally (and laughingstock ofc) and its ur fault!!! i love them sm!! ur brain is huge!!

!!!!!! HOLY SHIT!!!!!

#and may i reiterate: HOLY SHIT!!!! #1) you're welcome. pleased to have you here in obscurepair hell #2) dude your art is soooooo fucking Scrumptious #i had to double check to make sure that who was in my inbox was Really In My Inbox hellooooooooooooo hi hi hi #your franklydear is Top Tier #NOT TO MENTION YOUR DRAG EDDIE ART MY GODDDDDDDD i swoon every time i see it #your art is just very.... i am missing the word rn so just. its very Yes. id like to eat it. the colors. the softness. expressive. yeah #anyway now that ive bled out all over your floor #or. its my own floor? this is my blog... well there's blood everywhere. Ignore That #THANKS FOR THE FREE POPSTAR MEAL #poppy doin the hen thing and practically brooding on sally is Everything to me now thank you thank you #rambles from the bog #offerings to the bog #i will be coming back to Gaze at this ask!!!! #'kys' 'shes joking' 'im not' i will admit. i snorted

[kanerallels]

Don't you just love it when you've briefly stepped away from an obsession but then you get new content to do with it and it results in you going Absolutely Insane about it again?

#in other news season four of miss scarlet and the duke premiered #AND NOW THEY'RE ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT #NO THOUGHTS ONLY THEM #perfect timing for me to have finished that story i was working on really #perfect timing in general honestly #it was. a really good episode #several scenes/lines will be living rent free in my head #just. LUALJFLSKDJFLKJSDFLJKDSFLJ AUGH #i will NOT have nothing to think about at work tomorrow which is nice #but also OH BOY THE BRAINROT IS REAL #miss scarlet and the duke

[prototypelq]

V(ergil)&Griffon banter is precious to me because Griffon clearly had his personality form from Vergil's memory and yearning for his brother - witty, sarcastic smartass, yet undeniably supportive and a good ally.

Even if he's gotten 'the real thing' at the end of DMC5 it's obvious he would still miss Griffon, as Griffon clearly wasn't a carbon copy of Dante either (especially given Vergil's view of Dante), he is his own beast, and those two, while connected, are not mutually exclusive.

#i am having vergil&griffon feels provoked by mutuals dammit #vergil be like #i miss my little brother he was an utter moron and an idiot but he was my idiot we had wit battles all the time and he always lost #griffon: free personality template found #its sad because you still can't really have dante and griffon exist at the same time #but the companionship the chicken offered was much appreciated and very timely so he should be remembered fondly #dmc #vergil sparda #griffon

[ladsofsorrow24]

commission link -> x

#akiden #hayakawa aki #denji #チェンソーマン #アキデン #ladsofsorrow24 #commission art #yeah this one... so fun to draw #i know the perspective kinda wonky but fuck it dude it's my first time drawing something this cool #thank you so much anita for commissioning me to draw this :'3c #i really miss drawing these two but i just... don't have the inspirations #somehow when i get this request tho... it really get me pumped up #so yeah... money is a good motivation #but also i think i just need other aficionado to help me #anyway if you want akiden art from me feel free to commission me >:D #or just any ship you want i'll do my best

[canisalbus]

just a quick ask to tell u it makes me super happy seeing the detail u go into when pointing out stuff u like about other people's art of ur ocs :3 it's so rare to see but it's so so motivating!! <3

Thank you! I don't take any interest for my art for granted, and if someone goes through the trouble of drawing my characters for me, I feel like trying to write a proper response is the least I can do. For a visually oriented person, receiving gift/fan art is a huge deal, it means someone considered my goobers worth their time and effort, they've probably been thinking about them more than a little and found them inspiring in a way or another, and I find that terribly flattering. It's extremely fun and interesting to see other people's takes on them. And I've drawn stuff for people as well, I know how nice and rewarding it feels to receive a response that is longer than a word or two. Positive comments like that can linger in people's minds for a long time, at least for me they do.

#this comes with a big serious disadvantage though #it often takes me a long time to write that response #my social batteries are extremely small and a lot of the time by the time I go online I feel too worn out to engage with people properly #I'm autistic anxious and severely depressed my spoons are in short supply at the best of times #I've always had really hard time putting my thoughts into words in a way that I find satisfactory #so I keep putting off reblogging gift art #because most of the time my brain is too smushed to formulate that meaningful comment I want to give #maybe that sounds dumb and fake #but this is something I've struggled with for years and I feel extremely guilty for keeping people waiting like that #often weeks sometimes months even #and potentially making them feel underappreciated and unnoticed #I'm also genuinely very scatterbrained and unorganized and I miss and forget things I'm supposed to do all the time #not to mention that I tend to have trouble keeping track of my mentions and dms and asks I'm only one person #so if you've ever drawn something for me and I didn't/haven't responded yet #please know it's not personal it's entirely my fault I'm kind of a mess #and chances are I'm still very much attempting to get back to you #feel free to remind me if you feel like I might have not noticed your post I really don't mind at all it often helps me a lot #and please if you can don't delete the post even if it seems like I didn't see it #because again sometimes it takes me a long time to respond #thank you to everyone who has stayed endlessly patient with me though I appreciate it #sorry this spiraled into a list of apologies and excuses this is actually something that bothers me a lot #because it's largely a mental health thing but easily comes off as ungratefulness #I'm trying to work on that #answered #anonymous

[kinos-fortress-2]

idk comfort characters moment ig

#i should REALLY stop doodling around and start doing more serious art #anyways this is not shipp art btw i dont shipp them for me they are like brothers best friends even #demoman #miss pauling #tf2 #team fortress 2 #kino art #idk i just feel like drawing sad demo i think he got too much going on in that little head full of beer and depression... #and well he just needs a hug and venting for real and not making it much of a joke #IDK I WAS JUST LISTENING TO MITSKI AND LAMP AND BOOM sad doodle i guess #i think for demo is a bit hard to find a good time to vent and well his team kinda sucks for that #same goes w miss p this two are full of shit in their heads so why not listening w each other and crying idk #its been a time since i have draw demo... #those fucking hands... i hate often times drawing hands #idk why i made tf2 sad art i think is funny but who cares cringe is free look at me doing lovey dovey and sad art haha laugh at this guy

[doodleodds]

royalty & fairy tale au’s are meant to be mixed and u can’t change my mind

Late shuake week 2022 day 3 - Royalty AU

#shuakeweek2022 #akechi goro #kurusu akira #I JUST REALLY LOVE SLEEPING BEAUTY OK #or well. i love the idea of 'sleeping curses.' idk why! they've always fascinated me #i used to be obsessed with aurora and snow white for that reason #and so here i am! as always! projecting this interest of mine onto my favorite characters :) #also for reference because i just realized how weird it reads: goro's gonna be in the tallest tower when he's cursed #that's why akira's got a reason to climb it. so. yeah #also in case you were wondering why i said 'see you tomorrow with more art' and then proceeded not to post for.....four days: #1) work decided that i'm going to be doing more hours so i now have very little free time; #2) i decided to actually try my hand at coloring again like an IDIOT and now here we are. sigh. coloring is hard #i was trying to hard not to just overdose on comic dots again lol & it resulted in this nonsense. me and my one very textured stone wall #ANYWAY lmao even though i missed like. every single day of akeshu week so far i'm still gonna be doing the prompts #just at my own pace! so. hopefully expect more art. soon. ish. hopefully not with another uhhh 2 month gap like last year lol #also quick fun fact since you made it this far in my tags! that second page originally wasn't supposed to be there! #i drew sleeping goro just cause i could and i was just gonna stick him under a read more but then i got attached lmao #and now he's in the main post! :D yayyyyyy goro #ANYWAY that was super long. thanks for reading & i hope u have a lovely day!!!!

[imagionary]

May I request Rainmaker interacting with Deep Diver and Gatekeeper please? I really like those three together and I absolutely love your sketches and designs for the cogs!

This ask made me think of one of the first stories Evils and I told for our AU x3 Silly afterwork game of mini golf that High Roller had set up; good times

#please click the images for better quality! #Chip hadn't been planning on going but went anyway cause he knew Misty was shy in social situations #he ended up teaching her how to play mini golf so she'd feel more comfortable playing with Mary and Holly #he wanted her to be able to play with her friends without being nervous about her lack of golfing skills; Misty appreciated this x3 #Holly and Mary were already playing before Chip persuaded Misty to go play with them #They all had a really good time; it was nice #I'm sure they all miss feeling free from work stresses; or at least being able to not have to think about it so often #Thank you for this ask!! I really love Holly Mary and Misty so this was really nice to finally be able to draw! 💚 #imagionary rambles #ttcc #toontown corporate clash #toontown: corporate clash #toontown #misty monsoon #mary anna #holly grayelle #chip revvington #rainmaker #deep diver #gatekeeper #chainsaw consultant #leave it up to me to have my artstyle change halfway through JFNDJE #I like drawing them all there will be more of these three again at some point >:3

[irritablepoe]

I WANT SOMEONE TO LOVE ME. I want someone to casually sit beside me and nudge me every now and then to get my attention. I want someone to pull me into a side-hug because they've been laughing about a joke of someone and want to share that joy with me. I want someone to carefully take my hand into theirs and look at my fingers or perhaps the lines on my hand just because they can. I want someone to look at me absentmindedly while they're thinking of something. I want someone to sit quietly beside me when I'm feeling down and just take my hand and squeeze it to tell me I'm not alone anymore.

#christ alive dhdhhsjwhddj this is so dumb🫠 #I'm sorry #had a lil bit to drink and I'm feeling affectionate okay #also my brother had his last day of school and he's been telling me about his plans with his friends while- #- he has free time and I'm literally so nostalgic rn #like that free time was so nice #i was basically eating dinner with them out qnd about and been going to bars and stuff #also sitting at a lake and the park and the river almost every day like. those were the times fr #those were the times i wasn't a isolated bitch lmao #well i was. just not that much #hhhhhhhhhhhhh i miss my irl friends😭 #if they're all back in germany we have to meet up literally omg🥲 #but also... they've so different lives now. I'm such an outsider somehow and idk #i can't really connect with them as much as i used to #which is fine but. i don't have any other friends with whom i could meet up #maaaaaaan life's so complicated 😔 #johnny's silly rambles #(also yes this is the kind of qp love i want plsplspls #)

[braskide]

this is somewhat a spontaneous thing to state but — everytime someone on my dashboard posts something about their character, i can't help but care. you just saw a pic and wrote fifty tags in the rb to talk about your character associated to it? i read it and i care. you just went into heavy details about their romantic needs? i care. you analyzed every word they've ever said in their source material? get me on the phone cause i care. you just wrote a 2 sentence headcanon / 3 meters long meta post about that one frame? i definitely care and think about it. it's kinda dumb, maybe? but sometimes i also try to think through the choices of tags for example, most people use poetry or lyrics and i always wonder how they're associated to the muse, does it make sense? it's also not just a generalized feel-good way i'm trying to say this, not in a “all of your muses matter!!!” ( they do! ) kinda way, but on a more specific level, i can't help but see the appreciation the people i have surrounded myself with have for their characters.

it's like — i will admit, sometimes i do not have that knowledge about that one muse specifically, or perhaps it's very just.. on the surface kinda level ( i have not played all the titles 🥲. ) but just reading someone being so passionate about their character like they were the one in charge of them makes me feel really light somehow. i may not like all posts ( this is my own issue because i think i'm dumb with thinking i'm annoying sending notifs to people lmfaooo sh*ot me ) but i definitely read the majority of them like its the newspaper and the more in depth one goes the more i want to know what's the next topic, what's the next inspiration, what's the next thing.

#tbd. #i can't sleep so i really just went on the for you tab and read through the posts i missed today.. ... #and i realized how interesting it is!!! !!! #it hit me like when ur frontal lobe finally develops fully #also ! i love when u all post about ur characters cause i'm like.... .. #holding out my palm : put them here . #anyways !!!! #i may not have a lot of free time but . #when i do have time to search through the posts i love reading them !!!

[forabeatofadrum]

Happy Sunday and thanks @artsyunderstudy , @nightimedreamersworld and @you-remind-me-of-the-babe for the tag.

As the banner suggests, I have no writing done myself but I have read other people's writing. Not a lot though. God, I have so much fic to catch up on. But I have read 2 fics this month.

(I originally planned to do a Fic Rec Friday, but my Friday got super busy and hey, I didn't have anything to show and I also had this banner from last year so it all works out.)

People who follow @klainepolls might've followed along to @kurtsascot's unexpected, a Choose Your Own Adventure-esque kind of fic. Every day, Genevieve would look at the result of the poll to see where the story would go and I voted in almost every one of them and it was honestly a lot of fun, and I applaud Genevieve for coming up with a chapter on such a short notice without being able to plan ahead.

I also read One December Night by @artsyunderstudy and my initial reaction (and AO3 comment) is "Ashton holy fuck" cause Ashton, holy fuck, you've done it again. I am a sucker for reunion/second chances fics, although Simon and Baz never got together beforehand. They meet again, ten years after Simon took down the Mage. I always love how emotional Ashton's fics are.

So yeah, fics!

And now, the weather: @quizasvivamos @blurglesmurfklaine @coffeegleek @otherworldsivelivedin @caramelcoffeeaddict @sillyunicorn @dragoneggos @raenestee @tectonicduck @urban-sith @thnxforknowingme @captain-aralias @justgleekout @cerriddwenluna @tea-brigade @ivelovedhimthroughworse @bookish-bogwitch @confused-bi-queer @that-disabled-princess @1908jmd @special-bc-ur-part-of-it @larkral @cutestkilla ​ @wellbelesbian ​​ @martsonmars ​ @facewithoutheart ​ @shrekgogurt @rockitmans @bitbybitwrites @blackberrysummer @whatevertheweather @theotherhufflepuff @shame-is-a-wasted-emotion @kurtsascot @esilher

#my exams are almost done but i don't have a lot of free time before classes start again #like i really miss writing #but i am just so tired #so i just play viddy games #writing is too much effort lol #tagged in #six sentence sunday

[birdsofash]

Pet peeve: when people complain about kids having to color between the lines.

teaching small children to color between the lines isn't about stifling their creativity, it's about developing fine motor skills!

#fine if the conversation is about not expecting it to be perfect #and about parents being obsessive about a 2-5 year's (or older but mostly this age) art project ''looking good'' #and i think it's really important to have free drawing time #but when i hear the whole stifling creativity thing #or when fictional preschool/kindergarten teachers don't assign coloring between the lines #because it's ''boring'' #i want to scream #it's missing the whole point!! the point is building important fine motor skills!! in a fun way!! #it's LEARNING especially in a school setting!! #(yes there are bad art teachers this isn't about that)