#I release you

[vizthedatum]

I released you.

Today was one of the first mornings that I didn’t wake up thinking about you.

I broke up with you in my mind last night - and not out of a lack of love, but out of an overflow of love for myself.

I told you that I no longer want to entertain the thought of being in love with a figment of my imagination - you aren’t real, and I am. I’m the real one.

It’s not even just a manifestation thing - I will and still do have hopes, dreams, and desires but those are all rooted in my sense of reality.

You were none of those. You were a fictional fantasy I clung on to so I could cope with my “miserable life.”

Talking with you gave me moments of ephemeral peace punctuated with heavy moments of lust that made me feel both connected to my body and completely detached from it all at the same time. It was an addiction.

And I knew it was emotionally devastating for me - you in reality were not the you in my dreams at all. You don’t exist. You aren’t in my life in any capacity, so why do I hold on?

My life isn’t so miserable, at least not anymore. I am beginning to view it in a different way.

I am learning how to love myself more and more. I’m learning how to be more present. I’m learning how to experience the ups and downs, to feel all of it.

I don’t want you, any version of you, if you’re a distraction. I often told myself that I would only accept you in my life if you “came correct” (colloquially).

But you have to come correct in my mind too.

#I release you #healing #neurodivergence #addiction #love #queer #self love #prose #heartbreak #heart repair

[soulinkpoetry]

“Letting go is an emotional survival technique that everybody should learn. The paradox of heartbreak is that the negative emotions cause you to emotionally clench around the memory of the lost object and you cannot let go of something that you’re simultaneously clinging to. So the trick to letting go depends on cultivating, gentle, positive emotions, relative to the lost object, which allow you to relax and release.”

- Orion Taraban Psychology

How to let go of someone:The trick of releasing someone from your heart.”

Source: YouTube

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#I release you #gently #in the autumn wind #October 1 #soulinkpoetry #with love #poetry #thoughts #she writes #feelings #poets on tumblr #that’s life

[timelives]

I alchemise these thoughts,

my desires turn to empower

my pain turns to softness

my grief turns to gratitude.

Bittersweet is I

#dark academia #poems #scorpio moon poetry #poems on tumblr #poetry #red aesthetic #aesthetic #poetic mosaic #voice of the cosmos #sagittarius poetry #prose poetry #astrology #spiritual #release #I release you #alchemy #grief #sorrow #loss

[himero-love]

“how could you not know something was wrong earlier??”

*tells me that they worship me & love me so deeply* *chooses furniture & house decor with me the day before our breakup & lets me place a $300 order for our shared room* *agrees that we should “stay strong, focus on our love together as a team” against a potentially scary law situation* *talked about saving up enough money to go to julian or big bear together & that i had to “just listen to them abt money decisions & we can go :)” the day before they broke up with me* *not tell me that them going to the psych ward was dependent on me* *talks about how stable our relationship had grown to be* *invites me to join them for christmas AGAIN THE DAY BEFORE*

& they kept asking me why i couldn’t see it coming & couldn’t accept it so easily. they hid their hurt from me months past AND BROKE MY TRUST MONTHS AGO AND I TRIED SO HARD TO REGAIN IT IN THEM BECAUSE THEY SAID EVERYTHING WAS OKAY ONLY TO BLAME IT BACK ON ME. THEY SAID THEY WOULDNT TURN THEIR WORDS ON ME AND MADE A PROMISE THEY WOULDNT AND THEN THEY LITERALLY DID. WHEN I MADE SURE TO MAKE IT CLEAR TO THEM & TOLD MY CLOSE OTHERS SO THEY COULD KEEP AN EYE ON HOW THINGS PLAYED OUT & THEY SAID THEY WOULDNT PUT IT ON ME AND THEY DID. THEY TOLD ME I WAS THE MANIPULATIVE ONE.

I’m not even sad right now, or angry or ANYTHING, but god will i remember that it’s a testament to my strength & how GODDAMN hard I’ve worked that I’m okay. I let someone who gaslit me into my life so deeply, into my friends’ and family & house & holidays & outings. After all this emotional abuse & toil, after countless hurt, after a broken ass car & having to haul THEIR belongings & furniture out for their dad- they didn’t have the guts to get it their damn self- after their lies & being evicted with the deadline on last christmas, after multiple times at a psych ward/crisis center WHERE THEY RELIED ON ME & CALLED ME ONLY TO FUCK ME OVER THE FOLLOWING DAYS WHEN THEY COME BACK, may i never forget that i’m enough. that my life was worth so much more than this. that this hurt and grief cannot be the sum of my being, that i deserved joy & trust & love. that my body’s betrayal and trauma to please be released so i can be happy in this only home that i have for certain. may i never stop loving myself even when it’s hard. i don’t even know what that would be like anymore. but i’m trying hard to learn.

when i die, may i be full of joy and light. please

#bpd #bpdvent #bpdbreakup #bpd feels #journal #emotional abuse #gaslighting #i release you #you didn’t deserve me at all #breakup #goodbye #transmasc #leaving them in 2022 #even my friends & coworkers wished the best for them & the religious ones prayed for them #not a single ounce of care or empathy from their circle to me #blessings in disguise #please #i deserved better #:( #i want to say fuck off but i dont even mean it anymore #i think #who knows #evergreen

[justalittlebluetiefling]

#i don't believe that people for serious reasons sort their books any way but by author #and then obviously by release date/series within that #i am being told that i am being JUDGY #also if you sort your books any other way HOW DO YOU FIND THEM #i really need to know #polls #can't believe i forgot to include genre in here

[retquits]

1.6 is coming—see you march 19th!!! 🥹🌱

#stardew valley #can you imagine pouring blood sweat & tears into a game #releasing it for like $15 #and then working for 8 more years to add more content without asking for a cent more #for what could have easily been several dlc packs #i love you stardew valley i love you concernedape i love you indie games thank you for being my home all these years #EDIT: added image ID in the alt!!

[mzcain27]

I think game studios should just release their character creators online. For the times when I don’t wanna play the whole game, just the lil dress up part

#yes this is about baldurs gate 3 #no I don’t have a decent computer if any description or a PlayStation #I do wanna play the game but I mostly wanna make my dnd characters for hours #you could literally do it for everything tho #totk outfits and dyes #Skyrim could have it’s 17th release #outfits in shit like assassins creed games #dragon age #fromsoft games #the sims maybe?? #the options are endless pls game devs #video games #nintendo #Xbox #Sony #PlayStation

[mellotronmkll]

This is so awesome

#The article makes it kinda sound like it's just for his sons but he's been obsessed with trains forever himself #Like Phil we know it's for you #psa to anyone coming here now this has notes yes this is from an old article and I know this already #It's from 2008 he's not releasing anything anytime soon I know

[pokimoko]

I can't keep being fundamentally changed as a person by animated movies, it's just not sustainable.

#animation #animated film #animated movies #across the spiderverse #across the spider-verse #spiderverse #puss in boots #puss in boots the last wish #puss in boots 2 #nimona #nimona film #yes i'm posting this specifically because i just watched nimona and am feeling all kinds of things but really these are all PEAK TIER #the fact they have ALL been released within 7 months of each other...like...woah we are thriving right now #stylised animation with its own unique style reflecting the movie i love you forever kissing you on the mouth #films that make me ferally rip up any and all art blocks to shreds #and that's just the animation side of things #i won't get started on the plots. they also make me want to bounce off of walls #hugging all these close to my chest #as well as all the other great animated movies that exist because animation wins all catergories for me always #(let's not forget anime movies either; y'all are beautiful too! keeping 2d animation alive and i'm so here for it)

[o0kawaii0o]

Spring's Harvest!

#a more elaborate piece and this time it's stardew! #would you still call this animation if it only consists of 2 keyposes? hm #I thought about it and didn't want to make inbetweens in the end so here you go #found motivation to finally realise this idea I had for months since the release date of the 1.6 update got announced! #can you maybe spot the O/ne Piece details? hehe #I'm rambling again #stardew valley #stardew fanart #stardew farmer #sdv #sdv fanart #junimo #fanimation #o0kawaii0o

[neptunejheart]

You don't feel right anymore. I don't see you the same anymore. I don't care for you that way anymore. I am not even sad about it. I am relieved. I don't have to pretend anymore. I don't have to waste my time & energy on you anymore. I can move on. I can finally move on. I can be free.

#all is well #this was meant to happen #i release you #i let go #progress #life stuff

[nightmare-chaser]

Ive seen multiple posts from reddit refuges that go like "im queer and its so welcoming here!" Or "im nonbinary and dont get quized on my gender here!" Or "im autistic and i can be weird here and yall like it!" And its so fuckin cute its like yes hi hello welcome this is the gay ass autistic website we love special interests we love weird genders we love just saying random shit and the just happy surprised tone of those posts is so wholesome to me like yes! hi! you are in fact the target audience! welcome home

#196 #reddit blackout #theres also been multiple posts that compares them to endangered birds raised in captivity being released into the wild #and yeah i can see it #god but the joy in those posts at being met not just with welcoming arms but delighted ones #like yeah! you can say just random shit! we love thag here! #we dont just allow random special interedt rants we adore them we actively encourage them #theres posts about loving seeing your mutual flood your dash suddenly with some random thing and realising they have a new hyperfixation #its just really cute and sweet

[iwasbored777]

Barbie movie never said "we need to stop men" it said "we need to stop toxic masculinity" and if that made you feel called out I got some news for you

#it's like when joker was released and everyone was like beware of victims of bullying and i was like why #and they said cuz they will kill us all #and i was like joker only killed his abusers so if you are afraid that a person like him will come for you it means you deserve it #same here #barbie movie #barbie #feminism #toxic masculinity

[beautiful-disaster-82]

#i release you

[plastiboo]

Vermis I & II (hardcover edition)

#hollow press recently decided to release hardcover versions of both books : ) ! They’re nice looking #this versions only vary on the cover and the size; the contents are the same #thanks a lot for the support. I’m currently working on more stuff I hope you like it.

[improvapocalyps]

You have 90 minutes to complete. (original poem: r.a.)

In participation of the MCYT Recursive Exchange 2024 hosted by @mcytrecursive!

Inspired by know that all my love will be your breath (i will save you when your lights go out)

[text under cut]

1. Have you ever been in love? (Please circle your answer.) a. It's me and him b. Our hearts beat in sync c. Our lives intertwined

2. Do you understand what you’ve done? (Please circle your answer.) a. I couldn't do anything b. I lost my balance c. I doomed us both

3. It's been god knows how long since you felt phantom hands on your neck and there is no one in sight. If you were soul-bound to him and both of you died at the same time then why are you still waiting in the void? Please answer clearly, in full sentences. (Not a correct answer：I just wanted to see him one more time).

4. Define two (2)： Fate | The feeling of his forehead against yours Curse | The moment you realise he isn't linked to you anymore

5. True or False： i. It was your fault. ii. You wish you had met him under different circumstances. iii. You can’t regret a single moment that you had him. iv. You would do it all over again if you could. v. It ended long before either of you said anything.

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sketch cover thing for imgur link:

#team ranchers #team rancher #rancher duo #jimmy solidarity #tangotek #trafficshipping #mcyt recursive exchange #events #fic fanart #my art #“canary has butterfly-shaped wings it cant do a dramatic spread like that” watch me. (draws dramatic wings) (sorry) #“you have 90 minutes” have been rattling in my brain for so long ever since i suddenly remembering a web weave using it (yes the beeduo one #very glad i can release it (using it in art) from its confines (my mind) #hm i suppose the title would be more in theme if its abt limited life ranchers #← havnt watched limlife yet #but! happy with what i come up with. lil bit proud even #had so much trouble with the panelling and layers in p2 cause it looks too busy (explodes) #also punching the floor bc i only noticed the “yes-no” pair(?) in the original poem when im already half-done w/ the comic #me when making silly comic makes you do poem analysis #i dont even go there ← does not have enough poetic braincells