#I still cant believe this is real life 🤧🤧

[taegularities]

Rid you're crazyyyyyyyyyyy

just finished cmi11 IM FUCKING CRYING holy shit that was so good oh god

first of all the conversation between oc and her mom made me cry so hard- it hit home for me, as a girlie with mommy issues, that part felt so real to me. Oc's courage to stand up for herself like that and tell her how much she hurt her own daughter is something i dont have in me. It broke my fucking heart, that yearning feeling, i cant believe you put that specific feeling into words rid [are u part of the mommy issues community as well🧐 or are u just that amazing, a true fucking artist (i saw that anon calling you the beyonce of ff and i agree 100%)] idk how to describe my feelings rn, that part definitely left a mark in my heart, ill never forget it

second the domesticity in these two dorks oh my goddddd they're driving me crazy, theyre so cute and in love and im in love with them and i want to cry bc i want what they have but bc irl men suck the hopeless romantic in me is gonna have to live through fanfics for the rest of my life and that makes me fucking miserable but bless the fanfic gods like you that keep my soul alive, idk what id do without you

lastly that scareeeeee oh god like i knew itd be a negative but it had my heart beating out of my ass (idk if thats a phrase) but the way they handled it oh god, the emotionsssssss the fears and insecurities, just reminded me that theyre human, even if theyre the most fucking adorable characters ever, theyre still human and i loved seeing such nuance. You really are doing an amazing job rid, not only writing the story, scenes and dialogue, but also the way you write these characters in such depth, its so fucking refreshing to see.

i want to kiss your beatiful head that holds your beautiful brain, seriously ive never ever been so enchanted by a piece of writing before (and i read so much fanfiction its like an addiction) you are by far my strongest fix. For real tho, your writing, and particularly cmi has touched me deeply and I'll never ever forget it. So thank you

Rest assured and stop doubting yourself bc youre seriously incredible and so fucking talented. Now rest up and take care of yourself, i imagine its not easy to birth such work (i mean 36k you monster, i loved every second of it but damn girl take a break before you burn your brain out) but no srsly i hope youre eating well, sleeping well and doing things that make you happy and relaxed. You deserve all the best of this world rid🫂🩷

sincerely ~ 🐼✒️anon

panda hi hello oh my gosh, sorry for being late, but you mentioned so many important things, so i wanted to take my time HELLO!! never stop sending these lovely af reviews 🥺

i know... she really is inspiring bc the courage to stand up against someone you feared for so long is admirable. i'm part of both the mommy and daddy issues community even though it's gotten a lot better lol like i wonder why it's such a recurring theme in my fics 🤣 i'm so sorry you could relate to oc :( but i'm glad you liked the scene so much.

and ahhh the domesticity 🤧 it's been so so fun and relaxing to write!! real life romance can be hard to find, yeah :') so i guess writing these scenes and chapters has been extra cathartic (although it drives me crazy, too — the next chapter has been making me so jejfhdjjsgd), but here's to finding a cmi jk irl soon :') much more to come!!!🕯️

the scare was one hell of a ride 🥺 i cried a lot!! and even i have been realising lately that i sometimes try to make my characters flawless, but that's actually not what i wanna go for. i always snap out of it and then try to make them flawed bc they're human, and i think the cmi couple, despite how endearing they are, is definitely vv flawed :') thank you for pointing that out 🥺

your strongest fix?? girl PLEASE ILL CRY 😭💔 i love you so much, you're so sweet for saying that and seeing me in such a way, pls i want you here forever <3 i rested a lot after cmi11! but ngl, cmi11.5 almost burned me out ksjdhehd gonna rest even more after that hehe. tyssssm, i hope you're well and healthy and i appreciate you so much for your kindness, reassurances and love for this series/me. love you so much 🤍

#MWAH see you tonight<3 #notes for rid 🌹 #🐼✒️ anon #fic: colour me in

[finallydelight]

uhM ??? I KNOW I READ IT EARLIER BUT LIFE HAPPENED BUT OMG ???

MARKMING REAL ?? YASSSSSSS thank u lord jesus christ i wasnt as delusional and stuck on a sinking ship as i thought i was (unless yunho or someone from atz is coming in clutch)

BUT OMG ?? THE FAST FORWARD THROUGH THE WEEKS IN DIFFERENT MOMENTS WITH DIFFERENT PEOPLE ??

ALSO HELLO MING'S BROTHER YOU GOOD AT CATCHING STUFF AND CALLING OUT I APPRECIATE ??

ngl the update photo threw me bc i thought it was gonna be cheol centered and was ready for family heart to heart BUT MARK COMING IN OUTTA NOWHERE UHM MINGHAO ?? WYD ?? THAT THREW ME OFF LMAO BUT THANK U MINGHAO AND PROB SVT EVEN HYUNG PROTECTIVE PARENT LINE

ANYWAYS MARK CONFESSING MY DUMBASS MILK MAN AWKWARD TURTLE I CANT BELIEVE YOU LAGGED AND WAS LIKE THE OLD WINDOWS 2007 VERSION THAT YOU REALIZED IT THE DAY AFTER AKHSKA ?? AND ITS BEEN WEEKS TOO BEFORE YOU TALK TO HER ABT IT I WAS ABT TO THROW HANDS AND MENTALLY THROW YUNHO HER WAY FOR ANOTHER GOLDEN RETRIEVER BOYFIE OPTION

anyways i love the new update take ur time jen with life and if something bad happens or life happens, we'll wait for your next updates whether via answering asks or another update or even a poll

AAAAAAAAH SHES HERE MOTHER HAS ARRIVED

okay, firstly. it's so cute that you noticed the different week different person thing 😭 I felt a bit weird about it at first, but I'm glad you liked it 💕

her younger brother is her biggest fan, like no one compares and he catches everything and ugh jungwoo is the sweetest creature on earth🤧

minghao was like "I'm not getting blamed for this girl getting her heart broken every damn time, let me fix this"

markiepoo wanted to talk to her earlier, but he was scared out of his mind that she would hate him and he was also busy with their comeback and stuff, so he decided to just wait but then he saw her at music bank and thought that was a good moment (spoiler: it wasnt)

ugh I appreciate you so much, miss stopeatread you have no idea 💞

YOU CAN ALWAYS STILL THROW YUNHO MY WAY IM VERY LONELY THESE DAY SOOOO

#ming.svt #ming.ask #stopeatread

[tyonfs]

🤧 : also so much to catch up I read that you graduated !! congrats !! That must be so nice !!

I unfortunately, had to take a 5th year BUT I am manifesting the graduation in 2024 for me ☺️

also I couldn’t help but read over all the stuff I sent you over the years (since 2021 woww can’t believe Hit Sauce came out 2 years ago) and how excited I always was to talk to you. unfortunately I feel like I lost that ✨ energy ✨ because my life trauma caught up with me and I started having bad depression starting towards the end of 2022 — it be like that apparently. Now I kinda have to fight feeling so down all the time BUT we are working through it oof

I also am thankful because you always sent me Renjun pics in the past and were very comforting. You always made sure I felt validated and for someone I have never met in person, you were such a comforting space online. You are such a kind person who deserves all the success you have coming your way <3 like I still need to catch up on all your content but one day we’ll get there :p

don’t mind this being the second ask of mine in a row haha

also also I had a dream about Renjun last night and he was like my husband lowkey? Idk but we for sure were dating — I even tried showering in front of him so he would join me 👀 scandalous omg !!

but lmaoo guess what? it didn’t work — he gave me his ring and left to go do something. yeah, it was weird lol 😂

thank you !!! graduation still doesn’t feel real HAHAH i got my diploma recently and it still doesn’t feel real when i hold it

omg i’m a little jealous of your fifth year :’) honestly take your classes at whatever pace is comfortable for you !! the four years are not set in stone, it’s perfect valid to take as much time as you need 🙏

AHHH GOSH I JUST CANT BELIEVE THAT WE’VE ALL BEEN HERE FOR THAT LONG and gosh thank you for coming back and checking in all these years 🥰🫶 it’s like getting to hear from an old friend from time to time <3 omg you don’t have to worry about the shift in energy or anything, i totally understand that it’s hard to get back into that mentality after life throws so much at you :( i’m really glad you’re working through it tho and i hope things get better !! 🤍

oh my goddd you’re too sweet 🥺🫶 i will gladly send you renjun pics any time any day !! and i’m so touched by your words omg 😭😭 i hope only good things come your way from now on as well !

HAHAHA OMG A SPICY RENJUN DREAM ???: actually i recently had a dream about renjun too (my first time in YEARS dreaming about a kpop idol 😳) but i have no idea what his purpose was he was just there 😩 LMSOFJSJF NOT DREAM RENJUN GIVING U HIS RING now u can profit off his 7dream ring >:)

#asks #🤧 anon

[redfiels]

Jill to my Claire @argentumyes

#I still cant believe this is real life 🤧🤧 #resident evil in MY dbd?!?!?! #claire redfield #jill valentine

[taegularities]

HEY RiD ! How are you honeybuns 💗✨️ Life has been kicking my ass for a while but there is still hope for me ..Anxiety and panic attacks are the freaking worst ..I have never experienced one before so it was kinda terrifying i was literally watching my own horror movie..but thats not the point ..the point is that YOU AUTHOR RID ARE GUILTY FOR RAISING MY STANDARDS ! Like hello am i supposed to die single 😭 why would you do this huh ! ANSWER ME ....was/is there someone or something that inspired/s you to write your characters this way ..and CMI jk !! OMG His character is phenomenal ..Oh the man he is ..its like when he loves ..he just loves yk ..there is no limit /boundary to his love and affection ..i cant help but imagine that if he and oc were to wed ..he is probably gonna be the crying and throwing up bcz his heart is bursting out of love and he is so freaking drunk over her ..i just know that oc would have to koala hug him so he stops crying lmao 🥹😭 ..These freaking fictional men istg ..And dont even get me started on dates ..i swear half of the time i am just scrolling my fav aus and being delusional while on the other hand the poor guy is trying to talk to me and banging his head on the table 💀 i just hope you are taking care of your health cuz we are the sensitive gang (one thing goes wrong and i know i am already going down the rabbit hole ) ..Also just curious (if you wanna share ) How was your first date experience like? Your first crush ? Cuz there is this guy in my Arts class and i am crushing so hard on him like he is so freaking sweet and charming ..He passed my vibe check on the first day 🙂 i get butterflies (alot ) whenever he looks at me.he is not the first guy yk like i have been on a lot of dates and stuff ..i did find them attractive but it is just so different with him ..like as much as i want to believe gettinf butterflies and heart skipping beats is real ..it has never happened to me and i am just going crazy ..it is scary as well cuz no guy has ever held this much power over me 🕳🚶‍♀️ Sometimes over pinkies would touch accidently and i am already melting in a puddle 🙂😭 What the hell is happening ..it is like Cmi yk..i just know that if he tries hard enough he can break my heart and i would gladly let him( this thought scares the shit outta me ) ..

awh man, living for the chaos in this ask lol it's so all over the place 🤧 i'm okay! winter break shall give me some peace of mind. how are youuuu?… totally.. cmi jk keeps raising my standard, too :') thinking about them hurts me bc i can't wait to experience such a love one day, too </3 and you will, as well!! i know some people are odd and make people lose hope, but i want to believe that there are a bunch out there who are just right for us and know how to make us happy 💕 tbh, i didn't base these characters on anyone i know, but rather… oc is someone i strive to be and jk is the kind of person i would want to love :(

my first date? hmmmm… honestly, a bit awkward? :'D we were at his place and watching something, but i know he was looking at me through the tv's reflection? and then we had more dates and our first kiss kinda went.. very wrong lmao but all that was part of something that bloomed into something beautiful 🌹 you'll be okay, love!! enjoy the feeling your crush evokes!! manifesting so much happiness for you 🥺

(also omg i gotta ask before i go all overthinking mode.. you said arts class? but you're 18+ right? 😭 since i have a minors dni policy!! pls lmk <3)

#thank you so much for reading and rambling <3 #notes for rid 🌹 #anon #fic: colour me in