#I sure love making a fool of myself

[hheckkingart]

These dumb gaywads (affectionate) live in my head rent free

#pnf #phineas and ferb #heinz doofenshmirtz #perry the platypus #perryshmirtz #top is me doing screenshots to make sure I got them right #this is my first time drawing them im genuinely so impressed with myself #theyre such gay fools #i love them #hello specific subset of the pnf fandom #hheckkinart

[dandyshucks]

one of the kiddos really loves rabbits and we're not able to really do much for Easter related activities irl so I thought I'd draw them with their favourite rabbit 'mon ... perhaps a gift from Guz,,,,,

#i keep going back and forth on whether i want to share system related drawings here but fhdksl this one's too cute to keep to myself #(i made sure everyone was okay w me posting this before this so djdkdl i got the go-ahead from the parts ''in charge'' so to speak) #its funny though bc i thought they'd like buneary the most but nope fjfkdl its scorbunny #when they were front a while back Sunny got them set up w a pinboard so they could save a bunch of cute pkmn art to it fhdkdl #and its mainly scorbunny and teddiursa dbdkdl very good choices tbh #anyways Guz would be SOOO good with them i just know it #it'd be very cute to watch them interact tbh fjdkdl he'd be so kind and gentle w them #also I'd love to watch him struggle to keep up with one of the other kiddos DBFHDKL he'd have to nap after being around her for long LMAO #OUGGHHHH he'd be such a good dad tbh but ... no children for me thanks DBDJDKL i got enough to deal with as is #but ... perhaps i can indulge a little and just make some more art of him interacting w the system kiddos... SOBS i love him sm #ANYWAYS IM A SAPPY FOOL. WAUGH. this is a weird post maybe but fhjdkl i think the art turned out so cutes :3 #its not perfect but i also havent drawn any full body poses properly in... at least 2 weeks or smth #💜so good at being in trouble #💜a boy and his bug🪲 #doodlebug.png #dandy.cmd

[lucent-nargacuga]

looks around awkwardly

I know I loathe valentine's day with every fibre of my being, but,,,

read the tags of the original post for context, but only if you're prepared for a shit ton of awkward embarrassment

#capri rambles #I'm 99% sure this is a weird platonic interest. no I am not proposing. or confessing ''love''. or doing anything stupid like that #I will simply be giving them. a gift. of some sort. as I am only interested in friendship #an appreciation gift perhaps... #it's definitely going to be art. I won't post it publicly right away #I think what I'll do. is make random gift art for other people and post it with them so nobody gets suspicious #yes I am too shy and awkward to let anyone know who it is #mutual I'm pretty sure you'll see this. and you'll Know all this internal turmoil is about you once- I mean- if you get the gift #dearest mutual please know I am a coward and a fool. please don't get mad at me for my shitfucked brain making me feel this way #I'm angry and disappointed with myself already as is. this is so stupid. um anyway #I won't be doing this on the day itself I already have a plan for that and that plan is being bitter about my ex

[anidealistatbestburntoutatworst]

oh my god an original thought (a scarcity it seems)

dazai: “you let me pretend to be a hero”

chuuya: “and i let you pretend to be in love with me.”

dazai: “and look where that’s gotten us.”

#oh my god an original thought- on this acc?!?!? #angst suokoku ig #soukoku #i’ve been spelling the ship name wrong this whole time and had to google it and make sure i didn’t make a fool of myself #skk #bsd skk #twin dark #double black #queer and traumatized #bungo gay dogs #bungo stray dogs #bungo stray dogs manga #they’re gay officer #i love them sm #the silliest and the goofiest #alright that’s enough tags for today #bungo slay dogs #bsd ships #bsd dazai #bsd chūya #chuuya my beloved #osamu dazai

[tteokdoroki]

eren loves women period please don’t make it seem like someone’s fave wouldn’t like them because of their race

that’s crazy cuz he literally just hit my line sayin he lurrrrvs bwm so ??? 🫰🏾

#✧ ₊˚✉️੭ — new notification #again ur lack of ability to comprehend things is outstanding #how does it feel to be stupid ?? #genuinely i would cry myself to sleep every night knowing i made a fool of myself on the internet like this #me saying a character likes black women to make sure black women feel included in fandom space #does NOT mean he wouldn’t love you #way to make it about you Karen! #go cry elsewhere

[widevibratobitch]

its 'i know it doesnt matter and im used to it at this point but im actually a little sad that im kinda ugly' hours

#its ok ill stop thinking about it in a moment but yeah. thats what happens when i see pictures of myself next to my friends #they're all so hot and beautiful this is like. kinda unfair ngl lol #and like. i realise they dont mean those as actually backhanded compliments. but it sure does feel that way #most of the time i do try to embrace it and ive mostly made piece with the fact that im not here to be pretty but to be weird and funny #peace ffs* #but sometimes you'd just want to see a candid photo someone took of you when you weren't looking #and not feel the need to immediately turn it into a joke because the only alternative available is to confront that the fact that you are. #indeed. Fucking Ugly lol #like idk. i genuinely dont mind that when im with my friends at home. but here all the girls at this fucking uni #are so OBSESSED with their looks #and i was kinda mean to one yesterday. still in a haha-jokey way but goddammit i hate how good it felt #cause like girl. dont think i dont know what you're doing when we're taking selfies. and its okay. #i can be The Ugly Friend That's Only There To Make You Even Prettier. i can be that. but i want you to KNOW that I KNOW. #you're not fooling me darling <3 and i honestly find it even more insulting that you'd think you could lol #babygirl ive been doing *this* my whole life. believe me i know how to stop that fucking behaviour. you're not being as subtle as you think #*spot lol #peace and love but i really would be SUCH a different person if i were pretty its not even funny. so maybe it's for the better huh

[therosebunpost]

Okay so I wasn’t planning on making a poll so soon, but I’ve been thinking about something:

#thebunspeaks #stranger things #steve harrington x reader #steve harrington #eddie munson x reader #eddie munson #eddie stranger things #steve stranger things #I’ve seen a few things with Fem!Steve and Fem!Eddie with each other #but nothing with a reader #I’m not sure if there’s an unspoken Ick against that #so I’d love to get a consensus before considering it #because I have a few ideas but I don’t want to accidentally make a fool out of myself #coming from the Undertale Fandom #there were Fem! versions of a lot of the skeletons #but I dunno if that’s okay in the ST fandom #fem!eddie munson #fem!steve harrington #so I’d love some feedback #ngl this is partly because I’ve seen a few art pieces of Fem! versions of them and they’re just so pretty- #but also becayse I think it’d be fun to explore gender in my work more often

[mrburnsnuclearpussy]

Ngl I’m boarding on a crisis and I have to go to work where I may or may not continue to spiral but can’t do anything about it and it’s terrifying but it’s only me and manager so I feel too guilty to just take a break every time this happens plus it won’t help anyway I don’t need a break I need to be knocked unconscious where the horrors can’t get me 😢 I’m just venting to feel better coz that’s all I feel I can do rn but dw

#vent #negative #i know I said it keep mental health shit to my side account and I have been (mainly) but #but I’m just scared rn and I want to post where I know someone will read coz it does make me feel bit better tbh #sorry about this #i just love starting the new year productive and ending up suicidal and having a near full crisis alone in my room anywa #god I’m scared #i need to go back to the doctor or therapy because I need help fr and like I will make sure I do as it’s my responsibility so like that’s go #good* #:( #my god #i think I fooled myself into thinking I was truly getting better but if last nights an indication I think the hell was just I’m hiding #ready to come back at any moment which was my fear and it did #depression and anxiety but the depression is making me want to die again and idk what to do #i can’t bring myself to go to my mother though so it can’t be it’s absolute worst #i just wish I wasn’t too scared to have a social life anymore because I the suffocating loneliness ain’t helping shit!!

[cerealmonster15]

ougugugughghhh i get,,, so embarrassed when i try to be Earnest lol especially w/in the context of like fanart/fic like i LOVE when other people do it i LOVE reading earnest and vulnerable deep fics and seeing intense fanart etc etc etc. but then i do it i feel like i am Going To Be Killed LJFDKSLF SDJFLS

#yknow like??? if i do ANYTHING other than my funny ha ha sillies <-which i love btw. my fave thing to do ever #but if i try something Different i feel like im CRINGE for trying bc im not. good at it?? #or like im Trying Too Hard?? I GET SO EMBARRASSED #anyway i got jumpscared by a jami/azu i found from last year #and i mean /i/ like it but. i feel like i would die if i posted it #im p sure ididnt post that one i just sent it to my friend on discord #and then even that still made me Feel Embarrassed lol #SORRY GOD idk why im airing out so much internal feelings today lol #can i really blame it on the caffine. can i. god i really need to find a new therapist lol i cancelled the old one but #havent found a replacement yet jklfjsdl oopsie. but like how do u talk to a therapist about this shit anyway lol #i dont. WANT to tell them about tumblr thats EMBARRASSING #sorry this all boils down to im very insecure and always have been l o l #like it's FINE ill be FINE im just oughhghghghgh yknow? #i guess im better than i used to be bc. i post way more than i used to re:drawing and writing lol but #i do have fits of panic where im like #🧍‍♂️am i delusional. perhaps my mutuals/followers r just politely humoring me #and i am simply making A FOOL of myself #maybe!!!!!!!!!!! i dont know #not that i think anyones out to get me or anything i just hfhhhshhdhsghf #i lost track of what i was talking about #anyway shoutout to people who r nice sorry i have a hard time absorbing it lol thats a ME problem not anyone else

[chiropteracupola]

curse of People Frequently Assume I Know Nothing About Anything

#news from the cupola #pretty sure that it's a symptom of being young and rather silly (both not things I can get rid of at this time) #and also having a tendency to stand there like a tall tbh animal in flannel when I am nervous or have nothing to say #so it's interesting to notice that I don't actually project Everything That Is Happening In My Head out into the room #even though I am constantly worried that I do that #or maybe it's that what I consider basic information is not actually basic information again #do people typically know about block printing? do people know about indigo? #what is the actual standard for accuracy versus ambiguity in character design and where do I fall on that? #this is all to say that I feel like I made a fool of myself in the fabric store even though I probably did not do that thing #and now I feel like I Can Never Return on account of having made a fool of myself (even though I Did Not Do That) #which is very annoying because they have a lovely reproduction printed cotton that would be just perfect for a future doll project #(it's tiny alison. going to be making tiny alison this winter and I'll need a very particular blue-and-lighter-blue floral)

[andthebeanstalk]

Dear fellow autistics and people who suspect they might be autistic:

I am mailing you each a metaphorical scented envelope containing a soft sweet kiss on the forehead, which you may open or not open as many times as you see fit.

My friend Evy framed theirs instead of opening it, which is good too.

And you can throw it away, but if you ever do want to find it again, you will be able to recover it. I won't know or mind either way.

Just know I've sent you something nice because I wanted you to have it.

Love,

Jack

#autism positivity #autistic pride #actually autistic #the tism #autistic positivity #i am making this post bc i thought someone else had made it and i interacted with them in an embarrassing way #as it is my modus operandi #a foolproof MO in other words #if by foolproof you mean proof i am a fool #but also i am moving on and forgiving myself for earnest awkwardness #bc otherwise i think i would die from the years of built up shame #anyway their post was valid i just misread a personal message as a general one and felt very silly about it #self diagnosis is valid btw #in case me using 'actually autistic' has negative implications but I'm p sure it just means what it says #the envelope is not visible or tangible i am sorry it is only metaphorical #but by being metaphorical i can be certain i don't miss a single autistic #except for elon musk whom i do not believe is autistic but if he is he still gets no kiss #these are just for you guys/gals/comrades #my friend Laura is not autistic but she gets a lot of forehead kisses from me bc she is short and has expressed that she loves getting them #and i hold her cute soft little face in my hands and kiss her forehead and then press my cheek against it and we hug tightly #but the kiss i have sent u can be whatever platonic expression of love u want it to be. #original #the scent of the envelope is your favorite scent to have on an envelope

[backslashdelta]

DID YOU MEAN PLATONIC SOULMATES I'M BAWLING. YES I DID MEAN THAT THANK YOU. Also I got sent this and I was feeling things and then I was like "wait BELLA MADE THIS" and then I felt more things because you're awesome and I miss you. anyway. it's after nine which is basically 3am for me these days that's why I'm being like this but also everything I've said is accurate

STOP HI I WANNA CRY THIS MADE ME SO HAPPY I MISS YOU TOO I'M SO GLAD I HAVE ANONS ENABLED RIGHT NOW SO YOU COULD SEND ME THIS

I saw the tags that that was gonna be sent to you and I was super excited you'd get to see it and I often think about you when I think about Kelliott because I know you have an appreciation for them 💙

Anyway thank you sooooo much you're also awesome and I miss you and you just brightened my day so much. I hope you and your family are doing well!!

#genuinely crying over this ngl it's so nice to hear from you #meanwhile everyone reading is like 'wtf they didn't say who they are how do you know' #besties how could I NOT know who this is cmon on #I'm sad you're gone but at least the important stuff still gets to you 😌 #feel free to stop by anytime and say hi!! but also I hope youre enjoying all the time you get back from not living here lolol #not that you have much free time I'm sure haha but you know what I mean #anyway I'm uhhhh gonna stop now before I make a fool of myself #love you and hope you're doing well <3 #ask #mine #anonymous #but actually: #coffeeorderwrites #god I miss using that tag 😭

[medicinemane]

I just think that the main barrier to being good at a lot of different things isn't about that you couldn't be good at it, it's about time, and it's about affording equipment and materials

It's gonna be a lot harder to find the time for even one hobby if you're working full time, and make no mistake, there's a real problem of getting what you need to actually work on stuff

#that's why if I ever did make videos about carving; I think I'd try to stick to just my knife and my gouge; cause that's 90% of what I use #one carving knife and a medium sized flat gouge will do a lot for you; I like my skew and such; but those two are what I need #I even have a feeling you could get by with an exacto (not nearly as good; but the point would be budget) #not sure what you'd use for the gouge #but if I did do videos I might look into it; would be kind of nice to be able to say 'it's not what I'd do; but he's a broke technique' #like... part of why I would only want to put out free stuff and no like... paid courses (which are fine) #is cause I'm used to being broke; that's who I want to help out; the poor fools like me #cause even people I like with woodworking on youtube who are about doing it on a budget... they still say to drop a fair bit of mint on it #and that's more for furniture making; but... love to do that some day too #and you know how I talk about stuff you know making it easier to do other stuff; there's a lot I think I could tackle with my knife #like... I'd like to once again kind of challenge myself if I did get into that #like what can I make with a dirt cheap saw; an exacto; and whatever I find for a gouge #how cheap can I make this to do? #And can I make it something they can do even if they don't have space? #like can I make it so they could do it over carpet if need be so long as they vacuum? #how unideal can I make things and still have it work? cause I think a lot of us are in very unideal circumstances #and to an extent who I most want to teach are the people who are like I was; in many ways still am #no really money making skills; trouble working for whatever reason; just kind of screwed #and I want to be able to say 'I can't promise you this'll work; but I've made it simple enough maybe you can try it' #'and I'm not saying you'll make money; but at least it's something; and at least it might be fun' #like... I can't recommend woodburing; that kit cost at least $100; think more like $200 #that's not cash people have just lying around #I get that even asking to spend like... $5 on a saw; $5 on a blade; $5 on a gouge; and $5 on wood... even if I got it that cheap #I get that sometimes $20 is a big ask #I want to be able to say 'I'm not telling you it'll be your masterpiece; or you might not want to upgrade some of this stuff' #'but here's how you can go to some damn mega corp hardware store and come out with enough stuff to do this with little cash' #hard enough to get started on stuff; I want to lower the barrier to entry to as close to zero as I can #course... that means me getting more of my shit together; mean me building furniture and stuff #can carve at this point of course; though haven't in some time cause gotta get that commission out #not saying I make amazing stuff either; or that I know if I can teach at all

[musicrunsthroughmysoul]

In an unexpected turn of events (as in, I did the thing), he accepted my friend request. And I still have no idea what to say to him. 😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅

#crystal visions of lilies in the valley #one thing's for sure I'm not gonna treat him like he's the same person I knew and loved so many years ago now. #I think it's wisest for me to treat him like someone new; someone I've never met and known before. #I think that'll help me...prevent myself from making a fool of myself. I guess? I dunno. it's the best idea I've got though.

[anidealistatbestburntoutatworst]

asheiji and the time they went to cape cod + garden song by phoebe bridgers = me crying on the floor thinking of them

#asheiji #i’ve been spelling the ship name wrong this whole time and had to google it and make sure i didn’t make a fool of myself #banana fish #garden song #phoebe bridgers #music is my coping mechanism #music is my coping mechanism and my spotify wrapped must atone for my sins #banana fish ash #banana fish eiji #i love them so much *sobs* #they’re really important to me #god i love them

[landofgay]

I'm gonna wait til the end of the month and then apply for that full time gig

#i need money 🥲 #my bf convinced me cause my only two hangups were that his ex works up there (but whatecer) #and that full time would mean less time with him. but hw already works a lot anyways and itd be nice to have my owj damn money!!! #and anyways he'll have his own place in the next few months. ill say 6 months to give it a wide estimate but itll be less #so im not saying im gonna. move right in with him. but like i will be practically moved in i am sure. #i mean we said ily a few weeks into dating of course we would move in after a few months 🥴❤️❤️❤️ #i love how fast/slow it is #fast to say ily fast to fall in love in general. but sooo slow to kiss so slow to have sex so slow to get together at all!!! #i cannot believe i stared at him every day for a year trying to convince myself i didnt likw him!!!!!! FOOL!!!!!!! #gosh and we make each other so happy!!!! in ways we never thought we could be!!!!!!!!!!! #i trust him so much so quickly!!!!!! i never thought i could trust someone like that again!!! let alone so FAST