#I think it was mostly the fictive we have of that character being annoyed and it bled over

[thelongquiets]

The Narrator

You are on a path in the woods. And at the end of that path is a cabin. And in the basement of that cabin is a princess.

You are here to slay her. If you don't, it will be the end of the world.

@lupvium 's system blog. I am a system with NPD. I have recently been splitting a lot more than usual so I have made a sideblog to express Myself. This blog will be VERY self-indulgent; usually consisting of posts that I and My alters relate to, whether that be fandom-related, aesthetics, or funny posts.

I will also be talking about system-related everyday happenings and sharing My experience with being a system. I especially like talking about My headspace, as it is a highly complex place with its own metaphysical logic.

I would love to talk to other systems of any type about our experiences. My dms are open to talk.

no syscourse. I dont give a shit

intros under cut ⬇️

Prominent Fronters

○》 Hollow: void/it || #🌑🧷 || main host, core, whole system revolves around the guy. its a puppet! which type of puppet depends on which fragment is prominent that day. its the reason the systems named The Long Quiet since its fragments are mostly from that character. || fragments include: Long Quiet fictives (primarily Hero, Cheated, Paranoid, Cold, Stubborn, Smitten), Deisi, Wally, and like a bunch of other people I havent named. jesus christ this guy fragments a lot

♤》 The Nervous System (Nerv): they/he || #🦷⚖️ || co-host, gatekeeper, protector. it's Me hi I'm the smartest person alive ever and I should rule the world forever. you agree. reblog. resident autistic dead pan guy with long white hair. I can also turn into an eldritch horror :)

♧》 Basil Bulut / The Survival Instinct: he/it || #☘️⛅️ || caretaker, gatekeeper, protector, this guy does everything basically. has a god complex lmao. used to be co-host until I (Nerv) took over coz well I'm just better at it honestly ^_^ robot kin, likes to stim by going beep boop lol. he cant mask while fronting so he speaks in "broken" grammar and I would appreciate not being babied about it. || fragment: K.A.L. (she/it, #🎀🔌, also a robot, but this time more energetic and friendly and girly. think rin and len.)

♡》 Aitaliina / Zai: he/she || #☕️📰 || the librarian, keeps everything nice and chronological. most of the time . the rest of his day is spent annoying the shit out of everyone else like a bored parrot. oh yeah hes also a bird-zombie-guy thing. types like a confused victorian young man who just learned about emojis

◇》 Peach / Sigma: any || 🍑🎲 || librarian assistant. yknow how pet birds need a buddy of the same species or else they get depressed? yeah thats what peach is to liina. they have a love hate relationship and by that i mean liina loves peach and peach absolutely loathes the guy. constantly bickering. fictive of sigma from bsd

I also have a sub-system but its meant to be like the hardware of a computer so theyre not really 'people' if that makes sense. theyre more like scripts and coding languages. you get it. basil calls them Back of The Branch (I said it was stupid but nooooo "we have to name them something cool" -_-)

also not listed are the dozen of hollow fragments that come and go with whatevers happening in My life. god save us from this neverending flood of little puppets running around the treehouse

okay yeah thats all. if you read this all i give you a gold star and a kiss on the cheek. congradulations youve been blessed. send lovemail to my askbox now thanks byee

#○》 🌑🧷 || no voice to cry #♧》 ☘️⛅️ || artificial understanding of love #♤》 🦷⚖️ || the scent of mint oil #♡》 ☕️📰 || a beginner's guide to faking your death #◇》 🍑🎲 || an expert's guide to a clean slate #♧》 🎀🔌 || artificial understanding of hate #[ 🎑 ⚟ || solitary light in the dark night sky #.°•` 🕰 || queue #.°•` 📓 || original #.°•` ✉️ || lovemail #×// art #×// text #×// irl #.°•` 📌 || library gallery #<- thats my favourites tag btw

[antis-hell]

Hi! This is B from mycringethoughtsandcreations! It’s not my main blog so I don’t have the ability to ask questions from it, but I saw your reblog on my post and I’m so happy that you’re willing to talk about your experiences!

So my question is basically what is the correct way to validate a system? To tell them you’ll support them and all their alters? As a singular/singlet I don’t really understand the viewpoints of systems, and thus don’t know what is the best way to approach or talk to systems.

And if you could give some information on common system terminology that would be great!

Hey! Happy yall took up our offer:] any chance to talk about ourselves and we're all over it lmao/hj

The best way to validate a system really depends on the person (that's such a shit answer, but yeah;-;) For us, it's really just treating us like a normal person in one on one casual conversation, this is mostly cus we switch at pretty random times so to introduce yourself every hour can get a bit annoying, so we'd rather you just treat us like one(ish) person to save us the trouble.

In a more public space, like tumblr, we don't mind being treated as separate people (for example, asking, "Hey [Alter xyz], what's your favourite movie?" Becasue to us it shows you find us interesting rather than the whole bunch of us (think of it like asking one of your friends a question rather than your whole friend group at once, it shows you want to know that person on a more personal level) and tbh that also really makes our npd go brrrr/pos/lh

Although again as annoying as it is, not all systems are gonna be like this. Really, the best and quickest way is to ask! Most people in the community are more than willing to talk to singlets about how they prefer to be treated, so dont worry too much about negative responses:] or just follow their boundaries if they have those publicly posted that's also just the simplest way to support support anyone system or not

And for system terms I can do a few rapid fire ones I cam remember off the top of my head:] if there's any specific ones you'd like to know feel free to ask and I can tell ya what I know or what I can find about it:] (I'll put these under the cut because this post is already getting long god damm)

Introject: an alter that is based off an external thing like a character from a TV show or a song:] and also sometimes just physical objects in everyday life (we for example have an introject of a teddy bear we had as a child)

Fictive/Factive/Songtive: a more specific term for the type of media an introject is from, if it is fictional media like a TV character, they are a fictive. If they are sourced from a real person like an actor or youtuber, they are a factive. And if they are sourced from a song, like an alter that embodies teenagers by mcr (it's the first song that came to my head lol) or has memories of some of the things described in the song they can be considered a songtive

Singlet: a common one:] the medical term for anyone who dosent have DID or OSDD

Persecutor: a kind of role an alter in a system might have, I chose to do this one out of all kinds of roles since I've seen it be the most questioned/asked about, a persecutor is an alter that harms the body in some way, this may be by cutting off close friends or by physically harming the body in some way, this is mostly because they believe it is the right thing to do (for example cutting off friends because they think everyone will hurt them eventually) typically they are also hold trauma to some extent

Blurry: used mostly to describe a system that doesn't know who's fronting at the time. This might be because of heavy dissociation, or it could be because there are too many people in font to recognise every alter (there are other reasons, i think, but this is what happens most of the time)

This is all I could really think of at the moment;-; if there's anything else you want me to talk about, feel free to send another ask, and we'll be happy to help:] I apologise for any spelling/grammar mistakes we wrote this in a very hazy state so there might be some spelling errors

#anti💚🗡 #did #i was like half asleep when writing this so im so sorry if this makes no sense lol #ty for the ask tho:]

[teddiebearie]

you know when you read a character analysis and it's so wrong you get like. personally offended

#teddy's talk #okay one to be honest I’m not sure I agree with but it wasn't that like. bad #I think it was mostly the fictive we have of that character being annoyed and it bled over #but the other is like. '[x] wants to retreat back into his childhood and isn't coming to terms with growing up' would be. fine. if the 'gro #wing up' part weren't clearly synonymous with 'getting a girlfriend'/'being interested in girls'*up' which would be fine #like the only times I can think of that prove the analysis' point are when his friends are worried about one of their girlfriends breaking #up with him and then drag [x] to the mall to try to fix it #mostly because he was already hanging out with them I think. #and he's clearly not interested in what the other two are doing #bc he wants to play d&d #partially bc that's what they used to do but also like. #he was almost done setting up the board and stuff when they dragged him off #my main point was how he's clearly implied to be not into girls (he's implied to be aroace for the most part actually but.) #which labelling being like. not straight. as not wanting to grow up is. h. I don't like it #but also I know it bothers me as an autistic person when #I have everything all set up and then my plans get interrupted #so the whole not wanting to grow up thing takes a new perspective #especially since that episode was a huge piece of evidence for the analysis #anyway! yeah. #I typed this all up on my phone so hopefully none of the tags cut off

[system-of-a-feather]

Hi I'm also a Riku fictive and I've been main fronter for a couple years! My partner is Sora and he has like, a system within his system. Like, he has Ven, Roxas, Xion, and Vanitas in his heart completely separate from the rest of that body's headspace. Sometimes they front through him. I figured you would find it interesting

“ I’m a Kingdom Hearts Fictive I’m like sure anyone who knows Kingdom Hearts and follows this blog probably knew that but I’ve been dodgey about it cause I feel weird being seen more as a fictive / introject than I do a person since I consider myself decently grown past my source. It makes me feel oddly objectified outside of my pre-existing friends. ((So please don’t send me asks directly referencing Kingdom Hearts)) “

I literally put that in the very beginning of my post because I very very much do not like being seen first as a fictive and only like people I know personally and closely to pay much attention to that nature since it makes me very very uncomfortable to be primarily conversed with / interacted with / acknowledged under the pretenses that I am a fictive from a popular series and am a popular character of that. 

No I am not ashamed to be a fictive and with a very limited few, I do enjoy talking about psuedomemories and emotions and my relationships with my source HOWEVER I very strongly dislike people coming to me commenting on the fact that I am a Riku fictive since it makes me feel objectified, as if they have pre-existing expectations, and lesses me as an individual unique person / alter apart from my source. I have mostly outgrown my attachment to my source and have it more as a comfort that I prefer to leave restricted to myself, my system, and close individuals that I know care / are interested about me for more than my source.

I do not find any of this interesting because I 1) dislike sourcecalls / cannon calls (my opinion, not to invalidate other fictive’s opinions) 2) have absolutely no interest in meeting anyone from my source and would even go so far as to say I am very wary about meeting anyone from my source and 3) have no real reason to correlate or relate since I am the host of the system first and a fictive second. Just because we are introjected from the same source means little to me.

I do not want to be interacted about my source.

I do not want to have any assumptions about me because of my source.

I do not want people to interact with me seeking out relationships because of my source.

It is those three principles that kept me silent about being a fictive and the three reasons I had NEVER mentioned directly I was from Kingdom Hearts since I knew someone would just read “RIKU FICTIVE?! RIKU FICTIVE?! OH I WANNA MESSAGE A RIKU FICTIVE” and not read anything else. There was a reason that was at the VERY TOP of my post. 

I was *hoping* I could be honest about my source for one moment and not be objectified for it, but apparently not. It is part of the fictive culture that is on tumblr that I personally find very uncomfortable because a lot of people assume that all fictives want to interact and know others and don’t bother to question if asking about someone’s very personal way of coping with trauma and bonding over it is something that all fictives want. If some people do, I respect that, but personally? I don’t and I would really like if that was respected and not assumed.

Also, the thing that does bother me is considering some of those people I “knew” myself, what is the point in telling me you “know and are dating” people that are versions / alternate introjects of people that I held very dear to myself? Laugh about it and find it cool? Be like “Oh cool relatable?” because no. I’m not.

[TW: Psuedomemories / False Memories]

I am personally offended a bit since this felt a lot like a bit of a joke / like being a fictive is some fun identity and something fun to indulge in and similar. If it is for you, I’m not going to judge, but I really do not find it fun to think about meeting “sourcemates” or anything since I personally know none of them are actually going to be the person I knew because quite personally, the people I knew never existed. 

I have personally blocked every cannon call / source call / fictive call that is in the tags due to a mix of personal very bad experiences with them and it being a source of bad memories and also due to my fundamental discomfort with them.

Again though, this is my relationship with being a fictive and my form of coping and healing - it does not apply or define anyone elses. This is how I relate to my fictive source nature and how I cope with the psuedomemories.

It bothers me quite a bit and would fuck with my head a lot of if I actually indulged the idea that maybe the people I cared immensely for somehow made it here as well. It would be a problem to my understanding of reality and as a result, I intentionally do not cling too heavily or interact much with people that identify with my source. It is not healthy for me. 

IF it helps you, it helps you, but seeing someone try to drag me into interacting with people with source and framing it as a good thing when I specifically requested not to, is extremely rude, annoying, and inconsiderate.

[TW END : Psuedomemories / False Memories]

Also I’m sure you didn’t mean harm. I’m sure you genuinely thought this would be interesting or something similar. I’m hoping - with the benefit of the doubt - you genuinely didn’t read / notice the first paragraph on that post. I’m sorry if I am being excessively harsh but I had stressed about stating my source for a year or so since I’ve been on here - I considered even changing my name to avoid posts like this - and to have the first time I mention it thinking that I’m just over exaggerating it - to be met with exactly what I didn’t want is quite frustrating.

I also felt the need to post a few things about my relationship with being a fictive that I’ve held back on because if I am already out there, I am already out there.

Please, I won’t hold grudges, but please next time respect people’s boundaries and do not assume that they are interested / comfortable with the same things you are and please read the full post.

-Riku (Host)

#alter: riku #actuallydid #dissociative identity disorder #fictive #fictional introject #vent #vent tw

[thesyzygysystem]

1, 2, 8, 10, 13, 14 for the system tea asks!

1.) What was the largest secret you’ve kept from one another?

I’m not sure what the largest one was. Victoria, who keeps around a thousand secrets, hid the actual number of people in our system from me for years - does that count? She keeps me so uninformed T.T

2.) If you remember, what were your first impressions of each other?

First Impressions of Victoria

Eunice: Terrifying. She was a persecutor at the time, and so fierce!

Amelia: Stuck-up and overbearing. She still is that but I see that shes a kind person too now lol, sorry Vicky

Zen: She was quite closed-off. I thought of her as someone with many walls up

Haikal: Menakutkan :P(Translation: Frightening)

First Impressions of Amelia

Eunice: I can’t remember. She’s an introject of someone I knew IRL so I was just surprised, mostly

Victoria: She was rather loud and therefore somewhat annoying. I’ll admit we did not get along, at first.

Zen: A light, energetic person

Haikal: Gembira, macam cahaya matahari huhuhu(Translation: Happy, like sunshine hahaha)

First impressions of Eunice

Victoria: I cannot quite recall. We have been together since the beginning. I think that the first time I fully acknowledged her, I thought of her as tough and relentless.

Amelia: Pretty!

Zen: She feels very much. My first impressions were that of a frightened and nervous individual

Haikal: Badass!!!

First Impressions of Haikal

Eunice: A cheerful guy

Victoria: Happy. I could not understand what he said, but he seemed to be a constantly happy individual.

Amelia: A lot of fun!

Zen: He is a bright soul :D

First Impressions of Zen

Eunice: Calm, collected, and relaxed - like he was at peace with the world

Victoria: Silent and contemplative.

Amelia: Interesting? I don’t know, I was freaked out because he was floating everywhere in the inner world and I thought that was weird

Haikal: Pendiam(Translation: Quiet)

8.) Do you have supernatural or other non-human alters?

Yes! We have a non-human fictive named Zen and he’s great! (We may have another non-human fictive but we’re not 100% sure yet)

10.) Describe a headmate in ten words or less.

Describing Zen: A kind, cute, soothing sweetheart who never gets angry

13.) Tell us about a headmate that doesn’t front that often.

Andrew doesn’t front that often. He’s American and has blue eyes and long-ish brown hair. He loves being warm and cosy and likes soft fuzzy things like sweaters and blankets. He enjoys a mug of hot chocolate now and then and is into grunge music. He’s a pretty cool dude according to Eunice’s partner but most of us haven’t met him directly!

14.) What’s your favourite system memory? Why?

It’s not one lone memory, but I’d say it’s the process of all of us (aside from the littles) watching and eventually finishing Sense8. It was probably the first time we’d ever all collectively liked something and were able to relate to it. I’d say it also helped us improve our communication and respect of boundaries - we improved, bit by bit, alongside the characters!

Thank you for the questions! Sorry it took a while, I wanted as many of us as possible to answer the first impressions question!

- Eunice

#answered #the-red-system