#I think it's safe to assume Domi was already long used to her family treating her the way we've come to know

[panvani]

Wrt Domi personifying her self destructive impulses as her child self prior to Louis’s death there are a lot of aspects to this including the gendered aspect where prior to Louis’s death she did not crossdress or seek female attention or (in Japanese) refer to herself with male pronouns and the obvious implications of “the part of me that is gender conforming is the part of me that wants me to die”

#But in complete honesty I think this is only incidental and what Mochizuki was actually going for was in relation #To Dominique's emotional/verbal abuse by her family and when exactly Domi was declared a 'failure' #While the youngest we're directly shown Domi being abused is in the days following Louis's death #It's strongly implied this was a regular occurrence long before that #And based on the way her siblings talk about her father (and the real historical figure their father was based on) #It's likely the abuse she's enduring is intergenerational #I can't imagine Veronica would out of the blue start saying the things she said to Domi just after Louis died #And based on how afraid Domi seemed to ask the very reasonable request of ''I would like to make sure my best friend is safe'' #''Before I go dozens of miles away from him especially since my brother just died horribly'' #+ the implications of her crying and saying she wishes she could stay in Averoigne with Louis/Noé while the 3 were very young #I think it's safe to assume Domi was already long used to her family treating her the way we've come to know #If I had to guess Domi choosing to represent her tendencies for self harm in the way she did had most to do with the time #When she was first declared a disappointment to her family #We still don't know what that's about #But it's def gonna come up eventually #logxx #logam #vnc spoilers #vnc 53 spoilers #suicide ment #self harm ment