#I think my thinkpg is that I don't feel the effects of the shit that goes on in my life straightaway.

[yourethechosenone]

Ignore me I'm just screaming in to the void bc it's 4am and my life is failing apart

#things just suck. #I had plans for my life and they have just been crumbling more and more this year. #I don't feel like I am capable of doing anything anymore #I also just hate that I'm saying all this and it's mainly bc of my studies #LIKE your grades shouldn't matter so much #But they do for me #if I domt do this #I have no idea what I'll do with my life #I haven't really achieved anything #plus with my grades #I have to achieve a certain GPA or I just can't go on the one vv specific pathway to the career I have always wanted #this is vv depressing and a vv not happy thought but #sometimes I think I'm too broken or mentally unstable to go into the career I want #LIKE how the fuck are people supposed to depend on me if I can't even do anything I set my mind to #I don't know where to go from here #I think my thinkpg is that I don't feel the effects of the shit that goes on in my life straightaway. #LIKE I failed 3 classes this year.... I told my myself that this happens and it's okay but I literally think about the whole situation #and now it's hitting me #dhjshdjdhf #fuck idk what I'm even saying #it's probably vv negative and not good to think #Idk #personal #I will delete soon