#I took one good listen at it and said

[corallapis]

We're opening up a rift in the Braccatolian space. Won't see us coming. Kind of scary. Then stop. Once the Empire is established, and there's a new Gallifrey in the heavens, maybe then it stops... the drumming, the never ending drumbeat. Ever since I was a child, I looked into the Vortex — that's when it chose me. The drumming, the call to war. Can't you hear it?

#tenth doctor #simm!master #doctor x master #dwedit #dw #* #i was gonna strategically crop lil guy out of that 3rd gif but you know what? i'm not a coward. #woe lil guy and his tiny custom-made pinstripe suit be upon ye #ANYWAY. why did the master say ''good'' here. hello. i'm rattling the bars of my fuckign cage why did he say that #is he glad the doctor is spared from it?????? #also the doctor like. not listening. at all. not even trying to listen apparently #since all it took was one lil forced contact in eot #still giving him an absolute for an answer. ''it's only you.'' #all the shit ten says throughout this oh we're the only ones left it's the two of us blah blah blah. but where it counts? IT'S ONLY YOU. #see obv i'm master biased but all this shit makes me crazy abt the stuff 12 said to missy. ''you never learned to hear the music'' #bro you NEVER LISTENED to him. you're still not listening to her!!!!! #araghghagh. ok.

[spectrumgarden]

I keep thinking about how no one seems to think about nuance when it comes to like, the concept of "autistic traits / symptoms" and discussing them, and how that is intertwined with the push to not consider it a disability. And its complex to discuss, but here's my convoluted thoughts. I know it's long but I hope people will take the time to read it.

There are in fact people who do fit some commonly associated with autism traits that are not impaired by them. Let's make up a guy, for a second:

They like routine and repetition a lot but easily handle change in them. For example they wear the same set of clothes for years with no desire to ever branch out, but if you made them wear something else they wouldnt really be bothered by it as long as they dont think it's super ugly, etc. They like to watch the same movies over and over but happily agree to watch other things with their friends when spending time together, and are engaged and interested in those movies. Etc. They speak very formally or choose "complicated" words for things that could be expressed easier. They however do not face problems with communication beyond annoyance of others because they're able to rephrase things easily to be understood, and they also have a normal back and forth in conversations and initiate conversations normally. They sometimes engage in subtle self stimulating behaviors and recognize the desire to do so during boring or stress inducing times (which pretty much everyone does, btw). They dislike loud environments but do not respond with melt- or shutdowns or any other "severe" reactions, and while for example preferring to go to a museum over a club, they easily go through their daily life in busy areas like city centers, shops or cultural events like parades without issues beyond like, mild annoyance and no desire to stay for longer than necessary. They have strong interests in seemingly random topics and spend quite some time researching or engaging with those, but they do not view the world through the lense of said interest, they do not neglect caring for themselves or fulfilling academic or professional responsibilities because they are so engrossed in their interests, they are easily able to hold conversations about other topics. I could go on.

This person would not be diagnosed with autism by any doctor who pays attention to the impairment clause of the diagnosis. They would probably be told "you're subclinical / you do not meet enough criteria / ..." While his person would probably relate quite a bit to (parts of) descriptions of (level 1 and / or low support needs and / or high masking) autism. And this is an imaginary person I made up, but these people obviously exist (and as a side note, are probably what people refer to when they talk about "everyone being a little autistic" etc)

And this person being told they're not autistic might be upset. Because clearly, they have so many autistic traits. They relate to so many videos! But the thing is! There is no impairment! The one thing that connects all of the symptoms related to autism to the actual diagnosis. This does not mean they do not in fact relate to the autistic experience. This does not mean these parts of their life or personality are fake / non existent / not important to who they are and how they experience things. But it is important to differentiate. If they consider themselves autistic, if the world considers them autistic, it waters down the definition to a point of being categorically useless from a medical standpoint, from a standpoint of figuring out who needs support and in what ways. Who needs (early) intervention, who needs extra support in school or at work or at home or in public.

And like. Humanity at large will probably always want to shove themselves into random categories. "Which character are you like?" "What is your personality style?" "What is your star sign?" or "which sports team do you support", and countless more come to mind. I dont think this imaginary person is wrong or silly for wanting to find a category of people they are like, or recognizing this similarity with some autistic people. I wouldnt even mind if they made up a non-clinical category / group of people who relate to autistic experiences without the impairment. It would get the point across that it is a group of people with shared experiences, but it is not the same as autism.

However autism is increasingly treated like something thats just a personality type without impairment, by people online and offline. And when they go "this is an autism symptom" without nuance, without looking at the need for impairment, or even differential diagnosis, it spreads that attitude. "Liking to eat the same foods is an autistic trait"... or is it normal to have food preferences to a degree if it does not cause you stress to eat new foods, if you are capable of eating other food if hungry and presented with them and not the food you prefer? Or is this person anorexic and their mind has created categories of "allowed to eat" and "not allowed to eat" based on arbitrary categories relating to their fear of weight gain? "Only eating with small spoons at home is a common autistic trait"... or is it a harmless preference as long as you are still able to eat food outside a strict routine set up with zero possible deviations? Or is it a person with OCD and eating with small spoons is a compulsive behavior for some sort of intrusive thoughts?

I could go on forever. But in the end, these short sentences are all the same. They are, at the same time: autistic experiences and allistic experiences, because they are so non specific. They are watered down and any additional information is removed.

autism is about a specific combination of experiences that impair you. That's literally all it is. It does not automatically turn us into a category of "other" that is fully not possible to relate to, because we are human too. And some of it will be relatable to people that are not autistic!

And there is value in discussions of experiences of autistic people that go beyond the impairment, as long as we do not forget about it, or treat it as secondary instead of the defining factor. I dont mind if autistic people bond over something they're not impaired by, that they see as a common experience, for example not easily going along with authority. Being creative. Preferring the small spoon (without being impaired by it while having other impairments), whatever, and call those common autistic experiences. But those are not the pillars of what make up autism and solely relating to them should not be your reason for calling yourself autistic. Neither should relating to commonly impairing symptoms without being impaired by your version of them. The impairments resulting from abnormal development are what makes someone autistic.

There needs to be more nuance, detail, when discussing autism symptoms. And the push to, at the very least, expand autism into an area of experiences that do not cause impairment of any kind, or worse claim it never caused impairment, need to stop. It does not help anyone.

I genuinely think part of the whole "everyone is autistic these days" crowd who likes to go after people and invalidate them has picked up on some of this, but they lack the skills to criticize it for what it actually is and / or they want there to be a simple solution, which is that everyone who calls themselves autistic online who does not fit their very stereotypical view is faking. They are wrong of course. But I dont think this comes out of nowhere. There is something to criticize about how autism is treated in many circles, especially among younger people.

I'm really not sure how to end this post because I like to come to some conclusions on my long posts but just. Uhm. The way some people treat "autistic traits" as completely unrelated to the impairment they cause while staying exclusively autistic traits is wrong. The way people try to redefine autism is harmful and in the end not needed because they could simply invent other words for that experience.

#actually autistic #autistic adult #autistic community #actually disabled #i feel like im poking a sleeping bear with this one. poking a hornets nest. whatever #but yeah it needs to be said i think. and i have the privilege of my “smart sounding” speech being more likely to be listened 2 so. *shrugs #long post #(very long... oops. i think this is the longest thing i ever wrote on here) #also this took me. i believe over 2 hours to write! im not good at this actually! i moved 80% of these paragraphs around multiple times - #- deleted entire paragraphs. merged them. rephrased things again and again and again #its exhausting #because when i think about this i can think through this entire concept in a couple minutes but trying to get it across takes hours ://

[gideonisms]

See I think if I'd been born a guy I wouldn't be this pathologically avoidant trying to plan my career because there are plenty of situations you can find as a cis man where you just Do Tasks in awkward silence and you can get to those as a woman but you have to go through the rings of hell socializing first and then besides, a lot of those jobs already have so many men that you stand out when the whole point was you Don't want to do that

#you gotta be god's strongest soldier to survive this shit and i am not! i am god's weakest most pathetic soldier! #i survived five years of customer service crying weekly and getting harassed and being a baby about it #when i got promoted no one would listen to me and it made me constantly anxious and then so tired it took me a year to be able to #think about having a job as something remotely positive and stop crying about it #idk how other women are doing this shit a guy treats me like his sexy servant and i feel BAD and upset for years #and think of what he said 7 years later and they only touched me on the shoulder and made comments other people go through worse! #but i am not strong or determined i just want to go through my life in peace and stop talking to people altogether #it wasn't just guys who treated me badly older women made fun of me and called me lazy and stupid #tutoring was fine but i felt like i was putting on that same performance and at that point it all felt so awful i just. didn't want to #i can see no way out of talking to people for the rest of my life and it gets me down sometimes #i know i get to come home but even then i will probably need people to live with #i basically only like my family and close friends talking to me sometimes even that is hard #sometimes it's way easier to type and feels less awful #i think i have to just keep on keeping on until i can finally get good enough to freelance edit and code that's the only thing i can think #of doing that doesn't make me cry #emails are fine they suck but i don't have to control my face and tone so.

[aamezish]

<3

#my besties here at college #when i came in we used to talk about stuff and she'd get surprised and ask me how i notice such small things #and have detailed description of everything #and always made jokes on me being deep analyzer and taking things too seriously #it was fun mostly but one time she made it in front of bcg that was when i began to have crush on him #i got so defensive i actually said not my fault you view life so blantly and superficially #how can you not see the beauty that comes in patterns that must feel awful being that oblivious almost disrespectful to nature #and i said it ofc in the funny manner and that may sound really rude but she took it in a positive way #so she began taking interest in everything and started to try to discuss and know my opinions about everything #and i loved that there was someone listening so fascinately like a kid #simultaneously she uses a lot of shuddh hindi vocab not even adults speak like that #and it was just weird to me to listen them in normal conversations #but since ive been good at hindi literature and have a good vocab i tried it too #used to feel so awkward at first almost like the words took too much effort to come out of mouth #because obviously i grew to learn the internet slangs and their medium is english so my mode of expression in hindi was #but now she surprises me with talking about things and noticing what escapes my attention #and i have to mock her say its not that deep #and i while speaking use too many shudh hindi words and then when she can't find a word i think before and give synonyms as well #and we both laugh #ive said this before ig

[alagaisia]

I’m reminded of that post about how goths and people who wear only lots of pink are actually the same because “wearing only one color” is a specific choice in opposition to just looking Normal

I’m flying to a friend’s wedding today, and I recently acquired from my neighborhood free page a very pretty vintage suitcase in like a brocade upholstery texture in all of my good colors, so of course I needed a coordinated airport outfit à la Midge Maisel. You guys don’t know me, but I usually dress very put together, in what my sister calls Outfits, with a capital O to distinguish it from just wearing clothes. And since getting a full time job I’ve been slowly adding to my collection of vintage and 50’s-vibes clothes, because I just really like that aesthetic (my bridesmaid dress for the wedding is a vintage tea dress I got from Etsy. The fabric is in great condition but I had to reinforce pretty much every seam with my sewing machine, because the structural integrity of the original thread was breaking down, so that was an interesting learning experience).

All of which is to say that I Dressed Up for the airport in a vintage-y outfit that coordinates perfectly with some of the colors of my suitcase, and my hair is curled, and I have a vintage leather purse that my grandma gave me that matches her watch that I’m wearing and the shoes she bought me last summer at the same vintage store that my skirt came from, and a teenage-ish girl with whatever you call the 2023 teenage equivalent of emo/punk vibes, like the dark maroon mullet and not a lot of makeup and dark comfy clothes but like, very on purpose, told me I look cool when I walked past on the way to security

And like, she Gets It! We have different fashion goals but I think we put a similar degree of intention into the way we look compared to just wearing regular clothes. Which is cool! It’s validating. Not that I really need validation, but it’s always nice to get compliments, of course. And the way I dress is really not terribly distinctive most of the time, other than being Outfits and a little dressier than maybe the norm is, like I think most people who see me one time in passing would see that I look Nice but not necessarily see it as a cultivated Look. But punk mullet girl gets it.

#struggled with not sounding *too* pretentious here #I don’t feel pretentious but I have a hard time talking about like. specific choices and things in any detail #like to my friends I just said what happened with a picture of my outfit and was like ‘and she gets it!’ and they were like ‘yeah!’ #but to strangers I have to go into much more detail to get the point across #even though really it’s not like I’m putting all of that into it every day I just get up and go ‘i want to look nice today’ #in accordance with my personal fashion preferences #and then having to explain those preferences like ‘my name is alagaisia midge maisel darkness way and I’m wearing vintage whatever’ #i do look so cute though #i got these shoes last summer and then lost the heel cap off of one of them the very first time i wore them #finally took them in to have them fixed last week so I could wear them to the wedding #needed a deadline so that I would actually get around to it #i hate flying it’s really a testament of how much I love my friend that I’m flying #instead of driving ten hours to Nebraska #but it made more sense and to make sure i won’t be late or run into car trouble or anything #and I’ll stay looking nice right away instead of getting gross and sweaty in the car or having to change for bachelorette activities #i only know the bride so I’m definitely going to make a very specific impression on all of these strangers lol #i joked with my dad about adopting a trans Atlantic accent for the whole weekend just for shits and giggles #turns out you cannot do it over the top. have you ever listened to JFK’s ‘we choose to go to the moon’ speech #it’s very silly sounding #we had a good time saying things one might say at a bachelorette party in a goofy voice #‘we cho~ose to ohdah thihs maiule strippah… ahnd the othah things.. nawt becahse it is easyh.. #but becawhse he is hahd’ #highly recommend #mine #personal

[arcaneyouth]

being a singlet who is very supportive of systems and has been for a long time makes some experiences really wild because like. ok so i experienced semi good rep of DID when i was very young. i read a brand new story by one of my favorite authors about a character with DID. the story started with the author saying it was likely not perfect representation and it's very important to listen to people with DID and not let his story overtake theirs. i had asked my mom about it and she said this was a real thing people experienced, but it probably wasn't super accurate in the story because the guy writing it didn't have DID. this was my first experience with DID. my takeaway from it was "oh that's neat! sometimes one person is actually lots of people and that's normal!" and then i moved on.

so like. genuinely growing up and realizing the world is super weird about people with DID was like a brick in the face ALIUSDHALSIUDh what do you mean. what do you mean you think these people are weird. i thought we all agreed they were normal. and i STILL experience that even now knowing more than i did before, i may have only had 1 experience with DID as a kid but that was enough to completely normalize it for me, i don't know how you can't just be normal about systems they are literally just sitting there we all know this (<- we apparently don't all know this)

#something to be said about how even flawed attempts at representation can do good #i don't think the story ever got finished but the one short snippet i had that was done in a respectful light #that was all it took for me. that was it #looking back on it it really wasn't an accurate depiction of DID. not at all. but it was kind #and my mom (who as far as i know doesn't have any kind of personal experience with DID) also told me to be kind #and both of them told me systems were very normal and we should listen and be kind to them #and it was enough that the thought of being unkind was so fucking foreign to teenage me actually learning more about DID and meeting people #who have DID that i was surprised by it #to any systems reading this i know i'm not the only person who was taught to be kind to you #there's space out there for you and people who very earnestly try even if they get it wrong sometimes #people like this author who clearly did the best research he could at the time #and people like my mom who didn't really know a lot but still thought it was important to introduce me to it so i knew to be kind #peace and love and all that

[cardioasscular]

my "brain tumor" (pituitary adenoma) is GONE and I'm out of work for a whole ass 6 weeks!

healing's gonna be rough and it's gonna take a while to see more dramatic changes, but hopefully this is finally the beginning of the end of this bullshit caused by this little fucker.

#fuck cushings this shit sucks #fuck this tumor #crazy how something that's only 6mm (millimeters) big causes so much fucking craziness #and how it took 6 goddamn years for me to finally be referred to vanderbilt #and the endo doc at vandy took one look at me and listened and tested for cushings and whaddya fuckin know #6 years I've been begging my doctors in knox to help me and consider cushings. #less than a year with vandy and they got me diagnosed found the tumor on mri and removed it in 8 months #amazing what happens when you listen to your fucking patients #anyway #julie says shit #my pcp just called 'hey you've been in the hospital? you good?' yeah remember when yall said im just fat and it's just pcos? i told you so! #they owe me a proper apology dance.

[devilsskettle]

whenever i hear a song that i would like if it weren’t for the fact that it was too long, i think about this:

like you can afford to write tangentially if you/your music is already popular and you know that people are going to listen to you no matter what and in fact laud your longer pieces as being genius etc but can you really be releasing 5+ minute long songs without a built-in audience?

#idk. thinking about this because of the new lana album and i think i’d like a lot of these songs better if they were shorter lol #some of these songs drag so much especially when she includes these long sections of like one repeated line over and over again #or like when taylor swift releases the extended version of all too well and everyone freaked out #that’s all good and well but she HAD to release the shorter version first #and she knows she has this huge fanbase that will eat that shit up no matter what she does really #part of it is nostalgia admittedly but i also think the shorter version is just a better song #that song is on the longer side to begin with but 10 minutes???? why #(i did listen to both songs back to back to make sure my opinion was still the same as when the 10 minute version was released & it is lol) #idk! obviously i’m bad at this myself because i write so fucking much to express a simple point but it is more skillful to be able #to say things as effectively and precisely in a more concise way #not saying this ONLY applies to mitski because she’s the one this article is about but she is a good example of it #like being able to express a feeling in just a couple lines that would probably take a less skilled writer like a novel to express #it also reminds me of how my high school latin teacher described how in college he took a class about museum design or something like that #and their first assignment was to write a description of an artifact to tell museum visitors what it was #and every time he submitted a draft the professor would tell him to make it shorter while still communicating the necessary information #until he literally could not make it any shorter than it already was #because you have to assume that people are not gonna read all that! because they won’t unless they have some kind of external motivation to #idk there IS something to be said for including ‘unnecessary’ parts of writing etc obviously there’s nuance #but a lot of the time i think if there isn’t a reason to include something then why include it!

[yellow-yarrow]

its great that we have free healthcare, i would be even grater if it the doctors gave a shit and I didn't have to wait months to have anything done

#just got back from a private doctor i paid 20k huf for one visit im going to be so broke but im tired of feeling sick #and at least he listened to me and took what i said seriously not like my doctor usually does #its good that im moving back to my parents so the rent money i would pay will go to paying for all those tests #:s i mean i'll do what i can for free but it will be still expensive

[vampyrluver]

Cried for the first time at work, mean customers

#.txt #this group of 11 firstly kept lying nd said they were only 9 so they only paid for 9 #not only tht but they chose the smalled room #alao it took like 45 mins to figure put money things bc they insited on getting a discount #after so much back nd forth and TWO calls to my boss (bc she wasnt there) #they didnt get any discount #they all tried paying on their own nd it was so chaotic they only paid for 9 ppl but when i got them in the room there were 11 #in the room i was trying to tell them the rules nd no one was listening to me #this one guy kept saying in a rude nd mocking tone for me to leave the room nd get out #i kept saying i wanted to give the rules nd he kept telling me to get out nd inturpting me #i couldnt give them the rules so i jist left nd closed the door #nd got back to my coworkers nd started crying #after like 20 mins of them being there we had to kick them out bc they started beating each other up nd breaking things #we had to threaten to call the cops for them to leave #they literally destoryed the room #worst group ive ever had the displeasure of meeting #at one point in the money process a guy throws coins on the ground nd makes me pick them us as a rude embarrassment thing idk #i didnt realize thats why he was doing initially but once i did i just droppwd the coins nd told him to pay me #one guy tried to tell me he was a good catholic so he didnt need to pay up fromt nd wpuld pay after bc he would never swindle us #i told him he pays or he leaves

[waugh-bao]

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#going to be entirely honest #I’m 99% sure it’s Steve playing on ‘Angry’ #and I don’t really like it at all #it reminds me a lot of seeing them with him live #he hits heavy and the cymbal work isn’t very complex and it plods rather than swings #which is fine #it’s a legitimate style #but it’s not the stones style #or at least the one that took the band this far (or the one I’m interested in listening to) #oh well #I guess I’ll just wait and see for the rest #and hope Charlie’s on at least 50% of the tracks #as they said initially would be the case #(also going to avoid the music press. everyone knows for near certain this will be the last album. so no-one will pan it. even if it’s not #particularly good. and the iorr assholes are sure to be in raptures over it. b/c they’ll happily lap up anything that perpetuates this band #with not much critical thought about the music or its legacy 20-30 years from now)

[gatheryepens]

The prom committee is literally making me not want to go to prom 🫠

#we had a meeting today and it was terrible #like everyone talking over each other #pure chaos #so we were finalising starters #and I said we should have one cold and one hot option #and like no one said anything #then someone said let’s have one cold and one hot option and I’m like brooo #I just said that #and of course everyone was yeahhhhhhh #and I tried to give a suggestion #and it took me three attempts #because everyone was talking over me and not listening #and I’m like aaaaah #it’s giving immense deja vu #to my house captain days #and my god was that painful #it really annoys me because I have these good suggestions #and no one listens to me and people just poach them lmao #because I’m too quiet and nervous in these kind of settings #like around my friends I’m fine I’m like the loudest one there #but with a group of people that I don’t really know/get along with it’s harder to be a bit more outgoing #there’s also this after party that people are planning at like a club #but I don’t think I’m gonna go cause I dislike 60% of my year group 😭😭😭 #but my friends and I might watch a movie #but I think prom finishes at 11pm so will have to think on that one #gatherbabblesaboutnonsensicalstuff #gatherrambles

[rosicheeks]

What was your favourite band or album through high school and do you still listen to/like it now? 🤔

✨ Galantis ✨

(In XOXO and let me tell you this part always makes me cry)

#this is a good question cause it took me a HOT second to remember who I listened to in high school hahahah #I had to go to Spotify and scroll through my playlists #and then I saw a playlist that said ‘trip’ and I’m like OH FUCK YEAH I went on a road trip to see galantis #XOXO started my fucking obsession #dude you have no clue #I was OBSESSED with that movie #and I still am…. it’s one of my feel good movies 🥰 #it’s also SO trippy #but anyway I found galantis through that movie and then I looked up the rest of their music and I fell in love #I’m not a huge EDM fan tbh and I still don’t fully think of galantis as edm #but there are some parts where it’s electronic dance #but i don’t mind it at all tbh #some of that type of music I actually can’t stand - the beat or melody just gives me a headache #but fuck galantis? #GALANTIS #is a different ballpark I love galantis so much #so to answer your question yes I still listen to them #but definitely not as much as I used to #I feel like their music kinda changed a year or so ago they turned into more of a remixy type (which isn’t bad!! just not my thing) #but some of the galantis songs I grew up with just gives me so much hope #idk the word it gives me ngl #I just listen to it and I feel like life will be ok #I’ll add a few of my fav songs cause I love them so much and now I wanna listen to them #sooooooo much nostalgia 🥰🥰🥰🥰 #omg I’m listening to all of these songs and I can sing them word for word #they’re making me cryyyyyy I wanna go back to when I first found them #I miss high school 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #these songs will always have a place in my heart 🥹 #thank you for asking lovely 🥰 #ask

[thedeadthree]

EVERY SINGLE SONG ON VIKAS PLAYLIST MADE IT INTO MY TOP FIVE SONGS YOURE THE WINNING GIRL MY DEAR

#happy wrapped day! 🤍🕯 #THIS MEANS I CAN REBLOG THE WRAPPED OC SHORT FIC ASK GAMEE ✨😌🤍🤍 #and congrats to health my beloved for making my top artist this year for the second year in a row 🤍😌 #the w*eeknd has been a staple of my top five artists for YEARS 🤍🤍 good to know he still is <3! #its likely dynasties and dystopia from the arcane soundtrack 🤍🤍 #and also that i took my brother to his concert this year for his birthday? #russian fairytale is VIKAS SONG congrats babe! #she really said EHEM reminding me who THE queen of the mountain is ✨😤🤍😌 #loves in my mind rent free ordering luxury room service etc etc #listen im doing vindameas playthrough in s * #s*kyrim but I MISS HER #her walking back to sit on her throne as queen of the mountain ksjsjxjx #and the icon miss meg in my top five..! icon! icon! #t: about leg #leg.txt #the left one for the number one corpo rich bitch 🤍🤍❄️😌 #im so excited for the dlc i miss the queenie girl IMMENSELY

[middle-earth-mythopoeia]

Not sure if you've shared it before but what are your thoughts on Turgon?

Hi, thanks for the ask! I haven't written about him much, but I think Turgon is an interesting character. I find it very tragic how, after not wanting to leave Tirion, he built Gondolin in memory of it, but ultimately his attachment to it leads to its downfall.

#asks #Turgon #Turgon's not my favorite character but I do find him very interesting #and I think he was dealt a pretty bad hand in life #he lost Elenwe on the Grinding Ice #then he lost his sister #then he lost his father #then he lost his brother in the Nirnaeth Arnoediad - which is like the ONE TIME he decided to get involved in the wars of Beleriand #then his hidden city is betrayed by the nephew that he took in and raised #...it sucks to be Turgon #that being said I am very frustrated with him for not heeding Ulmo's warning #or listening to Idril #but it makes for a good story #LISTEN TO YOUR DAUGHTER TURGON

[fleshdyke]

hdjjdbeme

#unlike most of my other keysmash posts. this is a good one this time #i just went out with my best friend #and we had a picnic and ate old strawberries and sat in the shade of a tree next to some ponds #and read a terrible destiel omegaverse fanfiction bc we’re garbage #and it was so much fun #and then we made a flower crown and took a photoshoot #and found a little secluded patch of grass right on the edge of the pond #where we were almost completely boxed in by trees #and it was perfect #and we just sat there #listening to classical music #and made plans for the summer #and we talked abt me being aro and qprs #and we both said we would be qpps #and she said she wanted to get a cottage with me and live with me #and when we left we held hands the whole way home until we had to go different ways #im. aoshsjauhdkdhwjkdvwnfnebaosjsvsiaghsjdyhaje #and i got her to start ofmd and she loves it #she’s been my best friend since grade six #and she’s seen the worst times and the worst parts of me and she still loves me #and we both love the same things #she’s one of the only people i can be fully cringe around #im so glad she’s in my life #rambles