#I want it to fall around in some places

[gncrezan]

@ladamebrunette IT’S ME!!!!! I WAS YOUR WAYFARER EXCHANGE PARTNER!!!!!!!!! thank you so much for posting so much about cass cause it was such a goldmine of symbolism to use for this piece <3 i hope you like it, and thank you again to the @wayfarer-exchange mods for hosting 💕

#cassander inteus #wayfarer game #wayfarer #my art #the only thing i wish i could have done are some treats #i just was not able to get anything out cause of uni . because i am a director this year OTL #studying animation will make you want to eat glass #ANYWAYS THANK YOU FOR ALL THE REFS FOR THIS IT WAS SO FUN TO WORK ON!!!!!! #based off how u said cass would be the page of cups #and the water falling is in the shape of the coast (IM FORGETTING THE EXACT PLACE) from his backstory/origin #i believe its vodena and the coast around it? and the river that leads to the delta ?? #and how that water feeds the fire lillies at the bottom and flame rises from that as well!! #and the background was kinda gutting me but its fine i think it turned out alright!!! #again such a fucking blast to include details like that ! #queue #and being a bit cheeky and timing this for hong kong timezones cause i know i'll forget in the future #ive got a dissertation due LMFAO #anyways MWAHH!!!! ENJOY!!!!

[grinchwrapsupreme]

nothing I love more in a secondhand book than a note written to someone in the cover

#just opened a copy of decline and fall by evelyn waugh that i got at a secondhand place over christmas #and inside is a note in black ink that says #''merry reading mom -shaun '92'' #like i hope she enjoyed it #i hope it's what she wanted for christmas #i wonder if shauns still around #i wonder if his mom is #best writing i ever found in a book was in the back of one #where some kid wrote his name 3 times in different coloured metallic sharpie #like you just know that kid had to read the book for school and opened a fresh pack of sharpies #and wanted to see what they looked like and didn't give a shit about the book lol #wish i could remember which book it was #i have books from my great grandmother's collection #she had a stamp with her name that she put in every one #i wonder if someone will pick these books up at a secondhand store after i'm gone #and wonder who harley was #ooh i forgot i also have that copy of dr jekyll my dad stole from his high school library #that has his name written in it in pencil along with the names of like 3 other students with the year written next to each one #and on the opposite page the name of the high school that gave it to his high school #it's my favourite kind of history sorry i'm getting really into this

[eelslippers]

The hardest part about being a dm that I never see anyone talk about is when you have an ongoing campaign, yet you have ideas for a different campaign setting entirely different from the current one and you can't simply just start a new one either. I have so many ideas but I can't use them yet

#eelslippers #dm #dungeon master #tabletop rpg games #ttrpgs #tabletop roleplaying games #i dont know of any systems that fit the worldbuilding either because dnd wouldnt work but motw wouldnt work either #the idea was a world that is irradiated after a recent fall out 100 years ago that pushed most of civilization to the edges of the world #and takes place in a very coastal setting #basically inspired from fnv and dredge #and magic isnt really a thing but there are replacement concepts for it that come from religious idols or from the radiation itself #and a bunch of factions based around resource guarding mercenary groups such as an oil faction and a pirate faction and some others #i want resources and trading and vehicle mechanics to be a core aspect because i think it's neat but im not really sure what system works

[bandtrees]

“My only hope is for one word. A simple, trivial word from a certain person…”

bungou stray dogs is an anime that iv had a fondness for since like..2018. but only now am i doing fanart for it, as iv gotten back into it via a rewatch with my friend ^_^ akutagawa was my favorite character as a mentally ill 15 year old and continues to be my favorite character as a mentally ill 20 year old

#scribbles #ryuunosuke akutagawa #bungou stray dogs #bungou stray dogs fanart #bsd fanart #some general rambles abt my relationship w this anime incoming #nowadays its not a super serious interest cuz all my love to me i feel iv kinda outgrown how... hot topic slogan-y it is (ALL MY LOVE) #and i have a better eye for some of the issues in it. but its still got a nice place in my heart #i dunno if this person is still...around? but i first watched it with a friend as a teenager and i enjoyed it! #and when i fell outta touch w that friend i'd wanted to return to this anime but always felt bad about it. cuz it was Her Thing #but nowadays i have another pal (hi dark) who i watch a lotta anime with and i decided to take this opportunity to properly rewatch it and #idk im happy i am #especially bc when i first watched this anime in my youth it was a period where i was still freshly affected by like. trauma #and that colored my perception of it (COUGH MY DAZAI HATRED SORRY hes still kinda annoying tho) #(i'm way more normal about him now though XD) #and in general its a very Mentally Ill Teenager anime. so its cool to return to it as a more #mature well adjusted person. just finished season 1 of my rewatch and im eager to fall back in love w this show haha #anyway all that aside LOOK AT THIS RENDERING IM SO PROUD OF ITTTTT

[sysig]

Fall guy or smth idk I don’t go here (Patreon)

#My art #Mother 3 #Duster #First time drawing Duster and I make it a meme *self high five* Lol #So that 63k fic - it was Lost and Found by Zarla big shock lol #It was very good I had a fun time reading it ♪ I was a little lost in some places since I haven't played Mother 3 #But it did make me cry and y'all know how I feel about that lol 🎶 #Duster gets thrown around an awful lot the poor man honestly #I was struck with the image of him just placidly falling like ''Huh'' #I needed it to exist so now it exists lol #He is a bowl of petunias #For being a warmup and the first time I've drawn him I'm actually quite pleased haha #I did the thing again where I draw all at once and not record someone please yell at me #I did get a bit lazy with the clouds tho lol ♪ Just wanted to wrap up #Ughughughughg the fic inspired more ✨ ideas ✨ but right when I'm in the middle of a bunch of other projects lol #That's what I get for reading new things lol

[monkee-mobile]

i cannot put into words well all my thoughts about how soft the monkees are I have SO MANY THOUGHTS it’s just so hard to type them out. my drafts are crazy right now.

it all just comes out like “when they’re all at home and it’s bedtime everybody just cuddling and chilling out to the guitar and singing with each other and talking oh my god you know they just like you know when like the blankets and it’s warm and mike is so gentle to davy and they sing and then read stories and peter likes the lights low” like that’s not what i meant to say at all i have whole narratives going i’m just kind of sick and i’m thinking about the monkees being so soft and sweet and davy curled up in a blanket in mikes lap while he plays the guitar complaining about bedtime and petting at mikes beard and mike picking at some chords as he tries to reason with the (NOT sleepy!!) little one—this is turning into davybaby !!

#sorry if this is hard to read/incoherrant #this is so self indulgent #i just need soft monkees right now #talk to me about the monkees friends i’m a bit lonely #everything i type out sounds wrong so this is the most we’re gonna get right now #the monkees #i had like eight things about mike being very gentle at home and as he gets older getting more and more gentle #it’s just in his nature and he’s very caring and nurturing #he’d try to be tough and he’d always get stressed but he mellows and he cares and idk i just think about this a lot #and maybe i’m projecting my shit onto these characters #specifically mike and davy right now for some reason #it definitely switches around because i was all over micky last week #but like they’re my soft little guys!!!!! #i’ll shush now folk’s apologies #this is like my little notebook but actual people get to actually here these things and idk if that’s good or not #but here it is anyway #i want to fall asleep in mikes lap i guess #in a cozy little place with friends all around #maybe that’s just what this is #maybe the monkees just feel very safe

[gloriousmonsters]

read camp dama.scus. enjoyed some stuff, really wish i didn't have the experience so often reading a book that's Good and Progressive and about Queer Affirmation etc of feeling like i'm side-eying the author like 'and you know that delineating the people that oppose you as pure evil that therefore deserves torture or death or being eliminated from society entirely is bad, right? you know that, right??'

#it's kind of funny bc the main character is a jack chick tract atheist in a way bc #she rejects her religion (REALLY quickly and easily lol) and immediately starts... conceiving of HERSELF as a prophet/god #as in. starts making up 'bible' verses that are about Her and how awesome she is #and how she's going to bring down her enemies with the righteous flaming sword of vengeance and wrath and truth etc #which i would love as a character Thing if the narrative didn't just treat this as 'super metal' with absolutely no further examination #(seriously she casually drops that she's been making up bible-style verses abt herself and her ideas #in convo with her Token Good Christian friend. by CITING ONE OF THEM #LIKE IT'S A BIBLE VERSE. and then going 'o yeah i've been making those up' #and her friend's reaction is just 'haha that's sick' and moving on) #listen i'm all for god complexes and edgy bullshit but the presentation along w the general #descriptions of the Enemy as 'cartoonishly pure evil' and implicit 'haha nice!' around the idea of THEM getting tortured forever #just leaves me :///// #i might be oversensitive to this after stuff like Sorrowland and Pet but.... just. ech. i wish i didn't have to play the game of #'do you think torture is ok if it's someone you don't like?' and 'do you consider people who do bad things as human?' in the first place #also it was just a HUGELY underwritten book lol it'd make a decent movie but viewed as a book it gets funnier the longer i think about it #was marketed as conversion camp horror. 0 conversion camp content bc IT ALREADY HAPPENED #0 relationship development bc the two people the MC connects with she ALREADY HAD RELATIONSHIPS WITH. THAT SHE FORGOT #so you can 'i'm falling for x again' all you want dr tingle that's not what's happening the work is not there #also ofc the other two people are just. The Tech Guy and The Cool Hot Nice Love Interest (2 aesthetic traits no personality) #so yeah like. some very good horror moments/concepts! but some Problems. For Sure #vic talks #book talk

[oscill4te]

Manifesting that this group hang out thing goes okay todayy

#im so nervous abt it i feel like theres so much liability for it to fall apart lol #and the inner control freak in me is pacing around and another part of me wants to freeze and do nothing #good that i woke up early at least #its hard cuz everyone seems to want to do different things and theres a chance ppl may opt out and. aaaa. #someone wants to go to the mall. me and 1 person wanted to do an escape room. another wants to go to this grunge clothing shop in the city #some want to drink. some dont. some want to drink at a bar some want to drink at our place to save money #u see what i meannnn. aaaagh #i just hope everyone vibes and is okay with whereever this planless hang out takes us #im personally ok with anything as long as everyone is happy and not super bored (an issue that arises w one particular person) #its only an issue cuz whenever they get bored they make their partner feel bad for wanting ti stay. its liek. why did u even come then if #ur just gonna be bored and mopey? idk #ig im just anxious beans idk. group settings stress me out cuz im always worried what if ppl dont mesh well? #its gonna be 7 ppl aaaa

[strohller27]

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#I’m just gonna use this blog as a diary because. y’know. I already do. anyway #I don’t know what’s gotten into me recently but I just feel like. like I’m supposed to be ‘further along’ in my life than I am now? #and like. I know it’s bullshit because. the milestones I was told I would hit as I grew older have definitely not been predictable #they tell you you’ll get a job and a car and a significant other and you’ll get married and buy a house and have kids and grow old and die #and it’s like. that’s all we’re given to measure our lives by; these big milestones.. people are supposed to feel accomplished when they hit #but those things are just titles to chapters like. nobody tells us that there’s all this other plot happening between those pages #and so yeah I mean. it feels like I’m not on the right chapter and I really want to skip ahead but like #the truth is. I’m not even to the climax yet. I’m still in the lore-dump stage of ny story #and that’s been so hard for me to accept recently. I’m yearning to be in the chapter where I fall in love and get married #but that’s just it like. that chapter comes earlier in other people’s stories than it seems to be in mine #although I’ve fallen in love many times. I’m not at the ‘get married’ chapter. because it’s not the right part of the story yet #and sometimes I wish I could just find the author of my story and tell them HEY GET ON WITH IT ALREADY because things seem to be moving so #so slowly. and yet they’re moving so fast I simultaneously feel like I’m running out of time #like. why do some people deserve to have co-stars in their stories from almost the very beginning who stick by those protagonists and grow #together? What did I do in my last story to deserve such a lonely one this time around? #Why am I so unlucky that I have good close friends that stick by me and all I know how to do is hold them at arms length because I don’t #think our relationships are quite as deep as I feel that I need out of a relationship? #why is my story about desparately trying to find a place where I feel comfortable enough to belong and share myself with others #and hey. why am I not at that part of my story either? #and maybe it’s that I don’t do enough. as a protagonist my toxic trait is that I’m pathologically suspicious of others #if someone shows interest in me I’m suspicious of why. what are they trying to get from me. because in the past people have taken from me #without giving much back. and if someone wants to date me I’m immediately suspicious of their intentions. #because I’ve realised that there’s much more to being in a relationship than ‘you’re hot let’s fuck’. and I know that’s not what I want #I want to be at the part of my story where I can share myself with someone without worrying that they’re going to take more than I can give. #I want to be at the part of my story where I can trust someone with myself when I’m fragile and they can trust me with themselves as well #I want to be at the part of my story where my life slots together well with someone else’s; so well it just feels normal and right. #I want to be at the part of my story where…I know I could live without this person because we can both take care of ourselves but. #it’s just preferable to spend time and solve problems and exist *together* #and you’ll have to forgive me for saying so but I’ll need physical affection from that person whoever they may be #I feel like certain things are falling into place. I like where I am. now I want to set down roots. and I can’t. I’m not at that page yet.

[qeyond]

Anyway, Happy Pride! Here's my BirthdayMassacre playlist.

#q music #birthdaymassacre #death note #the vibes for this is naomi being a polite lady house wife quiet and well kept for her FBI fiance. traditional gender role shit. #but then falling in love with a blood thirsty creature man and losing her SHIT!!! going NUTS!! getting a taste for BLOOD #theyre crazed together and B is head over heels for her. ADORES her. RESPECTS her. shes GORGEOUS shes STRONG shes AMAZING #she kicks his ass when he needs it and makes him control his shit. but also they go nuts together and murder and crimes and bite eachother: #she adores B she wants to study him she wants to keep him on a leash she wants to sloppy make out with him she wants to be #totally unravelled by him. he respects her for being who she is and she EATS IT UP. she feels free and adored for who SHE is #he feels adored by her for who HE is. he loves that she tames him. he loves that they are fucked up together. #theyre healthy theyre evil theyre awful theyre enabling each other in the worst ways but its a beautiful dance <3 #also listen im never going to forgive ray penber for trying to push naomi into being a sweet little house wife #ITS NOT HER!!!!! maybe killing for fun isnt really her either but its more her than being kept under lock and key by some Dude #also i know all the things she said doesnt match the vibe but it was one of my first queer songs as a teen and it has as special a place #in my heart as beyond birthday does. AND birthdaymassacre is queer so :) <3 #anyway please note any playlist i share is never complete. im always adding more music as i find it :) so stick around if u like <3 #beyond birthday #naomi misora

[yunogf]

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#been sitting in my car for 30 min after clocking out then just making up errands to have an excuse to do smth #so i dont have to go home &be alone until i have smth to do again (go to work the next morning) :((((( #hate how u can go a whole day w out seeing someone &think ok maybe i can get a good nights sleep but then they show up #10 min before u leave for the day &then ur night is ruined bc u have trouble falling asleep #then have stress dreams when u do finally fall asleep #😞😞 #ik its bc i havent confronted anything but i dont see myself ever doing it or rather initiating the confrontation bc idt it's my place #like what right do i have to disrupt what someone else has going to bring myself some ease #idk this probably doesnt make any sense i just need to vent bc i have cried in my car everyday after work for a month 😭 #im ok ive just landed myself in a particularly shitty situation but only for me #everyone else is fine 🫠 #&im a chronic overthinker so i have all these thoughts just swirling around &festering #im driving myself insane &then whenever im around.....the other ppl in this situation.....theres never a chance to let any of it out #im gonna explode at some point i know it &i dont want that to happen bc i dont want to be mean :(( but i also dont want to grow to resent #anyone bc this shit hasnt been properly dealt with :((((( #ugh . #changing of the weather isnt helping i feel like im 16 again in my dark bedroom driving myself insane 😭😭

[woodenela]

Don't you ever let anyone tell you that it is too late to switch jobs/careers. Not ever.

Found a job at 18 & stuck with it? Cool.

Wanna change things up every 5 years? Do it.

Wanna start in a new field after devoting 20+ years to a single company? It's never too late!

We only have one dang life on this planet, if you wanna go wild and test all kinds of jobs out & find something your passionate about at 28,39,52? DO IT!

#inspired by personal life stuff lol can you tell #I get looked at SO FUNNY SO OFTEN when I tell new coworkers that I'm 28 #glad that you found aomething early on and stuck with it but that's not a universal experience! #I worked as a tour guide for historical places & in customer service since I was 16 #and guess what. I'm just not passionate about it anymore. it bores me to death. I just want something new #I'm trying to find a job that's fun again. sue me for not wanting to be miserable at my job. like I see so many others #why is it so weird for people if you wanna change things up every 10 years?? i legit don't get it #I do understand that you stay bc of better pay and rank in your work field but if it's just not fun anymore? why torture yourself? #I know I'm gonna fall down to a ''starter's paycheck'' again. I know that for some that sounds crazy #but it's so worth it if you like what you do again. isn't it? #I test-trial-worked at a dentist's yesterday & the girl showing me around & teaching me stuff was 19 #which my sister commented on as 'being embarrassing'. why. why are we pushed so hard into 'one career until you keel over'? #that shit makes me so tired man #I'll probably never be able to stay at a job for more than 10 years cause I'll just get fed up with it & need something new #so what? #woodenelaramble

[orcelito]

Every time I see the word "mid" now I think of Midvalley and "Mid-man"

Yes Vash's little nickname is him calling Midvalley "mid". Which is part of why it annoys Midvalley so much lmfao. But when you have a name like THAT, can Vash really be blamed?

#speculation nation #itnl shit #not even mentioning the 'hornfreak' name. which has even MORE potential #but also vash is trying to keep it Relatively lowkey in using midvalley's name #dont wanna get overheard & found out. aka why Midvalley hasnt called Vash by his name in their calls... at All im pretty sure #and vash gets around it by coming up with increasingly irritating nicknames. for practicality's sake of course. #me seeing a post saying 'lets be mid together' and having to physically restrain myself from tagging 'itnl vash sayings' #WHICH IVE TAGGED BEFORE but at least that was for an actual midvalley quote #help me im way too invested in this hate-friendship for two characters that never interact with each other in canon #IT'S JUST FUNNY & i want wolfwood to join in on it so bad #vash is still overall nice about his teasing. mostly just annoying. but wolfwood would be OBNOXIOUS about it #but that would take time And some pieces falling into very specific places. who knows if ill b able to accomplish that #but a man can dream... about midvalley being forced to endure the annoyance of vash and wolfwood together... yeah ❤

[bmpmp3]

doodling some old ocs and i swear to god these are four different people (green guys are twins and the white hair ones are a dead pop star (right) and a celebrity impersonator of said dead pop star (left)

#art #traditional art #watercolour #oc art #ocs #oc group: unsorted #oc: unnamed #i think i started naming them but i probably wasnt feeling their names cause i dont remember them so if i ever use em again i'll rename the #ive always got such a problem with naming ocs. i dont know how to name ocs anything like a normal human name #and all my strange names (lia's friend sci (pronounced sai) short for science fiction) are like #i cant just do it on demand. i dont think of those names they just happen #i need to figure out a more effecient way of naming ocs #ANYWAY these ocs were like some kinda psychological horror thing about a trio boyband who's leader (white hair guy no1) dies tragically lik #a decade ago and the surviving members (the twins) cope poorly in their own ways #(shitty beard twin falls into a nihilistic depression and the beardless one kind of just becomes quietly obsessed with the deceased) #and they dont really talk anymore (shittybeard wants to be left alone) but for the bands upcoming anniversary their old manager wants them #to do like a reunion tour and specifically he brings in an impersonator who looks uncomfortably like their dead leader frozen in time #to take his place for the reunion. the shitty beard twin wants nothing to do with any of this but the freaky impersonator kind of like #draws him in so he sticks around for a bit. if just to figure out whats the deal with this guy #someday itd be fun to play with these ocs again maybe

[steampoweredskeleton]

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Ignore

#delete later #did a good compromise today. my therapist will be proud. only minorly panicky now #and have been making my chainmail things and it makes me very happy #have started designing the arm bracers abd bought fabric glue for the material ill be using #probs gonna make it velcrow abd add decorative buckles so dont have to worry about flaps of material #have the shape sorted and am gonna experiment with foam and stuff #have a good idea pf how to attach thr chainmail to it. just how to make it all stiff enough that it keeps its shape #ive been using cardboard for a lot of things but i dont like using it for wearable stuff bc i worry about washing things #im a messy person i need to be able to wash things without it falling apart #i have a yoga mat that might be good. i would just need to figure oit how to set it in a certain position #i have a tube i can dry it over. it might be a douse in pva and dry over cellophaned tube sorta deal #the cape is going well. hood is finished. cloak itself needs to be sewed around tge bottom and the front edge hemmed #thrn its just attaching thrm and decorating #i have fake autumn leaves abd acorns and i want to sculpt some shelf mushrooms out of my super light clay #but idk if thats overkill. i mean its my costune so that doesbt matter i guess. im very proud of myself on this project and i love it #and i even nabaged to do sone work roday despite only being able to think about chainmail #legit spent entire morning making the main piece. needs lengthening but its looking good abd solid #OH ALSO I FUCKING CALLED THE DENTISTS. i havent been in four years bc of anxiety abd TODAY I CALLED A PLACE #REGISTERED THERE AND MADE AN APPOINTMENT FOR NEXT WEEK #i did SO WELL TODAY

[samwisefamgee]

the 20 dollar pair of throwaways I got for my sister's wedding were perfect for the like 7 hours I got them for but are really not perfect for like anything else ever

#i mean the WERE 20 dollars thats how it works but ya know #ive had to use them while walking around to do errands and not gonna lie wish i hadnt tossed the old busted pair #they were pretty far past done for but these things have given me. SO many blisters and i kinda just gotta keep goin #woulda taken the duct tape pair. shoulda just kept the duct tape pair #i seriously need to get some actual nice walking shoes but that would necessitate having more than 50 dollars at one point ever #and im outta weed lmao i had to bust out the emergency stash from the junk drawer #you know cause i get to where im sleeping and the ouch oof ache of my badshoes leaves me wanting a poofer choofer #its a cycle but ive been in worse cycles #if my mental health were also at an especially low point during all this i dont even KNOW what id be doing lol #i walkked. over 17 miles the other day in a haze of self harm after more bullshit happened and lost my wallet during the walk. #not a fun 6 miles of backtracking. drank outta someones hose once and the river twice to stave the clearly onsetting dehydration. didnt die! #found the wallet. drank maybe more water than i ever have in one moment when i passed the library and absorbed their entire drinking font #anyway my legs/knees were ruined and i almost sent myself to the hospital again cause i cant make bad decisions normal i get weird about it #but hey if a very specific set of circumstances fall into place maybe i wont be broke and just generally all around unwell goin forward #heres hoping it does before student loan payments roll round again lol