#I want to jump out of my skin

[amila]

I feel so empty again and nothing seems to fill the void

#academic failure and unrequited love are at it again #I want to jump out of my skin

[vivelarevolution13]

Мы столько убили Не родивши себе

#bucky barnes edit #marvel edit #captain america edit #bucky barnes #my edits #graphics #i made myself sad with this one ngl. #excuse the liberal translation it's just that whenever I write 'mom' as a transl for 'mama' it makes me want to jump out of my skin #and mother is too y'know. hereditary coded #we're very shortparis inspired on this fine monday evening

[skunkes]

blood test tomorrow and i dont think theyll let someone in with me so nobody's going to hold me down, making me feel Calm and also preventing me from escaping. smile.

#talkys #IM SCAREEDDDD #ive gotten a bit used to needles after all the covid shots but idk. #the Blood Draw Location is an entirely different beast #ykwim. vaccine injections are ok bc its the shoulder its so Secure #middle of arm feels so flimsy and frail. scared #qnd its not even ever all that bad (at least vaccines bc ive only gotten blood drawn once) #but i get sooooo anxious and then the waiting and the pulling out feels so horrendous too. #like the last covid vaccine i got wasnt bad at all! but i feel it lingered too long and i wanted to jump out of my skin. #rambling now but i annoy medical professionals bc for some reason whenever Anything happens to me #(not just injections bc its happened at the ENT too) my legs always want to fly straight up into the air #(or just Straight if im sitting) #its the equivalent of tensing another part of the body to stay calm for me idk why....weird security... #but i always get yelled at LOL like sorry i dont even do it consciously....im Scared....

[feluka]

the deaths from dehydration are starting and i don't fucking know what else it's going to take to open the rafah border. i don't know what to do or who to call but i feel every death on our shoulders as long as the border is closed.

#i feel like i want to jump out of my skin with restlessness #praying to hear word of ANY organized action at all to push for opening the border #the fact that there isn't any (considering everyone i know is vocally pro-opening the border) is so demoralizing #the fact that activism here is virtually dead. bleak. bleak. bleak.

[adobodemon]

#flo #anthy&tea #they are allergic to making a bad music release #the hairs on my skin wanted to jump out my toes curling OOOUUUHH I love good MUSIC!!!!

[lvmity]

save me colorful jackets save me

#fabis stuff #i love my jackets #ah how i love wearing colorful things #does it make me stand out yes but like i feel so uncomfortable with dull colors ot makes me want to scratch my skin and jump around #like ahhh

[lobaznyuk]

ocd bad

#in the worst spiral of my life i physically want to jump out of my skin #sorry i can't think of a way to make this gymnastics themed #i'm being spoken to spiritually (telepathetically) #by thoughts that ruin my life

[piplupod]

whyyyyy do people think disordered eating is healthyyyyyyy i am going to explode myself soon i cannot live around these people any more my god

#i dont even want to say what all was said lol it's so fucked up #maybe I'll just go back to starving myself and becoming more underweight just to earn mothers approval (sarcasm) #actually u know what. even if i did that she'd probably get angry at me for it lmao she'd be pissed that I'd be losing weight when she isnt #I CANNOT TAKE MUCH MORE OF THIS IM HAVING SUCH A HARD TIME #THESE PEOPLE ARE SO FUCKING AWFUL #I WANT OUT OF HERE I REALLY DO #I dont know how to cope w this honestly #i keep trying to twist things to be tolerable but jesus fucking christ the ED is starting to rear its head again #theyre just so fucking mean and stupid and fatphobic and i have to spend so much time around them #its impossible to block out #i keep finding myself thinking i dont need to eat veggies bc ''theyre basically poison'' and im just ARRGHHH #GET OUT OF MY HEAD PLEASEEEE I DONT WANT TO BE THINKING LIKE THIS #idk how to cope w this bc i HAVE the science disproving them and I've spent time undoing fatphobia in my own brain #and my family just keeps setting back my progress bc it is impossible to block them out entirely #i want to crawl out of my skin and jump into a deep lake and never resurface #im so tired of this all and idk what to do. tearing my hair out a little bit #pippen needs 2nd breakfast #fatphobia tw #dieting tw #ed tw #ask to tag

[pepprs]

im so fucking overstimulated rn LMFAOOOOO the semester starting is going to kill me for REAL!!!!

#purrs #everyone is super great but also like... god. we're keeping our office door open and its so loud outside. we have ZERO private space in the #office and the interns are going to work in here now so me and the other professional staff cant like..h have conversations bc there are th #things the interns cant / shouldnt / arent ready to hear or know abt yet. (<- the irony of ME of all ppl saying that and holding firm to it #💀 but whatever.) and tmi as fuck but i have anxiety abt using public restrooms and over the summer they were all empty and now there are #people EVERYWHERE and i have to go so bad i feel like im gonna **** but all of the single stall bathrooms are constantly occupied and i #woudl rather die than use one of the multi stall ones so i guess i will just have to decompose until i get home 💀. this is a NOIGHTMAAAARE #and ppl are walking past the door and can see me and i feel so uncomfortable like. i want to jump out of my skin. at least no one can see m #screen anymore but idk how i feel abt them seeing my face. cosmo wanda i wish i had a private office and a private bathroom so fucking bad #its actually unreal. and we are going to be like this for the next 9 months LOL HELP!!!!!

[wiltking]

if i can be serious for a moment i can’t stand how thin the strip of fabric is for regular women’s underwear / bathing suits (the part thats meant to cover the crotch) and this doesn’t even have anything to do with my bottom dysphoria or my complex relationship to wearing ~women’s clothes~ but i ALWAYS felt like my stuff was going to fall out to either side, or it’d ride up uncomfortably in my junk and i don’t know if this is just because my hips are on the wider set of normal and i have extra space down there or WHAT but this pisses me off so much because i don’t know what that cocaine line of fabric is meant to cover on anyone else. on regular basic underwear. to the point where i never felt comfortable being in just my undies around anyone, family or otherwise, for any reason. am i insane. are there really people out here with airstrip pussies that have no issues with this or am i the weird one for having a wide load

#i use men's briefs now #no dick flap no nonsense no nothing and i seriously cant go back to my old pairs without wanting to jump out of my skin

[fearsomeandwretched]

I'm in like such a bad mood and so irritated I'm like crying 😭

#I want to jump out of my skin but I do not think that is an option

[ed-teach]

When the rsd hits

#i want to bury myself alive #it's ok but also. tearing my skin off #quip #(i was. jokingly criticised for my work ethic (being late often) WHICH I DONT EVEN REGRET but i still wanna. jump out the window)

[evilkaeya]

having sensory overload in a car is THE WORST

#like i can't just jump out #i have to sit and endure it #wanted to peel my skin off in the car today #i hate loud kids sm

[non-un-topo]

Have to thank my partner for realizing before I did that talking about kids with people makes me extremely dysphoric --- whereas I thought I just had a problem and hated children or something lol

#you can't really start a sentence with 'i don't hate children--' though. #do i... like them..? ehh they're fine on their own. i just don't like to be around them for very long. they freak me out. #but mostly it's parents who freak me out. or people who aren't parents yet but kids are all they talk about #(cough) my sister-in-law. #it's not ALL she talks about but she does happen to bring children up an awful lot around me. and uhh i have bad news for her. #anyway i feel like the worst person on earth but my gut reaction when i hear people talking about kids is to just get pissed off #or roll my eyes or want to leave the conversation STAT. like my flight instinct takes over. #so it was my partner who figured out that these conversations activate my dysphoria like a nuclear bomb. #dysphoria has manifested in the form of irritation for me this year. same with depression. i just feel angry and annoyed all the time #plus a bit of despair. and it gets more intense with every passing month. #my sister has decided to work in childcare and is doing a placement. she also updates me on every single thing she does in a day - #- down to how many times she shits. i wish i was kidding. #so i get a constant feed of what these random children did in a day (yesterday a girl showed my sister her poop lol) #and it would be funny and fine if it didn't make me want to jump out of my gd skin. #happens all the time at school too. #'whaaaaaaaat you don't want BAABIIEEES?? but you'd make such a good mom!!!' #ahaha No i would not thank you. jesus christ please no thank you. please. #i'm a father figure to a few of my friends and it's the best feeling in the world. that's all i need. #conversations like that always trap me. i feel like a fucking rabbit. stuck with all the aunties in the kitchen. #so i have to be a dick and not offer to clear the plates because none of the men are clearing the plates. #just........ Gender. UGH!!

[mishkakagehishka]

Is it possible to feel underwhelmed and overwhelmed at the same time bc for crying out loud

#i'm feeling the same brain itchiness that i recently identified as being understimulated?? #but at the same time i feel like i'm not understimulated at all bc #the buzz of my pc the music the itchiness of my actual skin the ticking of the clock the wind outside #makes me feel like i wanna jump out of my skin and separate myself from my body #but at the same time i feel like i want to go running but it also feels like even stretching would make it worse #and yet. stretching is my usual go to for the itchy brain #:/

[hauntedwoman]

anyways im gonna ask my sister if she’ll stop posting pictures with me on her socials bc i am genuinely so paranoid about getting stalked or doxxed i hate people knowing who i am 

#the fact that im gonna be in this dumb youtube video with her is making me want to jump out of my skin fr #shes got like two million tiktok followers thats TOO MANY !!!! #i dont need two million twelve year olds seeing my face it makes me feel sick thinking abt it