#I was so scared and guilty

[chloesimaginationthings]

Abby and the FNAF puppet would get along..

#myart #chloesimagination #comic #abby schmidt #charlie emily #charlotte emily #fnaf puppet #fnaf marionette #michael afton #fnaf #fnaf movie #fnaf 2 #fnaf pizzeria simulator #fnaf fanart #five nights at freddy's #Charlie Emily finally mentioned and drawn!! #I’ve had her ghost design on the back burner for awhile so I’m glad I finally drew her! #I BELIEVE so heavily Abby would befriend all ghost kids #she just gets them fr #Michael isn’t scared of the Charlie it’s more complicated than that #in some sense he just feels guilty anytime he sees the puppet #dont worry though Charlie isn’t angry or afraid anymore 🖤

[aslyran]

Visions

#i have so much love for botw link #he remembers nothing but the weight of the sword #he is willing to take in incredible amounts of pain and responsibility just to understand himself and his previous life a bit better #its not as if he’s not responsible and courageous #but this iteration of link has lost so much-even before the game it seems taking his destiny has made him quiet #dunno remember who was it who wrote #‘the sword became a needle snd with the thread of destiny; it sew his lips’ #but apart from the desesperation of looking for a trace of himself in all things #he is also guilty and scared of what his past holds #anyways i should write a fanfic not pour this into tags #botw #breath of the wild #link #legend of zelda #master sword #animation #procreate dreams #link botw

[twinstxrs]

so much happened in this whole episode but i’m still on fig infiltrating ruben’s dream, making it look like the place where his friend was murdered, and then disguising herself as kipperlilly & repeatedly saying different variants of “somebody needs to take the fall for this, and it’s not going to be me. it’s going to be you.” while adaine as the elven oracle shows up next to her. can you imagine waking up from that, the idea of a horrible truth being pinned on you by your friend to save her own skin while the personification of fate and destiny stands there, almost as a promise that this is GOING to happen to you. we don’t even know if this kid is guilty. my god.

#fantasy high #dimension 20 #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #fantasy high junior year #fig faeth #ruben hopclap #lucy frostblade #the rat grinders #adaine abernant #kipperlilly copperkettle #watching fig terrorize him like girl!!! we don’t even know if he’s guilty!!!! #this might just be for me but i do not think 5 teenagers willingly brutally killed their friend idk #like there just has to be some other element to it and i am very scared to find out what that was #what if they were put in a position where they felt there was/there was no other choice… like oh my god #my comedy brain is having fun but my ‘this is a teenager’ brain is in such deep distress all the time this season #the rat grinders i trust brennan to not make u cartoonishly evil so i am holding u as gently as i can in my confused shaky hands #also with the devil’s nectar i’ve been wondering why they all seem so well-adjusted & now i’m curious if they’ve been intentionally- #changing their memories in a way so that either the trauma is lesser or they think they aren’t guilty. idk #but it seems like from how gertie was talking she was making it more recently so the well adjustedness from early jy doesn’t quite add up #they could have another source maybe??? idk i’m just low stakes 4 a.m. spitballing here #there’s also the strong possibility that they’re aware of what happened but they weren’t the ones who killed lucy. idk who knows #the way you could probably devil’s nectar yourself into believing it wasn’t your fault someone died… CRAZY IMPLICATIONS!!! CRAZY IDEA!!! #anyways the bad kids & the rat grinders don’t ever have to like each other but i do wonder if at least some of those kids deserve a chance

[electrozeistyking]

tomorrow

#by the way i’m not here. i just scheduled this to post today #probably won’t be back until some point after episode seven comes out. #so i’ll be off doing something Personal Related until then! for now enjoy this tasty piece because that sure is angst #murder drones #murder drones n #n murder drones #serial designation n #tw eye contact #tw eyestrain #potentially??? #also yeah no. this piece is literally named ‘tomorrow’ #yes i was listening to guilty by al bowlly while i drew this. did the fact this piece uses lyrics from it make it obvious or #haha i’m scared actually #zeisty’s heavy hitters

[kurokentrash1]

I'm a jjk anime only fan, and after the most recent episodes. i finally get it. i get why you satosugu bitches are the way you are: batshit insane and emotionally unstable. up until now i've simply watched from afar as you ripped your hair out whenever you saw anything black and white next to each other, but we are one now. i'm also ripping my hair out whenever i see a kfc. pls welcome me with open arms I've been enlightened.

#he was his BEST FRIEND #AND HE LEFT #GOJO WAS ALL ALONE #HE WAS HURT TOO BUT EVERYONE BRUSHES IT UNDER THE RUG BECAUSE HES SO BABYGIRL AND SILLY #AND IMAGINE HOW MUCH PAIN GETO WAS TRULY IN THAT LED HIM TO MAKE THE DECISION HE MADE TO LEAVE #gojo looked so scared when he head what geto did #and during the kfc breakup #i dont even think he was angry i think he was just confused and scared because he was losing his best friend #and gojo probably felt so guilty that he didn't notice how geto was deteriorating #GUYS I CANT #IT HURTS TOO MUCH #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #gojo satoru #geto suguru #satosugu

[theshushdragonsleeps]

So I'm pretty bad at expressing myself through writing cuz I'm pretty shit at it, but I can't get out of my head the scene of Jaiden comforting and confronting Roier during Festa Junina. It's the fact that Jaiden, through her own grief and self isolation, grabs a hold of a drowning Roier. Looking at him and truly seeing him and accepting him at his lowest point. Loudly declaring that he deserves kindness and love and she is his partner and that she is here for him. 

And I believe she will not waver about her conviction and affection for him. And while she may need time and she may be hurt beyond comprehension, she will never actually leave him until the day she is no longer wanted. (Even then she will leave with kindness and understanding.) 

In fact, until the day when one or both are ready to come apart and become their own person again, I believe that together they will be holding each other up. Unwilling to let the other fall despite their own pain.

And just, I love their partnership so much. I know other people in this fandom have been upset that Jaiden or Roier haven't been there for each other enough since Bobby's death, but I need people to understand that both are the type to self isolate when upset. Like Roier might still be a part of the bigger group and acting dramatic around others while Jaiden is acting fine with her usual silliness and then completely disappearing, but both doing the same thing. Both are trying to make a “joke” about how much of a mess they have become after Bobby died without ever having to open up and talk to anybody about it. Both are giving a show as if to say “I wont let you see how much I’m actually hurting because if you actually saw me grieve without my mask of silliness, I will become a burden and you will leave me” 

And by god if I don't feel this to my very core which might be why I’m so obsessed over this. Cuz despite their own fear of being perceived and the feeling of becoming a burden or being looked down upon and used, they are still reaching out and offering others nothing but love.

Like if I remember correctly there was a time when someone (I can't remember who, sorry) asked Roier what he wanted and he said that he wanted someone to fully accepting him and give him a place to feel like he was being cared about, and to be the one on the receiving end of love rather than always being the one to reach out. And here is Jaiden with the sun rising behind her with arms wide open bathed in the new dawning warmth, only offering love and asking for nothing in return. 

Bobby may have been their sunset, but together through the love they have for each other they are creating their own sunrise. 

 And just, ahhhh, sorry I know all of this was overly long winded and badly written and I'm deeply embarrassed by the fact that I can't write better than this but I wanted to try out being a part of a voice in the void of a fandom for once and get a little bit of my love for these two out there.

#qsmp #qsmp jaiden #qsmp roier #I've actually edited this down a lot and still feel like I'm not properly articulating myself #like there are things in here Im worried will come across wrong #or im miss remembering roier talk about how he wants someone to care about him #did i make that up?? #ahhhhhhhh #im so scared so im posting this late when no one else usally posts to minamize who sees this #also i understand my gramer and uses of commas and periods are wrong #Ive always been bad at writing and I feel guilty making other people read it #sorry

[brittlebutch]

actually it's kind of funny how people will say Alex's fatal flaw is that he 'doesn't ask for help' and that it's his determination to handle things on his own that leads to his deterioration and eventual death when his whole introduction to the present-day timeline was a very literal cry for help that simply went ignored

#N posts stuff #like even if you think alex was lying throughout the entirety of season 2 and he was waiting from the Moment jay showed up #JUST to kill him (Which again i don't think makes much sense when he could have killed Tim & Jay immediately instead of #breaking Tim's leg. anyway) EVEN IF alex spent that whole time lying it doesn't actually change the fact that he would have at least #been Pretending to Ask For Help and if he wasn't lying then he was Literally Asking For Help and it doesn't Actually matter #what intention Alex had because the text is Ambiguous about Alex's honesty during season two; what isn't ambiguous is the way #other characters (specifically Jay) respond to him; like yeah - S2 Brian/Tim were never in one million years going to help Alex with shit #so sort of any argument that brings up Tim as someone who asks for/offers help is borderline meaningless in this era of the series #Jay had the 'opportunity' to help Alex (and i'll get back to that in a sec) but DIDN'T - Jay wasn't Interested in actually offering Alex #'help' bc Jay is ultimately curious about Answers and 'Offering Help' and 'Getting Answers' are two Wildly conflicting goals #Jay thinks Alex has answers and when Alex doesn't Offer these 'Answers' to Jay on a silver platter Jay gets pissed off and paranoid #and starts Stalking Alex bc he thinks it's 'Suspicious' that Alex won't give him the Answers (that Alex probably doesn't Actually have) #ANYWAY. ultimately this post is about how it's absurd when people argue #that individual character choices could have made a difference in the way this series played out - specifically wrt Alex #because EVERYONE in this WHOLE series are being affected by influences outside of their control ; including Brian Tim and Jay #so it's silly when people are like 'if ALEX had just made a different choice For Himself this could have all been avoided' WRONG. #bc Ultimately there's not really a way to 'help' someone else out of this situation - Tim tried and failed Repeatedly #the comics proved he even failed with Jessica - like MH isn't a horror situation where you can kill the big bad #'getting help' is a meaningless argument - what would successfully helping or getting help even look like? anyway. #the sub argument of this post is that Alex's biggest 'sin' is that he doesn't perform emotions the way other people want him to #like Alex is a character with a kind of flat affect - instead of LOOKING scared or grieved he LOOKS bored or angry #and everyone judges him based on that - so Alex is 'Suspicious' he's 'Lying' he's 'Guilty' but all of these deductions are predicated #on the belief that Alex isn't reacting to his circumstances the way a 'Normal' person would - so it MUST all be an act and so he's guilty #so everyone treats him like he's guilty until the end of season two when he's like 'Fuck it FINE i'll be guilty then' and so it goes #not a self-fulfilled prophecy but being Cornered Into a prophecy and then Blamed for it - SAD. anyway

[sapphicsnzs]

sometimes this kink makes me feel so guilty and i wish i didn’t have it

#snz blog #snz kink #snzblr #like i dont wanna talk about myself being sick cause im scared im gonna get judged #i try to be so careful about getting other people sick and i test every time i get sick but i just feel guilty #i don’t even know the point of this i just feel guilty and bad that i have this kink sometimes #i don’t know what this post even is probsvh my sleep deprived brain being dumb #i’m just worried people are judging me and coming to conclusions that i’m careless with other peoples health snd i swear im not #that’s it lol my brain is working overtime

[good-beans]

Am I the only one who noticed that in the S2 cover art, the Forgiven prisoners are facing towards the door, while the Unforgiven ones are facing away from it?

Ahh yes!! It really is such a cool detail!! It takes the idea of Es/us getting in their heads and makes it something very tangible 👀

The innocent prisoners are comfortable showing us their thoughts: Haruka looks like he's checking you're still there following him. Yuno isn't happy about it, but she still wants to show you something to prove her point. Muu can keep hands behind her back because she hasn't done anything wrong, see? Regardless of Shidou’s emotions for what's through the door, he's putting on gloves to administer care, since that's what he'll use this opportunity for. In his teasers, Kazui seems eager to get something off his chest, and out of everyone he looks the most purposeful at leading you inside.

Meanwhile, guilty Fuuta and Mahiru have their backs to the mindscape. I think it's interesting that theyre not trying to stop us from going in -- it looks more like they themselves don’t want to spend any more time in their own head. They're afraid of us, and are shielding their prominent injuries (eye and arm). Although Kotoko may have been the one to actually attack, I absolutely love how well the art conveys this was our fault. They’re in so much pain because of us.

I'm curious if, given their t2 changes and the fact they weren't physically injured, Amane and Mikoto will end up looking more angry than scared...

#milgram #haruka sakurai #yuno kashiki #fuuta kajiyama #muu kusunoki #shidou kirisaki #mahiru shiina #kazui mukuhara #ahh thank you for the ask! #its so cool to compare the album covers -- not only are they beautiful but theres so much attention to detail 👀 #fuuta and mahiru my beloveds :(( #i loove that yuno isnt smiling #its not just 'innocents are happy and guiltys are scared' #theyre still feeling complex emotions about their situation #just realized kazui is holding a cigarette lol #ask

[jimmyspades]

let’s stay like this forever let’s just keep pretending

#look away until you want to imagine a domestic peaceful life with red. whatever #I’ve always loved this part of the show his happy home at the motel #the blacklist #raymond reddington #* #video #this is just. a visual representation of what willow and I have been talking about #the chance for him to have a happy normal safe life. with the people he loves. doesn’t have to feel selfish or guilty about it #he doesn’t have to pretend anymore #sometimes he remembers the past and maybe he gets scared but not a lot. he’s so happy. he’s not going to lose it. #this is my AU I can say he’s not going to lose it #at the risk of sounding even crazier my favorite walt whitman poem has a line #‘I have somewhere surely lived a life of joy with you’ #yeah. #a home for both of us

[yourhighness6]

...I'm gonna need more therapy after the end of season 4

#never before have we seen adora look so broken #this is the second time catra has expressed a desire to end her own life in two seasons #glimmer has never been so scared or guilty #bow has never looked so desperate #scorpia trying with all her might to get to frosta and perfuma to offer them some semblance of comfort has left my heart broken #seahawk clinging to mermista unable to do anything about her pain shattered me into a million peices #light hope is gone #hordak has become a sympathetic character #I literally want to die #spop #she ra and the princesses of power #spop season 4 #crying screaming throwing up #scorfuma #seamista

[statementlou]

It’s too bad that some people have to ruin a nice thing. Louis is going to places that really don’t get a lot of big concerts. He’s going out of his way to reach these places and probably isn’t making a whole lot of money, and in return some people are being so gross. We all know that there are the stalker crew that follow the tour and fight local fans to get to the barricades, so odds are high they’re part of the problem we’re seeing now. I wouldn’t blame him if for the next leg there is no more barricade run.

While I'm aware that most people aren't as chronically online and tracking Louis' every mood and movement as I am, at this point even a mild engagement with the fandom in the runup to your show- which I feel like its safe to assume anyone putting in the time to get on barricade has- is enough to let you know that at this time he is not enjoying people tugging at his clothes and it is not the moment! I think there are the privileged foreign fans following him around who carry that sense of privilege into their actions on barricade, I think there are probably local fans who are just wildly excited about their one show and getting a little crazed in the moment (or just being jerks) as well- personally I wish that instead of having it be an all or nothing thing that Louis would just do it when he's feeling it and having fun and it feels fun and silly to let people tug at him, and simply take the day off when he is, for example, sick and struggling through a lot of back to back shows, the same as he lets the songs that are harder at certain times be taken off the set list as needed and only does the stage door fan time when he feels up for it

#tbh I think part of the problem is that he is still doing barricade partially to distract from the fact that he's struggling #or because he feels guilty for the shows not being 100% #I watched the afhf doc last night and the whole thing is just him being SO STRESSED about doing good enough its actually painful to watch #and I just kept thinking about how stressed he must be right now about his perceived failure to give 110% at every show #when most people won't have noticed a damn thing!! as for example the people on barricade #who are just fully oblivious #I bet he's scared too about losing vocal capability long term😭I wish I could send him all the hugs (from SOMEONE ELSE not me that's scary) #blah blah blah

[eru-iru]

20 mins bedman practice

#guilty gear #bedman #ギルティギア #ベッドマン #how can ppl draw so fast #i tried and i was running for my life #this was supposed to be 15 mins even but got scared HDSKAJFSD #so made it 20 mins for now #was watching a yt vid of them doing a 15 min art daily for practice #idk if i can do this daily but maybe it can help me be more confident in my lineart #posted a timelapse in my twt #iruiruart

[blu3b3rryj4mp1r3]

why do I feel the need to filter myself all the time? as if people care if I want to use coloured text, if my art looks bad or if I spell words wrong lol it's MY blog, why do I care so stupid much what other people think? it's the same thing even when I'm writing in my diary, I'm like, "Oh NO what if I DIE and someone reads my diary?!?!?!?! they're going to think I'm cringe" BERRY you stupid idiot! stop caring so much what people think, you're not alive to appease others!! just do what you want!! constantly thinking about what other people think is so draining you don't even have the energy to talk to people because you're so worried about how you're being perceived. PLEASE STOP!!

#I'm getting really sick of you me! #tw vent #sort of #i'm alright #i just wish i could be myself and do what i want without feeling so scared and guilty all the time #it's alright for others to be themselves and express themselves how they want to in my eyes #but i judge myself so harshly for trying to do the same #sometimes i wonder how much of my personality really is me and how much is just coping mechanisms i've developed #i don't feel like i enjoy being quiet for example #i have so many thoughts constantly flowing through my head #things i'd like to say #things i'd like to add to conversations #being quiet makes me feel like i'm being burned from the inside but other people praise me for it #and i also wasn't born a self-loathing mess y'know? #i want to get better #but it's so so difficult #c ptsd #tw death mention #(just the word but still just in case)

[thestalwartheart]

I swear I’ll shut up about this fic idea soon, but one of the things that makes it most fascinating to me as a writer is the complexity of it. It could be so tempting to turn Q into a poor little meow meow and have the reader forget one of the central points of the story, which is that there are some acts that cannot be redeemed. Doing a terrible thing doesn’t necessarily make you a terrible person — especially when the terrible thing wasn’t intentional — but it is still worthy of consequence and remorse.

And how do you go on living with yourself when the punishment (or the complete lack thereof!) will never really fit the crime or assuage the guilt you’re feeling? When your guilt feels like a drop in the ocean compared to how the family of the man you’ve killed must be feeling? In fact, you hardly feel entitled to any pain at all.

AND! How do you live with yourself when you’re still (still, after all this) committed to a life and a job and an institution where it could conceivably happen again?

Then! Also! On Bond’s side of this: how do you bring someone back to themselves after that and prove to them there is a path forward? That there has to be? Because the alternative is not having this person around at all, and that’s unacceptable to you.

How do you do that when you’ve never pushed the button on the wrong person? When you cannot relate? Oh, you’ve been responsible for death. Even innocent deaths. But you could square those with the job. At the end of the day, the deaths themselves were at the hands of more evil men than you.

What happens when you’re feeling out of your depth and privately terrified that one misstep could lead to someone you love losing themselves altogether?

How do you even begin trying to stand in for the forgiveness and faith they don’t even think they deserve?

Don’t even look at me, I’m unhinged about this.

#00q #my fic #foaming at the mouth to write it #curse the horrors of capitalism that won’t give me the hours to do it #I’m sure there are people out there thinking I’m an arsehole for even considering writing about this #and for focusing on the guilty party #and that’s fine #but i enjoy exploring moral ambiguity #and I don’t intend to do a hack job of it which is why I’m so scared to write it!!!

[notthemonthbutmarch]

Hello, good morning, night, afternoon, whatever

FURINA?????? NAVIA????? ARE MY FAVORITES GOING TO BE OKAY?!!!!?????!!!!!!

#genshin impact #genshin #navia #furina #focalors #4.2 trailer #4.2 trailer spoilers #genshin spoilers #AAAAAHHHHH #I WAKE UP AND EVERYONE IS DYING #IM SO SCARED FOR MASQUERADE OF THE GUILTY HOYO PLEASE #WHAT IS GOING ONNNNNNNN?????????