#I went so fucking hard on this holy shit

[mae-i-scribble]

I'm doing a very slow reread of orv with some friends, but since I can't talk about my spoilerous rambles with them too much I have decided to make a post here to get my thoughts out. Up to chapter 25, I've been surprised by the amount of little hints we're already getting for larger plot points and the things that are recontextualized now that I'm looking with hindsight rather than experiencing it for the first time, which really speaks to how phenomenally written orv is on a fundamental level. By the time we get to the 3rd scenario, we've had Dokja mention his mother once, when he briefly worries over her safety. Then we get this line:

"I looked around at the people. The first scenario was original sin. Thus, none of the people here were innocent. That made it more disgusting. Those who trampled on someone else to survive, who couldn’t even bear responsibility for their own life."

Of course it's firstly talking about the lack of morality in this world, when faced with the truth that between the major and minor groups of Gumho station, one fact makes them equal: they are all murderers. The use of the phrase "the original sin" caught my eye because when looking at Dokja's life, murder is his original sin- the murder of his father. That is what sparks the events leading up to this point. It is the true original sin of this world. However, that being followed by "That made it more disgusting...who couldn't even bear responsibility for their own life," is rather hypocritical in that regard. We have no way of knowing exactly how much of that night Dokja remembers at this point of the story, so there are 2 ways to interpret this in regards to his father's murder. 1) Dokja does not remember that he murdered his father, but remembers that his mother had taken responsibility for her crime and served her sentence. In regards to here the people of the minor are far inferior because they cannot adapt the way Sookyung did to their crime. 2) Dokja does remember that he murdered his father, and this disgust is equally leveled at himself, because he knows his mother is innocent but that she took responsibility from Dokja. Thus Dokja of back then is just like these people, unable to take responsibility for his crime.

Then, later on, we see the text, and Dokja specifically, focus on this particular pairing in the minor group.

"The people started to move. All in all, they were people who had already killed. “M-Mother!” “Dayoung, come here! Do this! Just like what you did on the subway with Mother!” Children and mothers."

Then in Chapter 25 we have:

"I honestly admired that the mother and child survived the bloody fight. If she had that much strength, they might be able to survive without going with us."

The English translation doesn't exactly lend itself to identifying the gender of the child, and I am miserably monolingual so I'm not sure if the original text specifies Dayoung's gender, but for thematic reasons I'm choosing to imagine them as a mother/son paring. In that regard, Dokja choosing to notice them out of everyone else, when he's an extremely apathetic person in these early chapters who doesn't care much for those not directly related to him or the story/his survival is very notable. I can't help but think he sees himself in that, as both the son of a murderer and a murderer himself. It's also notable that when complimenting the pair, he only focuses on the mother's strength. Which like. The subconscious projection is so real. To Dokja the child didn't do anything it seems, it's only because of the mother's strength that they will be able to live on. I'm sure I will be back to add more info on this as I trudge through the novel because Dokja and Sookyung's relationship makes me mentally ill all the time but for now I shall simply lay down and ponder(tm)

#orv #orv spoilers #kim dokja #lee sookyung #i think the manhwa has covered this but just in case #anyways holy shit ss went way too hard with this novel #the fucking layers #IVE HAD SO MANY DISCORD CONVOS ABOUT THE FIRST 20 CONVOS ALONE #thats how fucking dense this novel is #maybe i'll put more of the thoughts here on tumblr because sometimes i do have good thoughts and opinions actually #and my friends' viewpoints are very fun to get since they all focus on different things

[idyllic-affections]

good morning. neuvillette with a dragon!child!reader who, once everything blows over in fontaine, goes to find furina and gives her the biggest hug. they've known her for a very long time. and many times, perhaps she almost, almost cracked to them... but her resolve stood strong every time, and she would backtrack with a laugh and some dramatic flair.

while they can't understand how badly she must have suffered, because they aren't human and their mind is not so fragile, they can at least imagine it. and they can't help but think that maybe she doesn't want to be alone right now; she's been alone for five hundred years. if she wants to be left alone... that's fine, and they know she'll tell them that, but at the very least, as one of her best friends (perhaps her very best one), should they not go check on her?

idk i'm going to play her story quest today probably so i will return with more thoughts!

#aphelion speaks 🌸 #this post is not about neuvi i am sorry for leading you all on like that 🙏🙏🙏 /lh #EVERYONE. GO APOLOGIZE TO FURINA. RIGJT FUCKING NOW. APOLOGIZE TO HER. #LIKE. HOLY SHIT. #i felt so bad for her that i almost CRIED and i am not even exaggerating #i know we are all so enamored by neuvillette and how he genuinely loves the people of fontaine #but can we PLEASE take a moment to talk about *furina* and her love for her people? #because holy shit. holy shit dude. #she must have been so so so lonely for so long #but she KEPT ON. RELENTLESSLY. FOR FIVE HUNDRED YEARS. #yknow #i know the whole point was to destroy the throne and the position of “archon” #but.... man. furina is fontaine's archon and she always was. as far as i'm concerned. #she persevered out of love for those like her and even went as far as to relentlessly + #+ do her own research into what was causing the disaster #she tried so hard. and fucking NO ONE apologized to her yet. #FURINA LIKER AND DEFENDER APHELION REAL 🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣

[kiitkattie]

watching a playthrough of tears of the kingdom and my god ganon

#why'd they make him so fucking hot holy shit #tbh i wish his voice was deeper #i want that shit to rattle my bones #legend of zelda #tears of the kingdom #totk #totk ganondorf #they really went hard with this game huh

[runawaymun]

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#sorry let me rant real quick in the tags #cw personal #once again hitting an insurance pothole bc the psych says she accepts my OHP plan HOWEVER the therapy group she is contacted with says #THEY don't #they only accept the insurance if it's through my employer but NOT through the government?????????????? #so there's still some kind of payment??? #anyway I want to scream why is this so complicated #like will she take my insurance or not who's right here #anyway called her back directly and went to voicemail so now I've done all I can for now #why the hell is this so hard man #the person on the phone didn't know really how to explain #once again no one knows what they're talking about #like can y'all not communicate and figure this out? #AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #i need to get an ADHD eval before my next PCP appointment in june so that they will continue giving me my meds #and the psychiatry through the hospital has a limited number of visits that insurance will cover #*contracted #not retyping all of that #and once again the only reason this is so stressful is because the psychiatry group at the hospital fumbled the communication ball last tim #and the psychiatrist I was with never put the ADHD on the chart #and now somehow it's MY responsibility to fix that> #UGH #like I am grateful to have some kind of coverage but holy shit is the US healthcare system in shambles #the bureaucracy is INSANE #i had to just sit down and put my head in my hands for a second #and then go 'right okay nothing i can do about that rn moving on' #uGH #literally said 'what the FUCK' out loud a couple times #like not on the phone after I hung up obvs

[lucindasthighs]

thinking about Tatiana makes me so ill she's so tragic and strong and she was never fucking mentioned again after emerald secret.

she was an organic wolf and she got FORCED into an uncomfortable, foreign human form by Micheal + ein for literally no reason (they NEVER use or bring up these body-changing forever potions again) and is stuck that way forever. She was forced to follow ein in order to protect her pack. But at the end of the day, she gets her revenge. She's the one who kills ein. And tHEN SHES FUCKING GONE NOT EVEN A MENTION NOT EVEN BY AARON AS IF HE DIDNT BEG HER FOR INFO AFYAFSOXUXO

#foaming at the mouth #also her va went so fucking hard like holy shit #maybe i wouldnt care as much if ein didnt come back. that was Her moment that was her triumph #aaron would be dead without her #deluding myself that she garroth kate and travis are in a little 'experimented on by forever potions' therapy group #YOUU COULDVE SO MUCH MORE IF YOU ONLY HAD TIIIMEEE #add michi to the therapy group actually #aphmau #aphblr #aphverse #mystreet #emerald secret #tatiana the wolf #aphmau tatiana #mystreet tatiana #aphmau ein #mystreet ein #mystreet aaron #aaron lycan

[mispronouncing-michaelangelo]

nausicaä neck tattoo letsa gooooooo

#gonna get it coloured in 3 weeks weeee #dis meh #personal #I FUCKING LOVE THIS TATTOO SO MUCH HOLY FUCK AHHHH #cute nb tattoo artist with adhd ahhhh was tismin' out so hard with them #they also offered to do my next tattoo too weee!! im getting a good grade in getting tattoos #but fr fr i love this tattoo so much its so fucking pretty and they did it so well #they also fucking choked me when they went to do my neck haha #them: this might be a little intense okay? it can be alot #me: okay ^-^ #them: -puts there whole fucking bodyweight onto the side of my head and my neck- #like okay! thought you meant pain wise but nope!! its cause im gonna die!! #fr fr i was like 'oh shit im feeling light headed maybe this neck tattoo is gonna be too much for me owo' #and then i realised there was no blood reaching my brain haha

[altruisticenigma]

Highest honor possible is when the funniest blog on this site follows you back…. Omg…. Hi @kasaneteto….. 🥹

#mutuals #I saw this in my notifs and I went holy shit I’m fucking winning so hard rn #also if this is weird IM SO SORRY I CAN DELETE THIS this blog just fucks #anyway here’s wonderwall #anyway here’s a text post

[hikeyzz]

wild that i can be bleeding internally for six weeks and it's just ... fine?? i just keep working like everything is normal?? that's cool. just like, let me know at what point to be really concerned .. i guess?!

#when you thought the kidney infection went away but somehow you're still bleeding from your kidneys?? or your bladder or ... somewhere?! #what the fUuuUck dude #now i have to go see a urologist and who knows how fcking long i'll have to wait for that #and i am not convinced that my abdominal pain is from the lingering small bleed in my urinary tract #so what the FUCK else is wrong with me??? #and why are my doctors still saying shit like 'if it persists into next week follow up with me' #ITS PERSISTED THE LAST SIX WEEKS IF YOU ARE GOING TO DO SOMETHING NOW IS THE TIME NOT NEXT WEEK #god fuck i just #am trying to cope and deal and process this and it's very very hard when i am like begging for help and everyone is just acting #like i saw a fly and screamed my head off #and then finally when someone says oh shit i see the bear too i'm like holy shit you do?! #and then they can't confirm the bear bc all their tests failed so they just go 'ehh we'll try again if the bear's still there next week' #THE BEAR COULD ATTACK AT ANY SECOND AND I AM SUPPOSED TO JUST SIT HERE AND WAIT?! #i just can't dude i just fcking can't #disabled lyfe #hikey

[infizero]

OK I JUST FINISHED WATCHING ALL OF SONIC FORCES OVERCLOCKED HOLY FUCKKKKKKK. IT WAS SO GOOD SHOUT OUT TO EVERYONE WHO WORKED ON IT

#FUCKING FANTASTIC I AM IN AWE #THE CUTSCENES THE WRITING THE VOICE ACTING THE LEVEL DESIGN EVERYTHINGGGGGG SO SO GOOD #THE LAST BOSS FIGHT AGAINST INFINITE AND NEO METAL WENT SOOOO FUCKING HARD I WAS STIMMING LIKE CRAZY #NEO METAL LOOKED SOOOOOO GOOD BTW HOLY SHIT. #serena.txt #this has just fueled my want to rewrite the original forces story even more

[vettelcore]

almost ran over a dog that was on the middle of the road hows your day going

#holy fucking SHIT i almost got the scare of my life #dog is fine but i avoided him by literal cm i really thought i had ran him over #PLEASE LEASH YOUR FUCKING DOGS I DON'T CARE YOU'RE IN THE MOUNTAINS THERE'S A ROAD METERS AWAY FOR FUCKS SAKEEEEEEEEE #thank FUCK i have quick reflexes #i went to brake bc i thought he could've been lost and he got scared and jumped in front of the car #i was SO close to running him over i swear i really thought i had hit him #i went to find him and the owners were so chill about it while I was freaking out #LIKE BRO I ALMOST KILLED YOUR DOG WHY ARE YOU SO CALM #'i heard a car brake hahah sorry omg he just scaped' AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #im still shaking bro i yelled so hard my throat hurts now

[neverendingford]

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#so I have officially been to a club/bar now #tag talk #it was a country bar which was actually cool cause they played like. actual old country none of the post-9/11 shit #except everything else about it was ugh awful. music too loud drinks FUCKING EXPENSIVE holy shit stay home and drink instead pleaseeee #it was a work thing but none of my coworkers I'm friends with actually knew what they were doing so while I wasn't actual awkward they were #and the thing about social interaction is that if no one knows what they're doing it's not very fun #I grabbed someone and started a pool game because the table was open and both of us were absolute garbage at the game #but I was laughing about it and they were like... apologetic about being bad?? d #I did have the classic experience though where your friends disappear and you end up alone because you don't know where they went #all in all an interesting experience but not one I'm eager to repeat. #I did get invited to someone's Christmas Eve Party though which is cool and they gave me their number to make sure I have the info #so probably worth going just for that I think. got their phone number so we can communicate so that's like. successful social connection. #we're already friendly at work but easier to talk to someone when you're both not busy on the opposite side of the store with customers #anyway. who tf out going to clubs. awful environment. #I was like.. twenty percent of the way to being comfortable going out and dancing but hard to just swallow your hesitation #and a) alcohol as liquid courage is hmm not ideal and b) it was expensive anyway #oh well. it'll take more time to come out of my shell and I'd literally never been to a bar/club before in my life. #so I'll have some patience with myself and not be annoyed with how I could have done better or been more confident. #literally totally new environment. also... country music was nice but not a group of people I could really be comfortable around yaknow? #Lotta old white straight couples dancing the country two-step so I didn't really feel like I fit in. #anyway. interesting experience. neat to have. if I ever have a reason to go to a bar again I'll know more about what to expect #also... no one carded me. no one asked for ID? aren't they supposed to #oh wait. comment about the yodeling cause it was actual old country but they didn't do the voice register changes for it #I was like WAIT ARE THEY GONNA YODEL FOR REAL??? but then he didn't he just jumped intervals without shifting voice. #was a little disappointing but maybe a lot to expect from a random stage show at a bar. #wait wait I'm also proud of myself because the bartender asked open or closed and my mind scrambled for half a second to figure it out #but then I realized it meant open tab or closed tab like ordering more drinks and then paying at the end and so obviously closed #cause I ain't buying more than the one drink holy fuck it was so expensive also they mix them way stronger than I like #I like my drink weak ass and pathetic. alcohol is like spice I like a little to taste but not a lot. complimentary not overpowering #I drank it and then remembered I never ate lunch so I was like fuck and immediately went and ate something (work party so free food)

[gourde]

Spoiler free Live Golden Mole reaction to Mutant Mayhem

#rambling #i fucking loved this movie so much #also both me and my dad are huge nine inch nail fans #and at first we're both like: this music reminds me of nine inch nails! #and then the fourth song we're like: holy shit trent reznor???? #and then the credits rolled and we both went WOAH!!!! AWESOME #then listened to the soundtrack on the way back #theres another guy who worked on the music but i dont know him #i love the music in this movie. holy shit it went SO hard #they got trent Nine Inch Nails do what he does best #drumbeats and electric guitar with feedback and droning bass lines #fucking loved it

[stephaniedola]

turned into a butterfly last night i think

the way i was fluttering all over the dance floor

#i went to this hippy-ass 'ecstatic dance' thing #and holy shit what a fucking good time #i always complain about clubs because nobody dances #this was held in a dance studio and people did NOT fuck around #like people were just moving their body however they wanted #i always dance hard but i was like dripping sweat head to toe bc i was so energized #i was like JUMPING and RUNNING this is shit i never have energy to do #but the vibe was just so impeccable i was able to just move in tune with my body and what it needs #oh and like some random guy would start screaming or howling #and everyone would just join in #man i love feral people #thots et al