#I wish I could express it better

[bumblingbabooshka]

Polycule Moments Guess who got access to recording software

#chakotay/janeway/tuvok #st voyager #Chakotay how could you!!! Tuvok wanted to show off!!! #I love how Chakotay looks so much like '????' after - as he SHOULD. #Chakotay #Kathryn Janeway #Tuvok #A little slice of how Janeway & Tuvok normally operate...delicious <3 #they are so.....suave?? #I can't believe Tuvok actually STOOD up...SIR. Sit DOWN!!! Heheh this ain't drama class <3 #Janeway's expression when she finds something funny but can't laugh...'oop!' #I love early seasons Tuvok he takes every opportunity to be like 'Hello Captain who I know better than everyone else. I assume you want #xyz?' (Yes Tuvok you're brilliant as always old friend) and then if he were human he'd turn to Chakotay with the smuggest grin ever on his #face #I wish they'd used this trait of his to tell us more about their friendship pre-voyager #or had it originally be just the two of them as more insulated from the rest of the crew before Janeway starts branching out #(and maybe they can make it a plot point that Tuvok doesn't in a 'we've gotta befriend him!' episode)

[gazkamurocho]

Will we ever get more high school AU I've become obsessed with it 😍

Oh definitely yes! I'm glad you're enjoying the School AU as much as I am, dear anonymous! 💕

A few days ago I was even sketching how some other characters may look in the School AU like, Daigo, Ryuji, Akiyama and Hana lol

And It's also funny because last night I was remembering the camping trips from my school days for some reason, and then I started thinking how a camping trip with Kiryu, Majima and other Yakuza characters (their classmates) from the School AU would go xD The bus trip, forest hiking, flag hunting, cooking, playing soccer, treasure hunting in the dark, the boys and girls' cabins, bonfire,... Ohh the possibilities are endless! So much chaos would ensue sjkdsdfskhsd Imagine Kiryu's anxiety, anticipating of living with Majima in an isolated place for 3 whole days? xD And Majima would never go on a school camping trip willingly, but the thought of being able to get more chances to provoke Kiryu-chan and maybe spend some alone time with him in the woods changed his mind on the spot jhdfjksdhfds

Anyway, I don't have any concrete idea for the school AU for now but I'll let those thoughts cook and something eventually will come up! I also always accept suggestions from you guys because two or more people brainroting together are better than one, am I right?

#sometimes I wish I was good with writing because then I could write a fanfic about that camping trip #but my way of thinking and planning stories is very messy and I can't put all my thoughts into words #that's why I love to do comics because I'm better at expressing my ideas visually #like in the characters' body or facial expressions #also English is not my first language so another extra challenge for writing xD #school!au #daigo dojima #ryuji goda #akiyama shun #hana chan #tumblr ask #ask

[noir-renard]

So I haven't really had time to do art for fun in a while and I want to do more fan art and also finish this someday, but I've left little projects like this to rot before. I didn't want this to end up abandoned without you ever seeing the fan art I made for your fic, so here's a sketch from chapter one! It's very rough 😅

👀👀👀 oh my!!! this is gorgeous!! I am having so many thoughts and none of them are very coherent but a;lkjda;lkja;l I LOVE THIS!!! thank you so much for sharing it with me 😭❤️😭❤️😭 this is gorgeous, even if you don't add any more details to it, I'm just,,,,,stunned. floored. in awe. It's so soft and tender and just?? I love.

THANK YOU!!!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

#answered asks #batburger au #iygabab #darkeneddawning #I am obsessed with this I wish I could express it better but I'm just overwhelmed with emotion (pos) #thank you so so much!! #iygabab fan art

[skitskatdacat63]

2011 British gp Fernando is such a mood...

#okay now obviously i could make a super accurate actual version of this using a wider variety of pics #but i found it so funny that all of these are literally from one day #and hes exhibiting every stage of grief and expression known to mankind #there was literally almost 50 pics just from this one day at this specific time #thank you to whichever ferrari photographer this was 🙏 #(i feel like we dont really get pictures like this so much nowadays?) #(or at least not the sheer amount?) #(but i feel like i dont really have any pics of him from recently just chilling in the garage) #(i loveeeee the candids!! so cute to see the drivers just in their 'natural habitat' and also great for ref) #(but yeah idk i think i like photography from this era better) #(i remember reading an interview w a photographer who talked about how fernando was willing to let him take more candid pics) #(and i wonder if it was a more novel thing back then? and now its a lot more content based and performative? idk.) #anyways!! sooooooo obsessed w the amnt of pics of fernando chilling in his garage from the ferrari era #literally thousands of them and im so endeared!!!! #i wonder what was going on in this practice session for there to be so many pics of him incredulous 😭😭 #i wish I could just post all the pics from this compilation bcs hes soooooo adorable but also very memey #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #fa14 #2011 british gp #we do a little bit of f1

[moeblob]

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

[wonder-worker]

"[Elizabeth Woodville's] piety as queen seems to have been broadly conventional for a fifteenth-century royal, encompassing pilgrimages, membership of various fraternities, a particular devotion to her name saint, notable generosity to the Carthusians, and the foundation of a chantry at Westminster after her son was born there. ['On other occasions she supported planned religious foundations in London, […] made generous gifts to Eton College, and petitioned the pope to extend the circumstances in which indulgences could be acquired by observing the feast of the Visitation']. One possible indicator of a more personal, and more sophisticated, thread in her piety is a book of Hours of the Guardian Angel which Sutton and Visser-Fuchs have argued was commissioned for her, very possibly at her request."

-J.L. Laynesmith, "Elizabeth Woodville: The Knight's Widow", "Later Plantagenet and Wars of the Roses Consorts: Power, Influence, Dynasty"

#historicwomendaily #elizabeth woodville #my post #friendly reminder that there's nothing indicating that Elizabeth was exceptionally pious or that her piety was 'beyond purely conventional' #(something first claimed by Anne Crawford who simultaneously claimed that Elizabeth was 'grasping and totally lacking in scruple' so...) #EW's piety as queen may have stood out compared to former 15th century predecessors and definitely stood out compared to her husband #but her actions in themselves were not especially novel or 'beyond normal' and by themselves don't indicate unusual piety on her part #As Laynesmith's more recent research observes they seem to have been 'broadly conventional' #A conclusion arrived at Derek Neal as well who also points out that in general queens and elite noblewomen simply had wider means #of 'visible material expression of [their] personal devotion' - and also emphasizes how we should look at their wider circumstances #to understand their actions (eg: the death of Elizabeth's son George in 1479 as a motivating factor) #It's nice that we know a bit about Elizabeth's more personal piety - for eg she seems to have developed an attachment to Westminster Abbey #It's possible her (outward) piety increased across her queenship - she undertook most of her religious projects in later years #But again - none of them indicate the *level* of her piety (ie: they don't indicate that she was beyond conventionally pious) #By 1475 it seems that contemporaries identified Cecily Neville as the most personally devout from the Yorkist family #(though Elizabeth and even Cecily's sons were far greater patrons) #I think people also assume this because of her retirement to Westminster post 1485 #which doesn't work because 1) we don't actually know when she retired? as Laynesmith says there is no actual evidence for the traditional #date of 12 February 1487 #2) she had very secular reasons for retiring (grief over the death of her children? her lack of dower lands or estates which most other #widows had? her options were very limited; choosing to reside in the abbey is not particularly surprising. it's a massive and unneeded jump #to claim that it was motivated solely by piety (especially because it wasn't a complete 'retirement' in the way people assume it was) #I think historians have a habit of using her piety as a GOTCHA!' point against her vilification - which is a flawed and stupid argument #Elizabeth could be the most pious individual in the world and still be the pantomime villain Ricardians/Yorkists claim she was #They're not mutually exclusive; this line of thinking is useless #I think this also stems from the fact that we simply know very little about Elizabeth as an individual (ie: her hobbies/interests) #certainly far less than we do for other prominent women Margaret of Anjou; Elizabeth of York;; Cecily Neville or Margaret Beaufort #and I think rather than emphasizing that gap of knowledge her historians merely try to fill it up with 'she was pious!' #which is ... an incredibly lackluster take. I think it's better to just acknowledge that we don't know much about this historical figure #ie: I do wish that her piety and patronage was emphasized more yes. but it shouldn't flip too far to the other side either.

[xx-thedarklord-xx]

I just read zero for two and I am DYING at how good it was. I was blown away by your talent and in awe of the way the story progressed. ngl I clicked on it because of the stats (I know I shouldn't but I read a string of badly tagged stuff and needed to read something good). I mean a fic less than 10k words with nearly 6k kudos and over a 1k bookmarks? I kind of stared at it like DAMN and then wondered if it would live up to the hype and it DOES. Not only did blow my mind and make me rethink EVERYTHING I've ever known, that plot twist had me gasping and that rarely happens which made me fall in love with it even more. I just need you to know that this will be my favorite story and I will now read all of your other stuff. You have a fan in me!

Whew this made me emotional. I do apologize for the late reply. Each time I tried to post this I wasn't sure I had the right words to express what this meant to me. You are so very kind, and I appreciate that you gave the story a chance considering the type of story it is. I wonder what you might think of my other stories when you read them, but even if Zero for Two is the only thing you read, I appreciate it so much.

I have considered making a sequel or epilogue to that fic, but I do love the way it ended, and I am swamped with stories that need to be written. Perhaps in the future I will write one, and I may need a nudge every once in a while to remind me of that. Thank you again, thank you thank you thank you!

Zero for Two (a tease of power) Draco had always known he was different, special even. He didn’t need his parents to tell him that, because they never did. It was obvious in the way that he could see things that no one else could. He knew things about them that he shouldn’t. The older he got the clearer it became that he was alone in what he could do. Not just in abilities but power, essence, influence. No one could come close. Until, Potter. Draco knew that Potter was different the moment he met him.

#drarry #Draco Malfoy #Harry James Potter #Harry Potter #hpdm #dmhp #THANK YOU #omg I wish I could express myself better #you are so kind #and I want to hug you #imagine a very warm hug #the tingly warm kind that make you want to stay in the embrace forever #that is us right now #we are hugging #do you feel it #hehe #Thank you again #I really mean it

[blu3b3rryj4mp1r3]

why do I feel the need to filter myself all the time? as if people care if I want to use coloured text, if my art looks bad or if I spell words wrong lol it's MY blog, why do I care so stupid much what other people think? it's the same thing even when I'm writing in my diary, I'm like, "Oh NO what if I DIE and someone reads my diary?!?!?!?! they're going to think I'm cringe" BERRY you stupid idiot! stop caring so much what people think, you're not alive to appease others!! just do what you want!! constantly thinking about what other people think is so draining you don't even have the energy to talk to people because you're so worried about how you're being perceived. PLEASE STOP!!

#I'm getting really sick of you me! #tw vent #sort of #i'm alright #i just wish i could be myself and do what i want without feeling so scared and guilty all the time #it's alright for others to be themselves and express themselves how they want to in my eyes #but i judge myself so harshly for trying to do the same #sometimes i wonder how much of my personality really is me and how much is just coping mechanisms i've developed #i don't feel like i enjoy being quiet for example #i have so many thoughts constantly flowing through my head #things i'd like to say #things i'd like to add to conversations #being quiet makes me feel like i'm being burned from the inside but other people praise me for it #and i also wasn't born a self-loathing mess y'know? #i want to get better #but it's so so difficult #c ptsd #tw death mention #(just the word but still just in case)

[abbeyofcyn]

Hey there! I've been meaning to tell you this for the longest time, but only now do I actually sit my ass down and do it.

I am such a fan of your blog. Your art is amazing, they all look so in character all the time! You give them so many expressions and nonverbal language <3 Your ideas and scripts and dialogs are just as crazy. Man, your comics have all had such an impact on me when first reading. It's getting me so emotional!

Last but not least, you sound really funny and caring and amazing, too ;)

Thank you for sharing all this with us!!

Oh man this is such a sweet message! I'm flattered that you think they look in character and I'm so glad you like my stories 💜💙❤️🧡

I hope you'll enjoy my future art and stories too

#ask abbey #I wish I could better express how happy these kind of messages make me #means the world to me

[bandzboy]

this fuck ass company is making it so hard to support groups idk if the svt members supported the usage of ai (if they did that's disappointing) but HOW CAN THIS EVEN BE AN OPTION?? WHERE'S SO MUCH DISTASTE FOR AI NOWADAYS IN ART FIELDS??

#i'm soooo at my wits end #i never thought i would get so mad but this is getting too much #even for me who has been a kpop stan for like 6 years like jesus christ #JESUS CHRIST #i wish i could express my anger better atp but i am just so tired #tris.txt

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#man ive never seen an eating disorder kill someone else besides a parent infecting a child but my nana is really trying #shes like 1000% orthotexic. will not eat anything not filled with vegetables or fat. and my grandpa is 87yo with a heart condition currentl #in the hospital for covid bc thry went to Christmas church and dont believe in being vaccinated and my dad is so frustrated #bc he knows his mom is not gonna give his dad hearty foods. he needs to eat like protein shakes and meat and ice cream. anything thats not #her cooking which sucks on top of being extremely healthy. except its not healthy bc they dont eat a balanced diet #so its my nanas eating disorder killing her husband and shes so fucking frustrating. im like 99% sure she has obsessive compulsive #personally disorder bc she fits to a T and has zero insight. she may have full on 0cd bc talking to my dad he has more obvious 0cd #compulsions than i do. he used to say phrases before going to bed and would take 2 steps across the floor to prevent bad things from #happening. so like im pretty sure my nana is where i get my perfectionism and 0cd. god. i wish i could express how fucked up she is #like my dad said at least he had a stable home to grow up in but like she has zero sympathy for other people. cannot look past herself. wil #not wear a mask bc she doesnt care enough abt other ppl. my dad was like: u would not have survived in that house. which is fair bc i am #barely keeping it together coming from a stable home with two sympathetic parents who i know love me #and like its sad that they're suffering the effects of buying into the fox news bullshit and its killing them #but also. genuinely. i think theyre not very good ppl. theyre the type of people who think they're better bc they're religious. white. and #thin. and theyre not better thsn anyone. their grandchildren cant stand them. well cant stand her at least. papa is just quite so its hard #to say what hes thinking. apparently he was confused last night and saying something about eating dinner on the golf course. which sounds #nicer thsn being in the hospital lol. ugh. he seems not long for this world tbh. may he pass peacefully to b with his 1st wife who died of #brain cancer at age like 20 or something. so it goes. bleh. how many funerals are intended for me in the next 5 years? hopefully none but #that seems improbable with the unspoken drain circling that seems to b going on in this family. old age and like almost 10 years of cancer #defying the stats but for how much longer? #i dunno. its just so weird to watch these things happen and not talk about it directly to the other ppl who see it #i worry that ill come off as too callose or inappropriate bc i have that tendency when something bad is happening but thats everyone else #excuse? idk i just feel like its better to talk abt things #unrelated #ed mention #i tell u this so i can say these things to someone and also bc if i were u. i would like to hear the drama #bc im nosey and i assume other r too ;-]

[pawzofchaos]

screenshot redraws of helga from the pilot cuz she’s a cutie patootiee 🫶

#I could’ve gotten better quality screenshots #but I was 2 lazy #and uh #I wish I could offer better art than just crappy colored sketches #but I’ve just been super tired and busy lately #aaaaaaaaaaaaaa #paws draws #art #my art #fanart #ha #hey arnold #hey arnold art #helga pataki #hey arnold helga #helga g pataki #screenshot redraw #she has such silly expressions I love hersm

[v2is-baby]

So, you don't believe in races, as like, a social construct to separate people based on skin color and where you were born, because racism is the hate of all races that aren't your own, and "race" can be a blanket term for both skin color and ethnicity, but race can also be a quick way to say "I wasn't born here." So the term isn't inherently bad, i just want to specify, do you not believe in races due to the social construct aspect, or just refusing to acknowledge races as a general thing? And no I'm not trying to start anything, im just a little confused about this, the context is lacking...

I can try to summarize this with my poor English:

It's a fabricated thing to categorize people and empower groups! In the 16th century, when race was first conceptualized, the "white saint" (white European) was thought to be smarter, more civilized and therefore superior in comparison to other "types" of people by "default". At first Christianity justified this by saying the white European is closer to God:

It started as a tool to justify european superiority, the white skinned, civilized man of God. Pure and right. (Christianity began depicting angels, saints and Jesus as white, blonde, blue/green eyes europeans.)

Later on, people began assimilating that concept in a deeper way, thinking that the Ethiopian is enslaved and exploited because that's how things are naturally. Colonies were a thing also, cementing this idea further.

And Darwinism made all of this even worse. It's when very smart people would compare the skull of a chimpanzee with the one of a black person, thinking "damn... so the Caucasian is evolved! Now it all makes even more sense!"

Historically, previous to the 16th century people would not use the word race to classify people, but ethnicity, religion, beliefs. Race is a very recent thing and it all started with the necessity of allowing the European to do whatever they wanted with others. Race didn't only make them feel inherently superior, but also convinced the people, of different skin color or features, to believe that they are different.

And I'm very against this! not only races aren't real in a scientific point (genetically we are NOT that different to be classified in such way), them were invented to divide people, to oppress, and to make you believe that whatever good or bad thing happens to you is because of an inherited right or curse.

And this is something that I want to end, somehow, because I come from a man who was a Nazi.

#you should read about this #its a lot to unpack #just because your nose has this shape or your skin looks like that doesnt mean you belong in another group #it doesnt mean you are different in my eyes #its the foundation of hatred #and i wish I could express better how I feel about someone with “different features” because most seem to take the word “differences”athear #for me pigmentation and facial structures dont feel like differences #i am not comparing the color of my skin with yours to find a difference #this is another thing that feels very wrong for me

[mewtwo24]

I just watched s2 episode 10 in the english dub and I have to say. Nothing could have prepared me for Howard's delivery of that final scene where Xie Lian gets worked up about the truth coming out.

The just...sincerely agonized delivery of "That my words were the empty ramblings of a sad child!!" shook me to the core. The absolute self-loathing in that line, the raw emotion. The way concealing the truth was done to spare Lang Qianqiu but also at its heart was about Xie Lian's unresolved feelings of humiliation and shame, the way [redacted] did everything in his power to make Xie Lian lose faith in himself and the possibility of good prevailing in the world.

The way TGCF keeps me up at night, man...

#tgcf #xie lian #lang qianqiu #the runner-up line that devastated me too was: 'it's the least of what I DESERVE!!!' #i dont think there are words to describe how that made hua cheng feel knowing all that he does (from his time as wu ming) #legitimately its on the spectrum of mantis shrimp im guessing bc i can't fathom trying to put it into words either #the way xie lian won't stop punishing himself for wishing for better--for wishing for peace and collaboration--even 800 years later #the way he continues to take responsibility for all the wrongs others commit--the way he deems himself a failure -> #for things he simply could not change or did not purposefully incite. the way he won't stop punishing himself when things go wrong #i honestly cant get over how acutely xl feels like the result of gifted child syndrome #having all of these grandiose expectations placed on him and doing his utmost to uphold them at any cost #doing everything he can to the point of self-destruction to do the right thing #only to end up hated in the end when he proved to have limits--even as a god #and discarded despite his efforts; ultimately deemed worthless for not measuring up to what were impossible/rigged standards from the get g #and like . the way up to this point they made the creative decision to make xie lian's emotional range fairly static #not that he's unfeeling but that he doesn't tend to raise his voice or express anything extreme (for good reason) #until this precise moment where it all comes flying apart with so many old scars torn open #absolutely fantastic im on the ground #honestly i feel like i forget how difficult a decision this had to be for hua cheng #i mean naturally he chose this because he wanted xie lian absolved #and ultimately xie lian really does need to stop the self-flagellation--he takes it too far #but watching him tremble with fear haunted by the echoes of what he almost became #fucking cHRIST

[1010neveragain]

jeremy kocal appreciation post because hes one of my favorite cabeese ever but i dont see people talking about him much. crazy eyes mcgee i will love u forever

#starlight express #stex #cb the red caboose #cb #red caboose stex #caboose stex #jeremy kocal #stex us tour 2003 #stex us tour 2 #jeremy kocal my beloved #the silly <3 #unfortunately there arent a lot of photos that i could find. because it was 2003 #but anyways. he brings me so much joy hes so silly #i wish he was in a better production lol #i love doing photo dumps i love doing appreciation posts look at my images boy

[fiona-fififi]

...

#really fucking wish people in this fandom would stop throwing around whatever fucking buzzword is their favorite at the moment #in order to shame every goddamn person who has a slightly different interpretation of a character #love how in the past two and half seasons of this show i (as a bisexual woman by the way) have been accused of #being homophobic for reading eddie as bi or demi instead of gay #being misogynistic for not fawning all over lucy constantly (and i don't even dislike her i was just slightly critical of her introduction) #and now biphobic for both thinking buck could have behaved better on their date AND for being slightly critical of tommy #while actively expressing love for both characters #this fandom is so fucking exhausting honestly #911 discourse #911 negativity #i guess #except it's not about the show it's about the fandom