Thank you for your Kirk has anxiety post. I never thought my anxiety would be useful for, well, anything other than a cage. Maybe I could use it for something more. I'm not sure what, but hopefully it could be helpful.
i have anxiety too, so that post gave me a lot of feelings, reading it. I’ve learned how to deal with it over the years but it’s a huge hinderance. Thinking of Jim Kirk, starship captain, successful at what he does, having anxiety and yet learning to work with it and also being successful gives me a lot of hope.
you can definitely use your anxiety for something more. whether it’s feeling empathy for another person struggling with it too, or developing ways to channel it into something good, you’ll figure it out. I believe in you anon ❤️
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Happy Birthday Jaejoong
I’ve been writing you little birthday love letters and just proclaiming my love for no special reason for so long now that I don’t even know what to say. I feel like I’ve already said everything that I’m capable of putting into words.
You’re thirty years old today! Thirty!! Because you exist, this world has been a brighter, happier, more beautiful place for three decades. I’m not all that inclined to believe in luck, but then I think about how, in the grand scheme of the universe, thirty years, or even a lifetime, is nothing, barely a heartbeat, and yet I was fortunate enough to be born just a few years after you, and I can’t help but believe. When I first became your fan, I was a teenager, and you were in your mid-twenties. Now, here we are; I’m in my twenties and you’re moving into your thirties. I spent some of the most pivotal years of my life watching, loving, and admiring you, and I like to think I’ve become a better person thanks to you.
I love you so much. So much. And each day, I love you more than I did the day before. I’ve never loved anyone the way I love you, and I doubt I’ll ever love someone in this way again. Your smile makes me smile, even on my worst days. Your voice soothes and relaxes me like no one else’s, whether I can’t stop crying or am having a particularly bad bout of insomnia. You’re good, in a world full of not-so-good people, and you care, you care so damn much about everyone. You inspire me to be good and caring as well. To be as good-hearted and as compassionate as I can possibly be. I want to become someone you would be proud to know is your fan.
I’ve said all of this and more over the years, but I can’t stress it enough. You’re the light of my life. The brightest and lightest light of all. You’re the fucking sun in my sky, and just like the sun, you’re always shining. My world is a better place because you exist in it. No matter how confusing and messy and complicated the rest of my life gets, the one thing that always stays true and simple and sure is the fact that I love you. You make me smile, you make cry, and best of all, you remind me that there is beauty and kindness in the world. I hope this coming year, and every year to follow, brings you nothing but good times and good health, because you deserve nothing less.
Happy 30th birthday Jaejoong! I can’t wait to spend your 31st birthday together~ ♡
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For so many years has my soul longed for theraphy, so I could have at least one chance to understand what it is that I feel so much, deep inside, and sometimes just can’t name.
But today, after 25 years of search, I finally found the roots of my darkest issues. I can’t say I’m dealing with this very well yet, nor can I say that someday I will, but I’m pretty sure that from now on I may handle myself better
I don’t want to stop feeling anything, I just want to know why. My path has just started and seems loaded of...feelings.
Whenever I try to find the words to express just how much you mean to me, they always fall short. But I want you to know that I love you in the deepest sense of the word. I'm proud of you, you're my role model and you're incredible. You've saved me with your music, your kindness, and your inspiring attitude towards life. My life is infinitely better thanks to you and your bandmates. The world became better for having you in it, and even with you gone, your light still shines for all to see. Legends never die, my dear, and you are the greatest legend there ever was. I love you. And happy birthday Melina, enjoy your 69th with Jim and all your cats, wherever you are. ❤️
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today is the 10 year anniversary of this cover, which means it’s been about 10 years since I found luke on youtube
at age 14 I had no idea just how much this boy - and later the band - would mean to me. I’ve talked about this before so I’m not going to go into it too much now (you can read here if you want to), but I needed to take a moment to just thank the universe for bringing me luke
so many things have happened in the last 10 years, but the one constant has been luke. our lives couldn’t have had more different trajectories, but we’ve been on this journey together, and I’ve never been more grateful for anything. hopefully one day i’ll be able to tell him just how much he means to me
happy 10 years, hemmo - here’s to the next 10 💙
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