#I’d love to be right about this though

[individuating]

umineko project / witch hunt / steam release translations of the red text at the end of episode 4

#umineko spoilers #umineko #to me this is proof of confession of the golden witch’s existence validated by the vn itself. at some point sayo put her feelings to paper. #though having ikuko happen to find the bottle is. lazy. to me. as a non i=s believer #anyways about the text itself…probably the most obvious difference between the translations is number 3 #if only you had never come back vs. if you don’t come back is a pretty big change… what i’d give to know japanese </3 #my best guess is that it could be taken either way since parts of the text are cut off at the borders? otherwise why wld there be this gap. #.me #topic: sayo #also ppl confused at number 5 (sayo very clearly Loves) refer back to the angry rant beatrice did at shannon in ep2 about how love = lust #like i swear any time ur lost abt something relating to sayo u can just say ‘it’s about sex’ and you would be right in some measure

[fakeoutbf]

ANDY PLEASE WHEN DID U START WATCHING SHAMELESS AND WHY ARENT WE TALKING ABOUT IT TOGETHER NONSTOP

i started like a week ago?? i’m just barely into season 2 but i’m having the best time

#i think ian’s my favorite right now ahwjrjsk #and lip i love him and his potential but also poor him for falling for someone so out of reach sighhhhhh #you can rant about it though i’d LOVE your opinion <3 #answered #mutuals #bri 💜

[catastrxblues]

rachel elizabeth dare defender til the day i die

#i don’t know what went in my head i just suddenly feel the need to make this post for her because!! #i remember the days when i first read the last olympian and got into the fandom through pinterest and finding out that people hated her #and i was like??? #what?? #but i didn’t have any place to talk about it and her and so i didnt and repressed that and today i just remembered it again and so i though #wait… i should make a rachel elizabeth dare defense post i mean i have tumblr now so i can #hence the post #i love her she’s awesome #if i saw a hater of my friend right here in the year of 2023 #i’d just like to tell you that i am capable to fetch and throw a brick that is very good to knock some senses<3 #rachel elizabeth dare #percy jackson #pjo #nadirants

[misc-obeyme]

My family: Hey you wanna come to lunch with us today? We’re gonna make you anyway because when was the last time you left your house?

Me: Well I WOULD but you see I’m neck deep in an obsession about my OC for a mobile otome game and even though I’m not editing his story like I should be right now, I am fleshing out his relationships with the canon characters & my other OCs just for my own knowledge and like yeah I could leave it for a bit but I am just in the MIDDLE of it right now-

My family: 🙂

Me: Yeah okay lemme get my shoes on.

This is how it would go if I even bothered trying to explain the OC stuff to them. But while my parents are aware of the shenanigans, they don’t get it & I already know that excuse won’t work. So fine I guess I’ll leave my house today.

#I’m sorry about this I’m just taking a break from tidying my house so they don’t think I live in a mess all the time #though I kinda do because of the adhd #and I can’t stop thinking about Arrie #and how I’d rather be working on his stuff right now lol #I am the worst #sorry family I love you #misc rambles

[tea-cat-arts]

Fu Hua and Senti are the only characters that should be allowed to interact with Kevin actually

#honkai impact #kevin kaslana #fu hua #herrscher of sentience #nah cuz they’re the only ones that actually have a dynamic with Kevin #there’s so much history and mutual understanding between Fu Hua and Kevin it’s tragic when they fight #and then theirs Senti who has all of Fu Hua’s memories #when Senti shit talks him it’s usually an intentional bluff or something that’s actually true #so it feels like an actual character interaction instead of people just pulling comments about Kevin out of their asses #for an actual rewrite I’d want Kevin to have an actual dynamic with the main trio #like maybe a sort of rivalry between Kevin and Bronya #where Bronya is frustrated with Kevin repeatedly undercutting her victories #and maybe have Bronya steal Kevin’s piece of Finality directly from him to obtain HoTr form #and maybe have Mei slowly realizing she and Kevin are incredibly similar- each giving up everything they are for a loved one- via ER/EE #and as she finds redemption for herself she decides it’s something she wants to extend to Kevin as well #though this storyline would rely on Mei actually doing something bad as part of World Serpent #for Kiana I think she should’ve been the one to interact with Stigma space Kevin #giving her a direct image of the person he could’ve been if he was given the love and support he needs #idk why I always revert to Mei representing the past Bronya representing the present and Kiana representing the future in my rewrites #but ya- as things stand in canon- Fu Hua and Senti are the only two with any right to judge Kevin

[nightswatchdisbandmentera]

Might be a hot take but a major character’s death is really only as good as the weight and the treatment that the narrative gives it. Sure, any author has the ability to write death as they see fit. But whether the consumer (of any given form of media) is actually able to emotionally connect and resonate with the departure of someone who has occupied a good chunk of narrative space very heavily depends on how it’s treated within the story. If it’s a major character, the narrative needs enough built-in breathing space. As in, the consumer doesn’t have to fill in the blanks as to how the death impacted the plot or the remaining characters. Let the narrative do that for them, and that would actually allow the consumer to better react and relate to that major death (sadness, anger, joy, etc). Allow the rest of the characters (who were impacted by the deceased) to react to their parting. Let them engage with the death in a manner that helps justify the character’s inclusion in the narrative to begin with. Make it clear how the character’s life and (especially) their death relate to the larger themes of the story. Because most consumers aren’t stupid. We don’t want our hands held at every waking moment, but we also don’t want our investment in a story to be insulted just for the sake of a cheap shock. Give us time to breathe and grieve. And respect that we have put in a lot of emotional investment in a story and its characters, and we deserve to have that acknowledged.

#recent developments in a very popular ip have forced me to think about how creators treat the deaths of major or main characters #and the discourse of ~ohh we don’t need to see every single thing~ has got me thinking #like sure we don’t need to be spoon fed everything but consumers have varying emotional investments depending on the characters #a side character it’s passable if we don’t get any fanfare but a MAIN??? #we’ve invested so much into their journey and the themes in their arcs and how they affect the world around them #is it too bad to want that to be actually acknowledged by & within the narrative? #so that whole thing got me to think about main characters whose deaths were well done in fiction #ned stark imo is a really good one because the immediate payoff of his death is the start of the wot5k and long term effect was #that the stark kids now had to fill in their father’s shoes and rise and become leaders in their own right and while we still have twow an #ados we can also tell as shown in adwd that the long term effect of Ned’s legacy is that house stark will be preserved even when it’s on th #brink of extinction #so that’s a well done imo because we also see throughout 4 books just how much his death meant to the kids #his death hurts because we see how his kids are hurting - jon arya sansa bran are GOING THROUGH IT AND IT HURTS! #I’d argue MCU did a pretty good job of showing tony’s everlasting legacy after his death and they did that through Peter who was the proteg #we can love and grieve for tony though peter whom we love and have come to relate to so Tony’s death has a lot of narrative weight #and how it’s handled is satisfying even though we’re hurt that he’s gone #same with sirius and dumbledore in HP - sirius’ especially hits sooo hard because Harry goes absolutely apeshit in ootp and then has to #pick up the pieces in hbp + dumbledore’s life and death is given quite a good amount of narrative space for both harry and the reader #the recent developments in jjk have me worried that a certain someone’s departure won’t be given the narrative weight it deserves #and part of that is gege’s pacing being wonky because oops it’s another big fight that will take god knows how many chapters idk #I’ll wait and see but as of right now….i feel like fan complaints about it shouldn’t be brushed aside because they’re super valid 😕 #asoiaf #harry potter #jujutsu kaisen #mcu #marvel #comics #manga

[ruffgem]

nobody knows the demons I’m fighting ok my closest friend (bless his soul) is a musician who’s tone deaf with bad rhythm and zero technical or intuitive ability to mix music but I can’t tell him he straight up doesn’t have a good musical ear despite dedicating a decade of his life to it because it’s his only dream and will crush him. THE THING IS-- i wouldnt care... live your life... i think everyone should have an outlet they're passionate about-- but he's so CONVINCED that he's hot shit, to the point of just making completely asinine statements that leave me speechless. and he’s really defensive, also. bro. bro?????? but im trapped. i cannot say shit about music. it's his LIFE bro. WALK A MILE IN MY SHOES….

#now I’m not saying *i’m* super skilled— I don’t know much technical shit. and thats not all that makes a good musician but... #BUT I CAN HEAR!!! I CAN HEAR!!! #by god I can mutherfucking hear #I’ve been hearing his music since 2015 and praying for a miraculous intervention to give him the gift of musical ability because I want to #see him Win at his greatest passion #sometimes he has his moments where he comes up with something cool don’t get me wrong #but bro #the worst is when he tries to start debates about how certain songs are mixed #I’m like dude I am not hearing you out because the way you mix your shit is entirely nonsensical #BUT I CANT SAY THAT #he asked me if I’d be his drummer when he plays live and if he ‘ever goes on tour’ (lol) #I said yea because he’s my pal but... #im telling u right now.... #im not trying to MANIFEST bad energy but.... #that scenario would not turn out well #anyway this is probably all my fault cuz once when he was feeling low i told him you have to be a little self-centered to be a musician #and i think he took that shit to heart... because.... LOL #i cant tell him though because if i was secretly a bad artist this whole time i wouldnt want to know #so #i do love my friend but i have to vent because or else i will explode

[batnbreakfast]

So I started to watch 9-1-1 with Shark and can you imagine her face when we reached S02 E11???

“911? A shark bit a man! Beach, no, we’re on the freeway!”

“Oh, yeah, she’s a tiger shark and we’re bringing her back into the wild.”

They lose the bite on the guy’s arm with the jaws [insert joke] of life.

The rescuers immediately start to slosh water onto the shark like it’s a dolphin, then they strap it in front of a fire truck to drive it to be released at a beach, and that’s the moment when I heard Shark make her usual “pained by media portrayals of sharks” sound, but like tripled.

🤣🤣🤣🤣

911 fandom, if you see this:

I need gif sets of the shark strapped in front of the fire truck, please, because there are definitely downsides to being a marine biologist.

#911 show #911 #we do enjoy the show very much don’t get me wrong #that storyline though is completely insane #and I’d like to taunt her a bit more with it #because that’s what love is all about right? 😂

[lovebloods]

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#hiding this in the tags bc it’s kind of embarrassing and i need to get it off my chest #and i could journal about it but i just want someone to see me #sorry for being cringe <333 #but i don’t know what the hell i am like i don’t know if i’m even nonbinary anymore and that scares me like being nonbinary felt like coming #home after a long trip #and now i’m having all these thoughts about wanting to be a man? like near tears rn bc i want to be a guy but then when i think of actually #being a guy i freak out a bit #bc i like being seen as feminine too and i know that there are feminine men and they get treated so terribly #and i feel like all the men i see that i want to be like or look like are white! why don’t i see any black trans men like i feel so alone #and i’m scared to look/be openly trans bc there’s so much violence against people like us that it feels safer to just cosplay as a cis woman #even though i’m not #like i don’t want to be a boy but i want to be one and i absolutely don’t want to be a girl but i’d like to be seen as someone sometimes #it’s all very confusing #AND like i know i’m biromantic like im attracted to all genders and people #but im like? am i on the ace spectrum #bc i have a low sex drive am often sex repulsed and will sometimes ‘test’ #myself to see if im sexually attracted to people and most of the time it’s like #it’s like meh not really but sometimes im like sure but that’s rarer and rarer these days?? and like. tmi here but i jerk off and enjoy it #so i can’t be asexual right?? i tried looking it up but the articles just confused me #but then i also am like with the right person if i had a connection to them i wouldn’t mind having sex with them! but like. then i think #about actually having to be in a relationship and i’m like gross no but i think that’s just relationship trauma and fear of being #vulnerable #and like i know i don’t HAVE to have a label on my gender or sexuality but for me personally it helps to know What i am #and and i love butches so so so much and if i’m a man how can i love butches? like #it’s all so confusing #i feel like i’m 14 and going through puberty again

[rosicheeks]

What would be your perfect date? 😊

First date? Probably just a classic dinner at a restaurant or homemade meal. I want to get all dolled up and they actually dress up too and we spend the time getting to know each other.

#perfect first date and perfect date in general would be different though #I’m a hopeless romantic so I have plentyyyyy date ideas 😂 #the one that comes to my mind right now is a paintball date #(specially thinking of the scene in 10 things i hate about you) #but really??? #truthfully? #I want them to plan a date by themselves and just tell me when to be ready for them to pick me up #i wouldn’t really care what we did #just the thought of having someone actually spend the time planning and getting a date together? #that would blow my mind tbh #i wanna say I’ve been on like 3ish ‘real’ dates and I’m pretty sure I had to decide for each of them #if you know me you know I HATE decisions #so I think having someone know that about me and decide for me and plan it all so I don’t have to lift a finger?? #yeah that sounds like a dream #for the first date I like the idea of just a classic dinner date so then you can kinda feel out the vibes #if we can talk over dinner and constantly have something to talk about (no awkward dead silences) then I’m sure I’d have fun #doing anything else with them #** also I was trying to reply to this ask while I was at work but it didn’t go well 🤦🏽‍♀️ #every single time I looked down at my phone or started typing something would happen in my yard #so I had to set my phone down and take care of it 🤦🏽‍♀️ #only one more shift left and then I’m outta there 👌 #lol this is all over the place I’m sorry #I don’t wanna go back and redo any of it tho so here we are 😂 #I just really want to go on a date in general 😭😭😭 #I want to flirt and blush and get swept off my feet 😤 #thanks for the ask sweetheart 🩷 #ask #lovely mutuals

[floral-hex]

woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.

#tumblr ate something like this but I think I deserve to shout uselessly into the void #shits rough dawg #I know it’s rough for everyone. I feel shitty even talking about myself. still… compelled to vent… big butts #haven’t really been on here much since it hasn’t really scratched that itch lately & just makes me feel lonelier #it’s cold #saw the Jazzercise studio open across the street. 5am for Jazzercise? wow. early. #and then everyone left an hour and a half later. lights out. everybody gone. weird schedule. I am perplexed. #went down the road and got a soda and I’ve been sitting in my driveway contemplating for the last 2.5 hours #guy at the gas station tried to talk to me but I just half assed a smile and nod and left #even though I know I’d love to just… talk to someone. I suppose it has to be ‘on my terms’ whatever those are #I miss having a therapist. or even just when my little brothers would talk to me. when anyone would. blegh #my insurance is still a mess and I’m about to run out of one of my blood pressure meds this week #maybe I’ll have a stroke. scary to think about. I think about dying a lot but that potential feels too real. just… pop! and I’m done. #I’ll try today to finally push to straighten it out but everything feels daunting #woke up with so much anxiety. about my health. my hearing. no money. my life. had to get out of the house even if it’s just right outside #hate to say it but I need(want) thc. haven’t wanted to spend money on it but I could have really used it this morning #can’t be sad if you can’t feel anything (jokingly but also not. whichever is less sad sounding) #actually treated myself to Dune 2 last week and it was so so good. wish I could go again. but it’s drugs food or movie right now. so… #I know. dumb priority but BIG SCREEN. maybe it’ll hit theaters again for the next awards season hopefully. just a real nice loud experience #anyway… I should go inside. almost 7am. need to take my brothers to school then drive my mom to her daily appointments #I’ve felt so hollow and angry and sad for so long it feels like. I feels so weak and sad and I’m tired of it. I’m so tired. #I’ve been eating about 1 meal a day and sleeping a lot. this is the worst my body has ever been. I feel like I’m just waiting to die. #is this relatable? #just have to look past it. it is nothing. this body is nothing. just enjoy your soda. #gonna look at pictures of butts now #ok gotta go I love you goodbye forever #you can ignore this #text

[okcoolthanks]

Two rats having lunch

Two rats having lunch

The vermin

The vermin

Enthusiastically munch!

TWO RATS

ON THE GROUND

EATIN FOOD

GRILLED CHEESE AND

TOMATO SOUP

#i almost want to make a cover b/c two trucks sounds really funky but I physically can’t put my brain through that #I just don’t like sex songs and shit #unrelated sorta but I watched Rocky horror picture show around Halloween and I dissasosiated so much that I barely remember what happened #the rest of the night #the whole of that day sucked too because that was when I was left outside for three hours at a dance that I only went too because my mom #wasn’t home so she couldn’t drop me off for the sleepover after and I thought it would be fun to show up as a surprise because I didn’t #think I’d be able to before! #but they forgot about me and I was crying outside in late October and everyone forgot abt me #even the teacher that came over to check on me. she said that she’d come back in a few mins and I said that was ok but she didn’t #I never blasted Spirit Phone into my ears as loud as I did that day #anyways that should’ve been another post in of itself sorry lmao #still mad about it even though I know it’s my fault I’m upset and they weren’t really at fault #I kinda fucked the friendship because I was very emotional and I haven’t had friends in YEARS so I didn’t know how arguments work? #and the only time I had real arguments was with my dad and that usually felt like a ‘you have to survive this make yourself right so he’ll #leave’ kinda thing #yay love trauma dumping good night guys

[catastrxblues]

hi so i just finished bridge to terabithia and now i’m unwell and my eyes are red because i’ve been crying before i’d even reached 20 minutes of it for i actually knew what was going to happen and by the time i reached an hour something something i just straight up sobbing screaming into my pillow. and now it’s 12 am and i’m still thinking about them. because god, look at them, how they were, the little world they lived in, wouldn’t you just love that, to run away, to escape, to grasp that childhood naivety and innocence that you lost a long time ago, to feel the sun in your skin and the air in your lungs and to paint fantasies and laugh and play and run hidden away from the world and find an old run down tree house and decided to make it your own little shelter and pin up canvases on the worn wood and paint and let your creativity goes wild and have someone understand you and gets you and do it with you, and wouldn’t you just love to have something so constant, so sincere, so genuine, so pure, so real, that there wasn’t anything else. if i knew i was going to cry this much, if i knew how much space this movie would make in my life, i wouldn’t have started this movie tonight. i would have been in peace on the floor of my room, not realizing how badly i actually want something like this even though i would never unironically admit this to anyone in my life or even myself when i’m outside of the familiar place of my mind, for that matters

#bridge to terabithia #how am i supposed to recover #i wasn’t planning to write a paragraph about it but yeah i kinda love this movie i guess #i needed a good cry and the universe didn’t stop me from choosing this movie i don’t know if that’s nice or simply mean #i was going to watch la la land after this but that’s not gonna happen now #i’m not reading back what i wrote otherwise i would just delete it because i’d think this movie deserves better more coherent thoughts #and i’d say that i’d just rewrite it tomorrow but then i wouldn’t #because nothing would ever beat the “everything i create has to be great or nothing” in me #and i never am proud of what i made unless it’s supposedly only for my viewing #so i actually don’t know if what i just wrote make sense but yeah #my eyes feel so weird right now #also the ending was definitely up to interpretations!! (spoiler alert* just in case) #i myself personally like to believe he dreamed up the last 30 minutes of it and didn’t even go to the museum #and so he’ll just wake up definitely shocked but then still find leslie in her house who was just about to meet him so they could go!! #and because the rope was cut off by the lightning from last night they decide to build the bridge so everyone could cross safe and sound!! #i like my ending better they really should change it #but no all and all the end was really beautiful #even though it took me maybe even an hour to get through it because i keep sobbing and have to repeat over and over to hear what they said #yeah okay anyways sorry for the rant<3 #i’m not sure what this is #but glad i could get it off my chest #let’s see how to tag how to tag #movies #just #childhood #whatever <3 #nadirants

[lavenderr-starrs]

Sorry I’m just so curious over poppy playtime rn but I wonder if DogDay isn’t a kid but is Richie

Y’know the guy in the tape we hear before meeting DogDay? I wonder if the guy he was talking too set him up to be turned into Dogday

If it’s true that kissy missy is the employee that tampered purposefully with the paint machine and ended up being “fired”, I think at this point the last things you’d want to do in playtime co as an employee is either:

A.) disagree with what their doing like what Richie said how he didn’t like that the orphans were kept in an underground orphanage and no one was allowed to speak to them, aka being deemed a “Heretic” to playtime Co.

B.) Purposefully sabotage development and research like who I believe to be kissy in chapter 2 did

or C.) try to dig in to what’s going on at playtime Co. and being a threat that’ll report them to the proper authorities and shutting everything like that I.T guy did when he thought that pedophiles where putting nanny cams in their “Robotic” giant toys eyes built for security and was super close into finding out that the toys were alive and were made from children

They’d either turn you into a toy or use you as food for the “Bigger Bodies”

#it’s so fucked I love it #poppy playtime #I’d get people are calling this game a #FnaF rIpOfF #which I get it right we got mascot horror and dead kids #but it’s so good though #I genuinely enjoy this story and the lore and just how messed up and twisted this is #I genuinely just wanna talk about this games story cause I’m just genuinely enjoying it rn

[theenderwalker]

i’d really like to do full costume renderings of designs for the lords in black (and also probably ghost max cause i have a couple things i’d really like to do with that costume…)

i really wanna lean into the whole eldritch Vibes of the lords & make some more explicit connections to their plushie forms, while still maintaining the silly childish veneer on top .

and with max i wanna incorporate the actual death wound . there’s not really a ton else i’d change because i adore that costume but like come on. there’s a whole prosthetic with the shirt ripped open and gore exposed when he’s dying and there’s not even a hole or a patched hole on the ghost costume? it just feels like a missed opportunity

#i’m in a costume rendering class right now so i’m thinking about it a lot #‘floral how is this different from redesigns’ it’s really not #it’s just . drawings made specifically to be costume designs that a director or costume tech would work from in a production #unfortunately i don’t foresee the rights for np/md releasing anytime soon. #though i’d fucking love to costume it . god i wanna work on a production of it so bad

[mrs-han]

Something that I need to revisit — a pain I keep burying, and words I wish I could have said.

This is very out of character, especially for someone like Jumin. Feel free to skip this piece; I couldn’t come up with an ending.

“Do you… do you not want to be with me anymore?”

“I don’t.”

Your heart paused - then hammered with a vengeance in your chest.

Jumin’s words - so immediate, so decisive - were worse than any punch to your gut. You had done it. You pushed your… husband…? So far away that he couldn’t find his way back.

And he didn’t want to.

Realizing you weren’t breathing, you shakily turned to face your desk. What were you supposed to say? What were you going to do, now? The man you had been with for so much of your life didn’t want you anymore.

The man who had promised you forever decided forever was too long.

Jumin spoke your name - loud and firm - but all you could hear was a sharp ringing in your ear. Like a bomb had exploded near you. Or inside of you.

“You don’t need to worry about anything. I’ll have the divorce papers filed and faxed to you.”

“Jumin —”

“Forgive me. But I don’t want to hear any more excuses from you.”

So cold — so unfeeling. You had done that to him.

“I… I’m sorry —”

“I know. You’ve said it many times before.”

“Jumin.” You stumbled towards him. You didn’t like begging anybody for anything. But there were always firsts for everything. Clasping your hands in front of you, you stared into his eyes, void of any sentiment. “I know I haven’t been easy to live with, but you can’t…”

Jumin crossed his arms definitively over his chest — blocking himself from you completely. “I can’t what. I can’t leave? Is that what you’d like to say?”

Power surged through your voice. “I promised you till death do us part, and you promised me the same!”

He didn’t say anything. His expression towards you didn’t change.

“You — you saw me at my worst, and decided that it was too much?”

“Every time I tried to help you, you shoved me away. You were always angry with me over something — something.” A trace of emotion escapes Jumin’s lips. “Each time, you’d apologize. But nothing came from it. You remained closed off, hostile, insufferable.”

You trembled harder now. “Have you stopped to think that I’ve put up with your imperfections without complaint? I’ve always had an open ear for you. My arms were always open for you. And — when things were too hard for you to talk about, I’d show you more compassion than you had ever shown yourself.”

Jumin’s eyes stayed trained on yours. “You didn’t sit in front of our bedroom door, stressed beyond belief because I wouldn’t open the door for you. You didn’t have to chase after me —”

“I didn’t?!”

Jumin closed his mouth and clenched his jaw. The vein on the side of his neck started to swell.

You swiped hastily at the tears in your eyes. “I know I can be difficult. I know that I still have a lot to heal from, but I am not the only one.”

Jumin’s brows lowered.

“When you proposed to me, did you stop to consider that I am my own person suffering from my own demons? Or were you too absorbed in what you wanted in the moment?”

Jumin didn’t say anything. His body language didn’t reveal anything to you. His silence was deafening.

Frustrated beyond comprehension, you broke the skin on your palms, nails digging too far in. “When you saw me… all of me… you decided it was too much. But the surface level of my soul would have sufficed, right? The honeymoon phase of us was enough, right?”

Jumin finally broke eye contact with you… and checked his watch. “Can we wrap this up? I have a meeting in ten minutes.”

Your fingertips tingled. Your head pounded. Finally, your knees buckled — and you retched into the trash bin beside your desk.

#mystic messenger #jumin han #mein schatz #jumin x mc #thought I could write more #a closure of some kind #but I don’t know how to - and that’s okay. #i know — I’m still taking a break from Jumin #but I needed to yank this out of me #because it’s hindering my healing process #while it isn’t okay for me to go about this world drenched in my trauma #i still deserve love. and support. and for the promise of forever to stay Forever. #the healing process is never easy #it goes up and down - left and right - past clouds and deep down into murky swamps #and I still have people in my corner — even after all that #the people who left - well #their rejection of my shadow hurts more than I’d like to admit #it’ll be all right though ♥️ #it encourages me to embrace those who finally speak of their pain - their trauma #embrace them the way I wasn’t - to break that cycle of anger and self-loathing #hooo I’m all emotional now >w< #GOOD. IT’S WORKIN. 🌱 #Spotify