#I’d rather live there with them

[trips2saturn]

y’all can boo me and throw tomatoes at me but when i say that i need angst, i mean that i need tears, yelling, and passion from rick and michonne. i can already feel it stirring from michonne’s urgency to escape the crm and rick’s wariness and comprehension of the danger that his captor holds. sooooo yeah! i’d love some good ole fashion angst from my parents and i hope that we get to see that.

#i mean not TOO MUCH #i don’t ever want them to be all angry and ignoring each other #i’d rather rip my hair out #but just enough to bring them even closer in a sense #they’ve experienced angst before #it’s gonna happen regardless it’s inevitable #trips talks #the ones who live #the walking dead #rick grimes #richonne #michonne grimes #towl spoilers

[iknowwhereyousnoozeatnight]

couple of mello + near doodles

#death note #mello #mihael keehl #near #nate river #meronia #bright colors #eyestrain #been having fun w colors recently :3 #these are the product of me really really really not wanting to do some discussion boards #like i don’t even hate discussion boards but something about them has been filling me with dread i’d rather just do exams tbh #i'm like dragging myself through the rest of this semester but it's different from last semester last semester i was losing my mind #this semester i've been able to sleep more than 4 hours a night and go outside bc it's not freezing but also i'm just so fucking done #with school i've been here too long i'm tired but i'm always tired and will always be tired it's tragic honestly i think i'd be more cool #with school if i weren't living how i am rn w my family but eh i don't have the money to move out so it's whatever and it doesn't really #help that i know i'll have to get at least a master's to really do anything in my field and the though of doing more of this makes #me so tired i think i might take a gap year after i get my bachelors this fall idk #anyways enjoy my doodles or don't if you don't want to i'm not the boss of you

[mossypidder]

I have more reasons but I don’t have the energy to write them right now.

But yeah, I’ve been thinking about what I’d be if I were in Faas and Enya’s universe and I thought I’d be a changeling as well for a while for many reasons, but upon further consideration I think I was wrong. So here’s the first concept art for a my avian persona.

As for the songs (which was one of the main influences on why I started thinking about avians because I realized that over the last six months the majority of songs I’ve been obsessed with have bird centric undertones at the very least) you can find them here

#my art #this is the first fluid pose I’ve managed to do in a long time and I’m so proud of it #also I was drawing the headshot at co-op and multiple kids came up behind me and were like #ooo cool bird person #it was still a sketch at that point so I was happy it translated as bird #and just compliments from kids are the best ones #avian character design #character design #persona #Ava art #avariel #avian #bird humanoid #the wings and coloration are based on a female cutthroat grosbeak #because I’ve always really loved their markings- even more than the males #and upon researching into them I’d say we actually have quite a bit in common #they are usually very solitary birds #the biggest group you’ll find them in is nesting pairs #they are rather elusive #they live mostly off seeds nuts and fruits #which I relate heavily to lol #they care for their young a nearly after they’ve fledged #sometimes longer #there were other things but I can’t remember them #will add them when I remember #small artist #artists on tumblr #chibi style #digital art #young artist

[boypussydilf]

okay, so casper and nova, right? the casper and nova game is one big metaphor for simon and betty’s relationship. and the last thing we see in it is: nova tries to sacrifice herself so casper can get what he wants, and the choices are to either go with that, or nova lives but casper forgets her. and it’s obviously meant to parallel simon and betty’s situation in come along with me after they get swallowed by golb: either betty can sacrifice herself to keep simon safe, or she doesn’t but he goes back to being ice king. (um, that is, assuming that she was correct to think they might revert to the forms they had before getting digested after exiting golb. which is not something we have any actual evidence for. it was just a possibility that occurred to her and a risk she wasn’t willing to take.)

UM. EVERY PART OF THAT WAS BECAUSE OF DECISIONS BETTY MADE INDEPENDENTLY?

betty decides to jump through the portal when simon is trying to say goodbye to her, betty decides to fix the crown and then try to find a way to cure him even after he’s told her he’d rather die than be ice king again, betty decides to fucking summon golb, betty decides to push simon out of golb before he can react at all just in case the crown goes back to its former state once it leaves and just in case there’s no way to get rid of golb without its wish magic.

IT WAS BETTYS CHOICES IT WAS BETTYS CHOICES IT WAS ALL BETTYS OWN CHOICES THAT SHE MADE IT WAS BETTY BETTY WAS THE REASON THEY WERE IN THAT SITUATION

#its so so insulting in general to compare them to. a game w a limited amount of choices #and its so insulting to betty to act like… what? #she wouldn’t have made all these choices if *simon* had just ‘considered her more’? #that she simply is completely incapable of controlling herself when simon is involved? #that she doesn’t hold responsibility for the choices she made? #this um. isnt really on simon at all to be honest #what we have are boatloads of examples of simon asking betty to make a different choice and her doing what she wants to do anyway! #‘come take credit for finding the enchiridion with me’ ‘no this is your achievement’ ‘but i couldnt have done it without you’ ‘no ❤️’ #‘i can’t be the ice king again i’d rather be dead’ ‘no i WILL do this’ #in the bus/confession scene simon is just PARROTING HER OWN WORDS BACK TO HER #she said she wanted to BE BY HIS SIDE so he repeated that to her #assuming it was what SHE wanted because she SAID IT WAS WHAT SHE WANTED. #im gonna blow up. betty im so sorry you got treated like you werent responsible for any of ur own choices #betty im so sorry you got treated like simon should have just ignored the things you were saying you wanted #she got treated like she had no autonomy as if the girl hasnt been doing nothing but Making Choices since day 1 #CASPER AND NOVA IS NOT COMPARABLE SORRRYYYYYYYYYY. THATS NOT WHAT THEIR FUCKINTG LIVES WERE LIKEEEEE WHATTTTTTTT #basilposting #atposting #fionna and cake spoilers

[catharusustulatus]

I can totally imagine season 5 being a speed run of seasons 1 and 2 Stancy-wise, where Jonathan and Steve bond and Jon is like “I need to work on myself and focus on family and I know you still love her” or whatever and then Nancy and Jon talk and lovingly break up with no fuss and then Steve and Nancy talk and Steve is like “look I am sorry about what I said in the upside down, I thought I was about to die and I know you’re with Jonathan and I don’t want to rush you and maybe we can just be friends” and she’s like “shut up and kiss me” and they have steamy pre-final battle sex, effectively bookending their arc in a symmetrical way. You just know it’s happening!

#now the question remains #will Steve live or die #and will they flash forward two years and Nancy is pregnant for some stupid reason already #because they always skip forward in time in the final episode post big fight #but I want Nancy to go to school and not be a mom right away #so if they both live and are endgame I’d much rather them be shown living together #OR what if they zoom past college and it’s like five years later #anyway idk what will happen but I’m betting heavy on this #I want them to have juicy emotional dialogue #and if it doesn’t happen I’ll write it myself!! #and you know Robin would be smirking and calling Steve lover boy while he blushes oooh #steve harrington #stranger things #nancy wheeler #stancy #I kinda want it ya know

[pennyserenade]

i’ve learned from my mistakes this year 🫡

#misc. #45 books has been a struggle for me as a student and a living person who doesn’t read nearly enough #and i’d rather focus on quality over quantity next year #also if you have recs that fall under any of these pls do share them !!!

[quietplaceinthestars]

I wish people who write lotr fanfic didn’t inevitably end up writing low key constant emotional abuse to their blorbo.

#kicking a hornets nest here #but I’ll start reading something lighthearted and wonder I start feeling more and more uncomfortable the further in I get #the Peter jacksonification and what I suspect are culturally W.A.S.P ppl writing fic #without having read the books or. rely on period dramas for world building #idk it just ends up creating what feels like something deeply insidious masqarading as some teen fixit fic where everybody lives #and then I feel insane and overly sensitive for wanting half the shire Gandalf thranduil and 2/3ds the dwarves & bilbo to kill them selves #bc I cannot fathom how a any fuckjng says that b why would let someone say or do something like that to you #and then I realize it’s. it’s the same reylo #it’s the same 50 shades of grey mentality type stuff #I hate to assume anything about anyone’s identity over one fic. but be fr. either you genuinely believe this is normal or you’re writing #you’re writing it for plot reasons. and like. that’s how you advance the plot? I’d rather read dead dove at this point. #fuck it everyone dies. #talking tag #this is obv. a massive generalization. gods know I beat the hell out of my blorbos #but I am tired. the horse is dead and you’ve beaten it so much it’s glue and fish is toothpaste.

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

”I don’t want to give Jehovah’s organization a black eye so I have to suffer in silence. Oh the pain! The pain!”

Mhm. Have you ever considered that Jehovah’s organization has given you not one, but two proverbial black eyes, broken ribs, and a concussion over the years; and maybe you should expose them for the abusers they are, if only enough to get yourself help to heal from the abuse you’ve experienced? You’ve got Stockholm syndrome bad, and you’re making it everyone else’s problem. You cared about your abusers so much that you abused me in their name, just because I wanted no part of their organization. Even if I didn’t seek out apostate resources, I wouldn’t have needed them to make my decision to leave because of how much you vented about them to me since I was about five years old. Did you just expect me to stay here and take the abuse like you did? I’m better than that; I’m better than you.

#exjw #ex cult #I woke up and he was venting about it to my mom very loudly so I just went “fuck that” #I could’ve went somewhere in the house to eat but I specifically chose the 20 degrees F screen room so that both of them know #I’d rather freeze than hear one more second of his venting knowing that he is still refusing to get help #Mom wants to watch the convention? Glorious. I’m not leaving my room until he’s done talking. I will not be her deus ex machina #I will not be her excuse to end the conversation so she can watch the convention with me #She can sit there and listen to it; and maybe she’ll grow some reasoning ability and realize #the religion she so piously subscribes herself to is splitting us apart and killing her husband #and maybe she’ll begin to take his triggers seriously and not make passive-aggressive remarks about how she wants to listen #to all the comments and not mute it when an elder who sexually harassed him begins speaking #and maybe my dad will grow some common sense and realize that continuing to go to meetings will ensure he is in a state of trauma #for all eternity #and maybe — just maybe — they will realize that everything they read in my diaries was right #and that they were absolutely positively 100% in the wrong for screaming at me about their contents #and apologize for what they’ve done to each other and to me #But that’s wishful thinking because [first name] “I’m more stubborn than you” [last name] will hold out until it kills him #and my mom is ex-Catholic and convinced the JWs are entirely truthful just because she prefers the possibility of death over hellfire #You can’t make this shit up #I live in a madhouse with crazy people

[kazhanko-art]

It’s fun watching other North Americans freak out about WW3 (again) like it’s actually gonna be fought on our soil and not in other countries (such as the ones currently at war) like the previous two world wars.

#for the record #I don’t think it’s wrong to be scared #war is scary #I’d rather not have mass cassualties and death #and of course some of us have family or loved ones or some other connection to people at risk #or are worried about being conscripted or drafted against our will #or just the general fear of what war especially in the nuclear age will be like #I’m not saying you can’t be anxious #or be scared #but there is a difference between those fears #however legitimate #and expressing anxiety over them #and tone deaf memes and statements when there are people dying right now #people who already have or will have boots on their soil #guns in their faces #and bombs from their skies #while in all likelyhood we at home in north america will be fine #unless you are on the battle field in some way #you are not living through ‘another war’ #and it is incredibly tone deaf towards the people for whom this is a reality #not a hypothetical to make memes so you can ‘cope’ #ww3 #north america #canada #usa

[lieutenant-amuel]

☀️ Ángel symbolism ☀️

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SUNSHINE!!! 💛💛💛

#My OCs #Ángel Suarez #My edit #I shamefully forgot about Ángel’s birthday last year #so I’m making it up by making him a gift #Ajhdnfjf alright some explanation on my symbolism choices because I’m sure some of them are unclear XD #Ángel obviously means ‘angel’ #but it also means ‘messenger’ #and Ángel has quite an important storyline connected with sending letters #so I chose a pic with letters not with an angel XD #As for animals I thought of a monkey at first #But monkeys are rather mischievous than playful? #Ajdhnf I don’t know as much as Ángel might like pranks or such he never means bad #and even if he hurts someone he obviously never does it on purpose #but it might happen because he might be tactless x) #So I chose an otter because really their description sounds fitting #They’re a symbol of balancing out work and rest living in the present and enjoying every instant of life #which is what I want Ángel to be but I’m not sure how well I’m portraying it XD #As for elements I’m sticking with the main four so those are fire water air and earth #But honestly I’d gladly choose the sun for him XD #And as for stones honestly I feel like they don’t symbolize anything XD #They’re just boosting some certain types of energy if you wear them #But well citrine is boosting happiness self-confidence and make you look at the bright side #so let’s pretend this is the same as symbolism XD #And the last name was painful because now I don’t understand why I chose Suarez for Ángel x) #I’m pretty sure I saw that surname having the meaning ‘a soldier of something’??? #and it would make sense since he’s a fenced but I can’t find this meaning anymore???? #Anyway Suarez means swineherd and I’ll interpret it in the way that Ángel is just a simple guy who lives in the suburbs XD #which is inaccurate because Ángel’s family is wealthy enough but shhhh #Anyway happy birthday Ángel you deserve the world and I love you to death

[nerdyenby]

To all my fellow trans siblings who can’t do certain gender-affirming things because of health issues: I see you, and you are not alone. Your safety and well-being come first, whatever that entails. Take care of yourselves and be patient with your body <3

#I realized I’ve never talked about not being able to bind because of my scoliosis #I haven’t seen anyone talk about anything similar either #I have chronic pain #I can’t wear bras unless they clasp in the back and even then I have to leave them unclasped #I can’t have any sustained pressure on my mid back without it causing extreme pain #it sucks but it’s just the way it is #I hate my body and it hates me back but we respect each other #I love my body not because I like living in it but because I know it’s doing it’s best to take care of me #so I’ll do my best to take care of it back even when I’d rather not #trans #disabled

[erotomanicpixiedreamgirl]

have to get my blood drawn on monday in order to keep taking my benzo prescription let’s hope my morally grey doctor doesnt take them away from me

#like i can live without them but i’d rather have them. You know.

[gods-favorite-autistic]

Hey @lo-mataron-mateo how do you feel about a boy at our school literally saying “if only she wasn’t mentally special” about me

#today I learned two boys managed to both call me pretty in the most insulting and ableist way possible #the worst part is I know both of them and they both said it to my literal best friend #both of them were acting like I would let them literally anywhere near me which I’d rather die #madurday night live #men can be gross #but also if I stopped talking to every kid who has said something ableist I would have like 10 people maybe to talk to #anyways I hate it here 😃

[joestarfucker420]

going from being ashton all week to being my legal name again is honestly one of the worst feelings in the world

#ashtonstfu #also i either have to quit my job and move to illinois with my parents in like less than four months or uh hope i can find a job that can #support me AND a place to live based off that salary before they move and honestly #i’d rather fucking die than have to move with my parents but i have zero job prospects so #idk i guess i’ll just hope i die in my fucking sleep #and like i can’t blame my parents like i know it’s a good paying job my dad has and like he likes the area but like #CAN YOU FUCKING GIVE ME TIME #i won’t even offically have my degree til like may even tho i’ll be done in march #i’ve applied to literal hundreds of jobs but since my skills aren’t the best cause i don’t have any real world experience no one wants to #even interview me or train me or ANYTHING and the only way to get better is my practicing but i need more structure or something and if #someone would just be willing to train me at a fucking job i could do it!! but no one wants to do that except fucking sales jobs and i cant #do that shit again it is soul crushing #anyways i’m gonna have a full on mental breakdown cause uh #i’m too fucking overwhelmed i don’t have anything and i can’t move with them it’ll be a nightmare #if they would just slow the fuck down i might have a chance but we have a fucking realator coming thursday and i have so much shit to clean #i don’t know what the fuck i’m supposed to do #even if by some miracle i get a job i have no credit and no money so fuck finding a place to live #it’s impossible #i’m gonna go throw up probably

[designernishiki]

kazumaji nation, if the pairing were to be canonized in y8, how do you imagine it happening? either realistically or ideally. go

#PLEASE tell me your ideas #I will put mine in the tags in a moment #kazumaji #yakuza #yakuza 8 #rgg #goro majima #kazuma kiryu #also please don’t respond to this with just ‘it won’t happen’ or something man like. you can be Honest but I’d rather hear ideas that are #POSSIBLE- that doesn’t mean they absolutely 100% will happen or something. tldr: just have fun #personally I am somewhat hopeful for something vague yet There at the end associated with kiryu’s retirement/general fate #like realistically something like.. majima getting genuinely upset with him because of how tired he is of kiryu being away from him in such #a way that he never can totally be sure if he’s alive or dead or if he’s ever going to see him again- because let’s be real they are #IMPORTANT to one another and I think BOTH of them would be affected by all the death scares and the loneliness when they’re apart. they’ve #been odd but fundamental pillars in one another’s lives for like… 30 years? 35? #even if they’re apart I don’t think kiryu could deny at least for the past decade he could go to majima for help no matter the situation #and he would drop everything to help him #I don’t think majima is nearly as hopeful about having his feelings reciprocated or really about anyone truly loving him in General but #he sure as hell knows how far he’d go for kiryu regardless of that fact. why do you think he’s been single and not looking #at anyone else romantically for literally decades. #so yeah anyway point is. realistically I think that would come up very emotionally and would hopefully end in kiryu holding him real tight #and reassuring him that he’s not going anywhere. not again. not without him. he promises #something something wherever they go in the end they go together. that’s also the only way I can see majima actually being content to any #degree in retirement from such a high-risk life #that’s. one idea anyway. I have many ideas. but that one comes to mind as a realistic option cause it’s romantic but not overtly enough to #have to worry about censors particularly or anything like that. believe me though I’d much prefer if they finally got to fucking kiss after #35 god damn years. I think majima needs and deserves that. both of them do but especially majima because i really think he feels hopeless as #it stands right now both about his love for kiryu that he can’t seem to shake and about being lovable by anyone in general #he seriously seriously needs this. being all over the place and never settling may be fun but it really doesn’t help the emptiness inside #and the loneliness. and the self loathing. and purposelessness. and so on.

[applecherry108]

[to the tune of the Lego Movie’s “Everything is Awesome”]

Everything is stressful! 🙃

Every-thing causes anxiety! 🙃

Everything is stressful!! 🙃🙃

When you have ADHD! 🙃🙃🙃

#I can’t take this fucking roller coaster of a housing crisis much longer I’m going to fucking SCREAM #I don’t think I’m being unreasonable by setting a boundary after all the concessions I’ve made but now she wants to push to move in date #back?? HOW DO I KNOW UR EVEN GOING TO MOVE IN AT ALL #LITTLE MISS MONTH-TO-MONTH 😭😭😭💀💀💀💀💀 #apple talks #to the tune of spam #alright tw time! here comes the suicidal thoughts! #so my last housemate moved out a few months ago and my parents have been helping me with rent since then #but it’s fucking expensive in California #and I’m struggling to a) find a new roommate b) find a new apartment or c) find a better paying job #the stress has literally been killing me I can’t fucking sleep I eat even less and I’m up with 4 am panic attacks! #and my parents don’t have infinite money! so on Xmas they threatened to pay a buttload of money to force me back to Ohio bc somehow THAT #expense is less than helping me with rent a little while longer #I would rather fucking kill myself than move back to Ohio I am dead fucking serious #bc it’s not ‘move in with my parents again’ it’s my parents paying a whole ass apartment of my own until I find an Ohio job (in THIS economy #??) it’s them paying to fly me my CATS and my stuff out there but not any of my furniture. #it’s being down the road from my father again which I cannot and WILL not do. #I fucking moved to Cali to get away from him. and if my mom would just divorce his ass I’d be no contact in a heartbeat #I cannot be financially dependent on him AND live within driving distance of him #and I absolutely do not want to put my cats through the stress of a plane ride! they can barely keep it together being locked in my room #while I’m at work for 1 day! not to mention I’d be dependent on my parents to drive me everywhere bc there’s not public transportation there #and I’ve been packing in case I have to move apartments or god forbid to ohio and it’s a blurry fucking line bw packing to move #and giving away all my shit in preparation to kill myself #and I FINALLY found a new very temporary roommate and I’ve made a fuck load of concessions for her to move in and I have to draw the fucking #line somewhere and this of all things has her wanting to push back move until February which makes me nervous bc what if she backs out? what #if I’m fucked? girlies if I stopped posting for days on end I am literally dead. pray for my cats to go to a good home bc I can’t fucking do #it anymore