#I’ll never find them again

[babydarkstar]

so many griddlehark doomers on this website. smh my head…….theyre doomed by fate AND the narrative to be intrinsically intertwined no matter what. i cannot conceive of a finished locked tomb series where theyre not lying dead in each other’s arms or existing together in some fugue state of unbeing. not even death can separate the lesbians that scratch each other bloody and then cry in each other’s arms. they have been fated to orbit one another literally since their conception. one flesh one end, bitch.

#also harrow literally lobotomized to forget gideon and she still couldnt in the end #anyways i often think abt the whole #‘i gave you my whole life and you didnt even want it’ #and the thing is like. yeah gideon. she didnt want it because she never wanted to lose YOU who was attached to it #you who she just bonded with. has had a very tumultuous girlbestfriend situationship with #when i think abt how young they are i fucking scream #this is why i hate john gaius. insane man. kill him to death alecto #tlt #griddlehark #tlt spoilers #anyways. thinking about the saddest girl in the whole world tonight :( #this is a john gaius HATE account all my homies HATE john gaius #anyways. why is everybody so so scared that theyre going to have a terrible endgame #baby theyve already been falling through a terrible endgame thru the duration of their entire existence #i will say. if harrowhark ends up with anybody else i’ll have to off myself #i support womens wrongs but ianthe can go be wrong somewhere far away from harrow #im about to go through the entire series again so i can screenshot and prove why im right about this #theres a narrative thread to follow #and never once have i been afraid of them not finding their way back to each other #the thing is like. above everything. these girls exist to orbit each other #gideon thinking harrow is her past when harrow has always been her present and her future #harrow thinking gideon’s death will be her undoing #because to harrow. gideon is unable to die. she WOULDNT die for so long #and when she found something to die for. she went to it with her whole being #but heres the thing. one flesh one end is more than just becoming one body and dying one death #idk im incoherent i need to talk abt this in a post instead of tags #i will. soon

[melonalemonade]

he’s gonna be just fine 🙂

#remember when they cut this scene from the final episode? I’ll never forgive them #I imagine Steve finding dustin in tears and completely shattered over Eddie’s dead body and Steve can’t do anything except assure Dustin #that Eddie’s gonna be fine. He says it over and over again and starts believing it himself #cw death #cw dead body #cw blood #stranger things fanart #eddie munson #stranger things #st4 fanart #stranger things 4 #steve harrington #eddie munson fanart #eddie stranger things #st fanart #steddie #Dustin Henderson #robin buckley #nancy wheeler #ronance fanart #ronance

[ivy-saurs]

edgeworth would spoil pess like crazy she would be the most pampered dog ever

#fran’s ace attorney headcanons #sorry i need some way to categorise my thoughts otherwise i’ll never find them again

[codgod]

does anyone want either of these because i don’t think i’m ever gonna use them again so they’re just sitting around collecting dust. urls free to a good home

#.txt #preferably only if ur actually planning on using them #there’s no point in me giving them to someone else only for them to be left empty again #there’s also the ahasbands url but i’m too attached to that one #and i’m never giving away taurtis i waited too many years for it to be free so i could get it #i’ll find a use for it if it kills me

[bunnymajo]

…so uh.

On the bright side I don’t have to pinch my pennies so much for a few weeks and maybe even not feel guilty about buying extravagancies like *reads notes* food.

Maybe I can even buy something fun for myself again. Looking forward to that.

#long story short I had a relative who was going to help me put down a down payment on new place #only for them to get cold feet so now i’ll be legally homeless until I find an apartment on my own again #I have a place to stay. no worries. i’ll be ok. just a real bummer to have someone say ‘oh i’ll help you’ and then not #probably will delete later #venting #another bright spot is never having to spend another dime on rent in this complex. good riddance

[8rujaa]

to anyone dealing with ptsd, has there been anything that has helped relieve some of the symptoms?

#im emotionally stuck due to the constant reliving of what happened #i get these weirdly intense flashbacks where i can remember the how the fabric of the couch looked like up close #and how they felt. and how everything looked. the way the colored lights hit the room a certain way #i think i did myself a disservice by thinking i was soooo in love that i didn’t want to forget any details lmao #now i can remember everything like a photograph and sometimes i find myself back in my old apartment and the fear floods my chest #and i can’t breathe and my stomach starts turning it’s terrible. i really felt like i was in hell #i stopped smoking ouid 3 weeks ago bc whenever these flashbacks would happen the high would make them HD and it would send me into a loop #but now i think weed was the thing keeping me above water… it’s been a rough 3 weeks. but before i start smoking again #i wanted to ask if anyone found something else that made it a little easier #it’s been months since our break up and i really want to move on. i’ve tried to meet other people but i’m terrified of men #and i find myself unable to connect with anyone… #i’ve been physically better which i am so grateful for because being unhealthy was my biggest reason i was so depressed #i’ve been doing therapy but i talk about the same thing with her every week. i’m tired of it #i think i’m still in disbelief that they did that to me. i never thought they’d be capable of hurting someone so badly. #i can’t get over the fact that he r***** me for months while i was disabled and pretended not to know what he was doing was bad #i realized he knew when he tried to make it look like i was crazy. that made me really sad. i think i was hoping he was clueless so #i could still believe he was a good person… or at least the man i fell in love with. i was willing to forgive him once he apologized… #when he tried to make it seem like i was going insane the blindfold came off and i saw him for who he really was #like no wonder i was so scared of u dude… no wonder i kept having panic attacks anytime we were together and i couldn’t sleep next to u #i’ve been afraid to admit that shit broke me as a person. i don’t think i’ll ever be the same. i can’t function. #plus knowing i stayed for her bc i was worried for her and didn’t want her to experience the same thing without someone there bc i realized #how good he was at gaslighting and lying. only to find out she was waiting for an excuse to get rid of me… she wanted me gone… #i went thru all that for nothing… #and i still don’t understand why each time i tried to leave for my own good- to get medical help and support they begged me to stay!!! why #brain vomit

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

That awkward feeling when a PIMI childhood friend sends you an invite to a party in the summer; but you know you’re going to be out of the cult and shunned by then.

What do I even say? Do I lie and say I’ll be there? Do I just not respond?

#exjw #ex jw #I’m not worried about this friend so much; I’m worried about the other friend #because the other friend has awful mental health and not many close friends other than me and maybe one or two other people #This childhood friend is acting very differently than how she did when we were close which could be completely normal #But she seems “spaced out” and very formal whenever I’ve spoken to her (though that could be the allergy meds doing that) #or maybe she knows through her parents through my parents that I wrote about her playlist of “inappropriate” music in my diary #and maybe she got grilled for it #It’s important to note that neither the playlist nor the YT channel were taken down. I can still find them #So maybe she’s not as “in it” as I think she is. But then again she did introduce me to her Bible study so… idk #Maybe it’s a situation of “I’ll take the husband; mom will take the wife; and you’ll take the daughter” but idk #I never had any Bible studies. I went on studies. I got a study shoved off on me when I was eighteen because no one liked her #for being “too much” and “needy” and “not following Jehovah’s guidance and using nicotine patches so she won’t die of a heart attack” #That was a barrel of fucking laughs #(I got reprimanded by the actual sister studying with her #for reading “what happens to your body when you quit smoking” articles to her and encouraging this woman to follow her DOCTOR’S advice) #But I’ve never started a study; nor has anyone passed off a study to me to keep #ex cult

[sashimiyas]

reina i beg 🙇‍♀️ can i ask if the reader and osamu gets back together/him remembers their past in the burden of being fic (i think that’s the name 🥲) cause like… my brain is remembering how reader mentioned that being with him in this state would only be a heartbreak for them since reader will remember all the past but osamu doesn’t… and and!!! that would be too sadge even if they do get together 🥲

god minnie, i’m so happy you brought up the burden of being. i’ve been sad bc i’ve missed being caught up in a story the way that the burden of being had me.

but you can rest easy. they do get back together :) i actually don’t imagine osamu gaining back all his memories to be honest. there are some things that come back to him, i think the bavo-kun memory is one of them because it’s one of the most recent ones but for the most part, he does navigate reconnecting with reader and all the members of hyogo ward instinctually.

it’s kind of like when you show up to a family reunion and you have all these aunties and uncles saying they knew you when you were this tall. that kind of thing. like he knows these people have been involved in his life some way or another and that he’s meant to be kind and receptive to their generosity. but truly, he cannot place them in his mind prior to remeeting them again.

osamu initially loves her like it is second nature. he cannot explicitly say why he does. he just knows, deep down, in his heart and soul and body, that he does. he loves her. it does make for difficult courtship in the beginning but they are able to restart their relationship as two absolutely different people. because reader from the beginning of the burden of being is absolutely different than the one from the end. the same, obviously goes for osamu.

osamu also never goes back to cooking for a living! he does enjoy it as a side hobby, but he ends up staying on his pro volleyball path. he does leave msby after his falling out with atsumu and i think he finds himself on a division 2 league. he’s still good but a lot of time had passed since he’d taken a break and part of the reason he got a position of a division 1 team is because of atsumu.

akaashi ends up owning o.mo.ide all on his own. reader eventually hands over the restaurant solely to him and she does find her cushy it job so she can continue to spoil osamu just like she wished.

#reina.receives #i hope this answers your question #if not. i’ll try again! i do have this particular scene in my head #osamu’s still hesitant in stepping inside reader’s apartment when he finds out they used to live in it together. they’ve gone on some dates #already and the two of them awkwardly stands outside her door. akaashi is peeping through the eyehole as they speak lmfao. but the dates #have been good. they both know this. and this one was extra spectacular. they’re getting it down. allowing themselves the moment rather than #being latched onto by the past. and she offers if he wants to come inside. osamu has his hands in his jacket pockets and he waves them about #as he sways on his heel. he wants to. but is he ready? he doesn’t want to ruin already what they’ve had. but he decides to. and so he goes #inside. you’re opening the door as akaashi scrambles to act nonchalant. bokuto is there as well to lessen the awkwardness #and mumu has shown to hate every man that has walked through your doors. but at the sight of osamu. he gives him a stare that lasts minutes #and then he curls himself between osamu’s ankles before ricocheting off to cause some mayhem in akaashi’s room. mimi was never a cat that #*mumu #osamu fed. but it just goes to show. how osamu’s scent has stayed in your bed and in your sheets despite that fact that you can no longer #smell them. he’s been there. he always has even if you could no longer find him.

[whimsyprinx]

a new attempt at me trying to sketch out ideas for my porcelain (faerie) royalty outfit that I’m putting together, all I have so far is the shirt, earring (it’s not even finished) and bracelet

#whimsy whispers #I want to thrift as many of the things I’ll be wearing as I cann #or make them myself #I’m trying to make my jewelry I made the bracelet and earring and will make a necklace #idk if I’d make the tiara but I can’t thrift that either cause any big tiara you see at a thrift or antique store is gonna be expensive #so that would probs require a trip to claires #I like rococo shoes a lot but those are expensive and I found a pair of shoes that was really cute and had those vibes but was a size six #which I am not #I need to figure out a skirt/dress sitch as well #I also want elbow length gloves like I did see a pair recently but I didn’t like them idk if I’ll regret having not bought them later or not #rhis is all for fun but also if my roommates and i can put together outfits in time and like are able to then we’d go to a renaissance #festival which I’ve never been to lex has though but had a bad time #idk it’s fun to put together outfits also which is why I’m doing this #I may be going to the local goodwill again this week so we’ll see if there’s anything new since I went last week #I know there’s other thrift stores in town or where I live at but I’ve not been to them or they’re simply not on the way to where else we’ll #be going so it’s like ah there’s no use in thinking about it #just hoping I’ll find at least one good thing

[mallrattz]

redesigned some of my childhood horses featuring artists rendition of how i remember their old designs + notes in tags

#my little pony #mlp oc #ponysona #oc art #art #yeah so clover used to have a really STUUUPID name and andromeda didn’t even have one #i already want to redesign clover again i wasn’t rlly happy with her when i posted this to twitter anyway #i think part of it is the style like i’m still trying to find my Horse Art style #i like andromeda a lot more stylistically and in her design she’s so pretty #so maybe i’ll just redraw clover in that style and see where it goes #anyway there’s piles of art of these guys (especially clover) from bronycon #i went every year it was active when i was a kid so that’s why clovers old design in particular is so… #yk…. #but yeah i made andromeda when i got a little older and never gave her a name #she was pretty short lived #a few other old ocs are in my brain might draw them too

[shaykai]

Well that pretty much wraps it up then, unless you wanna play again and get info on redeeming Sarevok or whatever. (not that BG3 CARES about that. Eh, never mind.)

I did briefly read up on it! Turns out you have to not make him swear an oath/be generally gentle and guiding with him!

Which I think is fun because Kaine would do that with literally anyone else but him djdjdjdjndsj

#not Kaine repeatedly telling him that she will be murdering him shsjsjsj #I’ll probably replay it again sometime down the line- maybe stick to romancing Rasaad next time or something #or finding corwin #never did find her again outside of bg1 (and I’m pretty sure she’s in the second game?) #also I wanna have an evil run so I can be friends with people like Dorn and Viconia (and maybe kiss one of them djdjdjjd) #one day I’ll do it #anon #ask #bg2 spoilers

[benbamboozled]

Always important to remember that Alfred Pennyworth is NOT the Designated Sane One of the Batfam.

(And poor Tim has to apologize to him lol.)

Source is Detective Comics #664

#alfred pennyworth #is not normal. #Bruce learned it from somewhere right. #reminds me of that one post about alfred being a mean bitch wrt Bruce’s terrible coping mechanisms and being like… #WHOMST are you to talk sir???? #‘I’m so sorry I said we should take Bruce to a hospital when he was beaten into unconsciousness and… #…had his back broken and was thrown off a building. i promise I’ll never do it again.’ #actually—I very much would like meta about alfred being a terrible father but a good grandfather. which is weirdly a thing? ime? #and as they get older they kinda recontextualize Bruce and Alfred’s relationship and they’re like— #‘holy unhealthy dynamics Batman!!!’ #idk maybe it’s just me. #i think also people want there to be a sane one in the batfam? #no they are all unhinged. don’t go looking for ‘the normal one’ you will not find them. #(albeit each one of them thinks they’re the sane one. except Bruce. he’s like ‘DONT PUT THAT EVIL ON ME!’) #comic pages #from knightfall btw #probably got that through context if you made it through the tags but just to put it out there. #meanwhile btw Bruce is in and out of consciousness being like ‘my life is a godawful wasteland of pain and suffering.’ #which makes Alfred’s insistence that this would destroy Bruce REAL life even more #hilaribad.

[old-skulls]

hot take i fucking hate bethesda survival mode. no i don’t want to walk everywhere and starve to death or die every five minutes in general, i just want to be reminded to eat food and sleep for roleplaying purposes

post canceled what the fuck are these suggested tags

#i suddenly quit my 9 5 and left america for eastern europe – the final straw and why i’ll never come back #i got my tesla two years ago but i’ll never buy one again – my ev has two huge issues and one could leave you stranded #i’m a deaf boxer dubbed ‘quiet storm’ – i was beaten up by bullies but now i’ll be a champion with jake paul #i came back from holiday to find my ford vandalised & tyres destroyed – car was parked legally but i’ll have to scrap it #bill kenwright was last local lad to own a grand old football club – i’ll never forget first time i met everton legend #i nearly bled to death after shark ripped my leg off – i felt like i’d been hit by truck as it tossed me like a ragdoll #costco staff tried to detain me over items i’d paid for unless they ‘doodled’ on the receipt – my camera stopped them #i found a parking ticket on my car but it didn’t come from the city – there were red flags i’d been scammed #what the fuck is happening??

[plinkcat-gif]

sexual pleasure being framed as somethign sinful is so weird to me. like i’m pretty sure god put those things there because he loves us and wants us to enjoy life

#idk i’m not religious. but i do find it validating when i send my mom ppl protesting against pride at pride and her saying #ummmm 🤨🤨 i’m pretty sure god doesn’t want them doing that. i’m pretty sure god doesn’t believe that #tw religion #ask to tag !! but i’ll prob never talk ab this again LMAO

[micamicster]

Most stressful part of being in medical school is having to time your pee breaks to your attending WITHOUT making it look like you want to go to the bathroom together drunk girl style

#and obviously I can’t excuse myself to go to the bathroom during rounds or I’ll never find them again

[natugood]

I dressed up as a light rail train from my local transit agency for Halloween and someone took a picture of me during my morning commute and sent it to them. Little did I know that my transit agency posted the pic, and across platforms it’s gotten over 1.8k likes?!? Multiple people stopped me on my way home to ask for pictures or talk to me cause they’d seen me online. What a weird day.

#if you live in Portland and saw the pics of the MAX guy? that’s me lol #most of the comments online have been really sweet too which has been nice #especially since I was really stressed out and couldn’t sleep last night because I was nervous about wearing this costume #I also find it funny because in the picture from the morning I was on my phone. What was I doing on my phone? #I was studying for my transportation operations exam. literally caught me on transit dressed as transit studying transportation #overall the costumes reception has made me very happy and to me highlights exactly what I love about Transit. #because of my costume I’m making people smile and I’m getting to talk and connect with folks around me #many of whom I’ll never see again. my costume is helping connect my community and build bonds between us #that’s what transit does! when you share that space with other people and talk to them you are connecting with people in your community #people who you likely won’t ever see again! but those conversations still matter and are good!! #they connect us all to each other #everyone is a neighbor on transit. we are all connected on transit. we are all transit users. #and that’s a community that stretches into almost every other subcommunity in the community at large #transit connects people - not only from place to place but also with each other #googoogajoob