#I’m a lot happier now

[kentopedia]

truthfully i want to back away from jjk but i don’t know how

#bc i still love nanami & want to write about him but #i don’t feel like i’m a part of the fandom anymore #& im okay w it i just want to have my own space on here #it’s just all i see allll the time and i’m kind of tired of it :( bc i don’t care anymore #i don’t get excited about it like i do bsd either :( #i also don’t just want to be known as a jjk blog which i feel like … i kind of am now maybe :/ #but like it’s ALLL people post about & i have a lot of jjk moots which i love so i’m not going to block anyone 😭😭 but i also wish i could #just like …. distance myself easier lol #it’s mostly the fandom too like idk i don’t like it #anyway sorry for the rant but if you’re wondering why i’m posting all abt bsd again all of the sudden this is why #i just realized it makes me a lot happier !! :3 to be more a part of that side of tumblr

[frog-man-blog]

Spoiler for AvA Season 2

I got a theory I have to share rn

Also this post is long- just be prepared

If you don’t understand or if I’ve accidentally leaned off topic please let me know! (Also remember you don’t have to agree, this is just a theory)

So we know how in the end of the episode, where Orange and Chosen were captured, they have been imprisoned.

Orange was locked inside of a cell wall Chosen was locked inside of this giant white box.

But take a good look at the giant white box Chosen was put inside of



I’m pretty sure by now, everyone knows that this isn’t just a normal cell specifically made for Chosen so he can’t escape. And if you don’t know, well, those wires and weird contraption in the middle should give that away.

This is a machine meant to do some thing, but nobody knows what it’s meant to do. Some people have brought up the idea that Chosen could be tortured, however, I do not think that’s the case.

If they were to torture Chosen, that would mean they would want information out of him. The only information that Chosen could possibly have is anything about Dark or Alan. I do not believe they would torture him for the sake of their own entertainment or enjoyment.

Dark is a reasonable assumption as anything about his whereabouts are unknown, and nobody knows if he’s alive or if he’s dead. However, there were no wanted posters of Dark anywhere, and no indication that they were looking/going after him. 

Alan is the next reasonable assumption as to why Victim wanted to captured him, as people have been speculating that Victim wants revenge on Alan. However, if Victim had done his research considering all of their origin stories are on YouTube in canon (I could be wrong) wouldn’t he have known Alan had enslaved Chosen for five years? Thus knowing Chosen should have some sort of grudge against him?

Yes, there is a chance that showdown could have been on YouTube in canon, considering Chosen and Dark fought on YouTube’s website during showdown. However, with that logic, this episode would have been uploaded on YouTube in the canon universe. (Unless this really is just a reality tv show and they’re all actors but that’s for another time)

 Of course, Chosen could be questioned about something else entirely however, we have no way of knowing what. I do like the idea of Victim going after Alan for revenge, but that also might not be the case because if I’m right that they’re not looking for information out of Chosen, it wouldn’t make sense why they captured him specifically. Especially if they have access to the YouTube videos that are in canon and know that Orange and his friends are much closer to Alan. 

Yes, they could’ve very well captured Chosen to lure Orange and his friend out however, unless they planned to use Chosen for something else, capturing him in a machine meant to do something to him seems like they would be plotting something bigger.

Also the fact that they would’ve easily been able to capture the 5, or at least Orange makes it even more confusing why they targeted Chosen first and not raid Alan’s computer. (Unless you know… their computer is hard to find or not wanna make contact with Alan yet)

We do get this scene of one of the mercenary’s getting feedback from someone else as the other mercenary’s were about to attack Orange. Could it be that they had planned to capture him, but were going after Chosen first, and Orange so happen to be there? Or was that feedback meant for something else… we don’t know yet.

However that doesn’t mean Victim seeking revenge isn’t impossible. Just because he might not question/tortured Chosen about it, doesn’t mean Chosen won’t play a big part in it.

So let’s continue back on the path before. The reason why Chosen was captured and why specifically a machine that’s definitely more than just a special prison box.

With the torture being out of the way, we still have tons of options as to what it could be that they want from Chosen. And there is no way we could go through all of the endless possibilities. However, I would like to bring up 1 theory I found that could be plausible.

This is a machine meant to harness Chosen’s power, and use it to power up something or make them stronger. In no way do I think this is just a prison for Chosen, as there is even a control panel and tons of wires hooked up to this white box.

Obviously, this machine could do anything. But it would make sense that Victim would want Chosen’s power for his own, considering we don’t even know if Victim has powers. Perhaps he’s stealing them, or just using them for his own benefit. Again we don’t know. 

We currently do not know anything of Victim’s character and his motives. For all we know we could have everything wrong. All we know was that he was deleted, and technically died, but is now back. (although I think it should be obvious that when you delete something off the internet, it’s not gone, it’s still there)

Yet, I can’t help but feel excited about where the story is going. Really takes me back to when the first episode of season 1 aired. It was such a small community back then and we all freaked out about Chosen’s return. This was even back when Dark was mostly (Aka a part of the fandom on insta) characterized as a nice, and goofy bestie to Chosen (which isn’t entirely wrong per say) and it caught us off guard when it was revealed he was gonna be the main villain.

No joke- I was actually heart broken when he was revealed the big bad

But that’s about it

I don’t wanna make this post any longer

And my phone is lagging bad-

So if you read this far thank you for listening to this giant post 😭 and again you don’t have to agree, I just like sharing silly goofy theories.

#animator vs animation #alan becker #ava #ava s2 spoilers #ava the chosen one #ava the second coming #ava victim #I spent to much time typing this all out- #My thoughts and opinions might change over time so- #I just wanted to share so feel free to ignore if you want; I’m just sharing for fun #Also I know a lot of people dislike Villain Vic; but I couldn’t be anymore happier #out of all the characters that deserved a villain arc it was Victim; bro was literally MURDERED. never got a chance to live #now look at my boy…. sniff sniff… he’s all grown up and FINALLY GETTING THE SPOTLIGHT HE DESERVES #But if they make him too dark of a character I will sob because I don’t want him to be THAT evil

[bog--unicorn]

life of a bog dog

I’m really starting to love December

#my pics #dog #dogblr #22 weeks #she’s really such a happy friendly little guy #and in the last couple weeks has just hit that point where dumb puppy brain switches to big kid brain #she still struggles with overstimulation hyperactivity #but she tries very hard to refocus on toys like I’ve been teaching her #she is very mouthy like most acd’s but she has been EXCELLENT at learning ‘gentle’ #now that she has at least a bit of an attention span I’m taking her out walking pretty far #both on leash and off #we live on a farm surrounded by other farms so there’s lots of space to roam #next I need to start reinforcing cues by drilling outdoors / in strange locations #need to work on stay #and then I can really get into teaching her how to herd sheep #she LOVES being around them #and honestly there’s nothing that makes me happier than being out grazing the sheep w a dog #really just having so much fun with my little bud

[skyleathero]

🕊✨❤️

#dbz #akira toriyama #goku #rest in peace #my artwork #edit: ok this is starting to hit me now. it’s just so hard to believe he’s actually dead #the fact that he died so recently made me so confused #and during 6am I started questioning myself and death and that’s when I started crying as soon as my thought when to toriyama #god I feel so guilty for not feeling anything before. it just happened so sudden that I just didn’t know how to feel about all of this #he genuinely is the reason why I’m happier than I am and that I got a lot better in art. he really inspired me to keep going with my art #career. it’s just sad that he’s now gone. the fact that March 1 was his last breath also made me realize that death can happen at any time #at any moment to anyone. i hope he’s made it to heaven 🕊

[goldkirk]

It is so incredible to be able to leave a situation, center and ground myself, and start recovering my energy, mental focus, and peace within minutes to an hour. What other people said or did wasn’t about me, I behaved well myself, I let things roll off as much as possible during the situation, and as soon as it was over I started doing nervous system first aid. What a difference living this way makes. Life is so much more peaceful when you actually protect boundaries, keep perspective, and care for yourself while properly in tune with your needs.

#right now I need slow breathing and Enya #yesterday I needed two hours straight of EDM and jump dancing #and I clocked BOTH of those things so my body and brain are much happier #I could’ve been burnt out and stressed and partly dissociated this weekend #but I’m NOT GONNA BE #and it was that simple. just knowing what to do and checking in with myself #frequently enough to know when I need it. #imagine if I learned how to do this in grade school!!! I’m so happy some kids get to grow up like this #and have the freedom and tools from their caregivers to actually do it right too #that number of kids is increasing every year and in a couple generations it’s gonna be a LOT #we’re so fucking lucky guys #we get to be alive at a real turning point in how humanity views and treats small humans #and how those small humans behave and live when they grow up #the world is going to become so much more beautiful #and it’s already pretty cool despite the unresolved anger and pain most of us currently live with #personal #trauma recovery

[rivenantiqnerd]

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! Get to know your mutuals and followers ❤️

That I got one of these a few hours go, and everyone’s been so busy naming happy things that it has circled back to me.

I already named my list of happy things, so i guess … my homework today is really simple?

My poem that I wrote for class. A lot of people said it was really good and I’ve already memorized part of it.

It rained today. This is a good thing. I got to use my new umbrella, also rain is refreshing.

I saw a mutual had written some recipes for worldbuilding, and they look really good so I want to cook them sometime.

#things that make you happy ask #writers on tumblr #mutuals #worldbuilding #be happy #this list was a lot harder to come up with because i already did one today #Also hard because I’m not particularly happy write now #but doing these makes me feel a lot happier

[idkhowtopickausername]

I don’t really have any significant doubts about my sexuality anymore but it’s still something that stresses me out a lot, whenever I feel attracted to women I feel creepy and gross and when I feel attracted to men I feel guilty and humiliated, I’m still stuck in these thought patterns of overthinking and overanalyzing and I hate it so much 😔

#I genuinely wasted so much of my adolescence on this and #it’s a lot better now and I’m happier but I can’t seem to let go of the fears and mental compulsions fully #personal

[strawberrybyers]

let me tell you as someone who survived pop music artists stan twitter or whatever it’s called, marvel twitter, game of thrones twitter, and bts twitter (i wasn’t really involved with stranger things twitter but i trust you guys when you say it’s terrible)— it’s a shit show over on that app. like when people say they don’t want twitter users here, they’re not saying it to be gatekeep-y or whatever. they’re saying it because they don’t want to deal with seeing or experiencing any harassment.

twitter thrives off of toxicity. i think you can definitely attempt to create a healthy space for yourself depending on what your interests are, but i imagine that’d be hard because even if you don’t interact with anyone, you’re still seeing others interact with people in a horrible way. i know that being a part of fandoms that are big always led to there being drama every single day and drove me away from even wanting to talk about my interests. people really do help curate the experience you have with whatever you’re a fan of and when the people are bullying, harassing, and being rude; you suddenly do not like that thing all that much anymore.

you really have to experience twitter to fully understand it in my opinion. there’s a certain way that it works and it becomes very cliquish/cultish and idk it sounds dramatic for sure but the ones who have been on twitter and are saying it’s a bad place understand 100%.

#byler #sorry not byler related but i saw others talk about twitter in the tag so i wanted to also lol #i saw the rise of twitter and it’s downfall that’s insane #twitter used to be justin bieber vs one direction #those were the simpler times #bc at least everybody involved were ages 12-16 and it was just nonsense at the end of the day like no one cared lmfao #everyone on twitter now can’t think for themselves and are more eager to prove that they’re a ‘good’ person than actually being good #they think being good = making a problem out of everything and that everyone must share the same opinion and like the same things as THEM #and what’s wild is that someone will get doxxed over a goddamn fictional character #putting someone’s life in danger and being proud to do that is such a scary mentality #and i could write a whole essay on how damaging that is to think like that and how lots of social media users have an ego problem #i deleted twitter 3 years ago bc i started to use it less and less as it got more and more unbareable #and i’m way happier now #tumblr is my safe space #they need to fix twitter fr i don’t want this site to get ruined #especially by ads or brands and celebrities like idk i have so many thoughts

[saltyfilmmajor]

Sometimes I mourn the life I could have had if I wasn’t queer

#personal #part of the grew up evangelical Latino experience is being violently reminded that you will not be welcomed #I wish I could introduce my spouse to my family as many people are allowed to do #I’m at my family reunion and as much as I love my family my spouse is my family too #and keeping that part of my life secret #not just the fact that I’m married but the fact that I’m a whole queer makes me sad #im sure I’ll be happier when im away from them but also :( #it’s a lot of complicated feelings especially coming from a very family oriented culture #even though I’ve been pulling back for some time now #I see my cousins with their spouses being accepted as part of the family (even if we don’t always like them) made me want for that #I’d like to bring my spouse to meet my family and ask about mortgages and immigration #maybe I’d feel differently about it if my family weren’t homophobic

[unfortunatevootcruiser]

Brah the author of playing with fire still posts to social media but like she still sounds wicked depressed hasn’t it been like a decade girl are you okay. I think you should see a therapist

#voot txt #Fr I wish her the best it sounds like she went thru a lot in that time #it’s just crazy to imagine bc like so did I #but I’m so much happier now I worked so hard to be #can’t imagine feeling like that work hasn’t paid off yet

[bastardcherub]

man. I genuinely wish all of You nothing but happiness. doesn’t even have to be joy, just peace and contentment

just. so much kindness. You all deserve so much better.

#(lots of personal stuff in the tags) #its been I think nearly 8 years now since I was in a psychiatry for the first time #and like. I don’t remember much from that time #but I do remember how hopeless everything felt #it felt like such a fucking waste of time. like my doom was inevitable #and here I am now #my life is nothing like I thought it would be #it sure as fuck isn’t perfect. I struggle daily #but I can genuinely say I am at a point in life where I have found peace with how things are #and can find joy in small things every day #and that’s closer to paradise than I ever thought I could get #and I know it’ll only get better from here #to add to this: it was NOT a straight line of recovery #I was in a clinic again over new years #but I am here. I have hope. I am genuinely #like #good? #not in the GOOD!!! way but. again. in a sorta. hey this is how it is and I am still worthy and will still find happiness #sorta way #I’m happier than I’ve ever been. GENUINE happiness. #and joy. genuine joy. #and yes my thoughts still try to disagree #but I don’t listen to them anymore. I tell them it’s okay to be scared of the unknown but that we can do it together #anyways this is. way more personal than I ever expected something on this blog to be #just. know there is hope. please. #angel rambles

[aturnoftheearth]

also genuinely long lost and the themes around it about change and moving on etc truly helped me so so much over the last 2 years like girl who hates change has managed to handle a lot of change mostly thanks to michigan band’s 4th album yeah i’ll say it.

#when i changed my major fall semester senior year of college and contrary to my belief it did not ruin my life … when i was so much happier #my last semester in person on campus and listening to lord huron every single day to get me through the 2 hour round trip commute #and when my sister moved out of her apartment that we shared basically during all of covid and i was able to leave with minimal crying #(there was still some crying) and #when i went to my last day of college and listened to time’s blur and cried a lot and when i finally finished college and didn’t fail #and now when i’m looking at having to move out of my parents house in the next few months and move to a different town … i know i’ll have my #comfort album….. and a new one to look forward to. anyway all this to say i’m just very grateful to this album #i love it a lot and yeah so so so grateful

[spinetacks]

zzz

#did the big scary breakup today. it was ok but also horrible #I’m proud of myself for saying no to trying again (again) but I’ve always been the needier of the two of us so it felt weird #being the one to say no it’s done #mannn I really wish it didn’t have to end. even now I kinda wish I could just take it back #:’) but I know that’s because it was only me that was hurting. so I’m dismissing it and feeling bad for upsetting them #gotta be brave..eurgh #we said we’d go back to being friends and I really genuinely hope we can #ik it often doesn’t work #but we were so good as friends and we still care for each other a lot. I just don’t think we can be happy with the pressure of a r/s #I’m relieved to not have the weight and worry of our patterns and routines anymore..but it’s gonna suck for a while huh #here’s to my longest relationship and all I learned from it. and hopefully happier times ahead #blahblah

[starbuck]

snow cancelling in-person work for today and tomorrow meant i got a BIG boost in getting ahead on my schoolwork, as well as some important things done for work work that wouldn’t have happened in the office today, which is great, and the weird thing is, i actually feel like everything is fine?? i feel secure????? even as i continue to fill my schedule with plans??????? because i know i can handle it????????????

a strange, but welcome feeling

#my bird walk for the national park is getting scheduled for realsies #which means that my last free weekend of the winter has now been fully demolished with a jackhammer #but it’s OKAY #i’m actually unironically fine with it #because i’ve got a handle on things… #i’m doing really good with school and work - even though there are a lot of challenging aspects to both rn #i’m staying ahead of the game #i’m leaving time for myself #i should have time to finish the book i’ve been reading this weekend #and i’m not miserable???? #i’m like. seeing friends and happy and shit????? #thank GOD #fucking finally #now time to hop in the shower and become even happier

[starmanbyler]

longing to go back 10 years and just be a kid again for a while

#i miss dance #i miss school beinf easy #i miss everything beinf fun no matter what #i don’t miss the not having any friends part tho #i’m actually a lot happier now but i miss it so much god

[stillcominback]

💖💖💖

#i know i’ve been quiet but *sees last post* life’s just been a lot lately! 🤪 #BUT i’m feeling a little better a day at a time #being in the office is rough but i’m hoping it’ll get a little easier as i kinda feel my feels and stuff #big thank you to all of you who’ve chatted with me or reached out or literally just been here at all #your support and kindness really means SO much to me #like always but especially right now when i’m probably the most overwhelmed i’ve ever been??? #🥺🥺🥺 #it’s still really hard but I’m starting to believe there’s a ‘future me’ who’s happier and more settled and onto better things #just THANK YOU to all of you for being amazing support and friends 🥺💖 #AND PLS i may not be at my best rn as far as reaching out but #plsssss feel free to hmu on IMs or discord because i’d love to still plot and chat!! i miss it! #I’m also happy to write on discord (or do little things on the ic wires I have!) #ANYWAY!! off to bed I gooooo 🛌💖 LOVE U ALL MWAH #00. // OUT OF AMMO ( OOC POST. )