#I’m just gonna watch Steven Universe and finish my sandwich and fries

[jocelynships]

Sad times. Time to distract myself with cartoons and food

#my dad and I went and got pita sandwiches from this Greek restaurant in town #and it’s really good #but my sister just updated me on my grandmother and. she’s nearing the end. it’s gonna be any day now #and I just. I’m so upset I never got to have a relationship with her #my mother fucked up my relationships with my family #and just. I wish I had tried #and I’m so upset I can’t be there for my sister in person because she’s hurting so bad #and I just wanna there for her dammit! #she lives on the other side of the state so it’s impossible to get to her without asking someone to take me #and on top of my recent paranoia and anxiety it’s not helping #I’m feeling a lot of big feelings right now and I’m too scared to talk to anyone about it because I don’t wanna annoy people! #I just wish I didn’t feel so much sometimes #I feel too much and these feelings are too big for me to comprehend and handle #I’m just gonna watch Steven Universe and finish my sandwich and fries