#I’m just kinda screaming into the void

[bitfruity]

i have never been so obsessed and in love with a man before in my life

like as a teenager i liked bands and thought some members were kinda cute but NOTHING has prepared me for the teenage girl in my 20’s level infatuation i have for this man

and then he had the AUDACITY to bring another one into the mix

words cannot explain the amount of gender envy tommy gives me do i want him or do i want to be him?? i look at some pictures of him and go THATS ME THATS HOW I SEE MYSELF

#WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?? #IS THIS JUST WHAT YOUR 20S ARE LIKE? #I AM DOWN BAD #i thought i skipped all this #i never understood all the girls that obsessed over celeb men #but now i get it!! #i kinda feel like i’m losing my mind #this 30 year old man is the only reason i smile #like when did that happen?? #tommy got me feeling some type of way #i cant quite explain it but he’s changed something in my brain #i am not the person i was before listening to racked #the amount of gender envy he gives me is unmatched #am i even a girl idk anymore #I AM SCREAMING INTO THE VOID #käärijä #tommy cash #fruity thoughts #i made this at 2am last night in a feverish state but i’m still gonna post it

[marijuanabarbie-live]

Things I find myself saying these days that I never said during the 10+ years I had severe depression:

- I love my life

- my life is fun and exciting

- it’s a great time to be alive

I honestly never thought I’d be here. I never thought I’d be free. But I’m so grateful I survived.

#I wouldn’t wish depression on anybody #it was the worst thing I’ve had to go through #and slowly #I’m starting to forget what it was even like #which is kinda weird and also nice #personal #text post #just screaming into the void

[cowboylikesel]

Wait why do u think 7.06 is gonna be his last episode??

i hope not!!!

but idk just the way lou has been wording things in interviews and mentioning him coming back being spontaneous and kinda making it sound like a short time gig i guess? also one of his cameos kinda made me nervous where he basically said that tommy’s always flying around saving people and that you can’t really get a hold of him and that he’s “just sticking around for a little bit”.

the words “four episode arc” have been floating around a lot (which would make 7x06 the conclusion) but i’m honestly not sure if that originated from an actual source or if fans just misinterpreted something and everyone just ran with it.

if that was the plan in the beginning that could’ve obviously changed by now since they’re still working on the last episodes and the feedback and ratings for the last episodes have been really good. it would be kinda weird to have buck and him reconcile only for him to leave the next episode but stranger things have happened.

#tbh i’m probably just being dramatic but i saw several posts kinda alluding to it #so i had to scream into the void to make myself feel better haha #anon <3 #911 #911 spoilers #tommy kinard

[roanniom]

I’ve been having a really hard time reading and writing fan fic because dating has been so hard and I keep getting pretty lonely/sad, even just reading smut. Like I was reading a really nice fic last night and in the middle of a good smut scene I had to stop reading because I started crying ☹️

Has anyone else dealt with this? I’m assuming it’s just a phase, but I would love to know if anyone has gone through this and if there was anything you did to get out of it?

#Issa screams into the void #idk if this is tmi but I kinda wanted to explain why I haven’t been churning stuff out lately #I see a lot of people complaining that the fandom is dead and like I would love to write #it made me so happy #but I’m just so sad

[arodabi]

I have a lot to post rn but i just remembered when i got criticized in my creative writing class for making my demon character autistic bc it was super problematic to portray autistic ppl as non human and i had to just sit there trying not to say smthn bc i never intended him to be autistic, i just based him off of myself lmao. I wasn’t allowed to respond so ig that person just thought i was being shitty

#who knows what’s going on w me but i think everyone just assumes my brains kinda off #my coworker asked me what i was diagnosed with and i was like uhhhhh nothing #I’m just freeballing it out here #void screams

[peaches2217]

When she feels she is not being given as much food or attention as she is owed, Frankie wedges herself between this log and the glass and just stares at us in disapproval until we give into her commands. Should this fail to work, she climbs to the top of the log, dramatically throws herself into the water, then angrily digs holes in the rocks at the bottom of her tank.

Rinse and repeat until she gets what she wants, which is inevitable, because one doesn’t simply deny Frankie all the pleasures of her little drama queen heart.

#we’re routinely terrorized by a turtle and we all just kinda go along with it #as God intended #fun fact! apparently she was a rescue from a negligent owner #she was kept in such an abysmal tank that she never properly learned how to turtle #I’m told she nearly drowned the first time she was put in her new tank because she couldn’t swim #and it’s only been recently that she’s learned how to climb up her log #she grows more and more every day and we’re very proud of her! #peaches screams into the void

[tsubasagirl]

Thank you DeNa.

#gladion #trainer blue #pokemon masters #pokemas #my screen recording #tagging it as that cuz this is kind of the first meme I’ve ever made #first things first HOH MY GOD I’M SO HAPPY #DeNa FINALLY HEARD OUR VOICES #and by ours I mean all the people who have been asking via the pokemas Instagram #I only got to read the news 2 hours after it was first announced in the pokemas discord datamine channel #had to make this meme as quickly as I could with img flip and Snapchat lmao #this is actually really great timing cuz I just reached friendship lvl 100 with Giovanni #and got no one else to hang with other than blue #this is second best to getting an alt gladion #alt piers and roxie look really cool so I’m not mad at that #but also #why is gladion just screaming into the void in his special pic #LET HIM BE HAPPY #but also I guess it’s kinda fair since we’ve gotten a good handful of smiling gladion moments #he needs to let that angsty/edgy anger out every once in a while #my guess about special day no. 2 is that he’s gonna be venting and be vulnerable with the player #which is a nice connection to that one lobby dialogue he has where he realised he had opened up to the player #god thank you again DeNa

[nellectronic]

thinking about how I could actually write that hicsqueak au now…

#the concept of hicsqueak as rival chemists begrudgingly collaborating on a project #and ethel and mildred as their long-suffering research assistants #started rattling around in my brain like 5 yrs ago but I didn’t write it bc I didn’t want to do research #and I kinda just accepted that it would never happen #bc I did not ever expect to be a chem major or have personal experience being the one (1) student working in a research lab over the summer #but like…I could write it now. if I can come up with some idea for what research they would be working on #that I’m at least somewhat familiar with #I could do it #sadly tho my impression is that the hicsqueak fandom is kind of dead #so idk who I would scream about it with #the worst witch #screams into the void

[beardedsadboigardens]

You ever get so good at wearing the mask that people just brush off your mention of being depressed 🤔……round 3000 something (cuz I lost count 😅) and awaayyy we goooo!!!

#mine #don’t mind me i’m just screaming into the void #smiling but always dead inside 😁💀 #kinda hoping no one sees this 😅

[chennnington]

Grandma has a lung infection and she most likely won’t make it. She suffers from severe dementia, she stopped recognizing even her sons several years ago so I said my goodbyes a long time ago already and tbh I’m not sure how enjoyable her life has been over the past years, but this still hurts.

#grandpa died in 2020 and he was mentally fit until the end so I could at least call him and talk to him #and I knew it was the last time I’d talk to him so I had closure #but I don’t even really know when I last saw grandma. it was way before covid at some family Christmas #she already had dementia back then but she was still able to live at home and hold conversations with a bit of help #and I live pretty far away and visiting her wouldn’t have helped anyone #she would’ve been confused about the stranger and felt awkward cause she’s rather shy and introverted #and I’m the same so it would’ve just been a bad experience for both sides #but I still have so much stuff from her #as a kid/teen I always got decoration items and pajamas and bed linen and towels and stuff like that as presents #as a kid that was a bit lame but now I value those things so much #I have so many wonderful memories of my grandparents and I want to remember grandma the way she was before dementia #tbh I kinda wish my uncle wouldn’t have sent me some of the recent pics of her #she stopped looking like the grandma I knew #I probably sound really shitty and egoistic with all these tags right? #but it’s just that I know I can’t do anything for her. and no gesture would even reach her. so why hurt myself? #if I knew she still knows who I am it would’ve been different of course #I wanted to visit grandpa before he died but it was April 2020 ao I wasn’t even allowed at the funeral #the doctors said she’s not in pain and they’ll make sure it stays that way #why am I even writing all this? #I guess this is when you’re supposed to have someone to comfort you but I don’t have that so I scream I to the void haha #but I’m fine. she’s 95 years old and had a good life

[leejungchans]

sigh i hate being that person but also not really bc it can be frustrating sometimes so please please please leave feedback for content creators instead of only leaving likes/empty reblogs!!!! obviously we create content because we like doing it and it makes us happy, but it takes time and effort and it helps a lot a lot more than what you might think to give us some feedback/tell us what you liked. trust me, 99% of us aren’t expecting a paragraph (let alone a ten page essay) back, even a few words or a keyboard smash already mean a lot to us, and it can be very frustrating and demotivating to put out content only for it to be silently consumed w/o any sort of interaction. so please support the content you enjoy by rbing (to help circulate it) and leaving feedback 💗💗

#sol.txt #sorry </3 just needed to get this off my chest bc im going to be posting a lot (hopefully) since im taking requests and… #…i hate keeping people waiting for long #but i’m not here just to pump out content and scream into the void #and i wish more people/silent reader’s understand how demotivating it can be wo accusing ccs of ‘doing it just for attention’ #using prove it you won’t as an example: i didn’t just yank 19k words from my butt 😭 it took months of writing & rewriting #so is it really too much of ccs to ask for just a few words of feedback when they’ve spent hours upon hours creating content for you? 😞😞 #it takes less than 3 minutes rbing and leaving a few tags :( #and if you’re going to say it takes too long to do that: you have time to read 19k words but not enough time to write a few tags? 🤧 #also not saying you have to do this for everything on your dash / im just saying if you liked it then why not support the cc who made it #sorry whhshajs this is such a long rant but idk i don’t talk ab this topic a lot and it’s kinda </3 holding it in all the time #but yes please please support your fav ccs!!!! it really doesn’t take as much time as you think <3 #and i PROMISE you 99% of ccs appreciate feedback with their whole heart #like we literally send eo screenshots of tags screaming ab how sweet they are #that’s how much feedback means to us 💗 okay that’s enough from me 🤧 this is your reminder to drink some water and stretch

[panicismydefaultstate]

I scream out for help, that I’m drowning, and my hand waves frantically as a signal and my limbs flail to keep me afloat while waves crash over me. I can hear their voices, sometimes I can see them on the shore standing and looking at me- why are they looking at me! What aren’t they helping me? I scream louder and they tell me I’m fine, to stop being dramatic, all while water fills my lungs and my will to keep fighting begins to die.

You’re gonna be fine, they say. But I’m convinced they only say it so they can convince themselves that they didn’t need to take my cries seriously.

#mini rant #i’m so done #chronic illness #chronic pain #chronically ill #is this relatable #so over it #i’m tired #ready to give up #guess those dreams really are just gonna be that #can anyone hear me #kinda feel like I’m screaming into the void #depression #I’m just so fucking tired #so close to being done #fucking over it #this might just be me

[ratwithahatonamat]

Microwave gets personal oh my

For Like 8 ish years give or take I suffered w sh on and off and only recently like in the last year and a half did I finally ween myself off of it and now that the depressive episodes are coming about I’m just thinking about how bored it’s weird to think about but sh gave me something to do but now I just what do I do? It’s a odd feeling but we are getting through it and I’ll probably post here about all this shit

#art #I draw myself too often but also let me have simple joys #I honestly may be super inactive everywhere else I kinda feel like shit #maybe i should just read Dracula or something #I’m fine? I’m fine I think I have nothing to say I’m just screaming to the void

[rosicheeks]

🙃

#I’m such in a mood today #not gonna explain rn #maybe later #but fuuuuuuckkkkkkkk offffff #just kinda wanna go scream into the void for a few hours t b h #shut up rosie

[thatfaecreature]

me, to myself: is it dramatic of me if i never want to interact with a human again?

me: probably

#text #from fae depths #i’m exhausted okay #people just require too much energy #it’s a ‘i wanna scream into the void’ kinda day

[plutotheforgotten]

I am not depressed right now why does it still take me a fucking hour to get out of bed

#why is it that doing bad means it takes two hours to get out of bed but doing well means it takes one hour #girl that’s still too long just get up #I really ducked myself over in high school by setting my alarm half an hour early so I could lay in bed and be mad about being awake #before that I used to just get up #also being able to drive has kinda fucked me over because I’m just like ‘I’ll drive faster’ which is not the correct answer #screaming into the void