#I’m literally crying in the club why is this making me so emotional

[professional-demon-master]

Cutting you off pt. 5

Asmodeus

Light Angst/comfort good ending!

Asmo x MC! GN pronouns.

* Right off the bat you learned how emotionally open asmodeus was.

* Not only when it came to show lust related feelings. He was so open all the time, and you kinda guessed that plays a big part when it came to him being extremely liked everywhere.

* It didn’t matter where you were, Asmo was the center of attention, he had everybody at his feet and trying to get his attention.

* Which was kinda uncomfortable to you when you two were out trying to spend some quality time together.

* Like right now, you both were out in the fall, dancing and drinking, just the two of you.

* … the two of you and the demons that kept stealing Asmo's attention by the minute.

* First it was the one who came with two shots (for him and Asmo) and entangled Asmo's arm with his so they could drink it together. Then the demon who stole his attention with some idle chatting right in the middle of your own conversation, and don’t even get him started in the ones who kept asking him to dance.

“Asmo!” You touched his shoulder and he looked at you, interrupting the demon that was whispering by his ear. “Darling! I was looking for you!”

“Really? Cause I was waiting for you by the bathroom, where you said you’ll be!” You almost yelled due to the volume inside the club. “Sorry dear! I got a little bit distracted in the way” he chuckled, turned to the other demon and said something to him before returning to you. “Let’s go get another drink! You took so long I finished my cocktail!” You suppressed the need of telling him it wasn’t your fault, he wouldn’t even listen anyway and you didn’t wanted to spoil the night before it even began.

* The night kept on going and you really tried to not feel bad everytime Asmo left you to go hang out with literally anybody else.

* Your last straw happened at the dance floor. You were both dancing together, and then another demon got behind Asmo to dance with him, then another one appeared at his side.

* After another one completely blocked you from his view and Asmo didn’t even noticed, you slowly made your way to an empty table.

* You kept looking at him tho, hoping to see him looking at you, but it didn’t happened.

“What’s wrong love? You were there one moment and the next one I couldn’t find you!” Asmo grabbed your arm in a friendly manner while he got a little too close to you. “30 minutes ago” “what?” I left the dance floor 30 minutes ago and you just noticed” you crossed your arms looking at him.

Asmo rolled his eyes at you, looking annoyed. This happened everytime he drank enough, or when he was too drunk in self love, luckily for you both were happening tonight! He tended to be a little bit more irritable and acted without thinking.

He took a sip of a drink the demon by his side offered him. He smiled at you drastically changing his demeanor “Stop crying! Are you coming back to dance or what?”

“No, Asmo. I wanna leave” you admired a little bit nervous and irritated with the whole situation. “What? No! Why would we do that? Just come back with us, it’s still early!” He grabbed your hand trying to make you stand up. “It’s 3 am and I’m tired, please, let’s just come back.”

“Ugh, why are acting like such a baby? You just wanna ruin my fun!” He frowned a little bit mad, talking a little bit louder this time. “Me? You ruined my fun! You haven’t even looked at me since we got here.” “Oh, so that’s the problem! You’re just jealous! You want to be by my side always and it’s tiring!” You gulped, a little bit hurt, trying to excuse him. Asmo is always a little bit emotional and flirty, but with a couple of drinks in him he tended to let his sin override his better judgement. “Asmo, it’s time to go back…” “No! I’m sick of it! I’m Asmo! Avatar or lust! jewel of the heavens! I could have fun with everyone I could ever want but you keep trying to be by my side always, spoiling my fun!” This time a couple of demons started looking your way; Asmo got closer to your face and almost fell trying to take a step back, “You’re not good enough to be with me all of the time, get over it.” He spoke with a lower voice, his nose almost touching yours and his index finger poking near your clavicle. He pulled back, now letting you watch his face as he grabbed the other demons hand and a drink that another person offered him. “I’ll go home when I feel like it” he spoke loudly, but not quite yelling. You felt ashamed, demons were now returning to their own conversations but that didn’t stopped a few of them from looking at you mockingly, another couple of them with pity.

You almost ran out of the club, trying to get home before you started ugly crying in the street.

* By the next morning you woke up with puffy eyes and a sore throat.

* You did your best to make your eyes look normal before getting breakfast.

* When you arrived there you were thankful to notice Asmo wasn’t there. It wasn’t abnormal, almost every time he went out, he would wake up later than usual.

“We didn’t expected you here this early” Lucifer’s voice made you snap out of your own thoughts. When you looked confused he explained, “You went out with Asmo last night, didn’t you? You must have returned pretty late.”

“Oh” your stomach hurt, of course you weren’t going to tell him about Asmo's actions from last night and how you ended up coming back on your own way earlier than he did. “I just… came back earlier, he ran into some friends and I was too tired to keep partying”. When the whole table looked convinced at your story, you silently exhaled and went back to looking at your plate, trying to concentrate in what the brothers were talking about instead of what was going on in your head.

* Your efforts to avoid Asmo during the weekend worked. Whenever you were at HoL you tried to stay in hidden in whatever room the brothers were at, and when it was time to eat you’ll convince Beel to go out.

* It wasn’t just your work either. Asmo had also restrained himself from spending time with you.

* He didn’t actually remember all of the fight from the day prior - not as intense as it actually was anyways - but it was pretty common for you to be mad the day after a big party.

* Whatever reason it was, he always knew you would probably be mad at him after partying and kinda ignored you the day after that, but never actually apologized

* The firsts times this happened, you didn’t think much of it. He was drunk so he probably didn’t remembered, and you were also drinking so maaaaybe you overreacted, right?

* Of course as time passed, you started getting this feeling that left a bitter taste in your mouth. Why didn’t he talked to you? Why didn’t he apologized? Didn’t he wanted to knew what he did to make you upset?

* So when this whole situation happened at The Fall, it was your breaking point.

* Not talking to you? Fine! See what I care. This time you weren’t gonna come back like nothing had happened, he embarrassed you! And in front of a really good amount of demons, nonetheless!

* So when Monday rolled around and you didn’t answered Asmo's singsongy ‘good morning’, he found it weird.

* And it wasn’t just that. The whole breakfast you would talk to his brothers pretty normally, but whenever he started talking too, you would go completely silent. His brothers didn’t seem to notice it but he did! And it was making him upset.

* You didn’t sit with him in the class you both shared today, nor did you pass notes during the lesson.

* And don’t even get him started on the way you also ignored him during diner.

* He was so mad he had the fight himself to avoid frowning all day long. A little misunderstanding like this wasn’t going to give him a wrinkle

* The next day he was hopeful you would have time to talk it out, you both use to walk together on Tuesdays since you two had an early class together.

* But when you left as soon as he was joining breakfast with the excuse that Solomon and you were going to meet up to study before class started, all his hopes deflated and he started to felt a disgusting feeling growing in his stomach.

* He wasn’t going to give up that easily, oh no. He actually got to class early and made sure that everybody was sitting anywhere but beside him, so you two would have to sit together.

* And so you did. He had a relaxed smile while he watched you writing notes as the lesson began.

* “Hey Mc ~ want to meet up in my room before dinner so we can do homework together? We can also try this new face mask that I bought. It’s supposed to be amaziiing” he whispered, or tried at least, while leaning in to you. “No, thank you. Satan is helping me with homework today.” You answer was so harsh he felt shocked for a second. “O-Oh, that’s okay darling” he tried to sound as okay as he could, since when did you declined an offer to be with him?

* He tried talking to you again after the lesson ended but you practically ran out of class. He did his best to catch you and your last class of the day, waiting patiently next to your locker.

* You were too concentrated in your DDD to actually look at him before you arrived, leaving you unable to escape him this time.

* “Hello Mc~, I was looking for you all day!” You looked at him briefly before returning your eyes to your locker, opening it and changing some of the books you were holding. Asmo took your silence as a sign to continue, “Wanna walk home together? I saw this cute ice cream stand on the way here, we could go there and take some photos together for my feed too!” You closed your locker, finally looking at him, “No, I’m okay” Asmo frowned, “what do you mean you’re okay?” “I just don’t want to” you tried to leave the conversation there, but Asmo grabbed your wrist before you could escape. “Why… have you been avoiding me?” It was your time to frown, having to fight to keep your mouth closed instead of letting it hang open due to the surprise. Really? “Are you serious, Asmo? You don’t remember how shitty you were with me?” “Ugh, is this about the Saturday thing? Seriously?” “Yes seriously! You embarrassed me and you were extremely rude to me. It was completely uncalled for!” Asmo rolled his eyes “ugh, okay. I didn’t knew it meant so much to you. Im sorry, okay?” He exhaled “Now can we move forward?” You kept your lips in a thin line, feeling anger and sadness mix in your chests making you feel like you were about to slap him and cry in any second. “No. I’m done with this endless loop of you being mean to me whenever you want and me just letting it slide without even getting an apology. Forget it.” You jerked your wrist out from his hand. “I don’t want to be around you, Asmo. You hurt me and you don’t even seem to notice or care” you spoke calmer this time looking at him. His expression was hard to read, was he annoyed? Or just indifferent? “Goodbye, I’ll walk myself home” you practically ran down the stairs while Asmo stood in place. Hurt them? He knew he was a little bit more blunt than usual when he had a some cocktails on him but still, he didn’t said anything that bad, did he? It was probably just that you were touchy and emotional whenever you had alcohol in. It had to be that.

* “Ugh, whatever” he muttered while trying to avoid his shocked expression show. He didn’t needed this, he could get any friend he wanted. If MC wanted to act like a child, so be it.

* Asmo was doing good. Great, actually.

* He used to spend so much time with MC he almost forgot how many people wanted to be with him!

* He had a different companion every lunch, a group of demons following him around when he went out shopping and don’t even get him started about the invitations to go out he had almost every night.

* Wanted to do his skincare routine with someone? No problem, a demon is arriving before he could even begin to ask him. Asmo wanted to have a shopping spree and needed someone to ask for opinion? The demon that was in his history class was there.

* He didn’t even thought about your fight for days!

* Until he saw you eating near the fountain with the twins and Mammon.

* He was on his way to meet another group of demons who asked him to eat together that day. Too into his own mind to realize you were there before seeing you foreground.

* It was… weird. The way you were hanging with his brothers felt different than his recent lunch dates.

* You were sitting in the grass, Beel by your side, eating a burger and fries at the same time, Mammon in front of you talking about something he ignored and Belphie laying in your lap, falling asleep with a smile in his face while he commented something he couldn’t decipher either. You laughed and started caressing Belphie's hair. You started talking with a smile plastered in your face, one that made Asmo feel strange.

* When was the last time he had any meaningful conversation with the people he had been hanging out with? He tried to ignore it, but most of the time they wouldn’t talk or would just praise whatever he would say.

* He hated the upsetting feeling that was settling in his stomach. He hated even more that he j ew how he could fix it.

* That day he ate alone.

* And his after school meetings didn’t went very well either. He had a couple of demons getting a spa treatment with him, in a salon full of people, but he never felt more alone.

* After 30 minutes of demons listening to him bickering about nothing in particular, he decided to try to recreate the kind of atmosphere he had when hanging out with the MC.

* “So… have any of you done anything interesting lately?” The demons looked at him, confused “Nothing as interesting as the things you do everyday, Asmodeus.” One of them answered with a smile plastered on their face. “Well, but like, none of you do anything outside of waiting to hang out with me?” They looked at each other and shook their heads “you don’t have any good stories to chit chat about? A new series you started watching? A weird fixation you know way too much about?” “Do you want us to have some of those? We could create something right now!” Asmo fought to keep his sadness hidden. “Ugh… no, forget it. It’s not the same” he let out a sigh, “let’s just get this over with.”

* That night Asmo felt lonelier than he did before. It wasn’t just the fact that he noticed how empty those demons were, it was the fact that none of them was as interesting and comfortable to hand around as you, MC.

* And whats even worse, none of them stay around enough. They like Asmo for what he has and gets, not for who he is and what he has to offer outside of his lust and social position.

* Yes, a lot of people want to hangout with Asmodeus, avatar of lust, but not a lot of them want to stay with Asmo. And even if they did, none of them are you, MC.

* The next day Asmo convinced himself that he needed to get back his situationship with you.

* Even if he had to accept he fucked up and needed to apologize.

* He tried, he really tried to work up the courage to go and talk to you, but, weirdly, he felt nervous.

* What if you realized you actually were better without him? What if you had actually replaced him with his brothers? You did look happy these last days.

* And what’s even worse, he could never catch you alone!

* He tried to talk to you before the first period, but you were too busy hanging around Satans locker, helping him carry some books back to the library.

* During lunch Diavolo and Bsrbatos were all over you, talking about some human realm festival that was happening next month.

* And in the classes you were together, you had already found other partners for every activity. It was frustrating and infuriating. What did everyone else had that he didn’t?

* “… so this is how Levi feels, uh?”

* But finally, and after waiting for a long time, he caught you alone reading in a bench while waiting for Mammon to walk home together after class.

* He took a big breath before walking to you, hands in his side and lips pursed

“Hey, Mc. Can we… talk?”

You raised your face yo look at him and he felt nervous for a minute. This was so unlike him it was making his tummy feel weird. “I suppose.”

Asmo sat down in the bench, letting a small silence cover your conversation. “I’ve missed you, MC” “really? Didn’t seemed like it” Asmo intertwined his fingers, “yeah, I know. I’ve spent all week looking for ways to avoid thinking about you, but I’ve failed, clearly.”

You looked at him before turning your face back to your book. Asmo felt frustrated, too many feelings in his chest but only so much he could express with words. “I’m sorry Mc, I really do. And I’m sorry it took me this long to say it, and to realize that I could never replace, not even if I tried” You turned the book back down and he took that as a sign to keep going. “I really thought about everything I do remember from that day and even though it’s not much, I know I can be a little difficult to deal with when partying and I’m sorry, I must’ve gutted you pretty bad, but I don’t want yo be that person again, I don’t want to hurt you anymore.” Asmo exhaled and kept going this time getting a little closer, “It’s completely okay if you don’t want to forgive me, really. I hurt you, and I never want to be that person again. I swear, if you give me another chance, this won’t ever happen again. I don’t want you to feel unappreciated ever again.” He took your hand, slowly, trying to see if there were any signs of resistance. “And I just… I wanted you to know that you are important to me and nothing could ever replace you. I want to do better for you because you’re worth it.”

You looked at Asmo for a really long time before actually breaking a little smile, tears gathering in your eyes. “Oh Asmo.” You went in for a hug, that Asmo quickly deepened, pulling you as close as he could. “That’s all I wanted. For you to say you’re sorry and to acknowledge my feelings. I don’t want us to grow apart.” “Me neither! Do you know how boring and sad my days were without you around?” You laughed a little, your face buried in Asmo's neck “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry.” “Hey Asmo, it’s okay. We’ll work on it together, okay?” “Yes, please. I don’t want us to fight ever again”

Asmo let you go after a while, holding you by the shoulders. “So, spa day to celebrate?”

Asmo has really grown on my these past months

#obey me mc #obey me scenarios #obey me #obey me angst #obey me asmo x mc #asmodeus avatar of lust #obey me asmodeus #asmodeus x reader

[it-may-be-dull-but-im-determined]

is Farscape the sort of thing that takes a few episodes to find its groove? should i be patient if we're not besties right away?

(i'm prone to snap judgements and don't want to make a mistake here)

Ahhhh so Farscape can be a WILDLY interesting study in complete contradictions. I agree with everything Cat Valente says is brilliant about it in this thread and this very long and detailed essay about why you should watch Farscape and yet also I will sit there fast-forwarding great chunks of season one especially because the quality control from episode to episode is so wildly variable. When I say variable, I mean some episodes feel embarrassingly amateur at times, especially after twenty something years of higher budget, vaguely more evolved TV SF. Occasionally it doesn't know what show it's trying to be, or what show it was the previous episode. It has a terrible weakness for bad puns in episode titles. It can be trite. It can feel weirdly childish, for a show that is frequently about aliens fucking. It's really really very silly on occasion and I have a particularly very low tolerance for second hand embarrassment. Farscape can be frequently embarrassing, but the fact I'm still flailing about it after twenty something years despite that is kind of significant.

Because when it's good, it's so incredibly fucking high quality excellent. It's got all the chemistry, all the high stakes heists and the high melodrama sacrifice, all the dealing with grief and trauma and how do you deal with a legacy of repeated genocide and fascism. Everyone is a space criminal on a stolen sentient prison ship. What the fuck even is the greater good. How do you deal with being a parent. Most of the cast are emoting through inch thick layers of foam latex and the other half are wearing fetish gear (OR THEY'RE PUPPETS. OR CGI ORGANIC SENTIENT SPACESHIPS), but they're really fucking good at said emoting and it's still heartbreaking. It's been twenty years and I will still start crying if I so much as hear the season three version of the theme tune (oh god the theme song evolution).

The silly episodes throughout season one are even weirder because it does pretty much find its feet straightaway with the pilot ep - it's snappy and emotional and charming and clever, and yes the tropes are there but the tropes didn't have quite the same level of tired significance back in 1999? I watched that first ep and was cackling over how fucking fantastic it was. It was such a refreshing change in 1999 that it sailed me through any of the occasionally dodgy stuff that followed.

It's also very very... Aussie, which to me covers a lot of the humour and the sheer demented glee of what the creators wanted to run with? The cast has chemistry, in spades, and the characters flirt and fuck (and... one of them is a hot blue zen plant priestess who orgasms in bright light. Obviously.) and everything is just a little bit.. extra. It has an episode where everyone is a loony tunes cartoon. It has an episode inspired by A Clockwork Orange. It has small stabby robots. It's squelchy and makes fart jokes ALL THE TIME (mostly because one of the main puppets is a former emperor who farts helium and okay yep it's pretty funny. The other puppet is wise and kind and troubled and possibly complicit in war crimes. This fucking show I can't even).

...I'm just going to apologise for this essay, and say probably go read the Cat Valente thing because it includes much more key whether you should in fact watch Farscape information such as:

“They’re all gonna be Australian or Kiwi! Except for one guy! It’s basically gonna be a tour of Sydney’s underground club scene, even for the smallest parts! And I mean that, everyone is going to be wearing leather BDSM gear 24/7, even the heroes. I’M TELLIN’ YA WE GOT MAGDA SZUBANSKI! THIS THING IS GOLD! Literally, the whole color palette is like really gold. With most of a Crayola box taped on top of it. SPACE IS AUSTRALIAN NOW. ALL OF IT. DEAL WITH IT.”

there will be an almost unbelievable amount of goo involved. Like if there is a Goo Department, and anyone is left over after Nickelodeon’s job fair last week, we need all the goo.”

“Because of all the sex and violence that just barely doesn’t cross the decency lines we’re still kind of feeling out right now?”

“That, too. But mostly because we need all the makeup and then after we’re done turning regular humans a TON of nutbar colors, everything else is going to be just…dripping. All the time. Just drenched in slime. Good slime, bad slime, it will constantly be hard to say. But it’s like Coco Chanel always said, before you leave the house, look in the mirror and upend a bucket of colorful sludge over your head.”

#farscape #space is australian now #i am incapable of writing about this show normally #also i just realised it's no longer streaming ANYWHERE in the uk ffs #I HAVE TO DIG OUT MY DVD BOXSETS #god it's like it's 2007 all over again #i feel like i should stress that my super low tolerance for shows being embarrassing is the biggest issue here #coupled with the wild emotional rollercoaster of farscape quality #i didn't even mention john/aeryn because i'm trying to be normal about this #but i an incapable of being normal about it #also we won't talk about the fact it got cancelled with two seasons worth of plots left and then wrapped up in a four hour miniseries... #...but at least we got the damn miniseries and an ending. small mercies.

[eyrieofsynapses]

…maybe an unpopular opinion, but I think I like Eliot's hand-to-hand fight scenes more than the ones in big-box movies.

see, I was rewatching a bit of Captain America: The Winter Soldier (yes I've seen some of the MCU, no I have not seen Infinity War or anything past it because I refuse to watch it without other people to cry with and my friends haven’t been available) before I rewatched Rundown. and guys, I adore TWS. easily in my top favorite films of all time. the fight scenes are fantastic! holy heck, the emotional weight! if you asked me which movies I love hand-to-hand in the most, that'd be at the top of the list, easy. Steve and Bucky in that final scene? ohhhhhh my gods.

but then I bounced over to The Rundown Job and just… y’know the bit where Eliot takes out the guys after Hardison signals him at the elevator? it feels so much more fun. I can't pin down exactly why, but it feels closer, more personal, more impactful. probably some of it comes from how Eliot is having--maybe not exactly fun, but how he likes doing his job. there's something about it.

and it's not just TWS that I can compare this back to, either. off the top of my head, I love it more than The Batman's hand-to-hand combat (which is admittedly rough because it's early-years Bruce, but still) and probably most anything else I've seen out of the MCU. animation isn't live-action, obviously, but I've seen some really solid combat in DC's animated work too. like, I haven't seen a ton of hand-to-hand work (it seems the film industry is understandably more fond of sword fights and such), but personally I find that when it comes to sheer fun, Leverage is really hard to beat.

now I'm not gonna compare it to sword-fighting or things like that. that's another ballgame. but hand-to-hand specifically… I'm not a violent person, but I dunno, y'all, there's just something about how Eliot fights that makes him fun to watch in a way I'm not sure I see elsewhere. probably it's partly that I'm just ridiculously fond of him. it is absolutely in large part because Christian Kane a) does his own stunts and works with the choreography, b) actively integrates Eliot's character into his work, and c) is just an all-around fantastic madman of a person.

but! they get so very clever with it! all the different things he'll grab to improvise with! I mean, where else do you get somebody who uses umbrellas, pipe organ pipes, whisks, screen doors, golf clubs, appetizers, literally anything to take opponents out on a regular basis? hauling people up over his shoulders and his back to toss them into dumpsters? comments like "if I'm not honest with you, you can't improve"? counting every single dude in a massive ship and then counting down as he takes each one out? barreling out of nowhere to tackle a dude? who else gives us lines like "that's what makes it fair" to the dude who laughs at him for not carrying a gun?

and it's hardly like we don't know Eliot's going to win--Eliot always wins--but there's still tension to it. he's not so good as to be perfect. he struggles, he comes back with bruises and cuts and the occasional broken rib, it's not like there's nothing at stake here. we've seen him have to let somebody go or otherwise mess up. too many opponents or too much muscle make him wary. he's competent as all hell, but he has to be sly and tricky and clever about how he fights as much as he has to deliver enough force. Eliot doesn't just fight well, he fights smart. he uses his surroundings and knows when to play possum and how to target an opponent's weak spots.

like. goddamn. I can watch him versus Roper in The Carnival Job a hundred times, and it still shakes me to the core to see him go down for that brief moment. in that second, you can believe he's in real danger. and he does come out of it hurt and limping and covered in blood. but we still have no doubt that he's an absolute badass!

oh yeah, and also: he has fun. there's always that little smile he's got when he's about to take down a bunch of unwitting thugs. laughing at Quinn when he's got bruised ribs and bloody teeth. looking at the pipe from the pipe organ in Van Gogh in surprise when it rings when he hits a guy before giving it an appreciative grin. sizing up Mikel and running through each situation (and, you know, that little make-out in the basement). staring at the dude in Lonely Hearts and going "fisticuffs? seriously?" with that tone of amused disbelief before flipping the guy into the harbor.

it's his job and he's not fond of hurting people, exactly, but he takes pride in it and he enjoys proving himself over and over. he enjoys the challenge. and it's kind of impossible not to love watching him beat it every. single. time

anyway yeah, if you ever ask me "who's the most fun to watch fight hand-to-hand?" it's probably always gonna be Eliot, tbh.

#leverage #eliot spencer #and I couldn't find a spot to add this thought in here BUT ALSO #these scenes aren't all about Emotional Tension Release #they're not Big Dramatic Moments for the most part #there is no heft dramatic music or seriousness to it #nah--Leverage just wants us to have fun #these scenes are crafted to be FUN TO WATCH #we're meant to enjoy the grins! we're meant to laugh! #we're meant to be impressed by Eliot's ingeniousness of course #but we're also just... here to enjoy the ride with him #yes I absolutely love big dramatic fighting moments #they can be great on a character development level and just in general #but there's really something to be said for when they're developed #with the specific purpose of entertainment and such #also: I'm saying hand-to-hand SPECIFICALLY #because uh. you really really REALLY can't beat Princess Bride's swordfighting #or the hilarity of Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl #and there's also lightsaber battles to be considered #also magic and ATLA and those sorts of things #and you really absolutely cannot beat the sheer fun of Cap's shield #however: hand-to-hand is QUITE different in comparison to those #now I adore Nightwing's sass mind you and plenty of others #but when it comes to sheer 'aw hell how'd they do five season's worth of this #and it STILL never ever gets remotely boring or stale?!' factor #Eliot beats out... pretty much everything I can think of

[lfcthelovesofmylife]

My Opinions on the England NT players

Luke Shaw - 

literally looks like he’s 15 and 35 at the same time in some pictures. To this day I don’t know how old he actually is. Have not seen him play a single Man U match this season (i don’t like Man U so i don’t watch their matches but still). Does he still play football? I don’t know. Good goal against Italy so i have to give him some praise for that but i genuinely don’t know anything about him. 

Mason Mount - 

I cannot lie, I think I fell in love with him the moment I saw him. If love at first sight exists I think this is it. I would do anything for this man. He looks like he’d sit with you on a bench in your school gym and let you cry on his shoulder (defo not based on real life experiences). What more can I say about him? I would burn the world down for him and then jump off of a cliff if he asked me to. 10/10 especially after missing his pen in the FA cup final. He did that for me xx

Trent Alexander-Arnold - 

Also the sexiest mf I’ve ever seen. Assist king. He seems like a bitch sometimes but I still love him. Does look like if you were nice to him he’d be nice back. Very proud of his achievements. Do just want to find him and give him a massive hug sometimes. I like the new haircut much more. It’s grown on me, he better not change it or some sorry words will be said. Hope he gets picked for the next England matches but I don’t want him to get injured because I’m not mentally stable enough to deal with that.

Tyrone Mings - 

Literally the height of a fucking tree. He’d absolutely destroy me and my five foot two self with just a push. Quite scared of him but at the same time he looks like he’d invite me in for a cuppa and a few biscuits if I was walking past his house in the pouring rain. Probably has a kind soul but I wouldn’t want to get on the bad side of him. 

Kyle Walker - 

Kind of reminds me of a pigeon. I don’t know why, he just seems to have that familiar blank stare. Looks like he’d bark at you for stealing his sandwich in Tesco’s which he never actually bought. Do find him quite funny but that might just be when he’s with John. Overall I wouldn't particularly want to be besties with him.

Jesse Lingard - 

Absolute icon. JLingz. Has the most adorable daughter, she’s so precious. Easily one of the funniest players in the game. I can already tell we’d be best friends. Especially love him after the reports that he got into a scrap with Hazza Maguire. Deserves the world. I hope I get to meet him one day. 

Marcus Rashford - 

Looks like a kind man. Don’t know if we’d get along because we’d fight over who’s Jesse’s better friend. Can already tell he’d try and make me a home-cooked meal if I ever said I was hungry. Would no doubt constantly try to give me food. I’d have to convince him he’s actually a good footballer because Ralf never plays him in matches. Looks like he’d get very emotional sometimes.

Jack Greasy…I mean Grealish -

Don’t like him because he’s a bit of a bellend but I have to admit he’s extremely funny. Doesn’t seem like he has a single brain cell left so it would probably be very difficult to have an actual conversation with him. I salute his girlfriend for putting up with him. I could probably drive better than him. I don’t have my driver’s licence. 

Hazza Maguire - 

Absolutely terrified of him. Would probably tell me to go back to my own country. If I saw him begin to walk towards me I’d run the other way. He’d try and fight me because I’d tell him he’s a shit footballer. Nothing more to say. Traumatises me just thinking about it. 

Jude Bellingham - 

Absolute sweetheart in my opinion. Looks like he’d protect you from all those creepy guys at a house party or club. Would definitely cover your drink if you had to go somewhere for a quick second. Seems like a lovely guy. Want to see more of his personality on the England youtube channel. 

Jordan Pickford - 

Hate him but at the same time I love him. He’s so funny and for what. Suddenly manages to bring out all the skills for England but he’s horrendous for Everton. Might just be because it’s Everton. I do want to punch him sometimes. Wouldn’t be surprised if someone from the team already has.

Phil Foden -

Looks like a prick. He always looks like he’s going to complain about something. Would not be able to stand the guy for a single second. He just looks annoying. I see him on my tv and immediately change the channel. Every time I see his face I want to punch it. 

Jordan Henderson-

DILF. He is the definition of a gentleman. Looks like he’d hold the door open for you if he saw you walking down the corridor. Just seems like the best person to work with. Has an absolute heart of gold. Would sell my soul for him 100%. The best captain in the Premier League. In my opinion he should be captain of England but Gareth doesn’t like Liverpool players. I know he’d give me a whole motivational speech if I told him I was going to give up on my education. He’d 110% hold you in his arms while you cried for a whole hour. 

Ben Chilwell - 

Looks a bit like a Lego man. He has a very square head and I don’t know how to feel about it. He has some of the stupidest tattoos I’ve ever seen but in all fairness he’s a good player. Just don’t support some of the things he’s done (but I won’t go into that). Does look like a massive weirdo. Would probably be a bit scared of him when he’s drunk.

Raheem Sterling - 

Runs a bit like a dinosaur. Very good player just don’t like the fact he left Liverpool for City. The only good thing about that is the fact that he’s managed to get a decent trim now. Arguably one of the best players in the England squad but i’m still holding a grudge against him. 

Hazza Kane -

Looks like he might call me a racial slur. I would 100% be able to absolutely hammer him in a fight. Don’t really like him at all. How are you captain of your national team if you can’t even be captain of Spurs. SPURS. It’s just a bit embarrassing on his behalf. 

Reece James - 

As I said previously, he looks like he’d absolutely batter you in a fight but he’d also give you a really good hug if you were sad. Reminds me of a teddy bear. Seems like he’d have a bit of a short temper, but as long as you were his friend you wouldn’t be in danger. If you weren’t, good luck to you (RIP). 

Jadon Sancho - 

Proper joke man. Again, I’d be best friends with him because I think we have a very similar sense of humour. Would no doubt annoy every single member of the team. We’d be banned from seeing each other because we’re too annoying together. Is he okay? I haven’t seen him play in a long time. 

Declan Rice - 

My boyfriend’s best friend. We’d also be best friends. There are too many funny players in this squad, but this guy is my absolute favourite of them all. His rendition of ‘Ice, Ice, Baby’ brought tears to my eyes. Should be the new national anthem. Extremely happy he’s got a much better trim now. Does need a bit of a tan though, he looks ghostly white sometimes. He should ask Mason where the best tanning beds are. 

Kalvin Phillips and Kieran Trippier - 

Had to put these two together because I genuinely have no opinion of them. Literally who are they. 

Bukayo Saka - 

Looks like such a nice guy. The type of guy you’d bring home to meet your parents. Would offer you popcorn if he saw you around, and would always ask how you’re doing and actually mean it. Wins the award for ‘Nicest Guy’. Don’t understand how anyone could not like him. Would probably cry with you while you’re crying. 

John Stones - 

Perfect name for him tbh. Looks like he’s stoned half the time. He’d probably punch the Hazza’s for calling you a racial slur. Would be the best person to get drunk with, he’d probably try and give you (really bad) relationship advice and then convince you to sing Valerie by Amy Winehouse with him. Overall a decent guy, only downside is that he plays for City. 

#mason mount #trent alexander arnold #declan rice #bukayo saka #jesse lingard #marcus rashford #john stones #jordan henderson #tyrone mings #jadon sancho #jude bellingham #mason mount imagine #trent alexander arnold imagine #declan rice imagine #marcus rashford imagine #john stones imagine #keira's random writing x

[amidst-wonderland]

final fantasy: rebirth {a mess of emotions, not in chronological order}

this is more story-based, so heads-up spoilers below.

“question. does that make me a dumbass?”

not aerith asking about reno

chadley nearly outing cissnei and cloud getting real confrontational about it.

cloud is so much more conversational in this, i felt in remake he was bordering on joker level’s of player-character. he’s a lot more laidback, which is understandable since he didn’t really know anyone but tifa and midgar’s only like what a week long?

the game now feels like an ensemble piece rather an a cloud simulator.

cloud not realising he’s the one loner friend

americans aren’t the best swearers - put to much emphasis on the swear itself but cloud does it so well.

he’s a prickly, backchatting bitch in this game and i love every single second of it. he’s not mopey, stubborn and grumpy. he’s ‘i’m going to actively make myself your problem if you cross me, so don’t.’

barret immitating yuffie?! or, “oh, wow. tell us more.” it’s giving abridged.

yuffie’s little naruto run!

yuffie and cloud’s growing sibling dynamic is the cutest shit. like, he should be be pissed at her but immediately protected her from the captain.

all i hear is priscilla’s dad’s irish accent from abridged when ever someone says her name or, “mr dolphin, ye daft bastard.”

rufus shinra… the man that you are.

every rude and elena scene, just, yes. her with the ice-lolly, the corneo fight, rude’s pub club?! babysitting palmer. (also, they call it the clean-shaven club when rude literally has a beard).

i genuinely thought we were gonna at least get that iconic reno and rude scene outside of gongaga (and as a long-shot a reunion with cissnei - i stand by the fact tseng absolutely knows where she is.)

that final turks training facility was a bitch to find.

don’t get me wrong, yuffie, barret, tifa and red’s trials were sad but aerith’s absolutely wrecked me. like i’ve got a stuffy nose already and i literally couldn’t breathe with the tears.

same with dyne and barret, like what you mean you want me to fight palmer?! i’m sitting here ugly crying about two men who love their daughter and have been through hell and back.

i’d love to see cissnei and leslie get involved with the wutai turk team-up

as much as i love aerti’s ‘improved over og’ friendship. it’s not passing the bechdel test anytime soon.

fuck queen’s blood.

cloud saying “down boy” sir- THE WHIMPERING!

the kids locking yuffie in with the hooded men on the cruise.

nanaki walking in the cabin on two legs fucking kills me. i also caught barret admiring himself in the mirror.

the fact the name tag is, “???” when we can hear yuffie cheering on cloti.

did they kiss?!

so, we finally see loveless and it was everything i ever wanted. genesis, i’m sorry, you were right.

“death doesn’t suit a turk”

cloud jr is too cute and i love my chocobro protagonists

speaking of, i’m in two heads about ffxv. you can see a lot of the inspiration the team got from that game but i think they left out the one thing that made ffxv perfect, which was the constant chatter during traversal

cloud turning on tifa during the gongaga reactor mission is giving the ffxv: omen trailer

i need a tonberry robot for my desk

jessie’s poster! i really thought she’d be alive with biggs

cloud calling gus a prick is when it clicked for me, like cloud’s got bite

i need esther’s red boots

cid is played by j. michael tatum?! sebastian- france- kyouya-

elena stuck in the heat yelling at rude, omg this is the turk moments i love.

as someone who is scottish, i can’t believe i witnessed cait sith tell cissnei to “wheesht”.

not the biggest fan of cissnei’s new colour scheme. would’ve gone with browns, accented gold buckles and mustard yellow personally

wished they’d’ve put in an turk easter egg in her house.

cosmo canyon’s lantern scene is so pretty.

gold-fucking-saucer. woah

sitting at the water tower with aerith felt wrong, and i know that was intentional.

omfg vincent, why he kinda dressed like gyuvin in en garde?

jesus, roche.

still not keen on seph’s voice - mainly because i don’t like tyler and also zack is better but i’m still not keen

symbiote!peter to “OMG GUYSSS HAIIII” is like fucking whiplash. two minutes ago we were crying over harry, now hotels?!

i knew that’s what marlene saw! and now zack knows! i am not okay!

was low-key waiting on elena throwing the keystone to reno to catch for a grand intro but he kinda just appears, and i loved every second of it.

the way both tifa and aerith have had to stop cloud murdering a turk.

cloud with blood by his own hand on his face is such a chilling image. it’s like seeing someone like superman with it.

avalanche versus reno and rude’s fight was giving advent children, like specifically reno and rude’s fight with loz and kazoo. (which i rewatched recently. rude’s face when reno steps on his glasses is the funniest thing in that film, also i can’t unhear fred from scooby-doo when loz speaks even though i know it’s not frank welker - it’s the dude that plays corneo).

#final fantasy 7 rebirth #cissnei #the turks #ff7 #reno of the turks #cloud strife #tifa lockhart #aerith gainsborough #barret wallace #yuffie kisaragi #red xiii #elena ff7 #rude of the turks #tseng of the turks #sephiroth

[pekuliar]

HC for Reigen, his sibling, and his childhood

Reigen having a sibling is a pretty common HC!! Most headcanons with Reigen’s older sister/Reigen having a sibling portray the sibling as the “good kid”/“golden child” compared to his loser ass, but mostly based on…….projection from my own childhood……. I’d like to think it’s the opposite. IMO, Reigen was the “good kid” while his sibling was the one who Reigen’s parents probably worried about more

I think it’s quite a common hc too that Reigen’s parents were strict/emotionally neglectful/had unrealistic expectations of their kids, which I totally agree with. Now, here’s some projection and traumadumping to illustrate how children with these parents might grow —

There are a couple ways children survive living with overbearing/strict parents — by running themselves ragged trying to please them, or by accepting the frequent arguments/groundings/bans as part of life. I think Reigen (as I did) chose the former, and his sibling (as my sibling did) chose the latter.

My childhood went something like this: I was seen as the “unproblematic child” with a tendency to be a fast learner wherever it counted. I thrived off being good at things, and being told I was good at things. Classic “you can do anything you set your mind to” child. I wasn’t perfect by far; I just developed a sixth sense for getting away with things — lying, “reading” my parents, finding loopholes, scheduling “coincidences”, and a healthy amount of crying to guilt-trip my teachers.

My sibling, on the other hand, was the opposite — they skipped school, never cared to find any extracurricular clubs, and were always at odds with my parents. They made friends quick though; where I tended to only befriend people I was in the same class/club with, my sibling somehow always had a web of friends spanning multiple schools. Crucially, despite how often they fought with my parents, my sibling almost never lied, instead choosing to go “Yeah, I did that. So what?”, accepting the ensuing arguments.

Because of that, we grew very differently. My sibling is so much more open and sociable, hating environments where he’s made to act more “formal”/“professional”, figuring out early on that you don’t actually need to continually convince people that you matter. On the other hand, I think I’ve habitually covered up any single iota of genuineness inside me. I’m great at making first impressions but bad at actually connecting; I can’t cope with not being busy 100% of the time; I keep obsessively finding new skills to pick up because idk what else I can do. I also don’t have any good coping mechanisms for failure and rejection because, well, why would a “gifted kid” need to learn how to deal with being bad at things?* [*: sarcasm]

Does all this sound familiar?

So yes anyway. I think Reigen is Reigen because he was always good at pleasing his parents/teachers using a combination of deception/manipulation and actually being good at things, and was unable to accept failure/rejection because he’d always found a way to avoid it. And as a result of being unable to accept any outcome below the ideal, he would’ve gotten less and less honest about his own genuine emotions, eventually becoming great at presenting an “impressive” front but terrible at actually genuinely connecting with people.

And so in conclusion — LET CHILDREN BE SHIT AT THINGS. LET CHILDREN SUCK AT SCHOOLWORK/SPORTS/ETC. Literally no one was created to be perfect at everything. Allowing children to fail in a supportive environment doesn’t encourage them to “”underperform””; it makes them so much better at accepting failure and moving forward from it in a safe and non-self-destructive way. Also, forcing kids to be perfect doesn’t make them perfect — it just makes them damn good liars. Idk why this is becoming a parenting PSA from me, a single 24-year-old, but please just. Let children be shit.

#mob psycho 100 #mp100 #long post #sorry #mp100 headcanons #reigen arataka #arataka reigen #this rly is 90% projection #but it makes sense okay!!!!!

[chidoroki]

Black Clover: Sword of the Wizard King - movie reaction

Don’t normally do these for movies but WHATEVER. I’m too happy to care right now! It took me like..three & a half hours to get through the entire movie because I kept replayed scenes over and over again. I was just so amazed at how beautiful it all was and I was beyond emotional to see & hear everyone.

(full reaction below the cut with obvious spoilers)

Y’all wouldn’t believe how much I’m shaking. I couldn’t stay up late waiting for the movie to drop because I was so exhausted but NOW.. I’m up! I’m awake at seven in the morning (though this is probably gonna post much later) on a day off (yes I took off just for this) and it’s finally happening!

Julius’ time magic is breaking apart? Dunno why exactly but it certainly can’t be a good thing.

So the sneak peak they showed on twitter yesterday was of a flashback of ten years ago. I figured it had to be something like that since Fuegoleon, Yami, and Julius looked so young, but then ya got Nozel who seems the same as ever! Still handsome though, of course.

And is that a younger Theresa with Fuegoleon too? Back when she was an active magic knight?

It’s already in dub? Alright, good. I prefer that honestly, since that’s how I first watched BC, but I’ll pop up the subs on screen as well just in case there’s any slight differences.

Crazy how Conrad’s key/door magic, whichever it is, negated everyone else’s that was holding him down with little effort.

Ooohh everything already looks so beautifully animated, and Mereoleona! Going nuts as usual!

The way my little heart sped up upon seeing and hearing Nozel.. aahh! I still think it hilarious how much this man grew on me once I caught up with the manga. Now I love him IMMENSELY!

Ayyy Yami coming in with a quick save to Julius.

Yeaaaahh Julius! Time bind his crazy ass! (so it was Conrad who was breaking free at the start, huh?)

“My magic is never giving up!” Okay excuse you sir, you can’t steal Asta’s line like that!

The sunrise is gorgeous.. everything is. Ohhh I may cry.

Now we got a full colosseum? Is there a little tournament on the horizon? That should be fun, but hello Mimosa! Please explain this Triumph event!

Now who’s this shady person walking the streets hm?

Aw Fanzell, Dominante, Mariella and Fana cameo!

I love Klaus & Mimosa’s little banter.

Of course Julius is gonna watch all the action from the stands.. and there’s our lovely Black Bulls! Charmy with the snacks and Vanessa with the drinks as usual. These girls got their priorities straight.

Ahahaa Yuno’s little fan club.. and naturally Charmy’s gonna cheer for him too.

Oh, the shady person from the streets was our boy Asta disguised.. and apparently he can’t compete because of that devil trial, but obviously, he doesn’t care. He wouldn’t dare miss out on an opportunity to battle against Yuno.

“The Masked One?” “Surely nobody entered the tournament with such a ridiculous name?..Oh, they did!” Pfftt, the surprise in Klaus’ voice was perfect.

You can stay disguised all you want Asta, but those swords of yours are too recognizable that they’re gonna give your identity away..

Conrad and the other three Wizard Kings are already here..? I guess we’re not gonna see any part of the tournament. Shame, I was kinda excited for the idea.

It’s gonna bother me that I won’t know the other WK’s voice actors til the credits because I don’t recognize any at the moment, but at least we learn that Jester has barrier magic.

Damn, so Conrad’s seal weakened when Patri killed Julius? Eh, makes sense.

Legion magic from Princia (whom I’m also fond of her voice) summons up countless warriors.. nice.

Asta!!! Look at our boy! That smile of his is so bright! And taking these warriors out no problem!

“Ugh, these guys are the worst! They ruined my awesome disguise!” “And here I thought you were a lost child who wandered onto the field.” I love snarky Yuno so much.

Asta and Noelle literally having each other’s backs and supporting each other.. aahh it warms my heart, it’s adorable!

I dunno why, but Jester may be my favorite out of this WK trio. He’s got that sly bastard energy.

Good to see the Bulls joining the fight, but where the hell are the captains? Shouldn’t they be fine with their large supply of mana? Unless they were helping the crowd evacuate. That’s probably the reason.

Speak of the devil, there’s our Yami. And the rest of them.. and Leo?

I was about the question the backstory between Kaiser and Conrad since they seemed familiar with each other, but then remembered Kaiser was there in the beginning flashback. Silly me.

Asta and Finral tasked to go fetch something to help against Conrad and naturally Noelle slides right into the portal with them.

A sword that can store up magic power and can possible destroy a whole country when it releases it? No wonder Julius tried to get rid of it.

Eeehehe, Nozel and Fuegoleon and their dramatic entrances! I love these stylish men.

Yami c’mon, must you always poke fun at my boy? At least Julius found it funny. Nozel, not so much.

“I’m awake for a change, but this feels like a dream. It’s way too crazy!” “This is filling my brush with inspiration. Then again, maybe now’s not the time to be painting.” Ahaha, I love them all so much and happy that they’re getting some screen time too.

The stadium was one of Conrad’s weapons the entire time?

I know Julius said Nero was assisting at Branch Zero but I did not expect the lab coat.

“Key magic. It grants him the ability to create keys that can open or close rifts out of thin air. The magic space behind these doors is able to absorb whatever Conrad wishes. Tools, grimoires.. magic itself.” And he can steal other people’s magic with that too hm? Thank you for the info Nero.

Okay, well damn, Conrad managed to beat them all here and knock out Sally.

Ah geez Finral, always getting hurt. I hope he doesn’t stay knocked out for long.

Shit, I had a feeling he stole some of Marx’s magic to learn all about them.

YEAH NOPE! Despite seeing this scene before in trailers I’m STILL NOT OKAY seeing Nozel knocked out in a pool of blood!! Aaaahhh!!!

“To think that such a coward was allowed to be a captain of the magic knight!” Oh hell no! You can’t speak about my boy like that, Conrad! Go on Noelle, go fuck up this bastard!!

I love how upset/angry she gets on Nozel’s behalf and I’m in awe with how they animated her water in this movie!

Damn it, Conrad stole her magic so easily.. I really hope this doesn’t hinder her the entire movie. I really wanna see her go all out.

But that’s why Asta gets so pissed off? Yeaaah boy! Make Conrad pay!

Wait, hold up.. the fire and lighting magic attributesare common, but a magic that resembles poison? Did Conrad already steal the Bull’s magic too? That would explain those threads Conrad held Asta down with but I pushed aside the thought of it being Vanessa’s since it looked like it also had needles to it.. but who knows. Maybe I’m over thinking.

Sure they both want a world where people respect other but Conrad is just a little, sorta kinda, very much insane.

Oh! Asta broke one of the keys! Does that restore people’s magic maybe? Or just cancel out the attack?

Aw, even when completely worn out, one of Asta’s concerns is for Conrad to return Noelle’s magic.

Oohhh we got a pissed off Yuno as back up, as well as Millie and Sally.

Well, at least for a moment before they decided to retreat.

If they bring the fight to Hage, then you know our two main boys are gonna be angry.

DAAAMMNNN, Noelle always looks SO GOOD with her hair down like that.

Oh Sekke, always with the give up and run away strategy hm?

Asta coming through with that inspirational talk-no-justu! And of course Noelle is the first to offer her strength to him! You go girl! Support your man!

“So! What are we gonna do first?” “I’m gonna figure that out, right now!” “You’re what?” Asta would make for a wonderful WK, but he would still be a fool, and I love him for that.

I was wondering when we were gonna get one of Sekke’s famous laughs and it comes along with Mereoleona busting down doors. I probably should’ve expected that from her by now.

William, Jack and Charlotte were away this whole time? Wait, were their seats really empty at the stadium when they showed all the other captains and I just never noticed? Oops.

They show Yami, Fuegoleon and Nozel trapped within the barrier but what happened to Kaiser then?

Love-struck Charlotte is still as funny as ever.

Charmy…? Were you small in Asta’s hair this whole time or what?

Ah, nevermind, all the Bulls are all here too, thanks to Yami and Rouge.

I’m so terrible.. I didn’t even realize Henry & Gordon were missing til Vanessa pointed it out.

Aahh precious Noelle and Vanessa hug!! I love both these girls so much!

Aww Vanessa making another headband for Asta! I also.. didn’t realize that was missing til now.. damn, I’m really not observant at all today.

Mmmmhmhm, even now, whenever William speaks, all I can hear is Ginoza.

Good lord, Princia can summon up quite an army of these warriors and she’s not even close by.

Half way through the movie and we finally get a Asta-Yuno fist bump!

I was so proud when they all managed to pass Jester but then Princia and Edward joined the fun..but then Finral stepped in to help! Yay!

Zora’s laugh never gets old. He also as the best comments.

“Also, don’t forget I am your superior!” Ya gotta have the typical Finral line too!

Mereoleona holding up the entire Bull’s base.. this woman is a mad lad.

Aw come on, I’m glad Yuno & Asta made it inside but I really wanted to see everyone else join the big brawl too! Hopefully they show up later.

Oh my.. that big, confident grin of Yuno’s made me weak.

So we do get to see the Bulls fight more!! Great! And it’s all of ‘em against Edward!

And Mereoleona fights one vs one against Princia? Hell yeah, let’s goooo! She’s definitely gonna enjoy that fight too.

Yuno used Jester’s attacks against him to free the three captains. Smart move boy!

Luck is gonna love this fight against Edward, no doubt. And thank god for Rouge as always!

Awww Gauche saving Grey! How cute!

Took a damn long while but we finally got a namedrop for Edward’s magic. Ice wedge. And the fact he can freeze magma with it is insane.

Why must captains always get stabbed?? Seems like Mereoleona is cauterizing her wound though so that’s good.. or she can just summon up a huge purgatory mana zone and crush the blade in her hand. That works too.

Oh so Princia is indeed crazy deep down as well. She and Mereoleona are quite the pair.

Nozel, can you stop getting hurt please? My heart can’t take it. No matter the media, you’re always bleeding.

Of course, how foolish of me to not think that Jester also has a phase two. The other two WK pretty much did too.

And during all that, Asta couldn’t catch up to Conrad? The dude wasn’t even moving!

What’s with this Shippuden ending 12 style dream Mereoleona is experiencing right now?

Goddamn, these women are so fucking INTENSE!!

I didn’t know I needed to see a combo spell between Yami, Fuegoleon and Nozel til now and I’m so happy that it happened!

I guess that necklace of Conrad’s once belonged to someone he really cared about huh?

Maannn, I thought Asta really got him good but Conrad didn’t even bother to parry it “out of respect.”

Bitch be looking like an Arceus with that magical ring behind him, hello??

There ya go! The Black Bulls are still standing! Time to counter!

Or Edward can just summon up an ice beast three times the size as the last one, whatever!

Asta getting stabbed too, in a real slow and calm manner might I add.

LIEBE!!? I questioned whether or not we would see him since this all happens before Nacht appears, but here he is! Our little devil!! Huzzah!

Still can’t get over how beautiful this movie is and this new soundtrack absolutely slaps!!

Oh good! Asta managed to connect the sword to Conrad’s grimoire to restore Noelle’s magic! Everyone else is so excited for her too, even Zora.

Aahh Gauche using mirror brigade on her with her valkyrie form! Nice!!

I am getting fucking chills watching our Bulls go off!! Fuck, I love this family!

Welp, there goes the three Wizard Kings, but we still got a couple minutes left of the movie sooo perhaps Conrad isn’t quite done yet.

AAAAHH they actually got “Haruka Mirai” blasting!!! Can I get a big ol’ HELL YEEAAHH!

Pfftt leave it to Zora to still look so calm and/or bored near the end.. but praise our boy Finral for setting up so many portals to bring together everyone’s magic! I love this lad!

NO FUCKING WAY! They actually included Nacht!!! I’m gonna cry!

“A nice long nap doesn’t sound like the worst idea. Especially if it means someone who’s doing a good thing get rewarded.” He may have had only two lines but it fills me with GREAT JOY!!

But hold up, how did Finral know to put a portal there in front of him?? He hasn’t even met Nacht at this point.

Ah, that necklace belonged to some Conrad knew, probably his lover? But aww that shot of the Bulls is so damn precious!

Oohoho they did the whole black & white sketchy style thing with Asta’s final attack!!

This boy deserves so much happiness!! I’m so proud of him!

I am.. so incredibly giddy seeing Nozel in the credits first.

Oh but the ending song! It is beyond beautiful!!! Ah, and it’s by Treasure, no wonder!

This little ending scene with Asta and Yuno is exactly what we needed, to see them start another fight since their encounter in the colosseum got interrupted.

Aaahh, okay.. I really enjoyed that. I wish we got to see the Black Bulls be their chaotic selves a little more, but it definitely filled my heart with many happy feelings to see them and everyone else again. I say that as if it’s been so long when in reality I only caught up with the series last year. It’s crazy to think that I got interested in this series because of the first movie trailer and here I am, finally getting to watch it. But I really hope the anime returns someday too, especially with this kind of quality! It’s real ambitious to release episodes weekly instead of seasonally and I didn’t mind the animation style at all when I binged it, but if it returns with even a fraction of this quality, it’ll be amazing. I’ll love this series regardless, of course. It was a lovely experience and I can definitely see myself watching this several times over.

#black clover #episode reaction #even though it's a movie.. im just too lazy to create another tag since these are rare for me to actually write about

[mira-shard]

Winx club playslists

Someone liked it so here we go, all my winx playslists songs + reasons

Imma just... Go ahead and tag those who encourage me, hehe-

@h-doodles @theguythatdraws @prancingpixie

Group Playlist:

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1A5ssSjVPbpd35kjVPMNMD?si=4ca30869ea514dd5

Kids in the corner- Arguably the best thing to come from Fate the winx saga. Just the misfits, found family stepping up vibes

Alright- Montage song vibes, definetely something they blast while training

Home- “ Oh, home, let me come home. Home is wherever I'm with you. Oh, home, let me come home. Home is wherever I'm with you.” Need I say more?

Meet me at our spot-  Again, the found family vibes + the excitement yet fear of growing up

Lotta true crime- They literally became the next company of light and are an all girls group. I don’t need to say anymore-

Twin size mattress- Their own emotional baggage, trauma, how they found solice in one each other

Sports- Again, just found family vibes

Marlboro nights- Montage vibes

boho days- Montage vibes

Glory and gore- They were literal freshman when they fought an army of decay- and they saved the entire universe multiple times.. Yeah the girls are badass warriors

Tonight Tonight- But at the end of the day they are also just teenagers trying to enjoy themselves in a world that seems determined to force them to grow up too quickly

I can feel it- Montage, stupid teen vibes

Freaks-Found family, group of misfits

Then there’s of course the individual playslists;

Bloom:

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/18trVd42Z2FxcVIFEV5AoQ?si=a8af770a5ff94668

Bones-Magic that has always been crackling under-well, her bones. Plus there is no way she always had good control of her magic.

Jenny (i wanna ruin our friendship)- Her and Selena were definetely into each other, i’m just saying- and if not Selena, she definetely had a crush on Stella and/or Flora at one point.

Back in school- Let’s get one thing straight- an adopted kid who’s quiet with a hyperfixation on fairies as a teen- Bloom got bullied and got panic attacks whenever vacations were about to end, i’m not wrong-

Waiting on a miracle- Now hear me out on this- Mirabel’s desire for a mriacle like the rest of her family, Bloom waiting for the miracle that’s control of her powers or atleast to be able to understand them

Runnin’ - ... Bloom canonically ran away from Alfea 5+ times, it just felt fitting-

Carry on wayward son- Honestly I at first added this one cause... my sister loves supernatural but the first lines do actually fit! Except Bloom is carrying on Daphne’s power, the dragon flame, and come on- “There’ll be peace when you are done. Lay your weary head to rest, don’t you cry no more.” That’s Daphne talking to Bloom right there-

Look who’s inside again- Again, Bloom before meeting Stella

Are you satisfied- All these girls are Marina coded- But jokes aside, even if she always wanted to be a fairy, there’s still fear and nerves in there too. Homegirl felt like she didn’t belong in that school for weeks-if not two whole months when she first started

You’re gonna go far, kid- She did as a matter of fact- go far- Plus come on “see them running for their lives” when she has full control over the great dragon and kicked ass in the season 1 finale

American idiot- Bloom grew up on earth and... idk i just felt like it fit- And Mike is definetely a Green day and metallica fan so there-

Stella:

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5G3IfiIY4iwZeU8lrCJUGB?si=2ca97c37049a47e8

Sunkissed-Solaria has THREE SUNS, enough said

Honey- Idk why but this song SCREAMS Stella to me

Make you mine- Definetely a song Brandon once put on a playlist for her and it’s been on loop in all of her playslists ever since

Primadonna- Again, just Stella vibes-I don’t feel like I have to explain myself further

Devil town- “Mom and daddy aren’t in love. That’s fine, I’ll settle for two birthdays.” It’s the divorced kid anthem-

The Family Jewels- Did you know when you have both mommy and daddy issues, it’s called parental wounds? yeah... Stella has parental wounds

Seventeen- Stella definetely has a low self esteem despite what people think. I mean *gestures to season 3*

Cherry bomb- Stella has a lot of depth, yes, but she’s also still the ‘trouble making party girl.’ 

Princesses don’t cry- again, season 3- Same applies to Layla/Aisha

Young and beautiful- *gestures to season 3 again* Come on, her being cursed-

Flora:

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/197IGgpoRUmWnyXc9lGFN1?si=22a5a6207df743c9

Backyard boy- Idk, this entire song just screams Flora and Helia’s relationship to me (which btw is goals)

Prom queen- Flora also has a lot of insecurities, but hers are more so about her own shy personality and her inability to speak up. “i was never cut out for prom queen” which only got amplified to appearances when she couldn’t find the courage to confess to Helia

Vienna- Flora is a certified burned out gifted kid with overachieving tendencies

Put your records on- I heard this song and all I saw was Flora barefoot walking around in a field naming all the flowers. Also definetely her wake up to song

She- Flora, another queer icon. The soft spokenness of it all, the sweet, gentle “please can i have this person in my life” just screams Flora

Savage Daughter- At the end of the day Flora is a nature fairy and well, that girl is a goddamn force of nature (pun intended)

Treehouse- Again, referring to her more introverted nature and how the only ones truely allowed inside are the Winx. “Why can’t everyone just go away? Except you, you can stay.”

Some nights- Even with Chatta’s and the winx support, speaking up for things I can imaigne is something Flora struggles with well into adulthood. Even if one moment she seems to be commanding everyone’s respect and attention, the next she can be in a corner, just wishing no one would see her. “Some nights I wish my lips could build a castle, some nights I just wish they would fall off.”

The record player song- this song just screams cottagecore to me and therefor it screams Flora. I mean, wearing vintage dresses, climbing in the trees? Come on. Also “wish i was a teenage rebel, never even got detention.” Flora’s fear of not living life to the fullest cause of her anxieties.

Tecna:

 https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4cbGvZsrqhd8DGhAWmS4FN?si=ab7dbdaec9b54d65

High hopes- “I got one more run and it’s gonna be a sight to see.” Listen- I was daydreaming trying to think of songs for Tecna, heard that line and all I saw was that scene of her marching forward to close the omega portal in season 3. Instantly added it-

This is me- A personal fave cause... come on, Tecna’s whole arc is about learning her own emotions and understanding those of others

I’m a mess- It’s always easier to feel and acknowledge negative emotions rather than positive ones, and even someone as logical as Tecna suffers from that.

Lemon boy- She IS the lemon boy. I mean, come on-

Family jewels- Yes, this one is for Tecna too. I mean, her whole “not acknowledging emotions, operate only on logic-” she got it from SOMEWHERE-

Cloud 9- “when he calls me pretty, i feel like somebody” come on.. her and Timmy, about how acknowledging her emotions helps her get more healthy and she makes progress and the- “You remind me how to fly.” Timmy also has similair struggles and they help each other, come on- it’s their song

Mastermind- She’s the mastermind of the Winx, period-

Rät- “ The hot girl in your comp sci class And I was Darwin's prep school dream, Bred, born and raised to kick your ass. I fell for circuit boards, Rocket ships, Pictures of the stars. If you could only be what you pretend you are” If this doesn’t scream Tecna-

Oh no- “ Maybe it is all a test.'Cause, I feel like I'm the worst, So I always act like I'm the best.” Being a fairy isn’t just about being clever and logical and I can imagine Tecna really struggled when she didn’t score high enough to her liking on tests because of that

top of my school & Price of perfection- These have similair vibes and well.. Mainly how I see Tecna’s relationship with her parents

Musa:

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3AZmwiKJMEPzNHb9tctJ2N?si=d825bb7dc0144a1c

Tomboy-Mainly how Musa became more feminine clothing wise later on but also the fact that she can do both, masculine and feminine, she rocks both like a ... well a tomboy-

Won’t bite- Idk why but this is just one of those songs I can picture Musa singing to hype herself up

Tear in my heart- I mean, that first line already- “Sometimes you gotta bleed to know, that you’re alive and have a soul.” Soul is literally what you need for music- Both to make it and to enjoy it

not your barbie girl- Musa is an independant queen, please and thank you- ... even tho she and Riven are a bit toxic, i still ship it-

That bitch- “ And I keep talkin' like I'm taller than the trees (bitch). But my eyes never see much higher than five feet.” All short Musa jokes aside, homegirl is a feminist and blasts this at any chance

Put your records on-  “Girl, put your records on, tell me your favorite song.” Music is THE best way to connect according to Musa. Sharing playlists and songs recommendations, even a simple “hey, i heard this song and thought of you-” that’s her love language.

Still into you- Her and Riven, no other words needed

Dear maria, count me in- Just musa vibes, idk how else to describe it

Sit still, look pretty- Again, independent queen Musa who wants to make that money and not have to rely on anyone unless she chooses to

Hey look ma, I made it- *gestures to her and her mom* When she becomes an guardian fairy or when she starts making money with her music, just- 

Layla/Aisha: (imma refer to her as Layla cause that’s the name I grew up with)

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0J0GMzon7v2Z7tBF6yAm4X?si=3189375851374f57

Riptide- “I was scared of dentists and the dark, I was scared of pretty girls and starting conversations.” If that doesn’t summon up her childhood, I don’t know what does-

Sofia- Layla’s first crush was absolutely on that one ginger girl that taught her the freedom that comes with dance

Ain’t shit- Have you seen how homegirl treated Nabu and the boys at first? Come on-

Afraid- “ When I wake up, I'm afraid, Somebody else might take my place.” Homegirl has abandoment issues and fear of being left behind and/or replaced. It just made sense

Underwater- Honestly just a song that seemed to fit her as the princess of Andros. I mean, it’s a planet with like atleast 50% of it’s population living underwater. Also could definetely see it as a lullaby her mom used to sing to her.

Shut up and dance- Layla’s go to up beat song, you can’t convince me otherwise

Runaway- Honestly I just see tthis as her yearning for freedom away from the court, the ability to make her own choices and the life she wants to live

Princesses don’t cry- Same with Stella, the pressure of having to become queen, being hyperaware of everyone watching your every move

Sit still, look pretty- Again, Layla wanting to have her own say in what happens in her life, wanting to be active in every way possible in her life, not a mere passive bystander

Roxy:

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1hOEFrvqhya9dsJys68RQa?si=4ef80d945431463d

Wake me up- “wake me up when it’s all over” her utter complete denial about wanting to do with any fairy stuff including the fairy hunters. Homegirl wanted none of it 

Téir Abhaile Riu- So first of all, Roxy’s irish so- Second it’s something that just gives Roxy a little hold onto, she loves celtic music as it’s as far as she knows (before she met the winx) the only connection she has left from her mom

Tir Na Nog- Do... Do I really need to explain this one...? The home of the earth fairies, come on-

Show & Tell- “Im’on display for all you fuckers to see.” From one normal day to these crazy girls insisting you’re a fairy, fairy hunters coming after you, hearing literal voices thanks to the White circle. Homegirl had it ROUGH and felt like every move was watched, as if she wasn’t human anymore. “ Why is it so hard to see? (Why?) If I cut myself, I would bleed (kill me) I'm just like you, you're like me. Imperfect and human, are we?”

The last of the real ones- Come on... Last Earth fairy

Sweet Hibiscus tea- “ And I'm not your protagonist, I'm not even my own. I don't know anything, I don't even know what I don't know.” Roxy had.. a very rough and long way when it comes to her path of acceptance to being a fairy. Unlike Bloom, she wanted nothign more than to just be normal.

I can’t handle change- Idk, Roxy has always struck me as a person who thrives from a routine and already dislikes change. Yet a change as big as being told you’re a fairy? I mean... Can’t blame her for acting out-

Freaks- She really felt like a freak, I imagine. Probably way before she even met the winx. Luckily for her, they are freaks too where she fits right in.

Below the surface- Everyone remember those moments where she literally got POSESSED by Nebula, fairy of war?? Yeah- “ Listen close, Follow my instructions. There is no time for introductions. He was the one that made us. You'll be the one to save us.”

You’re gonna go far, kid- I mean, her and Bloom are each others foils, right? They are so the same yet each other’s complete opposite, it only felt fitting that I’d put a song like this too in Roxy’s playlist. Also “if you can’t get what you want, well it’s all because of me” is just Roxy @ the fairy hunters and honestly- good for her.

#WOO LONG POST #mira rambles about winx club #winx club playlists #i mean #i also got like daphne which only has 3 songs so far #and Selina cause #bloom x Selina forever #but yeah #bloom #stella #flora #musa #tecna #layla #aisha #roxy #winx club

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Extremely unfair that I sit down with pen and paper to take notes and the episode doesn’t feature My Main Man! In true fandom fashion, I will none the less proceed to make my episode reaction post all about him...

I foresee that the giant expanded cast of regulars is going to trip us up often with these either or situations - I deeply resent being made to choose between Nate and Trent. (HI TRENT!!! My favourite little smirky shit with the HAIR. You can vaguely saunter downwards on my screen any time you want, I have missed you!)

Look, Roy and Trent are my two blorbos, and getting extended interaction with them, and backstory, and deep nonverbal communication of various emotions was just delightful. And because we weren’t shown a pin, I am going to headcanon that Roy can burst balloons with his bare hands, like the animal he is. James Lance is clearly having the time of his life leaning into the comic elements of his character, and I love how ridiculous he lets him be.

Speaking of unexpected backstory... Rebecca was a bartender?! Where the fuck did that come from? She clearly and canonically comes from money. I thought she might have been a business manager of some kind, associated with Richmond, which is how she met Rupert, but this makes her qualifications to run (not just own) a football club all the more shaky. Also now she’s established that she was willing to help Rupert cheat on his wife... I have no idea why she would then be so shocked that she was in turn cheated on. And I’m sure Rupert used the same tactics with his bartender affair that he got Leslie to help him with later, so again, just how deluded has Rebecca been?

But since I’m talking about Rebecca anyway, let me drag this back to Nate, and how difficult it is to watch a show that attempts both comedy and pathos. Because it gives me whiplash being told to selectively suspend my disbelief for some situations and not for others. It’s like when you watch slapstick comedy - you know its ok to laugh at the pie in the face because EVERYONE is going to end up with that pie, and there is the shared trust that no one is actually hurt. But if a theatrical play has a haha pie moment with one character, and then flips to another where someone stumbles and then starts crying from the pain, I’m going to feel like shit for having been primed to laugh at what I thought I was told was a pratfall.

Rebecca, more than any other character on the show, has being shown doing things that get excused because of her position as beautiful, white, girlboss. Back in season 1, she walked into the locker room without knocking, surprising two players with their pants down (in contrast to Keeley, who we see asking for consent to enter right in the first episode). And now - she literally committed sexual harassment.

Bit ironic given the current British transphobic scaremongering around bathrooms, but yeah, stalking someone into a bathroom of the opposite gender and getting close to them while they are urinating, then literally negging them and mocking the smell of their urine is - sexual harassment.

And being asked to let it go because Zava seems fine with it is like letting go of Nate kissing Keeley because she said it was ok afterwards. I have been on the fence about whether to think of that as sexual harassment or not because ‘kissing someone without explicit verbal permission’ is one of those highly cultural context dependant gestures that sometimes people are happy about, and sometimes are genuinely ok writing off as an innocent misread of body language. But I certainly haven’t just laughed it off, and the show has shown Nate to have agonised about his offence afterwards. Will Rebecca even spare a second thought to the gravity of all her wrongdoings?

I have more to say, but I need to do a rewatch with subtitles on to catch all the dialogues I missed. (Is it me, or did Jamie’s accent suddenly become, like his hair, even weirder?)

Meanwhile to conclude with our regular spot of shallow aesthetic appreciation - how happy I was to see the Hot Photographer Lady from Keeley’s Vogue shoot back! Her name is Janette and she’s played by the radiant Miranda Shamiso, And I love her.

#ted lasso spoilers #episode reactions #i guess i should have a nate tag #Alright trent crimm a tag for you too

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Holy shit, we start this family sitcom film with a shooting!

Oh my god, I snorted at Bob assuring the burger that everything is fine.

Aw, the first song is so cute.

I don’t care what anyone else says, I think that the main cast all have nice voices.

Tina wanting to give Jimmy Junior her barrette is so cute.

Louise, sweetie, noooo, don’t feel bad about your ears!

Louise’s verse is so nice because it takes a moment to understand that she’s talking about her ears.

Noooo, I know that the movie isn’t going to end with the restaurant closed but I’m still like, “noooo!”

I thought that Gene got kicked out of the Itty Bitty Ditty Committee?

The ga-ga ball pit in the background is sending me!

“My penis area!” OH MY GOD!

God, I hate Chloe.

MORT MY BELOVED!

TEDDY MY BELOVED!

I love Teddy but it’s kinda hypocritical for him to get mad at Bob for shouting.

I swear to God, I want to punch Jimmy Pesto for SMILING when the sinkhole opens.

Poor Grover–how do you get lower in the hierarchy than FELIX?

GENE.

Between Gene’s inappropriate comment about holes and Louise’s old joke about Bob, they really are catering to the long time fans with this one.

Hey, Fischoeder lore!

The little pop when Linda pulls out the tube was adorable.

Mr. Fiscoeder is so fun.

Bob’s face as he stares at the hole makes me want to cry. T_T.

Teddy’s in a book club!

BOB MOM LORE BOB MOM LORE BOB MOM LORE!

Jericho!!!!

Tina having the insight and maturity to literally have her fantasy analyze her emotions is badass even if it ends badly.

Awwww, all of the kids being bitter and doubting themselves genuinely makes me sad.

MELTED KUCHI KOPI, PLEASE BE A BITTER ASSHOLE!

YES, YES, BE A JACKASS MELTED KUCHI KOPI!

Where did Melt Kuchi Kopi’s boobs go?

That crack about Melted Kuchi Kopi was stone cold, Louise.

BUNNY EARS LORE!

LINDA MADE THE EARS OH MY GOD!

“So, what I’m hearing is that your head hasn’t grown since preschool” kind of confirms Short!Louise for life.

“Oh, please; I brushed.”

I bet dollars to donuts that Louise falls in.

And there she goes.

OK, the skeleton reveal is GENUINELY terrifying.

Oh my God, Louise choking on the teeth! D:

“I tasted death!”

Of course Louise is on board with committing a felony. XD

Oh my god, I JUST wrote in my recent series that Louise develops a nervous quirk of pulling on her bunny ears when upset and then the movie has her DO that!

Oh no, not Mr. Fiscoeder!

There’s no way Mr. Fiscoeder actually killed Dan. That would be too easy and also, obviously, too short of a plot.

My guess is either Felix killed the carnie, Grover killed the carnie, or it was an accident.

Either Felix is the killer or just that obtuse; it could honestly go either way.

Aw, Linda and Teddy fantasizing together about mobile houses ala “Howl’s Moving Castle” is very sweet.

Bob’s groan is very reminiscent of Tina’s which is adorable.

Linda’s eyes shift in bed and it’s great.

I genuinely got a little emotional at Linda giving Bob a pep talk.

The animation in this is really nice and flowing.

Firstly: FLASHBACK!

Secondly: So Mort’s been around since before Bob’s Burgers!

If Linda was pregnant with Tina (and heavily so) when they leased the building then the restaurant can’t be older than 13 years old.

Oh my GOD, I literally laughed out loud when Linda punches Bob in the nuts!

Louise’s “it’s go time” face is badass.

I only just noticed that Louise’s eyes are both the same size now; I wonder when that happened.

If Louise doesn’t become a career criminal, she’d make an amazing private detective.

Aw, the kids don’t keep their bikes at Teddy’s any more. :(

I LOVE the running gag of “overly-long plan name”!

Teddy built the restaurant a mobile food kiosk! T_T

Ohhhh, Teddy wanting to go sell burgers with Bob and Linda makes my heart hurt.

As much as I don’t like how recent seasons have made Bob and Teddy’s relationship more toxic and like, why is Bob even friends with Teddy–I do like that Linda and Teddy are getting along so well.

I appreciate that the movie isn’t doing the “Hostile Creep Teddy” thing that the more recent seasons have been amping up.

Teddy is so, so sad and yet so, so sweet.

The mobile burger stand is going to get at least one of them jailed, I just know it. :(

I bet Teddy gets jailed to protect Bob and Linda.

I snorted at “Grab your meat!”

I looked it up and Mickey isn’t voiced by Bill Hader but the replacement guy does a great Bill Hader impression.

Mickey admitting that he didn’t actually have to serve his time made my laugh.

The view of the cooler contents is beautiful.

Aw, Teddy being so happy just to be helping Bob and Linda is the best. T_T

The One Eyed Snakes are coming up!

I love how the movie is getting all of the best side characters into the film in organic ways.

Louise is so good at reverse psychology and I love to see it every time.

Hey, Ghost Boy graffiti!

OH NO, not Hugo!

Poor Ron and Trev being in love with fucking assholes.

I love the random customer getting roped into the Belchers’ nonsense.

“That is yours to keep.”

Hey, Fanny’s back!

I was legitimately tense when Felix opened the deck doors.

I am LIVING for Bob and Teddy having a (mostly) healthy and loving relationship!!

The animation of the sparkles coming off of Fantasy Jimmy Junior was genuinely beautiful.

Oh my God, Bob’s little smile when he’s on the Molehill is so cuuuute!

Hey, I was right that Teddy would sacrifice himself for Bob and Linda.

…Too bad that it backfired when Bob and Linda pissed off more carnies.

Oh yeah, Mr. Fischoeder would have the money to post bail.

How is bail never an option in these situations?

The animation on Felix’s face when he gets creepy is so good!

GENE AND TINA WANTING TO HUG EACH OTHER MORE OFTEN! T_T

“Boy Bob Child” oh my god.

Poor Tina has to talk to the murderer XD.

I reiterate: How sad do you have to be to be even lower in power than FELIX?

BABY FISCHES IN THE BACKGROUND OH MY GOD!

Deceased Mr. Fischoeder looks like Calvin!

HOLY SHIT I CALL IT FOR GROVER AS THE MURDERER!

I really admire how Gene’s playing is being used a background music and causing the tension to ramp up in this scene.

I LOVE how Tina and having a phone of her own is a series-spanning running joke.

I gotta admit, “The Belchers almost get killed because the Fischoeders are insanely dysfunctional” is kind of a fun running gag at this point.

Again, the animation in this is so great and Grover dancing is beautiful.

Wait, Felix didn’t get caught for his attempted murders so what felony has HE committed?

If I had a nickel for every time that the Belchers almost died under the Wonder Wharf pier, I’d have two nickels.

Oh God, Grover wants Disneyland, gross.

OH, the stuffed animals remark was foreshadowing!!

Boo, I thought that Teddy would save the day and instead he’s going to PESTO’S.

OK, when do I get my “Louise and Mr. Fischoeder team up for real” episode?

Tina is so badass sometimes.

OK, so prediction: Fischoeder pays off the bank in thanks for saving his life, Grover goes to jail, Tina asks Jimmy Junior to be her summer boyfriend, Gene gets to play at the wharf, and Louise keeps her ears because fuck Chloe.

Holy shit, no wonder this is PG-13.

Grover runs over their bikes; what an asshole!

OOOOHHHH, GRANDMA BELCHER AND BABY BOBBY!!!!

GRANDMA BELCHER REVEAL GRANDMA BELCHER REVEAL GRANDMA BELCHER REVEAL!

Oh my God, Louise is like her grandma. T_T

And then Bob having an epiphany about him and Linda as they’re dying…

“I’m gonna Linda this!”!!!!

OH MY GOD TINA KNOWING WHAT GRINDING IS!

Yay, Teddy got his moment to save the day!

OLIVE BAAAR!!!

YES YES YES FULL MAIN CAST SAVES THE DAY!

“This place is overengineered, I think” oh my god.

OK, yes, they’re playing the hand-slap game but it’s still sweet that the Fischoeders are holding each other’s hands as they die.

Yaaaay, everyone lives!

YAY, Grover got pinched!

Aw, Bob trying to be like Linda to give Gene a pep talk.

And everyone gets their happy end oh my god. T_T

I LOVE that Louise still wears her ears but isn’t anxious about them.

OH MY GOD THEY’RE RECREATING THE OPENING AS THE ENDING BUT WITH ANOTHER RE!

Hey, Gretchen!

Hey, Gayle!

MARSHMALLOW MY BELOVED!

Shit, Marshmallow’s dress is the trans flag colors! :D

That was so fun and sweet!!

#Bob's Burgers #Bob's Burgers film #Bob's Burgers spoilers #spoilers #Bob's Burgers Film Spoilers #bb #bob belcher #linda belcher #tina belcher #gene belcer #louise belcher #bob's burgers teddy #teddy bob's burgers #Notes by Nikki #I SPENT FOUR HOURS WATCHING THIS #long post

[freshlybakedspiderbread]

I really like hifuu doujin music, rd-sounds edition

following up on these two posts, I feel compelled to talk about a bunch of hifuu arranges (again specifying renmerry! sorry Sumireko!), specifically those arranged by RD-Sounds of circle 凋叶棕 (diao ye zong).

just gonna put this here in case I forget, you can stream 凋叶棕’s ‘main’ albums on spotify here!

Thing is though, they’ve arranged a Lot of hifuu-themed tracks, not just in dyz albums, but in all sorts of collab works with other circles too! I’m sure there’s lots of tracks, both hifuu and in general, that I’ve never heard of! And even among all the ones I have heard, I don’t really have the same amount of strong feelings for all of them. So for this post, I’ll only be going over the songs that really left a strong impact on me, and ones I would describe as being formulative for my hifuu experience! So there’s going to be a bunch I leave out, like say for example... true outsiders from 喩 (tatoe). It’s a song I like a lot, and its hifuu! But it doesn’t take up housing in my brain like the ones I really want to mention. But that’s fine! There’s still going to be plenty I gush about anyhow.

And like, might as well start with the original, classic, dyz hifuu album. 廻  (meguri/)... Just the album cover is making me nostalgic and emotional, because it instantly makes me hear the first track.

That first track is A Secret Adventure , and i know I say this a lot, but its definitely a classic! Firstly, remembering that this album is like, twelve years old is making me want to turn to dust 😩 , not that I first heard it literally that long ago, but oh my god to think dyz is still going strong to this day. As for the song itself, it has all those classic hifuu beats, being an energetic duet of vocaists singing about seeking out the mysteries of the world and anything is possible as long as the two of them are together! There’s probably a hundred of this exact kind of song out there about merry and renko, and I hope there will be another thousand more!!!

But I think such a ‘straightforward’ song is really there just to establish the premise of the album. As you go on and listen to a bunch more songs about various other touhous that fit the theme of the album. And near the end, you get to what I’m certain is an absolutely iconic piece for hifuu culture (that makes it sound like a cult...).

絶対的一方通行 (Absolute One-Way Street) . While I’m sure Merry=Yukari stories/theories/ideas had been floating around plenty beofre this album, my gut tells me that it is this song in particular that was the origin point of a lot of people really seeing the appeal and made to cry about a doomed renmerry for the rest of their life. It’s a great song with the lyrics about ‘someone’ accounting their terrible fate having fallen into the darkness and warning against ‘someone’ not to follow after...

I like it alright. 🙂 And the merry = yukari beat is something I think is neat, but not something I’m like, super invested in when I think about either characters. (Also I like the remake from a future album, 絶対的一方通行 ～ Unreachable Message more than the original!) Truthfully, I consider this more of a Yukari song than I do a hifuu or even a Merry song, and the real reason why I bring up this song is because it is necessary context for the experience of the album! You get to this song and its pretty dread and despair and tragedy all around, and that feeling carries over with you into the final song of the album, and definitely a song that makes me cry about renmerry forever.

ヒメゴトクラブ  (Himegoto Club) .....oh my goooood, this song. There’s no other touhou arrange I can think of that can be so purely described as a love song.

All the despair and uncertainy of the world around them, of the fears that everything won’t last, the mysteries surrounding them, the stars and the boundaries that they see with their strange eyes. This song is about how none of that matters right now. The only thing that matters and the only thing they think about is that they’re together, each other’s warmth. 😭 The associated booklet image has Merry and Renko in a dark room, sharing an intimate moment, tossing aside all other things in the universe (and their hats, same thing). It’s really really really really good and the perfect closing note for the album. it doesn’t get better (ie gayer) than this...

(actually just wanted to say that my favourite song from this album is カレイドスコープ (Kaleidoscope), but that’s a reimu song and this post is about hifuu!)

That’s it for Meguri, so going to just segue into a different dyz album, this one just because of one specific song in it.

hey did you know that 騙 (katari) on rd-sounds website has two pages for it? One true and one ‘fake’ which is filled with false song titles? I love gimmicks.. Anyhow, the theme of the album is deception and its got a lot of really cool tracks, but I was really surprised that one of the songs is explicitly a sequel to Himegoto Club, its booklet image borrowing from the one from meguri, and the song itself opening with the exact same notes!!

rebellion -たいせつなもののために-  I really love this one... Also i think it might be the only song I’m gonna mention on this post that doesn’t have Merami for vocals?! 3L is here singing this super cool and dramatic song about Renko in despair over having forgotten something, someone important, and forcing herself to remember before dedicating herself to finding that someone again... The whole song is super cool but its of course that final line that’s shouting after Merry’s name that never fails to destroy me 🤩🤯😭 It’s also easily my fav song of the whole album. Now to move on to something that’s arguably most special to me...

辿／誘 (Tadori/Izanai) This... is actually the first dyz album I ever listened to. I believe its with this album i first discovered the circle, or at least its definitely the earliest I remember where I really took note of the credits. With that said, I’ve actually revisited the music on this album very rarely compared to other dyz tracks, part of that is because most of the tracks in this album(s?) are don’t exactly make for easy listening the way a fun pop track would, one part is that listening to it alongside looking at the booklet images and the lyrics feels especially important for the experience, because i think no other dyz track goes as all in with rd-sounds ‘double-meaning’ tricks as the two main songs of this album. And another part is that... well, its special to me, and I guess I feel like like I can’t just pop it in for any old occasion...

The beautiful world is the reason this album is in this post though. The basic gist of this song is that its about Merry becoming Yukari, but its even more dramatic and heavy than Absolute One-Way Street. The lyrics go on about how becoming something else and leaving everything behind is terrifying and scary, but by the end, those things are happily(?) given up in order to embrace the new world they’re a part of... I said i’m not super invested in this story beat, but this song along makes me glad it exists... When this song puts you into an existential high, you gotta wind down with its associated instrumental track, 何もかもが、幻想 ...

(While I’m here, my actual fav song from this album is the other ‘main’ one, Calling. I’d dare say its in fact my favourite rd-sounds song ever,  but its not really related to hifuu so i’m just mentioning it here for fun n_n)

...So that’s actually mostly it for the dyz albums, and now i’m just gonna hard divert into a bunch of other things. rd-sounds has done collabs with many circles and to provide music for specific projects. This is where this post is going to sound even more aimless and rambly before, because um... most of the works i’m about to talk about are things I’ve not ever actually properly experienced obviously due to lack of either availability and/or any translation or even basic summaries/resources I could find. I really can only guess and estimate the context to all of these and their associated songs, haha.... n_n;;; u_u I do still want to talk about these next few ones because against all odds, they do all stick in my mind to this day and were very formative in a sense for me! Will I ever actually properly consume any of these one day? ...Probably not, but that’s the beauty of art, right? To be able to get something out of something even while barely understanding it?!! That’s what i’ll choose to believe..

First on the agenda is 現夢 -genmu- by TUMENECO! First of, its over a decade old 👵. Secondly, its an album that goes hand in hand with an illustrated novel written by 四面楚歌 (Surrounded By Enemies) ((oh fair warning, i like a bunch of their work, but warning if you’re even just heading to their website. some of the stuff and its covers thats just out there in the open is NSFW)).

I’ve actually read a translated version of that novel, so for once I actualy get the context of it! The songs are all based on events or themes from the novel, and are separated into two discs, one for vocal songs and the other for instrumentals. Of course the first song in the album is led by TUMENECO themselves and with a true yukina and Mie classic. But wouldn’t you know it, the very last song on both discs to close off the album as a whole go to RD-Sounds and Meramipop, woohoo!

うつつのゆめ (Dream of Reality) It’s basically the ending song of the album and the novel! And arranges of Innocent Treasures just feel inherently special to me. After everything else in the story and album is said and done, it all ends with a wistful, yet upbeat song about celebrating your dreams while they last. The story itself ended on a bittersweet note of having to ‘wake up’ from the dream that is Gensokyo, but then further ending with the hope that dreams never have to ‘truly’ end, and this song captures that really well... And i’m like a giant sucker for the very final lyric, which is the very last line of dialogue you see in the story as well n_n!!!

That’s the one among these I have the most context for, and now for the one I easily have the least.

喜劇機械、もしくはジェーン・ドゥ達によるパラード , or Comedy Mechanism: Parade of Jane Does, is a novel written by ゐた・せくすありす (Vita Sexualic). There are seveal novels written by them, many hifuu-themed ones too. The general opinions of them I’ve seen is that most of them delve into very dark and grim themes and imagery even if they’re not listed as Adult (and the ones that do have that listing are like wow not enough content warnings in the world) and that’s on top of also being quite a bit abstract and surreal in its presentation.

Honestly if I was going to talk about any of Vita Sexualic’s works, it really ought to have been ジムノペディが終わらない / The Gymnopédies Never End, because that one actually has a readily available english translation on the web, and its associated song is actually on a regular dyz album!

But no, instead I’m bringing up Jane Does, which is apparently way longer and somehow even more esoteric than that. I actually bought the digital version of this novel on the artists BOOTH page quite a long time ago too because I was so intrigued by it!

I don’t know what this story is about. Like, at all. If its anything like the author’s few works I’ve dabbled with, its probably a bit hard to grasp even in the original language, and contains too many instances of gruesomeness. ...But, no matter how much I disagree with those aspects, there’s still always been value somewhere that I took away from it.

Not that I know what that value in Parade of Jane Does would be, exactly, because even now, I’ve gained almost zero solid knowledge about this story! I could guess what its about, but I don’t want to because I’d be embarrassed at the real possibility of being 100% off the mark. So like, why am I even bringing this up at all?!

well, scanning through the novel, there is a section where the words take a pause and you’re assaulted with a whole bunch of surreal images, which I intepret as the reality around the characters falling apart. One of those images is a QR code that leads to a song, the whole reason I brought this story up in the first place!

セルフ・トーキング 或いは 魔女というガラクタによる魂の在り処への言及のバラード  (Self Talking: Or a Ballad Alluding to the Whereabouts of the Souls Of Garbage Otherwise Known as Witches)

I actually think the coolest way to experience the song if you’re not going to ever experience the novel (and you’re probably not...) is through this video on youtube, which is a really well editted thing that adds subtitles and also splices in illustrations from the novel itself: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7vSgnYR57BM

I’m like, not gonna even try to talk about what I think the song is about or how it relates to the story, even if I have plenty of thoughts in that department. But the biggest reason as to why I mention it on this post onw is because discovering this song and the associated story and even just glimpsing it in this way, from a distance where I barely understood it and yet found myself moved and even frightened by how it sounds and how it presents itself... Well, it played a big part in making me realise just how much I value creativity in presentation, and just how cool and how much fun it is to really play around with ways that you can make a person listen to a song or read a story. It’s sort of a similar reason why I like the dyz albums that really play around with ARG-type gimmicks.

From now until forever, I’ll always think about how the song ends, with the same line from Merami just going on and on, looping and repeating and layering over itself with no end as everything fades to quiet. Even just that little touch left a big impact on a younger (and current) me...

Anyway time to move on to something more fun! A video game! Except its got a lot of death in it. Whoops.

秘封祭 (Hifusai), or Hifuu Festival -Merry Bad End-, is a visual novel by 四面楚歌 / Surrounded By Enemies.

The hook of this game is that Renko and Merry are going about their day like any other, and depending on the choices you make, they may meet different kinds of outcomes. There are 60 stated different endings, a couple of which end really badly for one or both of them. As you progress, the whole premise of the game takes on a meta feel, as questions rise about how ‘real’ each of those bad ends were, whether the next Renko and Merry deserve to find a happy ending after all the ‘others’ died, etc etc.

Or at least that’s what I assume is the gist of it since I kinda skimmed through a playthrough on youtube n_n;;; I doubt I’ll ever be able to fully experience or even understand all the themes and nuances myself, but I’m very intrigued by the premise, format and presentation as usual. As for how it relates to RD-Sounds, they arranged for the OP and ED of the game, with vocals by Meramipop as expected! And it’s specifically the ED, the credits song, that I wanted to talk about.

イニシエイション  (Initiation) I might not have actually played through the whole game first-hand, but I still felt something special as this song played to mark the end of the very long journey full of winding paths... It’s a song that’s both dark yet triumphant, as the lyrics talk about overcoming all the other versions of themselves that met a bad end, and how they’ll resolve to crush them all, stamping over them in order to get to that good ending with the person they love... It’s pretty perfect for the vn and also for a cool, dark yet still managing to be hopeful renmerry n_n

And we’re not even done with Surrounded By Enemies yet!

祝現 (Celebration) is a CD consisting of two songs arranged by RD-Sounds. It was released alongside a big collab project called HIHUU WEDDING -Welcome to Ghostly Chapel- , featuring a wide range of art and photos themed after Merry and Renko having a wedding getting married. Yeah!! That’s what I’m all for!!! Please do more of this thing instead of uncomfortable stories about Sumireko But i’m here to talk about the songs.

ずっと近くの明日  (Tomorrow, Forever Close) Its Renko and Merry’s wedding wovs, the song! Yeah!! Lyrics about exchanging promises to be together forever, about how it all feels like a wonderful dream, and how they’ll walk hand-in-hand towards the future no matter what it holds for them! It’s a perfect theme song for the entire HIHUU WEDDING project as a whole. I love it a lot for how completely fluffy and happy it is.

But I also love it because its necessary to come before the second song on the disc, which wouldn’t be as good on its own without this song to provide context and then contast.

すぐ傍にある未来 (The Future So Near To Us) .....

....This is the only song that could challenge GITR’s Forgotten Paradise for title of my favourite hifuu arrange ever. In concept, it’s pretty similar to Himegoto Club, how absolutely nothing else in the world matters except for the bond Merry and Renko share in the present.

But compared to Himegoto Club which was all about love in the face of uncertainty, I feel like すぐ傍にある未来 is about love in the face of inevitability. The world, dreams, and anything else they may have loved or had hopes for is inevitably going to disappear if it hasn’t already, and even the idea that their current happiness can last forever is just a dream that won’t come true.

And yet they are exchanging vows and promises to stay together forever anyway, and are happy to do so... Aaaaaargh!!!! 😭🤪🤯🙃😻

(^ getting a lot of mileage out of this one lately)

I think that about covers all the rd-sounds hifuu songs that have and continue to really and truly drive me insane for one reason or another...

Now I know there’s dyz’s C99 album △ (Tetra) with is awesome and great and I love it and also talked about briefly here in this post, but I think I decided halfway through making this post here that I only wanted to cover older songs that were ‘formative’ in a sense to my hifuu-listening experience over the years, so Tetra’s too recent to qualify. Though, obviously, I super recommend it and I feel like it’s inevitable that I’ll gush more about it and who knows what else in the future too n_n

#for some reason i thought making this post would take me like. an hour #but ive been at this since noon and now its nearly midnight. #oh wait its because i kept listening to the actual songs i was writing about in-between. whoops.. #feel free to tell me about whatever touhou music you like too if you ever want to... our dreams are all connected or something like that! #touhou #hifuu #doujin #spider bread crumbs #dyz #music

[beautifulpersonpeach]

hey BPP

I feel so emotional after this concert. Leaving the shitshow of Weverse, Naver and Zepeto streaming aside, the whole thing was so incredible!!! The setlist was impeccable and they performed 1000% like they always do. The opening run of Mic Drop, Run BTS (THE FUCKING CHOREO!!!!!!!!!) and Run had me twerking my ass off crying in the club style. I can’t believe they keep amazing me by how good they still are, how they’re still getting better 9 years into the game. I loved that they brought out the oldies like Cypher 3 and Ma City and the band was fucking awesome like always. I love that the boys never fail to acknowledge their staff, their dancers and their band!!!!!!

I’m also so emotional that the future is weighing on them all so much, that they keep telling ARMY to keep trusting them no matter what changes happen. I can’t imagine how much stress they are under and I’m so thankful that whatever fuckery was happening with the prep for the last few months, they were able to do this concert without a hitch (sans streaming lmao). I hope ARMY as a fandom listens to them and try not to overly freak out on the news that the boys might be dropping in a couple of months.

I’m looking forward to Jin’s single!!!!

Ask 2: Is it crazy that I don’t think BTS has peaked yet, Bpp? Like, with this concert, I still feel like the sky’s the limit. They can reach even further than this, which is crazy considering how legendary they already are. They’re amazing, like holy shit I’m kind of mind blown????????

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I NEED to see that Run BTS performance from a thousand angles and resolutions.

Anons, thank you for everything else you wrote. You see, this is why I chuckle sometimes when I see hot takes from k-pop commentators. K-pop is quite literally competition distilled. In crude terms it is survival of the absolute fittest. The system has its favourites and BTS has never been one, and yet BTS has risen to the top. You watch a performance like the one we just saw, of idols nearing 30 years old when the average age in the industry is 20, and then you hear k-pop stans/commentators wax lyrical about how BTS is at the level they're at simply because of 'marketing' and 'social media', and then people get mad at me for laughing at their hot takes.

Lol.

BTS are the best, and that's why they're on top. Yoongi says they're going to be here for 20+ more years, and all that does is make me laugh harder cause boy will this be one heck of a trip.

I'm sat with my seatbelts fastened though. In this Bangtan Sonyeondan shit for life ig. After seeing a show like that there's no other choice.

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This bit is important:

"I hope ARMY as a fandom listens to them and try not to overly freak out on the news that the boys might be dropping in a couple of months."

ARMYs will freak out. Lol. And many will jump ship and it's possible they move on to other groups, but the core of the fanbase will remain here.

#bts #busan concert 2022 #busan expo 2030 #kpop #bts army #bts fandom #army fandom

[attysullivan]

When You Wish Inside a Bar || Portia & Baz

TIMING: Current PARTIES: @attysullivan & @genienotinabottle LOCATION: Flaming Mo’s SUMMARY: Portia runs into a hungry erinyes while trying to have a relaxing night out. You’d think with all she had going on she’d be more careful about her choice of words ...  CONTENT WARNINGS: Alcohol tw (but not alcoholism) 

If there was one thing Portia knew how to do it was seize a moment. Even when things looked bad, she had a knack for getting by just by getting by. So when a free evening finally rolled her way, after a series of seriously unbelievable days, she saw it as an opportunity to dance her problems away. And Flaming Mo’s was undeniably the perfect place to do so. It was White Crest’s hottest club for a reason, and it wasn’t cause of the name, it was because this place had everything: shirtless bisexuals dancing on the bars, drag performances, and literal flaming cocktails. 

It was undoubtedly the more crowded scene in town but that was part of the reason why Portia preferred it. There was just so much going on at any given moment that it was impossible not to get sufficiently distracted from your problems. And that’s what she needed. About an hour or so into her night and she was really starting to feel the blissful buzz of intoxication. As she approached the bartender, she smiled widely before asking for, “Something fruity with vodka in it, please.” She turned to face the person standing next to her at the bar as she waited for her drink, “Shit. That looks good, what are you drinking?” 

Bars and clubs were great for a lot of reasons. Baz had frequented them since their human days, though they’d certainly been a lot different back then. Taverns were a far cry from clubs like Flaming Mo’s, after all, and Baz much preferred the latter. The use they got out of such outings had shifted with time, too. No longer were clubs exclusively for finding someone pretty to take home with him; these days, Baz also used them to find people to work with. People got remarkably honest when they drank. Emotions were heightened, desire was brighter. They’d wish for everything from an ex spilling a drink on themselves to a deadly house fire, if you got them talking. It certainly made for a good ‘workplace environment’ if you were a fury.

And the drinks weren’t half bad, either. Tonight, Baz had ordered a specialty cocktail, one the bartender made with some tips the fury had picked up throughout a long, long life of traveling the world. It was, of course, bright pink in a way that almost appeared unnatural, and it tasted like watermelon. It was hardly a surprise when it caught the attention of a woman approaching the bar, though it was some surprise when that woman, in turn, captured Baz’s attention. There was something about her, buried deep. Anger. Desire. A much better cocktail than the one in his hand. They plastered on their brightest smile. “This one? It’s actually my own invention, though I know I can convince Jerry to whip you up one, too. Expensive, I’m afraid, but worth it. Would you like to try a sip?” Reeling her in would be simple enough, considering she had started the conversation. 

Portia’s eyes widened a bit when the stranger said the drink had been their own invention. How cool was that!? “That’s so fucking cool!” As she was admiring the hypnotizing pink of the other person’s drink, the bartender placed a far less colorful cocktail in front of her. Portia picked it up and turned to them. “Hold on,” in a single chug, she downed the contents of the glass tumbler before slamming it back down onto the counter. “Can I have one of those?” She indicated towards the pink drink with a wide smile and a flush face. 

“My friend here…” Portia stopped and then leaned close to the stranger and whispered “Quick…what’s your name?” She then turned her attention back to the bartender without waiting for the answer, “My friend here invented their own drink and we would like it very much if you would please make one for me.” 

Baz took some delight in the way the woman’s face lit up. That was another thing he enjoyed about drunk people in places like this; they were remarkably easy to impress. They watched as she downed her cocktail, offering a small clap to show how impressive the move was. The more she drank, the easier it would be to draw that anger in her chest up to the surface and from there, it would be easy to convince her to make a wish. She was lucky, really, that Baz wasn’t the kind of fury that preferred a challenge. If they were, she’d stand no shot at having her wish granted.

Looking to the bartender, Baz nodded. “Just put it on my tab,” they said with a wave of their hand. The drink was pricey, but money was hardly an issue for Baz. They were a successful novelist with a string of past lives that had boasted similarly successful careers. Buying a stranger a drink would hardly send them into financial disarray. “Baz,” he introduced himself with a smile, holding out a hand. “And you are?”

Portia’s smile widened when the bartender left to go make whatever it was she had just ordered. So far, despite all the terror and confusion going on in her day-to-day life, this evening was shaping up quite nicely. First she had made out with some woman waiting in line for the bathroom and now she was getting free drinks. Not too shabby. “Baz? That’s such a cool name. Like that filmmaker… what’s his name? Baz Luhrmann, yeah? He, uh, did the Great Gatsby and that Romeo + Juliet one too, I think.”  

“My name’s Portia.” She kept an eye on the bartender, eagerly awaiting the strange cocktail he was mixing. “Do you often share your signature drinks with strangers or is tonight just an unexpectedly lucky night for me?” She could really use that in all honesty, a bit of good luck. Even just not having bad luck would be preferable. But Portia was learning that you could never quite predict what life had hiding around every corner. 

The smile on the woman’s face was a little unsettling; Baz hoped she wasn’t a happy drunk. Those always gave him a headache. Perhaps they’d need to move on and find someone else to look into tonight… but not before they really felt out this woman and decided whether or not she was a decent mark. That would take more than just a few minutes. “Ah, yes, I’m familiar,” they hummed. They bit back a remark that Luhrmann stole the name from them, really, because they knew it would raise questions they didn’t feel like answering tonight.

“Portia! Lovely name.” He made a note of it, just in case it might come in handy later. Some people were much more responsive when you used their name frequently. “Only when the stranger is someone I think might be capable of appreciating them, really. I don’t share with just anyone, you know.” Another tried and true method — flattering someone to get their guard down. Baz had plenty of tricks up their sleeve, at this point in their life.

Portia felt a warm blush rush to her cheeks as she smiled at the compliment. She didn’t quite know if they were being genuine or if they were just being nice, but after the week she had been having, Porita needed a win - so she decided to take it as genuine. “That’s…very kind of you to say. I am a very appreciative person, so you must be quite perceptive.” 

As the drink arrived, she wrapped her hand around the cool glass. Wanting to appreciate the apparently expensive beverage, Portia took her time sipping it opposed to how she downed the other drink she just had. “Okay. Wow. You could seriously bottle this up and sell it!” The taste was sort of indescribable, but it was thrilling.  “So… Baz, I don’t know if I’d quite say that I’m a regular here. But I don’t think I’ve seen you around before. Is it just happenstance that we’ve never run into each other before tonight? Are you new in town? What’s your story?” 

The blush was interesting. Something like this could be just as useful as anger. At least to Baz. Maybe they wouldn’t write her off completely just yet. “I am very perceptive! How nice of you to notice.” 

Grinning at the compliment to his ‘invention,’ Baz nodded. “Not much of a businessperson, I’m afraid. I prefer more creative ventures to this. But the bartender here likes making them well enough.” They doubted the statement was true. The drink was notoriously difficult to make, which was why it was so pricey. The bartender liked the generous tips Baz left. Not the process of earning them. “Oh, me? Certainly not new, no. I’ve been in town quite a while.” Hundreds of years, to be precise. “But I do travel quite a bit. I’ve just come back from a rather extended stay in London now.” London was always an odd place to visit. It hadn’t felt like home since they left it originally, and perhaps not even before then. But there was something about it all the same. “How about yourself?”

“An extended stay in London? That sounds incredible! I’ve never even left the East Coast, let along traveled abroad. I’ve always wanted to, though. I mean… the food, the art, the culture. The world is just full of exciting opportunities, I’d imagine.” Even when Portia had been at her big fancy firm in Boston she never really took any of the vacation days they offered her. She had felt such an intense pressure to work as hard as she could to impress everyone. “Are you from London originally?” 

“Me? Well, I don’t know if I’d say that I’ve been in town for quite a while but it’s been about three years now. Moved up from Boston - born and raised.” At least, Portia was pretty sure she had been born there. Would have been a bit odd for her birth mother to travel all the way to a new city just to abandon a baby there. “The pace of things are a bit slower here, but it’s starting to feel like home.” 

“Ah, not quite all it’s made out to be. I often feel I’ve seen all it has to offer.” London was hardly as exciting as White Crest, with its oddities and its frequent supernatural occurrences. Baz much preferred this town to that one, even if the latter was somewhat ingrained within them, even after all this time. “I’m sure you wish you had a chance to do it more, don’t you?” Okay, so he was pushing a little. Who could blame him? A fury had to eat! “Good ear! I am, yes. Haven’t lived there in quite some time, though.”

Three years. He wondered how much she knew about the town, then. Some people lived in White Crest all their lives and never saw anything strange about it, others picked up on the oddities immediately. It might be interesting to see what category she fell into. “Well, the pace picks up a bit, from time to time. Certainly different than Boston, but I’m not sure I’d say slower.”

“Oh, for sure! I’ve done some traveling over the years, but there is definitely so much more that I want to see and do.” Deciding the conversation was worth continuing, Portia plopped herself down on the barstool next to Baz. “What was it like to move to an entirely different country? I mean, I only moved here from Massachusetts and even that ended up being a bit more intense than I anticipated.” 

The glass containing the mysterious pink drink was cool against Portia’s hands, the taste of it lingering on her lips with each sip. There was something about the energy of her new bar-buddy that was quite compelling, or maybe it was just that she was feeling so desperate for a bit of normal human connection. Emphasis on both normal and human. “I don’t mean slower in a bad way! I rather like the calmer pace of things here. Well, when things are calm, that is.” 

She agreed with his sentiment, but she didn’t say those magic words and Baz was a little disappointed. But she sat down beside them, and that meant they’d at least get another shot or two. Most people slipped up eventually; you just had to push the right buttons. “Oh, it wasn’t so bad. There wasn’t much left for me in England, by the time I left it. Never got on with my family, really.” Less so after they killed their father, they’d assume, though they’d never seen their mother or brother again. Both would be long dead by now, of course. “I’ve noticed a lot of differences from one state to the next, really! I don’t think any two are quite the same.” Though less different than moving countries, at any rate.

Baz smiled, shaking his head. “Oh, no, don’t think I’m offended! Slower’s never bad. Just different, isn’t it?” And different, White Crest certainly was. She’d learn that, if she hadn’t already. “When things are calm,” the fury repeated with a hum. “I don’t know that I’ve ever seen them stay that way for long. There’s always something going on here. Festivals and tourism board tricks and the like.” It would work better for them if she didn’t know anything about White Crest’s supernatural underbelly. “Do you think you prefer it to Massachusetts? Or do you wish you could just go back?”

“Family is overrated,” Portia offered up rather mindlessly. It felt like a safe enough statement given what Baz had just said though. It was always so interesting to her how even some people who had families didn’t get along with them. In a way it always made her feel a little bit better - like she hadn’t missed out on anything. Or at least that she hadn’t missed anything good. “Oh, most definitely. Some states are so big that eve just being in a different part of it is a vast difference!”

The drink was nearing the bottom of the glass and Portia was beginning to feel a bit more introspective. “That’s definitely true. Calm and slow aren’t necessarily the same things either. Sometimes things can be slow but chaotic. Like the insanity is just looming behind the otherwise mediocrity of life, ya know?” Their question was interesting, and for whatever reason she decided to actually take a moment to consider it. “You know, I guess I wi-” Portia paused, letting out a soft sigh, “Oh, I don’t know - I think problems tend to follow you no matter what state you live in.” 

“Vastly,” Baz agreed, looking pleased at the statement. Most people put family so high on their silly little pedestals. Their father had certainly had a habit of it, which was perhaps a large part of the reason why he’d never gotten on with Baz. Baz wasn’t the sort to fit into the family he’d been born to; to his father, that had seemed a terrible crime. “That’s certainly the truth! You can go from mountains to beaches without ever crossing state lines. Makes you wonder how they ever decided where to put the state borders.” As if Baz hadn’t been around when those decisions were being made. 

She was smart in a way people usually weren’t. Baz found themself actually enjoying the conversation a fair amount. It wouldn’t stop them taking advantage, of course; few things ever really did. Maybe once, when they were younger and more… moral, but that hadn’t been the case for quite some time now. Centuries, perhaps. “It can certainly feel that way at times. Like the calm before the storm stretches farther than you’d expect it to.” He leaned forward a bit as she began to speak those familiar words, a brief look of disappointment crossing over his face when she stopped herself. Damn. That had been a close one. “Maybe,” they shrugged, “but that doesn’t have to stop us wishing, does it? Go on. What were you going to say?”

As they talked about the stretching calm before a storm, Portia furrowed her eyebrows slightly and smiled. “Most people don’t get that.” It made her wonder what they may have gone through to have garnered such a similar outlook on life. As she was speaking, however, she saw Baz’s expression change slightly. At first she didn’t think much of it but it made her hyper-aware of the next few questions they posed. 

If she hadn’t been drinking maybe she would have noticed it sooner. Wishing. That was the third time now that he prompted that word. I’m sure you wish … don’t you wish … and then a push to get her to finish what she had just said - the wish she had almost just made. Prior to learning about Fae, Portia would have just thought that this was just a funny word-preference thing. But then she learned that promise wasn’t the only thing that bound people. Thanking them could oto. Who's to say wishing wouldn’t have the same outcome. “I- no, I wasn’t saying anything of importance.” She tried to play it off, but she had a feeling that her expression had likely shifted. Suddenly she wanted to be anywhere but there. “Tha- Or, I appreciate the drink,” she offered, placing the glass down on the bar and pushing it away slightly. “It’s getting a bit late though, I think I ought to call it a night.” 

Baz recognized the exact moment he lost her. That furrowed brow, that quizzical expression, the way she looked as if she’d just been presented with a particularly difficult math equation. They weren’t sure if she knew about furies or if their prompting had simply gotten less and less subtle to the point that she recognized something was strange, but it was clear that she’d been tipped off in one way or another. She seemed to know at least a little about fae; if she didn’t, she wouldn’t have cut herself off before finishing her thank you. Not that Baz could do anything with a thank you. He envied fae, sometimes; they had it so much easier!

Not one to chase after a lost cause, the erinyes shrugged. There were plenty of other ‘clients’ to chase in a club like this one, plenty of other people more reckless and thoughtless than she was. Those people might be marginally less fun than Portia, but they’d require less effort, too. And Baz was lazy by nature. They’d always prefer the easy road. “Suit yourself, then,” they sighed, waving a hand dismissively. “My night’s only just beginning.” 

There was something rather unsettling about how quickly they dismissed the interaction. For whatever reason, Portia had sort of presumed that they would keep pushing, or at the very least that they would not be so obvious in the game that they were clearly playing. It was either her frustration, stubbornness, or the alcohol still pulsing through her (maybe all three) but Portia felt some obligation to those even less suspecting than herself to make sure that this Baz’s night wasn’t actually just beginning. 

So even though she had already stood up from the bar and taken a few steps away, Portia quickly turned on her heel back towards Baz. “Actually, I think you should be the one to leave. I don’t know why you wanted me to say that word… but I’m also not gonna leave and let you trick someone else into saying it.” Was this her most thought out plan? Not by a long-shot. “Even if that means sticking by your side all night and scaring other people away from you.” With any luck, given the size of the crowd in this place, they’d elect to just leave and hopefully not cause any scene. She had a feeling that fae - or whatever Baz was - wouldn’t want too much negative attention. That’s what she was counting on, anyway.

Oh, she was a feisty one, wasn’t she? Baz’s eyebrows shot up at her threat, putting a hand on his chest as if he was utterly scandalized by what she was implying. “I’m sure I don’t know what you mean,” they lied smoothly. “I’m not trying to get you to say any word. I’m just making polite small talk. I even bought you a drink! I’ve been perfectly kind all night, haven’t I?” 

They leaned against the bar, bringing their glass to their lips and taking a swig while maintaining eye contact. Truth be told, it was no real issue to leave the club if it came down to such. After all, there were plenty of other places in White Crest where a fury could eat their fill, and Baz didn’t even need a meal tonight. But they had been having fun, and they hated to leave in the middle of something like that. They especially hated having someone else tell them when to go. “I can’t say I’d blame you for wanting to stick by my side all night, though it does make you come off as a bit clingy. We have only just met.”

The response wasn’t what Portia had been expecting. Even in her limited experience with Fae she found them to be more upfront than cagey. Plus she heard from at least two sources that fae couldn’t lie. Had she just been paranoid? Had they really just been making small talk? No. Deep in her gut she felt that she was right, maybe not about all the details, but she was right. “Seems more like you’ve feigned kindness. After all, how kind can kindness really be if it’s being used to mask ulterior motives?”

Portia rolled her eyes and scoffed a bit at their comment. “I really don’t give a shit how I come off. Especially if it’s the right thing to be doing.” Stubborn as ever, if it really came down to it Portia would give up her evening to prevent Baz from trying to bind anyone in the club. She wouldn’t follow them outside or to any other location - after all she did have some regard for her own personal safety. However, Portia really hoped it didn’t actually come to that. “It’ll give us time for me to get to the bottom of why you seemed so very keen to work certain words into our conversation.”

“Ulterior motives? Someone’s a bit paranoid.” This was a common problem in White Crest. People got wise, after a while. When they lived in a town like this one, where strange things were commonplace, it was all too easy for them to develop a sort of sixth sense for people like Baz. It may have been easier to seek a life outside of White Crest to avoid it, but… Well, after a few centuries, Baz had grown attached to the little town. And they still did just fine, in spite of people like this woman. 

Though that didn’t make it any less irritating. Baz rolled their eyes, shaking their head with a huff. The right thing. It was amazing how exhausting people could get. “Preventing me from finding someone pretty to take home is the right thing? You’re beginning to sound like the priest down the block.” They waved a hand theatrically, taking a long swig from their drink. “I have verbal quirks. That’s hardly a crime. Everyone has a few, you know.”

Was she being paranoid? If Portia was right and they were fae and had been trying to get her to say the word wish, then they shouldn't be able to so blatantly deny everything, right? They couldn’t lie if they were fae. And even though they might be able to skirt around the truth… Portia was very unsure what the limitations were around all of that. 

The more she thought about it, the more she realized that almost all of her evidence on why she thought Baz might be fae was circumstantial. That didn’t mean that Portia’s presumptions were wrong… but she couldn’t really prove it. And obviously everything she threw out at them, they were happy to throw right back at her. Without giving it any substantial thought, and largely acting out of anger and frustration, Porita looked at them and said, “Fine. You know what? I wish that you would leave this club right now!” As soon as she said those words, she instinctively placed her hand over her mouth. Admittedly, if she was right about them being fae that may have been the dumbest thing she’d done in a very long time. If they weren’t… well, then no harm no foul. 

The anger washed over her, red hot and powerful. Baz could practically taste it. It was the kind of fury that came with the best of wishes, the ones that really provided a good meal. On the best days, it was directed towards some stranger who Baz’s magic would see dead by the end of the night. Having it directed towards them was far from ideal. But it was something they’d be able to work with all the same, if she’d just…

Ah. There it was. An erinyes’s favorite word. It wasn’t the most useful wish — there wasn’t a whole lot Baz could do with it without screwing themself over along with Portia — but it wasn’t totally unusable, either. English was a funny language. There was no distinction between plural and singular when it came to using you to refer to someone. Baz knew that Portia meant it to refer to them and them alone, but she hadn’t specified. So they grinned, snapping their fingers theatrically and —

Someone yelled something about a fire, or a gun, or a knife. Truthfully, Baz didn’t know what the emergency was, only that there was a mad scramble towards the door. Every single person in the club moved to leave it immediately, and Baz got to their feet as well. “Well, would you look at that? Looks like you’ll get your wish.” The chaos washed over them, and they let out a satisfied hum. “Great meeting you! Let’s do it again sometime. I wish you well!”

Portia had no idea how they did it… but with a simple snap the patrons of Flaming Mo’s suddenly began rushing to the exits. It was frenzied and she could have sworn that she heard someone call out that there was a fire. It didn’t take long for a pang of panic to wash over her, suddenly more concerned about the possibility of a stampede or injuries than she was about Baz. It was her own fault - letting her emotions get the best of her instead of just leaving the asshole alone. 

The worst part of all of it was that they clearly got pleasure in whatever it was that had just happened. “Just…fuck off, asshole.” Normally, Portia would have had a witty comeback on hand but as she stood there watching everyone flee all around her, she just felt defeated. Ashamed, even. Portia had no idea if this “wish” would have further consequences, but she knew better than that. He played her and she stupidly fell right into it.  For a few moments Portia stood there in the middle of the club as people rapidly cleared out. All she could do was hope that nobody had gotten hurt because of her. A tightness grasped her chest and she could feel tears coming on. She refused, however, to let them fall in public. Slowly, she began to make her own way to the exit doors hoping that she’d never see that fucking fae again. 

#wickedswriting #wywib #/title is a when you wish upon a star pun ok #sebastian #chatzy #chatzy:sebastian #alcohol tw

[longeyelashedtragedy]

all or nothing episode 7: stream of consciousness comments

-put your eyelashes AWAY mikel...and that smile while you’re at it

-the boys talking about who has boris johnson’s number i s2g

-why is granit so hot?  he lights up like every scene he’s in even if he’s just sitting there? gjdgjdjgsg

-oh dear lord what am i seeing on that laptop screen...

-UHHH HELLO BOYFRIENDS FLIRTING...MIKEL ROASTING GRANIT FOR HIS CARDS AND GRANIT IS SITTING THERE LAUGHING...they are Perfect for each other i literally just cannot 

-and granit gives him such a loving look during it

-and you can TELL mikel doesn’t give a fuck about his bad discipline lmaooooo 

-angry granit yelling

-oooh mikel angry at the half and we haven’t had any obscenities yet...let’s see

-also now aaron not getting a clean sheet makes me Extra sad

-”fucking shit 45 minutes man we can’t come play like this year!” YES GRANIT YES...CAPTAIN GRANIT “WE KNEW WHAT WE HAD TO DO! fuck me, the first action, they have the throw in, put the fucking ball away!” god this is so hot and he’s like little mini mikel

-it seems like they all just sit there and take him yelling at them?

-omg mikel is TINY and his butt is so...[censored] while yelling at them? this scene is a dream

-mikel: “we deserve to be slapped on the face” (slaps his own face) O RLY mikel....god that was one of my fav things he ever said in a press conference, telling on yourself much mikel?

-mikel can’t park a fucking car to save his life omg

-mikel saying that after the palace game he was like....kind to the boys bc they just needed to be together? OMG

-granit caring for kt...

-mikel says the boys have given him reason to trust them 🥺

-”we’re gonna play with balls out, guys.  balls out.”

-man nuno really is so fucking beautiful lol

-OMG MO ELNENY we do not deserve him...love his sunshiney honesty here

-OH FUCK IT’S THE LIGHTBULB SPEECH

-cedric’s FACE he’s like what the FUCK is this mf doing now

-”Because what happens when we play connected, guys? What is the next thing that happens? That we connect with 60,000 people that creates more energy, because at the end is electricity, that through heat creates light and life, because if not, it would be fucking dark,  if this guy wouldn’t have the idea to do that.” omg mikel......i have no words for u 

-imagine after all that u go fuck up this game! come on guys!

-omg martin looking so defeated is breaking my whole heart

-”i have too many emotions. look at me please when i talk.” omg mikel put that *** energy AWAY mr cincuenta shades of grey 

-sad granit with his sweaty curls and big beautiful eyes....

“okay guys after the game i didn’t want to talk to you, i am sure i was going to say something that i was going to regret.” *cracks knuckles* “but i tell you today it was a fucking disaster.”

-bro in this briefing room speech i can like. legit tell how much mikel loves this club?  i’m getting emotional i can’t explain he REALLY wants them to do well and cares about the players

-he’s also so tiny have i mentioned this before

-mo advising frustrated young players is a concept i didn’t realize i needed

-airpods albert and eddie 🥺

-OMG THE LITTLE KID SENDING B SOME MONEY...omg and then he meets him? CRYING rn

-this is one of the sweetest things i’ve ever seen!!!!!!! like literally i am crying

-i swear profane mikel is making me Feel things

-me screaming at eddie’s goal!

-and me getting CHILLS at babey b’s penalty (lmao the true AoN experience...feeling these emotions like the first time)

-emile is so sweet and soft spoken

-this episode is so quietly feel good?

-omg the way they’re taking care of mo during ramadan, also wait he and raketa have weirdly similar scars/birthmarks

-”i never saw someone give everything, work very hard, and they don’t get the reward” oh mo, sweet summer child...

-NOT ME RELIVING THE MAN UTD GAME AND GRANIT’S GOAL ALL OVER AGAIN

-XHAKARTETA HUG XHAKARTETA HUG

-mikel looks so fresh faced and happy post game...before everything fell apart...I almost feel like he has yet to recover from the nld you know

-ONLY ONE MORE EPISODE LEFT? NOOOOOOO.....

#ihc watches aon #sorry i'm like Depressed so this is not as exuberant but trust me i am Feeling it

[multiverseofimagines]

hi!! could i please have a male and female stranger things ship?

i’m a plus size bisexual girl, 5’3 with medium length shaggy blonde hair and blue/grey eyes. I'm very artsy and really really into music and I would describe my style as punk/90's grunge. I try my best to come off as a confident person but I do get flustered and shy rather easily, I am the designated badass mum friend though. I am a pisces and an INFP. Thank you sm ❤️

I ship you with

Eddie Munson

Oh my god just imagine him smiling at you like that 😭 I’m fucking dead, deceased, gone.

I think you two just would vibe really well. He would confide in you often about his issues with his father, and his family in general.

You’re always there to take care of him, and make sure he’s okay.

You guys are both weirdly, lone wolves? You guys like to wander and be free, this sense of like, wanting open road and just living you know? You spend your time in the woods or at reefer ricks, getting stoned, deep talks.

You guys are literal soulmates, like it feels destined to be. Complete twin flames.

He has a ceremony with the hellfire club to make you an honorary member for life, they make you your own tshirt and everything.

He’s terrified of losing you. Would definitely sacrifice himself for you, because the last thing he wants is for you to get hurt + you make him brave, his love for you is hella inspirational.

He gives you his guitar pick necklace 😭 so you have a piece of him wherever you go.

When he distracts the bats, you jump into the gate instead of dustin and run after him. You find him fighting for his life before death settles in. Your hysterical but trying to stay calm so you can talk to him “you idiot! Why would you do that? why? “ he can’t help but chuckle as he coughs up blood, your hands have settled upon the bloody wounds he’s suffered, you can’t let go. “ It’s okay, we just gotta get you back, its okay.” he looks up at you, tears rolling down his cheeks, his breathe is rattled, “ I told you, that I would do anything to protect you.” You cried harder your hands soiled from his bloodied wounds, “Im gonna get you home okay? and we’re gonna go back to the way it was.” he smiles softly, you can tell he’s in pain, “that place was never my home, you were.” he rattles out his last breath. You do not leave his side.

(I’m sorry y’all were giving me starcrossed, destined to be doomed vibes and plus im emotional tonite so don’t hate me 😂)

Look-Book

- it was a little difficult finding plus size friendly examples, ( cause fatphobia is so prevalent on sites like pinterest still and within the fashion community tbh) but as a plus size woman, I wanted to choose the best options that not only would fit all sizes, but were keeping accurate to the time period and your style so hopefully your good with this!

Playlist

- when looking for the music for this I was like SO INSPIRED. I stg I wanna write a whole ass fanfic about you guys. I chose songs that were giving me; you and eddie vibes, I chose a couple that were definitely more 90’s instead of 80’s. I decided for this one I wanted to add like my fave lyric from the song that made me pick it, so you can have some insight(from one music nerd to another), and also cry with me cause y’all made me soft ANYWAY.

Heaven and Hell By Black Sabbath; “ Love Can be seen as the answer, but nobody bleeds for the dancer.” And “ The world is full of Kings and Queens, who blind your eyes and steal your dreams.” THAT ONE had me like “vecna???” also the guitar solo and bridge right there is AMAZING. Waisted potential they didn’t use this song in Season 4.

Straight Through The Heart by Dio; “ Living in a world of Make Believe, I can hide behind whats real.” This whole song gave me Eddie vibes and how he felt growing up, being kind of abandoned by his Family in a way, and being bullied.

Bigmouth Strikes Again By The Smiths; There wasn’t much of a lyric in this song that really took me by the heart, it was just the whole thing, it sounds sad and somehow romantic? Its about how the protagonist feels as though he is being judged for the things he says, and how he has a big mouth, which is just so relatable to Eddie, how passionate he is about being different and how he feels about society (jumping up on tables with his big speeches and such) The way he says “Sweetness” really sold me as something Eddie would say as a nickname for you perhaps as well.

Love will Tear Us Apart By Joy Division; “ Why is the bedroom so cold, turned away on your side.” Honestly I thought about the aftermath of his death after Dustin probably had to drag you away, the feeling of not knowing how to move on feeling the coldness of the room without his presence. Also feeling resentment for his sacrifice, how his love for you tore you apart.

Heart-Shaped Box By Nirvana ; You said 90’s grunge and that you were pisces and I was sold on this one lmao 😜 okay that was only half of it!! The whole song is super romantic, its so devotional to the person he loves and I feel like Eddie would be similar, just completely utterly in love with you in a torturous way.

Separate Ways (Worlds Apart) By Journey; “If we can’t go on, to survive the tide love divides.” “ If you must go, I wish you love, you’ll never walk alone, take care my love.” This one had me in like TEARS. Like if You and Eddie were in the show, this would be playing as he sacrifices himself i stg.

1979 by Smashing Pumpkins; “ I know you better than you fake it.” The whole song sounds like love ended too early, so I added this one! And “ We don’t know just where our bones will rest, to dust I guess.” Its really about the mortality of a relationship, and accepting it because you appreciate the time you have with that person.

Malibu by Hole; The whole song sounds like grief from tragedy of losing a loved one, trying to save them from their fate. I just really wanted some tragic songs to go along with my headcanon so have fun with that. (Also Hole lowkey slaps so hard, Like I’m not a huge fan of Courtney, but damn I just love all her music?)

#stranger things #stranger things imagine #stranger things headcanons #eddie munson imagine #eddie munson #stranger things ship #multiverseofimagines ships

[revanchistsuperstar]

Think I got a delayed emotional reaction to OFMD season two because I just started crying HARD listening to This Woman’s Work on the way home from the gay bar tonight. Weepy sad faggot details beneath the cut:

I’ve already said mentioned sort of not explicitly in the tags of a lot of posts what I’ve been going through the last few months but this is a fucking boiling point so let’s get into it.

I kissed a random man at the club tonight. He was gorgeous. He ticked every box I could think to have ticked. Otter, but a bit (lot) fruity. We were at a bear bar, I saw my friends do an awesome drag show, I was having a wonderful, happy time. Got flirted with and desired by a random man, the only thing I as a gay trans man have ever wanted. Almost was like “please, just take me home and fuck me” but he was off to another club and I didn’t feel like comitting to the bit as they say. Because here is the sad truth.

Ketan is the only person I’ve been able to see myself with for months. I love him. I hate that I do, but I do. He kissed me like I literally have never been kissed by a man before, this cisgender gay man, kissed me like I was the most beautiful, desirable man he’s ever known. We’ve known each other for

Eight years.

I’m absolutely not monogamous. I’ve had feelings for other men during the time I’ve had feelings for Ketan. This crush came on when I was still with my ex fiancée, I’ve felt this way for YEARS.

But the mother fucker had to kiss me, make me feel worthy of something for the first time in my life, say “I know,” when I told him I’d felt this way about him for years and kiss me again harder after our lips pulled apart that first time, keep kissing me that whole night over and over and over, and then pull a 180 and suddenly become too scared to talk to me ever again and tell me he was heartbroken and he couldn’t deal with this, when he was the one who came on to ME, because I as a gay trans man am so convinced every cis gay finds me repulsive I’ve never even made a Grindr despite desperately wanting to be dicked down most every day and night.

He had to say “you should have told me how you felt. I still might have done this but I would have been prepared” but then completely ghost me for an entire month.

He had to refuse to discuss it to the point that seven months later I still am so fucking confused I don’t even know how to explain to our mutual friends what the fuck happened.

And now here I am. Kissing a random, beautiful man but thinking of him. Thinking about how insane I went when he wasn’t talking to me at all, how I nearly lost my job because I was so suicidally depressed I would wake up every day and have my first thought be “I don’t want to be alive.”

I should be hoping, but I can’t stop thinking.

The fucking OCD mood.

This weird part of me keeps thinking “you two are meant to be together in the end, just be patient, this is the love of a lifetime and nobody has ever made you feel like this before, you two literally can talk to each other with just looks, every single damn thing about your lives is a mirror of one another, this is fate, this is a higher power doing this” but the rational part of me is so, SO fucking upset and hurt STILL and I hate both of these parts of me and I just don’t know what to do besides cry and dare to hope this might work out like it does on TV.

I miss you so much, Ketan. You’re literally only a few hundred feet away, posting “dinner for one” on your IG story, and I’m so much of a coward I can’t even text you and tell you what I feel.

And there has to be a god damn fucking tv show starring my COUSIN who LOOKS LIKE ME making it easy to project with a song that I’ve loved for years and just cuts to my core because it could be about US and I’m driving home from the club when I should be so over the moon that I got to kiss some dude who was so beautiful I’m just crying instead and…

Ketan I miss you so much. Why the fuck is this so triggering and so hard.