#I’m not a second choice

[fucklife101]

I’m no one’s favourite. I’m the back up. The one they go to when they have no other options. I sit and walk behind them and pretend that I am cared about but I’m not. And that really hurts.

#mentally exhausted #i dont want to be here #im losing hope #tw depressing stuff #i’m so alone #self h@rm #mental health relapse #i hate my existence #anxi4ty #deppresing quotes #second choice #no one understands

[she-posts-nerdy-stuff]

All I can think about recently is that there are three main career options for Grishaverse main characters:

A) Child soldier

B) Criminal

C) ✨Both✨

#and none of them are a choice #it’s very dependent on who your government is #shoutout to Nina and Matthias for really exploring all options available to them #my poor babies #inspired by convo with my sister where she said why is everyone a child soldier and I said some of them are criminals too(!) #as a side note it’s very unclear whether Grisha in Ravka get paid to be in the second army #I’m pretty sure they don’t #like at least if you’re a criminal you can make some cash #not that I’m endorsing criminal activity obvs #but at least there’s marginally more choice as a criminal #it would appear at least marginally more autonomy #crooked kingdom #shadow and bone #the grishaverse #six of crows #grishaverse #leigh bardugo #grisha trilogy #seige and storm #ruin and rising #kaz brekker #inej ghafa #jesper fahey #wylan van eck #nina zenik #Matthias helvar #alina starkov #mal oretsev #genya safin #zoya nazyelensky

[aragornsrockcollection]

Isn’t it funny that you never see anyone throwing a hissy fit over the inclusion of flora not native to Medieval Europe in Tolkien or other fantasy works.

Tomatoes, tobacco, POTATOES, tea and sugar, are all perfectly acceptable and normal for Tolkien to have included in Middle earth, but depict a single character with brown skin, and suddenly it’s not realistic, and WHAT ABOUT OUR HERITAGE.

Forget that we don’t analyze the heritage of white actors playing these rolls to make sure they’re from the proper culture to represent Tolkien’s extremely English story. Has a single person ever complained that Frodo and Sam were played by Americans when Hobbiton is CLEARLY based on rural England?

According to some, Hobbits can grow food and other crops that were only introduced into Europe through the violence of imperialism, but to have the hobbits look like the people who originally grew those crops is sacrilegious.

Medieval Europe, which wasn’t as homogenous as people think anyways, is only ever trotted out to justify hating the inclusion of black and brown characters.

If Sam can wax poetic about potatoes, he can look like came from Peru, like potatoes did.

And if that idea bothers you, maybe examine why.

#tolkien #the silmarillion #lotr #jirt #silm #jrr tolkien #I’m still not about rings of power but that’s because of every other choice they made #also why not take advantage of increasingly evil Numenor’s colonization of Umbar #a canon reality of the second age that saw relations turn from cultural exchange to domination #that is including diverse narratives and one of Tolkien’s opinions that aged great was his anti-imperialism #the condescending way he argued against it didn’t age as gracefully #but you can’t have everything #anyways people need to examine why non white people being included in a work of fantasy makes them angry #I mean we all know why

[spookednsaucy]

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#I’ve been staring at drawings for too long #everything looks weird now #I’m second guessing my color palette choices #I have so many unfinished drawings #I just can’t get them to look right #it’s driving me insane #eddie munson #stranger things #eddie stranger things #steddie #stranger things art #spookednsaucy #eddie munson art #steve harrington #domestic steddie #steddie art #steve x eddie

[atopvisenyashill]

Thoughts on the Alysanne is Maegor's daughter AU? I feel like it has some interesting potential, and it vastly recontextualizes different parts of Jaehaehae (I do not like him sjsjsjs) and Alysanne's relationship (such as Jaehaehae's treatment of their daughters) but I wanna hear what you think about it!

I’ve touched on this a bit before but since you actually want to hear my thoughts, allow me to present to you my Jaehaerys Is The Goddamn Worst, And Alysanne Annoys Me Too: An Essay lmao but my answer is basically “yeah all of what you just said.”

I think it makes Alysanne much more palatable (to me) as a character because as she stands, she just fixates on forcing her daughters through these fucked up marriages at too young an age bc it traumatized her to be married and pregnant at 15 too but she’d never admit that being a willing participant in her own kidnapping by her brother-husband was the single worst thing that ever happened to her, and because Alysanne doesn’t want to admit it (and Jaehaerys would never see it as wrong or a mistake) F&B really shies away from delving into the fact that Alysanne is as deranged of a mother as Cersei is. So as she stands, she’s very flat to me because she’s presented very flatly and inconsistently. She’s so in love with Jaehaerys, she’s maritally raped by Jaehaerys, she’s a loving and doting mother, she forces her daughters into marriages when they’re the same too young age she was, she accuses her teenage girls of being scheming whores then gets angry when her husband accuses their teenage girls of being scheming whores, and worst of all we are just told “Maegelle tells them to make up so they do” so we don’t know why Alysanne gets over all of this. What is the point of riding a dragon when you never use that dragon to protect your daughters from unwanted teen marriages? We’re just not given a good enough justification for why her behavior is so weird and frustrating towards her daughters.

Make her Maegor’s daughter though…most of her behavior as an adult makes more sense. Like a worse version of Rhaenyra’s childhood almost - a father desperate for a son, but lowkey obsessed with his daughter, who makes all his hang ups about his parents the problems of every woman around him, except Maegor is out here blood sacrificing and torturing and starting wars and forcing babies on wives he discards quickly and brutally. Then here comes Jaehaerys on a white horse green dragon to save her from the horror her life has become, and he loves her so much he runs away with her even though Alyssa says they shouldn’t marry because people won’t like it. And they have beautiful children, and a beautiful marriage, and build a beautiful kingdom.

Then her pregnancies start getting dangerous. Gaemon, then Valerion, die. Alysanne thinks of the shriveled up mutants she called brothers, if Maegor’s taint has passed to her. Her perfect husband ignores her no, and forces Gael on her. Alysanne remembers that he said nothing to Rogar when Alyssa died, merely wept. Then her daughters start to die. Daella, Alyssa, Viserra, all within a few years. Then Jaehaerys makes Saera watch as he murders her boyfriend, calls her a whore, and says Alysanne cannot follow Saera to Lys. Alysanne thinks of Maegor torturing the Harroways over Alys’ presumed infidelity. Jaehaerys says he’s sorry, and her daughter badgers her into forgiving him, and she remembers how she helped Jaehaerys badger Alyssa into forgiving Rogar. Not two years later, Jaehaerys passes over Rhaenys. Alysanne thinks of how she was never enough for her father, how she felt so superior to Rhaena banished to Dragonstone and resented by Aerea, yet there she is dragging Gael away from court because she can’t stand to be with Jaehaerys. How her father was surrounded by dead women and dead babies and how Jaehaerys is surrounded by his own dead daughters, but surely she did the right thing, surely Maegor was worse, surely the realm is better off? Is he right to pass over Rhaenys? Is she enabling a man just as monstrous as her father? She will never decide, because Maegelle will guilt her about keeping Gael isolated at Dragonstone, and Alysanne will do as she’s told, just like Rhaena, and Alyssa, and Jeyne, Elinor, Ceryse, Alys, and Tyanna, just like every one of her daughters.

I do get why Alysanne is Alyssa & Aenys’ and not Maegor’s. The weird Targ babies, the line not descending from Visenya, Jaehaerys and Alysanne being held up as the perfect Targaryen couple specifically because they are brother and sister and dragon riders. I do even think canon Alysanne is likely traumatized by her time as a hostage on Dragonstone, and the ensuing war, and the trauma bond that caused with Jaehaerys, and it makes her idolize Jaehaerys, and then he isolates her at Dragonstone so he can swiftly and safely marry, groom, and knock her up. It’s not like,,,, a fun time, and it’s enough to make anyone crazy and weird about their daughters, but I think having her father be Maegor makes Alysanne herself much deeper because it gives her, as the most beloved Targaryen queen, a blood tie to the most hated Targaryen king, and a marriage to the most beloved Targaryen king. It fits better with a lot of the themes of the main series (again, imo) - forcing the spotlight on the outsiders to see how the affect the story from behind the scenes. The fall of Aegon’s sons, and The Long Reign, not told from the PoV or to serve the PoV of any of the kings or princes, but of the queen that tied them all together.

#anti jaehaerys i targaryen #f&b critical #fire and blood critical #asks #thesadboy #like he kind of does this with aenys & maegor by focusing on alyssa and rhaena and the wives and visenya. #but the Moment jaehaerys enters the scene he completely dominates it. the same way daemon and aemond do actually. #but this is not. it should not!! be their story. that’s not how the main series is told anyway!! #if f&b isn’t told by a dornish maester than it should have been written by a septa!!! #nuns wrote books!!!!! #rich noblewomen wrote novels and poetry!!!!!!! #GEORGE DO YOU READ WOMEN. I AM NO LONGER ASKING POLITELY. #i went to look for her mother and apparently this was just a mistake elio made and i’m even more depressed. i can’t believe i’m saying this #but elio damn your mind. #i bet he saw that and went ‘wait which one is her fucjing mother’ and george was like what in the goddamn hell are you talking about. #idk who would be her mother in this au. if we want to keep her within 3 ish years of jaehaerys it Has to be alys or ceryse. ceryse hightowe #is the hilarious and obvious choice. but don’t count out alys harroway second wife here either. #then there’s rhaena as her mother which with the canon timeline makes him 12 years older and isn’t THAT horrible let’s stop here actually.

[thereadingmoon]

he’s asking if you’re a communist, Robin.

#As a humanities student griffin is so real for this #In my country; the last two years in high school are spent specializing in a subject area of your choice like STEM or humanities or busines #When i was still in middle school i knew these cool humanities students and i was like those young protags who think teenagers are SOO cool #We were having lunch together and then they started talking about communism and looked at me as if i had an opinion #And i—a naive child—stammered out: “b-b-but… isn’t communism…. B a d?” #Then they looked at each other then looked at me and smiled and said the following in reassuring tones: #“Moony in two years you’re going to be gay and a communist” #They weren’t wrong about the first part. #For the second: i’m just anti-capitalist #babel an arcane history #babel #babel rf kuang #Robin swift #griffin lovell #rf kuang

[mumblesplash]

might be swinging a bat at a hornets’ nest here but how are some people out here getting real life angry at fictional characters and then sticking around to hate on them. it takes like 2 mildly upsetting writing decisions max to make me abandon media entirely where are you guys getting the tenacity

#one thing about me is i will just walk out i’m already leaving i never took my hand off the doorknob actually #i am simply gone i am hitting da bricks #like yes i ‘hate’ endeavor bnha but like in the sense that he’s the reason i stopped watching the show #literally the second i caught wind of a possible endeavor redemption arc my emotional investment in the whole story just evaporated #i mean i guess i understand getting upset at like. writing choices that makes sense i do that sometimes #but genuine personal animosity toward specific characters is just baffling to me #mumbling

[ursie]

Something something about how the fandom is both villainizing Ashton/Taliesin and infantizing Fearne/Ashley even though Fearne/Ashley are grown women who did in fact choose to not have the shard and thought it should go to Ashton and said so both in this ep and in 4 sided dive (which some of you would know if you actually watched it)

#I’m not saying she didn’t want to walk it back the second bad things started to happen but y’all are acting like Taliesin #held a gun to her head like 😭 #I’m not saying the criticism is bad but some of these posts are just in poor faith #from people who never liked Ashton in the first place #I don’t actually want to discourse I just think it’s weird how people #in wanting to prop up and protect Ashley simultaneously ignore the fact she can make her own choices #cr spoilers #critical role #I babble #tw misogyny #??

[lochlot-moved]

ur dad ain’t got no nose no more

#tw blood #Wayne 2019 #drawing blood is one of my favorites ever and oh boy did I have my choice of references #wayne mccullough #del luccetti #Wayne x del #ibis paint #digital painting #digital paint study #portrait study #blood #Wayne fanart #guys there’s a chance for a second season guys … guys there’s gotta be… #Wayne and del #Wayne show #Wayne show fanart #repetitive tagging is so embarrassing for some reason #no but really I am so very sad this show hasn’t gotten a second season #cancelled by YouTube and then Amazon picking it up and talking abt making a season 2 and then DOINGG NO SUCHHH THIINNGG <\\\\3 #and now it’s not even on Amazon I’m hollow inside #digital art #fanart #del luccetti fanart #Wayne McCullough fanart #the violent peanuts character show #dogs across the field have been barking for hours are you okay guys

[buddiesmutslut]

I’m being so ffr rn, if the show runners definitively show that Buddie is not going to happen?

I’m probably not going to be watching anymore.

I mean it when I say that they’re literally the sole reason I watched this show in the first place. I saw a billion TikTok edits of them & was like “Idek these characters I need to watch this show and see what’s going on over there.”

And like, it’s a fun show, I’m not saying it isn’t, but first responder shows are a dime a dozen. There are other shows that have queer characters and found family and wild adventures. Granted, they don’t have Buck & his bi arc, but I’d still read fanfics to get my Evan Buckley fix lol.

I don’t need them right now, I’m so down for the slow burn, will-they-won’t-they & the pining & the yearning & the build up and the GOOD foundation. I want to see Eddie figuring himself out and dealing with his repression and figuring out he’s queer (& Demi, pls God. I hope if I just say it enough, I can will it into existence somehow) before anything happens with the two of them, but if they take definitive steps to have one of them like, marry someone else or something, I think I’m gonna head out. Find me on ao3 for the rest of my days lol.

#911 abc #buddie #demisexual eddie diaz #also pls don’t come at me with “you don’t care about bi representation”. he’s already bi #he’s always been bi & I’ve loved watching him on this journey #but his & Eddie’s relationship is literally the only reason I started this show in the first place #and again if they find good LI’s & bring them more into focus #the time spent on the Buddie relationship will decrease. that’s just how tv & time limits work #and if my favorite relationship on the show goes away then why would I continue watching it religiously? #also I know I’m a bitch & would therefore hate any person they brought in to be the HEA for them & that’s not fun for anyone #not that I would bully the actor/actress bc im not an ASSHOLE #eddie diaz #evan buckley #I literally watched Booth & Bones take like 9 seasons to get together I am IN IT with a slow burn #unless they do what they did last season & shoehorn 2 LI’s in at the last second on the last episode then I guess I wouldn’t have a choice #Tim would’ve pulled a fast one on me #also I will watch literally anything else Oliver Stark is in SNOOKUMS I love you so much. come home the kids miss you 😂 #& probably Lou also bc he’s so freaking cute irl I wanna die #with his curly hair and his silly faces and his muscles and his wanting to be held in the dark #LOU BABY ILL HOLD YOU IF THE POWER GOES OUT #I have spent too much of my life & time & energy to get 0 payout and it’s honestly unsustainable but that’s a whole different problem

[fucklife101]

I’m never the first choice. I’m always getting pushed aside whenever I’m not needed. No one listens to my problems, no one cares for my feelings. I’m just the back up.

#mentally exhausted #i dont want to be here #im losing hope #tw depressing stuff #i’m so alone #self h@rm #mental health relapse #i hate my existence #anxi4ty #deppresing quotes #second choice

[yourqueenb]

Jack can do no wrong in my eyes. Therefore, if my beloved Sir Montgomery is actually dead, I’m blaming the writers. Hope this helps!

#choices tch #choices the cursed heart #choices #choices stories you play #playchoices #if he wants to burn the fae courts to the ground then let him! #I’m sure they deserve it #and MC and Sir Montgomery are actually insane for turning a blind eye to all of the shit they do/have done #just because a couple of the fae treat them semi decently #while all the other humans who live in their society are literally ENSLAVED #and they brag about not giving a shit about human lives or really anyone but themselves every 5 seconds #that’s why I have no patience for MC’s stupidity #choices app

[banterismylovelanguage]

Asking the REAL questions

#SERIOUS ANSWERS ONLY #and by that I mean INSTINCTUAL #I’m sorry that there’s such a clear bias from the get-go on my part #if you by some blessing have no idea what the second answer means and think you’re giving the men of genshin little cakes #please let me know so that you are noted as an outlier #and with that I will thank you for growing up normal and away from the internet #kaeya #childe #tartagalia #zhongli #baizhu #shenhe #beidou #jean gunnhildr #kaveh #al haitham #eula #rosaria #<- these are the characters in question #but feel free to mention your own choices #genshin impact

[titsthedamnseason]

it’s enough. we need debut taylor’s version NOW!

#i’m literally crying i stepped out of my room and my roommates had all decorations on the door and the living room #and they were playing taylor - specifically stay beautiful which is an AMAZING choice #mine #taylor swift #and i turned 20 and they wrote on my mirror ‘have i known you 20 seconds or 20 years’ THEYRE SO CUTE

[nosleep83]

As a fellow fan of mutant mayhem, I am curious to know how you feel about the baby turtles.

Do you love thief scrunkly souls to death? Or look upon them disgust? (There is no other feelings/j)

YOURE ASKING ME ABT THE MM TURTLE TOTS,??!??!!? IVE WAITED YEARS FOR SOMEONE TO ASK ME ABT THE MM TURTLE TOTS!!!!!!!!

I GENUINELY LOVE THEM SO FUCKING MUCH EASILY THE BEST VERSION OF THE TOTS I WILL ACTUALLY FIGHT YOU ABT THIS JUST FUCKING LOOK AT THEM.

THIS IS PEAK. THERE IS NOTHING BETTER THAN THIS DISAGREE AND YOURE WRONG IM SORRY

#I’m very normal abt them ty for asking #so yes second choice 🥰🥰🥰🥰 #tmnt #tmnt mutant mayhem

[tenitchyfingers]

Literally almost cried watching Astarion break the cycle of abuse and be free

#the first time I tried he killed Cazador and then left my party #COULDN’T HAVE THAT! thank fuck I made a quick save before #and then the second time he made all the right choices and THANKED ME AUUAHRHRHAAG 😭😭😭😭 #he said all that stuff about how I saw the real him and valued him for who he is #no babyyyyy oh my god #…wonder whether I could still maybe hope to get to fuck him #on this run I romanced lae’zel then shadowheart then the emperor #there’s time to sneak someone else in! #and I want it to be astarion #but if it doesn’t happen it’s like… yeah it’s fine #I’m so proud of him I love him #even if it gets nowhere farther #it’s ok I just need him to stay happy baby #…..but please just a kiss 😭 #bg3