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#I’ve never even been in a relationship
silvercyclops · 1 year
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I’m working on a fic rn and it’s a crossover of two very obscure books and I’m like “wow I’m really doing something different here this is exciting” and wouldn’t you know it it’s about two characters having relationship problems
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sciderman · 2 months
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You said that if you dated Peter or Wade it would make you miserable. Which– Okay fair, Wade does have a history of purposely hurting the people he loves.
But what about Peter? Why do you think dating him would make you miserable?
because I’ll always know I had the option to climb a 6’8 cyborg and I passed that up for a sweaty little twunk that I perpetually have to remind to bathe (sorry peter)
#I don’t know. I don’t think peter is good boyfriend material. I think his insecurities would get exhausting.#Wade has bottomless patience. me… I don’t know. I don’t think I could. I’ve got my own stuff going on. I don’t want a Project.#peter is definitely a project. and he needs someone with shed loads of patience and perseverance.#me I just. I wanna have a good time. so. come to me my big beautiful time traveller. whisk me away.#take me to the beach. you can disappear after I don’t mind I’m not needy. just spend a beautiful romantic week with me.#sci speaks#I don’t really know what kind of person I’m compatible with really actually.#all my relationships have been. pretty short.#and I don’t think it’s any fault of my own really. and I don’t feel any loss over them at all. like at all. I wish I did. but I don’t.#a sci has so very thankfully never felt heartbreak.#but it makes me kind of question what kind of person I am when it comes to this sort of thing.#because I really don’t know.#I don’t know if I want commitment. I don’t even know if I want sex these days.#I … weirdly… am so devoid of yearning these days. like I feel content right now on my own. I don’t even feel lonely.#I used to yearn but I think I’ve moved past it. and I kind of just want to have a good time.#and that doesn’t even . involve a relationship or anything anymore. like I don’t think I want one actually. it feels like I’m Over it.#it’s kind of great because I’ve never felt so calm in a long time. all because I decided that I don’t. actually Need anything.#I don’t need anything more than what I have. and that’s brought me rest after So Long being restless.#but if a massive time traveller came and whisked me away on sexy adventures how could I say no
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holy-loki · 5 months
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so i’m sure someone might have mentioned this before and i’ve just missed it, but. i just noticed something .
so of course we remember the prelude to the circus scene, where everyone in brian’s entourage (+ curt) form this beautiful royal-esque gaudy portrait (pictured below):
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but upon reexamination of the orgy scene… (pictured below):
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obviously it’s not the EXACT same furniture (and this shot is much less vibrantly lit) but. the red and gold furniture is similar enough to suggest to me that… that the orgy is still a performance in the same (or at least similar) way the circus prelude was.
which is why brian and curt leaving the performance space and going into a private, intimate moment seems illicit. at least in the circus, the press and the people get to take part in the ‘strange’ intimacy, and make a commodity of it. but in the orgy scene? when curt gets up and goes to another room, and brian follows??? they, essentially, are leaving the stage entirely. they exist as only they will ever know, and not even us - the secret 4th wall audience - get to experience that.
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gothicakvtagawa · 1 year
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the thing is that it’s love and that it’s love in such a pure and unadulterated form that it gives you the strength to choose—for the first time—happiness for yourself instead of the path of least resistance, to admit to yourself that you want something other than what is destined for you. the thing is that it’s love and growing together. the thing is that it’s love and learning what love is when you’ve been hurt over and over in so many different ways your entire life. the thing is that it’s love that defies description, that cannot be shackled by a label, that will not be reduced to a little tag that is meaningful only to those who think that love can be defined in neat little boxes, because what does the box matter when you have love to focus on instead
the thing is that it’s just love, love that heals and grows and learns and teaches and sees you as you are, as you have always been, as you are meant to be, and says that it is okay to reach out and expect to be held in return, that says it is okay to be different from who you were told to be, that says there is nothing wrong with you or what you want or how long it takes for you to grow into yourself, that says that it will stay with you for as long as it takes and longer still because it wants to see you thrive, too, to thrive alongside you
the thing is that it’s just love! and there doesn’t need to be a qualifier for it!
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impossible-rat-babies · 3 months
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me grabbing eyrie and shaking them is it not enough to have gone through four ships by now. is it not enough for you funny man
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itsaultaken · 1 year
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some old + new sketches of the two most comical cod members
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akkivee · 5 hours
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still patiently waiting for the day ramuda and jakurai commensurate over being weapons of the state 😔
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digitaldollsworld · 1 month
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Ok admittedly I’m so sick of being alone and doing everything alone I want a Shawty of any and or multiple/indeterminate gender(s)
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turntechtestifi3d · 2 months
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underrated sibling duo is that little red head bitch & her freaky stepbrother from stranger things. like ST is a terrible show that sucks major ass, but those two were interesting. watch me make them even more fucked up.
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gaylittleguys · 4 months
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hey actually what was up with the artemis fowl series suddenly pivoting to make the grown adult woman a love interest for the teenage boy. like I’ve blocked everything after the first 4 books from my mind bc I hate them for many reasons but like. genuinely what the fuck.
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benadryldaydreams · 4 months
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just threw away my bong and grinder😲 I am 2 days weed free and 3 days alcohol free🥳 with forever to go
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finnicksannie · 3 months
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Guys I really wanted to give it the benefit of the doubt but… The Marvels was not good y’all. What the hell did I just watch. What happened.
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unhinged-nymph · 3 months
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stars-and-birds · 7 months
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i don’t think i’ve ever realized how much platonic/sibling relationships mean to me i am insane
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ctommyisnt · 1 month
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GUYS. GUYS OKAY. I got offered to be a third in a couples relationship. Not ideal but like. I’ve been thinking about. I mean I wouldn’t be OPPOSED??? When I say third I don’t mean just a sex thing like it’s just actually hanging out. I’ve never even considered it. Would it be awkward???
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just-rogi · 3 days
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#like I’m sorry#I love my best friend so so so much and she’s perfect and kind and has gone above and beyond to be rational and to be there for me#and I get it she’s an autistic woman and has faced adversity and has had to go on medical leave and that’s hard#and I’m not being dismissive of her struggles#but it makes me so angry because her parents unconditionally love her and her siblings and have always made her feel that way#and has never worried about money as a kid#and yeah her relationship with her parents isn’t perfect of course#but she literally cannot understand domestic violence beyond just reading about it in a book#like she did everything she can to understand and relate#but sometimes I want to scream because I feel so alone#because no one in my life fucking understands why I’m the way I am#and I’ve been struggling the past two months really badly with coping#I’ve had to go to the doctor to ask about PTSD and not like the tik tok OWO kind#but the I was in a car crash as a kid with my dad as a drunk driver and I keep getting flashbacks in my daily life to being a small child#that are impacting by daily life and interactions#and like I feel so fucking alone#and to hear from my friends ‘your right this is horrible and toxic but lots of people go through this’ ISNT FUCKING HELPING#I don’t want to hear that it’s normal I want to feel fucking safe in my bedroom without my mother blowing up my phone or calling the cops#I am unwell and I’m so stressed and I’m so sick and I can’t cope with this and none of the therapists I’ve tried to find handle ptsd#especially not therapists of color#I’m angry and I’ve been getting worse over the past two months#and not that it matters but due to ^^^ reasons my birthday has always been insanely fucking bad for me#like depression watch bad. when I turned twenty I was vividly hallucinating while walking around campus for a week straight having#flashbacks in class and I had to be taken out of the auditorium because I was physically unwell and couldn’t stop crying and shaking#and I told my friend I didn’t want to celebrate I just wanted to sit on her couch and not be alone and she fucking ditched me#because an emergency with a different friend came up the night before#like I have a history of suicidal ideation traumatic flashbacks eating disorders and self harm and I’m asking you to be with me on a very#upsetting day and you call me the night before telling me we have to cancel because another friend is having a bigger crisis#and like you don’t even feel a little bad about it??#I’m just upset and scared and I’ve got a doctors appointment tomorrow and I’m not in reality right now and that’s scary
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