#I'm commissioned rn so don't have much time for anything else

[thatsweeird]

The Umbrella Academy s3 spoiler!!

-Okay i'm so fucking pissed of rn u have no idea, literally.

Five spent his whole life in that fucking apocalypse, 45 fucking years, alone, without food or water, toxic air, a fucking mannequin who believed he was human because HELLO GOOD MORNING EVERYBODY HE HAS A FUCKING TRAUMA and he has seen the dead bodies of his family multiple times, lived with the commission just to be able to go back to who exactly? his ungrateful sibilings? who? the ones who don't appreciate him and accuse him of causing that fucking apocalypse for pleasure because he has nothing better to do? as if all of it wasn't for him a fucking trauma he has experienced three times since he was what, 13 years old? Really? And not to mention that they always blame him for everything i mean fuck off honestly.

He did everything for them, literally. He pushed himself over and over again, got hit, beaten, lost an arm, nearly killed and all this over and over while they... what? What have they ever done for him? Everyone calls him an asshole as if this asshole wasn't the one who saves your life without batting an eye after disappearing. He's back after 17 years of missing (or at least for THEM were 17) and, without even sleeping, he immediately started looking for a solution. Oh poor them all.. are you lost in a timeline all alone? Well he was alone for 45 years and he was a fucking kid and I'm so sorry if he was trying to fix the mess you caused in 17 years and he took you all with him losing his strength and suffering just to save your asses so yeah, be alone in another time it's surely a fucking shit but up to 10 minutes before you were crying because you were going to die and he saved you, again.

I'm really tired of this. He's insulted, not appreciated and much more and has had a life full of shit and not even a break if not that nap in the hotel and all that for what? Try to save sibilings who don't care about him? I wonder why they can't just say thank you to him or acknowledge the fact that he's the one who puts himself out there for all of them and never gets anything in return. No one appreciates him, no one recognizes all the effort and what he went through for them, ever. Not even once.

Even in the end when Allison made that mess and everyone lost their powers, he was left alone. The others didn't bat an eye, didn't say anything and didn't even look at him, they simply allowed the brother who saved them multiple times to find himself in the body of a thirteen-year-old without powers and completely alone without even looking at him. When Allison has been bad and acted like shit all season then it's okay because she's in pain but if Five tries to save them and they make more mess then what? Then he did it on purpose, right? And he's what, just an asshole without feelings? But are they at least aware that his life revolves around their safety and nothing else? We want to talk about Luther who, again, blames Five because Sloane was not there? hello?? doesn't he know that Allison did it all by herself?? why blame him? fuck off u all honestly.

And no, this is not a competition to see who is most traumatized and who deserves more and you know what? They're fucking lucky with that because he would win hands down after not even a second because he lived 60 years of shit just for them and I don't care about who will go against me because these are facts.

Don't you agree? That's okay, of course I accept it but please don't start discussions. I recognize that everyone has suffered but it seems to me that everyone is there for each other except when it's Five because when it's him it's okay, right? So it's just the old Five who gets drunk and is an asshole, right? I look very angry because I am, believe me.

(the only one to say good things to Five was Klaus during their trip but I didn't expect anything else from Klaus <3)

#THE UMBRELLA ACADEMY S3 SPOILERS!! #the umbrella academy #five hargreeves #tua five #aidan gallagher #viktor hargreeves #elliot page #diego hargreeves #luther hargreeves #allison hargreeves #klaus hargreeves #ben hargreeves #the sparrow academy #tua spoilers #tua s3 #tua diego #tua lila #lila hargreeves #tua viktor #number five #reginald hargreeves #sloane hargreeves #tua3 #klaus and ben #klaus and dave #jayme hargreeves #alphonso hargreeves #fei hargreeves #marcus hargreeves

[birlwrites]

As I want to know everything about your version of the black family, I'm going to ask you about the personalities of Pollux, Arcturus, Irma, Melania, Alphard, Cygnus and Druella. And if you have headcanons of the black family. I really liked Orion in the last chapter, they usually make him very invisible in ff.

okAY SO!

re personalities i'm just going to do all of them in the order you listed them for simplicity's sake, here goes:

pollux: kinda struggles to find a sense of purpose in his life (WOW starting off uplifting ajfskhgkjdf) - he's spent so much of his life just having... nothing important to do? he's a spare in a cadet branch. both he and alphard are older than arcturus and yet arcturus is the heir and pollux and alphard handle that differently. dude needs some hobbies. he did a lot of teaching bellatrix dark arts and he is fiercely proud of her, he also just needs to like. take up gardening or something afjslgkhjskdf

arcturus: i think of him as being intensely charismatic and very stubborn - voldemort doesn't know how lucky he was that orion didn't grow up into a carbon copy of his father because tom riddle's efforts to take charge of slytherin would NOT have gone well if he were up against a mini-arcturus afjslkghjksdf (orion is a) abt 2 years younger and b) didn't feel the urge to jump into the ring). he's not competitive because he's confident that there's nobody who could possibly compete with him, but that doesn't mean he's going to hesitate to quash what he sees as disrespect. heavy user of the family magic, and we know how that goes for him, but on a lighter note, was very serious about being the head of the *family,* not just lord black - he was the driving force behind getting the extended family to spend summers at black manor and he'd be absolutely fucking pissed to see the state of house black now

irma: irma's just vibing, she is also purposeless (woooooooooo), living vicariously through bellatrix's stories of death eater life, pollux and irma are very happy people who definitely aren't bored at all, irma's never fantasized about stabbing someone with a fork

melania: very warm and also very intense. the sort of person who you meet for the first time and then an hour later you're making plans to start a business together selling enchanted furniture and putting all the profits into funding a culinary school. you don't even know how you got onto this topic. you've never cared about culinary school in your life. you also can't tell if she's joking. this particular scenario is more an example than anything that has actually happened but like - she has a way of making people feel very close to her. intense but not severe. like ginger beer

alphard: sometimes feels like the only sane person in the family. everyone else seems to be absolutely incapable of chilling the fuck out for one (1) single second, and without arcturus and melania around to enforce order things have just gone to shit and two of the kids are disowned and BELLATRIX IS A DEATH EATER and just in general what the fuck is happening??? on a lighter note, alphard spends a lot of his obscene amounts of leisure time (and money) on commissioning art and music. he's an especially good person to know if you're trying to make it as a painter or sculptor because he might let you use his house as a venue for a showing and invite his wealthy friends with huge houses that need decor and with the alphard black stamp of approval you'll probably sell basically everything

cygnus: i've talked about cygnus in some other posts but i don't feel like hunting for them rn ajflkhsgljdf. cygnus likes chess and the socratic method and books that take two people to lift. he's levelheaded, occasionally to the point of aloofness, and he had to deal with twins andromeda and bellatrix age 2 (and teenage andromeda, bellatrix, AND narcissa) so he's pretty unflappable. once he had to talk bellatrix out of murdering andromeda's ex-boyfriend ok he can handle anything. has been talking to regulus about books ever since regulus learned to read. he and orion are both at fault for baby regulus learning how to create an inferius because regulus really REALLY wanted to read a book with a very shiny cover (on a high shelf) and cygnus and orion looked at each other and went 'yeah ok sure why not' and that is how elementary necromancy, volume 4 ended up in regulus's hands

druella: grew up a rosier in a cadet branch, which was basically a free license to do whatever she wanted as long as it didn't look serious. she got very bored, married a guy who was The Opposite of that, and now spends a lot of time gleefully exchanging acerbic bits of gossip with cassiopeia and walburga. and bellatrix! she used to pride herself on being an attentive mother who actually spent time with her children, then andromeda straight up ran away 😬 oops. also i'm deciding rn that she played quidditch - seeker for slytherin! (she wasn't enlisted in 'talk bellatrix out of murdering andromeda's ex-boyfriend' because she would have been like bella that would be very irresponsible and dangerous. here's how we're going to humiliate him publicly--)

i have lots of headcanons but this post is already very long and idk how to like, mentally sort through my headcanons to pick out the ones to state here ajkghsjlgksdf

#orion: reading is a healthy activity for children so we should encourage it #cygnus: i completely agree #baby regulus at breakfast the next day: *explaining why fresh bodies are best for inferi to anyone who will listen* #dark lord wip #should i make an inbox tag

[revenantghost]

[20 Question Fic Writer Game]

Tagged by @faindri and @pancake-breakfast!

How many works do you have on AO3?

18! Most are poetry collections, so a lot of smaller stories in one anthology.

What is your AO3 word count?

75,144

What fandoms do you write for?

Trigun is my main squeeze atm (and biggest in general, I have four projects for it which is double anything else--and the highest wordcount, too), but I've written for KinnPorsche, Sabikui Bisco, Danny Phantom, Vampire In The Garden, Sasaki to Miyano, Cyberpunk: Edgerunners, Goncharov (yeah... yeah), The Night Beyond the Tricornered Window, Signalis, Omori, Lycoris Recoil, and The Executioner and Her Way of Life

What are your top five fics by kudos?

No idea and I ain't looking! Trad publishing has me extremely scarred from some nasty comparison wars, so I have kudo and view counts blocked on ALL fics, including mine. From my kudos emails, though, Hallowboned has to be my top fic for sure. Last time I was paying attention most of my other fics didn't pass into triple digits by a long shot

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I do!!! I adore comments, and I love chatting with folks, it really keeps me motivated and chugging along. I am... very behind on replying to the comments on my last chapter rn because I feel so awful and guilty about having to quit writing

What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Uh... I don't write a ton of narrative fics, and I do love me some tragic poetry, but I guess the angstiest collection might be my Signalis one, Observable System Transcendence? But my Omori poem and the Trined Soul collection might be contenders, too

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I mean, Trembling Hands is a Trimax fix-it fic, so? Though the Sasaki and Miyano collection, Effortless Dreams, is definitely the most tooth-rotting fluff I've ever slapped onto the page

Do you get hate on fics?

Oh yeah, I've had my poetry called pretentious and also not good enough to be poetry lol. It's been a hot minute since that's happened, people are just jerks sometimes

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I used to! Porn with plot, my beloved. It would be interesting to explore in poetry format, but we'll see if I have the time who wants to commission some poetry porn from me lmao

Do you write crossovers?

Nah, not my cuppa

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Yeah, many moons ago

Have you ever had a fic translated?

No, but that is one of the coolest things fandom does. Loving a thing so much you spend the time to painstakingly transform that art into something you can read and share in another language, bro??? Translators are amazing

Have you ever cowritten a fic before?

I've worked pretty closely with artists a loooong time ago, but I've only written fics where I'm the sole writer. I have used other writers' ideas and outlines (with their permission, of course), but that's the closest

What's your all-time favourite ship?

I DON'T KNOW?!?! Shipping has never really been my main focus of media typically, but when one digs its teeth into me I go rabid in a completely feral but different way each time.

What's a WIP you'd like to finish but doubt you ever will?

))): All of them

Life feels kinda... really dire atm, it's hard to see ever writing again. However! God I want to finish Hallowboned SO BADLY!!! I have so many chapters written for it that I haven't even posted!!!!! Y'all haven't met Livio yet!!!!!! GAH 3:

What are your writing strengths?

Uh... ??? I'll be real, I've got no idea. I feel like I write so weirdly atm, it's hard for me to analyze in that kinda way

What are your writing weaknesses?

I tend to get really excited/into things and flit around and forget to explain or describe things sometimes. Thank god for having been well-trained to edit my own work. Not that I catch it all, but I try!!!

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I think it'd really cool, but I'd need a native speaker on hand to make sure I don't fuck it up in my own fic

First fandom you wrote for?

I think my first piece of written fanwork was a Danny Phantom Quizilla thing lmao, I'm old. I don't remember what it was about, just that it was ANGSTY

Favourite fic you've ever written?

Ah?!?! Honestly, each project is so different and written from such a different place, I've got no idea. I'm proudest of Observable System Transcendence being my longest, most consistent project (outside of my Smaugust collection, which isn't a fan project), Hallowboned being the first thing that really inspired me in ages--and the most indulgent one lol. But each collection and fic and poem comes from such a different place, and it's hard to pull them apart and pick???

Tagging:

Whoever wants to hop in! :3

#Yadda yadda #This was fun to poke my head back into fanfic headspace for a moment #Thank you guys for the tag! <3

[mugiwara--ya]

I've been applying to jobs like crazy for months and months and months and every interview feels like this time its finally gonna happen and when it doesn't i just feel this crushing fucking hopelessness and i try not to get discouraged and stay positive etc but. god.

right now im super sick and i took the day off to rest and i keep feeling guilty that im not using every waking second to look for a job. i feel like i should start taking commissions but i KNOW i cant commit to it. i could work on graphic design but they fucking kicked me out of school after nearly 2 goddamn years of them wasting my time so i dont even have a degree and i dont even want to look at my apps n tools most days bc of the sheer fucking burn out im in. i could post the tons n tons of finished art i got collecting dust on my folders and maybe maybe maybe get some tips from it but i simply cannot move past my anxiety so i just dont. i wanna do so much stuff but im paralyzed bc my absolute priority is to find a job that can get me out of here and i literally cannot think of anything else. i feel ungrateful all the goddamn time bc at least i dont have to worry about food bills and a roof over my head.

i am 28 years old and 100% dependent on my family. i don't and WON'T have a degree. i'm chronically ill. i've been on psych meds for about a year and while mentally ive literally never been better, i'm dealing with the consequences of 27 years of untreated adhd, undiagnosed autism, several mental illnesses, plus extremely fresh and violent trauma from the massive fires where i live and i keep fucking having nightmares and panic attacks over it and its been like two months and i'm so fucking tired. i have next to no work experience and my last "real" job was on 2015 so i have to bullshit my way through interviews and so far no one has fucking called me back.

im just complaining rn bc fuck its getting real fucking dark over here but rn im just worried sick about my partners. they're living together at the moment and they can barely get by. i already reblogged their donation posts and i'll make one linking to them just for idk reach or whatever so please if you read til here wait for that post to go up and please please please help them so at least i can have that peace of mind, if nothing else.

#vent / #sol.txt

[kiatheinsomniac]

hi kia!!! how have you been? are u surviving in this insane inflation? 😩

I'm surviving by planning my meals so I don't spend too much on food sobs. I have my first commission in the works now tho and it feels good to know I'll be earning my own money! I take 7 modules at uni so I don't have time for a job even tho I want to work so it makes me happy to know I can make my own money even if it's not consistent :)) Honestly even tho my rent is pretty expensive I'm steering clear of going into a house share bc it'll end up cheaper if I stay here.

Mentally I'm ehhhhhh, my OCD's been giving me a hard time these last few weeks and it's seriously impacting my attendance. If it's not insomnia keeping me awake, I tend to stay up late on Genshin and writing to give myself something to be happy about idk?? I'm a bit of an emotional mess rn because on top of the OCD and my uni workload, I've just been cut off by a really dear friend and I've been having a hard time making friends at uni.

I really appreciate my online friends and my followers here all the more for it tho. I love talking with them and making stuff on here for you all genuinely makes me so happy, my phone gets blown up by tumblr all day long but I never turn off notifications bc it just fills me with so much joy to see that you all like the writing I do for you! (I always let out a little squeal when I see someone else has applied for my taglist hehe).I have a Valentine's event lined up for the AC fandom hehe and it's a collab too but I won't be saying anything else about it until the time comes ;)

Oh! I ordered some earrings with my Christmas money and I collected them today too! They're Howl Pendragon's ones bc the last pair I had were looking quite tired and these ones are much bigger too! I feel like they're more true to the film's size hehe

oof that was a lot to read sorry AHAHA

[willow-lark]

Dude ong i just read your birthdaygate ficlet and i just—AJSJDKFNCKDLDLEKEFKFV

If you would be willing to share whatever outline you have in your head, you would, like, have my undying loyalty. Bc OMG. I—I freakin’ LOVE what you have written so far j can’t. And not being anle to write the whole long fic is such a mood—there are. So many outlines for fics in my google docs. That i simply cannot write.

So like. I love and adore outlines/concepts/plans for fics-that-could’ve-been, they are my JAM, and i would love to read yours.

Thank you for sharing this ficlet with us!

omg i am HONORED that ppl are interested in my fic idea?? you're all so kind omg y'all this means so much to me i am hugging all of you so hard rn. 🥺💖🫂 also i'm gonna put some of this under a readmore cause it's kind of long. also i put this at the end of my ficlet but idk how much of this i will actually write so everybody has my blanket permission to add onto/do anything w this that they want :))

ok! so! in my head birthdaygate goes something like this:

of course, everyone forgets will's birthday in 1986. will says nothing. this continues when the cali and russia gangs get to hawkins. will is just kind of there. he helps out at the crisis center at hawkins high, visits el at the cabin, but every time he walks into a room people's eyes glaze over him kind of like he's not there. though both he and jonathan are staying at the wheelers, mrs w starts forgetting a place for him. jonathan forgets to get will up and leaves without him in the mornings. mike doesn't speak to him. and, constantly, there's a voice in will's head (vecna) telling him Come home. They don't want you.

and... will listens. he intends to go to the upside-down and fight vecna on his own, while going through an unhealthy amount of self-deprecation and self-hatred (à la my recent series). into the upside down he goes, but it's a futile hunt, and he ends up trapped there, tormented and hunted at every turn.

meanwhile, everyone else's minds just kind of fuzz over when it comes to will. when it comes to things that involve him in their memories, he's either erased or the memory is rewritten with some other explanation. for example: why the party was out in the woods when they met el. why jonathan was taking pictures of the steve's backyard. the entirety of s2. why the UD is stuck on nov 6, 1983. you get the gist. the others spend the next two and a half years struggling against vecna, and meanwhile will languishes in the upside-down.

that is, until stoncy embark on some sort of reconnaissance mission (this is where my ficlet comes in) and run into him in the upside down. on will's end, it becomes apparent very quickly they have no idea who he is, and on their end they r adamantly NOT going to leave someone in the UD to die. so, they take him out with them and call a meeting at the cabin.

of course, mike does not trust this kid (what if he's a spy??) very much like lucas with el in s1. lucas somewhat agrees with him, but acknowledges that it turned out well when he gave el a chance, so he's ready to do that here, and besides he'll do anything to help get max out of her coma. the others have more of lucas's mindset. plus, will can give them intel about the UD that they don't have.

meanwhile will is struggling. there's the angst-fest of him being surrounded by all the people he loves and none of them know and they're all kind of wary of him and he can't say anything, plus he's trying not to give away to anyone that he actually knows things about them and about all the upside-down ish that's happened in previous years. this does make him act kind of sus at times.

mike is determined to not trust him, but will literally gives him déjà vu every other second. at one point they r in mike's room for some reason and he has The Painting up on the wall and will does a double-take and mike's like. isn't it awesome??? my (ex)girlfriend had it commissioned for me but i still keep it up bc it's of all my friends plus i think the person that painted it is THE best artist in the world. will is like. oh. who painted it. and mike's brain like. flatlines and he changes the subject (You're the heart, a voice whispers to him, one that he can't quite place).

there are also similar scenes with the byers fam and the rest of the party. there's this one scene in s1e1 the morning after will goes missing where joyce comes out and like. says hi to jonathan who's cooking breakfast and then goes to ruffle will's hair but he's not there and the same thing happens but will IS there this time and joyce's brain short-circuits a little bit

and there's one scene where they give will a walkman to guard against being vecnaed and ask what his favorite song is and he's like "should i stay or should i go" bc DUH and jonathan's like "excellent taste" and will just says "thanks, i got it from my older brother."  all aboard the angst train choo fuckin choo!!

anyways thanks to will's intel the whole squad suits up to head into the upside down. will maps it out for them (vecna's got a vine hub thing in the UD similar to s2 which is his new base of operations since he moved out of creel house). and thus we have my sword mike + bow and arrows lucas + nail bat dustin + gun will agenda. el is off with hop and nancy and whoever heading in to fight vecna or whatever. so now we have the core four og party in their little pod to complete their mission. they r armed with the weapons above but also like. molotov cocktails n lighters n shit too. but they r surrounded by a shit ton of demodogs about to eat them and d'art isn't here this time for dustin to take advantage of his bond with. OHHH SHITTT what r they gonna do???? dustin wants to hunker down and stay on the defense (Cast protection!). lucas wants to light them up (Fireball him!) and mike (still slightly distrusting, waiting for will to prove himself), demands that (since will's the one who spent two and a half years here) he lead the party in what to do (Will, your action!). and will decides that they need to fireball these mother fuckers. this time, it's like they each rolled a nat 20 and the demodogs are decimated.

now the party moves on to provide backup for the el v. vecna showdown. vecna hones in on will. Come home again, William? I knew you would. but el and will have this absolutely epic banging team-up and take him DOWN. vecna dies. el, exhausted, staggers back. will goes unconscious and falls to the ground. all of the memories that vecna was hoarding about will are released now that he's dead, and everyone remembers. (max jolts awake in the hospital.) 

i have this very distinct image of the party getting their memories back. they're standing there injured and exhausted and then it dawns on them and in TOTAL UNISON they're like. WILL.

later, will wakes up in the hospital to his mom petting his hair and his brother crying and the party runs in and it's very s1 reunion except they're all crying way more and apologizing and (only a tiny bit) mad at will for not saying anything. also idk the specific logistics but byler goes endgame ofc. and there we have a VERY happy ending!!! yay!!! 

#byler #birthdaygate #will byers #mike wheeler #stranger things #byler fanfiction #lark's fanfiction #lark answers #4!!

[crepuscularghost]

meh pointless rambling / venting

can we PLEASE skip summer this year I *really* don't want to experience smoke and fires and 105-115 degree heat again. i have lived around this weather for the last 14 years. im so over it. i just want out. california is literally sucking us dry and making it impossible to save more than $10 a month. im really worried that we'll be stuck in sacramento as it gets more expensive here and as our rent gradually increases by $100 a month. i wish i could be sane enough to hold down a job and not lose my shit so we could actually save up to move to the pnw. i need to start looking into disability asap but I'm honestly afraid they won't approve me b/c I don't have enough "proof" as they denied my mum when she was very clearly unable to work and she was fighting to get on disability for 4 years before she died. like i really don't have faith in anything lately. and im just losing more and more money by not being able to work or draw. so disability is literally my only option rn. i just don't even know where to start, the whole process is incredibly intimidating without any assistance or anybody to talk to about it. I've tried applying at the grocery store across the street, and to a few other places down the road, but to no avail. the one job I actually thought I *could* manage, at an art store, never called me back after applying 3 times in the span of 8 months. (they keep telling me to keep applying so I do but it feels rather pointless if I don't even get an email back saying they don't want me lol) - not that i feel i could really be stable enough to hold it down for more than a few months. the entire time i was at PFX i was facing depersonalization and disassociating even while on antipsychotics and would face random bouts of suicidal ideation. I only worked there for a month. i really don't know what to do. the one thing I used to rely on, drawing, to help me get by some months and save up for things I needed or moving-funds, I can't even do that anymore. I *loathe* drawing lately. it just breaks my heart and I go insane forcing myself to do something that literally hurts. i don't know what's wrong with me. why is the artist part of my brain so broken. people keep calling it burn out, but i don't know. i don't think it's just that. im really afraid that im no longer an artist anymore and that's a huge part of my identity and it's fucking with my perception of self. i feel like nobody. i am nothing. im just a whacked out furry art has-been. some people are just saying "just go crazy! just open the canvas and don't think about it!" but you see, i can't even *do* that. i make a line, im angry, im frustrated, i want to turn my computer off and never look at it again. i think to myself "why try, it'll be shit" every single time. the mental process of just doing Art for Art's sake and now Everything Has to be Aesthetic or else it won't get viewed literally broke me b/c social media has taught us that our art is literally worthless if nobody comments or retweets/blogs it. it has created this toxic mental think that you are also worthless as an artist if you can't get anybody to like your personal pieces. that sex sells and you have to sell your soul to it in order to get any level of attention online or irl. that, or you must find your special *niche* and stick to that only so you can find your underground fans.

i miss doing art for myself. purely, just for me. for me to vent, for me to escape, for me to explore. doing commissions was a mistake. having twitter was a mistake. i hate the current art world, so so much.

[crayonurchin]

I’ve had such a hankering to draw Solo Act content lately. Specifically them as the hyper acrobat they are, or e m o t i o n s

#I'm commissioned rn so don't have much time for anything else #but also like... I gotta redraw 2D from Gorillaz as Solo #it works way too well

[morathicain]

Hello I consider you an Internet adult (though I am 22 myself) with experience both reading and writing fanfictions so I wanted to ask. What is the appropriate way to respond when an author deletes all their work and account? Like my favourite fan fiction got deleted and I'm legitimately so sad. I don't understand why people just delete everything these days. Authors from 15 years ago leave those works up evenif they'll never update them again so I just don't understand why so many authors delete these days unlike before. I don't mean to say people can't choose what to do with their own work I respect that. But it just happens so often and hurts so much when fics are just deleted. I understand if this isn't something you want to deal with rn, I don't want to pressure you. You're a great blogger.

Hey Anon ;)

Oh, it does sound a bit weird, but I guess it's true and I'm an Internet adult by now C.C Thank you for your confidence <3

Okay, so that topic is ... emotional and difficult. We rarely know why someone would delete all their works and account. And it's never our right to know as well. But of course it's a shock and you're sad because certain fanfictions can be very personal and it hurts a lot if they're gone. Especially since you're left with no answer.

I'm not sure if my answer suits everyone, but I suggest a few things you can do BEFORE an author deletes everything.

1. Comment and engage. From what I've heard from others, it's often a lack of engagement that frustrates them and makes it feel as if they're giving in lots of energy and effort but there's barely any reaction. Even if you read it again, even if it's an old fic, tell them so. It works wonders, believe me.

2. Download and save your favourite fics. As I said, we never know what happened for an account to be deleted and we never know when it might happen. AO3 has it and other websites as well. Use it. Collect all the fics you enjoyed, so you can read them again from time to time and don't have to fear that they won't be there anymore.

3. If an author includes other social media websites in their bio or fics, follow them. They (we) do that for a reason ;) and it might give you answers.

Now, what to do Afterwards? That's more difficult.

1. Don't harrass them. Even if you know their social media and it's still active but they don't give an answer, don't harrass them. I understand the frustration and need for answers, but it's their own issue.

2. You could see if their work is still posted somewhere else. Sometimes authors have other accounts as well. Like on Wattpad.

3. Tell others about your favourite fanfiction. Mourn the loss you've just experienced. It's okay to be sad and frustrated and to wonder why. Keep it in mind, maybe write down the title or what it was about and maybe you'll find it again one day (who knows?). Treat it as a precious memory because you can't really do anything against the disappearance, as sad as it sounds.

I guess that's my advice for now. If anyone has another opinion or another idea, please feel free to add (except for hate).

Luckily I've never had the urge to delete my account and I've only ever deleted one work and regret it till now.

To why it seems to be happening now more than ever, maybe it's the internet culture right now. I've friends who fear to upload a fic because they expect people to police them heavily. I'm quite lucky with the fandoms I'm writing for atm but it can change quickly and interactions can become very toxic and the demands stressful. Expectations to upload only certain tropes and stories and things and be responsible for every little reaction a reader has (despite tags) can be difficult to endure. Older writers might either forget they're still having a certain fic online or are still hanging on to that little spark of hope to continue it one day or may be more relaxed about all the trouble going on. Plus people starting to do commissions (which is forbidden) which turns a fun hobby into work. All of those things can make people want to leave fandoms and cut all connections and might play a big role nowadays.

And that's why my emphasis is once again on my first advice: engage, comment, be nice and if you don't like something, then choose to NOT interact.

This got a bit out of hand and I have no idea if it even helps. Sorry again that you had to experience that so often already. I hope you'll manage and maybe even find your favourite fanfic again <3 Take care and have a wonderful day/night =^^=

#ask #writing #fandom culture #this is all generally speaking #not accusing anyone specifically #mostly rambling

[herr-aka-somecutenerd]

I posted 262 times in 2021

158 posts created (60%)

104 posts reblogged (40%)

For every post I created, I reblogged 0.7 posts.

I added 381 tags in 2021

#herr replies - 114 posts

#reblog - 96 posts

#herr rants - 45 posts

#korekiyo shinguji - 26 posts

#ask game - 25 posts

#danganronpa - 22 posts

#self ship - 19 posts

#tag game - 13 posts

#picrew - 11 posts

#herr vents - 10 posts

Longest Tag: 63 characters

#for some reason i woke up with scheisse by lady gaga in my head

My Top Posts in 2021

#5

Here's the Dark version of Cosmic Oliver. While drawing I was thinking about a little description for both versions. Here's the description for Dark one: "Darkstar distorted him, took his mind. He no longer sees beauty in universe as it looks like. Stars don't fascinate him with their usual look anymore. Now the Cosmic Dancer sees beauty not in a harmony and creation but in a chaos and destruction. Only entropy make him feel emotions, bringing joy".

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10 notes • Posted 2021-08-14 09:18:48 GMT

#4

Greetings, my friend, I’m doing my own chemistry here

Hello to anyone who’s reading this~ Welcome to my blog! It’s full of my art and thoughts. Feel comfortable here~

Please, call me Herr.

A little information about me:

 They/them

I like Danganronpa, Pokemon, League of Legends, Drifters (anime), Hetalia, Don’t Starve, Sonic, SCP, Amnesia (all three games), Silent Hill (I’m on fourth game rn), Minecraft, Terraria and much more but that’s everything I’ve managed to remember for now.

I’m an artist (mostly digital)

You are free to ask me anything!~ Ko-fi to support me and my art/for commissions COMMISSIONS: OPEN Rules before ordering Price list

10 notes • Posted 2021-02-05 04:15:26 GMT

#3

posting an image in your blog considers as reposting, right?---

31 notes • Posted 2021-09-22 14:50:21 GMT

#2

Y'know, I think love is beautiful, even if the person you love doesn't exist in your reality. I have very specific opinion on the world and fantasies, but I don't really want to rant about it right now. The topic is not about it anyway. Today was one of the most important days for me - the birthday of my beloved character. So many days passed, so many emotions I had and still have. I'm just happy this character exists. The theme of anthropology, japanese culture, horror, mystery, love, tragedy, death and much more are everything I love in this character. Thank for the time we had and still have. I don't know what I'd do without you. Happy Birthday, Korekiyo Shinguji <3

36 notes • Posted 2021-07-31 16:06:36 GMT

#1

Starting a picrew game!

I've been scrolling through MBTI/16personalities memes and found this!

A little reference to my personality type ;)

@ohlookitsnormannn @lovelii-ann @legendarytreasurerhighway @salami2 @benny-writes @shsl-shuichi-simp @simping-harm0ny @that-purple-panta-gremlin @hanamura-manami + anyone else who wants to!

53 notes • Posted 2021-09-27 13:41:51 GMT

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[meatpower]

Please consider helping me pay off a debt and afford necessities

Hello, I wish I didn't have to do this but I have to. I'm a 20 yr old autistic lesbian and I got into some shit. I'm not sure how to word any of this, but...

I woke up today to find my bank account has been blocked. I'm not sure how to translate these things, some of them may be specific to Czech republic and I don't know the english terms, but basically I'm in debt because I got caught on public transport without a ticket ONCE when I was 15 years old and couldn't afford the transport ticket on my way from school. I know this is on me, but I completely forgot about it. I didn't receive any warnings or letters or calls - they always silently wait at least 5 years, with the debt getting bigger every day without your knowledge, and when youre an adult they come at you full force.

I don't know if this happens in other countries, but it's a staple batshit thing in my country everyone knows about. There's children hundreds of dollars in debt because of public transport, it happens so often, it's always in the news and stuff. It's revolting and now it happened to me.

My debt is 455 dollars, and they already seized all the money on my bank account, which left me with nothing, and I have to pay 234 more dollars. I'm devastated.

I have no means of getting this money right now. I'm currently finishing last year of school and I have to pass what I'll translate as big ass state exams in less than a month to graduate. I don't get paid until the 20th of this month, but I still need to pay rent and buy food until then, and the amount I'll get would just barely pay it off. Since my brother and I moved recently, we have no furniture either and I was saving up for necessary items, which is now gone. I also just got approved for disability pension, but they're still in the process of calculating the money they will give me, which usually isn't much, but it helps.

So, I need to pay off the debt and afford rent and food on top of that, so Im gonna try asking for donations. My mom said she's gonna help me a bit, but she is poor as well as it is, so I decided to try my luck here as well. Please don't feel obliged to donate - I get it, money is tight and I'm not the only one struggling, and if you don't have much yourself, take care of yourself first - but if a fraction of my followers had some money to spare and was so kind to send me even a dollar or a few cents, it would be incredibly helpful. Anything helps a lot and I'd be eternally thankful.

In return, I can offer you art, which you can find on @xuve (original drawings) and ig @hrothgart (fanart), so if you donate and want a drawing, message me on here (I don't have much time rn though so it would take me a bit longer than usual to finish the commission!).

I will take emergency commissions for less money than usually, but I'll still set some price points because unfortunately I can't afford to draw for less than that right now. The complexity scales with the amount, but let's say...

2-9 bucks would be a doodle with simple coloring (again complexity scales with the amount), 10-19 bucks would be a fully colored character or a portrait (I can draw furries, humans, animals, real people etc...) And 20+ dollars would be a scene with a background. If you have something else in mind, feel free to suggest anything :)

I'm bad at summing things up but...

TLDR: I got caught on public transport once when I was 15 and couldn't afford a ticket, I forgot about it because they kept silent for 5 years with no warnings while the debt grew bigger, and now they want 455 dollars, half of which they seized from my account, which is now blocked as well. This thing happens in my country a lot. Im left with money in the negatives and I need to afford rent and food. If you were so kind and sent me even one dollar so I can afford to live, I'd be really thankful, and I can draw in return.

My PayPal is [email protected] (excuse the deadname). If you cant donate, a reblog is always appreciated. Thank you so much!

#donation post #donation #donations #signal boost #help

[stormflypirateskin]

I'm sorry but how do you have 140+ wishes I have 7 lmao

Slsofshb

I got them from many parts of the game!

For example:

Daily commissions!

Events! (Try to do everything that gives primogems, they are usually kinda easy!)

Sometimes on the mail they will give you primogems! (They give them out when they fix a bug or server maintenance was completed I think)

Exploring the entire map and finding as many chests as you can! (There's so many guides and opening so many chests help increase your AR as well though it takes a long time! I recommend this if you don't have anything else to do)

Doing Archon Quests or Quests in general! (If you get stuck, there's always guides or you can ask someone stronger than you to help with enemies!)

When they livestream, they give three codes which each gives you primogems! (I think 100 each)

Make furniture which a character will like, each gives 20! (Idk if I explained this one well haha)

Don't forget the hangout events, I think when you have all the endings the amount you should receive is 60 I think- correct me if I'm wrong hhh

Spiral Abyss if you have a strong team and are able to beat it (I'm still working on mine haha)

Buy the wishes you want from the shop! (What I do to slow gather them is get normal/blue wishes from the battle pass and wish on the standard banner (don't waste any of your primogems!!) and you will get some of this item which when you gather enough, you can buy at least 5 wishes each month from the shop, each wish costs 75 of this item, I think when you wish once you gather at least 15 of it jdfjh-

Have patience!! It might seem hard but I know you can do it! Make sure to stay hydrated and take plenty of breaks and don't overwork yourself!! I'm sure soon you'll gather as much as I have rn, just don't spend them at all!!

I think there's definitely more ways to gather primogems but I think I have covered most of them! If you need any help, send an ask or a DM! I'm always willing to help hehe!^^

#ask #genshin impact #❤️mutuals❤️ #❤️❤️❤️

[steves-strapcollection]

uh so I need help?

tl;dr, my financial situation is shitty thanks to student loans and being the sole income for my house, my main concern is getting my mobile phone bill paid before it adds another month of non-payment and late fees, so please assist with reblogs or whatever ur able to help out w. my mobile phone bill is currently at $260.

hey everyone, so I rly rly hate having to do this but I've found myself in a bit of a bind financially since I'm the only one working in my house rn while my sister is unemployed and uh things have got suddenly bad thanks to student loans and holidays and Huge Costco Run.

I get paid on Thursday, but hours are down at work right now, and most of that paycheque is going to rent and gas and after that I don't know how much will be left over.

I have 2 chequing accounts (one I use for government money I get but mostly I'm trying to get the credit card attached to it down to zero so I can finally close that account), and one is almost overdrawn, and the other is at $18 and this is thanks to student loans being pulled at the worst possible time.

now the credit cards. full disclosure, I tend to be an impulsive spender due to ADHD and depression. that accounts for some of that mess, which I take full responsibility for. the other part of it is that I am the sole income for my family which includes my mom, my sister, and my son. between the holidays, groceries, gas, and other misc expenses, my one credit card is maxed out and even over the limit by a lot. like a whole paycheque a lot.

on top of everything, my phone bill did not get paid last month so now I owe double what I usually do.

so after all of this, I just would really appreciate help, if at all possible. I haven't written in a while, but if you want to commission something small I'd be down for that too.

what I need above anything else is $260 for my phone bill. the credit card thing is the scariest but it's a lot and I don't think you guys can rly help, and I'm afraid to ask for that kind of help especially since most of that is my fault for being a fucking dumbass.

it's just A LOT right now, and I know this isn't a case of "super shitty circumstances".

so any amount helps, reblogs are super helpful.

uh you can send money to my PayPal, and I have a link to my ko-fi on my page too if that's easier for u.

https://www.paypal.me/payestamour

please ignore my given name.

#God I hate doing this I feel fucking awful for even asking #like this is the worst thing #pls signal boost

[mochuelovelli]

Some Alt. Jobs for the Kids in the Future:

Mainly doing this as just a thought experiment. Usually people are of one mind on what the kids will *probably* be when they are older(myself included) so I wanted to give some alts that could fit their personalities.

Louie-Manger/Agent:Making this list mainly for him because I recalled Princess Carolyn from BoJack and how her job could fit Louie pretty well. Ik a lot of people headcanon Lawyer! Louie, I do too, but I think this would be a fun idea.

A manager's job is basically finding ways to get their client's hired or trying to tailor a client's project in order for it to be marketable. We already seen Louie do this in his ep this season but I think it be cool if became a legit job for him. He's still a McDuck ward so nothing with his business would be "normal" and he would have to do similar "schemes" to get his clients jobs, especially if they are inter-dimensional goat demons.

Louie would probably say the reason he became a manager would be "because I've been trying to convince people I am good enough my entire life, might as well make a career out of it". Edgy ik, but this is Louie we are talking about of course he say some dumbshit.

Dewey-YouTube Personality: this is probably just a less popular hc rather than one that's not talked about at all like the Louie (or the next couple examples). For me, I can't see Dewey being anything but some kind of globe trotting adventurer who would also record it for views. But in the case that DIDN'T happen, I think he'd become a youtube personality and make shows with his friends and family. I think it be really cute, that even as they grown older and become more independent, Dewey can still find ways to bring them all to his house to be apart of his youtube show(s) where he and a guest try to guess obscure history facts Webby comes up with (Watchers know what I'm talking about) or where he and some friends try to solve unsolved mysteries or try and bake without a recipe (im really showing what content i watch).

His Youtube channel would be sporadic like, "series" but he doesn't make actual playlists (Huey or Violet do) and uploads whatever he wanted to do that week. Good thing is, he never misses an upload date. Almost.

Huey-Military Engineer/Tech Guy (IE better Beaks): I had the hardest time with figuring out Huey since like Webby, he can pretty much be in any field to me (as long as its stem related). This suggestion to me is the least chill out of all of them but I picked it because 1. Huey likes structure and chain of command and 2. Science and defense systems.

Out of his brothers, Huey isn't the most WORRIED about safety but he definitely is the one who would do something about it to fix it. I can see him making some intergalactic defense systems and various prevention junk. Maybe he works under Gosalyn's administration[see gos] or he makes "unnatural-natural phenomenon" protection stuff. Kinda like the seawalls in Venice but like, stuff to make sure the Earth doesn't get destroyed because of all the crazy shit the duckverse has. Like ghost forcefields or the reversal of timephoons. I don't think he would be a Tony Stark character tho so I am not 100% with this one.

He could also just be a tech guy, but yknow, better than Mark Beaks. He accidentally has more followers than him would crush him in twitter fights (an example would be something along the Logan Paul vs Chris D'Elia). I find this just really funny, Huey would actually be what all those "good guy billionaires" claim to be (also he wouldn't be one just as a matter of principle). Owlson would probably be his mentor or maybe just business partner.

Webby-Comic Artist/Cartoonist: Webby, to me, can pretty much go into any field and I would be like "yeah makes sense". However I know in my heart she'd be some kind of spy or detective. Thinking about her being anything else was honestly kinda hard but then I realized she DOES have another hobby which could be turn into a career - her drawings and stories. Webby is definitely a creative person, maybe the most creative so far in front of or slightly behind Dewey, so I think she would like to make comics and cartoons.

If you want to be angsty, maybe she chooses this mundane route because she was somewhat conditioned by her granny (or her creators if theories are to he proven right) to be a super spy; choosing to be a cartoonist is something she was never trained to become and yet she still did because it's something SHE wanted to do for herself.

Lena-Poet/Song Writer: okay another one that might not be uncommon but I like to just see it thrown out there. Lena is cool in large part because of her magic but in a possible similar motivation to Webby, she wanted to be a poet not only because she was good at it but because she wanted to be. This doesn't have to be her main hussle, usually I don't see it as such, but I also think it be cute if she became a new Robert Frost (this is the only poet ik sorry).

Violet-Cosmologist: Most people see Violet as either some kind of chemist, professor, or occasionally a witch. I think another good alt tho would be cosmology since Violet herself wants to understand the world around her, which is a bit different from Huey who wants to obtain knowledge for knowledge sake in the case it might come in handy though not extremely. Cosmology as field in the dt universe must be WILD too since im pretty sure most scientists know of all the magic and junk, in fact I wouldn't be surprised if there was a legit subject on it or multiple. Trying to make sense of YOUR universe while knowing others exist along with time travel, possibly multiple after lifes? Its a lot. Perfect job for Vi.

Boyd-Therapist/architect: I feel like this isn't such a niche hc, but I do see more folks make him into his own superhero and/or an accountant. I might be playing into the Baymax stereotype of robots being good mental health assistants but idc, I think it's warranted since he has gone through and understands trauma. Maybe he focuses on those who need rehabilitation or are unable to get paid treatment. Maybe he just helps those who have committed crimes. Another alt is that he becomes an architect, building well planned buildings and public spaces in a flash by utilizing his vast abilities. He might even be commissioned to make space colony housing.

Gosalyn-Politican: Alright so, Gosalyn being a superhero like her dad is like, canon but again in an alt universe where it WASN'T (or maybe later in her life) I can see her becoming political. Frank even laid out some of what inspired this iteration of Gosalyn which included notable political activists, so as of rn its not that far of a stretch to say she might be interested in that. I have a feeling its happens because she gets riled up for something in particular rather than she always wanted to be a career politician or whatever. She would definitely be a less polished politician and that be her appeal, she'd kinda be like an AOC in that regard(im sorry I tried really hard not to name drop political figures but-). An example of her "abnormal" diplomacy tactics is where she stopped Ragnarok semi permanently by absolutely wrecking their shit. (She be dramatic about it like her dad, coming in her normal President wear and then throw it off to reveal some crazy wrestling shit. Louie would also make a lot of money that day.)

#ducktales #dt17 #ducktales 17 #ducktales 2017 #huey duck #louie duck #hdl #dewey duck #webby vanderquack #gosalyn mallard #lena saberwing #violet sabrewing #boyd gearloose #boyd drake #boyd