#I'm genuinely learning all this stuff

[fisheito]

my princess nonsense is being encouraged watch ouyt imabout to be eneaabled

OK WHATF ATHAT'S SO CUTE I HAD TO MAKE IT i know realistically there's little to no chance that rei DOESN'T know how to work heels 🤣 BUT IMAGINE.....ING.... YAKUMO GENTLY GUIDING REI IN HEELS, WEEKS BEFORE THE BIG GALA AND HAVING NONE OF HIS NORMAL FEAR OF PHYSICAL TOUCH BC HIS [TEACHER MODE] IS OVERRIDING HIS INSECURITY

#rei looking directly at the camera like why are you subjecting me to this. i do not need any of this. i know how to do it #rei wearing stilettos the size of your head so he becomes ur very tall bird goth gf #you know how yakumo gets when he instructs someone on how to cook something #he becomes confident and just tells ppl how to do stuff without his usual amount of stutter and secondguessing #i'm gonna pretend that after his stiletto training in misty vale he gains a TINY MOLECULE of confidence due to experience #like [i can help you if you've never done it before?] #honestly i can't imagine this scenario happening because i am so SURE that rei can walk in heels HAHAHA even tho nothing has proven that #SOMETHING COME PROVE ME WRONG SO MY DELUSIONS CAN SLIDE CLOSER TO POSSIBILITY #anyway even if rei didn't know how to wear heels #would he ever mention it? would yakumo ever learn of it? #rei would probably be all . i don't need to wear heels. they can't even see them under the dress. i'll wear my practical shoes #but if he can't get away with that and will be forced to wear heels at the party... #maybe he'll go [meh. i'll figure it out] and just not wear them until the day of the dance #at which point his feet will hurt after 20 minutes and for the whole night he takes any chance to sit down #rei can be frequently spotted on SOME surface SOMEWHERE in the palace. sitting all splayed out and uncaring of propriety #because he is in PAIN and these shoes are STUPID and why do people wear them for ANYTHING . Royals are so IMPRACTICAL #yakumo keeps trying to avoid heels for the dance because he doesn't want to be any taller than he already is #i bet there's a full convo about it between him and eiden #eiden trying to reassure him that if he wants to wear heels then he shouldn't let others' perception stop him from doing so #but if he genuinely doesn't want to wear them then that's ok too #eiden craning his neck up at yakumo in heels like you're my pretty princess 1-2 heads taller than me your height doesn't matter 🥰 #i'm now torn. yakumo and rei both wearing heels now? in order to stay at similar heights? #or. rei starting out with heels. getting tired of them. going barefoot for the rest of the night lol #yakumo and rei still dancing in their ballgowns together but a much shorter rei leads a yakumo in heels #yes. yes this is the vision #yakumo #rei #yakurei #replies

[brittlebutch]

finding a character that grates against your nerves and eventually thinking, well, that's not fair, you haven't done anything; why do i dislike you? and then you dwell on this for a while and discover 'oh! you are like me when i was younger' and decide well, i'll simply learn how to love the both of you. power in this.

#N posts stuff #'what are you talking about?' fuck if i know. #but also i'm talking about penny from 'the 7' -- nosy little control freak determined to find Some foothold into Every conversation #it's interesting bc sometimes when i watch i'm like 'this character is played on the Border of metagaming' but the more i think abuot it #the less it Feels like metagaming bc penny Genuinely seems Exactly like the kind of person who just Is That Determined to be #some level of involved in Every situation; 'yeah i know that show you were in' 'Yeah i was listening into this scene from a different hall' #equal parts her being a Rogue character to her core AND her borderline pathological need for control in Every situation #w/ None of the social grace needed to temper this impulse into something more broadly 'palatable' -> very autistic to me in a way #'i don't Get It but if i'm Always Right then that's good bc it's Bad to be Wrong so i just have to Know Everything so that i'm Never Wrong' #or like 'no i don't understand the Rules right but if i can just Be In Charge of the Situation at all times then i'm the one domineering #where this is going and how it unfolds; like if i'm in charge i understand That at least so i will just Always be in charge' #and sometimes this starts fights with your friends and they call you a freak for it and you're like 'hm. i don't know what's going on #but if You said it and You Get People then you must be right so. i will alter this immediately' but penny doesn't have that interaction #because her friends are just like 'yeah i love you And that batshit way of interacting with the world that you embody' and there is a #temptation of sorts to be like 'penny you HAVE to stop that; you NEED to learn that lesson please' but then like. hm. does she? #much to think about. i don't interact w/ people enough anymore for this to impact my interactions with real people lol #but it Is interesting to peel apart a fictional character and find a Younger You in there. i can change how i think about Them at least

[byanyan]

someone should like... teach byan how to swim. or ride a bike. or drive, even, if you feel like risking your life.

#they genuinely don't know how to do any of these things no one has ever taught them #and I think the worst part is that like. they've BEEN to swimming pools (when they were younger) for classmates' birthdays and stuff #but they'd pretend like they knew how to swim and then stick to the shallow end of the pool while making excuses for not wanting #to go to the deeper parts bc they were embarrassed bc they were the ONLY ONE who didn't actually know how to swim #but it was so rare they ever went to a pool that no one called them out #bikes? never had one. never had the opportunity to learn. #same with driving ofc but honestly that one's a little more valid bc I'm not sure I'D want to put them behind the wheel either #even though I do like to imagine a world where they eventually get a motorcycle like they'd LOVE to have #but uhhhh. given their poor self preservation WITHOUT a motor vehicle involved and all their risk-taking behaviours..... #I'm not so sure that'll ever work out for them lmao #just things I've been thinking about this week don't mind me #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.

[queenlucythevaliant]

I'm watching Star Wars with my roommate, she hasn't seen any of it and she is completely unspoiled I am LIVING

#i have instructed her not to talk about it with anyone or look it up or /anything/ until we're done with all three #her reactions! it's like I'm ten again! #as of the end of ep 4 she doesn't think obi wan is actually dead. she thinks he's faking #she's ehh on han but loves luke and especially leia #we're watching with subtitles because English is her second language #and every time Chewbacca says anything it's subtitled like 'arghh' and it's killing me #it's so hard to have conversations about a Thing You Know Every Detail About with someone just being exposed to it for the first time #it's the same problem i had with lotr but actually worse if you can believe it #bc i genuinely cannot remember a time when i didn't know the difference between an astromech and a protocol droid. #or which one wedge antilles is. or the cut backstory with biggs. #or the names of all the different background characters that you only learn from scouring wookiepedia at age thirteen #for the fanfic you and your sister are writing #idk #i remember what it was like to be new to lotr. not so much with star wars #I don't talk about it much on this blog but i am a huge star wars nerd with strong opinions #i had us flip back over to the despecialized edition for several of scenes (you know the ones) even though they didn't have subs available #bc like. you gotta #and then i try to explain the difference to her and realize how esoteric this stuff is in the scheme of things #idk I'm just rambling at this point #getting to introduce a friend to the art that shaped me totally rules #pontifications and creations #a star wars fan like my father before me

[tvckerwash]

hmmm I'm thinking about wash's stance on the training accident and I think it would be so funny if he gave maine a lecture about it afterwards

#they have a whole moment together that essentially boils down to wash telling maine that he's should know better and that bad orders exist #and maine is genuinely sorry because he knows it was a bad call and he tells wash that #and wash replies with “I know you are but I'm not the one who you should be apologizing too.” #wash treating maine like he's a human being with thoughts and feelings instead of a mindless weapon my beloved #maine is not happy about having to apologize to york btw. idk why we all decided that maine hates york but it's so funny #maine is a man of few words and he cannot stand the fact that york is incapable of shutting the fuck up lol #rvb #red vs blue #agent maine #agent washington #mine #lina lectures wyoming later after she knows that york is going to be okay #I really like the idea of wash being beta squads field leader and when he and ct get bumped up he shares leader duties w lina #lina is probs a commissioned officer so she technically outranks wash in under regard but she's probably fresh out of the academy when shes #recruited for pfl and commissioned officers are expected to learn the ropes from enlisted nco's so I like to think that she #really values wash's opinion on stuff and she feels confident knowing that she can look to him #the other freelancers could've done the same thing but they're all kinda. you know. so wash got the position by virtue of being the only gu #who had the balls to go up to lina and make the proposition of *gasp* cooperation #i actually have a hc that when wash and ct were first moved up and were on their first mission w alpha squad #stuff was bad and wash sort of undercuts lina by giving south and maine different orders (bc they were also both previously beta squad) #and said orders ended up being the right call and carolina is kind of mad about wash ignoring her authority #so after they get debriefed wash apologizes to lina in the locker room for it bc it was not his intention to steal her thunder #and he asks if they can start over and maybe work something out #and lina accepts his apology and york is kinda balking bc the way wash words it sounds vaguely like he's asking her on a date #york gets no bitches and cannot complete with wash's earnest rizz bdhshj

[orchideae]

In today's episode of 'Sae, do you (...)': the topic of Ningguang and Yelan, and I thought that I should note my opinion more clearly outside of my rules as it's very important information for my portrayal: I do not ship Ningguang and Yelan romantically.

Honestly, while this is of course my own opinion, I don't find that there's anything to really substantiate a romantic interest between the two. For starters, I don't think that Ning, as interesting of a character as she is with a past that might just be similar in its 'rise' to Yelan's (we're left with very little information on the latter's childhood), ticks the right kind of boxes for her, though to be fair: not many do. Yelan craves a specific sort of thrill in her life, I mean she lives it at the roll of a dice because she is, on some level, bored, and craves the unexpected, the unusual, the 'surprise', and Ningguang's life nor personality seem to play into that. Beyond it, Yelan would need a kinship within this very specific 'loneliness' that I talk about too often and I think that Ning is not one who quite meshes into that in the right way.

Second, despite their long-standing history that even predates their mutual involvement with the Qixing, there seems to be a certain professional distance between the two that I'm quite fond of that is shown in brief event cutscenes, and also Yelan's vision story, that I find inherently intriguing. Perhaps this distance plays more into Yelan's character of not investing too heavily, or rather not too easily, into social dynamics than it does Ning's (I'm not one to weigh in on her character), but it seems evident to me that there's also that semblance of professionalism that creates a line that takes away the possibility of growing closer on an emotional level. And whether that's a mutual decision or not is not up to me to judge, but I think it's one that's made rather clearly from Yelan's side. On top of that, Yelan is Yelan and it's my personal belief that shipping her is rather difficult.

Now I'm also inherently of the opinion (unpopular, I know, I apologize) that dynamics aren't always more interesting when written in romantic settings, and I don't think it's a benefit for all of them to veer into a romantic nature. And in my opinion (and most importantly: in my depiction and understanding of Yelan's character), I think that having Ning and Yelan cross the line from professionalism into something inherently more rooted in romanticism, would be a detriment to their dynamic. Because honestly, I think the fact that Ningguang being one of two people (other being Uncle Tian) to know Yelan best, without ever crossing that line, is too good. I would simply, well, just prefer to keep that not only platonic, but professional, but of course not excluding it of Yelan's quips, and the occasional 'confidant' element.

/rambles in tags because I feel like I have more to say that I shouldn't flood the post with.

#[ psa. ] seeing isn't always believing. and if you can't trust your eyes; you certainly can't trust rumors. #[ also; and this is where you'll learn more about my 'single-ship' self-- i love the concept of ningguang and beidou. ] #[ and i wouldn't want to take away from that dynamic /in my own head/. it's not about what others do/see/view. but about my own head. ] #[ if i did ship it-- it'd counter that dynamic and i don't like that (again: in my own brain). ] #[ i'm an odd rper in that sense; but i almost have difficulty straying from this... single verse concept. ] #[ in my head i tie specific characters to other specific characters after a lot of thought and i don't commit to those thoughts easily. ] #[ but then i construct this entire huge narrative in my head that's almost like its own book. ] #[ and so i can't easily 'copy' that multiple times for multiple ships. does that make sense? ] #[ but /because/ i do that-- i heavily scrutinize dynamics across the board and it's where a lot of my enjoyment as a writer comes from. ] #[ these analyses of specific characters and dynamics. why are they the way that they are? ] #[ it's psychology. i love it. it's not just saying 'i love finding out what makes characters tick' but it's actively really going... ] #[ 'yeah okay i could ship these-- but is there basis for it and /why/ and /in what capacity/ and specifically: /would they decide to/? ] #[ sometimes i tell myself that i'm not made for rp'ing because i'm too analytical meshed in with too much emotion. ] #[ because i get too invested. ] #[ but i just-- i don't know. i wanted to kind of explain why pointing stuff like this out is important to me and my portrayal. ] #[ especially for yelan who has such a... god; it's almost an unhealthy headspace. you can't mesh that with just anyone. ] #[ the person has to /really get it/ and understand it almost on this level that isn't logical for most humans. because it's unusual. ] #[ but it's important that it's understood /by another human being/. ] #[ and i also think some people genuinely don't mesh in /that/ way. some can mesh perfectly platonically in my head and then... ] #[ not at all romantically. but when /my head/ has decided that this is how it is-- i respect when people disagree; i do. ] #[ i will never say that my opinions are the be all end all for other yelans or even yelan's character in specific. ] #[ as much as i like to think i analyze-- /i could be wrong/. ] #[ but all in all; i do respect if people disagree. but there's just certain opinions i have for my own portrayal that i need to note. ] #[ but also-- a little explanation as to why i'm single-ship more often than not. i wish i could budge how my brain works. but alas. ] #[ /sips coffee past midnight. ] #[ it's been a day. it really has been a day; i need to make my own serotonin tomorrow. i miss writing. ]

[tricks-n-illusions]

@ Calamity: for a Pokémon often rumoured to be heavily feared and even sometimes the cause of misfortune, you're very pleasant natured! Apologies for the assumption of your character. On a more heavier note, though, were you ever aware of the actions of your followers? Not in an accusing way, but clearly both Seance and Silas have both caused a lot of harm to others.. but surely you'd want your followers to be well?

"No harm done, many think that of me. I have grown used to it." She seemed a bit sad but happily nodded instead of dwelling on it, "Ah, I unfortunately cannot control the actions of my followers. I am very aware of what all of my followers are doing at any moment but I cannot stop them." "Of course, I can force them to my will, as anyone who bears my sigil can be controlled with enough determination on my end, but that is just barbaric and inhumane! Would you like an unseen force to suddenly take control of your body and puppet you around as if you were nothing more than a vessel?" "As a Spirit of Giratina, I find this act normal. I am being controlled from afar constantly, but mortals, they find this horrifying! The last I did such a thing, a poor mortal was left mentally ruined. Never again! Anyway..." She slowly drifted before speaking up again.

"But I do partly blame him for his actions after. However, recall Silas was raised by 'Seance' and Seance was not a very fit example. I do not think he knows better or knows how to be 'good'. I do hope he learns soon enough, his antics are tiring. I cannot teach him that personally, my knowledge of mortal morality is still lacking." She admitted before giving a small sigh. "I do not always know 'right' and 'wrong', what I tend to find trivial and a simple solution always tends to be shocking to mortals."

"This is simply untrue." She huffed in annoyance. "I do not want my pact to be used for 'evil' purposes. That was never my goal and will never be my goal anytime in the future." "I do not wish to become like my creator. I think some would call this my 'parent'. They are quite awful with their pact, they adore dragging their mortals around like toys. No wonder my fellow gods and creations keep trying to kill that awful thing. So..."

"Though it might have some side effects. Their mind always fails them even if I keep their body young... I do not know why, does having a long and happy life not please mortals? Does being with their loved ones till their demise not satisfy them? They always become depressed or jaded, even seeking out death... I am still trying to understand. I do not have a mortal lifespan myself, as I am immortal." "But, Even now, even after everything I've seen my followers do. I wish the best for them, and even Silas, I hope to see him guided to a better path. Though I cannot teach him things, I would attempt to help, but all Nym has done is reject me, and refuse to be my host. I will not force him, however, I hope the addition of you will guide his fate to a better outcome."

#tni: chrono #tni: calamity #Saved this for today #I'm going to be at the doctor for a few hours while they figure out if I need a dumb organ that doesnt even do anything removed 😅 #so I really hope yall enjoy! I spent a while on this hopefully it makes yall curious just a big indirect lore dump #Also calamity does not understand mortals AT ALL when she said 'values' she meant family values not all that other stuff #So she might say some concerning shit and this isn't going to be the last time for the various morally questionable things she says #I promise shes trying to learn but she just genuinely does not understand unless someone tells her #TNI: Seance Mentions #Chapter 1: The Introduction

[racke7]

Me vs FF14 part... 2?

It's taken me pretty much three full days of running from cutscene to cutscene. But I've finally reached Heavensward.

And like... on some level? I'm kind of offended?

Like, a part of me genuinely wants to replay the entire game from the start "as something else" (different main-class, different race, different starting-area, whichever), because the dungeon-queuing system is actually really fun when you start to Understand it.

As in, FF14 has somehow made an MMO that has almost eliminated the feeling that it is a level-grind? Partially? It's turned the whole thing into a surprisingly comfortable level of (limited, but genuine) social interaction.

To the point where even someone who isn't obsessively grind-focused like me, can genuinely enjoy themselves. Just queuing up for dungeons, Hunting some bounties, and-...

And then FF14 has so many fucking quests that it literally chokes the life out of the gameplay.

As an example, one of their biggest dungeon-draws (bcs high rewards) is a quest that almost everyone hates playing. Because doing that dungeon means watching literally eighteen minutes of unskippable cutscenes.

And that's with them having reduced the amount of cutscenes in that dungeon, because the players complained so much about them.

Like... I'd be perfectly happy replaying the game from the start with a different character, even knowing that leveling isn't some kind of pain-free thing. But the thought of having to restart the fucking Main-Quest? Of having to spend literal days just running back-and-forth to cutscenes?

I'm currently feeling a bit burned-out as a result of the binge I went on to get here, but I'm pretty damn sure that I wouldn't replay this fucking thing even if you paid me for it.

(And, of course, Heavensward also has a Main-Quest continuation that you have to follow. And now I'm not even allowed to fly everywhere to cut down on the "running back-and-forth"-part of my complaints. Not until they arbitrarily allow me to discover flight for the new areas, by going through even more of the Main-Quest.)

(Not to mention that now I have to go back and do even more Class-quests, with their own cutscenes, in order to unlock a bunch of skills.)

(I'm very fond of the "the church is evil because it doesn't let you fuck dragons"-meme, and I'm very much seeing it. But like... come the fuck on. Why is this MMO a feature-length movie-series? Why can't I just play the game and have fun?)

#and yes. i'm very much aware that ''you can do anything with one character'' #bcs everyone gets one (1) race-changing potion. and classes can be switched out super-easily. but that's not the point. #video games #ff14 #rants #personal stuff #also like... i'm unemployed and waiting for my classes to begin a few weeks from now. i have INFINITE free-time. #and i still feel like ff14 is actively trying to waste my time by ''telling a story'' that should be in a single-player game. #... actually. that'd explain a lot. did the writers of this game learn to write from single-player games? #is that why there are so many cutscenes and minor characters to constantly juggle? did nobody tell them that they were making an MMO? #(the feeling of going ''all-in'' on the genuineness in the cutscenes even when it's corny as shit? good.) #(being forced to sit through cutscene after cutscene instead of actually playing the game? bad.) #like... even just the dungeon-cutscenes? to some degree it's expected that you SHOULD skip them? bcs you're making others wait? #(and during the Raids. that means outright being left behind. ain't nobody stopping for anyone.) #so you're losing a massive bit of story-telling. bcs it's trying to tell that story in the WORST place. #it's a good story? i guess? but it's so fucking inconvenient to _play the game around_ that it feels more like a chore than an adventure. #and in a single-person game? i think it'd be great. maybe not entirely my kettle of fish. but genuinely good. but as an MMO? #like i get that a lot of it has been added onto it over the span of YEARS and that ppl playing it since launch would've been desperate #for new content. despite how the amount of content seems incredibly overwhelming for new players. #but jesus fuck. at least let people wanting to start a new character to just... skip the fucking thing? they've already seen it once. #* nevermind. they thought of that. they're selling ''story-skip''-potions for 10$. wow. just... wow.

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

man I really would love to see an (explicitly) religious companion on Doctor Who. esp one who's written in such a way as makes their faith relevant to the storylines and challenges and tests it but ultimately remains respectful and keeps the theme of it relevant within the specific science fiction setting that Doctor Who occupies. I personally just think that would be great.

#:) can't wait to see what kind of reaction this one provokes :) #also btw I know that Yaz is Muslim. I was actually kind of excited when the show officially confirmed that bc I was hoping it would #dig into themes of faith surrounding her and how she as a person of faith is dealing with her experiences in the TARDIS #learning all this new knowledge that's supposedly outside the realm of her worldview and having to figure out how to incorporate #these new perspectives into her relationship with her faith #would've been absolutely thrilled to see that happen at all in literally any capacity. and then it absolutely completely Did Not. #her faith was mentioned like... what. once??? in a passing reference about racism/Islamophobia #which of course are relevant themes of course! but they were brought up exactly once. and then permanently left there. #and yes I do have to say that Thirteen's era actually revolved quite heavily around themes of faith and religion. and it treated religion #in general much better than any previous era of Who really has!! I'm appreciative for that. #but I would really enjoy not having to dig so much. I'd love to see the explorations of faith be as tied into a character as #the explorations of identity were tied to Bill's sexuality and the Master/Missy's gender change and moral crisis were in s10 #anyway! :) have fun with this one. I will delete it if people start being weird and dumb in the notes. #gurt says stuff #doctor who #religon #faith #storytelling #science-fiction #(totally ok to reblog and add comments on btw. 'being weird and dumb' does not mean interacting with this in a genuinely #conversational and good-faith sort of way at all)

[01tsubomi]

i'm taking the jlpt this sunday and had a stress dream last night abt it bc it sort of snuck up on me and now it's kind of a question of how much my actual japanese abilities will carry me (versus if i should've been cramming on flashcards this past month) but the listening portion is far simpler conversation than my coworkers and i have so. i think that maybe instead of "damn i should've been studying japanese" my perspective should just be "i speak japanese"

#a key part of the dream though was that i failed because i went on a motorcycle joyride during the 40 minute break and didn't make it back #in time for the listening section. the prompt for the listening section btw was to write an essay in english about kirishima eijirou #so i was like damn i would've totally passed #anyway hashtag classic maya but idk #i think i have a bit of a complex abt it bc i was studying for n1 (highest level) in college #but w the switch to online learning we stopped studying the stuff i really needed to work on (vocab and kanji) #and whatever kanji i knew how to write went out the window bc i never had to turn in written homework again #so i really let myself go there for a good two years but since moving last summer i've not only been having japanese conversations every da #i've also actually been studying kanji in my downtime at work #so i have picked up most of the study guide-type information just really slowly over time #i read a ton of manga in japanese lately and most shows on netflix here don't have eng subtitles but i'm fine without them 95% of the time #with the genre of shows i watch at least #so i've been thinking a lot lately abt what my end goal is w japanese studies because 'be able to consume all the art i want' feels like #a good place to be #i do think in the end the only thing between me and n1 is a lot of genuine hard work studying vocab and kanji and reading serious articles #so i feel like all 'sekkaku da shi' i've made it this far why would i just stop working at this point #those are just my thoughts though aaaa i know reading/vocab/grammar section is way more hit or miss #personal

[mightybeaujester]

Can anyone recommend a good Baldurs gate let's play? I'm like 7 hours into one where the player knows nothing about dnd and just refuses to learn the fighting system at all and it's slowly driving me insane

I'd like it to be p focused on asterion and karlach bc I'm already obsessed w them :D

#baldurs gate 3 #baldurs gate astarion #baldur's gate karlach #I'd prefer the let's player to not be a man but I'm flexible at this point #It's so sad bc the let's player I've been watching is genuinely delightful but she doesn't understand a single mechanic #And doesn't seem to learn at all #And also just #Keeps not reading stuff? #I was fine w it at the beginning but I'm so many hours in and it's just getting too much #But yeah I'd prefer the let's play to have a general for the girls and the gays vibe yknow #Also only full let's plays not just highlights pls

[jamiebluewind]

*me coming back onto my tumblr that has like 5 active followers to find over 100 notes*

#you're welcome and all but... why??? #I'm not entertaining and I follow so many different fandoms and unrelated subjects??? #I'm happy yall're happy and liking so many of the things is very endearing to me #but also I'm the equivalent of it the concept of paint drying and a random word generator had a baby #feel free to say hi if you want to? #or just say stuff or info dumb #i genuinely LOVE info dumps! #WHY WOULDN'T ANYBODY NOT LIKE INFO DUMPS!??? #it's like a “learn a random thing generator” #you can also give them a heads up that you're tuning out so the person can still info dump and you get all the sweet sweet happy vibes #like I DON'T KNOW WHY WE'RE EXCITED BUT WOOOO!!! #toddler brain

[nexus-nebulae]

the aftermath of having 2 terabytes of storage

#i have never had a computer this nice lmao #i'm constantly so used to automatically assuming i Can't Do Most Things bc most of the time i'm barred from Everything #either by physical skill or money or age or location #so when i got a Nice Computer my brain was like STUFF I CAN DO?????????? STUFF I CAN DO!!!!!!!!!!!! #and just. downloaded all the games i haven't been able to play bc my laptop sucks ass #the dopamine rush. lmao #i can actually play skyrim again for the first time since i was 17 😭 #genuinely getting this computer has given me the exact same feeling as finally getting my wheelchair #just the fucking sheer joy of *oh my fucking god i have freedom now. i can actually DO STUFF* #seriously being able to use the wheelchair has made me so fucking happy i don't feel awful when going to the store i can actually THINK #bc i dont have brain fog from having to focus all of my energy on staying upright #and the computer is giving me the same feeling of freedom like. i can actually DO STUFF with my computer and not worry about it crashing #i can record video now!!!! I COULD START STREAMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i can actually learn to code because the coding programs will run!!!!!! i can start making datapacks!!!!!!!!!!!!! #can PLAY THE GAMES I'VE BOUGHT OVER THE YEARS FINALLY #FUCKING THANK YOU STEAM FOR LETTING ME KEEP THESE GAMES UNTIL I CAN ACTUALLY PLAY THEM #INSTEAD OF BEING A SHITASS STREAMING SERVICE THAT TAKES AWAY YOUR PRODUCT *AND* MONEY WHENEVER THEY FEEL LIKE IT #like i bought assassins creed odyssey the year it came out and i've never even been able to OPEN it on any of my old computers #i bought Jusant recently because it looks very pretty but the game wouldn't let me download it on my laptop bc the graphics card was shit #i have a bunch of games that I've just hoarded on my steam account for years and now i can finally play them #i can get back to subnautica too!!!! and finally finish out we happy few!!! #anyway im gonna go continue to be insane about this machine i love computers theyre so fun

[nbstevonnie]

really unsure where i stand on baba is you

#idk i think i wouldn't feel so unsure about it if not for the fact that the positive reviews for it so far exceed the negative #which is not to say i can't have different opinions etc etc but. it's fine? it's okay? #i know there's an 'end game' and i'm still going just to see that but. i would have stopped a long time ago #and part of me still thinks that this 'end game' won't be worth it #idk it's just. for all the negative stuff i saw about the witness (which has a ratio still positive but far less so than baba is you) #which i think genuinely does an amazing job of teaching you how things work and keeping puzzles fresh without jumping too much #i can't help but feel that baba is you does a poor if not sometimes terrible job #i never learned a rule wrong or was confused about what a rule was in the witness #in baba is you? more than once #i know it's not fair to compare these two quite different puzzle games but i really am like. where are all the naysayers for this one? #that imo is genuinely more justified in receiving 'rules unclear' 'leaps in logic too high' 'where's the narrative driving this' criticisms #playing baba is you

[nulltune]

ngl i do not trust the fate canon or fandom with hakuno. i'll try to keep this brief (1/47586)

SVCKSBCJ I'M KIDDING but yeah to me canon to me seems stuck in between treating hakuno as a character of her own but also a self insert even though the entire Point of her character was becoming a person of her own. this is especiaally prominent in later instalments methinks (the way they don't even refer to her by her name "hakuno kishinami" in her character description and just call her "master" or "heroine"....... some crimes cannot be forgiven actually-) so, well, i'll still try to keep up to date on canon hakuno content but i lost hope in it ever feeding me the hakuno content i crave 💔

sO YEAH BASICALLY I DECIDE 2 BE THE CHANGE I WANT 2 SEE IN THE WORLD canon is the blueprint but i'm gonna write hakuno with my own personal interpretation + hcs n_n 💖 i still love the canon content we get, don't get me wrong, but i will most definitely be cherrypicking to my liking! this isn't really a big notice but i just felt like saying it 😳 also if you ever want to interact or just know more about MY interpretation of hakuno, then my blog's got all ya need tbh!! me gently taking your hands away from actual fate canon like haha yes ^_^ so what do u wanna know about this moon girl? also honestly if u wanna know more abt her just message me ❤️ I WOULD BE MOAR THAN HAPPY 2 TALK SLASH RAMBLE

#&&. out of #I KNOWWWW i make it veeery obvious that i'm hc-based but like T_T idk i just feel the need to... give a disclaimer #and my h.akuno's all sorts of separate from canon Maybe she could be considered an oc (WHICH I WOULD BE SO PROUD OF OFC) but like #naur i'm just here hoping to do her justice 😔👏 i love her character sm she is so important 2 meee #i've been looking thru my ref/notes of canon stuff so that's why i've been screeching abt this I LOVE HER SM FRFR 😭😭😭 #definitely making my h.akuno first game based methinks ... maybe post-e.xtra and set a bit after she survives the war #but def not sth like e.xtella Bye 💀 #most of my mutuals aren't very familiar with h.akuno's canon anyway WHICH IS MORE THAN OKAY- i gotchu bbygirls (gender neutral) #i'm working on writing a post of the stuff h.akuno's been thru (but more general and less..... f.ate sgjfhsjf) 2 let u kno <33 #sorry i'm repetitive but i genuinely love her character sm 🥺🥺 the way the events have a clear effect on her personality and u see the way #she learns to understand herself through understanding others and is genuinely such a selfless and kind person despite all she's been thru #but also obviously has a Lot of baggage and a lot of room for development.. she's not perfect but is still trying her best ;__; #I LOVE HER SM U DESERVE SM BETTER BBYGIRLLLL 😭😭😭😭😭 #anyway i'll shut up now sgsckshkfjd #STAN H.AKUNO !!!!!

[tearlessrain]

the 90s kid experience of accidentally booting up Minecraft and having Moves Like Jagger stuck in your head the rest of the night

#idk maybe it's still a thing #do kids to day know about yogscast? #anyway later after d&d I booted up minecraft again but on purpose this time #I just kinda lost interest after the computer crash a few years ago that wiped out my giant city save I worked on for like a year #that shit had lore and everything #so once that was gone it was just like well now what #I'm not gonna do it all again #some of it I can't do again because it was dependent on mo'creatures #I've never found a mod that replaces that one btw they just aren't the same #I miss my bat horse #I've genuinely considered learning to make entities just to have a bat horse again #I also liked the weird alchemy elements #like ngl that mod had hella feature creep but it was all stuff I liked #and I liked the aesthetic #except for the horses which ironically got added to the vanilla game #the horse model bothers me so much #there was this mod back in version 1.7 or something #called 'simply horses' and it had such good designs and multiple breeds #it had wagons you could sleep in #so many great mods have fallen by the wayside