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#I'm getting goddamn tired of living with trauma lemme tell ya
invictus1875
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4 years
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(generic vent. S*lf h*rm mention. trauma mention. swearing)
#I'm getting goddamn tired of living with trauma lemme tell ya
#i was having a good week.
#honestly. for the first time in so so long i was having a good week
#and what triggered this downward spiral?
#my own fucking nightmares
#it's not fair. it's not bloody fair I'm trying so so hard to move past everything and recover and get better
#I'm avoiding things that could trigger me
#engaging in good coping mechanisms
#and yet?
#it's not fair jfc
#it's like every time i start to forget what happened I'm forcefully reminded
#and bitch!!!!! i don't want to be!!! leave me alone!!!!
#it wasn't even the nightmare itself that triggered the spiral honestly
#it was the realisation that I'll never truly be healed until i get therapy
#which i can't. i fucking can't. at least not until im an adult and free to make my own choices.
#I'm so tired of being stuck where i am
#i tried to get out. i tried to un-stick myself from this mess and get better of my own volition. without help.
#surprise surprise!! doesn't work like that
#why am i so badly affected by something that happened so many years ago!!! fuck!!! it's like i just need a reason to feel bad
#maybe I'm overreacting. maybe this is all an act and I'm just trying to get out of studying
#mighty convenient that this comes one week before finals huh!!! mighty convenient indeed.
#''ooooh i didn't do well because my trauma acted up again :(''
#@me I'm onto you. you lil bitch. shut the fuck up.
#i hate myself so much ahahahah
#isn't it easier to just. sit my ass down and read this stuff. than it is to roll around in my own pathetic sadness
#isn't it easier to be productive than it is to be weighed down by a goddamn tornado of negativity and self loathing!!!
#WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF. HOW DO I GET OUT.
#Imgettingdesperate.jpg
#somehow sitting here with a book in my hand and absolutely nothing going into my dumb head is 100x worse than when I'd cry myself to sleep
#I'm tired. TIRED.
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