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thebad-lydrawn-sanses · 3 months

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If Killer has a stuffed friend, I think all the others should have one too *gifts plushies to all the boys*. I hope these at least help you guys feel better while you recover! :)

Nightmare: …cute.

Horror: ah, thank you Background text: 20% off Background text: hfdjk Background text: please pretend i drew- Background text: -food on the shelves

Dust: snrk… it's baby sized. Cross, amused: you're holding it like a child too. Dust: i'm naming xem Bismuth Technetium Hydrogen Dust's shirt: bone hurting juice Cross's shirt: GAY (in the colors of the aromantic flag)

Cross: !

#nightmare sans #horror sans #dust sans #cross sans #injury #<- they're actually scars but they look like injuries #Nightmare looks bored/upset but he just woke up i swear #lil guy is eepy #Horror on a mission all by himself without telling anyone i'm sure nothing will go wrong :D #Dust and Cross are in Killer's room i just didn't feel like drawing the stupid bed #i can't draw raised eyebrows on Cross anymore because of the giant scar nooo #also can you tell i do NOT know how to draw the bottom half of stuffed animals #i just can not and refuse to try tbh #for the record the plushies that Nightmare and Horror got are the same size #i can't tell if the bone hurting juice shirt is funnier on Cross or Dust #queue

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thresholdbb · 2 months

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I need to add buttons and darts, but I feel like I've done pretty good so far

#2024 past tense Jadzia I'm coming for you #I am SO JAZZED #I feel like I can't even claim I don't know what I'm doing anymore #please excuse poor lumpy I decided I needed to go all Kirk on the dress form #I couldn't find thicker stripes but I got the colors #is it wrong to cannabalize buttons from a work shirt cause I don't really work anymore #make bad art or whatever #cosplay updates #but like really I don't know what I'm doing #I didn't have a pattern on this was drafted #I was in bed last night and jumped out to figure out how they sew collars on #wish me luck in terrified of the vest and jacket

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orokay · 10 months

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So idk if I can really articulate the way I'm feeling rn to translate it perfectly, but I want you guys to know how much I truly appreciate everyone who's followed me over the years, who has interacted with me in any way no matter how small, and anyone who has shown up recently. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. It's probably cheesy to say but everyone here has made my life so much brighter and I feel so unbelievably blessed to have been invited into your lives in some way, even if it's just as someone who sometimes shows up on your dash.

I decided to scroll through my tag on here and the way people have supported me over the years though everything really, deeply touched my heart this evening. The people who have drawn fanart for me, the people who have commissioned me, the people who have tagged me in things (I cringe every time bc I feel soooo bad for not seeing them until I look in my tag once in a blue moon, but know I appreciate you trying to include me), the people who tag me when asked who their art inspirations or favorite blogs are (!!!!!!!!!??????), the people who post their art saying that my art inspired them in some way, people who express their excitement when they realize I've followed them (this will never stop being wild to me, what an incredible thing!!!! I'm just me!) everyone. It's absolutely mind boggling to me and I can't stress enough how much it means.

I've had such an incredible time on this site so far and met some of my closest friends here and just.. wow. Thank you so much to all of you, from the very bottom of my heart. I cannot thank you enough for all of your support!! Every little bit of interaction is a blessing to me and I've run out of ways to express that so I'll wrap this up here but yeah!! I hope you all have a lovely evening or whatever time of day it is in your time zone. Know that you've impacted me in a way I can't express and try to give yourselves a little grace, you'll never know how much you've improved the lives of the people around you by just spending a little time in their space ♥

#i wanted to tag a bunch of my friends bc i saw a lot of people i don't interact with much anymore bc of my reclusiveness in recent years #but i was terrified of accidentally leaving people out so if you're wondering if i'm thinking about you then you're exactly who i mean #love love love love love I'm so incredibly fortunate and i can't forget that!!!!#the fact that i've been on here since 2014 and have only received one mean ask that i can think of is insane #i know i've been a bit of a downer lately but overall my hope is that i've created a positive space where people can be happy and feel safe #in some way in any way #and i hope i feel like someone people can talk to (or at.. i know im bad at replying but i do like to read sjkdlfsd)#i've been told that i may come off as intimidating but i truly don't want to be i want people to feel comfortable interacting ^^#ANYWAY gotta go to bed this is embarrassing thanks for listening byeee #dl #not art #i forgot to mention this but also people who use my art for their pfps???????? SPEECHLESS #all of the art in the world and you chose mine it makes my heart so full #also just realized i completely forgot to respond to emails today #if you see this and you're waiting on one I'll reply tomorrow but know I've gotten it!

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in-the-sweet-november-rain · 2 months

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#can someone help me feel something?#its just so hard to fucking keep going you know?#i have 0 purpose exept to be second place and watch other people succeed #no one seems to care anymore that i'm still here #and i basically not even part of my friend group anymore (i never was in the first place they just tolerated me)#like whats the fucking point?#i don't win anything- i'm not good at anything #just middling and mediocre at EVERYTHING!#and i just ant someone to want me #like theres nothing keeping me on this planet #so why stay #i try to feel something- i rly do #but i can't #the knot in my stomach keeps getting tighter and tighter until i eventually push everyone away and break and the cycle repeats #sry to be this depressing on valentines day #but idk anymore... livings hard #and i'd rather not #getting out of bed is so hard knowing no one wants to see you or here you or know you #but i have to #and life goes on #and i'm just swept with the current #because thats all i'll ever amount to <3 #i sound so ungrateful and stupid #but idk somethings obviously wrong with me and i don't know how to stop it #vick's venting again

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fourteenthz · 1 month

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LOVE AND PEACE ON FUCKING PLANET EARTH

#kelly plays ykz #yakuza 0 spoilers #I'm stopping now its like 7am I prefer to believe they are going to have a dinner and plan a trip to Europe and never come back actually #IM SO OBSESSES WITH THEM IT'S MAKING ME SICK IN THE HEAD #i didn't start this game expecting anything other than brother^tm but you know what. IF #they every single one of majima's old boss can say tell this guy has feelings maybe i can too. yeah. YEAH.#OBSESSED SO BAD with chapter 16 first cutscene... he has absolutely NO hesitation in running up to her.#and the second she goes past him he immediately refuses to let her go.#ITS SO INSANE how he has been so lifeless the last chapter and accepting his fate as a pawn for the next one #to show that fucking face he makes while looking at her. ITS SO WEIRD IN A FANTASTIC WAY my man is having too many feelings he can't #she** can't even see it and it KILLS ME bc he is making the world's puppiest eyes at her IM SO AUAAGAHHAHH SLAMMING MY HEAD ON THE TABLE #I NEED THEM. TO BE. SO NORMAL RN. I NEED THEM TO HAVE SUCH NORMAL DINNER RN.#I'm stopping playing bc i'm not sure that's going to happen so enough tears for today but I JUST. REALLY NEED THEM.#TO HAVE DINNER. HOLDING HANDS. AND THAT'S IS. CAN SOMEONE HEAR ME.#she really is like my top3 favorite characters in this damn game I adore this woman to death.#feeling so majima by his sigh in realief as soon as she stopped walking away when she tripped. the way his damn face changes from pained to #'IDEA!' and imediatelly offers to take her out........................... i'm so unwell at this momento.#I thought if they met again I wouldn't be able to trust majima bc he was so set in being a damn pawn in the previous chapter but man.....#the amount of thoughts behind his eye everytime he looked at her. if they end up playing that as him bring in pain #bc he has to win her over im going to kll a guy. there's no way NO WAY U HEARD ME #thry are literally my everything. there is NO way she is going to survive this game and I'm trying sk damn hard to get #used to that idea but it just sucks i love her so much. and thw worst part i have no idea what's up with majima on the other games #is her dying being his villain storie??? his hero redemption? HELL IF I KNOW. IS SHE EVEN DYING FR??#i truly think they could get away wih shipping her to another country. and it would make sense for majima to insist her to go.#but oh I doubt so hard they are giving me anything but pain with my favorite relationships in this game. i really do.#until then..... lying down in bed.... thoughts abt majima soft expression at her.... abt the weight her voice #carries rn.... abt the way he said 'hey' and she said 'you think I'm emotional because I'm hungry again'..... they. are. so.#the way they dont even give a choice to walk faster when she is accompanying majima.#I have such low standards at this point. if they don't at least hold hands again i will cry.#he doesn't need to guide her around anymore so... u see my vision? him asking for her hand bc he wants to... hello?

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feliz-navidad · 4 months

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#have i developed a fear of going to bed?#i do not fear sleep #i just fear the agony of insomnia because that means more time for intrusive thoughts and loneliness #and i want to call my friends and be like 'long distance sleepover lol'#but at the same time #i know i can't ALWAYS do that or expect that from others #but i just.... don't want to spend nights alone anymore #I do read my Bible and practice devotionals and I do have good nights but sometimes it's just.... there are times when things get bad #anyway if any mutuals know how to counteract insomnia without drugs i would really appreciate the advice #part of me is also just begging God to bring me someone who will stay up all night with me #even just once #i don't even really pay attention to the plotline of Big Bang Theory but when mom turned it off tonight and said 'I'm gonna go to bed'#and left me alone in the living room i had to fight the urge to cry #it's just #i needed to say this #i don't expect anyone to message me but please at least keep me in your prayers because this has been going on for months and I don't want #to be silent about it anymore

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horiizonsstuff · 11 months

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guys I don't think I can nae nae anymore. S4 specials pls come out already I can't live like this anymore. I JUST WANT TO SEE MY HUSBAND AGAIN PLEASE 😭🙏‼️

CAN HE JUST SHOW UP IN MY DOORSTEP ALREADY RAAAAAAHHHHHHH,

this is my update that I'm not dead I am simply becoming mentally ill over some bird you don't get TTTE doodles for the month sorry 😔

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running-in-the-dark · 9 months

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I've gotta go to the dentist again tomorrow. I got two fillings done on Thursday but they feel really rough and it's hurting my tongue (plus my brain doesn't stop noticing something like that so I'm constantly aware of it and it's exhausting), so I've got to get that fixed.

this time I have to drive myself, so I can't take any Lorazepam. I'm pretty sure it's gonna be a quick visit anyway, at least this kind of thing has never taken long in the past, so. it should be fine, I know that. but I feel so shitty anyway. it's like the anxiety/fear is there right below the surface but it can't quite come out (probably thanks to the anxiety meds) so I just feel off all day. it sucks (though I much prefer this over the actual anxiety, that completely ruined the days leading up to anything like this).

#plus I've been extremely tired all day so that doesn't help #I should go to bed but I don't want to #then I'll wake up and it'll be tomorrow and I'll have to go there and it'll be scary and I don't want to :(#it's so weird that going to the dentist used to be one of the things that DIDN'T scare me. or at least not any more than just regular #everyday stuff #but now anything medical that involves anything being DONE (so not just a visit to talk about something) is fucking terrifying #i just don't want to struggle anymore. I want to get up every day/most days and just feel alright and for everything to be neutral #everything feels so difficult and like I can't do it and what's the point anyway. if I can't do this at 31 then it's never gonna get better #right? how could it #ugggh #I'm so fucking scared of being done with uni. if I get a job I don't know how I'll cope. I already can't handle life and I don't do #ANYTHING right now 😭#I just wish my brain would shut up #for a little while at least #personal

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imwritesometimes · 4 months

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wouldn't it be funny if I could write again lollollol........