#I'm just so goddamn tired

[chungledown-bimothy]

fuck (and i cannot stress this enough) daylight savings time

#i'm just so goddamn tired

[two-crabs]

covid day 6 update: i went back to work which was mostly fine but i am fucking exhausted after an admittedly pretty chill day.

also my appetite is back which is nice except i couldn't go grocery shopping this weekend so dinner was white rice and girlscout cookies from the freezer.

#i'm on the mend i'm definitely better #i'm just so goddamn tired

[fourdiagnosesinatrenchcoat]

Help help our home health aide is trying to make me put away my emotional support stack of books on my night stand

All I wanted to do today was sleep in or take a nap as it's the first day I get to work from home in ages but forces have conspired against me.

Between the giant condo going up that I can hear through the living room window and the sidewalk repair that's coming in through our bedroom window I'm exhausted and overstimulated

#i'm just so goddamn tired

[thevioletcaptain]

i genuinely don't care how good a piece of ai generated art or writing looks on the surface. i don't care if it emulates brush strokes and metaphor in a way indistinguishable from those created by a person.

it is not the product of thoughtful creation. it offers no insights into the creator's life or viewpoint. it has no connection to a moment in time or a place or an attitude. it has no perspective. it has no value.

it's empty, it's hollow, and it exists only to generate clicks (and by extension, ad revenue.)

it's just another revolting symptom of the disease that is late stage capitalism, and it fucking sucks.

#''but i just want to use it to--'' don't care! it's shit! stop fucking feeding it! #if you need help generating ideas or jumping off points then join an artist or writer group online #talk to people #make connections #that's what art and writing is supposed to be about in the first place #i'm mad as hell etc. #so goddamn sick and tired of seeing ai shit get passed around on here #it's bad enough in general but every time i see more of it showing up #tagged as fan art or as fic #the angrier i get #heartfelt imperfection in art and writing will always ALWAYS be worth more than the most technically ''perfect'' ai generated image or text #fandom problems #ai generation algorithms die in a fire challenge 2k23 #just a heads up that i'm muting this post and will no longer see responses to it #because i'm tired of seeing dogshit takes from jackasses who want to ''debate'' me #there's no debate you're in the wrong on literally every level and you can die mad about it

[lacrimosathedark]

I need the comic book fanfic writers to be made very aware of something:

Roy Harper is the only one to EVER call Jason Todd "Jaybird".

This isn't a family name that he picked up on, or that Roy made and the family has adopted. Roy is literally the only person to call him that. Dick doesn't, Babs doesn't, Bruce doesn't, nobody but Roy does.

The others call him Jay sometimes, in old comics Jace was said a few times (which I actually like and wish people would use literally at all). Bruce has said "Jay, lad" like once and fandom adopted him calling Jason "Jaylad" but that's not horribly egregious so I tolerate it. Dick occasionally calls Jason "little wing". That's about it.

Jaybird is very specifically a Roy Harper thing.

(Honestly yall better appreciate me actually looking back in RHATO 2011 because BOY do I hate this comic. It's not only poorly written, but in my opinion, ugly as fucking sin and I need to burn my retinas now)

That is the first instance of Jason ever being called "Jaybird", and it becomes a lowkey running gag that Roy calls him that and Jason "hates" it.

And then we get this post Heroes In Crisis

This whole thing may have been poorly written because, again, Scott Lobdell sucks, but the intent is to evoke intimacy to make Roy's death hurt. Jason is supposed to have just lost his best friend and was told by Bruce Wayne whose last appearance in his life was beating the shit out of him and, oh yeah, who saved Jason? Roy Fucking Harper.

In addition to the fact that Roy only left Jason to get help for himself. He was supposed to be in rehab/therapy, somewhere safe, and he fucking died because of handwavy Speedforce shenanigans or whatever it's been retconned to now because nobody liked Heroes in Crisis. Roy was supposed to be getting better and he died ostensibly in an accident. Like if that's not the worst fucking bullshit--

This scene of Jason calling himself by what he deems a stupid nickname would mean jack shit if everyone and their goddamn cat called him "Jaybird". But it being a Roy-specific thing makes this scene distinctly about Jason being vulnerable and actively grieving. It's such a cliche trope, and a real coping mechanism, to call a deceased loved one's phone just to hear their voice in their inbox message again. He probably has no thoughts that Roy will ever hear it so this is just for him, but he's letting himself accept this dumb nickname Roy gave him now because it was Roy that gave it to him and Roy is fucking dead.

Like, in fairness it probably frustrates me more because I ship the two and parallel it with Oliver calling Dinah "pretty bird", but like...even as just a cheeky friend nickname, nothing romantic behind it, having everyone else call Jason that feels wrong. Especially his family who he still has so many issues with and, like it or not, he's closer to Roy than literally any of the Bats at this point.

This isn't the only time I've seen the fandom do this (this being giving nicknames between characters that just don't exist); Jason calling Tim "replacement" is absolutely rampant in the fandom and I hate that too because he never calls Tim that, and refers to him as such like once. I have a whole list of actual nicknames and insults these motherfuckers call each other somewhere, but maybe another time.

In short

STOP HAVING EVERYONE CALL HIM JAYBIRD.

Thank you and have a nice day. <3

#DC Comics #Jason Todd #Red Hood #Jaybird #Roy Harper #Arsenal #I am losing my goddamn mind #I'm just so tired #RHATO #Heroes in Crisis

[yukipri]

Good morning.

A very kind follower let me know that my clones art has been stolen and reposted, again. This time on Tiktok.

So here's a new version of my art. It's called: "Apparently putting 'Do Not Repost' on the art 4 times + in my bios of every social + FAQ isn't enough, so how's this?!"

I'm feeling very defeated and exhausted.

I just finished filing a DMCA yesterday. This new art theft version already has more views than every like/note on all versions of my art on all of my socials COMBINED + multiplied. This art was only posted a few days ago. I'm beginning to deeply regret drawing it.

Art thieves getting views and likes does NOTHING for the community. Imagine of those likes/comments/followers had come to me, on any of my socials. Think of how excited I'd be to connect to new folks, how hyped I'd be to draw more.

(how maybe, just maybe, someone official might one day notice and it might lead to more😭)

I don't think I've hit 10K likes on ANY art I've ever posted on Twitter in 8 years, and certainly nowhere near that on Tumblr in a while. That's ok, I understand that's due to my own lack of skills, which is why i work hard daily to improve!

But ART THEFT DOESN'T HELP. This person did NOTHING but stress me out, make me regret sharing my work, and take away valuable time and mental energy from me producing more work. And I promise you, they will not be able to make my art for you.

Don't worry, I'm not just complaining about it. I've filed a DMCA (tho gosh TikTok's form is WEIRD, really hoping it worked🥲)

But please. If you see an art theft account, please don't give them views & likes. Someone else worked hard on that. They could really use your support.

Anyway, here's the link to my art on Tumblr. On my account. Since, y'know, I drew it.

#YukiPri rambles #art theft #idk i'm just so tired and sad and wondering why i worked so hard what's the dang point #yeah this is from my twitter thread bc i'm too exhausted to write it again this ate all my spoons and then some #yeah u may be wondering aren't u used to this why are you complaining #because this art literally went up days ago and i almost died marathon working on it for an entire goddamn week #because i still feel exhausted and then this fucko who did absolutely NOTHING is just like hehe look at how many views i'm getting! #and i am just. yeah. exhausted

[pixlime]

Collecting these like talismans

[Link 1 (As of 9-14-23)- Link 2 ]

#unreal #godot #unity #yeah i'm being a bitter old hag but I'm just so goddamned tired of accessable software #actively fucking over their userbases #in what seem to be a mix of corporate greed and transparent bankruptcy schemes (as my friend pointed out with the unity stuff)

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

Foul Legacy greeting you after a very physically and mentally taxing day. just getting home extremely tired and being scooped up by a pair of sturdy arms, a single crystalline eye staring at you, overjoyed. when you lean against his fluff he knows you're exhausted, chittering quietly and carrying you to your room. it's finally quiet in there, the curtains drawn shut over the windows and the constant noise of the outdoors muffled- in fact, the only thing you can hear is Legacy's soft, constant purring as he sets you down.

you feel the blanket being tugged over your shoulders and wordlessly reach out to grab Foul Legacy's claw, smiling at the surprised chirp he lets out. silently you tug him closer, motioning for him to lay down next to you, and he complies with delight, rumbling contently when you sling an arm over his waist and snuggle closer. you hum, the stress draining from your body as you're finally comfortable- nothing is too hot, too cold, too loud, too bright- you're safe and happy here, with an Abyssal monster beside you.

you lean up to give Legacy a quick peck before settling down for a nap, and just before you drift off, you swear you feel a small lick on your cheek.

#genshin impact #childe #tartaglia #gi ajax #foul legacy #foul legacy childe #genshin tartagalia #genshin childe #genshin tartaglia #genshin x reader #childe x reader #hi!! i'm so goddamn tired #i walked forrrr *counts* like 6 hours #had some very stressful Situations #and then had a good tasting dinner in a very warm and VERY loud restaurant #restaurant: *has the most noises ever* #me just trying to eat my salad: i am trying so hard not to cry #tomorrow i just want to feed birds please just let me feed birds at a park or something #noises!!!! awful!!!! bad!!!! #except moth purring moth purring good #short scenario #wifi's brainrot #good evening :)

[mikakuna]

the way people care more about jason fighting tim than like any other rogue fighting tim during his robin run is...!

"they're brothers! jason is so horrible to attack his little brother."

aside from the obvious twinkification of tim, stop pushing the family narrative on two people who did not see each other as siblings at that moment.

#and also stop seeing tim as a 5 year old #jason fought him to prove a point #sometimes i wish he really did some serious damage to tim just so you guys would have something reasonable to complain about #gosh a 16-17yr old crime fighter who fights people like bane for a living definitely has trauma from a guy two years older than him #fighting him #yes jason todd the kid who was murdered for being robin would definitely go out and kill the next kid who is robin #because yessss his whole point is that he's jealous of the next robin and therefore needs to harm him worse than the joker harmed jason #like please i'm so tired of this discourse #why the fuck would jason- the child murder victim who died as robin and bc of batman taking on a child soldier- want to kill the next robin #you'd think the narrative that jason tried to kill tim would only be in like some fics #but nope! it's in every goddamn batfam fic i've ever read to this day #not even exaggerating #anti tim drake #anti batfam #jason todd #red hood #batman #dc

[pisshandkerchief]

does anyone want a picture of me serving cunt in rocky horror tonight

#had so much fun I actually don't want to quit the show now....I just wish the cast would stop having so much drama I'm goddamned tired

[turtlecleric]

I had this idea, and then it morphed into something that reminded me so much of this blurple symphony au thing that desceros wrote, and now we're here.

There are waves of pleasure pulsing through your entire body like electricity. The pure, uninhibited need that you're experiencing is more intense than you've ever felt in your entire life. Your toes curl. Your thighs shake. Your hips lift, seeking, searching, begging, while you chase your high, and your thoughts are just a repeat of please, please, please. It's almost enough to have you actually cry, until finally, finally, your body shudders as you let go, moaning and writhing-

And then you wake.

You become aware of yourself suddenly, all at once, and it's incredibly disorienting. Phantom touches linger, and for a moment you're not sure what's real. Your whole body is fucking trembling. Your breaths are stuttering in your chest, your mind still clouded and confused, your core still pulsing from whatever the fuck just happened. It takes a moment for you to orient yourself, to understand that you had just been asleep, and now you were awake.

Did you just... did you just orgasm? In your sleep?

That's. That's never happened before.

You swallow thickly and shift, freezing when you realize that Leo is still asleep behind you, his hand limply draped across your waist. You can hear his quiet, slow breaths, can feel the air against the back of your neck when he exhales. You're suddenly very aware of the wetness of your underwear. Of the fact that, if he was awake, he'd be able to smell what happened.

God. That whorish moan - you're honestly not even sure if you'd kept it in or not. Did you dream that? Or had that actually happened? Had you been moving around and making noises in your sleep? Thank God he seems to have slept through it, because you seriously don't think you could handle the embarrassment. Your friendship might never recover, if only because you'd be dead from the absolute mortification.

Minutes later, your heart is still pounding against your ribcage. It's hard to focus. Hard to think straight. So you lie there, waiting until you feel like a person with a functioning brain once more. Waiting for the heat between your legs to dissipate. It takes a while, but you do eventually manage to calm down. You stay in bed, though, because you'd hate to wake Leo by getting up. He really does not get enough fucking rest. You won't deny him the little bit he's getting now.

By the time Leo stirs, it's definitely been long enough that you don't think he would be able to smell anything in the air.

(Thank God.)

He hums, pulling you a bit closer to him. "G'morning, hermosa." The sleepy rasp in his voice makes you smile, and you pat his arm affectionately before finally pulling away and going into the bathroom. He lets out a grumpy mumble about missing your warmth, but once you're out of the bathroom your offer to make breakfast easily has him forgiving you. Despite the... unusual start to the day, you're looking forward to a little more quality time with your best friend.

-

It doesn't occur to you that Leo normally snores when he sleeps, and he'd been quiet that entire time. It doesn't occur to you at all.

#turtlecleric scrolls #rise!leo #absolutely terrified of tagging anyone I'm sorry #mmmmmmmmight delete this actually #we'll see how i feel tomorrow #idk is this disrespectful? i literally cannot tell #blurple symphony au #I'm so goddamn tired I cannot think straight #somno #dub con #non con #(<- just in case)

[stardustedknuckles]

Ugh now that I've accepted I don't want tits I can't quit thinking about them and how they're actively hindering my idea of self expression. But like. Top surgery is for people with a network. On top of needing thousands of dollars, the logistics of taking care of myself or getting someone to help are just. Hmm. Like maybe by the time I'm able to actually get it done I'll have someone who will be okay with dealing with all the aftermath but even I don't want to think about having wounds and recovering for weeks because last time I was doing that it was because I nearly died. The weeks after scare me more than the surgery.

#This is why I pushed away the thought for so long #And just accepted their existence #But goddamn I'm tired of them #Get em off #Oh yeah and the other thing #I am in fact changing #Slowly! #But it's happening. And I'm not going off T after all it's done to help me #So they need to come off before I read as a man and also there are tots #I admire people who can embrace that duality and also I'm not one of them #Sdk does trans stuff

[fourdiagnosesinatrenchcoat]

I was subjected to a conversation yesterday with a young South Asian woman who didn't understand why Roshani Chokshi's Aru Shah series was necessary, since isn't it just Percy Jackson with brown kids, and she's already read PJO.

And I'm like, yes! The marketing worked! It is explicitly meant to be Percy Jackson x Hindu mythology! She did not accept that answer, that there's actually room for multiple stories with overlapping themes and different settings, meant for overlapping groups of readers. Though she admitted she likes romantic comedies and mysteries, and saw no inherent conflict with that fact and her existing literary opinions. Which included that she likes to read to escape.

She also thought that the publishing industry is going to crater in 5 years, which was especially funny to remember later that night when we were watching Wolf (1994) where a publishing house is bought by a quixotic billionaire who fires the editor in chief.

In summary, if you overhear that a retail worker has had a really long week and is especially tired, maybe think twice about forcing your immature opinions about their industry onto them via lengthy conversation.

#I'm just so goddamn tired #i came home from work today and slept for about 3 hours #and I'm still exhausted #if you are not looking to engage but just to lob your opinion at me and ignore my educated responses then stfu

[alyeecoffee]

(Please ignore this, it's just a vent that I want to let out lately)

Sometimes I just want a day where I don't need to work on anything (art, especially) and just to relax myself from all the pressure I've been through...

Lately it's been so tiring.. I'm so sorry for the negativity.. it's just that I feel like I'm not a good artist.. the thing is, I've always tried to make everyone like my hard-work content but in the end there's no use because I don't get many people to like it as much as that cool artist did.. (why can they managed make many people like their art..?)

Like, I had a dream where I can get likes that is equal to my hard-work but no matter what that's impossible, like, 'with too much effort' posts is just the same as 'no effort at all' posts

So, why do I always strive to work something hard if in the end only a few people that really like my art, right..? I'm just tired of trying to be perfect at art.. but I don't want to be lazy at art too.. ugh, it's confusing 😭

#people always tell me that it's a long process and i shouldn't be too impatient #it's not like that #it's just that I've been doing this for a half of year but it seems like my hard work meant nothing much... #I'm tired of working so goddamn hard #why am i always keep on striving for perfection..? it's not like people will like it lmao #Guys...why are you liking this post? 😭 it's just a shitty vent lmao #if i lose many followers in the end that means i deserve it because I'm greedy

[autism-swagger]

I HATE BEING DISABLED!!!!!!!!!!

#I hate the constant doctors appointments and tests and procedures! #I hate all the medication! #I hate using my mobility aids! #I hate being so fucking scared and paranoid when I'm alone that my parents feel like they have to invite me on their anniversary trip! #I hate being unable to reconsume specific media because they remind me of my psychotic episodes! #I hate always being late to school because getting up is so hard! #I hate constantly obsessing over whether or not I'm keeping my movements even! #I hate not knowing what not being in pain feels like! #I hate being so goddamn tired all of the time that I can barely keep my eyes open! #and I just have to make my peace with all because I'm going to be like this for the rest of my life!! #I HATE IT SO FUCKING MUCH!!!!!!!!!!

[dollopheadsandclotpoles]

I'm so tired of people asking me if I want to be set up with someone, or when I'm going to get married, or if I'm seeing anyone, or when I'm going to have kids. Like... it's just fucking constant. Why aren't I fucking enough

#at this stage I'm almost looking for whatever the equivalent of an aroace beard is cause I just really want people to stop #even people I think get it turn around and do this #it's like I get complacent and I think things are fine and it happens again and again #it's worse when it comes from the people I'm closest to #it just feels like I'm not enough by myself the way I am #I need someone else I need a partner i need a child I need to be MORE than I am #i'm so tired #about me #aroace tag #aro stuff #ace stuff #i'm sorry i just needed to vent I feel so fucking isolated right now #it feels like being a goddamn alien sometimes