#I'm looking through the games right now

[egophiliac]

Do yoy like their silly little dance

the inside of my brain at any given moment:

#twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #stage in playful land #stage in playfulland #gif warning #gifs that bop along to your music warning #gidel is SO little #look at him compared to everyone else! #three apples tall! #i could put him in my pocket and still have space to pack him a lunch #this rhythmic is so silly. i love when we get a cutesy upbeat rhythmic right before everything goes straight to shit. #fellow and gidel: (dance around all cutely and throw confetti) #fellow and gidel: anyway now it's time to sell you #just the most adorable little kidnappers 🩷 #so glad they made an official gidel chibi because otherwise i would have tried to and it would not have ended well #i'm trying to do a meleanor right now and she is giving me enough trouble. she doesn't even have any STRIPES. #do you think the riggers got handed the designs for this event with all the stripes and swirlies and patches and patterns #and just had to go stare at a wall for an hour or two #'okay look people are going to see this on a small screen with a rhythm game going on in the foreground' #'nobody is going to take a high-res screen recording and then go through it frame-by-frame to scrutinize our rigging breakdowns' #'what kind of HUGE NERD do you think plays this stupid game' #(shifty eyes)

[fisheito]

If you tracked my eye activity on that bliss promo pic with the tops it would be something like this

Making a major stop at topper

Before crashing into a ditch (yakuya corner)

#i'm having a moment. the only time i'll ever see these two standing next to each other is in a promotional pic for the sfw game version #FOR SERIOUS i was weirded out by this combination of characters in one pic when i first saw it #i was like oh?? they doing a random assortment now? i mean sure! yeah! i guess! spice it up they look great!! #then someone pointed out that this was Tops Only #then showed me the corresponding picture of Bottoms Only #and i felt my eyebrow raise sharply #OOOH.... i didn't even consider... right.... top bottom segregation #(reality does not occur to me. i see them all through switch-coloured lenses and thus ignore information inconvenient to my preference) #then i started thinking more about the . idea of it. that the tops are in a bar's hidden back room with mafia boss dante #and the bottoms are hanging out in the airy beautiful atrium of pure white snow and lilting piano music #tops are like WELCOME TO THE LIONS DEN and bottoms are like HEY COME INTO THE AVIARY AND SIT WITH US 🥰 #i dwelt on the fact that i was weirded out by yakumo in this group #and it made me think about how..... yakumo would be scared of all the other tops #all of them are INTIMIDATION 100 to hiim #so i imagine after you get him to pose for this shot with everyone. and the business is done #yakumo will quickly retreat to the room with the bottoms (where all his friends are) #blade being the adaptable little creature he is will be like OH COOL ARE YOU GOING TO SEE THE OTHERS?? #I WANT TO SEE THE OTHERS TOO!! MORE FRIENDS!! LET'S GO TOGETHER n_n *links arms* *DRAGS everyone else out of the room* #imagining yaku being first ushered into this dark room with kuya dante and quincy #and he's just nervously glancing at topper for reassurance that there's no danger #just trembling and thinking about how he wants his emotional support wolf/vice captain/priest/earring twin senpai #no yakumo. i wanted you to mingle. and you shall mingle #wear matching outfits with your fellow Tops and (topp) until you build trust and reduce their Intimidation Factors #quincy #blade #dante #yakumo #kuya

[prismit]

finally got the binding of isaac like a billion years late lmao

i wasn't really feeling it much at first, like it's fun but Very Confusing, and then i realized "ohh, this is a game where you may need to have 2000 wiki tabs open to really understand. like terraria. i get it now!" and NOW i'm getting into it properly lol

#ghost town... 2! #the binding of isaac #also shoutout to this guide app that lets you scan an item to find it and see what it does #WAY better than scrolling through 2 obscenely long wiki pages looking for “uhhh vague pale blob thing” #anyways this one definitely hasn't overtaken my whole brain like dead cells has but i'm having a good time! #also also i've learned through the analog stick drop that apparently i'm not much better at aiming in this type of game with a mouse lol #so maybe i should give gungeon another try. another roguelike i tried before i understood what a roguelike was #...and to circle back around to me comparing isaac to terraria: #kinda funny that terraria (pretty much the exact opposite of a roguelike) was in a way my introduction to really loving roguelikes #entirely because they announced the dead cells crossover and then i saw dead cells in the playstation plus thing #and went “oh hey i know that from the terraria update that's getting the silksong treatment right now. let me download that quick” #and it irreversibly changed my brain forever!!! (in a good way!!!)

[echthr0s]

oh my god what the fuck is Alan Wake. my fucking god

#(tone indicator: comically exasperated) #(comically frustrated because am still trying to get through two other game LPs on youtube) #(annoyed that i don't have time to delve into this right now) #(annoyed at the nagging feeling that i'm missing out on something) #(still comic i just didn't want to type that word out multiple times bc it already looks funny) (ba dum tss)

[leofrith]

acv hate on my dash and i can't even be mad about it because they make some good points 😶

#like yes it was extremely fucking weird to have us play as a viking with all the violence that entails #while conveniently sidestepping any real consequences for that violence or contending with the results of that violence #because you're too afraid that lingering on it for too long might make your protag look bad #it's like they suddenly decided that their audience is too stupid to deal with moral ambiguity. in the moral ambiguity franchise. #this is once again drifting towards my forever argument that making these games rpgs was a mistake #or rather making these games *half-assed* rpgs was a mistake #and weakens the narrative bc there's never any meaningful follow through for any decisions #including some of the decisions that we the player don't even get to make ourselves #like i think having a set narrative would eliminate a lot of the problems with this game's writing #because they clearly weren't willing to take the rpg elements all the way #also just... make it smaller. there's too many arcs and too many diversions from the main narrative #which while a lot of them admittedly have some fun character moments they probably should not have been required to advance the main story #and with no mission replay or ng+ it's just so prohibitive to replay unless you're like me (deeply mentally ill and in love with eivor) #the point being that dissonance has always bugged me about this game. i could fix her i could fix her i could fix her #anyway. hi i'm gonna go do that ask game now ajdgjhdsf #the nerve pain last night was making it difficult to be on the computer. tbh it also is right now but we soldier on 🫠 #ky posts text #ac.txt

[stop-breaking-my-heart-dragonage]

As much fun as I'm having doing my alternative run of DA2, one thing I really miss about my mage Hawke is his friendship with Merrill.

Those two are best friends and he's 100% supportive in her goals toward the eluvian. Ed has the humorous/charming personality, too, which bounces off super well with Merrill. He doesn't think any less of her for her usage of blood magic; if anything he's impressed by her level of strength and willpower. He's so ready to defend her from the other companions and the clan, and he's absolutely out here attempting to matchmake her and Carver....at least he is in my heart because the game won't let me, it's fine, I'm not bitter about it or anything-

But then my warrior Hawke? She has the diplomatic personality with quite a bit of direct/aggressive thrown in there and she ends up having the same attitude as that one party banter Aveline and Merrill have: "Merrill, you're clearly talented and meant for great things, but you're stupid," and that's so difficult for me to lean into. I'm trying to play Aris differently so she ends up being so condescending to Merrill, like she's trying to gently tell her to give up on the eluvian but it doesn't come off well.

Also if Carver was around, Aris would be the opposite of Ed, she'd look at the suggestion of her brother and Merrill getting together and be like, "No :) I don't think so :) I like Merrill, she's my friend :) but she's not right for Carver."

But I guess it makes sense; if you told him that Bethany would giggle and kick her feet and twirl her hair around Sebastian, Ed would've thrown him in the ocean as a warning. Meanwhile, Aris is like, "A handsome prince that could take my sister away from all of this? Wonderful, we just need to work on his incorrect views on mages, but that shouldn't be a problem :)"

Anyway I miss playing Hawke as the #1 Merrill stan.

#dragon age 2 #da2 #da2 merrill #carver hawke #bethany hawke #sebastian vael #da2 hawke #edgar hawke #aris hawke #listen i'm a little weirdo i like comparing the different ways to play the heroes of da games but especially the different hawkes #i like comparing my own hawkes and i like looking at other peoples hawkes and the different relationship dynamics they bring to the table #kicks my little gremlin brain into gear #like ed always rivals aveline and their relationship is strained at best... meanwhile aris and aveline are ride or die best friends #and seeing aveline from both perspectives is....... well it's an experience i'll just say that sksksks #oh also i miss anders so much sksksk i miss his romance and the dynamic he and ed have #aris rejected him right from the start and while it's neat to see her character through an unromantic lens i still miss him and his bullshi #aris romanced isabela and *that* makes me want to bite nom nom so interesting and heartbreaking in its own way like losing leandra like tha #and then dealing with the qunari bullshit only to find out isabela's part in it before she abandons aris with the book #and then aris reunites with bethany who is bitter and pissed off and can't get away from her fast enough like........ the end of act 2 y'al #aris was *ready* for the arishok fight solely because she needed an outlet for her frustration and grief and agony #she couldn't kick his ass fast enough sksksksks and now she's so Done with everything and then isabela admits that she's in love with her #and it's just................. a lot. it's so much. i can't #anders and isabela's respective romances drive me nuts for very different reasons i love them #this has been another 'cj needs to ramble about [blank]' post #stay tuned for next week where she continues to sob about the hawke twins

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

If Edelgard starts a war on cats it would be a CATastrophe. Bad pun aside, it really speaks volumes when people are so enamored and defensive about their fave that they're willing to say "racism, genocide and terrorism is good actually". Fiction may not affect reality most of the time, but it exposes views that some people share that makes you go "yikes.".

I can't believe I didn't even think of that when I wrote it LOL.

For people missing the context, this ask is in response to a reply I wrote on another post.

When it comes to media, it's one thing if there's nuance to the situation and it's not as direct (is she being brainwashed? Controlled? Forced? Somehow unaware? Shown to be conflicted about her actions/what she says? etc). In her case though that's not present and she means what she says. Even still, liking her as a character is fine.

It's different when people start using real life situations or making outright harmful rhetoric, which is something they do both to lift their favorite up and to vilify her enemies (which is why they have to reach so hard, and farther than their arms actually can reach to make up reasons to hate Dimitri. It's not him, it's the fact that they hate anyone who opposes Edelgard, and if Edegard wants them dead they also want them dead. Unfortunately that also turned into demonizing those with mental illness).

Fiction in and of itself doesn't affect reality or indicate what a person is like irl, but their behavior toward others is no longer fiction. Story wise you could argue it makes an interesting character to have these flaws and villainous traits, but it's another story entirely when people double down to insist their characters' actions are just and they go into detail to force it down people's throats - 99.99% of the time unprompted, when that character actively associates with people who have willingly and intentionally committed genocide and aims to do the same herself by finishing the job.

Which you'd think she wouldn't because... those same people wiped out all her siblings, but okay. Somehow the CoS is worse than them. I guess bc Agarthans are human at the end of the day, so no matter how inhumane and atrocious their actions are, they get a pass as long as there's a non-human in the vicinity. Racism typically goes hand in hand with genocide, so. Yeah.

It's not even just that though - it's how the arguments go that indicates if a person is just trying to defend their favorite. If they start brainlessly spewing harmful rhetoric at real people, and if what they say would actively defend real life issues, it's concerning. It's the manner in which they defend their favorite. If the way they argue is exactly how American-hard-rights defend themselves, it starts becoming uncomfortable for people and no longer applies to just fiction.

If what you argue sounds exactly what irl politics sounds like, that's a pretty powerful indicator of who you're dealing with. It doesn't matter if they are or claim to be American-left (specifying because Random said it's different in Europe!). If their arguing points shit on all the values American-lefts stand for, they are not, whether they like it or not, arguing for the left (which all stans claim to do, and then they start regurgitating American-right political stances, extremely often at the expense and discomfort of actual American-lefts. Might I remind you that one of them, a straight man, used abortion and gay marriage both being legally in jeoprady as a gotcha to argue for Edelgard).

It doesn't matter what you claim you're doing. If your arguments actually start reflecting things that can be real, you need to be careful about how you word it. Houses deals with a political atmosphere very heavily, which shouldn't have really been a problem... but it got too close to real life politics within the fandom and people's true colors started to show.

It should have been "I love Edelgard but damn some of what she does is fucked up" and not trying to vehemently defend every singular word she's ever said. As I've mentioned in my very lengthy "why the writing failed Edelgard", the writing is partly to blame for people being divided on her, but it's the fans' own faults if they can't draw a line between liking her character and supporting things in a way that makes it sound like you'd support them irl.

It's even worse that all that nonsense picked up really badly right around the time Ukraine got invaded and Putin was out there spewing nonsense. It became a sensitive issue to have people defending Edelgard invading other countries proudly with false claims/propaganda, because the arguments fell perfectly to a T in line with what Putin was doing.

Evidently that didn't matter to the people who never touch grass and waste their time and energy only thinking of defending Edelgard instead of just enjoying her character, but then, they don't really even enjoy her character; they just enjoy their made up version of her who fights for what they want her to fight for instead of realizing what she's actually doing. These people would be damn easy bait for irl politics and it shows. Dangerously.

So for anyone arguing about your fictional favorites, remember that context is important and how you treat the topic(s) at hand are just as important. I absolutely adore a villain just like Edelgard because of good writing, and there are points I can actually defend him (if you've been on this blog for more than like a week you prooOOOObably know who I'm referring to AT THIS POINT lmao). That doesn't mean I'm going to call invasion, racism, etc good and just for his better talking points to be achieved.

In my opinion Edelgard ended up poorly written because the writers wanted to be bias in the context of the story but couldn't properly justify the atrocities. I'll be honest, if this is how they handle (main) female villains, I'd rather just not have them. I'd rather go back to the days of Petrine and Hilda who were side villains and allowed to be as disgusting and horrendous as they wanted.

If writing a lead villain who is female won't work because they can't stop pushing their bias into the writing (don't even look at poor Petra, she got SKEWERED in CF and especially in SB) and it reflects poorly, I just don't want it. I know men at the writing table for some wild reason throughout the years have been unable to properly write females (which like, why. Just write human beings. But no, they seem to act like females are a different entity entirely), but if that's going to remain the case, I don't want them to write them in situations like these because they clearly can't handle it. They treat Edelgard as a trophy wife who has to be perfect for them and not as a complex, legitimate person.

Mind you, I also made a post before about how Edelgard is separated from other female villains by being drawn as "attractive". Ishtar gets treated much better than other female villains as well, with Heroes going as far as to outright shit on canon and give her an alt where she "joins the Liberation Army", which... the whole point of her character and her fighting in that war was that she was on the opposite side but wasn't a bad person. I could argue similar things for Burian, but that's more headcanon/literally based on just his death quote lmfao.

Point being, Ishtar is drawn to be attractive. Petrine and Hilda are not, and are outright villainous, terrible, not complex people at all (Hilda is a hypocrite, but she's not complex). Edelgard was drawn to be attractive, and was thus not treated like a villain proper. Unfortunately this got warped into the fandom we know now, but... like we both said, the way they argue for her is pretty telling and honestly pretty scary. Let's not forget that they've spewed death threats at people simply for not liking Edelgard.

No, that last sentence was not a joke nor an exaggeration. In a way it makes sense though, considering they defend genocide, racism, etc.

#DCB Ask #this is why I like to just discuss things with JUST people I know. we have differing opinions in our own circle! #in this fandom tho I have to already know I can debate this game safely and not have to deal with bullshit #I do like talking abt this game (Hopes too) and I do like being able to vent safely when I'm unhappy with certain story beats #talking about/venting about things isn't always looking for discussion but the stans do NOT understand that #and will come after you unwarranted simply for liking Dimtiri. I noticed some of them have been #recently basically going down the line of who follows who. they find other fans through who follows who #so even people like me who just stay in their corner and talk with their mutuals end up with #a stan coming at me bc they couldn't resist going onto my blog and looking at my posts #when my blog content is CLEARLY not aimed at them and they are NOT the target audience for it #and it also sucks that like... I don't rly engage in discourse but it finds some of my mutuals bc of who they follow #so I'm not totally away from seeing it but I'm on the sidelines/not rly involved #if a stan comes at me for no goddamn reason I reply and block and continue on with my day #but sadly having a discussion with mutuals or posting on your blog without tags still gets stans a-knockin' #anyway I have midnight Taco Bell and it's really fucking great #I am a night owl and tonight I am a happy night owl. I have consumed and am continuing to consume Taco Bell I am invincible right now

[barbieaiden]

just casually relaxing in a kiddie pool on the balcony

#real character aiden would do this tbh #i'm looking through my screenshot folder because opening the game/blender right now sounds like torture tbh #but i want to create!! something!!

[avemstella]

Oh yeah, fun update on my writing. Currently writing Furina fic parallel/sequel Neuvillette fic (It starts mid-furina fic with their meeting and then goes past the ending of that). So the thing is, I don't normally write with music on (even non-lyrical stuff tends to distract me) but for some reason I've been writing with Turnabout: The Ace Attorney Musical playing in the background pfft. Which is simultaneously very apt because Fontaine, but also not remotely because I've not been writing any trial stuff yet (well hmmm u could maybe argue it but no). Me jamming out to "It's Gotta Be the Butz!" while writing Neuvillette and Furina losing their minds hahahaha. What a time.

#fic stuff #avem rambling #dedil stuff #The juxtaposition is just endlessly funny to me #I skipped forward to write the ending scene because I really wanted to write it #(considering how dedil ended u can probably assume the tone) #so I'm writing this super emotional scene while listening the the gay lawyers do their gay lawyering #but yes if u are an ace attorney fan who hasn't listened to that musical go listen to it right away its sooooo good (its all on youtube) #I'm finally finishing the aa games at long last #just finished the mainline games and now making my way through the spin offs #also fun fact I did in fact look up how to format a musical title because I'm secretly still a child in an english class #(fun fact if a play is one act u use quotes but any longer u use italics)

[chaosintheavenue]

Fallout 4 peeps- can anyone recommend any good Ghoul PC mods I can get from the in-game mod menu (I'm hopeless at actually modifying files and would almost definitely wreck my game)? Specifically interested in those that 1) look more damaged, for lack of a better term, than the actual FO4 ghoul models, and/or 2) that will let me modify the appearance, change the eyes, etc?

#fallout 4 #my brain's blorbo machine is on a rapid spin cycle if you couldn't guess #right now we're absolutely stuck on ghouls #I'm going to look through it myself later just thought I'd ask around first #last time I asked for eye colour mods I got some amazing suggestions I hadn't been able to find with the in game search

[katierosefun]

how bizarre is it that, in a haze, i sign up for info sessions to an mfa program

#caroline talks #i'm realistically not going to apply. it's way too late for me in the admissions game to apply right now #but am i still going to attend the info sessions and just wistfully daydream about getting published? yeah. maybe. #i don't think an mfa program will fix me. at all. #but will i still attend these info sessions and just be like. wow. i wish i were there instead of where i am right now. yeah. #peering in through the window like a starving victorian child or whatever. which i am btw. #i even looked at the. frickin. application materials. #and nearly started crying bc it's like. something that i would enjoy writing. #and like. whatever. #mfas are notorious for being like. u pay a lot of money and there is very little promise about it paying off #i get it. i do. #but is there a small part of me that's just so. desperately wanting to just write for the rest of my life. yeah. #what if i just broke down the walls and screamed 'please accept me. i need to write or i will go insane.' will that be good enough.

[softpine]

parasocial relationship are a very serious subject, however no one knows brandi softpine like i do 🥰 happy valentine's day

LMAO but you can message me and it won't be parasocial anymore..... food for thought 😌

#is this because of the thing i posted on my personal blog about my parasocial relationships #fjksjds i've never really experienced it until now that i've gotten into smaller gaming youtubers/streamers #when they respond to like every comment you leave it's so hard to convince yourself you're not friends #like what do you meannn we're not friends we talk every day! #(i'm only being half serious right now i obviously know the difference) #anyway sadly my valentine's day sucks ass because i've been sick all month no joke #but we power through... and we look forward to cheap chocolate tomorrow #asks #anonymous #nonsims #brandi answers

[abyssalpriest]

Working with Leviathan be like

Leviathan: *completely both rewrites a severe trauma trigger back into something neutral and freeing, and further reconnects me to the Sky and myself off plane and pre-incarnation in the space of 24 hours* yeah nice, anyway we should play video games now I'm tired

#ramblings // #Emphasis on he works over the span of months but he really is a uh... A pool of water that doesn't drip into your mind until you open the #door. And you think you will be drowned when you do but he is so soothing. And he walks with you #And sometimes what he walks you through is really painful and it's like what the actual fuck am I doing but he stays there like #duh it's what I said would happen it's fine trust me #And you do and then it's like. Holy shit. Look what I walked through. Hope you're proud of me #leviathan // #ramblings // #Anyway. Friendship ended with Despise A Certain Game now Ending Of The Game Where She's Soothed And The Rain Fades is my friend #And. I didn't realise how much I'd become afraid to talk about me. I talk about Leviathan all the time as the sky but I don't.... Like #talking about myself as a part of the day sky and what that means. I have. Thanks to him. Had gateways opened to astral memories #that I was too scared to touch and.... I'm.... I think I'm ready to start recorroborating my info between brains in astral and physical #bodies..... I think..... I'm ready I'm... I am So fucking End Of Game Where Rain Fades right now and that makes me want to fucking bawl my #eyes out because a) I wasn't allowed in the cult I was in to go near that part of the game bc they told me the character there was alive and #she hated my guts and thought I was disgusting. And b) god the storyline involving her is just so so so so so relevant to my life post-cult #:( you know. Just :( #Diary // #The child returns to her mother the cycle is done the rain clears the ocean is infinite the workings of the cult I mean church are undone #And that doesn't scare me anymore? The cult was so.... Had me thinking that any time that game was brought up they were in control of it #and they would see me and it was their game and they made it alone and I could never just enjoy it as a video game.... It #Still hurts a little but leviathan walked me through allowing it to be neutral and admitting that I see myself in it. Because I tried my #hardest to not admit that thinking that if I did they'd be in my head but mo #No* it's... Its a communal thing. It's allowed to be relatable to a wide audience for neutral reasons. I don't have to break down when I see #it. And I'm allowed to talk about the Sky and I'm allowed to talk about where and when I met Leviathan and I'm allowed to not hide what I do #with him because others may take it as gross exaggerations for bragging rights - I'm allowed to be neutral. Just because at one point in my #life I thought astral projection was only for a select few does not mean now that I do it I have to hide it in case someone like me #takes their insecurity so far that they see my neutral declarations as an attack on them............. Anyway #The Day Sky. My beloved. You mean so much to me. I won't forget my purpose in this incarnation I will not hide it #Thanks Lev #I love that arguably calling him Lev is more controversial than calling him Tengri but it's Not just a nickname lmfao

[mortellanarts]

27, 58, and 65 for the fic asks!!

58. What part of the writing process do you enjoy the most? (Brainstorming, outlining, writing, editing, etc) 

Editing my beloved it's my faaavorite I feel it's the part where you can really take a step back to look at what you put on the page and make sure everything is coming along in a way that's effective, where you can breathe and make sure the pieces are fitting properly into place and meaning didn't get lost along the way. What's comforting about fiction to me is things don't happen out of random chance, there's a rhyme and reason even to a tragedy, so I enjoy the part of the process of doing your best to make sure A leads well into B I feel like I'm stitching them together into a picture, one that will look a bit different from what I see in my head if someone else looks at it too

27. What is your most and least favorite part of writing?

Okay so favoritest is editing, now the least favorite? I've said posting is a chore for what I imagine is an annoying amount of times by now... Know the very last point I just made geeking out about editing? I still can't quite manage to not be intimidated by that. I suppose that's not part of the writing process itself but well I don't think I have much of an issue with anything else, I do wish I was better at outlining but what I do works well for my skill level and projects small in scope

65. Tell us about what you’re most looking forward to writing – in your current project, or a future project

Hmmm I could not tell you? As in I also don't know an answer, I've yet to have an idea long-term enough to consider it an actual project and as I said bad at outlining so I mainly kind of write as soon as I get the idea? "Ooh I'm so looking forward to writing that scene" isn't really a thought that occurs to me it's either got a first draft written down or I didn't have the idea yet, and honestly I am the most excited about a school project atm which is bad for me cause as much as it's a fun creative muscle to stretch I find myself too lazy to go to the gym :']

#ask game #thanks for the ask! #hmm what am I looking forward to writing next #I am really looking forward to seeing if I can get that school project to a presentable enough level to show here #it's an original I really did some good brainstorming for so I hope I can see it through #my workload is ridiculous right now that's what I'm thinking might hold it back.... #I mean I shouldn't say workload I'm only a student still but I have so many commitmentsss it a bit too much for my head sometmes..

[wellthisisembarrassing]

scheduling posts so i don’t crash and burn immediately out of college

edit guess what exact thing i did

#drive knight #genos #opm #genos opm #one punch man #i had a whole paragraph written in the tags and then i hit 'post' instead of schedule #you'll never get to hear it now #the gist was that i'm going to look for a stable job and maybe never find an in-industry animation/game job #esp. with how the animation industry is looking right now #because i'm edfinitely someone who values stability over all else #there May be a position i can get at a pastry shop which would be a funnie full circle in my original career options #(my other planned career path was culinary arts but i have major issues with math/numbers so i would have Struggled at a school) #anyway coming in later to say i was already burnt out #i had multiple nghts of heart palpitations and am considering taking Several years before doing any professionally oriented artwork aging #*again #i want to have fun doing my silly little shipping art again and start making other work that isn't work related #anyway i'm still trying to get info about the pastry shop job and maybe another part time position #theoretically i could have almost 30k saved up in 3ish years and that would float me through the strain of finding a studio position

[flecks-of-stardust]

absolutely enchanted with myself for getting to a balcony in a game and having my first thought be ‘wait, can i jump off here?’

#i shouldn't be starting a new game this late into the night #but i just processed Stuff and this game looked dumb and cheery enough to lift my mood a little #so far i've been right #it's called wuppo and it's 90% off right now. allegedly a metroidvania #so like. why not #maybe i'll do another unofficial liveblog of it or something. apparently it has bosses? #wuppo #alright i guess i'm doing this #honestly i do enjoy going through my reactions of playing a game for the first time later on #it's nice to have a log of what i thought