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bluginkgo · 2 months

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Quick announcement (before the diarrhea of information):

I'm gonna go on a semi-hiatus for a week or so. I'll still be around, just not posting any drawings. Need to replenish my energy and drawing reserves cause I'm dead >_<

Sleep behind scenes!

So... Ginkgo why the hell did this take you so long? Sorry, sorry 😅 Here's what happened. I got burned out after like 10 pages (specifically the manor backgrounds killed me, plus having the full gang in the story) and then got sick and was not feeling all that great. Working through the burn out, sick, AND college work on top was quite hard not gonna lie though, but I wanted to finish it ^^

Alright, now as for little unnecessary Easter eggs, I added as nods to the show and my other interests. ^_^

1. Undertale save point. Undertale had me sucked in for a good long while, and for some odd reason decided to re-emerge in a form of the star save. Made it purple for Uzi's effect over N. She made him more rebellious, so he started to question why is it his memories and dreams are strange/corrupted/missing instead of just going with the flow.

2. Ep3 nod. V and N have history, history that I wish we get to see. V was nicer, kinder, in my opinion, prior to the absolute solver going rampage. So it makes sense for them to have some sort of friendship at the VERY least. So I decides to give it a small spin to it too. A direct quote from ep3 ^_^

3. Ep 2 + 5 nod. I kinda pulled the moment when James dismissed N from ep2 together with events that follow after N leaves library in ep5. Chronologically, these events don't fit together, seeing as ep2 is when N first meets Cyn and ep5 is when she's already set up the massacre. But this is exactly what I was going for. N's memories are jumbled at best, so I took liberty in mixing, matching, and editing his memories just as the admin program would probably.

4. Absolute Solver symbols nod. My chats with @absolute-solver (sorry for annoying you with tag 😅) made me realize that the absolute solver ought to have more presence now. It's activated and running systems in the background for Uzi. Whiiiiich means that drawing absolute solver should start now. BUT, it's rudimentary at best. Symbols don't really make sense and are not completed for most of the time. Not until Uzi at least sees the error message in ep2, when she truly starts questioning what that weird symbol on her visor is. I headcanon that N does know or at least feel that the absolute solver symbol is familiar, hence the little comment.

5. Absolute Solver Nori. Why is there so many absolute solver Nori around? I'm certain she went back to normal, just like in pictures Khan showed us in ep4 post core collapse. But I connected the solvers together here. Uzi's absolute solver string is up and running, and because the solver is a hivemind, it'd connect the memories and warp them a little. So that's why Uzi's doodle of her and Nori at the end (and during memory recall) was so full of absolute solver. It's slowly taking root, whether she wants it to or not.

Personal touches/added/cut ideas:

N's tail wrapping around Uzi like a hug. Originally, Uzi was supposed to look more nervous, but not for the reasons you might think. I cut the nervous look to a more upset look so it wouldn't be confused for fear. Uzi's never scared of N (yes, I don't count ep2 either, that was a lot of events at once and very little time to process them). The nervous look was more of a "Why are you butting in?" type, you know? Being a loner makes you cautious, so when N prods at feelings, I figured Uzi would be a bit defensive.

Cyn is fully rendered and yet I glitched her so much I felt bad. So here's full absolute solver Cyn eldrich monster thingy. ^_^

I pulled a Hazbin hotel moment. Did you see it? Abracadabra GONE! All the scraps from first couple pages with NUzi chatting POOFED out of the existence. Did I get lazy and tired? Yes, that was the tell tale sign of burn out, when I stopped keeping track of background details and just kept the pod.

These progress shots show pretty well how the story boarding goes and how I change my mind too easily. 😅 storyboard is still as much of a mess as ever, sketch shows you I was gonna keep Uzi's hat, but decided against it in final product. I figured this. Nori gave Uzi the jacket whenever Uzi got a bigger body + hair. These are the same jacket and hair Uzi has in canon. Uzi's body is just upgraded again and her hair gets shorter in that regard. The jacket would be big on her, and cover her hands, but what's up with the fluff if I draw canon jacket more spiky? And where's the death battery drawing? I headcanon Uzi drew those on once she got into the angsty teenager stage. The jacket is more spiky from wear and tear.

Fun fact! You can sorta tell who's gonna show up in the comic by what memes I post prior. Here's some examples ^_^ Cyn showed up, and that was first practice with maid outfits and Cyn's eldrich form. Closely followed by manor gang, the second/final form of maid and butler outfits and prime practice for those scenes. This example is a bit spoiler for a meme I'm working on right now! I've never drawn Nori before, so I quickly sketched out the idea and continued on with the comic (otherwise, I'd lose my steam and procrastinate on it again). Memes are filler for you guys while I work on the actual projects (comics), and along the way, they give me practice and change in drawing style ^_^

Is it a coincidence that this comic is called Sleep with the release of a certain horror game? Actually, yeah pure coincidence 😅 I had this drafted allll the way back in November, and didn't take particular interest in poppy playtime until I saw lanky boi, which was actually during a stream I watched on release day of the chapter.

(I didn't know tumblr, or at least the phone app, had a tag limit of 30, BOY was I surprised @brookiedaaroacecookie that must have been THE tag city, sorry 😅)

Next comic is Loneliness 1 and 2

This one is split into 2 POVs from both Uzi and N side, thus its 2 separate comics. That one will be more NUzi centered, too, a slight angst and comfort spin to it. That will come... sometime. I have a few more projects I wanna finish up with prior to starting on these guys ^_^

Why are you still reading this? Omg, have a cookie 🍪 you made it. Have a nice day now ^_^

#murder drones #glitch productions #uzi doorman #murder drones fanart #murder drones uzi #murder drones serial designation n #serial designation n #serial designation v #murder drones n #murder drones v #bluginkgo's comics #the absolutesolver #murder drones absolute solver #murder drones cyn

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keylovesstuff · 3 months

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Hiii Everyone!!!

I've been around for years now and have never introduced myself. mainly cause I just choose to vibe and enjoy the posts people share, but first time for everything. You can just call me Key, I'm 24 and I go by she/her. I enjoy a variety of stuff from manwha, manga, anime, video game franchises, and just a bunch of other animated media you name its probably buried down in my blog somewhere. Every now and then I get motivation to create fanfiction. I have only written works the Dragonball and Super Mario fandom All my works are under the "Keep Reading". My DMs and askbox here is always open if you ever want to chat I apologize in advance if I come across as a bit awkward (socializing is not a strong suit of mine) or if it takes me a minute to reply (adulting and hobbies am I right?), otherwise I'm a pretty chill person. Thats about it!

One of these days I really want to change my Penname...But I've had it for years now and I'm way too attached to it lmao.

Super Mario Fics: So a lot of these are Princess Peach centric and I'm just crafting up an origin story and some other events following the 2023 film. The links take you to the tumblr post but I have included the AO3 and FFN (for reading preferences) links either in the original post itself or in the case of my earlier stuff in the reblogs.

Lost And Found

A Learning Opportunity (2 chapters on both AO3 and FFN. They are both on the same post here)

Thoughts Over Tea

Aftermath

Finding The Balance

Little Events (currently 3 chapters)

Chapter 1: The Dark

Chapter 2: A Decision

Chapter 3: The Coronation

Dragonball Fics: The first fandom I have ever written for (and by penname you could probably tell what I read mostly) I have only shared them on FFN and AO3 until now. I was just starting to write fanfiction with the first two so they might be kinda cringe I guess but that's 16 year old me for you haha. gonna embrace the cringe by sharing it on here anyways.

Tournament Day

The Prince Before The Day ( I am never gonna finish that one or go back to it lol)

Bulla's Easter Day

Even when I started making fics I'm still not sure what goes through my mind when it comes to the title or chapter titles its literally the first thing that comes to mind and nothing after that but we will get it one day for sure.

Here's Some WIPs (that's both written and not) you guys can look forward too from me. I'll remove them and add them under the appropriate fic tags once I post them:

Uncle Yamcha fic: It is currently three chapters. The first one is him and Trunks, second is Marron, and the third one is Bra/Bulla. I really want to think of one for him and Goten but nothing has come to my mind. I just think he's more close to Krillin and Bulma where he'd interact more with their kids and I can't think of a scenario for him and Goten or what they would even talk about but maybe something will come. (I've currently sent this off to my Beta for review but lemme know if you guys want to see the un-beta'd version I have on here cause I'm really forward to sharing it)

Untitled EOZ fic following after Goku leaves the Tournament grounds to train Uub. This one sits at about 8k words (not sure exactly cause I added a bunch of notes at the end for my beta to see where my thoughts were going with it all) anyways this one focuses mainly on Trunks, Goten, Marron, Pan, and Bra as really the older kids look forward to what may lie ahead. A lot of it is just me focusing on the dynamics they have with each other. When I saw that dlc for kakorat was going to be focused on that one that really makes me want to share this one. Again let me know if you want to see that.

Based on this Ask here you can already see that I've completed 2 out of my 5 ideas so that leaves the other ones and maybe more if I think of anything else. All of these will probably be added to my Little Events fic. a few little ideas not shared here but I've thought about and have some dialoge in mind but haven't fully created yet.

I want to do something where Mario and Haru interact I just think it'll be so neat.

Maybe something where I do my take on introducing Sarasland and Princess Daisy. Probably along the lines of Peach meeting Daisy for the first time.

I need to hop on the wholesome bros. content at some point and I know I wanna try my hand with Mia and Pio as a part of it.

I think thats it for now...I'll probably add more if I think of something as having somwhere to put it down no matter how small it is can be nice to look at and push me towards getting it done.

#Key Posting #Super Mario #Dragon ball #My official little hello to both the Mario and Dragonball community the people I've met by having these interests have been so amazing #Even though I mostly lurk I love everything about it all can do without some of the negative stuff but we move #anyway I'll see you all around in the tags as usual

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rinadragomir · 1 year

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I fully understand your feelings about not being able to say that you liked Chain of Thorns, even if it’s only a little bit because I feel the same way. People are allowed to have hated the book, dislike the book, feel meh about it, like the book, love the book, or have whatever feelings towards the book that they want, but when it’s gotten to the point where the people who enjoyed the book feel like they can’t say anything, that’s a problem. The people of this fandom are the reason that I stay out of it and don’t come near it. I create my own person bubble, and I am perfectly content there.

Me, I’m personally someone who loved the book, but that’s because I threw out any theories or expectations that I had prior to reading it. Like sure, I had them, but I knew I had to go in with an open mind, just like I do every book I read, whether it’s part of a series or not. Was the book perfect? No, what book is? (The day a book is considered perfect is the day that I win the lottery). For me, however, I was satisfied with it. I couldn’t put it down, and when I can’t put a book down, that tells me that it’s something that I will love the rest of my life. The only expectation that I had of Cassie was for her to give me a book that I enjoyed, and she gave me that. Point blank.

Nonono I'm not afraid to say I loved Chain of Thorns. Like GUYS🤌🏻 if I'll make a post where I'm complimenting this book AND ANY OF YOU DECIDE TO FUCKING SEND HATE?! - YOU'RE FUCKING DEAD🔪 I'm gonna bully you for the rest of my days, you'll regret even thinking about sending hate

The thing is: I don't feel like posting about chot AT ALL🤷🏼‍♀️ I'm trying to make edits, reblog sth interesting I find on my dash sometimes, but I refuse to go through any TSC tags, especially Chain of Thorns (cause someone can make a hate post about for example Lucie and then casually use #tmi #tid #tda. The dander is everywhere)

I thought I was strong enough to make positive content by myself, I know there are people who wanna enjoy a fun Tumblr experience just like me and I really want to give them such an opportunity. But I literally can't find any motivation or strength to start it. The hate wave was just TOO OVERWHELMING.

I was online 24/7 the first week after chot was released and it was the worst post-book online experience in my life😮‍💨 You read sth -> you open Twitter/Tumblr to see people's reaction on this scene -> you see hate. You wanna chat with your moots about certain scene you liked -> you text them -> you see "yes but you know what I hated about it-". And i was going through this for more than a week. I was hoping sth might change. But nothing changed.

It doesn't matter how much you like something, if it's surrounded by SO MUCH HATE DAILY - you simply can't be as excited as you were in the beginning ;-;

People are allowed to express their opinions, react to sth, even if their reaction is posting hate daily for the entire month☝🏻 (but if you think sending hate to the author is okay - there's sth wrong with you, you need professional help). And no one is allowed to stop them, they're not doing anything illegal! But my mistake was that I ALLOWED them to ruin MY exciting experience. So I'm not making the same mistake twice. My choice - to avoid anything that can make me feel bad.

#asks✨#chot #chain of thorns

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sidesteppostinghours · 18 days

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9 and 25 for all of them !! :)

evening gideon!! thank you for the ask :]

9. Do you have a specific lyric or quote which you associate with your OC?

ok. so. the thing about me is that i dont actually listen to music all that often??? its mostly when i draw digitally, and im primarily a traditional artist so i dont really know that many songs. i also have shitty memory so its hard for me to remember quotes. aka this is a pretty hard question for me to answer, but i will try my best:

Caine-"Oh, captain, make up your mind/Before the salt burns your eyes and you run out of time/'Cause you're popping the cork, you get lost in your brain/And you lose touch with all the things that made you feel sane" - Ship in a Bottle (fin)

honestly ive never really associated this song with him before but i looked into the lyrics just to see whether it had anything i could think of them with and theres??? actually a bunch of lyrics there that fit???? like to the point i was struggling to decide which one to use for this. but i think this one, the second chorus, really encapsulates the biggest parts of their character. hes the decision maker out of all my steps, the one that knows how to make the logical choices and think his way out of a problem. but hes on a time limit. he doesn't know when it will end, just that it will at some point, and they cant stop if they want everything done in time. also sight and eyes is something i associate caine with a lot, especially closing your eyes/refusing to see. "you get lost in your brain/and you lose touch with all the things that made you feel sane." COUGHS. coughs. caine has the most gates open out of all my steps. i also fully intend to make them the source of hb 2.0. yeah.

Cyrus- HE WAS THE ONLY ONE I THOUGHT OF AN ANSWER FOR STRAIGHT AWAY AND I SPRINTED TO HIS TAG JUST TO FIND THE POST

look him in the eyes and say this to his face. he will look like he got hit by a freight train.

Cecilia- another quote!

im just gonna go ahead and put my own tags to this one because thats where i put it best:

#thinking about this again with ceci#the best part is the bullet hole#like yeah shes not ready to face the fact that everything shes been doing up till now#was just to distract herself from the absolute misery life became after heartbreak#she has FRIENDS she has people she CARES about and they even seem to like her back!!!!#she even has a girlfriend!#isnt that enough?#tell her thats enough#cecilia rider

theres a reason shes a thrill seeker yall.

Cynthia- "I swear, I'm so fucking sorry/I'm not a good person, I'm barely a person at all/But someday I'll be perfect, and I'll make up for it all" - Against the Kitchen Floor (Will Wood)

uh. *looks at cynthias relationship with ortega* uhhhh. *looks at cynthias relationship with sidestep*. uhhhhhhhh.

this song was also difficult to choose lyrics out of, but there is just something so special about girls who simply have to be the best they can to make up for the sin of being. there is something equally as special about girls who take their past selves as judge, and their lover as executioner. also "im not a good person, im barely a person at all" kills me. the regene flavouring on that line??? utterly insane of mr wood to make a song just for her.

25. What is your favorite thing about your OC?

THESE BITCHES ARE SO CONTRADICTORY!!! THERE IS ALWAYS SOMETHING CLASHING ABOUT THESE FUCKERS AND ITS DELICIOUS. not even just trait wise, but with their themes? their core ideals? their relationships???? its always some sort of fucking fundamental difference shaping the way they act and i am Obsessed with it. also all of them are dangerous and it makes me vibrate a little bit. rangers you are so lucky that none of them are interested in leaning into being a full blown villain. but this question is,,, also difficult to answer because idk how to pick just one favourite lmfao. i will attempt it though.

Caine- he is the normalest guy around. there is also something Deeply Wrong with him. my favourite thing about caine would probably be how fun it is to dive into his psyche! ill often have times where i get bored of them and wonder why i got so interested in the first place, and then i get hit with another round of it and i remember "oh right! its because hes insane." his whole character revolves around what is going on inside their brain, from their high subterfuge to their connection with heartbreak and his relationship with the puppet. theyre the most fun to play with in their mind.

Cyrus- god. my favourite thing about him is a tie between his stubbornness and his surprisingly strong sense of empathy. both of those were the things keeping him from becoming a villain in the first place, and now its whats stopping him from going back to being a hero. i want him to confront what hes become so bad yall dont understand-

Cecilia- cecilia is just. a breath of fresh air. shes easy and super fun to play, and while she certainly has her moments (i am looking directly at the checkpoint three mortum reveal scene), shes mostly lighthearted fun cruising through the game as nothing more than a silly guy. i think the next game will actually dig into her character more deeply and allow me to showcase the parts of her shed usually keep hidden, but for now im having a good time getting her to kiss argent and embarrass her friends.

Cynthia- somebody come pick her up please before she starts crying in this club. she is crying because of me but lets not talk about that. i think my favourite thing about her is the contrast between her general wimpy sad lovergirl disposition and her revenge scar, and how she chooses to cope with it! because like,,,, it is just so so tasty watching her fumble with the overwhelming emotion, Especially since the emotion is hurting people. she never learned what to do with the anger! she does not want it! she wants to be as kind to other people as possible! "im not a bad dog, i dont know why i bite" etc etc. eventually she might figure it out, but Definitely Not Now lmfao.

questions from here!

#theres a bunch of songs that have the characters vibesTM but picking individual lyrics was so hard #tbh i shouldnt have been surprised that ship in a bottle fits for caine #because i usually associate the song with chen so 💀#“rangers you are so lucky that none of them are interested in leaning into being a full blown villain”#< LISTEN. i know this sounds like bullshit considering everything about cyrus. but i swear to you he could be so much worse #he acts like a villain because he thinks its the most effective way to go through with his plans #and his general lack of care for the things he does helps facilitate it #seperating himself from sidestep is also a bonus. I PROMISE YOU hes actually more indifferent about villainy than he comes across #THIS TOOK ENTIRELY TOO LONG TO ANSWER IM SORRY #I LITERALLY STARTED THIS LAST NIGHT AND ITS AFTERNOON NOW #thank you for the ask though!!#caine lynzal #cyrus becker #cecilia rider #cynthia garcia #sidestep #fhr #pulp answers #ask game

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lgbtlunaverse · 10 months

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Ok I have such visceral feelings about Xiyao and rarely see the specific aspect explored that I want in depictions of them but. I haven't been able to articulate why that is or what I'm looking for till now and it was bugging me. and your tags on the JGY kinnie post articulated it perfectly so. Thank

Well!! Ksdjdjskan I'm glad that my history of lying to my family, friends, and therapist has contributed to both our media analysis capabilities!! (Well when i say it like that it sounds stupid but I MEAN it)

I'm gonna use this ask as an excuse to go into a bit more detail on exactly that subject, cause I have been thinking about this a lot. I notice that anytime people go into the elements of xiyao that aren't exactly healthy, most of the focus is placed on lan xichen as the wronged party (and yeah he's the one being lied to! It makes sense) but in a strange sort of twisted parrallel to jgy and qin su's relationship, xichen is probably the one having an overall better time in the xiyao relationship right up until the reveal at the end!

To qin su, she had a loving if not physically passionate marriage with a son who died tragically young but was still wonderful and loved. Xichen had a sworn bortherhood where jgy and he could lean on each other and be honest with each other even when they couldn't be with anyone else, and despite any trouble with nie mingjue they mourned him together, carried each other through his death, and take care of his little brother in his memory.

Jin guangyao, meanwhile, has to keep up the act at all times. Somewhere in between getting taken in by his father and killing nie mingjue xichen stops being the one who will stand by his side no matter what and becomes... another person he has to act in front of. This doesn't actually change the fact that Xichen is his favourite person. That the act he is putting on for Xichen is likely the person he sincerely wants to be and strives to be as close to as he can. Jgy has put on masks all his life but this is the one he wishes was his actual face.

(Side tangent: Jgy genuinely wants to be good and help people. I believe this fully. Yes he wants to keep himself alive at all costs and will do horrible things to ensure his own safety but that doesn't mean he likes doing them or that he thinks they're justified. "Not having any better options" and "doing the right thing" are, in fact, not the same. I think jgy sincerely wishes he hadn't done any of his worst crimes and feels guilty, even while fully believing he had to do them.)

Side tangent over. You can lie to someone and love them. Sometimes the fact that you love them makes it harder to be honest. Because their opinion of you matters so much, them hating you or looking down on you is worse than anyone else doing so. Can you really handle dissapointing this person? Can you? There are a lot of people Jin guangyao lies to out of pure self preservation. I think Lan Xichen is one of the only ones where his primary motive for lying isn't just the physical consequences of what would happen if he gets found out, but also the emotional ones.

Cw for discussion of suicide this next paragraph.

So. I've been struggling with suicidal feelings basically since i was a young teenager and every single serious attempt or consideration, ever, has been in relation to a lie i've been telling (usually to my family) and it getting increasingly harder to keep quiet and increasingly more harmful to drag out. It feels so horrible that I have, on multiple occasions, considered killing myself to get out of it.

Now, jgy is a lot more dedicated to staying alive than I am. But that doesn't mean the actual feeling of it is any different to him, it's just that he doesn't see dying as a solution to problems like I do sometimes. I can say with experience. That loving someone and being around them pretending to be the person you actually wish you were but know you can't be is fucking torture. At any random moment a voice in the back of your head can and will pop up and remind you that this is fake. They wouldn't love you like this if they knew. And the longer you keep it a secret the worse their reaction will be. You'll manage to forget and let yourself be happy around them because they make you happy and the moment you remember you will feel guilt for that happiness. You're not just bad for lying, you are worse for daring to enjoy this person loving you on false pretenses.

And the fact that for jgy all this is just a repeat of shit everyone else has been saying about him for no good reason for literally his entire life? That he doesn't deserve to be here, that the people around him are too good for him. Oh. No. Yeah. Like I said in those tags. Nightmare scenario. (And then to be killed by this person for a thing you didn't actually do? Because you have fallen so low in their eyes that everything is fair game now? Fuck. Fuck. Xiyao make me want to go chew on glass.)

#cw suicide #to tag or not to tag that is the question #you know what i am making up a personal tag right the fuck now because I do not need this in the searches for the ship but it's important #rs: i wish it could've been you

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delusion-of-negation · 2 years

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I kinda resonance with your positivity post a bit. I don’t have anything chronic or terminal physically, but I do have pretty bad depression at times due to cptsd and other trauma. Fun stuff. The usual positivity stuff on me doesn’t work at all ‘cause it’s like…WHEN is it gonna get better? It’s been 20 years and getting worse as I rediscover stuff. Sometimes I don’t even want a “better”, I just want someone to understand my pain. (Sorry for the ramble or if it’s off topic from what you meant)

depression and cptsd are both chronic health issues, and my post wasn't just limited to physical health, nor do I think the two are the totally separate categories that some people make them out to be.

these are amongst many valid reasons to not vibe with the kinds of positivity posts that I was talking about, and there's absolutely no reason to feel like your ask is off topic or to apologise. it absolutely sucks to see those posts and know your situation has not improved in so long, and doubt (rightly or wrongly) that it can or will, and I'm not the kind of person who's going to tell you "it will definitely get better!" because I have no way of knowing that, and I don't know what you are going through at all. I can't say I fully understand your pain for the same reason, but I have cptsd and a lot of trauma, so I at least get part of it, if that helps at all, and I do get your feel with those posts for a myriad of reasons of my own. there are so many levels I don't vibe with them on, and it's been really reassuring to see that a lot of other people don't think I'm being whiny about this.

re (there's a few threads, I'll just link one)

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12timetraveler · 1 year

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I posted 5,111 times in 2022

That's 484 more posts than 2021!

676 posts created (13%)

4,435 posts reblogged (87%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@12timetraveler

@manicmarsupial

@jjack-ass

@gitli

@amorgansgal

I tagged 1,051 of my posts in 2022

#hosea fucks friday - 320 posts

#mj rambles - 81 posts

#asks - 46 posts

#wip - 37 posts

#personal - 33 posts

#hosea matthews - 32 posts

#hosea mathews - 30 posts

#rdr2 - 30 posts

#husband - 25 posts

#writing - 21 posts

Longest Tag: 96 characters

#what i wouldnt give to have a month off with no responsibilities except writing as much as i can

My Top Posts in 2022:

This is Buell. She's a former companion of Branwyn, another piggy I adopted a few months back. Buell was missing her friend so the previous owner asked if we could adopt Buell as well.

Buell is very spicy to the other piggies right now but she is very snuggly with humans. She actually lay down in croissant shape on my chest which no other piggy has ever done so fully. She's gonna be an interesting addition to the gang lol.

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Some Charles from my current playthrough

See the full post

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Found this super cute picrew

This actually looks q fair bit like me which is kinda cool. Obviously not exact but closer than a lot of picrews get.

I'm bored so tag game! I'm going to tag @ttuesday @tecker @raspberryfingers @scroogemcduck91 and anyone else who wants to do it.

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Writing is hard yall

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My #1 post of 2022

So has anyone else studied the route Hosea takes Arthur on to get to O'Creigh's Run to hunt the bear?

Cause like... Even going to Valentine "on the way, sort of" he took quite the scenic route to get them there.

Maybe he wanted to spend more time with his son?

353 notes - Posted January 3, 2022

Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review

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mythicaldemigoddess-of-deltarune · 2 months

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I'm Working On A Magic Spell For Vacation/Escape Uses...Because Of Toxic-Masculinity

[Note: Reading This Is Optional, meaning no one has to read it if they don't want to and one of the tags for this post is "not for kids" so yeah there is that...and this will be talking about a type of Magic Spell I'm working on, even if it might take some time to fully finish...also this will be for Mature Audience Readers Only. this will at some point get a bit off topic and even talk about Incubus Encounters...]

first I want to say that I ended up sleeping for hours, yeah I knew that was possible, that I would fall asleep, but I didn't wake back up until I guess somewhere around 10 Pm...

anyway I will get to work on editing/fixing my posts from a few days ago, and I will post some fan-art after this as well.

anyway there was a spell I have been trying to use that was by someone else, but it just seems to not be working right away for me.

like one of the ways for it to work is that you have to sleep once one of the side effects shows and it needs to be night...

and some days ago when I did try the spell again, I had trouble getting to sleep, and yeah I had tried to do the spell again during that time.

and it is possible that the spell does work, but having the TV on while I sleep, may interrupt the intended place I wish to go to...

so I'm trying to work on my own Magic Spell that will be kind of like that one, but it will be different as well.

one of the reasons it will be different, is that it will have both English and Runic Alphabet on it.

writing the English part first and then writing it in Runic at the bottom, and then under that write the next part of the spell in English and then translate that half in Runic on the bottom of that...

well by the next page of the paper in some cases, I had to have more than one paper and staple them together.

but I hope to finish it before I run out or else I may have to unstable it and add a bit more paper.

and even though I can't really read Runic, I had to look up the Alphabet for it and what English part of the Alphabet that is suppose to be their counterpart...

I figured that if I write the spell I want in English and then write the Runic on the same papers, the spell may 100% work.

like even if I can't read Runic, my saying the spell in English should Translate onto the Runic and Vice-versa.

I will need to, perhaps program the spell for a certain way, like if it does let you Astral Travel to different Fictional Worlds, then my plan is to only go to Clone Timeline versions, just in case.

and yeah not everyone has to believe in such a spell, but I'm still gonna try to write my own version.

the spell is called "Transport To Any Fictional Reality Spell"

and the spell I have been trying to use that is by a Youtuber named Wolf Girl, and it can be possible that the spell that they made works for others even if at first few days it doesn't but then at some point it does.

and well the spell I have been trying to use is called "Transport To a Fictional World Spell"

I even wrote down the side effects just in case.

but I think I'm having trouble trying to get it to fully work, maybe because at times my mind wonders to different thoughts as I sleep, and I think it may have only half-worked but it ends up sending me to the wrong place or like not fully there...

cause there was the whole seeing some form of Popeye and Jetsons, even though I wasn't watch them and well the sound of what is on TV can enter into your dreams or like Astral Dream Space, and let you see the characters from that show, even if it is just one or a few of them.

maybe some time I will try to do their version of the spell again, but maybe if the whole runic thing works, I can try my best to re-write the spell on paper and add the runic translation below the english version.

and maybe once the spell I'm working on is finished, I may show it on here....maybe, but it is more of a personalized spell...

I even had to add my Dream Catchers into the mix, the one outside my door and the one currently in my room that isn't the bad energy one that I'm keeping as far away from me as possible and in one of those zip bags and I had threw maybe a lot of food salt in their with it.

cause once again I had to pray while holding the salt in my hands and then throw it in that bag that has the bad dream-catcher in it.

it was thanks to that third close call dream, that I decided to try to get a new one for in my room.

I should of known right away there was something wrong with it, and even if it is normal for me to see weird stuff when I dream...

plus the dream-catcher on my door should of kept that THING out and not let it through, so my guess is that the bad dream-catcher somehow open the barrier that is suppose to be around the room even on the windows, ceiling, floors and even the door.

cause like I said before, I had to claw at the eyes that time in the third close call, which was different from the first two close calls, where in the first one I understood what was going on and didn't go into the room and it was thanks to me becoming self-aware and understanding I had somehow dream-walked and lucky the dream changed, and when that second close call happen, maybe because I had took the dream-catcher down from in my room (which I am now using again but for on my bedroom door and it being outside the room.) I had to run and like I said, I was being protected by some old man who I can't remember the face of and there being a woman with long white hair and pale skin I didn't see the face of...

I know in that second close call dream, I was trying to find my Mom but I couldn't find her even though I ran out of the house and pass that old man who I believe played a part with that woman in protecting me.

one of the few reasons I wear my gem bracelets all the time, and only take them off when I need to, and well I had to wear less now and then there was that whole needing to re-do the program of them keeping me from moving something I hold by my fingers with my mind like my pendulum, and the program only broke that time because one of my bracelets were becoming too snug so I had to take it off, but then that thing started to happen again, and so I had to re-do it and make sure to pray to both the Heavenly Father and Earthly Mother for the gem bracelets to still work how I wanted them to, even if I have them off for long periods of time, like either all of them or one of them.

I don't mind if it's just necklaces that I hold, that either has a gem on it or it being a locket that moves like my pendulum, that is less freaky than the other stuff...

so yeah, I use my gem bracelets as sealing charms and limiters.

I think using the pendulum may have unlocked something, and yeah like I said before, the first time I held one it started to go all crazy and I wasn't even trying to make it move and I ended up putting it away for a long while after that first happen.

I did decide a few days ago, to tell my Mom about my ability and she was surprisingly understanding, I had to show it in a way by taking off my gem bracelets and then holding something by my fingers and telling it to move in a certain way like I would do with a pendulum.

but we know we can't really tell certain people in our family, because of how they are...

I mean this ability I had unknowingly unlocked is a part of me and I can't change that, it is possibly a part of both my blood and my soul.

I'm not sure if I can tell my family about the whole Aroaceflux thing, and yeah for me I can be both Aroaceflux and Fictoromantic.

I still think it could be possible that I may have been Demiromantic before, possibly...I know I fell for the wrong guys before, but I have no interest in trying to get another boyfriend even if the said boyfriends were guys I never really met in real life and were only online, and well the guys from the last place I use to live, never really showed a interest in me, even the ones I had a crush on before.

it is possible I wasn't always Aroaceflux but maybe I was a Demiromantic before, well some type of it...

anyway, if I did try to tell my family about my being Aroaceflux, I would have to explain to them as best as I can about it.

and for all I know, if I was always Aroaceflux, and didn't get to fully realize it until now, might be from the whole being around certain energies that made me feel a certain way at times and if I want to feel that way, I rather it be of my own accord and not because it is energy that is flying around the house and ends up coming into my personal space.

oh yeah, and the other reason I had started to wear gem bracelets when I sleep, has to do with Incubus.

I still think what I had experience was a Incubus, who even if they only got to touch me only for a split minute or second, it was enough to scare me awake.

and well I do use angel shaped gems for protection as well.

I wonder if certain types of Earth Angels are like catnip to them or something...?

I know it was dark and I know I was in between sleeping and awake, or like being self-aware, and even if I didn't see them but felt them, it was enough to scare me awake.

I'm not sure if the whole using gem for protection against some Incubus and succubus would work for everyone...

plus there is that whole possibility of my being a quarter succubus, but not working the same way, because I believe certain toxic-lust energies could place me in a trance and will make me dream-walk to where it is, which is why I need to protect myself.

I know I'm a Defective Earth Angel, and I don't work 100% the same as other Earth Angels, so I don't know if there are some who had to protect themselves by using gems as well.

I might not exactly be a quarter succubus, but more like something that a succubus use to be before becoming one, and I might be a hybrid version of it along with being a Earth Angel.

so yeah, possibly catnip to Incubus, but not everyone has to agree...

at least I'm trying to protect myself from both Incubus and human men's dangerous energies....and the men, being those who I know who need to control their lust energy and are the reason I have to have the dream-catchers both close to my bed and the on my door.

and for all I know, when half the time when certain energies would cause my seizures, that was caused by both people and a place, but has stop since we moved to the town we live at now...

and well it could be possible that the other half of the time, like at some point my body may have started to feed on well the energy I'm trying to protect myself from, it is like a toxic type that can be harmful, and it could be one of the reasons I would feel a certain way at times and there was a point where I really hated it because it felt like it was happening way too much and well lucky for me there was the whole being able to have my gem bracelets protect me from it and have them work for their multi-purpose use...

if I do feed on some energies, I rather it be some form of positive energies, like love and some form of joy, something that isn't as harmful as toxic-lust energy that someone in the house I live in, has been letting fly around and go into my personal space.

and yeah, you can still have your V-Card and still pick up those energies, it is like a flower with some sunlight, even if you are a bit away from the said person that is giving off the dangerous toxic energy, you can still pick it up if the energy is flying around and ends up in the room your in.

and the said person is also the one who ends up in those three close call dreams, well their energy taking the form of them and may not truly be them, but a copy that is formed from their toxic-lust energy.

they did try to move out before, which I was happy for, and I think I would of thought what happen the first time with that first close call dream was just a dream, but then it turn out they had some naughty books or dvds in their room that I didn't really see, but heard from someone else in my family, I can't remember if it was books or dvds, but I know they might use them way too much and give off too much toxic-lust energy that is harmful for my personal space when I sleep.

so that whole them having some naughty stuff in their room that they possibly use way too much and not giving a break, is the reason I need to protect myself from their toxic-lust energy...

so not only I have to protect myself from Incubus, but also Humans who are possibly mostly men, from their toxic-lust energy that ends up flying around the house and air, and if I do go to a place that has some humans giving off those type of toxic-lust energy, I'm making sure to keep my gem bracelets on and not to get too close to them.

anyway back to the topic of magic spells, I'm trying my best to work on the spell I'm working on for a type of Astral Travel, like even when my body is sleeping, my Astral-Body will go to where I want to go.

but I need to have the spell be program so it works with my dream-catchers (save for the bad one, that isn't part of the spell and I have to keep far away from me as possible...) and some can think it's silly and not believe it, it's okay...

but my reason to try to use a form of escape type vacation through Astral Travel, has to do with how the Masculine Energy is...

and if it works how I want, 9 months passing in the other world will be only 3 hours here, and I should make sure to eat enough of food when I sleep, and well have it be program on certain emergency even before the whole 3 hours in this world and 9 months in the other world are up, but maybe I wont have to worry about that...

Toxic-Religious people like that guy that peeved me off some hours ago, is one of the reasons I'm trying to go on a type of escape vacation...

and if that guy even bothered to watch the full episode of Hazbin Hotel, he would know that Princess Charlie is trying to redeem and help sinners.

and yeah I did try to skip that Toxic-Religious guy's video by some part of his video but I didn't watch the full video, and I'm glad I didn't.

Toxic-Religious people like that guy, and the one that had emotionally hurt me for believing in a Goddess now too, is one of the reasons I'm trying to get the frag out of here for some much needed healing vacation, even if it is for only once in a while and I can still do the other ways to take my mind off of people like that.

like watching a show or movie I like, reading some books I have and even some fan fics and even playing video games.

but I also want to use Astral Travel as another way as well, I can still enjoy watching some show or movie I like as well as reading the stuff I like to read and even playing video games because well that is something I enjoy.

another good reason to try this type of Astral Travel Spell, is to get away from Toxic-Satanist as well, who will of course be added to the whole Toxic-Religious ones, and I shouldn't be made to forgive the ones from my past life that had hurt me and are lucky I don't have much memory from that time and some past life memories come out as bits and pieces, but if those Toxic-Satanist were still alive even if they are from a past life that came before that one past life that is a bit closer to me that involves a hospital and my forgetting about it at some point but starting to remember it and had put the memory into a idea of a OC but then I put it on a different OC and well, I know I did post about it over at deviantart before, when I'm able to I will log back on there. but I'm still able to check out some stuff on there some days ago while not being log-in...I can look at art over there whenever even when I'm not log-in at the moment, but I will log-in when I feel ready to.

and anyway, I wonder if I would go Feral Earth Angel on some Toxic-Satanist, even if some people are Satanist, some of them do NOT cross a line that does harm and taints the soul of a innocent.

also even if Hazbin Hotel doesn't really have a type of religion that is 100% like the ones from real life, but any religion that is in the show would be a Ficto-Religion, and Toxic-Religious jerks like that guy needs to accept that.

if Charlie and Emily were real, I think I would be like that woman with that dog that became a meme and has fictional characters from a show or movie be used for it...

"I haven't known Emily for very long and only known Charlie for a few years....but if anything were to happen to both of them, I would go Feral Earth Angel Princess on EVERY one in this room....and then on Lute..."

normally it's "then myself" but there can be slight differences to that meme at times, and that meme came from some episode of some show I forgot the name of.

I know there was this one time I did kind of had went Feral because some jerk was picking on one of my cousins, and I had to be held back from going over to where they were at.

I never really got into a fight in real life before that involved punching and kicking someone, and well it could be tempting if they either mess with my family or even my food...

there was a time some stupid girls were taking their cat fight in a lunch room, and they knocked my food off and I was lucky to move out of the way...I should of grab them by their stupid selfish hair...

I only left that cafeteria mad and I think I looked back glaring, like possibly one of those glares that shows that your really peeved.

if some people are gonna do a fight, do NOT take it in a place where people are trying to eat.

I'm going to try my best with the spell I'm working on, so I can fully get out of this world even if it is only temporary and my time in another world will just be for 9 months in the worlds I choose to go to, while it will only be 3 hours here in this world.

and I believe by using runic letters with the english letters, could make the spell in theory work a bit more better for me.

and well hopefully I can finish the spell soon, so I can finally use it.

anyway it's okay not everyone believes in Magic, or by it's other spelling Magick...

but doing this is important for me, because some Masculine ones are doing Toxic-Masculine things that hurts the healing process for this world and there is the whole already fragile state between the Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine energies.

yeah it's good that the Divine Feminine had gotten better over the centuries, but it could be possible that energy is still going through healing and recovery.

and I refuse to let some Male-Angels who are influenced by Toxic-Masculine energy to cross a line they shouldn't, and I want to try to be a Knight and Shield, and hopefully some other Earth Angels realize this too...

and right now I'm listening to the song "Stronger Than You" Parody version that is suppose to be sang by Rose Quartz, Steven's Mom.

that parody version is by someone called Rachel Michelle.

the song matches the feelings and thoughts about the Toxic-Masculine.

even if my soul being born was a accident but it was allowed to be born...

I still want to live and want things to get better, and one of the things that need to change is the domestic abuse on the feminine side.

yeah the Toxic-Feminine is still a problem, but it isn't as high or as dangerous as it's Masculine counterpart.

and no matter which Angel is suppose to be Grunkle-Grandpa Cain's Dad...they aren't the boss of this Evengingstar Princess/Earth Angel Princess.

if some who are also descendants of both Cain and Seth, they might understand the whole calling them both Grunkle-Grandpas.

Adam can still be considered Cain's true dad, even if not by blood but sometimes your true parent wont always be the biological ones.

Rose and Sharon from that Silent Hill Movie is proof of that.

and I hope there will truly be a third movie based off the video game.

Adam and Eve should of been better parents to Cain and Abel...

be there for Cain when he was going through a very bad depression that would reach a dangerous breaking point...

and stop Abel from misusing animals, he should not be allowed to be close to or place his hand on fluffy-babies.

and if it were possible, I would give Abel the cold hands to face punishment as well, and also maybe on Cain as well.

Lucifer is still on that list, for the cold hands to face punishment.

Adam and those Three Angels that broke Lilith past a very bad breaking point, and couldn't respect her space when she needed it.

those four should also get the cold hands to face punishment.

I might not go by Christian anymore and go by Neo-Spiritual, and well I can believe that Lilith was real and that she was Adam's first wife before Eve, and that stuff happening may have happen before the different type of factions of religions we have in today's modern world.

and yeah even if Adam got better over time, even being a Gray-Parent along with Eve. it still doesn't excuse him for the harm he played a part of along with those Three Angels who tried to make Lilith return to Adam, that is NOT love or respect for someone.

the Three Angels that are suppose to protect, are in a way could be redeeming themselves, but it still wont change the charm they played a part in.

the Patriarchy being made to seem more important than the Matriarchy, doesn't help at all and yeah ya can't really change the mind of some humans who believe the Patriarchy is more important and the whole imbalance may play a part in that.

I hope the spell I'm working on can help a lot, and maybe I can try do do a type of healing spells that can help whenever I have one of my feeling a bit down days, which lucky I'm not feeling right now.

guess having a depression in 2015 and then on 2016, can be a bit harmful to one's emotional core.

I believe that second depression I had that lasted a bit longer than the one from 2015, may have been on 2016 and I think it lasted until December 2017 I think....of course at some point some months later I think it was around 2018 I got sick, I think that was the year I got sick and was throwing up and when I was getting a bit better from being sick, my first cat was....you know, slowly leaving us.

I think it could be possible they had the same thing my second cat had before, but lucky for my second cat, they were taken to the vet on time and they are back to their sweet fluffy-baby self.

and yeah, my thoughts if they my second cat wasn't taken to the vet on time or if anything went wrong while they were at the vet...

I would do a Omnigeddon, even if it was just a thought and might not be possible....but I would freeze the 5th Heaven and The Wrath Ring if anything bad happen to my precious fluffy baby that is my second cat before it is truly their time, and I want them to live a very VERY long time.

and if I did one day but not too soon, became a Mom well a Nonbinary-Gal one that goes by She/Her & They/Them still...

and if anyone tries to do some form of harm to my earth angel baby, I think I would still want to freeze the 5th Heaven and The Wrath Ring, and I have reasons to pick those two pacifically.

anyway I can still do stuff to calm the times when I get peeved off, like getting really mad.

like one of them being to talk about it, but that doesn't mean I will talk about everything, other ways can be to listen to music and maybe watch a show or movie I like and if I want to, do some reading.

and drawing can be a good way I guess, and writing as well.

anyway there is some magic spells I wouldn't want to mess with, some that might not be a good idea, but I think my using the spell I'm trying to work on and adding runic into it, might be a good thing.

and maybe I can try to write a type of healing spell and maybe a protective barrier spell that will also have both the English and Runic Translations on them.

I'm lucky that freaky thing that has been happening with the Radio only happens once in a while, but it still reminds me a bit of Alastor from Hazbin Hotel. XD

at least it isn't 100% like his power over the Radio, thank goodness.

anyway since I took that long nap, and well I have been writing this for a few hours and it has become tomorrow now...

I will still stayed log-in and check out some fan-art and also post some fan-art of my own and even talk about some fan theories.

maybe later, like hours from now I will work more on the "Transport To Any Fictional Reality Spell" even if it be like a Astral-VR, it doesn't matter so long as it works and there are protections added into the spell, as well as allowing a type of Avatar being created that acts as a type of Vessel for my Astral-Body until it is pulled back to this reality.

I will need to add that to the spell, and when I say Astal-VR I mean like a Astral Virtual Reality. but I'm sure some understood that already.

and yeah, I can still the other stuff I enjoy, but I also want to try this to help the need of escaping from the Toxic-Masculine energy.

and even if I do decide to show the spell on here, even if I can't show the runic parts of it unless I try to draw them, but the spell I'm working on might not work for everyone, because well ya would probably need a dream-catcher, well more than one, one for where you sleep, and one hanging outside your door to your room.

and well I might think it over about showing the finish spell on here, but I will also have to make sure to say that it might not work for everyone because of the program that will be placed onto the spell.

and I can only hope once it's finish, I can use it for that type of escape and vacation. even if in this world it will be around 3 hours but in the worlds I choose to go to, it will be 9 months...

that is what I want to program into the spell, and had wrote down the time limit of the spell, even if in that one spell I had tried to use that is by someone else, the time limit is a bit different, but I think programing the spell to be 3 hours here but 9 months in another world, works perfectly.

I wont expect everyone to understand, but maybe only a few do.

but to me, I really need this spell to work on the first try or even by the second try or however many tries even if it is just a few tries before it finally fully works, but I hope it works on the first try.

it be nice if someday I can get a VR Headset, and not just ones that seem like one like that one I have for my Nintendo Switch...

but getting a VR Headset that is like you can just look through while playing the Nintendo Switch or Xbox without it being hooked up and not really being technology type, could be a good alternate version of the VR Headsets that do work as the technology type and needs to be connected...

and if the spell works, it will be my own way to go to a type of Astral-Virtual Reality.

anyway not everyone has to agree about my plans with the spell, but I need it to work and I want to use it to escape on a type of vacation even if it will only be a type of vacation I take only once in a while.

but what is going on with the Toxic-Masculinity that crosses a line, and hurts the balance between the good side of the Masculine and Feminine energies is one of the reasons I want the spell to work.

getting away from the Toxic-Femininity, even if it isn't as high as it's counterpart, would just be a bonus to the spell working.

#not for kids #do not reblog without permission #mature audiences only #magic spells #astral travel #talking about feelings #incubus #sucubus #hybrid #earth angel #humans #february 2024

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moth-in-the-moon · 5 months

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so we state how we got there then ask our question/share an opinion...?

okay i came here because i was actively checking for tags, any tags, that mentioned Margali Szardos by name (it's a cycle : i get obsessed by this same niche character at the same period every year but it's my first try on tumblr). your blog was like a lighthouse in this ocean of indifference so here i am

now my ask is, have you read strange academy by any chance ? cuz i feel like Margali would have been a perfect fit for that universe and setting instead of Legion of X. they have every magic user from Wanda to Illyana teaching there and helping out all kinds of magical children so Margali would have been right at home with new students and colleagues. hell you could have a subplot of Margali mentoring another Winding Way user and actually give more lore on that kind of magic. they also had evil magic users from other dimensions show up as well as Dormammu. just lots of potential for fanon works and a personal favourite read of mine

now for an opinion, i hate nightcrawler's new backstory. i genuinely do. firstly because the writer acts like his origins matter way more than they actually do (Kurt is +35 rn not a young adult or teen and literally never cared about that aspect after he heard the first few versions) and secondly because this truth reads like a blatant lie and slap to the face after everything that's ever happened to him in a "he never had any free will in his life actually since this moment was gonna happen regardless of what he did since Mystique and Destiny wanted and predicted it since he was born otherwise they would have intervened". the outcome and interactions following the reveal makes me think Mystique isn't the only one here with memory issues from the way Nightcrawler acts in this situation (Krakoa's chronic brain damage i guess). i think these origins would have worked way better for Rogue (it makes perfect sense for her really) and felt less like a spit to everything Nightcrawler went through in his life and with Mystique... and now Destiny... and Azazel too because these two threw him into Kurt's life for lolz basically : Nightcrawler gave up his soul because he needed to keep Azazel out of heaven since red guy used their biological blood ties and soul properties to get there and play captain hook but now ? now you're stuck wondering how that thing even worked back then since it's still being brought up by Azazel in dark xmen now

Sir (genderneutral for the bit), this is a dennys.

I'm not a rant blog for opinions two people just saw me and agreed with my takes and that temporarily turned me into one today dsfgdfgdfg All I am is a dude who likes comics and specifically nightcrawler a Normal Human Amount (lying) But yes! I know strange academy and I actually quite like it. I still gotta get the series to read it fully but I love the concept and uh. Very funny of you to bring that up cause in the last little rant ask that I got, I noted in the tags that I think she would be an interesting teacher for the school. In general, I think margali should get a series for herself, she's super interesting with alot of lore behind her (being stronger than old comics stephen strange at one point, knowing wanda from when she was a child, possibly being a three time sorcerer supreme (earth, winding way, possibly limbo at one point), having powers that depend on a living dimension etc) Also I just want to know more about her past, she was supposetly born in france, so like, how did that effect her? did she grow up there for a while? How did she get into magic? (I am ignoring mother righteous i am ignoring mother righteous I AM IGNORING MOTHER RIGHTEO-)

I already talked about my takes on the whole. bio-parent thing in these Lovely Posts if you care for my opinion, but yeah no, its messy. Though, again there might be a. thing they did if I understood the comics wording right where Kurt is kinda the result of Raven using the Baron and Azazel as blue prints for having the kid?? So in theory, biologically he's christians, azazels, ravens and irenes kid (though raven also notes "countless others" so. infanite bioparents glitch kurt lets fucking gooo) But I might've missunderstood the panels and the idea that they made kurt just have. all the bio-parents was too much of a absolutely gorgeous idea to not take it like that.

Either way another one on the pile of "writers love pulling the stupitest shit with kurt specifically"

remember when he had a daughter in a new reality that he forcefully forgot because he didnt want to break the rules of the new reality because people loved him, and then he realized that he should care for his daughter and promised her to finally be there for her, only for that really to be deleted. that reality was like a bubble thing. that daughter was flesh and bone. they never talk about it but he lost a child he just got back. (age of x-man, 2019) I rember. I think of it alot.

#moth answers #maybe I should start a moth confessional tag #this whole day has been so funny to me you dont understand #who are these people at my door #am i but your medium?#a way to speak the thoughts that might get you banished otherwise #good lord i hope the fandom doesnt pull a uh- r vv by fandom on me for my spicey take of 'idk man I'm not feeling it story wise'#I get to say this I watched that show and have seen the fandom #this is why you'll never get my Tyrian analysis tumblr #I'd be eaten alive

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alltimefanfiction · 5 months

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haven’t written fic since 2021 (classichysteria on ao3 if anyone wants a nosy) but i wanna start again, is jalex in demand still? is there interest in fics about current jalex? i also started writing a massive trans!alex au for myself and i’ve been considering posting it but i’m so insecure about my writing even though i literally do journalism in college. need thoughts honestly, is the atl fanfic world alive? even just a few people?

ps you’re a lifesaver and have been since i got into the band fucking years ago, keep this blog going until the day tumblr implodes <3

Hello friend!

For anyone who wants a nosy, this author's AO3 account is here.

I don't recognise your fics but I might just have a terrible memory, did you ever submit them to the blog? I'd be happy to get them into our tags if not. (EDIT: I do actually recognise some of your earlier works, but I'm going to just add any that aren't on the blog if that's alright, 'cause I'm not sure if they all are).

Jalex is very much still in demand and probably always will be. There's definitely still readers, unfortunately many of them are probably silent and/or unaware of this blog but there's still people around. I really feel like the more people that post fic though, the more it will encourage others to post it, so I'm gonna go ahead and say hell yeah, please do it and submit the link to us! We're seeing a small resurgence in fics lately (or fics coming through us, anyway) whether it be Jalex or some OC stuff, and I personally have a Callakarth smut ready to go and a Christmas one in the works. The fic community for this band is smaller now but I think that's still nice. As much as it would be cool if it was as busy as it was even, say, seven years ago, it's sweet and cosy like this right now.

There hasn't been any trans!fic for the fandom (that I know of) in a wee while so I think that would be really cool if you posted that one too. Nerves are understandable but you would still have our full support and we're always happy to help with writing tips or encouragement where possible.

PS. I swear if Tumblr implodes ever, I will riot. This is the only social media site I still consider 95% bearable and also the thousands of hours of work I have put into this blog??? I'll fully latch onto the CEO's ankles like a parasite until it's all reinstated.

PPS. Followers reading this, I do gotta beg of you to comment on works if you read them. I know some people find commenting really daunting or don't know what to say, but most authors have an anon commenting option turned on, and I can promise a primary way that we as a community might get more lovely fics to read is by being encouraging to the authors that are still posting. Even one word comments can make an author's day! <3

-Eve

Hello adding in that I'm a HUGE Jalex fan and I will read every single bit of content I can get my hands on, so you should totally post and submit it to the blog for our followers as well!

- Molli

#all time low #jalex #alex gaskarth #jack barakat #tagging for promo

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coffee-n-bagels-comic-universe · 2 years

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Superheroes with Secrets: Fatalistic Mindset (Fic Part 161. Set in 2001)

Around 2000 Words. 18+ in places. Please inform me if you wish to be tagged/untagged from posts.

Tags: @tantamount-treason @piratewithvigor

Reference Posts: ‘Giantess’/'Blacklight Bandit’ Kirby Roussimoff x Shane ’Hurricane’ Helms (Circa 2001)

"Oww, fuck, God Damnit, shit." Kirby murmurs as she tries one last time to get free of the rope, only making it tighter around her leg.

He comes running, gasping softly when he sees Kirby hanging and untangles her as fast as he can.

"Thank you." Kirby squeaks out as she attempts to stand, immediately making the pain worse.

"Lie down." He orders, his voice more serious than Kirby's ever heard.

She immediately obeys his orders, a hint of fear in her eyes.

"I'm gonna call an ambulance and they're gonna have to bring you to the hospital. I'm sorry, but I can't fix you up alone here."

"No, Shane, you know how much I hate hospitals, please don't, please."

"Honey, I can't fix this break. They need to give you x-rays. Maybe surgery. If you want to walk again, we need to get you to the hospital."

"Fine, fine, I'll go to the damn hospital, I won't enjoy a second I'm there, but for the sake of walking and work, I'll do it."

"I don't expect you to like it. But a fall like that puts the baby in danger too, and I'm not taking chances."

Kirby nods in agreement and waits for the ambulance to arrive. It takes a few hours but eventually Kirby's left leg is in a cast and they're back at home, the estimated time of healing is five months, which only seems to have made Kirby grumpier than usual. Helms has fully shoved down his feelings from the morning and is trying to keep from making the air in the house any grumpier. It only gets a little bit better when the group turns up, having heard of Kirby's injury, Kirby's sitting between Lita and Delilah on the couch and complaining.

"Sure, the baby's fine, I'll be in a cast for five months, but the baby's okay, just focus on that… I hate hospitals, and I hate the barn, and I… fuck it, I hate myself too."

"And just why do you think you have permission to hate yourself?" Delilah asks.

"Oh I don't know, because I'm the only person who has to live inside my own head every day of my life and I fucking hate it, I'm so fucking stupid and ignorant that my own husband probably hates me right now and I hate myself so fucking much that I don't care if I get fired at this point, I just want to disappear into thin air and have everything about me be forgotten forever."

"Did he or did he not get you taken care off because he knew that even though you hate hospitals, he had to bring you to help you?"

"Dee, I fucked up earlier, and now the universe is making me pay for it, so if you'll excuse me, I think I'll go find a good place to curl up and die." Kirby grumbles, attempting to get up.

"You'll do no such thing. You're gonna sit here and not put weight on that cast yet."

"Try and fucking stop me." She murmurs as she pushes herself up off the couch, wincing as she stands up.

Delilah and Lita both grab an arm and pull her back down, "Not moving, kid."

Kirby buries her face in her hands, feeling the lowest she has for a long time.

"Just get the feelings all out. No judgement here."

"I have never felt as useless as I do right now, I can't fucking do anything, the only thing I'm good for is being a human incubator."

"That's not true and you know it."

"It is true, I'm completely fucking useless."

"And just how do you figure?"

"Why do I need to tell you that?"

"Because if you don't have a good reason, then you wallow in the title when it isn't even valid."

"I'm getting real fucking sick of everyone dictating how I'm supposed to feel and act, and I'm getting super close to just going fuck it and hurting myself some more." She growls.

"I'm dictating cause you say you hate yourself and I ask why and you don't have a good reason for it. You say you're useless and can't explain why. You're giving yourself yourself these awful titles and we're just supposed to sit by and listen to our friend hate herself?"

"Do you think I like waking up every day and having to at look myself in the mirror, I don't, I fucking hate every single part of me, the only good things in my life are Shae and you guys, and if I didn't have him, or any of you, I would have ended my life a long time ago. I wallow in my own misery because I have grown to know it as home and I hate being the one person who is watched by everyone because no matter how unbiased they say they are, deep down everyone either hates me or loves me and I don't want to be the one person who has to carry my father's legacy on my back. I have hated myself since I was thirteen years old and not one person has taught me how to love myself and had the lesson stick, so what makes you think I'm happy with the way I am, who the fuck are you to dictate how I should be?!"

"We're your friends. We're the ones who don't leave your side and kick you in the ass when you're being dumb. Your dad's legacy isn't all on you anymore. It's on your kid too. And yeah, maybe no one told you how to love yourself, but that's because it's no one's responsibility except your own. They can't teach you something you refuse to teach yourself."

"Why don't you all just fucking leave me already, I don't deserve people like you in my life and I'm always the fucking problem!" Kirby yells, getting up and storming off before anyone can stop her, heading outside of the house and towards the front gate.

"I swear, if she fucking falls on those crutches…" Lita sighs.

Kirby swears under her breath as she hobbles towards the edge of town, trying her hardest not to let the pain or her emotions get to her.

"Helms! Your wife left again!" Lita called through the house.

Kirby gets to outside the church and gives in, sitting on a bench outside as it starts raining. Kirby sighs as she gets up again, wolf-whistling for a taxi and double checking that she has her phone and wallet, before getting in the taxi and heading to a motel just outside of Ellerbe. Once Helms had heard she was gone, he'd tried to chase her down, but she was already halfway to town and taking the back roads he didn't know yet. Kirby signs in to the small motel and gets herself a room for a month, going to the room and sighing deeply as she lays on the bed.

"Guys, didn't she say anything before leaving?" He asks the girls.

"There was a lot of self hatred, then 'leave me alone' and then 'I'm the problem'." Lita murmurs.

Helms sighs softly, "I don't know how to make her see the truth anymore…"

Kirby texts Delilah, 'I quit, I'm done with the world, have fun, forget about me'.

"Does she really think we'll give up on her this easily?" Helms groans, reading the passed over phone.

"Shane, Kirby's text me that before, when she lost André… she text me and Kealani that, and then went off the grid for a while, wasn't until I saw her on WWF programming I knew she was still alive."

"She's serious about this? She's really leaving me?" He whispers.

"Shane, she ain't leaving you… she's making you a widower…" Delilah whispers.

"Oh no. No, she's not doing that. No, fuck that, I'm not letting that slide. I'm going to find her."

"There's a motel on the outskirts of town, if she's as predictable as she usually is, she's there."

"Someone wanna drive me? Feel like I might cause an accident if I drive."

Delilah nods, grabbing her car keys and heading to her car. Helms is shaking a little as she drives, trying to keep his nerves in check.

"Shane, I know you think you can stop her, but when she gets like this, she hardly ever listens to people, I know you don't want me to make it worse, but it's Kirby and she can be a dumbass."

"I can't let her die…" He whispers, "I can't lose my family a third time…"

Delilah goes as fast as the law will allow her, putting her knowledge of Ellerbe to good use, getting to the motel within ten minutes. Helms runs up to the motel, praying he can find her room. The motel staff are shocked and slightly taken aback by the erratic nature of Helms searching for Kirby, until one member of staff directs him to her room. He knocks on the door hard, almost desperately.

Kirby sighs, "go away, I didn't ask to be saved and nor do I want to be."

"I'm asking. Kirby, I'm the one asking." He whispers.

Kirby flings the door open, "Shane, what do you mean, why are you here, you plan on stopping me from doing something I should have done eight years ago?"

He looks up and meets her eyes. His own are red and watery, "I can't stop you. But I'll do anything I can to convince you otherwise. I love you. I can't lose you. I can't lose you too, Kirby, I can't. I won't make it without you…"

Kirby takes a deep breath, "Shane, you are the only person who I can't stand seeing me when all I wanna do is die, I can try and say go love with Shannon or the Hardys, but I don't think it would convince you to leave me alone to kill myself, I don't want you to hate me, but I feel like I'm the biggest problem in your life, like everything went to shit because of me."

"Went to shit?" He whispers incredulously, "Do you remember who I was before we actually got together? I lived in hotels out of a suitcase. I had a few friends, but no home, no family, not much of a career. You gave me a family, a home, more friends and a reason to continue. How dare you say you ruined my life when you're the person that made it finally worth living."

"Gregory Shane Helms, you take possession of everything I own, now if you'll kindly excuse me, I have some business to attend to, namely, ending my own fucking life." Kirby growls as she goes to the bathroom, her back against the door.

"There's something you can't give back to me." He murmurs.

Kirby stops in her tracks, putting the shard of glass from the broken shower wall on the counter and listening to Helms.

"My heart, Kirby. You have it and you always will."

Kirby cautiously opens the bathroom door, her body shaking and her breathing heavy, "don't, Shane, please, don't make this harder than it has to be."

"If you die today, I die too. If not literally, then emotionally. Please, Kirby, don't do this…"

"Shane, I… fuck, Shane, I don't want to hurt you… I'm sorry, fy ngwr, I'm so sorry." Kirby murmurs, breaking down and dropping to her knees, sobbing in pain.

He finally gets closer, holder her close to his chest. Kirby struggles to calm her breathing as she holds onto Helms, scared of ever letting go.

He rocks her slowly, "Anadlwch, fy ngharaiad. Yn araf ac yn ddwfn. Anadlu. Rydw i yma i chi ac ni fyddaf byth yn gadael. Rwy'n dy garu di." He whispers.

Kirby nods, trying to slow her breathing, failing at first but soon getting her breathing to slow down to a much safer pace.

"Voila. Tout est bien, mon amour."

#superheroes with secrets #shane hurricane helms #kirby roussimoff #blacklight bandit #orange and green - the perfect team #shannon brian moore #sws #kirby andrea roussimoff #delilah keshet rosenbaum #gregory shane helms #jeffrey nero hardy #matthew moore hardy #lita hardy

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xpeachesncream · 3 years

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bands | thirteen

[ series masterlist ]

summary: jeon jungkook has it all: the looks, the fame, the money, the women. being considered the sexiest man in the industry, he finds no complaints about the way his life is going nor does he find any reason to apologize for the way he approaches it. he is a force to be reckoned with - until he meets you.

pairing: stripper!reader x idol!jjk

genre: (18+) strip club/nightlife au, post grad au | fluff, angst, smut

words: 3.9k

warnings: cussing, mature language/implied sexual content, slight degradation, trouble stirring behind the scenes if you squint, yeonjun and soobin (txt) make an appearance but also as reg 18 yr olds lol

tags: @brightcolorsoffendme @min-nicoleee @eggbutnotyolk @ra-mun-e @miinoongi @jimidol @ppeachyttae @thebeebi @bluesharksandfish @kooafraid @liriaus @thisartemisnevermisses @ggukkieland @preciouschimine @sunniejinnie @cypheruby @cyb3rbab3 @masterlists101 @awhnamjoon @redhedhoseok @wooya1224 @taeismydeath @jikookiekosmos @un2-verse @aynsx @wearenot7withu (please message me if you would like to be added to the taglist!)

"BTS' Jeon Jungkook rumored to be dating stripper from nightclub!"

"Jungkook is no longer single, ladies!"

"Jeon Jungkook is dating a stripper? Why the hell is he doing that?"

"Who the hell does she think she is? I bet she's not even pretty."

"Jungkook fell for a stripper? Out of all people? Damn, and I thought he was better than that."

Jungkook has been tired, the rumors constantly being spread day in and day out. But, it still didn't mean he was gonna say shit to prove himself to people out there. He didn't need to give anybody answers. Hell, this was strictly between you and him and that's how he wants to keep it.

Fuck every single one of you who didn't wanna be behind him and support him. Don't even think about calling yourself a fan of his if that's your mindset.

He could truly care less. He was happy and he felt ten times better than he has in a really long time. It's unfortunate how people love to stay narrow minded. The only thing that bothered him was the fact that it was so unfair for you - how they stuck to that stripper image, rather than really getting to know you beneath the surface.

But it's not like anyone else deserved to know the real you, not after all this shit. And he was gonna keep it that way, and protect you.

"Hey, don't listen to any of that shit, okay?" Jungkook says as he meets you in your car in the BigHit building garage. "None of that matters to me."

"I know, but Kook." You look at him. "Your career, BigHit literally might not even want me here and-and—"

"Then I'll make sure they understand it's not an issue, because it's really fucking not." He says, getting irritated only at the thought of the company giving him issues over you. He watches as you slightly frown, causing him to sigh and soften his own facial expression. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to get worked up like that. It's just annoying how people are narrow-minded. This has absolutely nothing to do with you." You give him a small smile. "Come on, I'll walk you." You silently nod and hop out of your car. You follow beside him, your stomach in knots having to meet with their performance director. This meant you'd also most likely run into the rest of Bangtan.

In which happens to turn true pretty quickly.

"Jungkookie!" Hoseok says loudly down the hallway as he approaches the both of you. He does nothing besides smile, curiosity definitely filling his eyes.

"This is Y/N. Y/N, Hoseok hyung." He holds out his hand for you to shake, his head tilting ever so slightly because you know he's familiar with your face. He's just trying to remember from where. Or, he has recognized you, but he's trying his hardest not to say anything.

Cause they have seen all of you, especially in that fishnet bodysuit.

"Hi! Nice to meet you! You can call me Hobi for short. Are you meeting with someone?" You nod.

"Yeah." Is all you can reply with as you shyly tuck a strand of hair behind your ear.

"Nice, goodluck!"

"Is everyone else here?" Jungkook asks, making Hobi nod.

"Yeah, but they're still running through some stuff in the dance studio. I just ran off to take a break."

"Okay." Jungkook looks at you. "Follow me, he's in one of the private studio rooms." You both part ways from Hoseok, the need to clutch onto Jungkook's arm immensely strong right now. You hold yourself off though, because even with passing a few female staff members, you catch them looking at you oddly with the way you're walking side by side with Jungkook.

Nope. Don't even think about it, Y/N. It doesn't matter.

Jungkook knocks softly on a door, the middle of it being made up of entirely frosted glass so it's difficult to see inside. Their performance director opens the door swiftly and welcomes you in with a warm smile, stepping aside to let you in.

"I've got it from here, Jungkookie. Thank you." Jungkook nods but tries to peek through the door to get one last glimpse of your face before he shuts it fully. "How are you doing, Y/N?" He sits in front of you, leaning onto his knees with his hands fully clasped together.

"I'm good. How are you?"

"Good, tired." He chuckles. "Thanks for taking my call earlier and for meeting at such short notice on a weekend. I had a couple of things come up and didn't want to push things off until later." You smile.

"It's no problem."

"Jungkook tells me a lot about you."

"Does he now?" You chuckle and tilt your head to the side.

"Says you're a really good person. Super hardworking. Told me a little bit about your situation with your brother."

"Mmyeah, it's a little complicated."

"It's alright, no need to get into the details." He smiles before letting out a small sigh. "It's incredibly rare for me to hear Jungkook speak like that. In general. He's usually very closed off, doesn't like to let people in much. He really respects you, you know? Cares about you a whole lot." You slightly blush.

"I'm still getting used to it." He chuckled.

"Look, I know you've been worrying because of where you've been and all that, but I want to reassure you that none of it matters. I don't like to focus on all that. You're here as you, not her." He says, putting another pronoun to your stripper persona.

"Thank you, I appreciate it." He nods. There's a small pause before he begins to speak again.

"I could really use some help around here if you're still interested? The boys are becoming a lot for me to handle."

"Ah-uh, yeah! Of course I am." You found yourself stuttering at the sudden offer. Was this fucking real?! "But, you are aware of where me and Jungkook are at, right?" You ask, trying to be completely transparent and honest about their relationship. He nods and waves his hand out.

"As long as you keep it professional here, right?" You nod.

"Right."

"Come, let me show you around really quickly and have you formally meet the boys." You swallowed the lump in your throat. Fucking great. He definitely didn't know they've all seen your titties and pussy out during Yoongi's birthday, and now here you were - about to meet them again in this environment. Hobi was awkward enough even though he tried not to be.

Surprisingly, Jungkook wasn't waiting outside in the hallway like you thought he would be, but the tour commences and the PD is taking you around pretty quickly. You feel even more awkward and somewhat alone [even though you weren't] without Jungkook nearby, but you chug along and say your hello's to the people you're introduced to. He finally brings you into the dance studio, where there's loud ass music blasting, Jungkook, the boys and some backup dancers in front of the mirrors fooling around.

"Aye boys, come here real quick." You and Jimin lock eyes and your body suddenly gets tense. The room feels 10x hotter than it already is, especially when he slowly walks over and clenches his jaw. He is literally seeping with hate right now, maybe actually disgust, and he doesn't even try to hide it. Most of them for sure recognize you, but they seem to brush it off and give you a big wave/smile anyway.

"Last, that's Jimin - Jimin, Y/N." You give Jimin a fake smile, and the only thing his ass can reciprocate is the smallest, tight-lipped smile you have ever seen. You've never even seen your mom do that when she got mad or upset with you.

"Hi." Is all you can say.

"Sup." He looks at you before turning on his heel and walking away.

"Ooookay?" Namjoon furrows his brows as he watches Jimin walk away so rudely. "The hell was that about?"

"I knew that was Kookie's girlfriend! Maybe Jiminie remembers seeing her titties and shit too, needs to walk away before he gets his ass beat by him." Yoongi says lowly behind Namjoon.

"Yeah, like you're any better." Namjoon says, looking at Yoongi weirdly.

"I mean, we did see her practically naked." Jin says, chiming into the discussion.

"I touched her." Yoongi's mouth slightly hangs down. "I touched her."

"Go ahead, say it louder so Kookie can hear you." Jin nods sarcastically. "Go, say it!"

"No, stop." Yoongi's cheeks turn red while shaking his head and laughing. "He'll literally launch me out the window with one hand."

"Good."

"You asked for her to sit on your lap too, bro!"

"I was joking, and it's not like she did it anyway!"

"Whatever, I'm keeping my birthday deep in my memory storage."

"Clean slate for her so it should be for you too, my guy." Namjoon says as he has enough of their conversation.

You look at Jungkook who is silently standing there, looking like a big dork with a huge smile on his face and his thumbs up. You give him the tiniest nod before proceeding to follow the PD out.

"So?!" Jungkook dashes to meet you in their waiting room area, where an abnormally large picture of Jimin posing oddly hung up.

"He said he'll send me all the info and papers and stuff!" You respond excitedly as Kook hugs you and quickly swings you around.

"See, I knew it would work out!" He puts you down. "Are you gonna tell Kai?" You shook your head.

"Not today at least, it's his birthday and I don't wanna take away from that. It's his day." Jungkook smiles at you.

"Text me when you've picked him up? I should be home by then."

"Okay." You blush and back away, making Jungkook look at you with confusion. "I have to keep it professional here, duh."

"Ah I see." He chuckles. "That won't last very long."

"Jungkook." You whine.

"There's a lot of private rooms here and—"

"I'm not listening, sorry. I think Kai is suddenly calling me." You cover your ears as you begin to walk away, giving him one last smile before leaving him to the rest of rehearsals and whatever else they're doing. He laughs to himself as he waves you off, excited to get through the day so he can just spend time with you and Kai.

As the hours go on and it's about time for you to pick Kai up, you quickly stop by the store because you're a procrastinator and didn't buy Kai's birthday gift any earlier. You felt bad you weren't able to find the shoes he wanted, but you at least snagged the video game he had been talking about for a couple of days now. Before walking into the arcade, you made sure to write your birthday card and slip some more money into it before shoving it in your bag to give to him later.

"Your pretty sister is here." Yeonjun grabs Kai by the shoulder as he finishes up a game.

"Yeah, and you're too young for her."

"Age is nothing but a number. It's only like.. 6 years apart."

"Besides, she's taken, dude. Sorry." Kai snorts as he watches Yeonjun's smile fade. "You would have never had the chance."

"You're mean."

"I'm mean, or you just have really high, unrealistic expectations?" The rest of their friends laugh as they follow Kai over to you.

"Hey!" You smile at all his friends.

"Hiiiiii Y/N." They all say in unison, some waving in awe, while the others shyly dug their hands into their pockets. "Birthday boy, you all good to go? Got some good Loco Moco waiting for you."

"Yeah, I'm good."

"Happy birthday again, Kai! Get online later!" Soobin yells out.

"Yeah, yeah." He says, waving them off as he follows you out to your car.

"You guys run through the entire arcade?" Kai laughs.

"Pretty much." He sinks into his seat, legs damn near touching the glove compartment with how long he is. "I'm honestly so excited for Loco Moco. It's been years!"

"It has not been that long." You laughed.

"You're right, it's been months." Kai looks out the window. "Wait, you're passing the road to get to our go-to shop though?"

"Cause I found a better place."

"How is there a better place when that one was already supreme?!"

"Hey, trust me on this okay?" You laugh. Kai starts telling you about his day and how so many people he knew from school had been messaging him happy birthday. He truly looked his happiest today and it was all you could ask for. Though at the same time, your heart slightly sank at the fact that he'd be going off to uni soon and staying at the dorms. He was just growing up way too fast, and you wanted to spend as much time as you could with him now before he was too occupied being a college boy.

You slipped yourself past Jungkook's security, parking in the one guest spot they have in the garage that's closest to the elevator. Kai doesn't really question it and hops out anyway, his hands in his pockets as he follows you into the elevator and onto Jungkook's floor.

"You ready, kid?"

"Is this some like, Michelin Star Loco Moco restaurant?"

"Ah, I guess you could say that." You knocked on the door, hearing music playing in the background. Jungkook opens the door and Kai's eyes widen.

"Oh shit, that's Jungkook?" Kook laughs and steps aside to let you both in. "Sis why—what—how come you didn't tell me we were seeing your boyfriend? I look like a mess!" He says lowly.

"You don't!"

"Hey Kai! Happy Birthday!" Jungkook says smiling, making Kai actually blush. He's cheeks are tinted with a rosy color and he suddenly gets all shy.

"Thanks."

"Your brother's tall." Jungkook looks at him up and down.

"Looking at an 18 year old 6 footer."

"Must be nice."

"Go sit." Kai silently nods as he sits awkwardly on Kook's couch, while you go and check in on him in the kitchen.

"Is he always that shy?"

"No. Just with you, apparently. He's not even that shy around girls." You chuckle as he places a quick kiss on your head. "Need my help?" You still ask even though the plates are neatly prepared already.

"Not really." He smiles down at you. "You hungry though?"

"Starving, actually." Your eyes light up at the plates. "Ouuuuuu, yum."

"Honestly, I think this batch might be better than my first."

"Still honored to be your guinea pig." You carry a plate over to Jungkook's coffee table in the living room.

"Oh shit, that looks amazing." Kai says, slipping himself down from the couch to the floor so he could get a good whiff of the plate. "Thank you."

"You're welcome." Jungkook hands you the remote before walking into his room. "Pick something."

"Here, birthday boy. Help me choose."

"Let's watch Soul on Disney+." At this point, Jungkook comes out of his room with a wrapped present, his eyes locked on the TV.

"Ooh, I keep seeing this everywhere! Niceeeee." Jungkook says, smiling with Kai nodding and already digging into his plate. "By the way, this is for you." You shoot him a look as he sits on the floor by you, watching as Kai unwraps the present. Kai's eyes light up as he sees a shoebox underneath the wrapping, quickly flipping the lid open to reveal those blue Air Jordans he wanted.

"Kook?!" You say lowly, making him smile at you and gently pinch your side.

"Holy shit!" He holds out a shoe, only for him to immediately shake his head and close the box again. "Jungkook, I can't take this." Kai says.

"No, it's your birthday."

"Yeah, but isn't this expensive? You've already done so much for me and my sister, I-I don't want to—"

"Kai, it's cool. If it's one thing you can do to repay me, it's to take my present." You literally want to cry at how sweet Jungkook is being with your brother. He had been good to you, no doubt, but this was one thing you didn't expect from him at all. Quite frankly, you had forgotten you mentioned the shoes to him. The fact that he actually remembered and kept his word.

"Okay." Kai says, gently setting the box down aside before looking at Jungkook with a small smile on his face. "Thank you. I really appreciate it. Like, even with the food and everything. It means a lot to me."

"You're welcome." You give him a soft smile before digging into your food while Soul was already off to a start. Kai and Jungkook devour their food together, with you following shortly behind as Jungkook brings over a small ice cream cake from his fridge for Kai to blow his candles on. After the boys had helped themselves to a good serving of the cake, they started getting hyper and pulled up Smash Bros on Kook's Nintendo Switch [as if Kai hadn't played enough games today]. It started to get intense; the boys jumping and yelling everywhere, bouncing off of the walls, with you getting pulled into the competition every now and then. Even though you knew you'd lost over and over again, you happily joined in anyway, seeing how excited your brother was - plus, it was always a bonus to hear Jungkook's loudly obnoxious, nerdy laugh.

"I WIN!"

"Hey, hey, hey. I let you win because it's your birthday." Jungkook said, making Kai laugh as he crashed to the floor.

"Sure." Kai huffed and puffed. "Crap, I'm tired. What time is it?"

"Almost midnight. We should start heading out, bubba." You patted Kai's chest gently.

"What? No, it's late. Why don't you two just stay here?" You suddenly remembered you've had Kai's shit in your trunk since you dropped him off at Yeonjun's this morning. You didn't have any change of clothes, but that could easily be fixed with Jungkook's closet.

"Only if the queen wants, she's driving."

"It's late, baby." Jungkook says to you softly. "No way I'm letting you two head out there."

"Okay." You give him a small smile before handing your keys. "Can you do me a favor?" He chuckles.

"What is it?"

"Kai's duffle bag is in my trunk." He nods and takes your keys.

"I got it. Kai, you can take the guest room or my office room." Jungkook says with his 3-bedroom apartment having ass. "I have my computer in my office room though, and a pull out bed. I don't know how comfy you'll be."

"It's cool, I'll just take your guest room. I always bring my laptop and switch whenever I sleep at my sister's." Kai says getting up. "Thank you."

"You're welcome." Jungkook says, toothlessly smiling at the both of you, completely endeared at how alike you two were - even down to the fact that you both said thank you for every little thing. If this was a result of Kai being close to you and having you as pretty much his mother figure, then Jungkook wouldn't know what to do with his feelings. He felt butterflies every time he thought about how cute and sweet you were, and he was always excited to be around you.

Jungkook does a quick jog to your car, grabbing Kai's Nike duffle from your trunk before jogging back to the elevator and back to his apartment. He walks in to see Kai helping you clean up the remaining dishes in the sink, tidying the rest of the things in his kitchen.

"Thank you." Jungkook says himself, a little unfamiliar with saying such a thing to be completely honest.

"You're welcome." You say softly, wiping your hands on his hand towel. "Off to bed, or are you gonna go online with your friends?"

"I'll see what they're up to, but I'm pretty beat. Today was fun." Kai smiles at the both of you. "I really appreciate it." You ruffle his hair a bit before gently pushing him towards his bedroom for the night.

"Bathroom's right over there, help yourself to anything you need."

"Don't stay up too late."

"Only if you aren't too loud." You gasp while Jungkook laughs out loud.

"Kai!"

"Hey, I'm just being honest. Please remember that I'm right in this room."

"Oh my god, go to bed." You shove him inside the room and shut his door. "Don't even say a word." You look at Jungkook shyly as you hurriedly brush past him to get into his room - even though Jungkook is literally right behind you with those long ass legs of his, making every stride so much easier for him to catch up to you.

"What's your outfit of choice tonight, pretty lady?" He shuts his door behind him as you start to make your way into his closet.

"Hm, I'll just wear this plain black--" You unfold it. "Balenciaga? Okay, I definitely can't just wear this to sleep."

"Why not?"

"Because this is like, name brand and everything."

"So?" He shrugs. "Just wear it, babygirl. It's not gonna make much of a difference, you're wearing it either way." You do a slight pout before you start to slip out of your clothes to get into his shirt. You make his way to his bathroom to take a little tinkle when you notice another toothbrush sitting next to his. A pink toothbrush, next to his blue one.

"Why do you have two toothbrushes?" You wash your hands as he comes in to the bathroom to start getting ready for bed.

"That's yours." Your eyes light up at his statement.

"Mine?"

"I figured since you'd be over more, it'd be easier for you." He furrows his brows lightly. "Unless.. you didn't want--" You press a kiss against his lips, his hands resting on your arms to keep you close.

"No, I did want that. Thank you."

"Of course, baby." He pecks your forehead.

"By the way, way to make me look like such a bad sister!" You say as you start getting your toothbrush ready.

"Why? The shoes?"

"The shoes, the Loco Moco, the games, the ice cream cake." You laughed. "I literally got him a video game and some money."

"I mean, he is turning 18. I wanted to help make it as memorable as possible."

"I appreciate you a lot. Really."

"I appreciate you too." Your eyes widen as you brush your teeth.

"Waaaaow, say thaht wun mohr tiyme." You say, pulling a Jungkook while brushing your teeth.

"Eye apprushiate yoh toh." You giggle. The both of you finish getting ready for bed before slipping into his warm sheets. Jungkook never goes to sleep early, however, he makes sure all the lights are off and that the show he's watching isn't too loud. You have no idea what's going on in his show, but you lay on his chest to watch for a little bit until you feel yourself getting a little more sleepy. He's holding you close, his hand brushing through your hair softly, causing tingles to ripple through your body.

"Kook."

"Yes, baby?"

"You make me happy." You say sleepily as you hung him tighter. He smiles down at you, your eyes now shut close as you slowly start to drift into a deep sleep. He presses a light kiss against your head, fingers still in your hair.

"You make me happy too, sweetheart."

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