#I'm proud of myself and how far I've come

[mikesbasementbeets]

Sometimes I think it's just scary to open up like that. To say how you really feel. Especially to people you care about the most. Because what if... what if they don't like the truth? // Sometimes people don’t really say what they’re really thinking. But, you capture the right moment… it says more. // I didn't say it. // You didn't have to.

[remake of my very first gifset one year later]

#byler #mike wheeler #will byers #stranger things #mikesbasementgifs #hiii i rly love making gifs i'm so glad i started it's been so much fun playing and learning and i'm genuinely so surprised and also #proud of myself for how far i've come in a year. theres so much more i want to learn and seeing how much i have visibly improved is #great motivation to keep pushing myself and trying new things... like this actually i've never done a set like this before dhjsfdsdjhs #also if you’ve ever said nice things about my gifs please know that i love you it means the world to me <3333333 #anyway look at these gay boys they want to kiss each other on the mouths!!! (and they will!!!!!) #ok byeeeeeeeeeeeee

[shmaroace]

sorry but i'm that person who makes their sexuality their entire personality. actually in fact i WILL be obnoxious about being aroace and there's nothing you can do to stop me :)

#i know it's annoying but i'm so proud of being aroace and how far i've come #in the past few years i've gone from #not knowing anything about the queer community and being super closeted #to being a (mostly) out and proud aroace/trans person #like yeah i'll shout it from the rooftops because im finally happy with myself and my labels #isnt self love important anyway? i love myself and i will be obnoxious about it. not sorry #aro #aromantic #arospec #ace #asexual #acespec #aroace #aspec

[lesbienyu]

I've realized I'm unhappy in my life and really want to make changes. I think that hell trip to Ohio was a good wakeup call on needing to move forward in my career. I'd also love to write and paint more. probably need to quit on the nicotine as well, start working out again, and maybe look at getting my master's degree or going back to school.

it's never too late to make these kind of choices, so I'm gonna sit and figure out what I'd like to do moving forward. I think I'm gonna stay w my current job industry for a good while, I just need to work on professional development and a better work-life balance.

#feeling a little proud of myself for how far I've come since being 19 and a homeless drug addict #and I'm excited to see where I'll wind up #diary

[spaceratprodigy]

🎉 [ Art from 2022-2023 ] 🎉

Happy Birthday to my most favorite person in the world, the love of my life 🖤

I still can't believe this'll make our 10th year of being best friends and even more I can't believe we get to celebrate our 8th anniversary this summer 💖💕

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#I was gonna type out more but I decided I didn't want to be too sappy and emotional on main #so much has happened in these past 10 years #I can't believe I made it this far I really did not think I was going to have a future #but I did and I do #I have the most wonderful partner who I connect with in a way I never thought was possible #I am capable of being loved I am capable of loving in return #I learned how to love myself and be unapologetically myself for myself #I lost a lot of people and some very much for the better #I've become so so much happier my god I never thought I'd ever know what this felt like #I'm still angry and numb and having to battle depression but I've grown I've finally become someone worth being proud of #I'm no longer letting that anger and grief and everything that comes with it take over #I can't believe I've actually become gentler and kinder #I can't believe I've actually made genuine friends with people who are nice and caring and supportive #and are actually happy to see me and not trying to take advantage of me at every opportunity I'm finally seen as a person #I can't believe I'm finally in a safe environment I don't have to be terrified anymore I'm not going to be hurt anymore #I can't believe how far I've come creatively bc of how much bf has supported my every passion wholeheartedly #he is the reason I have a drawing tablet he is the one who encourages me and cheers on everything I do #god I still don't know how I could ever in my life thank you enough for every goddamn wonderful thing you do for me #you have changed everything for the better none of this would have ever happened if it wasn't for you #it's always been you #I fucking love you #more than anything in this universe and the next #forever and always #my art #glad I listened to my first tag lmao

[dragonpigeons]

It's my burfday today! :D I have another pic in the works that I was gonna post but I won't manage to finish it today so I'm posting this one instead. It's actually for my Riida RP acc on twt. The bonsai tree in the middle is another RP acc I have (it is Saka's bonsai tree lmao yes I RP as a tree) and the pigeon on the right is Riida's PA (cos Riida is disorganised af & needs nudging to do her work often).

Anyway I just wanted to share it here & celebrate my bday with you guys ^^ Thank you for being here with me!

#dragonpigeondraws #happy birthday to me #riida #monsieur pigeon #bonsai #op oc #one piece oc #yes i'm drawing 2 bday pics for myself cos i deserve it #ngl things have been pretty rough 4 me since last year #but actually it's been a long journey that started in childhood #i think i can say i'm proud of how far i've come #i wanna thank everyone that supported me & spared a kind and caring thought for me in the past few days #it's really nice to feel that i'm appreciated & cared about. really really nice #i wanna keep all your precious words and feelings close to my heart always. #i'm just an ordinary person who enjoys ordinary things #thank you for making me feel like i matter

[crest-of-gautier]

i am pleased to say that i have gotten to evp 999 on gone fission hydroplant for the first time! it took a lot of grinding and reflecting to get here, but it was such a fun rotation ✨

some thoughts under the cut....!

i think the best part of this grind was that i could start at EVP 300 rather than EVP 40. i say that, but i still spent a good 124 jobs getting there... whoops!

this wouldn't have been possible without getting the bronze and silver badges first, which i wrote about here! i still stand by what i said in this post about key traits in salmon run players.

i feel that the key to my success can be boiled down to being able to rotate around the map and not overlap with what my teammates are doing- leaning into weapon strengths, all while flexing to other things when things go unaddressed.

for anyone curious about how the journey went, i streamed some of it on twitch!

EVP 575 -> 695 (Day 1) | 1 hour and 56 minutes

EVP 695 -> 865 (Day 2) | 8 hours and 11 minutes

while i did peak at EVP 935 on that second stream- as you can see, i quickly fell off of it (and i think you can figure out why).

i could talk about what i liked about my gameplay as well as what i didn't do well, but i think the vods speak for itself (and i usually made some kind of comment at the end of each shift as to what mistakes i did or what i could've done differently).

but i think the most important reminder of this particular grind was how important it is to take breaks while playing. my push from evp 865 to evp 999 was all done off-stream, after i ate dinner, took a shower to decompress and release tension, etc etc!

this push ended up taking around an hour- and all of the shifts were successful (well, except one). i don't think i can stress enough how important it is to take a break away from the game while doing these pushes, because i performed way better that time around.

i think it is evident to anyone who watches the twitch vod that i start getting really fatigued near the end. my movements aren't as sharp; i'm very sluggish. and the way i talk about the game too, is evident of how tired i was.

i still wanted to give an earnest attempt at grinding because i thought that: "well, if i'm able to clear 333% when fatigued, imagine doing it when my sense are actually sharp!" i had 4-5 hours to spare after the stream, and i'm glad i chose to try again in a better state. it was nice to clear HLM for the first time on a regular rotation!

i also feel pretty well attuned to snatchers on this map too now, which is lovely! i did feel that was something i was weak at, previously, but now it's more of a habit for me now which is good! :3c

anyway! fun rotation. of the weapon loadout, i feel like i've got a lot to learn about the s-blast, especially with ink management (i noticed that i died a lot because i couldnt ink paths to move around...). e-liter, while a bit slow compared to splat charger, can be immensely powerful if you can aim well under pressure. sploosh and splattershot are gods and i dont think i need to elaborate on that.

this is a very positive note for me to end my chill season 2023 on- i'll probably only be playing the chargers only challenge + eggstra work before shifting completely into reload (though i may still hop on from time to time)... i think eggstra work will be a cakewalk after doing a bunch of 333% runs hehe 😎

#splatoon 3 #lizz.jpg #lizz.txt #RAHHH IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF #i think i asked someone 'hey do you think i'll get evp 999 on as second map first or a second 5 star weapon' #they said evp 999. they were right #this would not have been possible without me having practiced this map previously and knowing how to move around it #as well as my very swag and awesome friends who i grouped up with for some part of it! #this rotation was great to work on both individually and in a group setting #while the core gameplay is still the same i feel that group salmoning emphasizes communication more than individual skill #freelance made me lean into developing my sense of judgment and direction and whatnot and i'm glad my judgment is decent enoug for HLM #this and jammin junction are the only maps i've 9'd so far and i think it's because i played both maps very frequently prior to 9-ing them #i feel like sockeye would be next on the chopping block for me given that i already have reached 600 there. just gotta get a nice rotation #smokeyard and marooners i still need to get to evp 400 lol but. that'll come with time. i think #god... i love splatoon 3.. i love practicing and honing skills. mwah... kiss.

[pierswife]

You'd expect engineers to like Teslas, but my god the vehement hatred that the engineers in my office have for those things specifically...

I'm fucking thriving

#I love this office dude #specifically the part of the office I'm in #if I was in the office office I'd hate it #but I can hear the noises from the manufacturing floor from over here so it's nice :} reminds me of where I started #and makes me proud of myself for how far I've come #BUT YEAH ANYWAY DON'T LIKE THAT THEY'RE ALL RAGING REPUBLICANS BUT I MEAN I ALSO HATE BIDEN SO WE CAN AGREE ON THAT AT LEAST #is Biden running for reelection??? cause as much as I'd like... not want to vote for him again I'm gonna if I have to #data log: personal

[fionnaskyborn]

there's something to be said about the very specific feeling of frailty you feel when you come face to face with just how little you've experienced. twenty-odd years on planet earth and you haven't really watched all that many movies. an unlived life facing an uncertain future. i do not know where to point the finger of blame because i live untethered from my past, floating in the present with no clear point of reference no clear definition of who i am or what happened to me and how i turned out the way i am (fucking. can you guess why five is my favorite game. insert that one lyric from that one modest mouse song.) but you're still here, and you can still learn, and you can catch up, but it still feels like you're a pitiful little nobody looking for excuses trying to explain why you're still new to the whole being alive thing. i've got a good head on my shoulders, though, for all that's worth, so i think i might be fine.

in other news, i watched scarface tonight. it was certainly a movie. don't really understand how the movie made it big, but it did have some damn good music. i mean, i don't know. i'm still learning about the world i live in. maybe it really is as much of a masterpiece as people make it out to be and i'm too dumb to see the reason why it's considered a classic. maybe i'm right. i can't tell at the moment. it's kind of a beggars can't be choosers situation - if you ain't watched that many movies, then you can't really be a good judge of quality. but, oh, well. it's one more movie watched. it's a win because i watched a movie. and i'll watch more movies.

#i mean this extends to things like world politics also i'm still learning and i'm eager to learn beyond what i am offered but that doesn't #make the process any less fucking terrifying. like sure fuck yeah i'll be a big shot and do it alone and i'll be proud of myself but the #thing is i really really really don't know how to be alone without feeling empty #and it's funny because the thing i yearn for the most is to be free and to create myself and do things on my own and i can do that i've #learned how to be an adult very early on and people say ah you've yet to face the worst but every time they tell me that i tell them i can't #wait #but at the same time sometimes i sit and i wonder why i haven't watched that many movies. was there nobody to watch them with? could i have #asked? could things have been different? is it my fault for never having really wanted things or somebody else's? and i'll never really have #a clear answer to any of those questions or at least not anytime soon because my cranium is messed up and unreliable but i won't get the #answers anywhere else. shrugs. i've yet to start living a life. i don't know when i died but i do know but maybe that's just an idea and #maybe i've been dead all along until some point in the past two years but then what are all those memories i have where did they come from #why are they so far apart why do they feel mine and foreign at the same time. can you guess who my favorite mg character is. #well okay i have like what four or five of those but read the text again and think really really hard about it. i'm just kidding i'm goofing #around at this point. i mean no not really but i am smiling about it. :] #logs

[these-written-reveries]

I think one of the most difficult things about being autistic for me is struggling so much with making friends. Friends that actually connect with me and care about me in the way that I care about them. Friends that will actually stick around even after they see me in all of my authentic "weirdness" and won't judge me for it. Friends that want to truly get to know me on a deeper level and who put consistent effort into doing so.

I've struggled with finding people like this; usually being the odd one out in every friend group I've ever had. And maybe it's just been a wrong place, wrong time kind of thing -maybe the right people were just never around. But the ones I did find, that seemed genuine, all ended up subtly rejecting me and pushed me away the moment I started expressing my authentic self, and not the mask they were so used to seeing. They were put off by my autism; by who I am. I'm too weird. I love to hard. I care too much. I act strangely. I talk a lot. I miss the point. I'm too naive. I don't like "normal" things. Etc. Etc. Etc.

I've isolated myself for years bc I kept getting hurt over and over by people who I thought were my friends. My trauma and lack of knowledge about me being audhd didn't help when it came to filtering out the especially bad ones -only drawing me closer to those kinds of people. But I've healed a lot of those wounds since then. I know who I am and I love myself for who I am -especially in all of my neurodivergent "weirdness". And yet, putting myself out there and showing up authentically without masking has been really difficult and quite frankly, terrifying. I'm literally bearing my heart out like a target for people to hit. But it is also freeing in the sense that I can better weed out the people who aren't right for me sooner rather than months/years into a relationship with them.

I guess this is all to say that I'm still feeling the struggle all these years later and it stings. I want to connect with people so badly. I'm tired of being isolated and alone. I deserve good friends who love me like I love them. But where are they? I guess it may not be time just yet...I can be patient. I've been patient this long. If it means the right people will come along, then all this patience will be worth it.

That doesn't help to soothe the growing ache in my chest, though. Guess it's there for a reason, huh? Without it, I surely would not be making these strides towards honing my authenticity and opening my heart to receiving love for the first time in a very, very long time. Just gotta remind myself that the ache is a good thing. Shows my progress and how far I've come. I won't go back to living in a dark isolated shell again. I'll take these feelings over that any day.

#I don't usually post things like this but I felt compelled to get this off my chest this way #this year has been the year of me stepping into my authenticity #I'm super proud of myself for how far I've come 💖 #It's been really difficult but I'm committed to this journey #I know it'll lead me to the right people eventually :) #If you see this and you relate I'd love to talk with you! #maybe we can be friends? 🥰 #autism #actually austistic #audhd #k.talks

[thirteenandten]

I've started this year with soooo much motivation to change my career path and finally start translating books like I always dreamt, I'm surprising even myself with everything I've achieved so far tbh

#like it wasn't magic lol #therapy helped me in 2021 to see i needed the change #and in 2022 i had a very cleae goal of learning as much as i could #and now in 2023 i'm still learning stuff but already taking steps towards getting clients #and hopefully at some point during 2024 i'll be able to switch jobs completely #it isn't a quick process but i know it's going to be solol worth it #i'm so proud of myself with how far i've come since 2020

[redroom-rainbowguts]

Happy anniversary to this bastard, here's to a year of opossum angst!

Self indulgent art comparisons under the cut

Abandoned line art from a year ago when I realized the pose was too hard for my skill at the time

Hard to draw mf literally took a year to nail down a somewhat consistent design

#like obviously I'm still figuring shit out but I'm really proud of how far I've come #being sappy on side blog for today #@ ykw I actually had to use myself as a partial reference because the actual ref was someone more disproportionate than me :') #murder mc #leech ocs #leech art #2022 #idas

[theghostofashton]

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#the 15th of october is always a Day for me and usually i have something profound or interesting to say but #this year i'm just very proud of myself that's all i have #it was a really good day and i'm very proud of how far i've come #and thinking back to who i was eight years ago and how sad and scared and alone i was #god i wish that girl knew #that it'd be okay that things would get better that she wouldn't feel so alone and desperate forever #i wish that girl knew that the promise she made that day would still be holding strong eight years later #i used to count down to this day and cling so hard to the number of it all #use that to keep moving forward bc i needed that to get through #and i don't anymore i haven't in so long and it's just..... wild like when they say it gets better they mean it in so many capacities #in ways you didn't even think it could #it's been a hell of a fucking ride but i am so proud of this no matter what #that's all

[astrxealis]

it is so weird being a mentor now ... ;O

( tags got really sentimental at the end WHEEZE beware if you check T___T )

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #i like it though !! :O + it looks cool AND i love helping people out hehe #i've been joining a lot of pfs and helping ppl mhmhmhm super fun <3 #it's weird though bcs now i see stuff for like ... nier/eden raids First Time/Unsync/Sync wtvr but. Man. i was literally There #it's weird but ?? just in a sentimental way :O like how i now seem like those mentors w rlly nice glams and all ?? #that i used to be like Wow at when i was newer to the gave ... then again i'm almost 2 years into this game >< crazy to think honestly #⋯ ꒰ა ffxiv ໒꒱ *·˚ #i do believe that ffxiv's story is something i wish for those i love to try out :'O hehe it made me genuinely overjoyed when my irls started #altho they DO have good taste with one liking persona (3 4 5 and not just 5!!) and the other w. a LOT #including nier and fire emblem and elden ring!! i love them /p they are my bro while the other is my bestie <33 #hm. i might get off track so i'll get back onto what i'm actually rambling about GBJSHDBHG #i do savage... ultimates... pvp... gpose and glamour :O i just don't do rp HJSDHGJ not yet at least >< #idk it just. man i'm pROUD OH MY GOD I JUST SAW GAWR GURA IN GAME uh yeah anyways yeah i'm really proud #here i am now literally doing some of the hardest content in game. when back in ... even shb nier e9s etc OH MY GOD... #first time doing e5?? i think it was e5. i literally was on the floor for most of the fight LMAO and back then as drg #i didn't know my goddamn rotation and didn't. use geirskogul (i forgot spelling sorry) until it was time for red dragon phase ... man #and now. yeah!! idk it's sentimental hours :'> wahhhh i'm really proud of myself for coming this far hehe #and i have to thank a lot of it to ffxiv in more ways than one T___T that game really is the epitome of Not Just A Game for me #it's helped w my social anxiety and anxiety and self esteem and inspiration and so much more including my probable. depression #and uhhhhhhh yeah yeah yk what connects to that HAHA so yeah as you can tell endwalker hit me SO hard #literally the only thing i couldn't relate to in endwalker is having lost a loved one bcs i have not yet... but i can. understand yeah :')) #ybghbhshjhbhdb idk i just think i deserve the biggest hug :] and even if no one will give it to me except for myself #i think that's enough. at the very least <333 #it's probably not obvious but. i still struggle with those kind of feelings a lot ... but i'm really proud of how strong i am >_< #i think loving yourself isn't really like. necessarily All The Time. i have my downs but generally i'm proud and glad to say that i love me

[canonbisexualbuck]

my siren au fic has officially passed 10k words!!!!

#ik it probs seems like not a lot and kind of dumb but for the 10 years i've been coming up with fic ideas this is the first one that's #actually made it out of the basic idea stage and into an actual fic that i plan on putting on ao3 #and if you know me you know that's a huge fucking deal for me bc i get so paralyzed by anxiety and refuse to let anyone see what i make :( #but NOT THIS TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm determined and focused and motivated #and i'm proud of myself for getting this far. can't imagine how it's gonna feel to actually finish it!!! #but i'm getting ahead of myself so i just gotta take it one step at a time #summer makes a post

[soft-lee]

Birthday is in 2 weeks... uhhh since WHEN???

#literally WHAT #I'm rejecting getting older #I've decided to opt out #especially since I'm not gonna be getting any bday tickles #how is that even legal #I'm gonna file a complaint #lots to be thankful for though #22 has been rough but I've learned and grown so much #so proud of myself for how far I've come since last year #claire rambles

[itsalrightmeow]

Hi Hi!~

Sorry I haven’t been that active on here lately! But a lot has been going on ehehe

I graduated college earlier this month and I was putting my all into applying for my dream job so I was really stressed but I got it! (ahhhhh!!!!!) so I’ve been trying to get all of that stuff sorted out and my birthday is on the 19th so yeehaw!!

Hopefully once things like chill out I’ll have more time to draw bullshit again, life just really hectic rn (in a good way!) 

#I have a really great comic idea I wanna work on when I have time #I'm also working on a really big commission for a friend of mine #but yeah! I got my bachelors in computer science and a minor is history (if anyone is curious) #my birthday is thursday << #sorry not to brag on main im just really proud of myself for how far I've come ahhhhh #brambling