... I really do have to thank you dorks on Tumblr for being as positive about being fat as you are. I've told a lot of my friends and loved ones that them being thicker is never something to be seen as a mark of shame, but it's taken me until seeing so goddamn much positivity that isn't fetishized to begin actively looking down at myself and... not hating what I see.
I've always kind of preferred those with a rounder form. Some people have lean builds that are healthier for them and others have metabolisms that work on overdrive, and I'd never call them unhealthy. But people who hold fat, who have slower metabolisms or mental or physical issues that make the body retain weight... or just fucking love to eat because that isn't a crime? That also doesn't immediately make you unhealthy. And it doesn't fucking make you unattractive!
Yes! That fucking includes people who actively want and seek to be fat! Because it's a state they actually WANT to be in!
It doesn't make ME unattractive! I see a lot of fetish art as a furry who enjoys the wider ranges of the fandom's artistry, and while it's fun and fine to look at that and go "oh hey, someone likes those body types like that, cool", it doesn't feel the same as someone taking pride in their OCs being thick or chubby or fat or obese! I'm ace. I don't like being objectified. I don't like the idea of objectifying people.
But then I see people like Fey or Kris or Cake or Ripley or Cy just RELISHING in it! Casually telling you "fuck it, go make a fat OC, you'll feel better", drawing so many, if not almost all of their OCs as round and soft as they do! Sharing it all with the world as a mark of fucking PRIDE.
thinking of void stardust a little bit again... I'm thinking of how extremely lucky I was in my pulls. Glow came in my first 10 pull, then Nikki soon after, my 20th or 30th, I don't entirely remember. it's just a really nice little thing to remember though, feels like it was made for me, meant for me. I know not really, but it's a nice thing to think. I fell in love and awaited it for so long, and then it rushed towards me when it was finally on our sevrer. we were made for each other
someone probably said this already but in spiderverse i think it's interesting how when pavitr was first introduced everyone thought something bad was gonna happen to him bc of how confident and optimistic he was. and then in the actual movie we see that something bad was supposed to happen to him (police chief dying!) but it doesn't! miles stops it! and miguel berates miles for this, says it's going to cause the universe to collapse or whatever.
there's this idea that tragedy is inherent to spidermans growth, and while it's true that some spiderpeople learn important lessons through loss, no one stops to ask, is it really necessary? yeah, maybe the chief was supposed to die. but why does spiderman have to be formed through tragedy? why do we (as heroes) have to let people die? pavitr didn't lose anyone, and he's still a good spiderman! maybe, if he doesn't suffer, he'll end up better off for it!
so while miguel is arguing for all this big picture stuff about saving the multiverse he's lost sight of what it really means to be a spiderman, he's not looking out for the real individual people. yeah it's just one person who would die, but that one person means something to someone. shrugging and saying "stuff just sucks sometimes, we can't do anything about it" is the opposite of what superheroes do. pretty obviously, miles arc is also a reflection of the struggles people face in real life, working within unequal systems, where it's easy to shrug and say "that's just the way it is" and not ask "but why does it need be this way? can't we do something about it?"
miguel is arguing that you can't have your cake and eat it too. presumably, miles and co. are going to find a way to get around that and change things for the better (and maybe that's why miles has that line about two cakes in the advisors office!)
White French people hate it when they get a taste of their own medicine.
I was discussing with one of my colleagues and she told me how she was planning to go to Senegal for the holidays because she thought it was a good way for her kids to see more diversity and people who don’t look like them (ie Black People).
So I told her it was a good idea because I was 4 the 1st time I saw a White person (and I cried btw...) And she was so shocked, like she couldn’t understand that some Black kids have never seen White people in their lives but somehow doesn’t think twice about the fact that her kids are in a similar situation.
Another time, I was talking to someone else about how I arrived in France when I was young but had lived in many African countries growing up (RDC, Kenya , Gabon, Center African Republic...).
And then that person proceeded to go on a tirade about how I must have felt so lucky to arrive in France, and how I should have been relieved to arrive in a developed country like France, blablaba. I just told him “not really”, because growing up I was told that France was amazing and so wealthy, but the first time I saw homeless people was when I arrived in Europe, so I didn’t really understand why people always talked about Europe like that. And again, the guy was shocked, just because I didn’t say my life in Africa was miserable and sad, and because I said that Europe was from what I had heard as a child.
If you’re going to bring your assumptions without knowing, I’ll retort with mine ( the view of an 8-9 year old). I don’t understand how someone can feel so entitled and assume something about your situation without asking first. I’m sorry the only thing you know about Africa is that one documentary you watched in middle school but leave me alone.
There is something so deeply cathartic about being one amongst nearly 50,000 people watching Phil build a memorial for Techno in his Hardcore world. Something about shared grief. Something about humanity. Something about love and friendship and the legacy it leaves behind.
[A sad violin song plays over an image of a sad hamster]
Pac: This doesn't have anything to do with me – I wear a blue sweatshirt, you're crazy, this mouse doesn't even have a sweatshirt, this hamster! [Reading chat] Am I a depressed hamster?
[ Transcript continued ↓ ]*
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Pac: Actually– that's fine! I embrace that idea – of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy? [He hits his desk, then starts counting off people on his fingers] Fit is gone, Richarlyson is gone, Ramon is gone, Bagi and Empanada who were always there when we were there are also gone, I haven't seen them! It's just me and Tubbo, and sometimes Philza shows up.
Pac: I lost Chume Labs, I lost the Favela, I lost Murder Mystery, I lost Ilha Chume Labs, it's crazy! Look at how much I've lost, and I've gained nothing! Of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy?! How am I supposed to be happy?!
Pac: [Reading chat] "You have us Pac," that's true, thank you. No, that's true, sorry.
* NOTE: Please note that this is an incomplete transcript, as I was primarily relying on Aypierre's translation mod at the time and if I am not confident of the translation, I do not include it. As always, please feel free to add on translations or message me corrections.
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