#I'm really sorry that my response is such a rambly mess nonnie ;;;A;;;

[deandoesthingstome]

Hello! With only two chapters, Night Moves has become quite an anticipation for me, like i can't wait for next wednesday to read what comes next. First chapter was quite the introduction, very captivating, and the second is just so good. It made me feel like i'm watching a quality crime show, loving the complicity and the mess and all the suspense whether it's between characters or about the crime.

I must say tho, starting the chapter with the offender's pov is.. wow. We don't get to see that a lot. Idk if it's because the story's about crime against women, and how they're treated or viewed under specific circumstances, with adding the sick thoughts of the offender, i'm so invested in this story as it captured me from the very start. And while reading this chapter, it made me angry, like i was genuinely scowling at my screen. I want that bastard get what's coming for him. I felt the desperation, and Alex's concern not only for her friend but also towards another woman. I hope that makes sense. It also made me feel a little desperate, because we all see the news or hear the stories of other women, we all live with an awareness that no woman is truly safe and that we have to be on alert all the time.

Long story short (and sorry for my rambling), i don't see this like just another good story that i'll enjoy very much, it's also an important topic, and while we mostly come here for our beloved characters from certain fandoms, it's something special in my eyes. That effect may also has to do with your brilliant writing, the depth you've given to characters, and building a story cleverly.

So, i thank you very much for all the emotions you've made me feel, and the effort and time you've given to this exquisite story. I assure you, it's well appreciated, and i hope the inspiration fairies never stop seeing you. I can't wait for the next chapter, the story, and many others you'll be throwing our way ❤️✨💐

Hey there, Nonny. This was a very unexpected and thoughtful ask to wake up to this morning. I've had to sit with it a bit for a number of reasons. And I'll likely get just as wordy in my response so I'll cut it in a moment.

First of all, thank you so much! I'm really glad this story is resonating with you. I think this is every writer's hope: that a reader will connect in some way to the story, be it characters or plot or setting, whatever. And that the connection will spur a desire to read more. (More of my story, more of anyone's story. I just think it's important to want to read!)

And it's even more special when a reader takes the time to respond, reply, ask, inquire, gush, wax poetic, squeal in delight, you get the drift 😘

True story: my father was a crime story buff. He introduced me to the genre. I loved watching TV crime series with him. He once visited me and we tried to figure out where in my new hometown the opening scenes to one of his favorite shows were filmed. When he passed away, I found the unfinished bones of a manuscript he had started about a hard-boiled detective from his own hometown and era. All this to say, it's a little in my blood (no pun intended.)

But also, Night Hunter gave me so much to work with. To the crime theme of the story, the misogyny of the killer, I say it was an obvious choice. Walter Marshall hates violence against women and the men who perpetrate it. He thinks he hates all men, even himself, but I'm hoping to peel a little of that onion skin back. There's something more there, I just know.

Both chapters so far have actually begun with the killer's POV, though the first was just song lyrics. Not every chapter will begin with those thoughts, but they will likely show up in just about every installment in one way or another.

Also, I am a woman. I also hate violence against women. I hate how some women feel forced or pressured into uncomfortable situations, whether that be to make a living or the way men sometimes treat them. (And I realize this can sometimes be a two way street and sometimes it's woman on women or man on man violence. I hate it all, but my story is about a man hurting women.)

Again, I cannot thank you enough for commenting. I LOVE talking with other fans and I LOVE talking about my stories with anyone who cares to do so. I do hope you see this reply, Nonny, and come talk to me again. Off anon or privately if you want. I love knowing who my people are!

#nonny asks #charlie answers #fandom is community #night moves #mine

[undertaleimages]

Hello! Yes yes you have now gained a sleep deprived yet still somehow, someway very energetic Annon follower and if your not to busy I would like to request a matchup please!

Im a 5'1, chaotic gremlin of a female who I personally think leans more towards being an introvert and enjoy trying to read people when I meet them so I can have a better act around them, I tend to shrug off responsibilities if it's nothing major and if I'm nagged on something minor too much I'll get quite annoyed. I don't tend to express what I'm feeling espicially when/if it's a strong emotion and just let it fade away rather than speak my mind, I avoid the spotlight when possible and rather be on the sidelines. I'm an INTP-T[The Logician] if that provides any help, I love reading and when meeting new people crack some awkward jokes followed by awkward chuckles and visible nervousness, I struggle with self care often just focusing on random tasks until I have it completed or I just forget about it completely, I also get very nervous when sending things like this to people in fear I messed up somewhere and will linger on it for the next few hours most likely but that same nervousness also applies to social situations! I also get very burnt out and distant if around large groups of people for 6+ hours and get rather irritable and detached however I'll still try to be polite if spoken to.

I van be very creative and ramble on about things I like/enjoy for hours on end but don't do so often, slight caffeine addict[mainly involving drinking tea whenever we have some on hand]. Anyways to whoever you pair me up with they now have to deal with an energetic gremlin trying to play videogames with them at the crack of dawn.

Also sorry abt the wall of text! I got a bit sidetracked and began rambling. ^^'

Hello! Thank you for the follow and the ask Gremlin Nonny! :)

I match you wiiiiiith...

Underswap Papyrus! Here me out... He doesn’t sleep well at night, so he really doesn’t mind playing video games with you at the crack of dawn. You get along very well with his equally energetic and gremlin-like brother, so, that’s a bonus! He’s really good at putting you at ease when you’re nervous. Whether it’s about sending in asks or meeting new people! He loves your awkward jokes which is what caused him to fall for you in the first place! He’s really good at reading people, so I can imagine coffee dates where you two sit at a booth and quietly read people. He won’t nag you about anything, though his brother might... He will, on the other hand, encourage and help you with the responsibilities. Enjoy!

[poledancingdinos]

Oh. My. Heart!! This!! Finallyyy!!!

Exactly ss Riley said, I don't know words. Not to this brilliantly written chapter, the heart-stopping smut, and the sweetest emotions you've put me through. I feel like writing an essay about it, explaining how each sentence made me go all 😍🥵🥰🥺🥵😍

My sweet Riley, i'm so happy for her to finally have some comfort and joy in her life, feeling lije it's never been better. I feel like she's in a hapoy and safe place, and it's so satisfying and calming to read. I can't really explain.

And Sy... Oh, Sy. He's just the most caring, thoughtful, and responsible man in love. I love it. I love how he's with Riley. He sound the perfect man when i say this, and maybe that's what you've intended him to be, may be not, but that's what i needed to read right now. In this story, with Riley, he's just as the way i needed him to be, so thank you for that.

I want to write so much, like give you a proper comment on every moment i've enjoyed enormoualy, but as i seem to have lost my abilty to form a coherent sentence, or put my thoughts and feelings into words. That's partly because i can't specify a single moment, since i loved every single bit that i can't choose. Idk if i'm making sense with my rambling here, sorry 🙈

Thank you so much, and can't wait to read the remaining chapters. Riley and Sy's story gives me this unexplainable chill and emotions, like i know it's gonna be one of my comfort stories to go back to time and time again.

Sending all the love 💫💐

Hi Nonnie!!!

I think every emotion you've just expressed fits with what I felt when writing this chapter. I wanted it to be hot and heavy and emotional for them. I wanted Sy to worship Riley in the way he's always wanted and for him to always keep his hands on her body because he's just so hungry for her.

I love that Riley has become this girl that we all want to protect. It's like every reader of this story has collectively agreed that if anyone messes with Riley they will fight them.

And Sy... My sweet boy, I'm so in love with this character and I think he will forever be my prince charming. Writing Sy is a big source of comfort in my life and knowing that he brings the same comfort for others is the reason why I share my stories. 🖤🖤🖤

As always, thank you so much for the support and your kind message. I'm looking forward to sharing the last 3 +1 chapters with you all. I gave myself chills writing the last few chapters so they will be loaded with emotions 🥺

#💐 anon #You've got me hooked

[meowmeowmessi]

Your post about Dean treating others like family in a different way made me rethink what he said in 15x17. He tells Sam Jack isn't family like Cass. And then later he thanks Jack for his sacrifice since he and Sam (just them) will get to live in peace. It's like Dean knew Cass wouldn't stay after Jack's gone, knew how much the kid meant to Cass and he accepted that. But he also knew how much Jack meant to Sam (they just had a fight about it). But to him, not having Sam is incomprehensible.

Well nonnie now YOUR ask is making ME think about Dean and Jack's relationship AAAAAAAAAAAA. Ok so I think the funniest thing (ok not funny? More like interesting) is that Sam and Jack's relationship is the easiest one to understand. No, I don't mean it's shallow (if I hear another "Sam is Jack's uncle!!!" I'll cut a bitch), but it's very clear why Sam took to Jack so quickly and why Jack basically imprinted on Sam. Jack is literally Sam 2.0 and he even got a whole bunch of Sam's arcs in 3 seasons lol. ANYWAY BACK TO DEAN AND JACK: I've seen a lot of Sam stans getting pissed bc the writers APPARENTLY made Jack "like Dean more all of a sudden" and I totally disagree??? I think the thing is, Sam is like the mom who is openly affectionate with Jack so Jack doesn't have to work as hard for his approval, whereas Dean is the distant father figure who is hard to please so Jack is always trying to imitate and impress him to gain his love. I believe Dean loves Jack, I really do, but in a way a stepfather does ig???  As you said so yourself, not having Sam is incomprehensible to Dean, and Sam and Jack are kind of a package deal. Dean gave Jack a chance only bc Sam puppy dog eyed him into it, but most importantly, bc Jack SAVED SAM. And I think the kid grew on him after that, until he smoked Mary (can't really blame Dean here since that's his m o t h e r that Jack killed rip). But in Last Holiday we saw that Dean was trying to forgive Jack for that, which is a pretty big deal since we all know Dean doesn't forgive easily. And then Unity happened. HERE Dean's "everyone is family to me except Sam who is so much more than just family" policy comes into play for the umpteenth time. Sam says Jack is like family to them so they shouldn't let him turn himself into a bomb, Dean says Sam is his family (and throws in a mention of Cass bc he knows Sam is selfless and mentioning only him won't sway him) (which is funnily enough the reverse of what Sam does later on, he talks about the AU hunters and Eileen but Dean won't budge, so he uses the Sammy card on Dean: "What about me? Would you trade me?" It's super effective) and not Jack. Jack can never be on Sam's level no matter what. And he later thanks Jack for willing to sacrifice himself so that he and Sam can live a normal life off of Chuck's hamster wheel (and you realize here just how desperately he needs Sam bc the WORLD is going to get destroyed if Jack doesn't sacrifice himself but Dean only cares about him and Sam wow) (and as you said nonnie, no mention of Cass either). I have a lot of conflicting feelings on Cass and Jack's relationship which I won't elaborate on rn bc this is getting way too long as is and I'm rambling (orz) but I totally agree that Dean realized Cass wouldn't stick around after Jack's gone. And he really didn't! It's canon! Jack pulled Cass out of the empty and Cass didn't bother to visit Sam and Dean between 15×19 and 15×20. Since Jack's put everything back to the way it was and Cass is in heaven and thus no longer in need of a vessel, he's most likely abandoned poor unwilling Jimmy's body and gone back to his original form aka a beam of light the size of the Chrysler Building. Back to my original point: Dean loves Jack, but that love is conditional imo, while Sam is his whole world, so it's no wonder he was okay with Jack willing to turn himself into a bomb. Sure, saving the world was important to him, but him and Sam being free from Chuck was clearly what Dean really wanted. So in conclusion, I 100% agree with you nonnie.

#asks #is this meta??? #meta #dean meta #just in case lol #I'm really sorry that my response is such a rambly mess nonnie ;;;A;;; #how does one articulate their thoughts orz #I was watching Tarzan the other day and it made me realize that jack is like tarzan #while sam is kala and dean is kerchak #it fits???? #yes I think about spn even when I consume media that's not spn what of it #dean winchester #jack kline #dean and jack #sam and dean #wincest #can be platonic too #I have a lot of thoughts on cass and jack's relationship too tbqh #which is funny since I don't like cass *gestures at my bio* #rememer how sam said dean was behaving like john? yeah that #I also think it's curious how kelly and sam are pretty similar #remember how the shifter who morphed into kelly said 'it doesn't matter what you are. only what you do'? #remember how sam said the same thing in s4? #yEAH #I actually really like the little snippets of dean and jack's relationship we got in the show #like how jack adopted dean's taste in music #and his swears lol #and dean teaching jack how to drive #I think it's cute #naila's ficlets about dean and jack set in Unity vibe a lot with how I look at their relationship

[fuwushiguro]

OMG IM BACK AND I CAUGHT UP. Ahhhhhh psycho Megumi is back at it again!! I knew it he does have some sort of feelings. Or maybe he just lost control idk. Either way Megumi def uses these opportunities to start feeling her like boy you not slick. 👀 Your actions are not matching your words. I love how Y/N stood up for herself though! She’s growing ☺️

Also I love how sweet Toji is. 🥺 The only one besides Yuji sticking up for Y/N. And the ending please 😭 now I have a feeling the zenin family might push them to get married since her parents hate Yuji and they want their families to mesh or something. And I have an inkling that Megumi might push for it and agree too maybe? Using “I get to ruin her life” as an excuse OMG and Noaya maybe pushing for it too?? Like yes Megumi marry her so we can ruin her.

This story is getting better and better. Thank you for this masterpiece. You are amazing and your writing too 💖 also i love how sweet your responses are hehe. ❤️❤️

OMG YAY!! I hope you enjoyed catching up/reading the chapter!!

He is back at it again the mf just can't help his self. He's obsessed like... damn. There's so definite feelings there that he simply does not understand and I don't think he wants to understand them. In that moment where he kissed her it was very heated and he was so confused that his control over her wasn't working anymore. I think at the point in time he just lost himself a little? It was the most powerful thing he could do at that time I suppose and neither of them were expecting it. Having such intense feelings of hatred mixed with feelings you also don't understand is a very confusing cocktail for all parties involved! And again, he's obsessed. He thinks about her a lot whether it's just wondering where she is or wondering how he can mess with her next. He loves touching her up because he knows it makes her feel small and intimidated and he knows she blames herself. (Although it isn't her fault at all) but whenever he does those things to her she feels like she's betraying Yuuji and it does hurt her a lot. So for him to take it a step further and kiss her... it's going to be very draining for her to handle. But yeah she really is growing!! As I mentioned in another ask, having the support of an authority figure (Toji) and the support and an adult taking her seriously it's definitely added a new layer of confidence to her. You're right btw Toji is so sweet in this AU I love him 😭

Everything else you've said!!!! AAAA ur so cute I love your little theories! However my lips are SEALED! 🤐

I'm so glad you enjoy the series and you think it's getting better and better that is actually beyond sweet to say I appreciate it so much, thank you nonnie 🥺 I love writing it and your lovely messages make me feel so happy and give me the motivation to carry on this series!

And of course I wanna be nice with my responses! I'm so grateful to each and every person who reaches out to me. Whether it's just to chat or to talk about my writing or wusyaname!! It makes me so happy and I love talking with you all. I want to do everything and anything I can to give your wonderful asks my full attention. It means a lot to get to chat with you all like this and I want you all to know I really do take the time and effort to sit down and answer your asks, particularly when they're long and detailed like this one!

Sorry for rambling!! Have a lovely day nonnie u deserve it, take care of yourself 💖

#Luxe Mail 💰 #WUSYANAME series 🍋

[one-abuse-survivor]

Tired is when you're sick of life, or feel weighed down by the stuff around you. Sleepy is when you want to go to bed. That's how me and my friend do it, anyhow. At this point, I'm fucking exhausted to the point where I feel too tired to let it out but im gonna anyways. There's bits in here that I can't tell my friend, or anyone, so i'm hoping bc this is anonymous i can let it out. Right, intro done lol. Onto the story. Last night, i have no idea what time, maybe five or six, (all i know is this

thing ended at 7pm), my mom storms out of the room and comes back holding a bottle of water and her bag. She proceeds to tell my dad she found the bottle at the bottom of my bed, (basically im not supposed to have anything at the bottom of my bead bc asian tradition believes that youre on top of it and thats dirty or whatever). Then she pulls out my school photo, puts it on the table and tells my dad to look at it. Starts ranting about how I never listen, i look horrible, worst photo i've ever taken. 

Basically, I go to a private school, and they think I should look good, and then they spent some time lecturing me about how i was supposed to look right when i was in the school, I look like a boy, i act like a boy, my hair's a mop, I look like a hooligan. Start talking about when i dress to go to school, how my shoes aren't polished and one of them has laces that show the white inner. How my hair's messy at the back, if i saw someone in jeans and someone in a suit in the street, who would i think was respectful? They told me they shouldn't have let me into the school, they loved me too much, that's why, they should have let me go to this public school that has a reputation for being a mess, that i belong there, waste of money, they regret letting me go here, thought i was a respectable girl. 

Dad asked me again, who wouldd i think was respectful, the jeans or the suit, and I told him I don't know. We'll get to that later, but at that moment he sneered and snorted and looked at my mom. 'says she doesnt know' he jeers. I'd meant it as in 'i have no idea, please help me'. He took it as 'she doesn't know, and doesn't give a fuck'. I don't know how to look proper. they never taught me. they tell me that something looks good so i wear it. mom still buys my clothes for me. I have no fucking clue what looks proper and what doesn't. 

Anyways, somehow they moved onto uni, and my current work, and how I pull all-nighters and how dad thought i was smart but nopw he has no hope, how he sees me get up in the morning and know i'm going to fail the assessment, how i get distracted, how i take too long to shower, how i never learn, how i never help them around the house, they do everything for me and if he was in my shoes then he would work until 'smoke came out' (vietnamese saying), how he would be so grateful but i'm not and they're going to leave me (which is a normal threat for them lol) and how they're going to die (another normal threat, dad has a lifelong illness and mom has been struggling with leukaemia for years) and they're not going to pay for uni if i get a stupid degree, only if i get a good degree like they want which will actually help me (law), if i want to become an engineer (something im considering) then i can pay for it myself, then again it's not like i'm even going to get into uni, when they look at me, they have to think of the girl i was when i was five because if they think about me now they feel sad, they won't look at me because I make them sad, they had so much hope for me, now down the drain, no, down to the sewers, look at my cousins going out, one of them had piercings and infections and almost got tattoos and is a nurse in a prison with a husband who stressed her out so much she passed out at work, do i want that, that's what i will get if i dont work, basd job, assisstants have to buy pads for their bosses, horrible child, this will end one of two ways, one i listen to them and come back years later to thank them or i'll look up at the stars and wish that i'd listened to them and they regret having me and caring for me, if only they'd been better parents, they'd been too lenient, but i don't care do i because if i cared it'd show in my working to please them and i haven't done that so that means i don;t care about them.

Dad told me it was too late to change, then switches to tell me it's not too late, they ramble on about my internet use, (i have to ask them for internet) and i'm not acutlalyu doping work on it, i'm just fucking around, they kjnow, they know, i can lie all i want nbut it's true. Horrible child, they'll die, they'll die, That's the end of the conversation, we're not going to talk about it anymore. No, stop talking. I'm going to tell you this until i die. I'm going to keep saying it, beccause it's better that i say it and you not listen than i dont say it and regret not saying it. (okay, i can;t currently remember anything else of what they said lol.). By the way, you wanna know abt

[asks didn’t arrive and I asked for the last bit again]

ok lets hope to god this sends then. i think i know where i was up to - 'do you want to know about what was wrong with the photo' i think was meant to be that. anyways, yeah. guess what was wrong with it. i had a fucking splinge. like my hair was parted and a bit of the part was split. that's all i can see that's wrong with it. maybe my hair looked oily? idk but that's all i noticed. also said something after that about do u remember when dad asked me abt who did i think looked better the suit.

also can i add something i just remembered which is that one of them put folders on my shelf and mom told me she knew i put them there to hide what i was looking at on my laptop from her when i??? didnt??? put them??? there??? in the first place???? (the layout of my room allows the folders to block the view of someone from the door basically) i put new folders there after i think my dad put them there but i didnt originally put them there??? sorry it was a full ask rant and i have no idea what the freak i typed and what i didnt lol. but u get the gist i think. big fat lecture.

i am tired. my eyes were puffy and there was like this pool of snot floating on top of this pool of tears if you did get the ask sorry u had to read that twice. :(. i mean even tho u didnt see it i was able to let it all out. not sure if it made me feel better about anything but being able to do it at all is rlly nice. Thank you for that.

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No wonder you’re tired, nonnie... I’m really glad you could get all of this off your chest, and really sorry that you have to hear those awful things about yourself coming from your parents.

I’m a white European, so I don’t share many of your experiences and I don’t know how it is to live in a Vietnamese family, but I hope it’s okay to compare it a little bit with my experiences in my (very Christian) family--if not, you can absolutely skip the next paragraph! 

I have had a bunch of conversations with my therapist about traditions, religion, and misogyny, because since I cut my mother off, my grandfather has lectured me many times about how I am a bad daughter for looking out for myself and putting my life first instead of being devoted to my mother’s wants and needs. He told me that she’s sick and I’m horrible for not caring about that and abandoning her, and that if she doesn’t love me, I just have to work harder until I "crack her walls”. (As if I haven’t tried already, and as if she didn’t use her very mental illness as an excuse to abuse me). My therapist basically told me that sometimes, being the Disney villain in some people’s stories means you’re doing something right, because their vision of what’s right and what’s wrong (especially when it comes to daughters and women in general) is designed to hurt you, to make you put your family before yourself. That it’s never wrong to put yourself and your needs first, and that kids don’t owe their parents anything just because the parents brought them into this world--that was the parents’ choice, not the kid’s, and therefore it’s the parents’ responsibility to care for their kid, whoever that kid turns out to be; and not the kid’s responsibility to be the model child that the parents had in mind or to care for them.

Your parents belittling you for things you have little to no control over and accusing you of being responsible for their future deaths, for not knowing things that haven’t been explained to you, for not living up to their expectations without even giving you a chance to try, and for not “working for them as hard as they would in your place”, are all red flags of emotional abuse. Accusing you of things you don’t do and constantly drilling into your mind that they “know” you’re a horrible person who doesn’t want to learn or change is a red flag too, and probably an excuse to take the guilt off their shoulders for not taking the time to guide you in life and to explain anything to you before accusing you of not knowing it already. “It’s too late” puts the blame on you, but what it actually means is probably something along the lines of “It’s easier to scream at you than to put realistic expectations on you and then help you achieve them while respecting your boundaries and allowing you to make mistakes, but I don’t want to feel guilty about it, so let’s pretend you’re a lost cause, yeah?”

I used to go to a private school too, and my mother repeatedly told me that was the reason she struggled economically and that I had ruined her life. It wasn’t until I talked about it in therapy that I realised that I never had a choice in what school I went to. Same as I never had a choice in anything my mother decided for me. So how could I be to blame for the consequences of those decisions? And how can you? If they buy you certain clothes, then they have no right to criticise how you look in them. If they chose to put you in a private school, then the money spent is on them, not you. You shouldn’t have to “prove” you’re worth their decisions for you or their basic care for you--they chose to give you that unconditionally the moment they decided to have you in the first place, and if they refuse to give it or threaten to take it away, it’s becuase they’re neglectful and/or abusive, not because something intrinsic about you justifies it. You’re not a bad kid; you’re just a normal kid with very bad parents. And I’m really sorry that you have to put up with them. You deserve better 😔

I’m here if you need to vent again in the future, nonnie. Sending a virtual hug ❤

#Anonymous #Vent #Ask #Abuse tw #Abuse #Abusive parents #Emotional abuse #Long post #Threats #Guilt tripping #guilt tripping tw #Threats tw #therapy mention #christianity mention #neglect mention #(I'm nonbinary btw but it's not like my grandfather knows or would care 🙃)