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#I'm slowly killing myself by giving into sugar cravings at night and keeping stashes in my drawer or always having ben and jerrys ready
william-afton-positivity
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I haven't been able to vibe in a while...
#things aren't looking good tbh
#its all heading down the drain
#been craving physical affection dispite having a fear over it due to trauma
#been feeling like I'm accomplished nothing in life other than driving and barley holding onto a job
#I still have the job simply because its a family business...I would've been fired 100 probably
#I'm slowly killing myself by giving into sugar cravings at night and keeping stashes in my drawer or always having ben and jerrys ready
#my level of basic caring has plumeted so much
#and idk what to do anymore
#I've had pep talks that made me feel like shit
#pretended to call my mom out on all of the abuse and not caring I got molested by her ex bc all she cared about was her feelings
#or calling her out on the several years she's lied to me and others that she didn't break my arm and that I was at fault for being stupid
#over a cheap plastic horse
#or sending me to school with half of a bruised face I had to cover with a scarf
#and ive had these pep talks to myself pretending to call her out on everything. it made me mad
#and it made me feel like shit because I know I'd never be able to stand up to myself bc ive done it before and it ended horrible
#and that imma end up taking these secrets to the grave and no one around her will know the shit she did to me
#I just at least want a hug or smth. idk. cry as I'm told everything is going to be okay.
#but I cant because of the fear after all of that
#all I have to substitute are my blankets pillows and plushies to try and get by but it's not the same as a real person
#and it just makes me cry trying to replicate this feeling of being held or hugged with pieces of fabric and cotton stuffing
#so yeah
#....my vibe is just wrong lately
#and honestly? idk if it'll get better. it'll either steady itself or decrease
#vent
#tw abuse
#tw implied suicide
#tw molestation
#ask to tag
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