#I'm so hungry....

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME #there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing #and the writing is what i need to be doing #writeblr #this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to #edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol #i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!! #my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means #i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her) #hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong #i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet. #i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse #i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!! #i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO #i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness #and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it #im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us #i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer #and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art. #i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work #even if it means being miserable #but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.

[vulpinedyke]

i tried to include a variety in here, but obviously i can't fit EVERYTHING and there are so many delicious southern foods! be sure to check the notes for recs!

some others that i wanted to put on here, just so you know i didn't forget them:

fried green tomatoes with remoulade sauce (YUM), fried okra, collard greens, deviled eggs, hummingbird cake, peanuts in coke, kool-aid pickles (yes, they're a thing and i love them), hush puppies, key lime pie, pecan pie, and boiled peanuts, among others.

it'd be cool if you could put what your fave is and where you're from in the tags!

#i'm so hungry can you tell #food #poll #polls

[maranull]

anyway, Elden Ring is about love and hope

Marika burns everything she has build out of sorrow

Ranni banishes the Outer Gods and also fucks off the Lands, giving agency back to the normal beings of the Lands

Fortissax endlessly fights Death for his friend/lover

Melina burns herself and Erdtree in hopes of a better world in the hands of the Tarnished

Blaidd fights against the very reason he was created out of love for his sister

Ranni and Rykard always keep an eye on their mother, protecting her

Radahn evokes so much love from his troops that they organise a whole festival to give him a honorable death even in his madness

Radahn learns an entire new school of magic in order to still ride his favourite horse

Boc's love for his mother, his mother's love for him

How all but two endings are build on the hope that this new era (whatever it might be) will be good

Miquella attempting to create an whole new world-tree to host the forsaken and the damned

Miquella turning on the faith he was raised and even believed in to an extent, when it was unable to cure his sister's curse

The Cleanrot's loyalty to Malenia and their endurance of the Rot, only to stay in her service

Malenia marching through the entire continent in search of her brother

Finlay traveling all the way back on her own, carrying the incapacitated demigod on her back

Tanith's love for Rya

Dialos' entire questline

Edgar being driven mad after his daughter dies

Vyke embracing, to a point, the Frenzied Flame in order to save his finger maiden

or you know, that's just how I see it

#elden ring #i'm simplifying a lot in this #but that's the story #to me #it follows the pattern of the ds series too #where the world was miserable and depressing #yet the main theme was hope and perseverance #with elden ring we got so many more characters and as such love began playing a bigger part too #and you can't really have interesting characters without their actions being driven by love and hope #or lack thereof #even power-hungry characters are driven by the hope of reaching the power “level” they want #and hateful ones are driven by lack of love #or so i think

[songthursh]

A very, VERY basic doctors argument

#pathologic #daniil dankovsky #bachelor dankovsky #pathologic 2 #bachelor #artemy burakh #burakhovsky #burda #mop #artists on tumblr #artemy pathologic #pathologic classic hd #pathologic fanart #Patho #Ah I'm being so normal about them #We literally started playing pathologic 2 AGAIN and right after finishing all three routes for the first game #And like we played it already yes but the first time we missed all important stuff because ARTEMY WAS HUNGRY #It was intended difficulty tho but as a mere adhd being I was just #Well #More content now IG #Ah yeah and polyhedron as a cutie bug #Or beetles yes probably beetles

[rubydubydoo122]

Robin!Jason, Dying: Honestly, this isn't even the most traumatic thing that has happened to me.

The Joker: Excuse me? this is so traumatic. I'm about to blow you up.

Robin!Jason: I was homeless at 9, a pasty man with a crowbar isn't really that scary compared to the streets of crime alley

#jason todd #batman #batfam #dc comics #red hood #because lets be so fr #in the grand scheme of things #jason probably thinks his death was just annoyingh #it probably ranks number 7 on his list of traumatic events #I'm not minimizing his death #im just enhancing his other life experiences #he probably was really close to being murdered all the time on the streets #and was probably also almost trafficked #he found his mom dead #he's probably hates the cold more than he hates the Joker if we're being so fr #he probably is more scared of going hungry than he is of the Joker

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

self-love is me resisting the urge to eat the leftovers I have in the fridge as a bedtime snack, out of compassion and adoration for future-me, who deserves to wake up in the morning and eat something delicious without having to cook it first

#self-love is also current-me cooking eggs and toast as a midnight snack instead #it's delicious and i am not so hungry and rushed that i mind taking the time to cook something yummy #and as a second act of self-care i am even doing the dishes instead of leaving them to soak overnight! i'm being so kind to my future self! #... actually no I'm gonna leave the frying pan to soak. future-me can deal with that they're the one getting delicious leftovers #food mention

[yangjeongin]

HYUNJIN | 5-STAR DOME TOUR NAGOYA DAY 2 ENDING

#hwang hyunjin #hyunjin #stray kids #bystay #createskz #malegroupsnet #a9gifs #flashing tw #*gif #*ccarly #*hyunjin #*carly:hyunjin #hated this set then took a nap and woke up and liked it LJKSDLKFSLDG #i prob had some better timestamps but i didn't feel like going thru more outside of the most important ones i marked #so i'm just like. ok. good enough. i'm hungry #he's the prettiest ever i think. i love him and this look so much he is so beautiful...

[rodatirhaalo]

Thinkin' about how Samantha Béart said "karlach would've liked to open a tavern if she got the chance", and how The Gang uses the true resurrection scroll on Karlach 0.01 seconds after the credits roll (because OF COURSE THEY FUCKING DO), and how she would totally open that tavern with her Hero Money, and how she'd definitely have potato wedges you could order named "Mama K's Taters".

#It's a tavern but it's a steakhouse #also wyll doesn't become duke but he doesn't become heroman 2.0 to be thrown into the hells either and learns to live for himself #so he joins her in this tavern as a bard to live happily ever after with her telling stories of heroics to the patrons #and it's called The Dancing Devils #and and and #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #karlach #spoilers #bg3 spoilers #i'm hungry

[front-facing-pokemon]

#trapinch #i knew this one was gonna be good. no eyes. no mouth. just trapinch #pov. you are about to be bitten. or something like that. i think trapinch has a pretty interesting typing but it's mostly just because #i like ground- and rock-types that aren't. made out of rocks or whatever. i dunno if it actually has a dragon typing until it hits vibrava #okay it doesn't it's just a ground-type. but ground/dragon is interesting. i'm always surprised vibrava isn't a bug-type but it is still #interesting. imo. bug/dragon. 4x weakness to ice my belovèd #want the same downside as all the dragon/flying types for no reason? ground/dragon is your typing! garchomp typing i think #technically garchomp is dragon/ground as opposed to ground/dragon but no one pays attention to the order of types #except for Me… in my pmd ttrpg i talked about yesterday to me and like two weeks ago to you guys #anyway i'm hungry so i'm gonna go queue up vibrava. their eyes are a bit messed up so forgive e

[oh-biwan]

"Each day you feel me devour your soul."

#obikin #anakin skywalker #obi wan kenobi #oh.art #sw art #star wars #me‚ feeling peckish but not wanting to get up to find something to eat: -faint sigh- Anakin is always so hungry. for his Master. #for his attention. for his closeness. his everything... and even when Obi-Wan yields bit by bit Anakin never feels quite sated... #... me‚ reaching for the pen: Alright‚ let's do this :). #and if the quote feels suspiciously similar to a certain line from Jekyll and Hyde musical (Confrontation) you'd be right. #I'm not being subtle yes. the title of this blog is a blatant jekyll and hyde reference XD. my other obsessions seeping in. oh well -shrugs

[alisaint]

absolutely obsessed with the fact that coriolanus is always .00002 seconds from strangling sejanus (who's oblivious to this and thinks coryo's the best ever) homer simpson style

#tbosas #coriolanus snow #sejanus plinth #snowjanus #sejanus baby i'm so sorry you had to learn the hard way why you should never fall for a blond man. why did nobody warn him... 😞💔 #also. snow is so violent lmao. violent possessive obsessive paranoid snobby power-hungry etc etc. i love my villainous son 💚

[curapicas]

labru be like "what if we spend the rest of our lives taking turns in infodumping and being unnerved by each other's special interests"

#dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi spoilers #and then they did #couldn't get a high res image for the second one sorry #labru #kind of. but I'm pretty sure the situation above is canon #I hope laios food infodump make kabru so hungry he actually remembers to eat thrice a day

[nervocat]

Boothill gives cat vibes honestly.. like he'd be the cat to follow you around and stay attached to your hip when he doesn't have anything to do.

Very affectionate as well. Since his head is the only thing he can feel your touch from, he'll nuzzle into the crook of your neck like a cat would bump it's head against you asking for affection.

Boothill likes to put his weight on you as well. He'll lay on your chest, when your standing he'll hug your wait from the back and lean on you (which makes you stumble bc of his heavy metal body, but you manage to (maybe) stay standing. Maybe you'd fall).

On the other side though, he's very sassy. Pobably. Like Boothill would bite you (playfully + spitefully, depending), keep you from moving, say (silly) snarky remarks, you get it. Maybe.

But yeah um. I'm tired and ik I have more thoughts on this specificly but I can post more later.. gn reader btw and didn't proofread this.

#💭 — ⌗nervo rambles . ★ #my tired mind decided to make a little smth for him #so #boothill x reader #not formatting with how I do when I write my fics.. #I'm tired still 😞😞 #eepy #this my my way of writting for him tho guys #I've gotta do chores tho I'm so overdue me cats are probably hungry #also for my mutuals I based some of this off of my cat.. #so ya.... #might delete later tho bc I don't rlly like this #I just think he's a silly little cat #like my little fella Tuxiedo 🫶🫶

[uncanny-tranny]

I think one of the most surprising parts of transition, specifically going on testosterone, is just how... normal it felt to me. When I was watching other people go on testosterone and describe how they felt, I anticipated that I'd feel the huge emotions, the spark, I guess. But I didn't. If anything, I went from being a neurotic mess to being... normal. Almost painfully normal. It's like I've gotten a cloth and dusted off this thing I call my body.

I honestly think it's interesting how natural I feel on testosterone. I never really thought I could feel this normal, but I do. It's like I can stand in a crowd and not feel like eyes are watching me, like ants crawling on a log.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #nonbinary #HAVING FEELINGS #like i watched this guy talk about how... almost explosive it feels for him on testosterone... #...and he was talking about it like 'RAAAAAGH FUCK I'M SUDDENLY FILLED WITH THE URGE TO PUNCH DRYWALL' #'ANGRY...HUNGRY' and i think that's completely fine. but it was weird when i didn't experience that #instead of being like... i guess hormonal??? i just feel like i can take a deep breath for once #(though i do relate to when he was like 'I NEED TO EAT EVERYTHING IN THE HOUSE 🤬') #but yeah... i guess this is me just being fascinated at how the same exact hormone even at the same levels will feel and look so different #like to me that's magic. like the human body is the messiest result of pure magic to me #i guess to me it's so interesting that people have an intense experience on testosterone when i just do not #(and my levels are normal for my body/age range. it is painfully in the middle of normal in fact) #(though i am overdue for labs. i was JUST talking about labs with my dad too 💀)

[risustravelogue]

I have to work tomorrow, despite tomorrow being a public holiday. (sob)

It got me thinking about Alhaitham's reaction to you having to work on holidays.

"Really? What a bother... Can't you get out of it somehow?" is his reaction when you tell him the night before said holiday.

You try to convince him that you really need to clock in, that there's this big project you need to talk about with your colleagues before the work week ends. By the end of the day, he is convinced.

... Or so you think.

Cue him trapping you in his arms when you try to get out of bed the next morning.

"Haitham?"

"Nnn."

"Let me go. I need to work."

"No."

"Come on, we talked about this already."

"No. Stay. It's a holiday. You're not supposed to work on holidays. Take a break."

"I told you I need to work on this today--"

His arms tighten around your waist. "No. Stay in bed. Stay with me. I'll pamper you all day. Anything you want... Just don't go."

You let out an exasperated sigh. "Well, better use that Acting Grand Sage title of yours to get me out of work then!"

He chuckles and nuzzles your back. His fingers knead on your stomach and sides, the comforting sensation making you smile. He murmurs against your skin.

"Thought you'd never ask."

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#alhaitham #alhaitham x reader #alhaitham x you #genshin x reader #genshin x you #genshin impact x reader #genshin impact x you #genshin imagines #genshin impact imagines #genshin fluff #genshin impact fluff #genshin scenarios #genshin impact scenarios #kurisu imagines #kurisu's thoughts #kurisu writes #please I wanna stay in bed all day with him #I'd bury my face into his manboobs and enjoy his warmth all morning #then make a simple breakfast when we get hungry #ough this is so domestic I'm so WEAK help--

[bixels]

When I was getting my diagnosis, my psychiatrist told me right after giving me my prescription that I need to consider eating food a part of my medication, and that flipped a switch in my brain that oh. Maybe willingly starving myself and eating only one meal a day isn't healthy.

#typing this while i'm at work and so hungry my stomach is aching and hurting #personal #delete later #i don't even know why i starve myself i don't have an eating disorder and it's not like i forget to eat #it's just i have so little time to eat meals nowadays that i don't consider it important anymore #so i just try and tough it out #tw: eating issues #tw: eating problems #tw: disordered eating #idk what tw to put on this #tw: medication