#I'm sorry but I need a break

[spidybaby]

I wanted to post something today but I've been so tired and sleepy. When I got home the first thing I did was lay in bed for a moment cause my headache was uff crazy (but that's on me for eating later than I should) and I ended up sleeping like an hour.

To all the anons who sweetly asked me for something, know that I'm trying, I'm just not on the best shape rn and need to get some energy.

#To all the anons asking #I'm sorry but I need a break #ngl that nap was fire 🔥 #football

[hualianschild]

‼️spoiler‼️ (chapter 63)

uhm so that happened...

(i was NOT ready omfg)

#the different emotions i went thru while reading this chapter... #I'm sorry i spoiled most of the chapter BUT I NEEDED A PLACE TO SCREAM HELP #CHAPTER 63 WOULD HAUNT ME FOR DAYS #the apothecary diaries #jinshi #maomao #kusuriya no hitorigoto #I WENT FROM LAUGHING OVER THAT AWKWARD MOMENT AND BICKERING TO SCREAMING OVER THE LAST PANEL OMFG I NEED TO TAKE A BREAK #update : just realised he was FCKING MOANING holy shit

[willosword]

oh this actually hurts like on a physical level

#yeah i'm so sorry mark but you two need to break up i can't handle amber being scared #it's always like a slap of reality when you get to see a civilian's reaction to violence in invincible #willow whispers #invincible #invincible spoilers

[userjiminie]

"all the solo work is just a journey to get back home safely" — kim namjoon bangtan first solo tracks of ch. 2 + favorite lines

#bts #dailybts #userbangtan #btsgif #btsedit #bangtanedit #usersky #userkelli #usersan #annietrack #*g #i feel so bad about the jungkook gif but i'm just too exhausted to come up with a good transition for his text sorry bub #okay i think i'm gonna need a ps break again hehe #i was already making this set when namjoon said what he said and then i was just 🥺

[toasteaa]

Sorry sorry, I thought about Neuvillette getting so lost in the feeling of your mouth or your cunt around his cock that he fucking shatters the headboard caught in his grip.

Something about him always being in control, always being so careful with his strength when it comes to you, holding you so lovingly even when his thrusts grow harsher. Rougher. Sweet whispers littered between his subtle moans and your keening whines before you hear a sharp crack in the wood above you.

The way his hips stutter against yours, stilling as he presses his face deep into the crook of your neck; a single, deep groan and a hiss of "yes" as his warmth floods you - and he practically tears a chunk out of your headboard as if it's nothing but a flimsy sheet of paper.

His endless apologies afterwards and his insistence that he pay for the repairs (or for a new, more study bed); you're just trying to figure out how to get him that feral again.

#toast talks #genshin impacted #I'M SORRY I'M SORRY THE IMAGE ENTERED MY BRAIN AND FUCK #I NEED IT I NEED IT I NEED IT AAAAAGH #FUCK BED BREAKING SEX I JUST NEED HIM TO DROWN IN PUSSY AND RIP MY HEADBOARD TO SHREDS #cons of fucking a dragon: broken headboard. pros of fucking a dragon: broken headboard. #UGH THAT AND HIM LOSING HOLD OF HIS COMPLETELY HUMAN FORM AND TURNING INTO HIS HALF DRAGON FORM WHILE FUCKING YOU 💙💙💙💙 #I NEED TO BE *RESTRAINED* #genshin smut #neuvillette x reader #neuvillette x you #no more tags because this is SO self indulgent and I'm going INSANE thinking about this -

[flimsy-spine]

my favorite madney scenes: [20/?] ⇢ Monsters, 3.06

#madney #chimney han #maddie buckley #911 fox #911 abc #911edit #madneyedit #chimneyhanedit #maddiebuckleyedit #*911 #* #madneyscenes #hi hello sorry for not posting for 2 days #i got really into iasip and realized the true meaning of brainrot and am currently having THEE Worst case of it no joke Oh My God #the ghosts of macden have Literally been haunting my dreams #that being said. posts might start to be more spaced out now #i need breaks sometimes guys. i'm only seventeen. there are LAWS!! #and also i've posted over forty times since december 1st so i think i have the right to a break without warning yes? good glad we all agree

[temeyes]

[OC] 1hr paintover of an old artwork ✨ (comparisons under the cut!)

2020 -> 2021 -> 2024

if there's one thing y'all should know about me, is that i'm never satisfied with my own work. esp if my work involved ocs lol!!!!

#i like painting over old art.. makes me feel good to see the improvement #anywho! i just wanted a break from the fanart stuff and i'm still mentally recuperating from all the going out and social events last week #like pls i need my sPACEEEE I NEED TO BE ALONE FOR A WHILE PLS HSAHSHASHASHA #it's why i spent the entire day and the day before playing stardew valley.. sorry ahsahshash #my art #2024 #my ocs #maria williams #oc #ocs #original character #original characters #concept art #character art #character design #art #original art #digital art #digital drawing #sketch #doodle #digital painting

[shigure]

thoughts on "writing oberon"

i don't think oberon is compelled to lie about everything intrinsically. if you ask him coffee or tea he can pick one. if you ask him what color the sky is he can tell you blue. if you ask him who won the superbowl, he's not googling it just to make sure he gets it wrong.

vocabulary for this post

vortigern: abyssal worm that destroys and loathes

faerie king: who he pretends to be

oberon: both/neither, just the fastest way to refer to the unit as a thinking being/practical reality

the nature of his lies comes from his existence as a walking contradiction. the faerie king is perfectly suited to faerie britain on the surface - he's friendly and silly and popular, and he enjoys playing pranks and entertaining people. he's never experienced any major loss like murian has, and he's as loyal to his wife as aurora is to melusine. the fairie king as presented by shakespeare doesn't have anything substantial going on between his ears. || the destroyer of faerie britain has always been disgusted by every part of it. he's keenly aware of how it was made; he's the will of britain trying to kill itself rather than limping along as this colossal parody propped up by moronic culture thieves. and just like the place itself, he's being paraded about as some kind of clown - hell, a cheater to boot. he's a walking insult to his own dignity, and he will only feel peace when it's all been blown to pieces.

this of course creates his cynicism. his experiences on the surface befriending the welsh forest faeries allowed him to feel real love for parts of this place, which heightened his disgust for all of it. surely he lamented in an irreconcilable way when barghest, the monster he created, [destroyed part of britain] and killed the friends he had made. and as his perspective becomes more disjointed in a way that can be understood, it all becomes even shakier when you add in that the faerie king is inherently unreliable, frankly just insubstantial - because any strong emotions the faerie king expresses are written to be ploys and no more, the being that is oberon-vortigern cannot voice sadness or anger, lest they be taken for the faerie king's crocodile tears. forget feeling responsible and conflicted, he can't even grieve because his strongest emotions are labelled tricks as soon as he shows them.

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beyond that, it's really important to remember that oberon is an actor. he describes "the faerie king" as a character many times (titania too!), but you and he are not side characters - he calls the two of you spectators, i.e. not actively serving as characters at all. when he is participating, he plays a role. when he is with you, even though he as a person is still tricking you, he's not going out of his way to act like a silly faerie king and entertain you. it might be easier to understand this if you think about what he was pretending to be for you: a PHH faerie fitting in as a lostworld faerie. he's undercover, and even though the guy you talk to is still a faerie king, he's here with a more serious mission that differs from his public face.

him being an actor is crucial for how he was summoned in the first place. vortigern is a writhing mass of hatred for what britain has become. it can't love britain. it can't belong in britain. things that don't belong in faerie britain, like holmes and nemo, are weakened there. if it's going to enter britain, it needs a body that won't hate britain. it will hire itself as an actor to play "the faerie king," and read its lines dutifully. this isn't something vortigern manifested before doing and decided upon, it's something that had to happen as a premise of the summoning itself, to allow vortigern to manifest at all. for the duration of oberon's existence, from summoning til nonexistence, he is there as an actor. that includes while he's being vortigern. look at vortigern's sprite: do you see where his bug feet and bug hand connect to his body? not clearly, no! hell, his legs actually black out so we can't see whether the pants cover insect legs or turn into props. they appear to be melded to his clothes, but those aren't gloves and shoes. they're connected to his body, but they're something as removable as an actor's prosthetic.

all that is to say, [vortigern] [is an actor playing] [oberon] is a statement without removable parts. all that can happen is shifting the order into [oberon] [is an actor playing] [vortigern]. and just like the faerie king's love for the welsh forest faeries was just lines read off a script by vortigern, vortigern's vitriolic disgust for those same faeries is just lines read off a script by oberon. if the "actor" part was optional, vortigern's body would be a hell of a lot more fucked up.

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i've previously likened oberon to an experience i have when i'm discussing something i dearly love with people who also love it, but i mention something i really hate about it. for me, this happens because i get nervous, but i end up panicking and trying to reassure my friends that i really do like the thing in question. so, i end up walking away feeling dissatisfied: i either didn't properly convey my unhappiness with That One Thing, or i did a disservice in expressing how much i love the overall product. when this happens, i feel i haven't done justice to myself.

i don't think oberon has self confidence issues (though obviously he does hate himself), so he's not going through it the way i am. but it's also true that when he's talking about things that really count, nothing he says can do justice to the multifaceted emotions he has about things. furthermore, the automatic devaluing of his most emphatic statements that comes from him being the faerie king is incredibly disheartening.

his options are either be noncommittal and insubstantial, or be sarcastic and dismissive. he's black and white in one, but not grey, instead a checkerboard. he's the ultimate "and" statement. to force an opinion out of him is to pin him to one side, but since the other side isn't less true, whatever he says becomes false. if you use a command spell to make him only speak the whole truth, he will fall silent.

i think that as you spend more time with him, a lot can be better conveyed without words. i think that if you make it clear you understand and believe the part of him that despises you, you can experience the equal part of him that is impressed by and maybe even grateful to you. i don't think it's impossible to understand him, and someone who understands him and still wants him is something he considers an unattainable dream.

#popgo #i really hope this is coherent i tried to highlight some keywords and break it up appropriately #to just feel two ways at once and deride yourself for being inconsistent (the third way) #is something i feel can be understood #also i need his stupid bug pussy so bad. i'm sorry man i can't go five minutes without saying it. i'm struggling over here.

[ryuki-draws]

Anyone had one of those animal shaped flash drives?

#transformers #maccadam #mtmte #mtmte rewind #tf rewind #I finished MTMTE yesterday and I have unhealthy coping mechanisms (drawing this) #I hate this was my first thought after I read what Overlord did #lord help me #I'm so sorry Rewind #I need a break before I jump into the LL and other stuff

[jorvikwildhorse]

My Horse's Dragon: A Star Stable Online Fan Comic -- Chapter 1: Honey and the Dragon

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Hi. I made a star stable fancomic about Faramawr because I have something wrong with me i think :)

#the last page is a complete copout but i havent made an actual comic in years and it was already 10 pages. i needed a break haha #sorry this is huge i hope it wont clog up anyones dash #long post #sso #sso fancomic #faramawr sso #my art #star stable online #i enjoyed drawing the horses faces in this but consistency is not my strong suit. hopefully i will improve with time. #i'm not like...HAPPY with it but i am REALLY PLEASED that i finished it if that makes sense? #my horse's dragon

[gothamcity-official]

It's twosday.

Two Face is running amok causing chaos, but the colony is on his tail! No one has been able to tell what exactly the two of today's thing is, but we're sure it's there.

#two Face #only in gotham rp #only in gotham #onlyingotham #op #dc #in character #*exhausted* hey. how ya doing #yeah sorry. I uh. crashed and burned and I needed a small break but I'm coming back :]

[buglaur]

#ts4 #sims 4 #hi #daithí lore drop #this is felicity's mom #i have another cute post queued up for tomorrow #abt this guy getting ready to fly off to komorebi #can't wait to catch up on all the dan bc stuff i missed while i was away!!!!< #i wanna get back into posting again #i've been so up the walls these past few weeks #but i'm off rn! #gonna try play some of the legacy soon #i'm really really sorry to my eighty odd asks just sitting there #and my dms i'm so fucking sorry #tomorrow is the day i answer everyone i promise #i've really clammed up recently i need to break that habit #/daithí

[dailyjermasparkle]

Hey sparklers!

I've been having a bit of a rough time in my personal life lately, so I might not be making many, if any at all, posts other than the daily sparkles, and any donation commissions.

#i'm doing better #but i just might not be as active on tumblr #or i might #sometimes when i need a break from the world i come on here and look at silly fandom things #just wanted to send out an fyi in case anyone sent an ask that was left unanswered #not that I respond to all my asks #sorry y'all

[ddarker-dreams]

Damn I want a wrestling competition too.

Now do it with hxh🔫

....

please🛐

honestly . i'd be too scared to play wrestle any of these people HTJKEMGR i feel like this music would just start playing in the background as if some higher power is trying to intervene.

anyway. play wrestling, yan hxh edition.

lets you win, but droops themselves over you afterwards claiming that 'you trying to harm them hurt their feelings': CHROLLO, shalnark

gives you a single look that fills you with such shame you stop immediately: pakunoda

stares at you unblinkingly until you awkwardly give up or try to explain what you're doing: feitan, machi, illumi, shizuku

is just happy to be in physical contact with you: PHINKS, nobunaga

picks you up and holds you in the air like you're a feral kitten until you run out of energy: uvogin

there's not enough money in the world where you'd try to pick a fight with them, even as a joke: hisoka

#literally every situation i tried imagining was kinda scary or made me wince from embarrassment #miss paku could merely raise an eyebrow at me and i'd honestly say something like 'i'm sorry ma'am' #feitan would say something unnerving as a joke but you'd think he's being serious by his deadpan delivery #'playing bone break game now?' #GOD where is a restraining order when you need it #yandere #concepts #answered #Anonymous

[buthappysoverrated]

bowling pin dennis 120x120 transparent background. for your discord use.

bonus:

#idk why I can't make coloured version like the moment it's in photoshop it's black and white #and lunch breaks stopped 20 mins ago I need to go back to work bye #I'm very sorry for this but what do you expect me to do??? leave this along???? #dennis reynods #iasip #iasip s16 spoilers #it's always sunny in philadelphia #hy speaks #nothing

[sk1llz-heeler]

Gustavo moment (New pencils)

#They feel weird #Breaking Bad #Better Call Saul #BrBa #BCS #Gustavo Fring #Gus Fring #Art #So much work this lil sketch is refreshing #I'm sorry if he looks weird I didn't pull up a reference until I needed to know his tie length