#I'm such a sad person

[holdoncallfailed]

here is the life i've always longed for.....!!

#idk i just like this picture #sometimes when i'm sad i try to look at the city thru the eyes of my 13 year old self and everything becomes magical again #personal #nyc

[tubbytarchia]

I don't know what this is all I know is that LimL Joel makes me really emotional

#I know he has a tendency to go deranged on his red lives but idk something about him beginning to lose it after Jimmy died and killing Grian #joel smallishbeans #smallishbeans fanart #trafficblr #Again its his red life shenanigans but... If only Jimmy had known how affected someone was by his death. I'm choosing to believe this #and him then going out like a sad pathetic wet cat even with Grian's sacrifice... He really deserves a win one of these days lmao please #Also I cant stop thinking about how Jimmy wouldn't have left him. Grian was sensible to and most players probs would have #Joel really does become a lost cause so its fair and Grian did still care (and went to say goodbye as well as sacrifice his time for him) #But Jimmy would have stuck by even if Joel were in this state (and they'd both get themselves killed pathetically but) #And Joel having shown such genuine care for Jimmy and concern over his limited time... man anything w Jimmy makes me so emotional lol #I love them so #oh Ig about the art itself. I dont like it but hey thats how it tends to go when you try smth new. And no shame in trying #but if one person likes this then yayy I will still feel accomplished and happy #Im looking at this again and hey its not that bad actually yay I love to approve of my own art. self love hell yea #tubby art

[worthless-misery]

Dear diary...

The fact that I'm still "alive" in 2024 just feels like a huge mistake...

#dear diary #tw #personal #worthless #empty #tired #useless #i want to die #i hate myself #i'm sorry #pain #alone #anxiety #self harm #suicidal #sad #depression #heartbreak #hurt #hopeless #kill me #lost #lonely #broken #numb #not good enough #i shouldn't be here

[yrsonpurpose]

You are not who I raised. Oh, that is all I am, mother.

#mary and george #maryandgeorgeedit #mary & george #perioddramaedit #nicholas galitzine #userninz #chrissiewatts #usersteen #usergayppl #usermegsb #mine* #mary and george spoilers #and thats on acting!!!!!! #sad pathetic little george you will always be loved #the way his whole demeanor changed throughout was incredible to watch #i need some awards to be won i'm so serious rn #and the way nick described it: having to play the manipulator and the manipulated at the same time #i Get It now. truly #not many people have that talent to make you feel that way about a inherently bad person #cant believe nick just fell into acting my god

[insignificantfailure]

Not now please I'm busy rotting in bed

#vent #venting #vent account #actually mentally ill #mentally tired #personal #depressing shit #i'm sad #vent blog #anxienty #mentally fucked #sorry for being depressing #tw depressing stuff #depressiv #tw depressing thoughts #tw depression #tw depressive #anxi4ty #anxitey #anxeity #sad thoughts #i'm tired of everything #i'm so tired #tired #im tired #im exhausted #emotionally exhausted #emotionally drained

[bitegore]

Zionists want you to conflate Judaism and Zionism. Zionists want you to believe that Judaism cannot exist without Zionism and that all Jews are Zionists. Zionism would have Jews believe that a Jewish state is the only way that they can be safe from antisemitism and will point to any instance of antisemitism as proof that Zionism is the solution- so Zionism wants gentiles to be antisemitic in their support of Palestine. They want you to conflate all Jews with Zionism and the state of Israel, and they want you to treat all Jews regardless of political affiliation as the face of Israel. Antizionist Jews exist, and incidences of antisemitism ostensibly acting against Zionism will not help dismantle the forces propping Zionism up.

Don't do their work for them.

#red rambles #viva palestina #antizionism #i haven't actually seen a lot of antisemitism personally. not recently anyway. but that's more a feature of me not following antisemites #i DO however see a lot of people talking about the people they're seeing throw their support behind antisemites using palestine #as an excuse to conflate all jews with israel #and i cannot stress enough that that is literally what israel and zionist forces abroad WANT. #i am jewish. my entire family is jewish. i want to see palestine free. and i have SEEN how the jewish community gets conflated with israel #both from the inside and out #and i am dead serious when i say that every time someone is antisemitic it strengthens the conviction from people abroad #that it's a terrible sad situation but there's 'no other choice' #if you're being antisemitic you are doing the enemy's work for them. Stop it. #like... look. i am putting this in the tags bc im talking in the tags but i mean this. I do not give a single flying fuck if you personally #are a giant raging antisemite at the moment. Your personal beliefs are your problem and not mine. I do not fucking care. But if you are #being openly and loudly antisemitic *in your support of palestine* you are absolutely not fucking helping. I am so dead serious right now #if you want to raise awareness and you're being antisemitic because of deep held beliefs or whatever i want you to look around and read the #fucking room. Do you understand how much of Israel's international support comes from the idea that they are the only country where jews ar #safe from antisemitism? do you see how every time palestine comes up people point at incidences of antisemitism in anti-genocide actions to #discredit the entire movement? do you not understand how your actions are cutting the movement down at the knees? #i'm jewish and proud of it. i don't like antisemitism. but there's a genocide on and i'd rather work against it than quibble over who i #work alongside. i dont fucking care. you can be as antisemitic as you like in private. stop fucking the movement up. #there are bigger things to worry about here. if i can put aside my own concerns as to who i'm talking to you can hold your tongue #and fight the good fight instead of handing weapons to the people who are trying to fucking flatten gaza.

[late-for-the-sky]

I hope my absence brings you the peace that my love couldn’t

#love #lost #falling apart #broken #empty #bpd #depressiv #borderline personality disorder #suffering #sad #alone #kms #heartbreak #loneliness #emptiness #today i'm sad #sad love #heartbroken #mental health #suicidal #tw sui ideation #tw mental illness #manic

[vanillaearwig]

Yaaaay Radar yaayy!! Everyone clap!

#blues doodles #mash 4077 #radar o'reilly #One person said i should draw radar and i took that personally #i love and miss radar :“( #i also started season 10 i am so sad I'm almost done with mash

[adustoflove]

Having bpd to me is like I'm the loneliest person on the planet, no matter how many people I talk to, no matter how many connections I make or have, I'm a lonely void who will die alone. I have to be talking to someone or with someone every second of every minute of every day. I love people so much, I need people. There's so many people out there with different things to teach you. And then, if I have to talk to one person for more than 6 seconds today, I'll kill them. I'll kill myself. I need to be left alone for the rest of the day, I need no one but myself to be happy. I don't want to partake in anything with anyone because it's all draining and taking out of my alone time. Everyone is the same, they're all boring and self-absorbed. Every conversation feels like I'm forcing myself to be actively present. I just want to be alone in my room with nothing or no one. I don't see a future where I'm happy with anyone other than being by myself.

#bpd #bpd vent #actually bpd #bpd thoughts #actually borderline #bpd splitting #lately I've just been slowly moving away from all my friends too #haven't spoken to anyone on insta for days despite usually talking to at least 2-3 friends every few days #irl sent me a video a week ago...never responded. I haven't even been feeling lonely really #I just KNOW when my period creeps up on me I'll be a whining sad piss baby who's openly pathetic about needing human connection #like I wish I just felt no need for it ever. it feels SO good to be alone and not have any obligations as a person #then the crippling loneliness of forever being alone seeps in when tbh I'm fine with it currently actually

[nothirtysix]

Day 5 (i guess????): Butcher Army

The butcher army happened while I was still mostly only watching Technoblade so some of my first introductions to Ranboo were from his perspective. I remember him just. Handing over the armor (and ending a plot line before it started lmao).

some close ups for you, my darlings.

#ranboo fanart #tommyinnit fanart #technoblade fanart #cranboo #dsmp fanart #cranbootober #my art #@_@ things have happened in the meat space and so now everything I do is at a snails pace and I'm so sad about it #will i do more cranbootober? maybe. i want to. i did like 20 some thumbnails and I think some of them are bangers. so. we'll see. #i have a bucket full of WIPs and personal projects I want to get through #blehhh

[ink--theory]

forbidden love type of beat

#i'm too lazy to color it in so all you get is this lmao #if you wanna color it in yourself then be my guest just msg me and i'll send you a transparent ver. #splatoon #agent 32 #agent 4 #agent 8 #ah yess my personal agent 32 au that i've only drawn for one other time and will never write fanfic for uwu #I was still a bit sad about splatfest so I just said 'why not draw some good ol yuri' and here I am #my art shit

[mikimeiko]

Highlights from my 3rd Disco Elysium playthrough

Bonus: Rotisserie Chicken HDB

#disco elysium #de #KIM IS HERE #but also #DO IT FOR THE WORKING CLASS #i love this game so much #i just finish playing it today and i'm already sad #i love you Harry Du Bois bi disaster #i love you kim kitsuragi coolest nerd in the world #i love you insulindian phasmid - every single time #i made this #i just want a tag for the things i personally put out into the world

[worthless-misery]

Dear diary...

Every day that passes is just another battle against myself...

I'm tired...

#dear diary #personal #tw #worthless #empty #tired #useless #i want to die #i want to disappear #i hate myself #i'm sorry #pain #alone #anxiety #self harm #suicidal #sad #depression #heartbreak #hurt #hopeless #kill me #lost #lonely #broken #numb #not good enough

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

MDZS Disco Elysium AU part 2 - Psyche Skills

Part 1 - Part 3

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #disco elysium #MDZS disco elysium au #jiang cheng #jiang yanli #yu ziyuan #While it's more in vogue to draw a character's skill roster tailored to them - #One of the more subtle details I love in DE is how some of the skill portraits parallel character portraits of people hbd associates with. #Theres somethine rather poetic to be said about how other people shape out thoughts and sometimes act as a 'voice' in our head. #How we are in part a collection of impressions other people left behind on us. #I am a huge Skillhead (Those are my friends! My party members! They love me! They have their own agendas and alliances!) #so of course a healthy portion of this AU is dedicated to them <3 #the Int skills go basically unchanged from DE. Psy as well (with changes to a few quirks in voice). #Fys skills though...well...wwx is in a different body! Those voices belong to Someone Else. #Esp electrochem (MXY in this AU also partied to near death. WWX is withdrawing and craving substances he's never even heard of before) #While I personally don't fully subscribe to Volition Jean I *do* see Volition Jiang Cheng. The voice of your Not Brother keeping you afloat #All three of these parallels make me unbelievably sad. They are also both purple. Art is like that sometimes. #Empathy Jiang Yanli...oh man do I have a lot of thoughts about her. Disco fans Who Know....you can probably see what I'm cooking. #Authority is a really interesting skill in DE because *yes* its about power and intimidation - but it's also about finesse and respect #Titus Hardie and YZY both abuse *and* finesse how they establish their authority - in a way that leaves quite an impression. #2 more mdzs disco posts that I *need* to create and then I'm off to working on raffles <3

[saccharinescorpion]

Eleanor Vance should NOT have been at the club (she should have been at her little cottage with her white cat and her oleanders) (and her stone lions) (and her cup of stars)

#i'm rereading (re-listening) and i'm a mess #when a book is so good you're actively sad about how you didn't discover it earlier #the fact that you can't search this book without the goddam nnetflix series coming up first is a punishment against me personally #for my bad posts #the haunting of hill house #eleanor vance #shirley jackson

[uselessnbee]

i will always be a firm believer that this was Mike's oh no i like him moment

and that's why he immediately went after El because he likes her too right? she's cute and really pretty, she's cool she has powers and saved their lifes so many times already! and he really cares for her and missed her this year and it's like Nancy and Lucas said he must have a crush on her! that must be it. so maybe if he focuses on her these feelings for Will (whatever those feelings might be) will go away and he can be normal right?

and this was his oh fuck i'm in love with him and it won't just go away but it's too late now moment

#byler #mike wheeler #will byers #this is just my personal opinion of course #but i do believe that at the end of s2 when he watched Will dance with a girl #he felt something and there was this little voice in his head telling him it's because he likes Will #but he tried to dismiss it and thought he likes El too so he thought if he'll focus on her #then those feelings for Will will go away that's why he tried to spend every moment in s3 with El #and tried to push Will away (until Will was in danger) #but at the end if s3 he realised that no it's not just a crush that will go away if he's going to be with El #but he's truly in love with Will and there's nothing he can do about it but he lost him now again and it's his fault and and #and yeah i'm sad now