#I'm super sad now and going offline

[dreambunnynotes]

daily reflection: nov. 16th ❤︎

good morning lovely friends! here is what i accomplished and what i could have improved today, to hold myself accountable. it was really effective for me to know that i had posted my goals list on tumblr yesterday where others could see it; whenever i felt like giving in to my adhd brain that tells me that tasks are to be feared, i would simply remember that i had kind folks online who were interested in seeing me succeed hehe, it helped me so much! here is my first day ❤︎

accomplishments:

i completed all of my cleaning goals and more! it turned into a deeper clean than i thought it would be which felt really nice (and is usually how it goes once i get cleaning). it's so lovely to be able to start fresh with a clean working and sleeping space; it's so much easier to feel inspired, be productive, and take care of yourself when your environment is as ready for you as you are for it!

i wasn't going to complete all of my texting and calling tasks, BUT I DID! these types of tasks are the hardest for me to get done because i have pretty intense social anxiety and rejection sensitive dysphoria, and communicating with others both online and offline takes a lot of mental preparation and energy for me. but i did it, and i am so, so proud of myself! in fact...

self-compassion:

not only did i accomplish my original communication goals, i also ended up replying to two friends i hadn't seen in a long time, even though i was anxious! both of them were at my sister's show last night and i was so surprised to see them and a couple of other friends that i had to go have a bathroom cry from the anxiety lol. i had so many emotions coming up; the first was sadness and shame seeing that they had all come in a group together and that i wasn't with them. i joined them two seconds after i saw everyone, but the sadness was still there because i was positive they would have invited me into the group earlier if i had been less isolated this last year, which is where the guilt came in. i realized i had been isolating from my friends for so long out of fear that i wasn't wanted, didn't provide anything to them, and that maybe i didn't have people i liked being around after all, but that is so, so far from the truth; i do have friends who love me and who i love, and all of them were so loving, so kind, and actually sent me messages after the show telling me how much they loved me and how happy they were to see me! it made me cryyyy and feel so many feelings. i have plans to see them next week, and i actually feel like i'm overcoming my isolation era at long last; i'm really proud of myself for having self-compassion and using tools i've learned in therapy to better my life! :')

my next step is to learn more about and overcome this shame i have around letting my friends love me for who i am; the only way to learn more about it is to actually make plans to see friends and be vulnerable; wish me luck 😭💗

improvements to make:

as for my other tasks; i cleaned out one of my emails, but i have so many email accounts that it felt a little bit lacklustre to call that an accomplishment. today i'd like to break down how big the task of consolidating my digital life will actually be so that i can take measurable and consistent steps towards completing my goal (writing that sentence is baffling me right now - bunny from a few days ago never would have realized how much writing out her goals could help her in being less afraid of them! this feels like a huge accomplishment for my adhd brain!)

today felt like a really successful day, and i'm super proud of myself! this was only the beginning of what i actually want to accomplish in a day, but it was such a great way to try it out. i'm excited to see where this journey takes me and how these daily checklists and reflections will affect my productivity; they already have helped so much! if you've made it to the end of this, thank you for taking the time to read about my day, it means so much to me! lets try our best to have another successful day! ❤︎

#bunny's daily diary ✨💕🌷 #becoming that girl #dream girl #dream life #girlblogging #glow up #it girl #productivity #that girl #pink pilates girl #pink pilates princess #clean girl #self improvement #self care

[zeglythofficial]

Re: R posting T on social media. He's hilarious, oh T you hypocrite. It;s so in line with this ask: https://www.tumblr.com/zeglythofficial/741692415395659777/i-agree-with-the-anon-who-said-t-is-probably?source=share T being a Leo Mars and being "OBSESSED WITH PRAISE... MAJOR validation and an upper hand over those they see as there rivals." It makes me happy to imagine zeglyth together and R feeding us all the content. "He strikes me as the type to boast about having a successful and beautiful partner on his arms." - How interesting that this is so different from his relationship with BB. That he will be prideful going public with her. But it's also completely different since R is a star (and BB has her own say in how her relationship is with T). We know where R stands on public relationship. Oh R, if they do get together, I hope she doesn't get too tempted by the popularity of Zeglyth. There's a line, and with proper communication I'm sure T and R can find that line. Again we're in this for the long game, so they'll be more mature in a few years.

Okay the Karma card is admittedly worrying me a bit. wait come again, IMMEDIATELY, how immediately is that? Why are they so stubborn. Please at least talk to each other.

So we've established they are so ying&yang, and the pillars to support their relationship are COMMUNICATION and COMPROMISE! I am quite invested in them and their PALPABLE CONNECTION, and I really hope that they don't fuck it up. I'll be sad for them, how could they walk away from a connection like that.

They're such dumbass soulmates. They can't ignore their connection forever, they'll have to cave eventually. Also amusing how they're both trying to put up a front with the other. These idiots who care deeply for each other. T caring for her and holding her in a high regard, he respects her so much! See even tarot 2.0 is feeling sorry for them, which means things are bad :(

Okay I'm just gonna focus on the fact that this is current energy. BOSS just released a few months ago and as said, they have their own projects to focus on. Hopefully years from now, they'll be game.

I hope R takes a break from us, or steps back from social media. Do whatever she needs to recuperate.

That last answer was beautiful. Perfectly said at the end, it was very uplifting to us. A reminder to all of us that deep connection that RT shares. The toeing of the line, makes me smile.

They have many long and deep conversations. Shared secrets and good times! T feels R is very different from anyone’s ever met and adores her. The potential will always be there for him. He will always love her and fears he will never feel this way again. No matter how many times they fight and argue, they will always have each other’s back.

He will always love her and fears he will never feel this way again - Oh T. this part is super bittersweet. To show how profound and singular his love for her is and that potential being lost breaks my heart.

All in all, I really hope they don't ignore their connection. This feels like the makings of a once in a lifetime love. I hope they choose their cards right, and things also align for them. I believe in their soumatism.

1. BB and R are so different lol or at least I think. Who knows maybe BB is constantly online too. I’m hoping by the time R and T get together, R is more offline and doesn’t post her man everywhere.

2. Yeah, they shouldn’t resist their connection. That’s dangerous and stupid. The connection is there for a reason.

3. “Even Tarot 2.0 is feeling sorry for them which means things are bad” LOL the shade but yeah if she feels bad then things are terrible for zeglyth rn

4. Friends to lovers! The slow burn will be slow but worth it.

5. Me too! They’re soulmates! Even if they right it for now, they will find a way together again. Maybe PCA will be the first step.

#my answers #written in the stars

[ramblingtomcat]

I'm randomly sad.

Actually not that randomly. I'm missing a person I don't know if they'll ever come back again. I have no idea what happened. I'm worried and I try to not be worried, but I just can't help it. I miss having them in my life, texting them random shit and I don't even feel like I have the right to?

I feel like I'm worrying about it needlessly. I feel like I can't share that missing, because nobody could understand that specific type of relationship. I am afraid nobody can help me with that. Even if I told them. I actually have told people that before. I told my friends and my partner about how I miss them or am slightly concerned about them, but nobody could possibly fathom how deeply I feel this.

My life goes on and I live it. I feel so much more stable than that other time before when they disappeared. And that wasn't even for so long. I am enjoying my life either way, but it feels like someone has been ripped away from me. Like some part of myself even is ripped away from me.

I don't even know them for that long, but texting them had become some daily thing that it was becoming a part of my daily life. I would share my thoughts with them. I would listen to them about their life and share about mine. I feel like my heart is breaking. I'm just so sad. If only I knew what is happening with them. Because if they were like "yo, Tom is such an annoying person, I don't like them anymore" I would be totally fine with that. I would be able to just treasure the moments we shared, even if it was just one-sided and move on. But without that.... Are they alive? Are they in jail? Did somebody die in their family? Are they in a hospital? What is going on?

I have never felt like this in an online friendship ever. And that comes from a person who only ever dated people they got to know online (well, those relationships got offline at some point so it's not super comparable anyway but yk).

I miss talking to them. I miss sharing stories about life and stories we wrote. I miss getting hyped up for my selfies describing my gender of the day. I miss feeling understood by them. I miss them clocking my behaviour. I miss them affirming me and I miss seeing their pet photos. I miss them gushing over their partner and I miss their jokes.

And somehow I feel selfish for missing them. I feel selfish for feeling entitled to have them in my life, as if I was expecting them to be some kind of "mine only". Which is obviously not true. But there is a reason why I sometimes seem so aloof, even with friends.

I grew up with people telling me I am sometimes too much. I grew up on people telling me I was too obnoxious or too quiet or not quiet enough. I grew up learning that I should never tie people down to me. That I should never expect others to like me. Well... That even when there are valid reasons for people to like me, because I'm likable, sometimes people just don't want to spend time with one person all the time.

And I was fine with it because I needed my alone time too. And I also didn't like to spend time with all of my friends all the time.

But this also resulted in me being a person afraid of being too much. Somehow I am in that paradox situation where I both fear and am totally okay with rejection. I'm a person that both can commit to a person and dedicate a life to a partner no second thoughts. And at the same time, I would totally be able to run away thinking people are better off without me.

Fuck this hits hard right now.

I feel like everyone is replaceable at any time. And at the same time, everyone leaves gaps in lives, whenever they leave.

Why is it all about leaving? I feel like having lost both of my parents just make me fear people dying without me knowing sooo much more.

#tom rambles #friendships #online friends #death mention #heartbreak #rejection

[fayoftheforest]

Hello! 💡🖤🔔🍙🥒 please! :)

Ask is in reference to this ask game. Thank you for the ask!

💡- What’s a idea you’ve enjoyed but never/couldn’t write?

Every now and then I muse to myself about "Through Hell And Back." The premise is that a regular high school AU Kyle, angsting about moving away to college, starts waking up in different AU universes and has no idea why. He has to solve whatever Big Dilemma is going on there before he can move onto the next universe. The themes would be about fear of independence and the unknown, and his main character arc would follow him building up confidence in his ability to adapt and find his feet in new situations. However, the reason I'll probably never write it is because I am fixated on the idea of him waking up in the specific AUs that I've already written (SPC, SIAB, and the upcoming Deny Me And Be Doomed), and I think that would be wayyy too niche to publish to a general audience and expect them all to get the references to my other works. So, for now, it'll just stay right inside my head!

(More answers under the cut :)

🖤 - What is your favourite book/author?

Outside of fandom, my favourite book is The Outsiders by S.E. Hinton. It’s an absolutely marvellous, thrilling and heart wrenching story about young boys getting roped into gang violence in the 50s. The author wrote it when she was just 17 and it is generally considered to be the first ever YA novel so it’s a pretty big deal!! But even if you’re not into literary fiction, the charming narrative voice is easy to read and super fun. Inside of fandom, my ultimate respect goes out to our founding fathers Hollycomb and SekritOMG. The sheer quality and quantity of their works will never cease to amaze me. I would walk barefoot across a bed of hot coals just to shake their hands.

🔔 - What compliment meant the most to you regarding your writing? (offline or online)

I don’t generally rank compliments when I get them because they all mean so much to me! But one that has stuck with me was from an Ao3 guest user named “help” who left: “I want this whole story with no details lefr behind tattooed on mh left asscheek” on The Craig Tucker Hate Club. That really meant a lot to me <3

🍙 - What story (fanfiction or published work) had the biggest impact on you?

Again, hard to measure, so I’ll go with the one that I’ve thought about the most after finishing it, which was Herbert Garrison’s Night School For Unwed Fathers. There’s this one bit where Stan asks Kyle if he’s happy, who replies, “Happiness is a dog sunning itself on a rock,” quoting “some poet.” And that really stuck with me, because I love the idea that there's no such thing as "the meaning of life," and all we can really do is seek out joy in small moments. I used to think about that phrase all the time. "Happiness is a dog sunning itself on a rock." Then one day I wondered where it first came from, so I looked it up, and learnt that all this time I'd only known half of it. That the full quote is, "Happiness is a dog sunning itself on a rock. We were not put on this earth to be happy. We were put here to experience great things." And I was kind of upset, because this whole time I'd been reassuring myself with something that means the total opposite of what I thought. That we do have a purpose, but that purpose is not happiness. But because it was such a habitual thing to repeat to myself, I kept saying it - the right way this time. "Happiness is a dog, sunning itself on a rock. We were not put on this earth to be happy. We were put here to experience great things." And, slowly, I began to find a different kind of comfort in it. It shifted the focus from the source to the emotion. Instead of dismissing pain, the full version addresses the guilt that comes with sadness, the 'Why aren't I happy when I should be?' Because happiness is a dog sunning itself on a rock, that's why. Because that's not who I am. I'm not sure I really believe that anyone put me here, but I think that 'to experience great things' is the closest meaning to life I'll ever accept. To experience great sadness. To experience great anger. To experience great joy. To experience great embarrassment after monologuing in some silly Tumblr ask game.

🥒 - What is a writing style/AU/trope you would like to try out?

I’d like to try writing in a more literary fiction style. I don’t do it often because it’s still quite challenging to me and requires a lot of heavy editing and rewrites, but I enjoy the depth that kind of language brings. My first fic for K2 week, “Pushing Up Daisies,” is in a somewhat literary style, so I hope people will enjoy that when it comes out on September 1st! Some upcoming AUs in K2 week that I’m going to try out are a western AU (day 3), a soulmate AU (day 4) and a SOT au (day 5)! Very much looking forward to writing them :)

Thanks again for your ask!

#ask #ask game #south park

[joaquinwhorres]

Wait. I’m super confused. Is there a post anywhere explaining everything with Maddie, with sources? I’m getting bits and pieces and just wanna make sure I understand properly.

The one with receipts is in the work. I'm in the process of gathering receipts & links from past public posts and permission from people who have come to me privately about their stories. Many are wary of involving themselves due to past experiences (either they not being taken seriously or seeing other creators attacked for standing up for themselves.) it's understandable but sad.

Here is the main issues that will be documented and sourced via links (once I'm back home from errands).

1. The users Maddie (randomestfandoms-OCs and all of its iterations and sideblogs) and Veronica (codenamekryptonite & ocfanhub) are the same person. They pretend like they're not and often reblog their own stuff, make gifts for themselves, participate in the same discord server as two different people, etc. Several users can corroborate this unlike other accusations of a similar nature (i.e. that keke & vannah or keke & tessa or lou & vannah are the same person.)

2. Maddie has stolen OC & fic ideas from multiple creators. I am again gathering permission of stories and screenshots to share. Often they claim that the similarities are an accident, they'd never seen the other OC, their OC is an idea from when they were 11 years old but they just got around to posting/revamping now, etc. When they are called out for this, they go offline, claim an anxiety or mental health attack (which may be true but is not an excuse for the behavior), have their friends group around them to defend and attack the other creator as being ridiculous or a bully. (Again, other creators have been run out of the community for claims of copying recently even though there has been no proof of them doing so. Just anons attacking them. But there is proof and usernames behind the claims against Maddie and nothing has happened.)

3. Maddie's OCs backstories often have a gratuitous amount of trauma which is not necessarily something that needs to be stopped or fixed. I mean creative rights. But it SHOULD be tagged for those who might be triggered. And I'm not talking tags like "food" or "drug use" which while valid are very dependent to the user. I'm talking tags like "sexual assault" and "pedophilia." (Once more, some users have included these storylines with tags OR been accused of using these storylines even if they HAVEN'T and been the victim of hate and harassment. I'm not saying people need to do that to Maddie. Just pointing out the double standard here.)

#Anna-tiope #links to come #reciepts to come #feel free to reblog with your own reciepts

[brightonratgirl]

I wrote a poem about trans loss and empathy and experiencing it all online for someone you don't really know as well as yourself. It's not super polished and the parts about Twitter feel old now haha. But I think it's worth posting for this Trans Day of Remembrance.

It's called Sorry for your loss:

I was sitting on the bus when I read your post

I'd been kept offline for a bit so I had to catch up

/

Like going through the motions

Of the swirling acidic oceans

That signal nausea telling you there will be sick

/

I mean I didn't even know that she was ill

I only knew you were together and doing rather well

She seemed to bring the best things out of you

Without that presence I hope they don't go back

I would have loved to have met her

/

That's the thing though, isn't it?

There was a chance and now there's not

Clarity where lies a spot

Of dark and sadness few will dare to touch

How do I broach the one you loved so much?

/

So many things I'd like to say

A shining white shield gets in the way

I need to tell you you're still wanted

I need to hug and squeeze and hold

And let you cry into my shoulder

And know that we will all grow older

Forget the pain but not the person

/

Why is it that when I saw your post

An icy hand gripped at my throat

But when I say I'm sorry, it will get better

I've never in my life felt more pathetic

My bottled message barely survives across

The static sea when I say "I'm sorry for your loss"

/

So now I'm saying I would have loved to have met her

I've thought it so many times don't make me think it again

Because my tweets are sterile, distant, empty

But I'm not, and I really would love to meet you

#trans day of remembrance #poetry #tdor #trans love #tw death

[tamtam-go92]

Check in tag

I was tagged by @aondaneedles. Thank you!

Why did you choose your url?

Tamtam, or rather Tam has been my nickname in real life for a while. It's just short for my actual name. And you know Tomtom navigation? They've had that slogan Tomtom go back when navigation systems where the hottest sh*t. So Tomtom -> Tamtam you get it? I use that name only for at least 15 years. 92 is just the year I was born since tamtam_go was already taken.

How long have you been on tumblr?

I had to check but my first reblog is form April 2016 so I guess it's been my tumblr birthday this month!

Do you have a queue tag?

No, I queue my usual gameplay posts, everything else I post is just random stuff that comes to my mind or I find funny/important/sad/sweet enough to reblog

Why did you start your blog in the first place?

I was pretty active on deviantArt but stopped doing art when my drawing tablet broke and I noticed that some of my mutuals there were going away to tumblr, god knows why. And I just followed them and then I discovered simblr and then I really got back into simming and here we are now...

Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

It's my simself, a really outdated one though. In between I've had my hair short and bleached and now it's grown back above collarbone. Someone once pointed out my simself looks like Loki Beaker...

Why did you choose your header?

So this is a relict from my DeviantArt days and I've used this header ever since I have this account. It's the last piece I uploaded on DA and was probably my best one xD I really want something more fitting to the theme of my blog but I really just can't let go of it...

What’s your post with the most notes?

I really don't know. I usually don't get many notes on my posts but that's okay. It's probably one of my attack on titan posts. This one has 56. My most popular sim post was the one about Sam Cordial and Gabe Green's messed up wedding for a long time and could still be it!

How many mutuals do you have? / How many followers do you have?

I rougly counted around 30? And I have exactly 150 Followers.

How many people do you follow?

193. I'm picky, okay?

Have you ever made a shitpost?

I don't really know. What exactly is the definition of a shitpost?

How often do you use tumblr each day?

I try to check in at least once a day except for weekends, I try to stay offline on weekends as much as possible. But usually I'm online all day anyway.

Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

I did have a small fight about the genetical aspects of the Naruto couple NejiHina. Listen, I don't engage in shipping wars. I turn 30 this year, I'm over this. And I don't have anything against relationships between cousins, you do you, okay? And I agree that in a historical view, Neji and Hinata should probably have married and would probably have married. I only told that one person, that genetically speaking Neji and Hinata are half-siblings since their fathers are identical twins. That was all. They were pretty pissed at me and asked me how that made them half-siblings. I tried explaining but I dropped it after another angry response...

How do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts?

I don't reblog?

Do you like tag games?

Yes! I tend to be an oversharer so it's great to blow some steam xD

Do you like ask games?

Same xD

Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

I'm super honored that @deedee-sims is my mutual!

Do you have a crush on a mutual?

No.

I'm tagging: @zabossu, @sushigal007, @penig, @sixamese-simblr, @kimbr3. Feel free to ignore if you already did this!

#tag game #check in tag

[hedgypeng]

I feel like such a fool you know. Seeing things that obviously weren't there. Letting others make me believe something was there. (Of course something like this wouldn't happen for me... I was really kidding myself)

But I'm most definetely not sure. Practically certain I was wrong. As suspected. But it's okay. If a story seems too good to be true, it most likely is, right? I am grateful for what is there, just sad it isn't what I hoped it could be.

And hey, maybe I am wrong. Only the future shall bring us that wisdom. But for now, it just is what it is.

Every time my phone chirps, I wonder if it's you. I can feel my heart beating faster. Dissapointment when it's not you. Our messages might not have been a big deal. Not much was said really. But to me they meant a lot. Knowing you took time to talk to me. And I know that that is super silly. But if you knew I've always felt 'not worthy', you'd understand.

I'm just so confused as well really? It feels like you're ignoring me. Or responding the bare minimum. It feels as if I'm bothering you. But, I thought you'd be the kind of person to communicate such things. But you haven't yet. And whenever I post a story, I do see you watch them? Does one watch stories of people they are annoyed by? I ask how you're doing and when I say I'm there for you, I get a '👍🏼'. Is it because you don't want that? Or do you not believe that?

I wonder what it's going to be like when I'll see you again. Which is quite soon again. Will it be like before? Or is my gut feeling right and you're actually bored/annoyed with me? Either way, I'm both excited and nervous.

I wonder if I should have told you... if I should have taken other steps. But I don't know you well enough to be able to guess how you would react, or how I should interpret your reaction.

I did have learned a lot, thanks to all this. I stepped out of my comfort zone quite a lot. I've gained some confidence. And maybe, just maybe, I am not that bad after all.

But I can feel my head overthink again. About anything and everything and everyone. I don't want it to be bad again. I do not want to spiral back down. I'm trying my best. I am surrounded by great people. Online and offline. I am standing up for myself more. And well, I might even honestly answer when someone asks me how I'm doing. I will try to not negatively selftalk. And not make myself a matter to joke about.

I suppose we'll see...

~

[yikesaronincheese]

i love my best friend sm i really do but i hate how she never responds to anything i say 90% of the time, i will text her multiple things while shes offline and she just likes them, sometimes she doesnt even do that, she also sends/says a bunch of stuff while I'm offline but i always replied to everything she said or sent, recently I stopped doing that but still reply to a couple things since I feel bad not saying anything. i know its passive aggressive and i should just talk to her about it but it pisses me off and makes me so sad that she pretty much ignores what i say, even when its a vent or im super excited about something even tho she says i can vent whenever and I am always there for her when she vents or is excited. i know that everything I get upset about is stupid and trivial but I can't help but feel like the world is ending with everything, and the stuff i get excited about isnt really that cool or interesting to anyone but me but god i wish she would at least act like she cares, it really hurts to be ignored, i dont have many friends and she is one of the only TWO i talk to daily/more than twice a week and she knows that, i don't have anyone else to go to when im upset or excited, so i still just go to her even tho i know she probs doesnt even read or really look at what i send, she just likes it anf moves onto whatever she wants to ramble on about. sometimes she will show that she at least reads some of the stuff i say by mentioning it so i cant even really be mad at her but it still hurts, i wish she would at least reply to a couple things i say, she only does when i say something to what she sent. i still get excited to talk to her and send her stuff on and offline, I think about her fondly and when we do actually talk its so nice and i get so happy and remember why we're friends but at this point idk if im really that happy to have her as my best friend or im just so lonely and dont have any other options. at first i thought i finally found someone who cares and listens to me, a best friend after years of not having one, but now it feels like she doesn't care. when she visited and stayed with me for a month she would interrupt what I was saying and say what sje wanted to then move teh convo on so i couldn't say what i wanted to, she has adhd and cant help but blurt out what she wants to say and i really don't think she has any bad intent but it still hurts. i fantasize about having someone who listens and cares and responds and lets me say what i want to, someone who talks WITH me, not just someone I talk at, if I wanted to just yap into the void I'd ramble here more. someone who has a convo about stuff i want to not just stuff they want to. i really don't think she means to be like this and that makes it worse since i feel bad for being upset with her about it and i really am in the wrong, i know i am, if i would just talk to her about it im sure she would say sorry and reply yo me a little more, she has autism so its hard for her to talk about stuff she doesn't care about but it still fucking hurts to be ignored and i cant help but want to ignore her back

[gachag0d]

Blasting Joji at 3 A.M. ANGST | Obey Me x Joji Nectar pt. 2

Synopsis: Sorting the Obey Me characters into which Joji Nectar songs I think they would blast at 3 A.M during sad hours.

Characters: The Brothers and The Dateable (-Luke)

CW: Joji's music is explicit and contains Swearing, Mentions of Self Harm, Thoughts of Suicide, Alcohol and Drug Abuse, Implied Violence, Unrequited love, & Possessiveness.

A/N: Banger after Banger after Banger. Nectar, man. Just perfect.

Ballads 1 | In Tongues | Nectar pt. 1 | Nectar pt. 2 | Smithereens

"Guess I've been awake, thinking 'bout our fate Fighting two devils, blood in my toothpaste Speedin' through the night (Ooh, ooh, ooh) Thought it would be nice (Ooh, ooh, ooh) You just make me nervous, you are cold as ice (You're cold) I was in your town, drivin' eighty miles Do not even notice, do not even frown And how could I deservе this, I'm never slowin' down (Nevеr slowin' down) You love me at the surface, love me like it's now (Love me, love me, love me, love me)"

MAMMON, Leviathan, Simeon

"Handsome young man, never pull up on time Lookin' in the mirror, lookin' good should be a crime, crime All this pain I'll never let show My real thoughts, you'll never know Never know (no, no), never know, no (no, no) Handsome young man, never worried 'bout time Flexin' on the 'net, it's the same offline, aye If I don't lead, where will they go? They follow my every move Every move (every move) Every move, every move (every move) I'm a, I'm a I'm a, I'm a, I'm a, I'm a I'm a pretty boy livin' on the West side Livin' so loud, you could never hear me cry, nah See no tears run down my eyes (my eyes)"

ASMODEUS (Most Asmo coded song ever Istg), Mammon, Diavolo

"We can pretend we're normal people And I can repeat those times We can pretend we're boring people And it's hard to believe sometimes We can pretend we're normal people And I can repeat those times And I can repeat those times, yeah New planet, yeah, we planted Everything we wanted Your fragrance, covalence I'm bound to, I'm bound to you But the longer that we hide Everything starts to hit me harder, hit me harder But we're safe on the inside Yeah, I know we're fine"

DIAVOLO, Leviathan, Lucifer, Satan, Barbados

"Lately, I've been slippin' away from you Can you tell me, does it hurt today? Yeah, there's no way, yeah (no way, no way, no way) To burn, there's no flames, yeah (there's no flames) Praying nine to five like a saint for you (like a saint) Can you tell me how it turned this way? (How?) Yeah, things have changed, yeah (yeah) Yeah, filled with rage, yeah (filled with rage) So lost in these diamonds So lost in this paradise Don't speed on that highway We need you to shine bright When life gets too complicated Please stand with me after dark I'll stay in the limelight Like a beautiful afterthought Like a beautiful afterthought"

LUCIFER, Mammon, Diavolo, Simeon, Solomon, Belphegor

"Mr. Hollywood, won't you come back soon? She said "Mr. Hollywood, won't you come back soon?" She said, "Mr. Hollywood, won't you come back soon?" (Ayy, ayy) She said, "Mr. Hollywood, won't you come back soon?" (Ayy, ayy) She said Ooh, I just wanna lay right by your side We don't gotta love each other right We just gotta make it through the night You don't gotta say You're not into me no more When we pass out on the floor See the sun rise through the door"

DIAVOLO, Mammon, Lucifer, Asmodeus

"I don't wanna let you down (Let you down) Told you that I'm leaving now (Leaving now) Please don't stay out, please don't stay out You needed somethin' to believe in Two hundred miles in the evening Super speedin', are you leaving right now? When I pretend that I’m your boyfriend I’ll pour the drinks, so don’t annoy me Are you lonely? 'Cause I'll be gone 'til the next when the sun's up Blame it on me, you can blame it on me Feelin' your touch and I'm feelin' so sweet (Ayy) Blame it on me, you can blame it on me Never talk back when I'm goin' full speed (Woo)"

SOLOMON, Mammon, Asmodeus, Barbados, Satan

"The sun is not the brightest thing The choir sings to an empty world of finer things Even though it burns, you drown and sink You know I am Washing over you Washing over you It's not up to me But it's alright if it makes you feel good You can do this all night, it's not up to me But it's alright if it makes you feel good You can do this all night, but it's not up to me But it's alright if it makes you feel good You can do this all night, but it's not up to me But it's alright, does it make you feel good all night?"

SIMEON, Barbados, Beelzebub

"Since I met you All the gloomy days just seem to shine a little more brightly Consider what we've got 'Cause I can never take you for granted Is there another us on this whole planet? Planet? If you ever go, all the songs that we like Will sound like bittersweet lullabies Lost in the blue (Ooh) They don't love me like you do Those chills that I knew (Ooh) They were nothing without you, and Everyone else, they don't matter now You're the one I can't lose No one loves me like you do"

ASMODEUS, MAMMON, LEVIATHAN, SATAN, SOLOMON, SIMEON, BARBADOS, Lucifer, Belphegor, Beelzebub, Diavolo

They are all blasting this at 3 AM tbh. They all love MC, lol.

"Have you ever loved? Would you go again? Don't be down when it's over, baby, yeah I'll be your man, oh man Have you ever loved? Would you go again? Don't be down when it's over, baby, yeah I'll be your man, oh man"

MAMMON, Beelzebub, Diavolo, Asmodeus, Solomon, Simeon

[Flip to Side A]

#obey me #obey me shall we date #obey me swd #obey me nightbringer #joji

[calfplush]

crim's diary 12/07/23

today i was meant to go play but my depression is gettin worse. i can't look after us anymore n it's gettin hard to regress [-_-]. i woke up n i felt so ickyyyyy n i was in so much pain. i made myself cheese on toast which was supa niceヾ(≧∇≦)ゞ!! bc it's gettin hard to eat atm, i feel like we need to lose weight bc we aren't happy in da body but we knows we need to eat even tho we don't want to. den i went n played a game wiv red n it was supa fun!! she made me hot choccy n we played a game on da xbox n she helped me w da tricky bits with all da math n stuffs. ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ i like it when she helps me n i wish she was more reals n formed. lyn still isn't back n i miss it sm! big crim really has a crush on it now n they nearly confessed to each other but den it went offlines and like. we gets it but we're sad it's gone. we had a sandwich for lunch and that's good bc i ate something for lunch 4 once!! (◍ ´꒳` ◍) crim's dad came home n got really mad. we were scared. other crim made him leave us alone (n we need to get him a new name cuz we got too many crims) n then we spoke to crims mum n she said she tried to make him leave but he won't n he's threatenin her. we want him to go away. we hate him he's not ever done anythin nice. we're scared. but we did eat tea and dat's good bc we never eat anythin anymore n today we ate 3 different meals!! we had mac n cheese n it was supa tasty we loved it!!! (๑>◡<๑) we had a cup of tea as well n then big crim went on pinterest n made a lot of special boards n it was super fun!! we all love fashion!! ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝ it also watched some big kid shows n then it went regressy n now we's writin our diary! we're scared about sleepin tho bc big crim watched a scary video and now we're scared of the scary puppet monster (╥﹏╥) it freaked us out n now we're scared it's real even tho we know it's not. we have a lotta nightmares too n it's scary bc other crim n red can't protect us really. we feel so fuzzy and icky in the head and we still don't know if we're a sys or if crim just has a weird personality n maladaptive daydreamin. we're hungry but we aren't allowed downstairs. i feel alone. i wish i had friendses outside of our head n i wish lyn was back. i want a caretaker so bad n my body to be not hurty. i'm so tired.

#♡‧₊˚ crim's diary #♡‧₊˚ crimmiepostin #♡‧₊˚ txt #tw dv mention #tw dissociation #tw ed

[princess-fuckrosa]

hello again¡! thanks for the rules and don't worry i'm still trying to understand this app 😂 welp, i would make my request about one of my favs on mm which it's seven 💚 so hc for him with a s/o that has toc, please idk if too much ask but hope that you aren't uncomfortable with it but if you are then i would like to request hc for him with a s/o that lives in another country (like an online relationship skkd) hope u are having a beautiful night¡! please, take care of yourself!!! 💚

Ahhhw Anon, thank you! When I first saw your request yesterday it made me so happy! I decided that I would love to write both of your requests, but I'm a dummy and I have no idea what toc means :( I tried to Google it but it didn't lead me anywhere, so, could you send another request about it? I'm so sorry that there are so many problems with me, I swear I will try my best to make it up for you 💖

So for now, here are the headcanons about your second idea. I hope you like them, it was really fun to make these! :D Also, Seven is a total bae 🥺❤

I used she/her pronouns for this one, but let me know if this is not what you looking for!! 💖

Seven and a s/o from another country

Meeting new people on the internet is not an unfamiliar concept for Seven. Of course, Yoosung is the typical gamer of the group, but Seven himself is a gamer deity. And with that in mind, I can easily picture that the two of you met under similar circumstances.

It doesn't really matter if you are a pro gamer, a beginner, or just in the middle, only playing because you are bored, somehow you managed to catch his eye, maybe because you laughed at his jokes.

He asked you if he can add you as a friend on any social media and after that everything just went as it should. Shortly after that, you noticed that he is the first person to say hi in the morning, and he is the last one you say good night to as well.

He asks you where are you from early in your friendship, and first, he was a little disappointed when he found out that you are living on the other side of the world.

Later, still in your friendship state, he will start to refer to you as his gamer wife, he will say it is just a joke but will melt if you call him gamer husband.

You basically just joke through the beginning of your friendship, and you grow closer and closer, he will see the distance between you as a blessing, as his line of work is really dangerous, and he would absolutely hate himself (more) if something would happen to you.

So after a while, when he made sure that you are safe, and no one can find you through him, he will finally collect himself to confess to you. But don't expect anything traditional.

Instead, try to imagine this: the next time when you turn on your computer, you got a text from Seven to go to your window in the other room, like, RIGHT NOW. You know he is up to something, but you have no idea, so you just go to the other room and text him because you don't see anything interesting, but he is already offline. You stand there for several minutes, scoping around, hoping that you will eventually see what he meant, but as you find nothing, you go back to your computer, waiting for him to reply.

That's it when you saw something... different on your desktop.

'Open me <3' - you see the title under a big heart icon. He did this, you have no doubt about it. When you launch it, it happens to be a quiz game: questions about your relationship together, with some seemingly unrelated questions.

In the end, you got your results saying: "OMG WE WOULD MAKE A PERFECT COUPLE!" among a short description of why he... My bad, of why the quiz thinks that.

You can't help but laugh, at the same time, you feel so happy that he finally confessed - and the way he did it was brilliant.

After this, you may or may not have a more serious conversation about it, depends on your opinion about online dating. (I mean, I would want to make sure he's not catfishing me after all lol)

Honestly, dating online is more comfortable for him. Don't get me wrong, he would love to hold you or kiss you, but this space between the two of you helps him hide all of those sad thoughts he has. Of course, as you spend more and more time together, he will tell you about them, but... it's just a very small percent of his actual problems.

He just doesn't want to be a burden with his depression and anxiety, and when you came to his life, it made a very big difference, but still, he has these conditions he is not ready to talk about. Of course, with time, you will notice when something is not quite right, but most of the time, he will hide these things as best as he can.

He will be really affectionate, always asking you if you had your meals, drank enough, etc., always asking about how are you. He would never miss any opportunity to send you gifts.

Your online dates are legendary. He really likes to challenge you, like making the same recipe, and while you can't taste-test each other's food, you can still judge it by preparation time and serving. Watching movies or TV shows are don't count as a date anymore because you do that regularly, it's more like a ritual now, just as game nights.

If you are up for video chats too, you can learn some dances together, and it's always super fun.

And who knows, maybe someday you will meet in person too if you are up for it, but if you are happy with just texting, voice and video calls, then he is perfectly fine with that too.

He just loves you so much.

#mystic messenger headcanons #mystic messenger #mysme seven #mysme #seven fluff #saeyoung choi #luciel choi #mystic messenger imagines

[woozi]

henlo yza <3 ,

hdjdkd i don't really have much knowledge abt different techniques & kind of dances so when the steps match the lyrics i'm like '!!! wow yes i love it' fhdjdjskks also bc i've grown up watching these kind of dances only so my that's what i tend to notice first hdjdjddk it is also one of the reason why i decided to stan svt dwc, oh my, thanks & our dawn is hotter than day's choreo details really impressed me.

maybe vincenzo is your svt club & ur so valid for that <3 hddjdjekek also pls don't say sorry!! you can talk abt it as much as you want i like knowing what you think. i'll let you know how was it for me when i complete it. & no homecha hasn't ended yet (idk if there are 16 or 14 eps i haven't checked) it does come on weekends, counting this sunday's ep, we're at 12th rn.

i get that fjdjdkkd i used to be the same 😭 always waiting for dramas to end so i can binge watch because not knowing what happens next would kill me. but idk when this happened, my will to watch anything died down bc the eps are just there, available for me to watch anytime. im like 'i'll watch it next time' but next time never comes 💀. this year i've watched no-air ones only hdjssj very surprising for me ( also my wack memory & svt content supports me by forgetting abt it after weekend ends dhdjdkkd) anyway i'm very excited to see how you like homecha!

CHURCH BOY JOSH HDHDJDDKKSLSDJ church boy josh, cringe domestic boy, joshua numbers. we've come up with so many nicknames for him in few asks only 😭😭 dbdjksksk deserve actually. BUT SO TRUE I STILL HAVE NO WORDS FOR HIM. THAT WAS- JUST- WOW OKAY WE SEE YOU 😭😭and dino lip piercing and hoshi eyebrow slit..... so sexy of them. cb concept pictures haven't come out yet & they're already shinning!! love to see that. also now we have gyu and hoshi's wedding reception pictures & cottagecore hannie (with that collarbone picture right in middle >:( wth mister but also hbd ig <3) being added in the equation.

IM CRYINGGGGGG THEY LOOK SO CUTE THEY ARE SO CUTE NOO 😭😭💔 HOW HAVE I NEVER SEEN THESE COVERS WTH (being the ex-directioner and all dhdjkdsksk). I SMILED SO WIDE WATCHING THEM <///3 it's been so long since i heard one thing wow lol. but! this means they know who zayn is. thank you for this jdjssk this is going to keep me happy for some time hdjdke. SUNDAY MORNING EHJEJEKE 😭 thank you <3 dndjdj

IKR???? IM SO EXCITED FOR THIS CB I'M ALSO EXCITED TO EXPERIENCE IT WITH YOU. agreee truly bless svt for helping keeping us from losing it over life (by making us lose it over them) tbh sometimes it worries me too with the way contents keep dropping but just now in these unit interviews being released, perf unit shared how they have ppl who encourage them to be okay with their tiredness. things like that put me at ease. hope they rest well from time to time too. honestly just looking at their tour schedules i used to get tired because these dudes used to have more shows and less day offs and some of them being used to just move from one city to another. i hope in coming years pledis changes that lol.

sameee for the poster release hdjdkeek. also even though there was scheduler, i forgot abt the concept trailer 😭 it was raining & bcoz of that power was out as well & i don't use data dhdjdkdk. i think 5 minutes after 12 kst power came back (you can say joshu's sparkler brought it back hdjdjdks) it literally left me speechless. yk that meme ' everyone remembers what they were doing & where they were when it happened ' that's me & you with this cb hfjdkd honestly that's everyone with this cb me thinks.

seventeenies bringing the grass to you w their posts djdjkd ( btw you can always tell me if silly little jokes get out of hand i wouldn't ever like to make you uncomfy) but seriously i hope uni doesn't give you hard time. don't worry much just keep moving forward, at some point whatever is making you feel stuck will move away eventually.

is it that obvious? 😭😭😭😭 no i don't like rain at all dhjddk (i actually didn't dislike it as much during teens) mostly because road drainage system sucks here & we live in lower area so even moderate rain causes water logging. i'd give you some rain but this one's bad so i won't </3 ( as if i could if it were the good one 💀) stay hydrated!!! drink two sips of water everytime you hear dino laugh, i hope it cools a little soon.

that's what being on tumblr since 2012 does to you 😭 ALSO UR SO FUNNY PLS, SO ARE THE MEMES YOU USE FOR ASKS DJDJDKD. *hands you bunny headband dino* it's dangerous outside take this, you too stay safe out there 😭😭😭😭 love you too <3 and thank YOU for hanging out w me hehe :3, also dw tbh these asks have become one of the highlights for me now & i'm only using my free time excluding resting time, i hope you are too, no pressure at all! dw about being late - 🪂

ps - did i tell you i actually followed your svt blog around the time everyone was guessing your biases hddjkddj i sent mingyu & jeonghan dhdjdj that was my first ask :3 - 🪂

henlo, 🪂!! <3 <3 <3

honestly it doesnt matter to me tbh <3 if people enjoy the dance its all that matters!! and omg i can see that!! i love the svteenies always bring something fresh to the table

omg that means you're near the end 😭😭😭 i keep seeing gifs of it on my dash and it makes me feel a lil lovesick ngl HJFHJFHD why is it so TENDER????????????????

ok but that's so valid too bc that's me rn with in the soop.... i literally have not watched the 6th ep yet 😭 and i'm getting the feeling youre mentioning w swf now because i literally always look forward to tuesdays just for the next ep HJDHJDS also i am dumb what are no-airs HJDHJDHHD and ur not alone tbh <3 i have also been super forgetful lately and that is not like me fdhjdfjhdfhjdfhj we're rotting in this hellsite ig

love bullying him i just wanna know how he'd react if he gets upset <3 i dont think we've ever seen angry josh and i wanna make him angry sm HSDHJSDJ im glossing over dino lip piercing to directly go over hOSHI EYEBROW SLIT BC HELLO??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? ive never really liked eyebrow slits but he makes them look so- i want him to hurt me HJDSHJDHJDS ALSO THE LATEST SET OF PHOTOS OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD they're giving me what i've been asking for i love being here sm <3 soonyoung's so chummy w everyone have u seen his photos w jihoon last night 😭 he's literally tamed the actual tiger icb this. and no oh my god i do not Know what Collarbone Jeonghan is i have erased him from my memories thank u

HDSHDSJDSHJDS the ex-directioner is so funny to me 😭 i think we have all been there one way or another <3 and ofc omg <3 i'm glad my core svt memories make u happy HSDJHJDFHJHJDSF

they literally said escapism hELP ME 😭😭😭😭😭 i think they're also just workaholics in general. i would be too if i actually enjoyed what i did for a living 😭 and are we even gonna get tours in the near future.... this is so sad i havent even seen them irl </3

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OMG that's terrible, i hope u guys were okay though :/ AND NOT THE JOSH SPARKLER FDDHJFHDFHJFDHFDH now i have to think about him oh my god i think i passed out a little when eyebrow piercing josh came on screen and just full on blacked out when the match scene came on tbh 😭 JKSDJKDSKDS ITS LIKE THE PANDEMIC!!!!!!! WE WILL RMB!!!!!!!!!

ALSOO NOOO OMG i dont feel uncomf at all and u should also tell me if i do make u feel so <3 thank u for even mentioning that!! also love that they're Doing It All for us we dont even have to go out to touch grass anymore HJDSHJSDJ i've actually been v happy w uni omg!! just that i often feel stressed bc they give us sm things to do </3 thank u for ur kind words!!

that's the price of being an adult JDJSJKD now we gotta think of things like.. idk the effects of rain 😭😭😭 i used to even love it when it flooded as a kid HJDSHJSDHJ now i get anxious too!! i love all kinds of rain though so i wont mind JKKSDKJSDKJD just that other people might be affected </3 wish i had my own rain cloud on some kind of leash lmao. ALSO IF I DRINK WATER EVERY TIME I HEAR DINO LAUGH FDHFDHJDFHD gonna be bloated but hydrated af ngl

oh my gOD YOU WERE HERE SINCE 2012???? we're literally sick bestie <3 i genuinely think tumblr has changed something fundamental in me and my way of thinking has not been The Same as idk.. regular people ig JDSHJSDHJSD THE OFFLINE PEOPLE!! smth about tumblr is so <3 sick but also i love this hellsite so 😗 AND NOOO NOT THE MEMES FDHDFHJDF its my broken sense of humor and inability to convey emotions properly HHSDHJDSHJ

BUNNY HEADBAND DINO?????????????????????????????????????? honestly he'd bring me more harm than protection i'll say that much 😭

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 that genuinely made me feel so warm & fuzzy, i always look forward to your messages too <3 <3 <3 i hope u always have good days u deserve it for being such a sweetheart

WAIT HELLO???????????????????????? YOU'VE BEEN HERE FOR SO LONG THEN 😭😭😭😭😭 and im so impressed you didnt get weeded out ngl HFDHJFDHJFD icb you've been witnessing me going more ill everyday <3 ur a soldier

and u are partially correct abt mingyu & jh <3 at least during the time JSDJDSJKSDJK i think i've been desensitized to mingyu now but i still love him sm <3 he's just so cute and cutesy boys kinda infuriate me in an affectionate way so HJSDHJDSHJDSH

#🪂 anon #anon #y.ask #long post

[kyunsies]

Hey mädch! How are you, my hun? I'm having a really bad mental health day today. I'm sorry I haven't been dropping by often. I love to talk to you so much but when I have bad mental health days I don't let myself do things I love. I splurged a bit on myself yesterday, I got some makeup and some brushes but now I feel guilty and not excited for it at all. I'm so behind on all my classes and I'm struggling to catch up and o found out that today one of my teachers called out our names during class and those who didn't respond needed to contact her with their reasons. I told her I'm not well but she was like "that's awful but if you're at home then you can just pay attention in class it's not that hard. I'll be deducting marks off your grade this semester" gosh I want to cry - 🐼anon

I'm really sorry I just dropped all of that without any warning. My heart just feels so heavy these days. I don't know anyone at uni because we've never had offline uni. None of my school "friends" talk to me anymore. They hang out with each other and they don't invite me. And then they like to post all that on their private insta stories for me to see it. My country is doing really bad cause if the pandemic. My family is so toxic and I can't leave home. I don't have any friends here to talk to. It could just be my period making me feel all of this together but gosh it's hitting hard today. - 🐼anon

hello my love :((((( i’m so sorry i’m getting to this late !!! i had some running around to do after i got him from work, how are you feeling hun 🥺 i’m so sorry to hear you’re going through a tough time love :( really when you’re upset or feel sad i wish i could give u all the love and support that i physically can but i’m here o oh thru a screen ;___; hey !!! im glad your ooo care of yourself and bought a little something nice okay ? don’t feel guilty about it tho hun, you know how hard you work 🥺 you deserve something nice after studying all the time and doing your best !!! but about your teacher :((( she should be more understanding, esp if everyone at your uni has only been doing virtual ….. it’s the hardest way to learn in my opinion and it’s very hard to stay on top of things :( i’m so sorry love :( is there a guidance counselor you can talk to? maybe you could unload to them what’s been on your mind and they can help you, maybe intervene between your teacher and you to work things out so she won’t deduct stuff? it’s very hard and it gives you and anxious feeling, but reaching out to ppl like that could really make things better :( do you have someone like that available to you?

also bby pls don’t be sorry about telling me these things !! i want to be here for you all i can, i feel terrible that I can’t do much :( gosh, i know and understand the feeling babe . i think a lot of ppl make it that our 20s are supposed to be super fun and a way to make lots of friends (which granted it is like that sometimes), but the loneliness we feel when we grow up from being a teenager to having responsibilities and stuff is something else ……. friends we’ve known before start to fade away, we lose our sense of belonging in a way :( it’s not a fun feeling, it’s actually very isolating 🥺 ; also about these “friends” …. did you enjoy hanging out with them before or not so much? maybe you could like, be a little nosy and ask if you could invite yourself to things? i know it seems a little assertive, but they really should be giving u attention if you were their dear friend :( i’m really sorry you’re going thru such a tough time bby really :( these are really hard things to deal with but I want you to know this okay !!!! it’s okay to go through these transitions in life — we don’t always have to make lots of friends, we don’t always have the luxury of unloading to ppl who are close to us, heck sometimes we just aren’t in a good place so th our family . but you’re not alone I’m this okay? you always have me and I’ll be here for as long as you need me :( if things get too much pls pls talk to someone, anyone !!! about your feelings bc i’m a firm believer that you shouldn’t keep things inside for too long or else they’ll rip you apart :( i’m here for u hun !!! pls take care of yourself for me okay? i love u 💕💖💓💗💞💘💕💖💓💗💞💘

#asks #🐼 anon

[x-exo]

Lolol I had st first thought maybe you were busy so I didn't send right away but then it was getting long with time so I tried once, then twice and another until I gave up thinking either the app doesn't like me or maybe I annoyed you djajdjajdsj BUT you made that post and I gasped. Quickly sent an ask which you got so yay!! *happy dances* i must ask how are you doing!? I hope well, I see you made another sideblog hehe. I support

Now onto our beans!! First monsta x, ahhhh just, perfection. Literally monsta x always delivers with perfect style and music. Legit if you want some mafia themes with some sxhmexy spice then monsta x is for you lol. I'm a bit sad to shownu didn't join the promos *sigh* but i understand! Hyungwon and jooheon did a great job covering his part (which I was surprised to hear their vocals because usually in my experience they would either lip sing to the backing track or leave the spot empty for the missing member so to hear them sing was a surprise!) No wins sadly but its alright, the boys did amazing nonetheless and am proud of them! Fjakdjak me with secrets as well. I'm bopping and am thinking 'wait, why do I understand what they are singing' then I noticed it was in English as well haha. Gambler is on repeat alot I just cannot get enough of it

Now onto exo, the kings. The legends, the boys are back *insert the boys are back from hsm3* this comeback is everything. I legit cannot say anything bad about the title track nor bsides, they are all great and fun to listen to! No skips, the fact they even worked on it to make it like a gift for the fans. I'm going to cry ndkajdja. CAN WE TALK ABOUT LAY VEING FULLY HERE LIKE !?!? HELLO MISTER LAY, WELCOME BACK! I legit thought this would be like tempo but worse because while news was saying a 'full' exo comeback, no news for lay for a while and while I was happy to see his teasers (forever am salty we only have one album of lay at all which is the jewel case version. I understand things might be tricky but still ya know?) I was fishy lol. I had no trust with sm but to our surprise we hear lay more properly. Sure he could have more lines but he isn't pulling an nct winwin so I'm not complaining!! I will take this over tempo lol. Apparently they shot the mv during minseok and his bday so that made me extra soft, exo won over butter so I'm happy dancing. As they should, as they should. Records were broken so all I can say is stan exo for a better life I guess.

Now seventeen!! Its finally comeback time so thoughts on the comeback? Ngl I at first didn't bop to ready to love, I feel bad because always their comebacks were ones I always enjoyed and liked right away but yet, this time around I watched the mv and listened to the song and was sitting there confused like ??? That was all, I felt a bit like there was something missing within the song but I couldn't tell what and it was bugging me for a week njdjajd. However, I had the song on repeat and it grew on me!! Which is very much ok I think, while I did feel bad, im human and we all have different tastes and not everyone will like title tracks! The chorus is super catchy and the guitar? I think it is the guitar lol, that you hear is fantastic. I still think the song is missing something but this might be just me being nit picky. It is a huge summer bop, very much fitting for seventeen.

Ok that is all for me, I shall be going! Let us hope this also sends or else I am fish slapping my phone lol

I did... for pentagon... lord help me 🙌 good thing they're not releasing anything anytime soon so i can focus on my OTHER sideblogs fuihdiufhif

yeahhh it's a pity he couldn't join promotions :(( but anything for his health and wellbeing (but maybe they could have let him do the naiver now lives and fan signs but 🤷🏻‍♀️) it was so cute seeing him go to the concept store thingy and getting his albums and photo cards and visiting his boys during music shows pls he's so endearing i lov him!! I feel bad they couldn't even get one win with gambler bc it's sooooo good omg it's really one of the best title track releases this half year but since music show wins don't care about quality but only quantity...yeah SAD but I it's nice seeing jooheon so happy with his baby song I hope he's super proud of the masterpiece he's made!

EXO. SEXTUPLE MILLION SELLER EXO. They did THAT! without promotions whatsoever and without stepping a foot inside any music shows!! sciuhsdicudfvb legends only 💅🏼 same! i'm glad we could hear yixing in all the songs omg sm could have made it worse so i'll take what i can get and i'll cherish it! and now we've got THE KYUNGSOO making his solo debut!!!! aaahhhhh I can't wait to listen to all his songs omg i bet they're all so nice and good 🤧 also apparently he filmed his mv back in his hometown and with kids and stuff so yeah PREPARE THE PAPER TISSUES!!

ONTO SEVENTEEN NOW.

WELL. I don't really vibe with this comeback tbh idk RTL sounded good in the teasers but then the mv dropped and the album dropped and I- idk i wasn't feeling it (not gonna lie and say i haven't been singing the "runaway" part on repeat in my head FOR DAYS) but idk it doesn't feel like a seventeen song if that makes sense??? as for the rest of the album...I only like Anyone tbh...I feel bad for not vining with the rest but as you said we're human so all we have to do is wait for the next comeback! not gonna talk about the mv bc it was pretty meh for my taste tbh (coming from home; run... now they give me super saturated images, no story and a rain scene that makes it impossible to even see the members...) but yeah also it's so sad all that's happened during this comeback period... first minghao not being able to participate on the choreo, then the covid and quarantine thing not allowing them to step out of their rooms for ten day right after they had their first offline fansign with carats and now coups falling and injuring himself and not being able to end promotions on a high note... this comeback feels kind of cursed :(( but after all they seem happy so that's what really matters! (I'm living for seungkwan's ending fairy moments tbh lmaooo)

That's it for today! sorry for taking so long to answer fiuhfguyfhn i'll be fast next time I promise! I hope you're good! 🥰💕💖

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[shininglikeantares]

Hi! I just read your post about how horrible some "monbebes" were to monsta x. I absolutely agree with everything you say, but I didn't quite understand what happened in jooheon's case. I'm fairly new to the fandom and this is the first time I even heard about this. Would you mind explaining what exactly happened? :) Thank you for bringing this to people's attention. Have a super nice day!

Hello! Thank you for taking your time and reading it! It was a long post and not many people are going to read it, I’m very aware of that. And this is why I think expressing my gratitude to you for reading it is a must.Welcome to the fandom! And I’m sorry we cannot welcome you with something positive and good. :(I already explained everything to a person that has asked me the same question in an ask so I hope you won’t mind if I copy paste it. So, let me explain from beginning to end:Starship posted a statement on Thursday (February 1st) for the release date (2018.02.08) of Jooheon’s new mixtape.Everything was good. We were all happy and excited. Until later… When I tried to search for the picture in Starship’s Tweet to send it to a friend. I couldn’t find it. I couldn’t find it on Instagram either. And then I found out that they deleted it because of some backlash form KMBBS. Because of NO:EL.And here we come to discuss what is actually wrong with NO:EL.He was a participant in a show called High School Rapper in the beginning of 2017. After the first episode aired and he got complimented by all the mentors there (especially Swings) some controversial stuff started circulating on social media. There were things about him “using Swing’s name on Twitter to get laid” [Which is a complete bullcrap since in one of his tweets he’s said ‘’I’m a 16 year old oppa who wants to meet you offline… anyone who’s coming to meet me, you have to give me 500,000 won (~500$) as a gift voucher. You can give me more but you can’t defer your payment”). And I wanna ask WHO WOULD ACTUALLY FALL FOR THIS? What is the big issue that he used Swings’ name if he said that he is 16 year old (we all know Swings’ ain’t a goddamn 16 year old, which makes it clear he did not intend to present himself as Swings). Who would actually go and meet a 16 year old offline, demanding for money???]Then something about him abusing his mother (?) appeared online. [I don’t know much about that.] Along with the usual ‘‘underage teen drinking” (for which Wonho and Kihyun got some shit as well way back in 2015.)So Jang Yongjoon (NO:EL) stepped down from High School Rapper BY HIS OWN WILL. His father (Jang Jae-won) who is a politician, released an apology on his Facebook profile, and apparently resigned from his position.Later NO:EL made a live on his Facebook addressing the matter and he apologized for his wrongdoings when he was a child, a teenager. Because he knows that what he did was wrong. He reflected on himself and aspired to become a better person. And you can see his progress in his first album he released in September. We’ve all been children and we’ve all made some dumb shit when we were young. Damn it I’m a 20 year old and I’ve done some things that I wish I didn’t do. It’s the circle of life. It’s just how it is. Why must we continue bashing someone who’s APOLOGIZED and who’s CLEARLY TRYING TO REDEEM THEMSELVES. I’m not trying to say he is innocent for what he’s done, because he obviously isn’t. I’m just saying that what he did is not something that is not worthy of forgiveness.So at the end Starship released a statement on the fancafe I think that the mixtape is cancelled and it won’t be released. I really hope I made it clear. English is not my first language and there might be places where I don’t make any sense (If that’s the case, please ask me to clarify. I want all of this to be known to the fandom, because most of them don’t really care, which makes me even more mad and sad.)Thank you for asking me to explain things in detail. And I’m sorry if at times it may sound like I’m yelling at you. I’m not. I’m addressing all these judgmental people that rendered Jooheon the saddest I’ve ever seen him. (You can clearly see how sad he is in the last VLive from today.)Thank you for not being one of those people that don’t give a funk about this at all. Jooheon deserved better! And I hope people like you and me will remind him that he still has fans, that he still has support from us and I really really hope that we will manage to keep him away from growing to hate us. Because right now this seems like a completely possible thing.Have a nice day too!Thank you for stopping by and also for following me! I appreciate it! 

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