#I'm v emotional today

[baublekute]

#cyberpunk 2077 #river ward #oc: valerie rose barrere #v x river ward #female v #fem v #virtual photography #street kid v #ps5 #playstation #I'm feeling generous with emotions today #here's some more!! #shippy saturday #otp: death wish

[byanyan]

honestly thank god for those of u willing to create & write fun and unique platonic (& familial) dynamics that aren't less significant to ur muses' life just bc they aren't romantic

#I remember when I used to have such a hard time getting interactions... finding people who'd keep writing w me #but now here I am with so many amazing dynamics that I love writing & discussing... #so many people important in byan's life ;u; #obvs there's nothing wrong with enjoying & writing a lot of ship stuff. obviously!!! #ships are sm fun who doesn't love writing a good ship #I'm just v grateful to have found so many people who don't see shipping as the be all end all of rp uvu #and ig I'm!!! just a little emotional about all of byan's relationships today!!!! don't fuckin @ me!!!! #love u guysssssss love u sm ♡♡♡ #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.

[i-mybrunettelady]

i had some thoughts on my way home from uni. warning for body shaming below the cut if it's something you don't wanna see

basically what happened was that i'd glanced at a vitrine and saw a reflection of myself and thought 'jfc nero you're kinda fat' then i realised that it's not me but the outfit that i was wearing that wasn't how it looks best on my body so it made me look bigger than i am in actuality. then i fell down a rabbit hole of thinking so hard about how i freaked out last winter bc god forbid i gain a fucking kilo or two and god forbid i be a MAMMAL who behaves like a MAMMAL

and that's the thing, right? i have little idea how big i actually am. i am not fat (not that there's anything wrong with that that requires this much beating yourself over), but i also never perceived myself as skinny, either. i was always bigger than most girls my age, thanks to having wider hips and wearing most of my weight in my thighs and belly. i also got body shamed a lot as a teen which fucked me up in more ways than i care to think of right now.

a lot of this has to do with like. cultural factors, too? and i know my measurements, that's fine, but like. that is irrelevant here. what matters is that i'd always been perceived (by others and myself) as bigger and that's what my brain internalised and that means i can't see myself as being smaller and i think that sucks so much ass like

i always get shocked with how much ease i think this of myself. nobody has to tell me anything anymore. damage has been done already. it's how i speak to myself about myself now. and i'm trying to give myself a little metaphorical slap on the wrist like, 'get a hold of yourself' but that's not good either? i try to be compassionate towards myself but i can't seem to shake off vestiges of feeling so ill at ease in my own body and the way it looks that i heard and internalised as a teen that it makes me like. none of this had to fucking happen yet it did anyway.

your 20s are for realising how much your teens sucked and wanting to rip tear and claw about it

#nero's random thoughts #about me #v personal please don't like reblog n shit #i'm just having lots of feelings about this #that i'm not sure i know what to do with #so here they go #i'm so much better than i was but i wish it wasn't such a long process ;;; #jfc i'm emotional today

[mothram]

#diana's music diary #good arfternoon I feel pretty nice today despite some nausea and brain fuzziness n.n #don't know what I'll be doing today... I might draw since yesterday I finished writing what I needed to... #I had the idea to do drawings for said writing which might be a fun idea... will have to see... I was visualizing as I wrote so... #it would translate well I think... whether or not I do full drawings or phone doodles remains to be seen... #I think the messiness of drawing on my phone would fit but I think I could do some neat visual stuff if I do a full thing idk... #wouldn't want to waste the idea on just phone drawings but I guess I could do a practise run on that or something #I'm rambling a bit... anyway yeah yesterday was writing listening to this album and spending time with my partner... so I feel v v good #this album always brings me to tears.. you can feel every ounce of emotion in the music.. it leaves my heart pounding and me breathless... #Jvne is such a good artist... might honestly be my fav... I hope she is okay after everything... it makes me sad thinking about it all... #love you friends... let's make today good...

[oceandiagonale]

What do you think would happen if volo won? I know is not goin to happen, but just if? Would he and giratina be able to tame arceus? If they did, what would happen??

hmm..... if it were volo specifically using arceus and then letting giratina run a new world, I think he would be immensely disappointed - instead of crafting it the way he wanted, he would more likely be getting a reroll of the pre-existing pokeverse because that's what the unown are familiar with creating (in this blog-specific world lol)

So certain things will be different - maybe characters will be swapped around, maybe heroes will be there or maybe not; the base is still the same, though.

He might be able to shape events to his liking since the newly formed Dialga and Palkia will recognize him and Giratina as their gods, but in the end, is it really a victory...?

#oceandi answers #anonymous #pla spoilers #not to mention the only way he'd be able to do it is by completely destroying gene which probably wouldn't be great for his mental health #dang it no that's so sad I kind of love it let me draw some angst ksjdhfkjsdf #actually I'm getting weepy over it it's just like wall-e #i'm emotional today thank goodness there's no way for volo to win even if he were to get arceus #for a specific reason #bad end v

[360degreesasthecrowflies]

Really struggling with my parents today. They have a history of being controlling but have largely softened as they have got older.

Today though, I know I'm ill so this has hit me harder, but they texted me under the pretext of sharing a happy memory and I said I'd call after work.

When I called, it turned out to be a pretext to chase up whether I had done certain tasks for them. I faked not having signal and hung up before I said something I'd regret but I'm just hurt and also angry that WHEN I'M ILL they would be deceitful like that and self-centred. (I have had flu or covid all week and I haven't taken any time off work bc I can't afford to right now so it's been a tough week)

I have literally started therapy this week based on how I get no emotional support from my parents. (Among other things) It's just too bad when they appear(ed) to be better and then go straight back.

#parents #rants #ill #2023 #my feelings #upset #maybe I'll regret writing this but I'm v emotional today

[easyhotdog]

having summers off as a teacher is NOT it!! mainly because it's forced unemployment, but also because you end up with WAY too much free space in your brain to obsess over fictional gays. jfc put me out of my misery.

#i went to school today even tho preservice starts next week (normally opposed to unpaid labor) and seeing a few colleagues was v good #seeing a few students who i love and who adore me back ?? v emotional #at exactly this time last year i was brain rotted over stranger things and now here i am consumed and doomed to die over wwdits #i could be “busy” during the summer and still have too much mental capacity for other shit. the school year is way more demanding. #i mean wtf i am busy i'm taking an overload for my master's and doing fifty other things

[btsbs]

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#hi hello #a trash truck backed into my car on friday #was not my fault and i'm fine #but it was v scary #to see a giant dumpster rolling back into you #and my car is old so it's more than likely totalled #i've been really sad about it #i've had it almost 16 years #have a unhealthy emotional attachment to it #i know it's just a car but it was still in great shape #ugh #haven't much felt like being here #but i'm going to try to catch up today #i think i'm ready for the serotonin hit #let's go

[byanyan]

catch me sobbing bc I'm about to have a desk of my own for the first time since I was like 17 😭

#me spending my entire adulthood taking up as little space as possible #everywhere I'm living in an effort to be less of a burden on whoever I'm living with #now my mom's gone & cleaned out the storage room so I can make it my space to exist so I'm not just isolating in my bedroom #we spent today in town buying shit for the room.... desk & chair & lights etc.... #and I'm v emotional about this..... i think it's going to help me a lot to like. actually exist & function. #not to get emotional about my pathetic life on the dash or anything but wow... realizing it's probably not just depression & anxiety #and that I'm actually probably autistic has done fucking WONDERS for me like. taking steps forward again. #actively working on change & like. figuring out how to cope & regulate & not blame everything about my life on myself being lazy adjgksh #honestly it's 7pm but I'm probably gonna set the desk up tonight bc I'm so fuckign excited to get that room set up now oh man... #that'll probably be most of my day tomorrow too tbh. at least until we leave to go watch d-day in cinema 😭😭 #IT'S A GOOD WEEK GUYS..... it's gonna be a good week #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me. #personal cw

[despairforme]

      [ How biased am I towards Nnoitra? well..... This blog has 23 000+ posts, the blog that comes in second has 3000 posts...... ]

#[ still tho 3k posts on doflamingo NOT BAD ] #[ for my bleach muses the second place goes to byakuya with 600 posts LOL ] #[ to be fair i've had nnoitra's blogs since 2014 ] #[ and doflamingo's since 2017 ] #[ BUT YOU KNOW ] #[ nnoitra <5555555 ] #[ i'm just v emotional about him today - and always lmao - ] #[ every time i see him i'm like hhhhhhh you're so handsome my spooon <5 ] #[ he's so fun to write and i have such a good time on here ] #[ literally can't imagine myself ever NOT writing him t-t ] #[ i love my spoon ] #toby post. ╱ out of character.

[miengsol]

one fun fact since it’s february ( which unfortunately for calum ) means valentine’s day is around the corner:

he doesn’t like valentine’s day- not bc he dislikes the concept, but rather he hates how overhyped it gets and how people can put their expectations for it waaaay too high when the point of valentine’s day is to celebrate it in a way that is special to both you and ur (romantic) partner....that and he’s never been a fan of elaborate displays of romance which often what he feels is expected of couples :’D

that being said, given the right partner, i think he would able to come around to it....just takes the right person and a degree of thoughtfulness ( ie. subtle & thoughtful is really the way to go )

#a calendar filled ( headcanons. ) #he once dated someone in college who #got pissy at him when his version of a v day celebration wasn't 'grand enough' #so that turned him off to v day for a while #i guess....romantic for calum isnt exactly an adjective to describe calum #devoted and understated is really his style...a very practical lover for all the emotions he might display #also!! i know i've been mia on here and in ims for this week #but!! i'll be on tonight :D #i have the energy and enthusiasm today <3 <3 <3 #also helps that....i kinda?? deleted the tumblr app from my phone so that when i'm on here #i can be on here 100%

[mariocki]

Infinite list of favourite lyrics: 217/?

O. V. Wright - Everybody Knows (The River Song) (1965)

"I am so miserable,

I am so tired.

Oh, I just sit on the Mississippi River

And watch the fish swim by.

My life is so confused,

But I don't wanna die;

I wanna go to heaven,

But I'm scared to fly."

#favourite lyrics #o. v. wright #everybody knows #everybody knows (the river song) #roosevelt jamison #m. j. keep #(if it is) only for tonight #1965 #wright is a fairly new discovery for me but is currently featuring pretty heavily in my day to day playlist #finding out a little more about this song was something of a challenge; I'd taken it for perhaps a traditional song #perhaps even a spiritual with links to pre american civil war black folk music; apparently not bc this is credited to Keep and Jamison #Jamison was a manager and songwriter who discovered Wright and was largely responsible for his career success‚ writing most of his early #singles including notable hit That's How Strong My Love Is (better knownbin cover versions by Otis Redding and the Rolling Stones) #Wright and Jamison parted company somewhat acrimoniously later in the decade and it's fair to say that neither was quite as successful #without the other. m j keep is more mysterious; digging around online reveals only a single songwriting credit to that name‚ which is this #one. it could always be a pen name i suppose‚ or perhaps a person known to Jamison who helped with the composition; it's pretty useless to #wonder tho bc I'm unlikely to find out much more. wright himself isn't that well remembered today‚ although his work is sometimes sampled #by hiphop artists‚ and some later bigger artists would name him as an influence. it's understandable; the man had an incredible voice #a rich and emotive delivery which really sells the depth of pain that makes for a great blues song but without ever becoming too much #there's a touch of humour too (the opening lines particularly) #but there's something very simple and very beautiful about those final two lines I've quoted #some great insight into the human experience #wright struggled with addiction and criminal charges in later life which certainly hurt his career #he died‚ much too young‚ in 1980

[catboii]

ok i was kidding abt taking a break but literally right after that i saw smth v gross on my dash so

#((ic post)) #im gonna put my phone . down . 4 a bit #not gonna get upset over silly words on the internet i am NOT #i unfollowed the blog tho . took a glance over it & it looks like they have other similar posts .. #(( #breaking news. murder kitty actually v sensitive and feels like its already pissed off 2 people today. so that was the last straw #I'm not gonna let my inner muse dwell on stuff though I'm on the spectrum and I think it's linked with emotional empathy of some kind #but if its sad or anxious it affects me really bad. and i can't do that lol rp is supposed to be fun! 😊 #))

[niallandtommo]

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#honestly the last few days have been good and today was really good #but for some reason i just got super emotional and sad lol #we love mood swings 🫠 #idk i just feel super lonely and the thought of spending the next idk 50? 60? years alone is very depressing #why is it so easy for everyone else to find a partner #like i'm not even joking when i say e v e r y o n e around me is either married or in a long term relationship #even the guy i had a crush on last year is in a relationship now #and boy am i tired of being alone #and before anyone says anything #i know i don't need a partner #i know i can live without one i've been living on my own for over 2 years #but my god do i want one #it feels so pathetic to even say that but i am t i r e d of being alone #i want what everyone else around me has #where did i go wrong lmao #i should go to sleep lol