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grayalreadyis · 2 months

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Four years since 2020

It's been four years since 2020. 2020 honestly kind of ruined my life, it caused me to become very closed off and closed off. I discovered my anxiety (It wasn't as bad as today.), as well the subpar of Social anxiety ✨ isn't that just a treat.

Four years ago around this time was my unknowing last year inside of an school. I left thinking I'd go back to school and it'd all be fine. It was not fine, nope, the Friday before we went back to school Lockdown started. I remember my dad told me at the start of spring break I may not go back to school because of some virus, I laughed that off. (。_。) I shouldn't have done that.

I lost touch with all of my friends very quickly, and quickly I was stuck in my home. I had a few friends I tried seeing but I couldn't get ahold of. So for a whole year I was pretty alone, and as you could guess. Social skills DIED, there is no shocking them back to life. I got very scared of large social groups (which i previously loved.)

I made two friends in 2021, Call them ketchup and mustard. I was exteremely close to Mustard, we hung out constantly all the way up to 2022. During 2022 Mustard and ketchup decided to gang up on me and just dump me, during the week I was moving, so i was in a very dark headspace.

Right before that happen I had made an account on Deviantart, Yea, the really old ancient art platform (づ￣ 3￣)づ It took me a bit but I made a fun friend group on there. We all hung out until a fall out december of 2022.

However during that time I had an encounter with somebody. A girl we shall call, Blue. Blue and I slowly started talking more in January of 2023, and by talk more. I Mean everyday after school we'd be talking constantly for hours until we had to go to bed. in March we started calling EVERY SINGLE DAY, We didn't miss a day until July fourth. We both had our own stories that we decided to share together late may, beginning our fun adventure of a story we still don't have a name for :D

I GOT SIDETRACKED BUT UH

I'll probably never be the same after 2020. Good lord I hated that year so much. But hey I've been growing on Deviantart, Tumblr, and Instagram meeting some wonderful people <3

Heck I even have a fun group of people on Youtube, we go onto one channels Lives to mess with him (All in good fun)

and it feels weird just ignoring this day tbh (。_。)

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musicas-studios · 24 days

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My CVAP Experience Part I: A Voice and a Dream

"...for a brief moment of adrenaline-induced hyper-clarity, I came to a decision. I looked up on that voice acting workshop my friend had signed up for years ago, didn't think, and did it--I signed up. This year was going to be different. This year, I was going to make things happen."

I have always been passionate about telling stories. Voice acting has been the many ways I've been able to express that. I loved being able to breathe life into characters through my voice. You could say it's an innate passion.

So when I first heard about the Certified Voice Artist Program (or CVAP) from a friend who had landed a scholarship not more than around 3 years ago, I was curious.

But when I was presented that same opportunity the following year, I was in college and swamped with work to the point that I'd doubted I'd ever have enough time to dedicate for it. So I hesitated, passed up on this opportunity to my and my friend's disappointed.

Months, a few years passed and I'd forgotten about that workshop for a bit. And with it, my voice acting ambitions.

The year was 2024 and I was in a very weird place, didn't start in the best of headspaces, but I had a sprawling list of things that I had and wanted to do and I had a lot of trouble trying to distinguish which was which.

But for a brief moment of adrenaline-induced hyper-clarity, I came to a decision. I looked up on that voice acting workshop my friend had signed up for years ago, didn't think, and did it--I signed up. This year was going to be different. This year, I was going to make things happen.

I was nervous, a bit scared, but most of all excited.

I couldn't fully attend opening night since I was coming home from commute, but I was able to get the gist of it. I didn't know what to expect at first but I was thrilled to get to know my fellow enrollees or Voicemates as well as our beloved hosts nonetheless.

The hosts were incredibly talented and had a knack for keeping the vibes up, you can tell they were experienced voice artists and I remember thinking that I wanted to be like that. And my Voicemates who'd gotten to interact with them gave infectious enthusiasm. These were going to be the people I'd be spending the next few weeks with.

We had our first official session the next day, and professional voice actor Sir Navi Garcia was to open the floor into the world of CVAP. It was a thought-provoking lesson that brought up tons of questions of who we are and what it means to be a voice artist. But I was most touched by Sir Garcia's willingness to tell his story, to be vulnerable. Something that not many people are brave enough to do.

The thing that stuck with me the most was how we always have the opportunity to put ourselves out there, where there is always someone who needs to hear your voice. I found it moving because in every little thing we do, there is always the possibility to create ripple effects, to be heard by somebody who'd need it at the exact timing. I thought it was profound.

It would be one of the core learnings I'd bring with me going forward.

Next, I got to meet my groupmates! A ragtag group of individuals with diverse voices and a shared dream. I never would have expected it but we immediately hit it off; we had excellent chemistry and worked really well together. We call ourselves the ICEBR3AKERS, the third group or BR of CVAP'S batch 24 and we were going to break the ice!

If you'd told the girl who'd had to chicken out on that opportunity years ago that she'd be getting to be a part of a dynamic group of aspiring voice actors, learning from the best in the industry, and becoming more and more like who she wanted to be, she would not have believed you. And yet here we are.

Needless to say, the first session was session that would set the stage for the weeks to come.

And still, I was scared, yet thrilled and excited to get my voice out there, to make things happen.

#CVAP B24 #musicas blogs 2024

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