#I've felt like shit this morning

[psikind]

hey so. childhood friend of mine commited suicide late july and his dad’s trying to fund the money for his funeral service - if people have the money to donate please do the service is in 3 days (august 5th) and he’s very close to the goal but otherwise it’d mean a lot if people spread the link around -> https://gofund.me/f04d9bf0

#gofundme #suicide #donations #idk what else I would tag this with but. yeah #sorry to the people that're gonna get jumpscared by a blocked tag I just felt liek this was important to share #he was like. the one irl friend I had consistently that never bullied me because we were both so different from everyone else #we fell out of touch but I always talk about him fondly and then my mom told me this morning and just. god #I'm really glad I'm gonna have a lot of support and love this month I already know that but what a way to start it huh. #I hope everyone's doing okay. if you're in a hard place right now take this as a sign to do something nice for yourself #talk to a friend go buy some chocolate listen to your favorite song anything #and if it feels like nothing's making you happy #please trust me when I say it will some day #I know everyone says that I know but I've been there I've been through some horrible fucking shit #like anime anti-hero/rival/love interest-to-die levels of trauma #trust me. trust. me. #it will get better. wake up another day. this too shall pass #sorry for the ramble I just feel Very Strongly about this

[sanguith]

i'm glad i decided to try out a ketosis diet again (aka changing my metabolism to basically only use ketone bodies made from fatty acids for energy by reducing carb intake to max 20g/day) for a few weeks because it was a neat experiment but i'm also glad I decided to stop because now i get to enjoy life's greatest fucking simplest yet finest delicacy: mashed potatoes/sweet potatoes with melted butter and salt. i cannot understand how i could live without that. just. vegetables. keto has opened my eyes to new ways to cook foods and experiment with ingredients but i don't think i can live without carbs. i doubt that the majority of people could. also have you any idea how much good simple near-zero effort food there is out there like holy gosh darn in heaven. i don't have to spend hours cooking something to have a nice meal

#food mention #diets #actually anything carb with butter and salt. how can it be so good. call me a lazy goob but i once just microwaved corn and butter #added salt. and it was the most delicious fuckin thing ive ever eaten #i've done low-carb in the past and tried keto a few times and always it felt so great after the keto flu disappeared after a few days #but this time the keto flu did not go away. i felt so weak and awful but at the same time i had less brain fog. and never felt hungry. #but it was werid. i think it might have been because i've been kinda high carb for the last few years and the change was so strong & sudden #also electrolyte imbalances can happen on keto if you're not careful. it's complex. #anyway it got me to eat a bit healthier like (almost) completely avoiding processed foods and unnaturally high sugary stuff #which i just want to generally avoid for personal health reasons which is a whole can of worms but i just dont want to overindulge #sure i can eat an entire bag of candies or chips in an evening if i feel like it but I *feel* my body just being like “nooo” and sure enoug #the next morning i do feel a little bit extra like shit #and another thing: i think i benefit from abrupt diet changes now and then. it feels natural in a way. ye olde scavenger hunter genetics #ya know. our nomadic ancestors would probably have to do that a lot when things weren't year-round available #sometimes only meat for months on end in cold seasons/areas #sometimes basically only plants and nuts roots and seeds and stuff #it's actually remarkable how human metabolism can adapt so much depending on what's available to eat #sometimes fasting for days when food was just nowhere to be found. #i'm not saying “stress your metabolic system it's good for you'” (it probably isnt) just idk. mixing it up a bit at least works for me #btw disclaimer i HATE the whole thing about diet-pressuring and some people claiming that certain diets will solve everything #it doesn't solve all health problems magically. ”"”superfoods“”“ are not a 100% faultless scientifically proven thing. #shit like ''the paleo diet is the number one key to optimal health without medications!!'' no. shut. #on the other hand i do believe diets can help a bit like a nudge. it's just one factor out of many that affects how we feel #ANYWAY conclusion: eat what you want. do what feels right for you. find your own ways to make the food you eat help your health a bit #or don't! be yourself! love yourself! #the chosen method is gonna be different for everybody #but from now on im gonna try and eat as close to natural unprocessed foods as I can in this day and age. it feels right for me somehow. #i think *my* preferred method/diet whatever is to mainly eat natural unprocessed foods and to mix it up a bit now and then with change #for that sweet ''METABOLIC ADAPTATION'' perk that feels good for me #(why did this post become so long. nobody cares. anyway i don't care if nobody cares. i care. *I* care!!! wooopp)

[rainbluealoekitten]

ok mb for worrying everyone but i actually had a BEAUTIFUL afternoon and am feeling pretty happy rn :D rambling about it in the tags ofc <3

#had mac and cheese for lunch so very yum #then slight boy update where he fucking BLUSHED at me today and i've been working very hard to get over him #but was like!!! wtf!!!! what do i do with this!!! and texted one of my best friends #and she told me to fucking ASK HIM why he's been acting shitty as of late #so we formulated a text then he was very very apologetic and explained how he's been feeling as of late #and we chatted for a while which was super nice :))) idk if it's going to last but now we just WAIT and OBSERVE #to see if it's worth it #and then i did a toooooon of work out in my garden really just vibing #like way more research than was needed (did not work smarter over harder) but atm idm bc #it made me feel like i was doing well and honestly i was really just vibing #also put my bird and fish to decompose. still don't know what is up with that lmao #so got to put my hands in the dirt!!!!! fucking love that #now gonna watch outlander i think #or i should check the bio video's transcript quickly before maybe #either way will be fine :))) #i'm glad #and i'm also super proud of myself bc i've made sooo much progress mentally #like yeah everything felt like shit this morning and i was indulging myself there but i have also been owrking so so hard #with walking around angrily repeating that i am grateful to be alive #and pointing out all the shit in the world that i love #and really speaking to myself with love in my heart the way i needed to be spoken to as a child #so yeah :) even if i start to feel shitty again #nobody can take away the moments of happiness from me #there will always be more rays of sun #or more rainstorms bc i prefer those a million times more and guess what!!! rainy season rn :) #peace and love on the planet earth #blue screams into the void

[mittenscatgod]

hello to all 20 other Qi likers

#qi mtas #suggestive cw #took out everything overtly suggestive beforehand but he is clearly shirtless and flustered so felt it better to slap the warning there #hes in city hall because hes telegramming mint at 3 in the morning. hes a normal guy who has a normal relationship with his assistant #not even about the builder although i did marry him in game #you know you've got it bad when youd do write-ups for a guy #frequently consider posting the s/i shit i've wrote to a03 but like most things i love creative control and people are so so wrong about hi

[mieczyhale]

one of the guys that runs a reaction channel i've been watching for ages just announced that they're ending the channel next year bc he got a job offer and he's getting married and he's thinking about his family and his future and like...

my son in christ you are 21

i literally want to fucking die

#dont get me wrong! good for him! i'm happy for him #but he really said he started the channel when he was younger (turns out that was 18) and it felt like time to move on #i am 31 and only got the job i love a year and a half ago #i have been dating and living with the same person for... 10 years in 11 days and all i've ever wanted is to get married #(and be a mom but i dont think im ever getting that one but im gonna go ahead and focus on that one zero percent or i'll cry) #i say. like all of this doesnt make me want to cry lmao #i am so incredibly blessed to have what i have. like truly i ended up with the perfect sort of life for my awkward mentally ill ass #but i cannot NOT spiral just a little when people younger than me have the things i want so so bad and then also talk as if their young age #is older than it is. i know you feel mature and older but you are still so fucking young. and okay honestly - now that im rambling - thats #just part of it huh?? i mean a lot of the spiral is actually Wow. I really lost so much of my life (so much time. so many opportunities) to #mental illness and other shit i couldn't control and there are people who didn't fucking have that. there are people who didn't have to #deal with any of that!!! honestly!!! and you just.. dont do anything to prepare for the future when you do not expect there to be one for #so long and then you can't stop fucking everything up and then oh look! you're in your 30s and- #god i cannot fucking do this #it is 1:35 in the morning and im tired but now i feel really stubborn about going to bed. i should. i want to. but also i dont. #actually going to bed is where The Horrors are so #this really was the dumbest fucking shit i think im gonna go to bed & play p.m on my phone and try to be a little less pathetic #maison speaks

[maraeffect]

i had a really good day today 🥹💖

#had a lazy morning bc i slept like shit lol BUT. my partner & I had brunch together #and then took a road trip to DAISOOOOO FINALLY I GOT TO GO AGAIN #after that i took her on a date to a little pho place near the store 🥹 and it was DELICIOUS #and i think my partner felt really appreciated too 🥺 she kept saying how sweet i was for takin her out #and how she loves me so much 😭😭😭 swear to god i am so lucky to have her #and we laughed a lot too since the trip was long. lots of stupid jokes and shit lol #best saturday I've had in a bit i think 🥹💖 #chatter #autumn

[sirnica]

So, these are panic attacks and not low blood sugar.

Good to know.

#personal #felt like shit this morning too #did some tests and they all came out perfectly #and then i started shaking at work and i decided to go to the doctors #congratulations it's a panic attack #usually when i have them I can't breathe and J #i start hyperventilating so i didn't realize this was the same thing #I've been having them for months now! #i just didn't realize what it was #fuck my brain #why does it hate us #but at least I have the rest of the day off

[pirateboy]

everything is shit i feel like shit, hatred in my heart and soul

#sorry to vent but also i'm gonna do a vent fuck you #i've been feeling so blehhh this past week #and like. yesterday afternoon and today i felt like things were getting better #and the something like. rlly minor happened and like. it's entirely thrown me off again and i hate it!! #i don't know. *how* to make things better cos it's almost entirely like my mental state fucking up #rather than like. actual events i can focus on #i've just been so. :////////////////// #and like. yes there was probably an event that kind of. made things worse #but it shouldn't have been that big of a deal #also i'm so fucking tired all the time!! if you know me you know i don't get up past like 11 each morning #so i'm fucking getting enough sleep. why am i like this #i just. feel like shit. even going on fun little walks isnt helping anymore #i dunno. like i said things were getting a bit better. i finally managed to get myself to go to the gym which i hadn't for over a week #that helped a bit. and work acc went well today and yesterday #i'm just. ehhh i hate that something so minor can throw off again and now i hate everything and i want to scream #sorry as well that ik i'm leaving a few people hanging when it comes to replying to messages #i'll try to get round to it just like. no energy. feel like shit. you know #just. i hate that i'm feeling like this i want to be productive i want to do stuff cos ik that's gonna help #and i actually was starting to build up good habits but it's just all fallen down recently :(( #i dunno. maybe i've got fucking reverse seasonal depression or something (not actually this is called a joke) #cos my winter was rlly good #or that's just. the way of life. if things are good for a while they then have to be bad again for balance #which i understand but don't like >:(( #anyways. yh. shit sucks. i hate that i am being like this. screaming crying throwing up etc. #bear with me a while till i can find my feet again #marchibald's

[messengerhermes]

"I don't understand, you get so short and nasty with me, but it feels like you have the energy to be sweet and polite to strangers" Well yes, because the random waitress: 1. Is doing a very difficult job and does not deserve to have me be a cranky asshole to her 2. Does not greet me nearly every day by presenting me with a list of shit she wants me to do before I've even had breakfast 3. Does not turn my evening attempts to spend time with her into "let me complain about our mutual beloathed for 30 minutes" 4. Does not invite me to go out and then complain about our mutual beloathed, or pull a fast one and pick my brain for ideas on how to improve her latest project 5. Does not treat me like the God of Customer Service who has the answer to any problem and is also here for you to vent your frustration upon because I don't know why this random doodad has done what it's done any more than you do 6. Does not continue to do all these things to me when I have already very clearly said that I have a headache and do not feel well 7. Does not complain to me regularly about how she has "no space" as she barges into the one room I have in the house that is mine so she can raid supplies from the cupboard she insisted she could not clean out. Consider that I'm not becoming "short and cranky" with you for no fucking reason.

#vent #I love you but holy fuckin shit is love an active practice some days #delete later #you know I've felt like shit all week why do you still do this???? #I had to catch the wall to keep from going down this morning but sure #I can help you with whatever thing and negotiate a very fraught call you don't want to do

[britneyshakespeare]

i got plastered last night which was not a great idea for me

#vomit cw for the tags #i seldom drink but every time i drink i am reminded of why i seldom drink #i'm safe i've just felt like shit for like.... 18 hours now #which is also around the time i stopped drinking #it was my sister-in-law's bachelorette party and i was in safe company. usually i don't drink at parties at all but like #that's my big sister there and her friends and family. i knew if i got really fucked up they could take care of me. calculated risk. #but some of the other bachelorettes drink a lotttt more than i do & i can be easily influenced. lol #not lol actually i had to go home. my mommy picked me up in the morning so i could go sleep in my own bed #tales from diana #i threw up so much. so so much repeatedly for a long time. including this morning #i threw up water and a graham cracker bc that was all i was able to consume after i started throwing up #which was around midnight. #i didn't drink on an empty stomach but i lost all of the contents of it by about noon today. #and i was still not up for eating anything more than like two triscuits. until half an hour ago i asked my dad to scramble me some eggs #and he did and they tasted. delicious. like it was 5pm and i hadn't been able to eat all day.

[jesuisgourde]

day 2 of staying up til like 5:30 in the morning i think i have officially ruined my already terrible sleep schedule

#i go to sleep a stupid hours of the morning anywau #but if i end up awake once it's starting to get light out then i develop a weird fear of sleep #the few times it's gone on for a longish amount of time i end up having insane lucid dreams or whatever #like the few times i've done the sleep less than 3 hours a night (or ''night'') thing for more than 5 or 6 days in a row #i've had really frightening experiences that were extremely real #and which i've never learned if they actually happened or if they were hallucinations from sleep deprivation #(like as in they were all things that easily could have happened not like unreal shit that just felt real) #lol also when i'm sleep deprived i monologue in the tags #(oh no this is what my descent back into lm is going to get me huh lol)

[fitzselfships]

I'm sorry this is probably the last time I'm going to bring this up but wow getting that ask this morning really fucked me up bad for some reason

#negative #I've been feeling like a bad person all day #and I feel bad for feeling that way #because 1: I don't want people to think i'm looking for attention kr anything like that #and 2: I don't want people to think I'm trying to make this all about me #also I feel like I'm being overdramatic and I'm sorry if I come off that way #but man </3 I was already in a horrible place mentally. that just made things 10 times worse #I'm like. really scared I'm going to wake up tomorrow and find out someone made a callout post on me or something #normally I would try not to let skmething like this bither me #but I wasaready doing awful last night and this morning #I know this sounds dramamtic but I feel so bad right now I'm actually considering deactivating this blog #I probably won't actually do it and it's just the mental illness™️ talking #but I just have felt like shit all day and idk nothing i do to cope seems to be making me feel any better

[that-fic-girl]

HAZBIN HOTEL X READER HC #1

Head canon: what it would be like to date them.

characters: Alastor, angel dust, husk, vox

disclaimer: everything i write about these characters might not be accurate to the actual story, please take everything in the fic with a grain of salt, none of this is canon!!

Alastor

he hasnt been in an actual relationship in a while so being close and vulnerable with someone is quite hard for him, especially as someone who associates emotions with weakness.

First off, its safe to say he adores the ground you walk on. He's in love with everything about you, your clothes, the smell of your hair, your sickly sweet voice. his loves it all.

If there was ever a problem you needed fixing, a person you needed taken care of or even a errand you needed to run he would tend to it himself. he would not let you lift a finger.

PDA is a iffy thing for him, he wouldnt do grand big gestures but maybe a hand on the hip or a few words of affirmation.

everyone in the pride ring quickly learned of yours and radio demon's relationship. And no one dared to mess with you, ofcourse there was people who wanted to test their luck but they would have to pay the price later.

his love language is definitely words of affirmation, he will sweet talk the shit out of you. At night when it's just you two in bed, he will have his hands stroking through your hair whilst you rant to him about your day and he'll reply with sweet nothings

"oh darling, i've missed you all evening"

"you looked ravishing today my dear.."

"mm your hair smells amazing, my love"

Angel Dust

Angel is one of, if not, the horniest mother fuckers out there but somehow, he manages to somewhat make a healthy relationship with someone.

you two are seen as "the bad bitch" couple. you're always out together, always getting into dumb shit together. You'll get yelled at by vaggie at early hours in the morning because the two of you where playing a childish game of tag in the hotel halls.

his love language is definitely physical touch, he'll have his arms slung around your waist almost all the time. Kisses are a MUST every 5 minutes, like this boy will NOT part from you. especially in the mornings when you have to leave for work;

"mmnnnnoooooooo...stayyy for five minutes pleasseeeee"

"but sweets..you're soooo warm"

"sweetheart please, you feel so comfy"

yeah good luck with that.

nights with him are VERY eventful, if it wasn't obvious. You two would usually be at it late hours into the night but sometimes, when you two where too exhausted to fuck like rabbits, he would be sprawled across your lap whilst you stroked his fur.

Husk

Despite his harsh tone and uncompromising demeanor, you understood that Husk wasn't trying to be malicious towards you. It was simply his way of communicating, and you knew that his behavior wasn't personal. Even though he could be abrasive at times, you loved him for his rough edges and authentic personality

You and Husk's time together was mostly spent at the bar. You didn't like to drink much, but you loved seeing him work and make cocktails like a pro. You didn't mind that it wasn't considered a typical date, because you liked spending time with him in whatever way he felt most comfortable.

Husk is not used to receiving compliments, as he didn't often receive them in his past life. When you complimented him, it caught him off guard and he was surprised. But he eventually learned to appreciate it, and it even made him feel a little sentimental.

Despite the difficulty, you were able to help Husk realize that you genuinely cared about him. He had been used to being surrounded by dishonesty and hypocrisy, but you were always sincere and real. He held you in high regard, as you were the only source of light in his life, and he didn't want to lose you.

vox

You were known as a strong and independent person who didn't need assistance from others. You knew how to stand up for yourself, despite being harsh and tough at times. Despite your exterior, no one was aware of the soft spot in your heart that Vox's affection and touch alone could melt away your severity.

He appreciated seeing your affectionate side, as it felt special and intimate, like a shared secret between the two of you. He knew you valued your privacy, and he respected it by never sharing photos or other details on social media. He didn't want to betray your trust.

You were often feared and respected when you were with Vox. People found it hard to believe that someone as intimidating as yourself could have a tender, caring side that was kept hidden from most. Vox was glad that he was the only one who got to see that side of you. He didn't want to share something so special and personal with anyone else.

Quite often, he would call you on the phone, knowing that sweet words could be just as effective as a kiss. He enjoyed hearing how your voice softened from its usual seriousness to a more affectionate tone. He was aware that when he said loving phrases to you, you would blush and smile shyly, and sometimes he even regretted not being able to witness it in person.

"i've missed you today babe.."

"mhm look at my pretty girl/boy!"

#Hazbin Hotel #Hazbin Hotel x Reader #Hazbin Hotel headcanons #Alastor #Alastor x Reader #Vox #Vox x Reader #Hazbin Hotel oneshots #Husk #Husk x Reader #angel dust #angel dust x reader #vivziepop\

[yesornoneil]

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#dfhhffdfhhg i um burned my knee in the shower this morning??? #I've been having sensory issues real bad in the morning and having to shower in the dark sitting on the floor #and i had the water pretty hot like too hot i know but my shit was acting up and it just felt so nice with it concentrated there #and like it didn't hurt #or i guess maybe it did but it was the good kind like theres a feeling of release and relaxation you know? #and look i understand there are alarming aspects of this gghhjgddyy which is why i can't like tell like friends or my sister lol #but like I'm sorry it's just so funny my knee is red and swollen and like tender to touch and it's just like bitch what in the fuck???? #i didn't even notice until i was putting on my pants #my post #ignoreme #i could probably tell my mom bc she probably wouldn't make the necessary connections to be alarmed by it lmao

[eldrai]

you ever just want a body that works

#eldrai.txt #ibs shit #i have 2 hours until my morning alarm and i have not slept becahse I've felt like the verge of throwing up for hours #stupid stupid body

[frogchiro]

Brought to you by the biggest snow storm I've seen in YEARS😭

Imagine that it's snowing so heavily that you barely see anything outside the window, a perfect snow storm but the insulation in the shitty apartment building is doing nothing to keep you warm, not to mention the one heater you had was barely holding on.

It was...awful. Hopeless even. You felt like you'd freeze to death in this shit hole and nobody would notice, maybe except...Your pushy and weird but strangely charming neighbour, Simon. He sure unnerved you with that blank, empty gaze that flashed with something whenever he looked at you or with his weirdly touchy behavior where whenever he had the chance to grab you by the hips to 'move you' but given the chance that his apartment woukd be even slightly warmer, you'd take your chances.

Imagine going slowly to knock on Simon's door, your warmest blanket wrapped around your shivering form and imagine the look in Si's eyes when he heard your shy, quiet request as if you were scared and ashamed asking if you could please stay for the night with him because the heating is broken in your apartment.

'Bloody fuckin' hell, she wants to kill me' he thought and almost too eagerly let you inside his apartment. It was...something, sure, with its almost spartan furnishing and the low light combined with the chipped plaster and slightly torn wallpaper made the place look unsettling, but at least it was warmer than your own and you felt like you wouldn't freeze to death :(

Imagine Simon dismissing your thank yous and almost growling lowly at your quiet assurances that you'll be out of his hair by morning and that you promise you'll keep everything tidy and not leave any mess behind. Imagine his borderline disgusted look when you asked him if you could sleep on his couch; what do you mean his couch? Oh you silly girl, you're not sleeping on that old, tattered thing! You're sleeping with him in his bed!

Your look of confusion and embarrasment send a pleasurable pulse into his tummy and made his cock stir in his sweats as he rumbled out that he'd never let his dear, sweet neighbour sleep there, plus it is cold enough to freeze his balls off and he wouldn't mind that extra heat♡

Imagine whining quietly with delight when you sunk under the covers in Simon's bed, even if it looked cold and hard, his bed felt like the warmest and softest nest in the world, not to mention the huge human furnace pressed close to you. You could feel the large male pressing close to you, his hard chest and tummy pressed against your back, his strong arms around your middle and when you were almost asleep, you didn't even register thet you nuzzled your nose and cheek against his stubble.

But he sure did♡

#kin speaks #i'm so so sorry for the silence lately #i've been feeling weirdly unmotivated and burned out #plus the stress at uni is getting to me :( #sleazy neighbour!ghost #cod x reader #cod mw x reader #simon riley x reader #simon ghost riley x reader #simon riley cod #simon ghost riley #simon riley