#I've never been more happy to be wrong

[mac-lilly]

THIS BAND IS BACK!

#i've never been more happy to be wrong #julie and the phantoms #jatp #jatp cast

[shima-draws]

There’s nothing quite like getting a wedding invitation from the guy you used to have a crush on in high school

#Hmm. Feels awful!! #Me to me: Maybe. I'm not quite over this. #IDK IT FEELS WEIRD MAN. I'm very happy for him. But also kinda bummed at the same time. #I think I'm more just dreading showing up and being like aha yeah! Here I am! #I haven't changed at all since we last spoke! Not at all!! #Nothing new or exciting going on with me ever. No accomplishments. No partner I can brag about. NOTHIN #Hey anybody wanna show up as my fake date. Fake dating to lovers AU /j #Idk it just feels wrong to keep hearing from my friends in high school who are all getting married and having kids #Meanwhile me. Who has never dated anybody ever. And has nothing to show from the past five years: #SORRY I'M JUST HAVING A MID-LIFE CRISIS I GUESS. AT THE RIPE OLD AGE OF 26. #Me: I've been dealing with my anxiety and depression on the daily for years now and yeah that's it how are you #My friends: I got my dream job and I'm marrying the love of my life and I'm going to buy a house soon!! #I WANT TO CRAWL INTO A HOLE. AND DIE. YEAH. THAT SOUNDS GOOD #Sorry I need to sit here and feel pathetic and hate myself for a second. Then I'll get overe it #*over #Shima speaks #Maybe I can lie and say I've been backpacking through Europe for the last five months. LMAO

[captain-crowfish]

They say to never trust how you feel about your life after 9PM but it's always before 9PM somewhere. Anyway I think I might be a therian

#don't take this post 100% seriously I've been sick and #crying my eyes out to “no more birthdays” associating the song with trying to relive a childhood that isn't mine (childhood trauuuumaaaaaa) #that's a big problem I have #deep down I always think someday I'm gonna wake up and I will have been born a few years earlier- #so I can be an “appropriate” age to experience all my favorite media as it releases and interact accordingly #i always think- if that were the case I could have avoided my traumatic years and grown up much happier #don't get me wrong- I'm happy right now- you'd be hard pressed to find me on a day I'm not #but there's some existentialism that comes with wanting to magically wake up a different age- in the past- in a different life #I want to have lived any life but mine #and I just keep waiting for it to feel better again #it never does #crowfish crap #that therian part is definitely coinciding with autism and gender non conformity #when I picture myself I immediately picture my fursona- not a human who (at the moment) appears feminine #i hardly know anything about the subculture itself however #blathering #its true btw don't trust how you feel about your life at night time

[fourteenthz]

Been thinking abt thesa/thancred and how long it took her to take her feelings seriously. Sometimes, you repress a part of your heart for so long that when it's reawaken, it feels like a dream. Or a nightmare even. And it's painful at first and just genuinely seems morally wrong for someone, so duty bounded, but then.... once he takes a step forward, it flows so easily. It's like he's giving her his hand and saying, "I'll teach you how to deal with it," and if it was spoken by any other soul in any other tone, she'd take offense. If it was anyone else but him. And when they are together at first, it just entirely feels like puppy love. And for some reason she knows that past-thesa would scoff at this and how childish it looks - how she acts like a teenager in love sometimes when they are alone - and she loves it because Thancred doesn't think that. And slowly, she isn't thinking that anymore. She's learning with him, you know.

#its 6am what am i even doing with my life #i should be asleep. i have 1 day free and instead of sleeping and stay awake all night with thoughts abt thesa/thancred #and for some reason i still can't write anything im happy with. i miss writing. #whats wrong with my word doc and why did this text post came easier than anything I've been trying the last month #anywah THEM...... #thinking about them at the beginning of their relationship so hard rn. cant stop the thoughts. #how they are so used to understand one another by looks but then when it comes to romance it changes the dynamic #how she is a lot more vocal but still so bad at conveying her feelings and truly understanding that kind of his #and shes always like 'i think you will have to tell me what is it' and how she gets ready for it to be annoying thing to say #but instead of reacting like that he goes 'once you stop distracting me I'll try' and kisses her and and and 🗣🗣 #its the person who thinks they are hard to love x person who loves them like breath etc etc...... u get me.. #its abt her slowly opening up to love and how just bc its hard doesn’t mean it's bad.... #thancred being surprised about how cheeky and talkative she is once they are comfortable in a relationship.... #and her not being surprised at all with how gentle he is. because some things change but other's are intricately theirs #and its abt learning the new things and getting used to love the old ones and just. love is so nice. im having feelings rn excuse me. #throwing up etc etc how do i sleep with my head so full of wolcred this is unfair truly. almost 7am. how. #sorry just really can't stop thinking abt how thesa I'll never forget the look in thancred's eyes when their first met and how thancred saw #a very similar one once she said ily out loud for the first time. being sane and normal and not unwell at all #kelly says #dl #thesa/thancred #wol posting #x: together to the bitter end #(just for tagging/blacklist means) #<- just noticed i drafted this out of shame YOU KNOW WHAT.............. POSTING IT TODAY SORRY #i'm having thoughts about them i can stop I miss them I miss them I miss them I miss you writing wolcred save me save me etc etc #i really wrote that text post with my whole chest and drafted it at 7am. 🫵 shame on you prev kelly 🫵 #posted today's vierapril with them well get this too. being annoying and making it everybody's problem today. have at it.

[ijzermansdriesen]

Two years later and on the other side of major depressive disorder, I don't remember ever crying for maandag 11:03 like I did today.

#like don't get ne wrong I've cried a lot like A LOT watching Sobbe.. an insane unhealthy amount even #over the littlest of things but #not over maandag 11:03 as far as I can remember #Sander breaking down.. his broken cries in Robbe's arms and I couldn't hold my tears anymore #somehow I relate to Sander much more much much more than I went on the hiatus and it's funny because I already related to Sander more #than Robbe before as well #I just felt what he must feel on a very deep and personal level... to think he can never be loved or be treated normally again to always #feel like a victim of his illness a shadow that's lurking always and can anytime overshadow what little happiness or normalcy he tries to #reach and then have someone to tell you it's okay I'm here you're safe you're good we can and we will get through this together ... #to feel anchored and not like you'd fly off any time to have the stability of a loving caring person even through the worst of times when #you hate yourself #oooffff #a crying mess it made me #the way Sander trying to be strong otherwise but breaks down as soon as he realises Robbe really loves him he's really staying ... #not the cruelty it's the tenderness that makes you break down #just how horrible Britt must have been to him nobody deserves that shit #wtfock #don't know if I want to tag this but I'm keeping travk of my posts this way so anyway tag is bereft of people of sorts

[shopcat]

there is, Obviously, fundamentally a difference between headcanon and an analytical reading of text, and treating the two as exactly the same is not only wrong but devalues both, but funnily, i've found people tend to forget that both of these things are the product of referencing our real life experiences and applying them where we see fit to make a more interesting way to interact with media. and you can't just like, forget that it's not JUST about headcanons and meta analysis and whatever, because people in real life also still matter. and in real life, there are different stakes and EXPERIENCES, and those experiences lead to thinking the way we do because that's how you Be a goddamn person, which is why it's ironic is all 😭

like, saying zuko atla has to be cis in order to be "properly" gay in order to be Truly Compelling narratively is fucking ridiculous. textually, zuko is not actually gay. he never was intended to be, he never will be intended to be, he was never even subtextually. the assumption otherwise is already rooted in fantasy, and the tongue in cheek assertion that it isn't, which means it has more credence, is ... dumb? childish? admitting to at least yourself that the things you talk about wrt character analysis aren't the intention of the creator is literally half the point of doing said analysis – you're MEANT to throw away the intended interpretation in order to give it a new life through different keyholes without entirely divorcing itself from the text. (in the same breath, insisting the creator truly meant One Thing when they absolutely would not have/don't care at all, and ignoring that the people who made the piece are going to put their own biases and experiences and background into the media itself and actually MUST be taken into account for things like this is just ... well. Stop That.)

i've personally never been someone to ever claim that The Writers All Along INTENDED to do something that they obviously didn't, like make a character from a 2005 cartoon lgbt+. this doesn't mean that reading doesn't have any substance or cannot possibly hold any meaning, or that it's wrong. if you can't be objective about your own readings what's the damn point... leaning into it being fiction, which changes just by being observed by a different person, is why it's fun or interesting to do in the first place. and yeah there are some basic cookie cutter headcanons people like to fling around, and there can be criticism for that otherwise, but claiming headcanons themselves AREN'T an offshoot of this way of thinking is fucking stupid. like it's plain wrong.

our own thoughts on why a character acts, what they do, what their presentation is, why their personality is what it is up to and including their sexuality, gender identity, religion, JOB, whatever, are made to fill the gaps the text can't or won't provide, and in the case of lgbt ones as long as it's not actively harmful (as in like insisting a lesbian character is bi or something) it is literally harmless seeing as it is fairly solidly a "won't", along with a whole bunch of other hc material that usually don't see the light of day on-screen nonstereotypically. people seeing themselves in characters isn't new but more than that, saying that you know this but then pushing it aside because The Analysis Means More when it's Realistic And Plausible is fucking dumb. and rude. bc the entire point of drawing the line of connections this way is how WE see them. being all like "oh well, your own personal identity is still valid otherwise, don't get your feelings hurt bc it doesn't matter," is moot if you've already asserted there's only One real way to be... plausible 🤨. which is to be NORMAL ! duh.

like, the read that zuko IS gay (and cis) relies on extracting parts through the lens of our own gay perceptions and is why cishet fans don't pick up on it, but you can ask pretty much any other lgbt fan and they'll agree. zuko's narrative arc IS compelling with the read that he is gay, from the way he is ostracised by his family, neglected and abused, the "punishment" he receives and then continues to become his own warden of, the order of his death and the banishment itself, sozin criminalising homosexuality, his inability to connect with others especially his own age, his inability to seamlessly interact with girls, his literal externalised viewing of seeing himself as someone with Two Sides, them being good vs evil, realising he can change the damn world through love and acceptance, striving for peace, being the face of change for his nation, relearning what it means to be who he is once he is free from his past, the shame and humiliation rituals, the claim of his father that he is worthless as a prince and person, AND MORE... and i cannot express enough here how fucking little it matters if he's specifically gay or WHAT THE HELL EVER 😭.

to claim in no small way that it's impossible for a trans person, or a bisexual person, or anyone else lgbt, could ever line up his narrative with their own personal one is so beyond ridiculous it gives me a headache. no, "plausibly", i don't think zuko is like, transmasc. yes, plausibly, he could be gay. plausibly, he could be amab nonbinary but no one seems to actually give a fuck about that for some reason (i wonder!). nothing would change in both cases, because he's not actually either, so i really don't see the point in making fun of or being frustrated by one to lift up the other because you want cisgender boot soles to brush the back of your throat THAT badly. the implausibility of thinking any way about a fictional character should be taken into account to an extent, sure, but at the end of the day neither of us are doing anything truly worthwhile, and no one is claiming that it's the intent from the beginning to say otherwise, so what's the point here. why are we doing this. let's go skip in a meadow together before i kill someone with this rock.

#🐾 #tldr i am actually just so sick of people saying the word plausible #it's not plausible for this character to be trans. well OKAY. THARS NOT THE FUCKING POINT IDIOT #not every fucking thing people do is for the sake of furthering the fucking plot holy shit what is wrong with you #these people will never know joy or happiness and forever be miserable bc they're just OBSESSED with trying to rationalise.. art?! #LIKE ITS NOT GONNA HAPPENNNN 😭 #even if it is a plausible trans read people will pick it apart. I Know. i've been there. people do not and i hate to break it to you #like trans people. even other trans people. SHOCK HORROR. jesus christ #this is a real torture dungeon of my own creation #also my two cents personally i think the sum of who zuko is as a person is first and foremost autistic and gay. and everything else is as #an abuse victim. and i honestly don't care if he's trans bc it doesn't matter in the way ppl need to be tantruming over #but it still would be just as significant if not more so. acruallg definitely more so what the hell. my family doesn't hate me bc i Like #Boys .. OR GIRLS. #and YEAH sokka does read more trans sure. but he also is the one who got made fun of for at least like matching his belt and bag #or liking shopping or being feminine .. #is this what people mean when they say that... that katara would be transphobic to her own brother 😭 #well probably not. anyway. #if we're being textual sokka literally IS the one with some sort of gay subtext just FOR being the victim of the charming 2000s lightly #homophobic joking. not zuko. no one gives af about zuko #it does not break my arm to say zuko got banished for being too much sowmrbing and not enough something and got to be himself afterwards #in the slow journey that that took. this could mean literlalt anything. so who cares #he's lgbt all at once. There. bitch #also these ppl bc it was a whole bunch ofc. seemed to just mostly be mad bc zuko got the hc more #like how is that everyone else's problem now. just make sokka trans more ... idiot #☆

[savrenim]

gods nov 5th is the gift that keeps giving

#I recently have been dragged into I guess sort of the boku no hero academia fandom in the funniest of ways #which is to say I read a crossover fic went 'huh that's good' and decided to read more fic while also deciding to never watch the show #which I've only done for one fandom before and tbh it might legit be a more fun fanfiction reading experience than the normal one #it is WILD trying to reverse-engineer what is simply well-accepted fan theory and what is actual canon #I've definitely gotten a few guesses wrong but the osmosis process is really fun #(esp bc if you want to be a good detective you have to check dates; even people writing very carefully close to canon #might have written a fic before canon came out) #BUT ANYWAYS I guess I read BNHA fic now it's actually pretty good #probably bc there are multiple characters that fit my standard..... not even 'blorbo' preferences #my 'you have a backstory and/or situation that means fanfic written about you is most likely going to hit the spot' preferences #1 defs being Eraserhead bc let's be real 'I am a very tired gruff teacher working two jobs at once who does not get any sleep and has #against my own will adopted all of you why is this happening to me I'm so tired' is The Most Relatable #Hawks bc Crafted Into A Weapon From Childhood is The Weapons Feels^TM #and then Dabi bc that was the crossover that I read that was fun ok it was a silly jjk crossover of 'what if Gojo is reincarnated as Dabi' #that just transferred all my 'HELLO FAVORITE CHARACTER' emotions onto Dabi who then I go and look up and has also the sort of backstory #that makes him fave character material #SO here I am sitting here just generally happy with all of this watching my annual Nov 5th meme compilation #and LO AND BEHOLD there is strong arm 'trending during the us election: destiel/ BNHA' meme #and I'm going 'what the fuuuuuuuck my new favorite fandom aLSO TRENDED IN THE NOV 5TH CHAOS????' #so obviously I had to look up why #WELL THE WHY WAS DABI BACKSTORY REVEAL #anyways my housemate had to check on me as to why I was screaming and it turns out that indeed nov 5th #is the gift that keeps on giving #if you have read this far down in my tags I feel like you now know uncomfortably personal things about me #esp if you know enough about BNHA to understand all of that #so if you have any fic recs About My Favs I'm taking them I esp enjoy canon retellings bc it's REALLY fun to try to figure out #which bits of those are actually canon

[ladyelainehilfur]

hm...ngl, I think a lot of modern popular opinion and trend is pretty degenerative. How is it progress if you're just going backwards?

#this applies to a lot of left leaning ideas I see floating around now #but I'm going to specifically call out polyamory bc what the hell is that #that...those--no. that's not how real relationships work #if you can't commit to one person don't be in a relationship #I've never met a single poly person who was happy with their relationship #'humans were never meant to date 1 person' get outta here #this is nothing but pure lust from an increasingly backwards culture that's trying to make all the wrong things seem right #it physically makes me cringe seeing more and more news outlets embrace this like its not a form of insanity #'I'm poly' oh okay you mean you can't commit #why are people always trying to complicate such simple things?? #imma lose followers but look #in between genders don't exist. you are what you are and you are beautiful exactly the way you were born #sometimes you don't love people but when you do there is one person out there willing to match you #you just have to be patient and look carefully #good is worth waiting for #I'm going to emphasize it again: I like you exactly the way you are. you might doubt it #you might think something needs to give so you can feel more yourself #but you are perfect. please grow and develop as a person but don't destroy the beauty God has bestowed on you #this has been your very lowkey for the most part conservative christian speaking #LE talks to the wall

[chenyann]

FUCK VIVIANS ANONS(the bad ones) I KNOW ITS BAD TO SEND INDIRECT DEATH THREATS TO THEM SO I WONT DO THAT BUT TRUST ME IF I SEE ANOTHER ANON SAYING THEY WILL HURT NOT ONLY HER BUT HER CHILD I WILL BE SAYING THINGS AND IT WONT BE PRETTY. I HAVE NO FUCKS TO GIVE IF TUMBLR COMES AT ME. THOSE ANONS HAVE NO FUCKING RIGHT TO SAY SHIT LIKE THAT BECAUSE SOMEONE FOUGHT BACK. BECAUSE SHE DIDNT LET THEM FUCKING HARASS HER SAYING SHE IS BAD FOR HAVING A KID. ANONS (vivians bad ones) HOW ABOUT YOU SHOVE A STICK UP UR ASS AND SEE HOW FAR UP IT GOES IF YOU WANT ATTENTION. I AM AT MY BREAKING POINT IVE SEEN YALL LITTLE SHITS AND I BEEN NICE BUT YOU EVEN THREATEN TO KILL A UNBORN CHILD, LITTLE WORD FOR ADVICE DEAR YOU COME INTO VIVIANS INBOX SAYING SHIT LIKE THAT EVEN AGAIN THERE WILL BE THREATS MADE. AND I COULDN'T CARE LESS IF TUMBLR DELETES MY ACCOUNT FOR IT. YOU MOM HAD YOU ANONYMOUS SO IS YOUR MOM A WHORE. DONT TAKE THE FACT THAT YOU HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO DO IN YOUR SAD PATHETIC LIFE ON VIVIAN OKAY<3

#'Yako put a tw' #I'm not in a good mood don't mess with me #I have said I'll bring harm to someone's kid but the difference is that I tried to make it better and I apologized #I wint sit here and act like I've never did anything wrong in my life #I made mistakes #But what I won't stand for is that shit #I will never in my life stand for someone who says and base someone on one single action they do #Anon #I will send death threats if you do that again. #And I know it's bad #But I still will #Because vivian is an amazing person who has been through hell #And she deserves more happiness than anyone else.

[fellwhite]

It's happening

Im self sabotaging again, as I've done all my life

This is a vent, you have been warned

#all happiness i had from the date has completely died out #I don't know what happened nor what to feel #up to yesterday she was messaging me for simple things with a couple pet names and just being lovely #yet today when we finally see each other again? colder than the fucking stone she's never been this cruel before #im totally willing to be with her in the good and the bad...but it's hard to do when anything you do gets completely rejected or ignored #i knew that this was a possibility of course but with how perfect everything was i don't understand i truly don't #im confused and on the verge of crying but I've been holding it back the whole day...the better the thing the worse the consecuence i guess #thank fucking god im no longer suicidal (i mean depression is always there but i can fight it now) because this would've surely left a scar #I just don't understand anything... why is this even happening where did i go wrong and how can i even fix it #thing is: although I'll definitely end up blaming myself i do know it's also something on her end #atleast in these moments of sanity i don't feel that guilty yet but I'll be dying in these following times #...guess this does confirm that it's not a simple crush but actual love right? because I've never felt this hurt before #like i don't give up and I don't plan to because with her i have experienced some of the happiest moments of my entire life #i know it's worth it... but i don't know how much more i can keep taking before crumbling apart #ah. this is why refused to let myself fall for someone again until a long time but that attempt was poorly executed #again though. what I've lived with her will stay on my mind and... if it comes to the worst I'll atleast treasure the memories i could keep #anyways ill end this here. i needed some venting because everything is aching right now but this does help even if just a little #vent

[faust1926]

ok but it’s like. my delusions feel good because they give me a greater sense of purpose in life beyond [insert everything about my real life that’s killing me here]. but they feel bad because they’re often about scary and awful things. they feel good because they give me something to believe in/look forward to. and they feel bad because the more real they seem to me the further away everything else feels. I want them gone cause they mess with my ability to function the way I strive to, but I want them to stay cause without them I’d be functioning even Worse.

#and then every therapist profile I look at is like ''is there something WRONG with you you want GONE so you can be normal again'' #(<- and what if you've never been normal/happy/etc. lol?) #or it's like. ''I tailor my approach to EACH individual. that's why I offer talk therapy; art therapy; /and/ spiritual yoga ^_^'' #but whatever. #breaking it into pieces like this ^ helps at least #it feels like one of those optical illusions where ur brain fills in the hole in the image #I'm missing out on many many emotional/mental needs. so my brain is filling in the blanks trying to make do #a la ''no stable support structure (from guardians/gov/professionals)? -> actually there's constant support from invisible spirits'' #could literally draw these lines for Every detail I've got memorized in here. it's not hard it's not rocket science #literally don't see why I'd need some talk therapist to psychoanalyze me. you don't know me. it's my brain. I know me. and I'm simple #I just need help to fulfill my needs. so maybe the worse parts of this would feel less dire. and there's be less ''curing'' of - #- something that's important to me rn #so I just need to find someone who could actually help me do that. not just talk about how I feel or whatever. #it just makes me feel so awful/guilty that rn I feel my delusions are getting worse. and I feel like I ''should'' be doing something - #- to stop that. but I don't Know what else to do. I am literally too tired to function or think and I don't have any ideas other than - #- ''win the lottery'' or ''end capitalism'' <- the latter of which /is/ also a component of my delusions it really is so obvious. #so like. I just need to find a therapist who will have more ideas or something. I don't know. I have no clue. #I've already tried so many ''solutions''

[kikizoshi]

It's amazing how much of my progress with understanding and working with Nikolai as a character is predicated on his backstory. His backstory, which is exclusive to me, because I'm the one who made it. But every time I'm working on any questions to do with his philosophies or motivations, I have to delve into his past. It's so essential. No wonder I couldn't get anywhere with canon Nikolai--there literally just isn't enough there. Not enough for someone like me, anyway. I'm sure it's possible.

#like I think I've just realised that it wasn't so much that Fyodor did anything in particular to Nikolai #like from his perspective they were close friends but he didn't do anything extra like manipulate him #but for Nikolai Fyodor was an aspect of his stability--his ability to feel okay #because Nikolai's always searching for peace in the wrong places #like 'if I just had this I'd be okay' but of course he's wrong. because unless he finds it within himself #any feeling of stability is temporary #but it's always been like that for him. and in his 20s finally in Petersburg acting and meeting Fyodor #he had a place he could express himself and people he could be himself around. and for a while that was genuinely enough. he was happy #happy in a way he'd never really been before #but then when Fyodor was arrested it was like it all came crashing down again. suddenly nothing felt right. and nothing he did could fix it #he tried to live in spite of it but his emotions were crippling him. he just couldn't anymore. so he ran away again. #and lost everything again #and he finally realised that as he was he'd never be free to do anything. he'd always be trapped by his own feelings #and sure he could maybe find happiness again and rebuild but it would never last. this would just happen again and again #and thus he ended up at canon #of course there's a lot more than just that. many moments that make up those broad strokes. foreshadowing. #things weren't always perfect even at their best #and when it really started with his brother's death at 9 and suddenly being the eldest--all of that had a big impact on him too #but *all* of that comes from my backstory. without it where would I be? probably nowhere #bsd nikolai #bsd #writing #this still doesn't explain why he'd turn to terrorism and not just kill himself but it's a start

[misskamelie]

Mmm, I feel like the amount of stuff to learn is becoming larger and each time I can't grasp all of it completely :/

#i'm starting to take a bit too many leaps of faith wrt theory subjects :/// not really happy about it #especially because it all looks like stuff i *could* understand and master! but there's something missing... #i've never been used to studying i guess :/ only started to do it semi-seriously when i started uni #my post #I've tried Anki and it is being useful don't get me wrong but I think the problem is more in creating the cards now #I can't seem to write down all the concepts which means I must be missing something

[puripurin]

[Pt2ish]

— Yan!Artist who purposely only asks you in his college to be his nude model for his art assignments (which may or may not have been faked, but that's beside the point).

And you didn't want to turn down the offer because he was paying $500 per hour, which for a college student like you whose living dime to dime whilst paying for loans that were dumped onto by your sperm doner and that leech of a woman who you have to put down as your mother on documents, was a sweet deal.

In those sessions, they would get lewder over time, such as him from asking you to spread your legs some more to asking you to put whipped cream on your nipples with cherries on top for an extra $1000.

You never really questioned it. I mean, rich artist kid who may or may not like to see others (its only you) with whipped cream on their chest and their lower half with cherries on top, who are you to judge. Never question the rich unless it's with kids and Dubai.

Along with his lewd requests, he'd asked about little tidbits of your life, rather than stalking, he'd rather hear it from you so you both can develop a happy little relationship which turns into dating then marriage then have 15 billion kids <3 who would refuse this lifestyle???

After staying in one pose for more than an hour, it was draining on you, so you asked for a break. You decided to use the restroom, but the penthouse layout was a little too confusing and ended up opening the wrong door.

Your mouth was slightly open from the shock. The portraits of you over the last couple of months all had some dried up crust that looked like it was splattered all over the paintings. The floor wasn't better, either with tissues haphazardly strewn across the floor scrunched up and it smelt bad.

Too bad you couldn't open your mouth to complain because you got knocked out by an easel stand.

Fuck the rich.

Also, I've hit 60 followers! yayyyyy!!! I'm not sure if i should do a special or not cus I might make a special with bunny yan y omega yan with a male reader becos omega yan likes males more than females sooo why not and bunny yan doesn't care. Not proofread.

#yandere #yandere x reader #male yandere #yandere artist

[odinsblog]

“One weird, silver lining positive from the WGA's strike has been a sense of calm over a reality that has plagued me with anxiety for years — the fact that despite having a great agent, manager, and lawyer, despite having been in hundreds of rooms with top execs and producers, despite having pitched countless networks, and despite having sold multiple pilots and pitches, I still work in food and bev. For so long, it felt like such an embarrassment in so many ways because it felt like I was the only one who was biding time in between sales with a side hustle. When I would tell people at work that I wrote television, they'd look at me like I had ten heads, or like I was delusional. They couldn't IMAGINE someone who *actually* wrote television would also be asking them what temp they wanted their salmon.

But the reality is, TV money goes fast, especially when it's just a pilot sale. And if shit doesn't get picked up to series, that money only lasts for so long. Being responsible meant swallowing my pride and keeping a job that was more consistent and steady but also gave me the ability to take pitch meetings, to write on my down time, do rewrites, answer e-mails, and take notes calls.

And for so long I thought I was a minority in that regard. Like I had done something wrong to not be successful enough to rely solely on my career as a writer.

Yet the strike has pushed SO many stories to the forefront of writers doing the exact same thing I've done, GOOD writers, great writers, writers who shit I watch all the time, whose names I instantly recognize, whose reputations in this industry precede them. So when the studios leaked that the goal was to bleed writers dry, to make it so we lost our homes, I had to laugh. Writers like me will literally do anything to keep the dream of writing alive. It's in us. It never goes away, no matter how many steaks you server, how many martinis you mix, how many cold calls you make, how many Uber passengers you pick up, how many pizzas you have to deliver. We always always always find a way to make it to that next great hope of a pitch, a sale, a green light.

And that's how you know that the CEOs are so fucking out of touch with reality. With the industry. With the POINT of the industry the point for most (not all, but most) has never been to be filthy rich, or own a yacht, or even have a membership to SoHo house. It's been to make something we love. To see it come to life, and make other people happy, or sad, or angry, or scared. To take this story you have kicking around your head and turn it into some epic journey. To be part of the process of making worlds and characters come to life. To tell stories.

The CEO's point has been to make as much money as humanly possible. And so they think that's all there is motivating writers. it's not. It never has been. Just because those CEO's wouldn't wait tables or mix drinks or drive a Lyft in order to keep a dream going, doesn't mean the rest of us wouldn't. The CEO's don't have a dream, they have a lifestyle. And I promise you a dream is a much better motivator than a yacht or a Porsche.

Try to bleed us dry, guys. Just because you'd let your own dream bleed to death, doesn't mean we would. We will always find a way to keep it alive.”

—Stefanie Williams, a tv writer on strike

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