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#ID REALIZE THAT IM NOT IN CALIFORNIA AND SOMEHOW I GOT INTO THE HABIT OF THINKING OF MEMORIES WHILE LISTENING TO IT
bruhbertwest · 4 years
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WOAH WHAT THE FUCK IM GONNA CRY I . I WAS LISTENING TO MSABAF AND I LICHERALLY FUCKING..... IM GONNA CRY I REALIZED SOMETHING
#I ALREADY KNEW THIS BUT I LIKE . JUST NOW REALIZED THE DEPTH OF IT#LITERALLY JUST DONT DWELL ON THE PAST TOO MUCH EVEN IF ITS A GOOD MEMORY#THINK ABOUT WHERE YOU ARE RIGHT NOW AND LOOK AROUND AT THE THINGS YOU LOVE AND REMIND YOURSELF THAT IM HERE AND IM BREATHING AND IM HAPPY#HOLY FUCK JUST . WOW#THIS IS LIKE REALLY IMPORTANT FOR ME BECAUSE LIKE EVERY TIME I LISTENED TO MSABAF ID THINK OF HAPPY MEMORIES OFC BUT IN THE BACK OF MY MIND#ID REALIZE THAT IM NOT IN CALIFORNIA AND SOMEHOW I GOT INTO THE HABIT OF THINKING OF MEMORIES WHILE LISTENING TO IT#AND AS A RESULT I FOUND I WASNT ENJOYING IT AS MUCH FOR SUBCONSIOUS REASONS#BUT I JUST NOW REALIZED THE WHOLE POINT OF WHY I ENJOYED IT AND WAS SO HAPPY LISTENING TO IT IN THE FIRST PLACE IS BECAUSE I WAS THINKING AB#OUT WHERE I AM RIGHT NOW AND BEING IN THE MOMENT AND ENJOYING THE SONG WHILE THINKING OF NOW#AND IM GONNA CRY BECAUSE LIKE THATS THE WHOLE ROOT OF THIS WEIRD DIP IN MY FEELINGS FOR AWHILE#AND JUST. I REALIZED IM HAPPY RIGHT NOW AND IM LIVING RIGHT NOW AND THERES NO POINT IN FIXATING ON ANY OTHER TIME BUT NOW#AND THIS REALIZATION MAKES ME STRONGER THAN IVE EVER BEEN AND JUST . GOD IM SO HAPPY AND CONTENT#LIKE . WOW HOLY FUCK#INSTEAD OF YEARNING I WAS ENJOYING IT AND IT MADE ME SO MUCH HAPPIER AND IT WAS LIKE I WAS LISTENING TO IT FOR THE FIRST TIME AGAIN#AND NOW I JUST. WOW I REALIZED ALL THIS AND IM SO MUCH HAPPIER THIS IS LIKE ONE OF THE MANY KEYS TO HAPPINESS WHAT THE FUCK IM SO RELIEVED#ITS LIKE A WAVE OF WARM GENTLE WATER WASHED OVER ME AND ALL OF A SUDDEN I KNOW WHAT TO DO AND HOW TO BE#GOD IM SO RELIEVED FUCKING..... HOLY SHIT THIS FUCKING ALBUM WOW I LOVE IT SO GODDAMN MUCH#AND I LOVE MYSELF SO MUCH WOW WHAT THE FUCK#IM ME AND IM SO THRILLED TO BE ME#LITERALLY ALL I HAVE TO DO IS THINK OF NOW AND THINK OF HOW SPECIAL AND LUCKY I AM AND TO THINK OF THINGS I DID TODAY THAT IM PROUD OF#AND THATS IT . THATS IT WOW HOLY SHIT#LIKW I WAS HUNG UP ON THE FACT THAT I THOUGHT I WOULDNT BE ABLE TO REACH THAT PEAK AGAIN BUT I DIDNT REALIZE THAT#THE REASON THAT PEAK HAPPENED IS BECAUSE I WAS ENJOYING THE MOMENT!!!!!!! AND JUST LIKE THAT!!!!!! I REACHED THAT PEAK AGAIN#OH MY GOD WHAT A SWEET REALIZATION IM . SO RELIEVED#I TRULY AM OK . I TRULY DO HAVE EVERYTHING UNDER CONTROL#AND I CAN TRULY RELAX BECAUSE NOW I CAN LET MYSELF DO SO#EVERYTHING I NEEDED WAS IN ME AND THATS FOR REAL#I CANT STOP SMILING AND JUST. WOW IM SO RELIEVED
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