#IM GOING insane theyre everything

[babydarkstar]

so many griddlehark doomers on this website. smh my head…….theyre doomed by fate AND the narrative to be intrinsically intertwined no matter what. i cannot conceive of a finished locked tomb series where theyre not lying dead in each other’s arms or existing together in some fugue state of unbeing. not even death can separate the lesbians that scratch each other bloody and then cry in each other’s arms. they have been fated to orbit one another literally since their conception. one flesh one end, bitch.

#also harrow literally lobotomized to forget gideon and she still couldnt in the end #anyways i often think abt the whole #‘i gave you my whole life and you didnt even want it’ #and the thing is like. yeah gideon. she didnt want it because she never wanted to lose YOU who was attached to it #you who she just bonded with. has had a very tumultuous girlbestfriend situationship with #when i think abt how young they are i fucking scream #this is why i hate john gaius. insane man. kill him to death alecto #tlt #griddlehark #tlt spoilers #anyways. thinking about the saddest girl in the whole world tonight :( #this is a john gaius HATE account all my homies HATE john gaius #anyways. why is everybody so so scared that theyre going to have a terrible endgame #baby theyve already been falling through a terrible endgame thru the duration of their entire existence #i will say. if harrowhark ends up with anybody else i’ll have to off myself #i support womens wrongs but ianthe can go be wrong somewhere far away from harrow #im about to go through the entire series again so i can screenshot and prove why im right about this #theres a narrative thread to follow #and never once have i been afraid of them not finding their way back to each other #the thing is like. above everything. these girls exist to orbit each other #gideon thinking harrow is her past when harrow has always been her present and her future #harrow thinking gideon’s death will be her undoing #because to harrow. gideon is unable to die. she WOULDNT die for so long #and when she found something to die for. she went to it with her whole being #but heres the thing. one flesh one end is more than just becoming one body and dying one death #idk im incoherent i need to talk abt this in a post instead of tags #i will. soon

[whaliiwatching]

hm. them. also ding ding

#spider man: across the spider verse #spider punk #spider noir #hobie brown #noirpunk #spiderdykes #new tag for the lesbians!!! #ough writing is so hard. but it is happening kind of #drawing kisses are so hard but i am going to get better FoR THEM #in this house we love and appreciate fat bodies and soft parts!!!!!!! #theyre ace4ace and t4t in every timeline of mine. by the way. if you didnt know #yes including the PURPLE drawing #im lowkey addicted to drawing butch peter but i also have almost no drawings /of/ her bc they have to be pERFECT #trying to get out more sketches than failing to complete less larger ones #like the olden days… #ding ding is an INSANE cat. meows like a chainsmoker in heat. tries to eat everything. does not know her left from right #ugh im just so love them much. ughgghhh

[cerealmonster15]

a doodle

jamil in ruggie's ceremony robes story or whatever: god ruggie and azul you two are freaky and up to no good when you come together about business, im outta here 😒

jamil when he and ruggie team up during that One Part in masquerade event: :^)

#no spoilers but. god. that whole bit is everything to me why are they Like That kjfdsjkflej #jamil viper #ruggie bucchi #twst #twisted wonderland #cereal tries to draw #god they really are evil little boys fjkslf it's so funny theyre so awful i love that they enabled each other and were so coy the whole tim #HORRIBLE!!! #but yknow. i forgive them 😌jklsdjfldjs #also whats with jack and ruggie both having vingettes where they randomly gotta work at mostro lounge LOL #it's an nrc quota everyone ends up there one way or another #fun fact i was gonna draw jamil and azul but then ruggie appeared again #im excited for masquerade event to drop in twsteng #gonna go nuts trying to get Several Cards lol #i thougth about adding epel bc him and ruggie have a good bond also #the three of them are THE working class trio in my mind #theres another scene with ruggie and eppy in masquerade that's short but cute that i like lol #the weed picking scene #my boys and their manual labor skills shining while everyone else struggled dsjklfd #god masquerade is kind of an insane event but it's very fun and i like it #ruggie and azul when theyre in sync: i hate this guy but we have a common goal in mind so ill endure it :) #ruggie with jamil in that one scene: hehehe. u get me ;) #listen. LISTEN- #theyre fun. i think they should be evil together more often #but also maybe it's for the best for everyone else that they dont klfdsjlf #ok maybe i should go to bed.........

[candyskiez]

I'm not a super big ekurei shipper but I have to admit the fact that Dimple can possess Reigen while he's unconscious and yet Reigen will be fully present anyway is Very compelling regardless of your explanation for it. Dimple was very specifically trying to wake Reigen up and used most of his power to do so? Hell yes, love it. Reigen being very atune to spirits because of. Well. The past four years. And going WHAT THE FUCK and waking right back up only to immediately go "oh. It's just dimple." Fascinating scene idea. Looking directly at it. So much potential for a fascinating missing scene there. Ekurei is growing on me at alarming rates. Help.

#mp100 #mp100 spoilers #theyre so INTERESTING augh!!! #i want to study them under a microscope #ekurei #they were using all their energy to go save mob and it makes me insane #dimple literally says its taking my all just to exist #reigen was Near Death #they were single minded with the goal of saving mob. im insane over it #what happened in that gap of time there. what did they say. how did reigen react. how did dimple react to finding reigen like this. #how did dimple come back in that speciifc moment #i need to know EVERYTHING #this can also be platonic. ekurei is just the target audience #they love the weird kid they adopted so much! argh! #i read a very good fic where they were at odds so much but were both kn the agreement of “mob came first” #like that was a line and everything #dimple somehow isnt dead dimple just found reigen without shoes on NEAR death but that doesnt matter right now. their kid is in danger. #thats their priority #theyre so INTERESTING! augh!

[puppyeared]

save me old flipnote studio MVs.......

#im going thru old flipnotes i used to watch years ago and ouggghhg so many good ones #is twenty one pilots still popular.... do people still remember the TRNDSTTER and marble soda meme......... #its like im unlocking some sort of primal part of my brain and everything is coming back to me. one of my biggest inspirations as a kid #i still remember thinking the final transmission lyrics were the coolest thing and watching =TopHat= Bee and Melissa over and over #theres a very specific feeling of longing and nostalgia looking back and watching these again years later #especially when there isnt anything genshin or mcyt and instead its either fnaf undertale eddsworld or another obscure #interest... and not even fnaf sister location its like fnaf 3 and 2. its THAT old. and a lot of oc MVs especially pokemon ocs and furries.. #god but they were so creative u know. i still find it amazing ppl took this little lightbox animation on the fucking NINTENDO DS and #cranked it all the way to 11.. like if u look at the transitions and movement its so fucking fluid its insane..!! HOW DO YOU MAKE THE #CHARACTERS SPIN??? AND CHANGING CAMERA ANGLES??? and keep in mind youre doing this all with a shitty stylus #on a THREE BY TWO INCH SCREEN. you only get two layers you can go up to 29FPS and you only have 999 slides to work with #and 24FPS eats up a lot of that. absolutely insane it literally boggles my mind every time i think about it. AND SOME ARE EVEN FULL COLOR #i forgot how popular EDM was back then too...they were really good for timing beats though so you get a lot of MVs with #strobe last and marble soda. porter robinsons goodbye to a world was also popular with undertale and oc MVs. also a lot of vocaloid #someone made a flipnote abt the warner bros fnaf movie being announced EIGHT FUCKING YEARS AGO. it even used the stay calm audio from #the office.... i wonder how theyre doing now... i love you shitty grainy MV audio.. but i have mixed feelings abt the flashing colors #ppl LOVED animating the sans vs frisk fight. aishite and primadonna were also big ones they were SICK AS FUCK #lots of these inspired my old oc designs.. a lot of my characters had side bangs with one eye covered. animal ears and simple eyes too #now i kinda wanna try my hand at the marble soda meme cause i loved it as a kid lol.. i wonder if i should compare my old and new art here #UGHHHH IM SO NORMAL ABOUT NOSTALGIA. IM SO NORMAL ABT MY SCHOOL BOOK DRAWINGS WITH SHIBA BROWS #yapping #nostalgia

[rexscanonwife]

Good morning krusty crew 🥱 I got up at 5am today to take the bus to work (which I am currently on) and that gives me...a lot of time to think about. The he. 👉👈

Thinking about the episode where the professor basically gives himself an iron man suit so he can join the girls in battle to spend more TIME with them which is sooo sweet to begin with he loves them so much 😭💖💖 but the problem isn't that he's a hindrance or a bad fighter, he's actually on just about the same level as them!

It's that he's a DAD, he makes LAME jokes, he EMBARRASSES them and also he's OLD 😂😂 his poor back can't take it.

#jane journals #self insert talk #crush: 🔬 #UGH HE'S SO GOOFY!!! 😭😭😭 #AND HE'S SOOO SWEET HE LOVES THEM SO MUCH #the whole point of having a suit and fighting alongside them is cause they never have time together #he wants to take them to the beach and on vacations and watch tv with them #theyre his kids man!! #and the episode where he sees for the first time firsthand what they go up against and is MORTIFIED #he makes the big Evangelion gundam for them cause hes worried about them!! #he says himself that theyre his everything 🥺🥺🥺 #ougghh im INSANE #im crazaaay

[always-a-joyful-note]

Link Click: Here's a really cool character with a really cool design who has important side character energy. Would be a shame if we killed them off before you got to see any hint of likely the multitudes they contain, wouldn't it? :)

#link click #link click spoilers #no but THEY KEEP KILLING WOMEN #okay to be fair they killed emma and wang juan #but im still SAD because men still outnumber the women! #like her design? her aura? everything about her SCREAMED important side character.... #...just as chen bin sort of felt like background character #and then they just....KILLED THEM BOTH AURIHAGODSIJFSEIORJERE #sorry i love our mcs but theyre gonna be fine (ish. probably lots and lots of trauma incoming) #but AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #anyway this episode was all stakes and tension. you keep holding your breath and the animation they deliver is just....everything #stuff i say #fandom spamdom #guys help i should be resting or something but instead im going insane over link click

[origamiyoda]

Knowing/learning the actual HL(2) story/lore is making me simultaneously more excited for hl2vrai and also sooooo fucking. scared.

#I know it's gonna be really funny. BUT. 90/10 rule. the tone they've set with the trailer. have u SEEN the gnome finale. #gets scared gets scared gets scared gets scared gets scared gets sc #the thing is with rtvs stuff is I'm like. OuHH they're comedians but dear God they're fucking. Excellent storytellers as well #MY POINT AGAIN. YOUVE SEEN THE GNOME FINALE. YOUVE SEEN THE TRAILER. YOUVE SEEN HLVRAI FOR GODSSAKE. REMEMBER BREAKING BAD. GESTURES. #The thing that keeps plaguing me. did gordon get to go home. did he leave tge videogame. or did that guy get stuck in stasis. #did he get to go home. did he get to go home. #I think about hl2vrai too long I go insane and get really scared and excited #Rewatchinf the gnome saga recently has REALLY . Really got me thinking. Idk #Pacing my room like I'm trying to solve a cold case. #dude it's gonna fucking rule I'm so excited. IM SO EXCITED. starts howling #hl2vrai #Leo yells #ALSO . LEARNING ABOUT HALFLIFE IS JUST FUCKING ME UP IN GENERAL #GORDON. ALYX. BARNEY. ADRIAN?????????? #fucking dies. #also cos I've been watching backlogs of VODS I've seen some of th other. idk more theatrical? streams they've done and I'm like. Oughugjjj #the I.M. MEEN stream. the. the Simpsons stream. they're good at what they do and I'm like. Jumping around #there's also th thought of like. Well they didn't follow hl1 tbh but like. THE TRAILER MAN. THEYRE DOINF SOMETHING #tommy as gman....... goes fucking NUTS #the implications of every part of th trailer & like. everything else are making me feel like the Charlie Day meme

[nerosdayinanime]

crippling need to draw this image i have of sabigiyuu pressed back to front, giyuu holding onto the arm thats hand is splayed over his stomach/ribs, easily leaning his head back onto sabito's shoulder, his soft barely-there hold on giyuu's neck with their cheeks gently pressed together

#until the vibe to Do Shit comes back just imagine it for me ok? plz? im almost to tears thinking of them being soft #giyuu's trust in him so complete its second-nature and sabito's unwavering support & passion #FUCK GOD DMANIT I CANT USE WORDS TO DESCRIBE HOW THEY FUCKING FEEL ABT EACHOTHER. GIYUU BIG DOE EYES @ SABITO LIKE HES HIS ENTIRE WORLD & #SABITO HOLDING HIM LIKE EVWRYTHING HE NEEDS IS RIGHT THERE IN HIS HANDS. #FUCK #GOD THEY MAKE ME FUCKING INSANE I CANT EXPRESS HOW INTENSE IT IS AT THE SAME TIME. THEYRE EACHOTHER'S *EVERYTHING* SABITO'S PASSION GIVEN #DIRECTION & GIYUU'S UTTER DEVOTION HAVING SOMEWHERE TO SHINE #THERES A REASON VIGI!AU SABITO THOUGHT FAKING HIS DEATH WAS THE ONLY WAY TO KEEP THEM BOTH ALIVE & REGRETTED IT SO DEEPLY ANYWAY #CLAN AU: SHIT MARRIAGE +ADULTERY GIYUU BROKEN AND HURTING YEARNING FOR SCRAPS AND SABITO BEING THERE TO HEAL HIS WOUNDS & GIVE HIM FEASTS #THEY WANT TO GIVE EACHOTHER THE WORLD THEY WANT TO GIVE EACHOTHER THEIR VERY SELVES FOR THE CHANCE OF HAVING KNOWN THEY WERE LOVED #WHOLLY AND UNHESITATING #i need to make them worse in my aus theyre not unhinged about eachother enough they need to be sewn together at the hip souls entwined #auuhuhh #i need to go to sleep #sorry for the mental illness moment ill do it again #sabigiyuu #loserboy giyuu posting #fratboy sabito posting #sabito #giyuu

[deevotee]

falling in love with ships that are popular with mostly antis is the worst thing in the world yall like half the time me and the other shippers have each other blocked and the rest of the time it feels like i only see the most milquetoast posts about my otps

like cielinny's the biggest one, cuz yeah theyre teenagers and its fun to see them acting like it BUT ALSO they are two morally grey characters who have both murdered and been traumatized as children and one of whom views the other as his savior and both of whom work to protect the other physically and/or mentally and so many people ignore or forget that smh

like,,, yes yes i also love them making sebastians life a living hell with dumb teen antics more of that sure, but i would love to talk about finny ripping someones arm off for daring to hurt ciel while theyre undercover and ciel being the only one to calm him down by taking his hand and kissing his bloody fingers which he does without hesitation because seeing someone who does not (by demon contract terms) have to kill for him just do so with no hesitation or remorse makes ciels little gay heart swoon, can we talk about that guys i would love to talk about that-

#im high (happy 420) and going insane over them rn #and its so disappointing seeing how non-insane other ppl who ship it get #idk maybe im just tew neurodivergent or something #but it really sometimes feels like people only ship cielinny or cielizzy etc etc #cuz theyre 'non toxic/problematic' ships #which is SO crazy to consider #cuz like??? there is no unproblematic ships in this manga? #everything you ship is apart of a dark manga with canonically 'problematic' characters #theres no escaping it babes #so lets talk about cielinny being a bit yandere for each other- #kuroshitsuji #black butler #cielinny #ciel phantomhive #finnian #finny #headcanons #?? kinda #devo speaks

[thestamp3d3]

i cant get over how absolutely insane satosugu is...gege was born to write yaoi forced to write shounen

#sorry i remembered hidden inventory arc n im insane about them again :(( SAD LITTLE GAY PEOPLE IN MY PHONE!!! #nah but it just...OUGHHH they make me so upset!!! #its just they way they start out immediately understanding each other bc gojo has been alone on a pedestal basically his entire life+ #but then he meets geto who treats him like a normal dude!!! not a weapon!!! and just watching them annoy each other as normal teens + #makes me emotional bc theres so much cruelty and just DEATH in their world but at the least they have each other to get through it!!! #theyre the strongest together after all right!!! then toji happens and gojo starts to perfect his abilities with him automating infinity #and then the gap between the two just gets wider and wider...until the final confrontation where the one who understood gojo all this time #not only leaves him but calls him arrogant at the same time showing gojo the ONLY person who he though understood just..doesnt+ #and hes left alone again in the same place he was years ago...AND OUGHHHHH #idk i watched a video analysis of hidden inventory where the guy said geto was just as egotistical as gojo except in having a savior comple #and tbh i never though of that before!! but looking back it makes sense with how he spoke to riko + the way he slaughtered the whole villag #to not just save the girls but also prove to himself that he could make the world he wanted #the guy in the video put it basically that since the gap between gojo and geto was so wide geto would rather be the best villain+ #than second best hero and that makes a lot of sense since his ideals/goals as a villain go against his usual rational behavior #he KNOWS its probably impossible (for him at least it wouldnt be for gojo which he admits) but he has to do it for himself #sorry im rambling but AHHHHHH how tf did gege write this??? its such a small part of the story but its arguably the catalyst for everything #aside from plot wise it simply just is impactful emotionally! gege had to go thru a toxic codependent homoerotic friendship to write this+ #theres just no other way #jjk #jujustu kaisen #gojo satoru #geto suguru #satosugu

[krispiecake]

i hope that everyone is aware that i am trying SO HARD to be normal but the universe is TESTING ME.

#i am trying ao hard not to fall back into old habits rn but jesus CHRIST brooooooooo #i havent been able to get barely any time with the staff i need for the past two days and now #theyre like 40mins late with my meds bc of another tenant #and its not even like theyre WITH the other tenant rn btw there are two members of staff sat in the office just talking #and its like bro. BROOOOOOOO #like they know this shit is SO triggering and i know they cant help some stuff but i still feel like i should be able to get my meds on time #if they arent actively with another tenant #its such a small thing but it helps my brain remember that actually they do still care abt me lol #all ive wanted to do since like wednesday was just watch a movie with my fp now that we’re cool again #and i was waiting in the lounge for like an hour and no one even came in #and its not like we planned anything so im not mad or whatever im just frustrated that #i had a rlly shit night last night and a pretty shit day today #and there just isnt anyone around to talk to bc theyre all dealing with someone else #or not even just sat around talking or whatever #idk this shit makes me wanna punch things burn everything to the ground and then kill myself if im being totally honest rn #and like last night and this isnt my therapists fault or anything but ahe wasnt able to pick up #and i managed to get thru it but it just added to the feeling like no one gave a shit #and its past nine again so she probs wouldnt be able to pick up now even tho i kinda need help again #idk this shit just. its so fucking triggering and i feel insane and so tightly wound #and ive been putting so much effort into my stupid therapy and i just wanna let go and have a full on meltdown again #i wanna take a bunch of pills and scream and cry and throw things and argue and just LET GO #cuz i feel like thats my ‘true nature’ and everything else is just me faking #or masking #AND IM SO FUCKING SICK OF IT ITS SO MUCH EFFORT AND I FEEL LIKE IM GETTING NOTHING BACK

[caesarshamonballs]

IS TGCF SEASON 2 COMING OUT THIS YEAR?? OR IS IT ANOTHER YURI ON ICE SITUATION.

IM GOING TO CHEW MY FINGERS OFF IM SO EXCITED?1?!2!

#Tgcf #hualian #tgcf donghua #Tgcf s2 #im going insane #theyre everything to me

[neck-thats-made-for-bruising]

Whenever this gets brought up my mom always says "aw I know how you feel I have body dysmorphia too :(" bro I don't have body dysmorphia I know I'm skinny and most of the time I like how I look that's not even the problem so literally just stop brining it up constantly

#i know shes trying to help but Im just annoyed #it was 6 MONTHS AGO Im fine you dont have to act like Im fucking insane #'I just cant believe youd tell a stranger over me I must be doing something wrong' IT WAS A DOCTOR #and yes youre doing a lot of stuff wrong but thats not why I didnt tell you #so calm down #literally all teenagers keep stuff from their parents #am i supposed to go to you and say omg mom Im fucking depressed and dont want to eat #like?? what do you expect #and the doctor TOLD YOU its not helpful to say that you have body dysmorphia too because telling me that does nothing except piss me off #god I fixed everything it was 6 months ago Im literally fine #Okay I do appreciate my mom trying to help I guess I just had to get that out of my system #but whenever my mom and dad talk with me I know my dad is telling the truth when he says you can talk to me about anything and tell us what #we're doing wrong #but my mom is such a liar because anytime anyone tells her something she takes it so fucking personal and then plays the victim while #simultaneously telling the person that theyre playing the victim???

[jekyllnahyena]

me: oh yeah, I finally got myself a Hamilton shirt, super happy about that >:D

friend from uni: oh I didn't know you were into the musical that much :)

me, after several seconds:...first of all, hoW DARE-

#lewis hamilton #no comparing my 7 time wdc with the muscial!!! theres only one hamilton and he drives the vroom vroom!!! #f1 #ive also learned that i still know most of the text from the musical...i was a theatre kid dont judge me pls #its very worrying tbh #my plan is to get something for both nando and verstappen too and then go to a race and wear it all at the same time #itll prob be somewhere near the orange army too. ill relish the confusion #its still very funny that my f1 friends are like 'yeah! we like the underdogs! the ones that have to scrap for everything!' #while mine boil down to 'theyre the three active wdc and theyre the best :) they have nothing to prove and i love that for them and me :)' #was eating the table during practice today because fuck yeah! go fuck em up lewis!! #the vroom vroom is coming back and im getting more insane about everything