#IM GONNA THINK ABT THIS FOREVER

[books-and-tears]

Just figured out how to solve a qs AFTER the exam ended

#worst thing that can happen to a girl #im gonna think abt this forever #random

[saeiken]

🔆🔆🔆🔆

#pls click for quality :] #one piece #luffy #straw hat luffy #monkey d. luffy #roronoa zoro #zoro #zolu #one piece zoro #animation #my art #was hit w the strong urge to do this and got it done in abt 4 days lol #could spend forever nitpicking it but im not gonna overwork before the semester even starts so its done!! #nothing big but im happy w it and i think its cute :> #drew zoro p differently than i have in the past in this and yknow its ok #i think i like drawing my version better but this one (closer to canon) is p good

[missmeinyourbones]

you are perfect for touya!!!! your softness and intuition nicely gets thru his rougher exterior

anon….im abt to tear up at this….

thank you!!!! it’s nice to think that my heart could be kind enough to give him some well deserved lovin

what character would be into me?

#im gonna think abt this forever

[heliianth]

every day i get more upset that “i think i found the ultimate lifeform / i think it may be you” line (and sonic’s subsequent pondering about it) gets IGNORED they DROPPED THAT SHIT like a HOT POTATO & i understand why because the sonic heroes tone pivot and the amnesia plot but u dont understand im so mentally ill over the concept of shadow completely shedding this massive huge important part of his identity onto sonic before dying and sonic having to grapple with that. what does he do with that. he doesnt want that kind of title or responsibility or idea of himself, hes just a guy who likes adventure. but shadow gave it to him happily. & when shadow comes back and is basically affirmed in his previous assumption that whatever he would do with it, sonic is already doing. only to be met with sonic giving it back to him like “hey buddy thanks for letting me borrow it but i dont want it ;^-^”. what do you mean you don’t want to be the ultimate lifeform? ITS TOO GODDAMN HOT IN THIS GODDAMN HOUSE i need to kill something. U UNDERSTAND RIGHT. U UNDERSTAND.

#im SO UNWELL ABOUT THIS #i need to write something abt it but like the type of character exploration/arc i think this would prompt #would require such a long fucking fic #and it would be so boring and contrived without like. a plot as well #like what the hell do i do with this. its just gonna stay there forever #same thing with my 06 fix for silvers arc #i need to die #heliichats

[aquickstart]

ok sure i'll talk about farleigh start. i'll talk about his tragedy of never being enough as it were and then having to deal with fucking oliver. sure. disclaimer: it's about class (and race) and the horrible reality of the rich. the horrible reality of living as farleigh.

another disclaimer: i'm white! and poc definitely pick up on everything i'm talking about here as it is, and better. i was and am specifically interested in farleigh vs. oliver but it's impossible to examine without considering race. definitely let me know if anything abt this sucks!

farleigh and oliver are similar. it's annoying because every intruder that is not himself is annoying, partly because felix's attention swaying from farleigh is dangerous; there is always a threat of being discarded, even if no precedent existed. the potential is terrifying.

but you'd think he's seen this before, every summer (if venetia is telling the truth) or at least often enough to learn to recognize it fast, so he should know this will pass. part of it is i think still the deep anxiety, and i think he hated every boy that was there before, and it is sort of routine.

but definitely a huge factor in farleigh's annoyance is the fact that he's a biracial (black for cattons, that's all they see) man in a white rich household. he's alert and exhausted all the time. of course he's angry at oliver, regardless of whether he's the first to crash at saltburn for the summer or the fifty-first.

but the important thing is this.

farleigh is very jealous of and angry and pissed at oliver because farleigh sees all the similarities between them. outsider, in financial trouble, whatever it is, in need of cattons; and yet oliver is preferred. and farleigh seems to be the only one to really consider it. felix does not pick up on the hint when farleigh brings up the birthday party vs. his mother. felix's clumsy "different or... anything like that" is as much about race as it is about class, of course. the "we've done all that we can" bit is felix absolving himself of guilt because surely they had, surely the mysterious collective cattons that he's not really part of had tried all they could do. to him, farleigh is different from oliver, because farleigh has been helped. felix is rich and white and twofold uncomfortable with farleigh, even if he's nice about it, even if he genuinely enjoys his company; he doesn't look too close at farleigh because he feels too guilty to come too close. and farleigh can't do anything about it. he can't nice himself into it. the fucking tragedy of him is that he's never enough in the world of the ultra-rich white, even if (especially because!) he's born into it.

farleigh is very pissed at oliver because farleigh also sees all the differences between them. you know who can be nice poor white enough to fit in? fucking oliver. felix says "just be yourself, they'll love you" when oliver first moves in. farleigh was also probably told the same thing, and felix also probably believed that farleigh could just be himself, but even if the cattons were magically not racist at all (impossible), it wouldn't make a difference to farleigh. he would still self-censor, keep in check, be in dangerous waters (because racism is not just about the individual, but about the system). we see that he'd won himself leeway by years of trial and error by the way he speaks to the family, but it's still within the boundaries of acceptable, built by the cattons. he's part of them because they allow it, and farleigh is very, very aware.

the annoying thing is oliver can be himself. like, truly, genuinely, he can just be. and farleigh can't help but envy that.

as a side note, oliver is obviously jealous of farleigh in the beginning as well, because regardless of the reality of farleigh's situation, he was born into it, and hence, at least in oliver's mind, has his position solidified. oliver's whole thing is unquenchable thirst and hunger for whatever and everything the cattons have (including themselves!). he wishes to have been a catton from birth. to oliver, at first, there's nothing farleigh can really do to lose it. and until he figures out the cattons completely, he can't help but envy that.

but i think farleigh senses something different about oliver early on. at least on the level of the text, we have "you're almost passing [for] a real, human boy", which is so important because farleigh is the first to point out oliver's weirdness. the next to do so is venetia in the bath scene calling him a freak, but it's too late. farleigh is too early.

and i like to think he clocks oliver too early because he sees the jagged edges that he recognizes in himself. i think that one other thing that farleigh envies is oliver's freedom to let go. freedom to let go is very similar to freedom to be, but not quite the same.

to be is about perception: farleigh knows he cannot fall out of line, but would like to, and oliver does not have to worry about it at all (i mean, he does, because oliver also performs for felix, but farleigh doesn't know that).

to let go is about the self: farleigh is too scared to even want what oliver eventually does, to even consider the possibility. oliver can let himself want. oliver can let himself act. oliver just can do things and want things. i'm not sure farleigh can.

and so in this scene, when oliver's wants and actions have landed him nowhere with farleigh, felix, venetia, the cattons, of course farleigh gloats. he can let himself do that, because if the cattons are slowly discarding him, farleigh can allow himself this one small victory. he's relieved because despite the dangerous similarities, oliver is, thankfully, not really the same as farleigh, right?

but like. this movie is a love letter to all things gothic. oliver is a white man. he prevails. the brief performance that oliver put on did eventually end up more effective than farleigh's lifetime of constraint. my heart fucking breaks for him to be honest.

the issue that remains is the fact of farleigh's survival. i like to think that oliver came to respect him. oliver is smart, but farleigh is clever. he picks up on everything oliver does (to refer back to the karaoke scene, farleigh immediately retaliates in the cleverest way, in the moment), and he's the only one to do so consistently (venetia, again, for example, comes close, but too late; oliver doesn't like that, there's nothing to work with). hence, stay with me for a little longer, the paradox: farleigh survives because he was never enough for the cattons, but he is very worthy of oliver's attention. in his own freaky way, oliver wants him. look at that.

so. farleigh. farleigh might come back. he always comes back. and i think oliver wants to try harder next time.

#saltburn #farleigh start #i think someone mentioned how the race commentary was fleeting in that scene abt his mom but i disagree #it runs thru the whole movie #because oliver is white and because they're pitted against each other #im not saying its the best commentary ever and also like the movie is not about it at all #but it's there and it's pretty prominent #also on a completely different note can we talk about how oliver correctly assumed everyone at saltburn desires him carnally #dude pulled all the bitches by being strange and off-putting. i mean i completely get it. completely get it. i'd fold so fast you've no ide #also while i was writing i realized that yes indeed both farleigh and oliver perform for felix and its so fascinating #and it works for oliver because of course it does because hes white #anyway! again! let me know if this sucks #in like any way at all #i needed a masterpost of all and every thought i have about farleigh #i think this pretty much covers it so i'll let it go now #HES SO. like do you UNDERSTAND #the DEFINITION of doomed by the narrative but i LOVE that he survives #as he SHOULD #emerald is so right. he does come back and quickstart just torture each other in that house forever. besties for life #god im gonna shut up now this is so horrendously long #mine #saltburn journaling

[iraprince]

well! i've exited my 20s. not gonna get goopy or graphic about it but this is a big deal for me bc for the vast majority of my life i did not think i was gonna get this far. now like once a day i distinctly have the thought "i'm so fucking glad i didn't kill myself"

i feel weird of course but im also really excited for my 30s. im excited to enjoy my marriage and to become better friends with myself and to make more art. thanks for being here and for being kind to me

#cw suicide mention #in past years i have requested no birthday greetings for personal trauma reasons #but ive been kind of trying to like. wean myself off that gently. bc i dont want to be sensitive abt/scared of my bday forever #so this year like. let em rip. i think its fine #also tumblr will not let me edit my pinned. im gonna be irritated if i have to remake it lmao. but ill deal w that tomorrow

[luck-of-the-drawings]

FOR A BEAT OF HEART, THE BREATH IS SHOT. AND WITHIN A BREATH, THE HEART IS CAUGHT. THE PIPES ARE BURSTING, UNDER GREAT STRESS, BOLTS TORN ASUNDER, MAKING A MESS. A FINAL COUGH, A FINAL RETCH, A GOREY SLOUGH, CLAIMED BY WRETCH.

#cw gore #jrwi riptide #jrwi riptide spoilers #chip jrwi #jrwi fanart #jrwi show #I LLOOOVE POETRYYY I LOVE MAKING WORDS RHYME IN STRANGE WAYS AND DESCRIBING VISCERA AND VIOLENCE OR WAHTEVER. YKNOW WHAT ELSE I LOVE #CHHHIIIIIIIBBOOOOO MY BEAUTIFUL MAAANN WWHAT. WHAT HAPPENED. OH MY GOD. IVE BEEN SAYING FOREVER. I NEEED CHIP TO GET SCARIER. #HE HAS THE POTENTIAL! I KNOW HE DOES! HAUNTED BOY WITH THE HAUNTED EYES WHAT TRAUMAS HAVE YOU SEEN? AND WERE THEY YOUR FAULT? THINK ABOUT I #EVERY FAMILY HAS CRUMBLED AROUND HIM. HIS BIRTH FAMILY CRUMBLED BEFORE HE KNEW IT. HIS SECOND FAMILY DROWNED. THIRD BURNED TO THE GROUND #AND SHALL THIS NEXT FAMILY JOIN THEM? CHIIIIP YOU UNFORTUNATE BOY YOU HAVE WITNESSED SO MUCH CALAMITY #YOU ARE CALAMITY BOYYY AHAHAHAHA DONT YOU SEEE!! ZOMBIFIED AND DEAD. TRUELY MORE HAUNTED THAN EVER BEFORE. THIS WILL BE FUN #THE FIRE HURTS WHEN IT BURNS TOO LONG. BUT NOW YOUR NERVES ARE DEAD AND YOUR MIND IS FREE. BURN THIS CORPSE AS YOU WISH TO GET WHAT YOU WAN #CHIP IS NOT THE FIRE HE IS THE MATCH. I LOVE THAT IDEA SO MUCH IM SO PROUD OF IT. OHHH AND CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE CORRUPTION #bizly mentioned that chip wants to be a good captain. in his most corrupted state however. he would be the BEST captain.. #thAT DOESNT MEAn hes gonna just suddenly be all controlling. the BEST captain keeps his crew safe. keeps them together. keeps them alive. #and chip is doing just that! he doesnt need to stop being a good captain just bc of the corruption! he just needs to be the BEST CAPTAIN #AND THATS SUBJECTIVE BABY!! im so excited to see where chips zombie arc goes. neeeed him to get scarier and just a little more fucked up. #neEED HIM TO PERFORM ABHORANT ACTIONS THAT HAVE JAY N GILL GOING ' dude woah what the fuck...' #RIGHT I SHOULD TALK ABT MY ART TOO. this one took TOO LONGGGstarted out witha sketch how did it end up like this... #the heart and the blood KILLED ME. LOOK AT MY RENDERING LIKE HWAAATT #better not see any more mistakes after i post this.... i cant fight withit anymore....STILL RLY PROUD THO.. #I WAnted to make it visually LOOK like the grossest vomiting sound possible #i want it to make your throat feel uncomfortable. am i achieving that? i hope i am. thats tubes dude!!! like cmahn!

[alebrijediscordico]

cries and sobs. purple ;;;;;;

#been meaning 2 post the first 2 pages but someone put in the tags on my other art smth abt ''angels getting their wings when fanartists #join the fandom'' (which im now gonna think abt forever btw ;; ty..) and i blacked out n there was elytra wings in my canvas- #autism be dammed. anyways! hands u T h e m #zach creates #my drawings #ava #avm #ava purple #ava king orange #ava mango #animation vs minecraft #avm fanart

[klonoadoortophantomile]

uhhh heres a bunch of finished stuff from while ive been gone ig

#im not gonna bother tagging all the characters im LAZYYYY #scribbles #osc #bfdi #inanimate insanity #theres also object havoc guys in there but i dont think anyone cares abt that show anymore. #i havent seen it in forever sometimes i just think abt the characters again and draw them #it was one of thr first object shows i ever watched so ive got this sort of fondness for it cuz of that lol #oh yeah these are in chronological order oldest -> newest #ive drawn other stuff i just wanted to put all the object stuff in one place #well this isnt even all the object stuff but a lot of it is oc stuff or weird expiermental things i dont feel like posting rn

[potatobugz]

come here son i am going to infect you with my inosuke + kanao sibling agenda

(do not tag as ship)

#demon slayer #kimetsu no yaiba #kny #kny spoilers #demon slayer spoilers #inosuke hashibira #kanao tsuyuri #ignoring aoi amd inosuke forever. i do not see it. sorry. it is bad. it annoys me #im not annoyed at aoi im annoyed that they paired two characters who barely ever interact ever togwther #and didnt give aoi any character or agency. shes just “inosukes wife” now. #its not good! there ks no foundation for their dynamic at all!!! #IM NOT GONNA RANT ABT IT TOO MUCH I PROMISE ;__; SORRY #i did finish the manga and i think its going to hold a very special place in my heart #i will cry. i dont cry too easily when reading stuff but when this gets animated i guarantee u i will sob #anyways. back to what i was actually going to talk about #KANAO AND INOSUKE SIBLING MOMENCE FORWVER!!! ATTACK!!! IM MOSTLY THINKING 2 RHE SCENE WHERE THE FIGHT DOUMA #i think thats his name right? douma? #NOTHING BRINGS TO CHARACTERS TOGETHER LIKE SHARED TRAUMA!!!!!!!!(joke) #*two #i imagine in my mind they would grieve together. they both have something in common. their loved one was killed by the same demon #not only that; but i just love their dynamic #and of course that chaoter cover where inosuke is still grieving over his mother and kanao silently supports him as they walk out #You ever remember how theyre all children. theyre just children. theyre kids. theyre not even 18 yet. you ever think about that

[ozlices]

nintendo het baiting w sidon and his fiancee only to pull the gayest shit ive seen in a While by having sidon renew his vows w link (they got married at the end of ruta’s quest in botw. obviously. clearly.) and giving him a power that lets him ‘stay by his side forever’. i see you husbands i am so glad your marriage is thriving. good for them. good for them. they also both have two hands for anyone who wants to pull any nonsense im js. there is room for yona she just has to understand link has held sidon’s heart for years first.

#idk it is just genuinely funny 'oh yeah uh this chara that we never met or heard mentioned in botw has been my childhood friend #and also we are engaged. #anyway so link is my best friend and when he went missing i was so worried i couldnt handle it and i love him the most in the whole world- #and also i wish we could stay together forever and he agreed so i used my sage powers to grant him a piece that lets him do that-' #i love them your honor. sidon tysm for taking such good care of my precious son i trust u and u alone w him in my stead #and ik u take that seriously thank u sidon. my king [bows] #totk #totk spoilers #legend of zelda #botw 2 spoilers #mine #sidlink #nah but fr i completed the water temple a few days ago and havent stopped thinking abt it since i loved it SO much #sidon is my favorite descendant by far bc he loves link just as much as i do so getting to fight w him like that #and having him being there cheering link on and encouraging him sincerely meant the world. #and seeing how far sidon himself has grown and aaaaaaaaaaaaa #im not gonna go into details beyond that bc i dont wanna spoil more than i have but. yes. yes i sobbed my EYES out #at the final cutscene of the story quest for the mission oh my GOSH

[strawbubbysugar]

I'm still reading your fic (I'm mostly there, 61 chapters in) but I literally cannot stop thinking about some alternate chain of events where Y/ngineer ended up working at the plex while still with Morgan, Morgan sometimes even showing up to your work on the rare occasion. Sun and Moon are both so confused because they are very much so your soulmates, but you've introduced Morgan as yours and seem to mistake every tug of their string as being from Morgan instead (+Sun and Moon seem to be affected by your soulmate bond in a way that Morgan isn't), so what is going on here. Bonus extra confusion before even knowing that you're colour blind, then the slooow realization after finding out. Morgan shows up again after the DCA realizes they're lying to you about the soulmate bond, and they tensely hold onto Y/ngineer by the shoulders like "oh wow, how sweet of you to come check up on your ... soulmate, butwereallyhavetobegoingnowbye" and you're like "what?? Wait, no, just give us a minute." It's just a silly little thought that plays in my mind sometimes, and by that I mean it haunts me

OUGHHH PILLOW THIS IS DRIVING ME INSANE THAT IS SO SO S O GOOD OH MY GOD IM RATTLING THE BARS OF MY CAGE YOU ARE A GENIUS

#ask #so(u)l spoilers #fwiends #PILLOW IM BEING SO SRS WHEN I SAY THIS IS SUCH AN INSANELY GOOD AND AMAZING IDEA IM GONNA BE THINKING ABT THIS FOREVER #TUG OF WAR BETWEEN MORGAN AND DCA OVER Y/NGINEER

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

ghost!toji x reader ….. hmmmm hm hm hm

#THINKING MANY THOUGHTS #one thing abt me is i fucking LOVE ghosts easily the best supernatural creatures ill forever die on this hill #anyway my idea for it is cliche but im weak for it ok 😔😔 #reader can see ghosts obviously. and ghosts need to settle their scores to move on properly #but toji is jaded and cynical and refuses to. he meets reader and is surprised they can see him but also doesnt really give a shit #but reader wants to help ghosts ichigo kurosaki style and ends up persuading toji to let them … #just. putting flowers on mamagumi’s grave… making sure gumi has a proper support system . checking up on shiu. etc etc #and obviously toji grows fond of reader because he hadnt realized how lonely he was #so maybe he asks for one final favor — for them to let him stay by their side for a bit longer .. #im also very much imagining this as a roomate au . toji crashes on your couch and you have to listen to his snoring from the bedroom <3333 #I JUST THINK GHOST!TOJI IS SO GOODDDDD HE’S SO SAD :(((( but also such a prick #also 100% the type to spook anyone who tries to flirt w reader and theyre like ??? wtf was that for. 🤨🤨 he ignores them . #scary dog priviliege except the scary dog is incorporeal <3333 protects you but like . transparently #need to write this someday #i have a lotttt of trouble imagining toji romantically though like that’s my whole father … #IM GONNA TRY THO !! #ari noises ✩

[stealthyratcomics]

a kiss a day keeps the emotions okay <3

#comics #furry comic #furry art #furries #swag dog and cool cat #oneshot #lgbt #furry #these guys have a longer comic i wrote forever ago…. might revamp it #im probably gonna revamp it the more i think abt it #i love these kids

[lambjock]

i have too many thoughts on the deleted jackienat scene for a girl who's supposed to be enjoying her birthday lol. i think at the root of it all, it's highly likely that when the actresses breathed life into the characters, and scenes got improvised, some things just stopped making sense for characters to do. including good things, like with jackie's 'i love you' to shauna! and i think this is the case for natalie looking at jackie with hatred before leaving her out in the cold. maybe at one point in her early stages of characterization it made sense, but clearly the people on the show didn't think that way anymore at some point, hence the cut. also ngl people taking this deleted scene, which for all we know didn't even make it into the final script, as some sort of 'gotchu' for jackienat enjoyers ( romantic or otherwise ) is weird as hell to me. like, it was removed for a reason.

#my posts. #yellowjackets #im tired and its my birthday so maybe this doesnt make much sense but #i have lots of thoughts i cant stop thinking abt this scene #a mix of good and bad tbh #but mostly watching people act as if this completely destroys jackienat is hilarious to some degree #since a huge part of their appeal has always been how similiar they are. that's what jackienat is founded on #and with that similarity comes a hatred especially since both girls have a self loathing streak #so regardless whether people view this as a huge characterization moment for nat or not doesn't change this #people seem to forget how much natalie genuinely hated lottie and was jealous of her as well! it doesn't mean she loved her any less #natalie at her core is a teenage girl like the rest of them. she has flaws and pettiness and does things she regrets. a *lot* #but on the other hand she'd do anything for travis. that's who she lives for. and the only one who helped her save him was jackie #jackie might've stolen him away for the night but the others were gonna take him away forever #which is something natalie would hate more than jackie fucking him. hell in the show she even says she could care less about the sex #she just wanted travis to be *alright.* #had natalie been in the cabin when jackie was calling the girls out for what they did last night you KNOW she would've sided with her #would she have cared about the highschool drama between shauna and jackie? who knows. #but no matter her personal feelings on jackie they had a mutual hatred and disgust for what happened during doomcoming #and i think that would've mattered more to nat at the time. in a swarm of angry feral teenagers the only one she could trust then was jacki #of course these are just my personal opinions which im purposefully keeping brief lol #but like. i just have too many thoughts on this it would take an essay to iron them out so here's this i guess!

[spearxwind]

parents will literally blame insane shit on you

#im so fucking tired dude. i want to break something so bad rn holy shit #the gall they have to tell me i dont care about my future. just cause i dont think getting into another year of studies literally suddenly #like 'do it today because the time slot ends today and if you dont do it we're making u pack up ur house and move back with us' suddenly #cause if i dont do it i dont care enough abt my future #dude................. ive been working my ass off so hard the past few months???? #thunderclap #im not gonna go on a rant cause ill get even madder but god im fucking pissed. great way to start the day dude just so fucking cool forever #love this love this love this #im not even home im at my bfs house and havcing to deal with this shit and then later today i have more shit