#IM MAKING MYSELF EMOTIONAL

[shipperwithnomister]

Therapy, but your therapist is the wall. You're just talking to yourself in your room.

#my therapist is a poster #therapy is expensive #my girlfriend is forcing me to use the colleges free therapy #which i probably need #but I have to wait 2 weeks for sn appointment #and im only getting worse in the meantime #why am i talking to myself out loud #im so cringe #im making myself emotional

[stuckinapril]

The whole “be responsible not for other people’s feelings but to them” distinction is so so true… at some point you need to realize that other people’s insecurities really are their responsibility & dimming or contorting yourself to make them feel better helps neither you nor them. Firstly, bc they need to realize what they’re doing and grow up. And secondly, bc you’re not just compromising on a one-time thing. You’re comprising on who you are as a person. I don’t want to look back when I’m older and stay stuck wishing I held my ground despite people’s projections or asserted my presence more or didn’t apologize so much for who I am. I really just want to own everything (the good and bad) & continue doing what makes me happy

#This is something to bring up to the therapist for sure bc im not perfect on this yet #and i think that’s also another thing im learning to be less hard on myself for — just realizing im 21 and that having insecurities or weak #Spots still is literally okay. Making mistakes is okay. I beat myself up for this too much #I am not a horrible person for being young & learning how to live & no one will make me feel otherwise #This goes in the other direction too in the sense that I need to stop being apologetic of my accomplishments for fear of #Triggering other people’s insecurities. That is not and nor will it ever be my responsibility #I’m always going to be graceful w other people’s emotions but I’m no longer going to overcompensate bc it helps no one #And is not a marker of love for me to do so

[drawnfamiliarfaces]

I've been utterly fascinated by Good (better? nicer?) Chase design by @lizard-color4 from this post and desperately wanted to know more. Who's this man? What's his story? Why is his hand bandaged? Why is his fashion taste is so much better than Original Chase? And why the hell does his hug looks so nice??

so i um, decided to explore his design a little ;D

also bonus+ sorta?? continuation / my take on the after hug because i really craved more of that

bonus++ a silly doodle of my first attempt on his design because why not

#xiaolin showdown #chase young #jack spicer #chack #im low key waiting for a fanfic based on og post but so far noone delivered so I made fanart MYSELF HAH #i started drawing these like 3 months ago but got too embarassed by my attempt in drawing someone else's cool design #but didnt want to go into new year with these in my wips so imma just post it why the hell not #Lizard-color your og post was so good i periodically look at it because the hug looks so ??DSdsk;fjasfsd??? i love it sm and the coloring < #makes me weep and makes me breathless with emotions! u r such a great artist <3<3<3 #hope its ok i tried to desconstruct/reconstruct chase's design i love it sm #and i made up a lil au in my head that this Chase is from a universe where he is less of an asshole and Jack is more loyal #so they actually worked together more but that Chase lost his Jack so when he saw this universe Jack he just couldnt stop himself from #hugging him because he really missed him. And also that bandage is some sort of momento from his jack and i made myself saaaad D;

[emderperq]

“I’ll be home soon, Flapjack…”

“…time to go home, Flap”

#ASGSGDHDHFH #im still not over this #not sorry for any emotional damage this causes #the owl house #more like the ow house #the owl house fanart #toh #toh fanart #hunter toh #hunter toh fanart #flapjack toh #art #digital art #fanart #artist #digital artist #thanks to them #thanks to them fanart #i make myself sad with my own art

[andi-o-geyser]

I hear your “I’m so excited for tlovm season 2! It’s going to be so fun!” and I raise you “The central theme of this season is bone-deep crushing guilt and grief”

#to be clear this is NOT at all a complaint #im so ready for the emotional damage that's going to ensue aaaAAA #how will they adapt certain moments that completely altered my brian chemistry? will they make me cry just like they did in the campaign? #who fucking knows!! we’re living la vida loca in a world where nothing bad ever happens before season 2 drops #but i watched the cast interviews and everyone is like ‘haha yeah my character’s main conflict is the bone deep guilt they grapple with!’ #and i’m just sitting here like 👁️👄👁️ #for a moment i gaslit myself into thinking this season was just percahlia and grog and craven edge sitcom and zahra and kash smh #critical role #tlovm #the legend of vox machina #tlovm season 2 #tlovm s2 #lovm #legend of vox machina #vox machina #andis thought geyser

[lunarharp]

if i just told you i love you would this world change

#witch hat tag #orufrey #these kinda suck lol i feel like i cant draw right now *irritated sigh* BUT I FEEL EMOTIONS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #if you are gay go watch good omens season 2 right now. NO YOU DONT KNOW THO!!!!!!!!! #i know being this affected by good omens is probably cringe. I dont care any more. the last 1 minute of good omens season 2 was #some of the most affecting acting i've ever seen in my life. sometimes someone acts with the force as if their entire career led to that #like during the credits part the very end im not even talking about before that. holy god #aziraphale i know everything about you. i know what you are feeling right now. i can see everything on your face. we're going to make it #ER.... NOT THAT THIS HAS ANYTHING TO DO WITH THIS POST. IT'S NOT SPOILERS !!!!!!!!!!!!! #I JUST FEEL THOROUGHLY CHANGED !!!!!!!!!!! SHIT GETS REAL FROM NOW ON.. LIKE IN GENERAL! IN MY LIFE! #tormented gay love tormented gay love TORMENTED GAY LOVE TORMENTED GAY LOVE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #btw the first 3 images were drawn earlier with an entirely different feeling and an entirely different mood. #Why do you keep pulling away from me? #It is because i love you that i do this #the lyrics from one of my japanese orufrey songs (A SONG THAT THE CREATOR LISTENS TO!!!!) led to feelings #“あなたが知らない私を残さず見ててほしいの” but i'm not translating it cause it just sounds weird. if with his eyes oru's asking “WHY don't you want #to let me in? to see all of you?“ those lyrics are like ”I actually want you to see every last bit of the parts of me you don't know“ #oru you have no idea how much i want to lay bare my whole soul for you #maybe it's an alternate version of chapter 40. to me #i need to draw something really fucking good or i'm not going to forgive myself. i will not rest in this life #until i have made the orufrey that fully satisfies me nor until i have seen what the manga is leading to #NO STORY MEANS ANYTHING WITHOUT TORMENTED GAY LOVE AT THE HEART OF IT. THATS THE HEART OF THIS WORLD!!!!! #........... so Hi im normal :) haha *goes and finally makes breakfast*

[calyptrion]

Some sketches of the cutest girl of hell V2!

I LOVE to think (take everything below as my headcanon) that V2 was designed in the after the war times and because of it was given more unnecessary things like a module for showing emotions with a eye hologram in her lens which although make her more human friendly ( I guess machine production at that point needed to show humans that machines can be used not only for war but altho for more daly tasks and for that kinda change direction for a little bit more cute and “soft” of some sort designs.) V1 on it’s occasion was made with more of "fighting and surviving long times in the battlefield" thoughts so it don’t have any extra parts like that and its lens only sometimes glitches when it get hit with an energy orb.

#ultrakill #v1 ultrakill #v2 ultrakill #keep in mind that Im BAD at ultrakill lore and i can’t even watch some lore videos because i want to make it out on myself(( #or at least finish all the game idk #ethervay V1 and V2 just make me feel so much emotion it make me sick i altho LOVE their designs so much i just can’t

[crunchchute]

Sam and Max if they were cool /j

#sam and max #crunchchute art #my art #somehow this shitposty art piece made me emotional while drawing #i miss highschool and my friends and just going on school trips and stuff listening to shitty scene music like botdf #and playing the songs on a phone close to our ears or sharing an earbud on the bus #and being fucking cringy and shit man i wish i experienced more of that #perhaps i wasted my teen years on stress and worrying so im dressing like this now to make up for it #i know you wont see this D and im sorry i was being awful to you sometimes but i liked teasing you as if you were my sibling #i really miss those times. and i know i could always reach out to you but you moved on and im still stuck so i wont. but im thinking about #you from time to time! and the little fun we had back in hs. i really felt like i could be myself when hanging out with you #and i thought about you making this piece. me as max u as sam that would fit lmao #<- hes getting sappy missing the idea of his friends 10 years ago that only exists in memories now because everyone except him grew up

[minimoosedraws]

u got any games on ur phone?

#gir wawa just dropped #please dont add as an emote to discord without asking me first! #i make these for myself or servers im in #wawa #gir #invader zim #iz #iz gir #invader zim gir #gir fanart #invader zim fanart #iz fanart #gir wawa #Fanart

[skitskatdacat63]

Can we talk about how in all the 2011 Post-Qualifying pics, Jense and Seb are always gravitating towards each other, and then Mark/Lewis are just🧍‍♂️

#theyre like this in 2009 as well tbh....the australia ones...omg #but 2011 stuck out to me just bcs theyre so often together #the hungary one(2nd on left) is by far the funniest to me like why is lewis standing so far away 😭 #the sebmarkson ones its a little less obvious cause theyre an ot3 yknow 🥰 #but seb imo always is leaning towards jense #but those 3 are mostly pretty close but it feels like lewis always was standing specifically apart 😭 #(maybe one day ill make a 2009 version but i cant spoil myself!) #also im telling you sebson would be so popular if they existed now #lestappen who? these are *my* emotional support rivals 🤭🤭🤭 #only have eyes for each other genuinely!!!!! #like look at any quali/parc ferme/podium/champagne pic theyre always focused on each other #seriously they would pop off in today's fandom #jenson always with the proprietary arm curled over seb's shoulder #ALSO NOT PICTURED #all the other pics from these but its specifically them cropped and like being silly with each other and looking at each other lovingly #also yes Grace if you see this this post *is* because im reading Solar Flare again #f1 #formula 1 #sebson #jenson button #sebastian vettel #mark webber #lewis hamilton

[puppyeared]

its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn…. #if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

heyyyy who wants some lowish-resolution Lights Out angst scribbles before i go sleep!!!

(gonna put this under the cut bc im not sure if it can be considered spoiler-y or not? does this au even Have spoilers if there's no shared cohesive plot yet? who knows! i'm doing this impulsively i don't know what i'm doing ever! ! i like drawing characters in distress and anguish! thank you!)

#also if i dont share them now i just Know i never will #i like scribbling distress but Especially when its barnaby. he has the face for it. sad puppy <3 #i mostly scribble these to help myself Think and Visualize #who knows! in a week some or all of them could be rendered non-au-canon by Evolving Ideas #scribble salad #wh lights out au #the last wally one is probably my favorite of the bunch #i like making myself sad by playing the Scene its from in my head <3 #wail in anguish puppet boy... wail and sob.... #going back to my roots with these babeyyyyyy #kind of. mildly. #its been too fluffy on this blog #i need to remember where im from... what im about... Who I Am.... #also 'why is wally so small' bc all of the puppets are there physical sizes #also im Terrible at scribbling consistent size differences <3 #i will Always overcompensate <3 #anyway this au is called lights out aka I Torment Barnaby On An Intensely Emotional Level #what can i say? i have cuteness aggression <3

[eiightysixbaby]

as a certified stuffed animal collecting hot girl™️ i am self-indulging and thinking about eddie being so cute about your plushie collection. you’re a little embarrassed the first time you have him over, don’t really want him to see your bed that’s covered in various plush animals, suddenly worrying that he’ll find it childish or weird. but eddie thinks it’s the cutest thing in the world, immediately sitting on your bed and picking up different ones. ‘what’s this one’s name? and this one?…oh that’s so metal. what about this one?’ before you know it you’ve gone through your entire pile, and eddie is studying the animals like they’re ancient artifacts, holding them so gently and grinning ear to ear. you tell him about the ones that have the most meaning to you, ‘i’ve had this one since i was a kid…’ you admit shyly, and eddie swears his heart melts - ‘yeah? he’s been through a lot with you, huh?’ and from that point on eddie just feeds on your love for stuffed toys. he buys you cute ones he finds at the store, absolutely not hearing it when you tell him ‘ed- i really don’t need another..’ because he sees the way your eyes light up when he presents you with one. and when you’re having a bad day, eddie comes over and lays in bed with you, doing little voices for your animals and personifying them to make you laugh. ‘you can’t cry babe, or you’re gonna make danny the dinosaur cry too. and then the whole bunch of ‘em will start and - babe - we can’t have that’ and you’re giggling through your sniffles at his antics. you’ve even started bringing a plushie with you when you go to stay the night at his - usually eddie calls you on the phone and requests a specific friend’s presence for the evening, and you always oblige. needless to say, you don’t feel embarrassed for your collection anymore.

#eddie munson #he’s so soft im making myself emotional #eddie munson x reader #eddie munson drabble #eddie munson fluff

[ganondoodle]

i often really do feel like an .. unwanted part of the fandom, i dont draw beautiful landscapes, i have unpopular but strong opinions im constantly annoying about and rarely change, dont like/dont draw the pretty young popular twinks and hot gurls to fanboi over nor do i turn characters into one, the opposite moreso, draw only one ship no ones heard of really, got little energy to interact with the few people that are nice to me and send me asks so it probably looks like im ignoring everyone and unfortunately but still rarely get so stressed i get overwhelmed and emotional about pehaps seemingly minor things and spiral almost into a breakdown feeling super embarrassed about it afterwards but the damage is already done and i look like a freak or agressive weirdo

#ganondoodles talks #also probably sounds like self pity #but this feeling hits everytime i see a super popular artist be the popular cool artist #i am a little weird i know that and thats not somethign bad i think #but the internet never gets to see that much of me #i tend to write posts when i am at my worst bc it has to go somewhere #so the image it tells people is that im a weirdly strong opiniod freak that gets breakdowns over nothing #i also dont feel like im otherwise -cool tm- enough to balance that out #i dont think my art is as stylized or as inventive as others nor am i cool to interact with bc idk how to be cool to interact with #i feel double bad when i misstepped with someone i used to talk to bc of something stupid ... or just dont know what i did wrong #im guessing its especially when i am in that spiraling state of mind where i really am not myself tbh #it still feels very bad bc i feel like i can never make it up to anyone again #sorry i acted like a jerk my brain was exploding in emotions in a desperate attempt to deal with something idk how to deal with- #-and made me not act like myself but now i feel really dumb about it #doesnt sound like a good excuse #... i want to thank those that do stick with me #even if i acted strange sometimes- even if i disappointed sometimes- even when i couldnt keep a promise #there are little things that still make me angry at myself #like that one time i asked in the tags whod read as long as the end of them and if someone did shoudl send me an ask so id draw a lil thing #and i got two #and i kept trying to remeber oh shit i need to do that and forgetting again/not having energy for it in a loop #i still feel like a jerk about it but now its probably too late #i wish i could answer all asks i get but man my energy for that is always rock bottom #no matter how much i enjoy the ask #and i love getting asks!!! #im sorry :((

[c28hunter]

Okay, I'm not sure it this hasn't been already talked about but

ARE WE ALL AWARE OF THE CHANGE THAT HAD HAPPENED IN KRIS?!

Remember that one interview, when he said that back when he was a child he used to be called a "girl" because of his longer hair? And then he cut them short to stop the comments

And now? Now, during their BIGGEST concert he was wearing a Diana-revange outfit, his hair longer again and he absolutely slayed. The confidence shown, the joy while performing, all of his soul put into singing NGVOT... This man went through such a big change

I am so fucking proud of him, it must've taken him a while to figure all those things out, because these things are difficult to get through. And now here he is, slaying as hard as he can, being who he wants to be and not giving a fuck

That's an inspiration, that's an icon

#joker out #kris guštin #i want us all to look at kris and believe that we as well can be who we want to be #express ourselves how we want to with wahtever outfit we like #ive just been on a walk and started to analyse stuff dont mind my rambles #but im SO HAPPY FOR HIM #that he is comfortable with himself and his style #i myself am slowly trying to get comfortable with my style and looking at kris makes me believe that i can actually achieve peace in my head #sorry for the rambles im getting emotional over slovenian men again #eryka speaks

[oscill4te]

Society really pushes it hard into you that you should not listen to your body. Ignore her. she is inconviniencing you. Her needs are disgusting. She is a fleshy burden. she can wait. now is not the time. But your body is all you have....she just wants to stay alive.. even if it makes no sense why she does the things she does, whether it be feeling hungry, gassiness that may not be socially acceptable, or having a panic attack.... Dont be mean to her. Its not her fault... Shes just a kid. Maybe its not a she, perhaps a he, an it. Or an animal or machine in your eyes. But you need to be kind to your body, listen to it even if it is stressful or difficult, and not get mad at your body I think....

#i always tell myself if my kid was hungry or needed to use rhe bathroom; would i make them wait so long? no!!!! #so i envision taking care of my body the same way but some weeks i utterly fail. #im like wow if my body is cold I need to actually pay attention to that... if im thirsty I need to address it... #this has helped me a lot with reconnecting to my body and healing developmental trauma... #its not easy work for many people... not at all....... its okay. ♡ #i get emotional anout this topic #txt