#ITS SO FRUSTRATING WHY DID HE DO THAT

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

What’s up with the ties between Sally & Eddie?

There are quite a few - to the point where I’m starting to suspect that they may be foils, or at least inherently tied together in the story.

First let's bring things back to the clocks. The “day” side has an obvious resemblance to Sally, like how the “night” side resembles Eddie. There’s not really much I can say here since we don’t know much more yet, and who knows if this has changed behind the scenes. But just think about that, the rarity of the color purple, night vs day, and the “monster”. Keep it in your head, I think it may be important. 

Also the fact that Eddie is the only one with a watch, but Sally’s face has an incredibly similar face on her door.

Obviously Sally has some sort of beef with Eddie, despite him being nothing but friendly and (to our knowledge) being undeserving of it. One thought I entertained was “maybe Sally is dismissive of him because he’s a worker,” but that holds zero water when you consider how perfectly friendly Sally was with Howdy (karen Sally debunked <3). The second thought I had was “maybe Sally senses the queer in Eddie and it intimidates her” - which would make sense if Sally is a lesbian like I suspect. Internalized homophobia, anyone? This holds up if Eddie is going to turn out to be - not open about himself, but comfortable in his skin in a way that, say, Frank isn’t. Which I have a feeling that will be the case, which would likely make Sally put on airs even more so than usual. 

Anyone else seeing a continuous trend of (social) masks and performances unfolding in the Neighborhood? I sure am.

But let’s talk about why I think they might be foils. They balance each other out in an interesting way, despite their only solid similarity being that Both will work/perform no matter the weather. They have a lot of closely related differences:

Eddie has been mentioned (and implied within the story so far) to have a deeper well of knowledge than he lets on, but acts humble about it. Sally has been mentioned (and implied) to know less than she portrays, but acts like a bit of a know-it-all - she pretends to know things that she doesn’t. 

Eddie’s role is about helping others at his own expense, while Sally’s is using others to reach fame. 

Eddie strives to connect with his Neighbors and is all about accuracy/precision. Sally is in her own little world and has proved to be more than willing to improvise / not think things through before acting.

Eddie is slow to anger, and Sally is easily irritated. 

Selfless vs Selfish.

Night vs Day. 

And to put them in the Johari Window - i believe that Sally resides in the Blind Spot (known to others, not known to self), and Eddie resides in either the Facade (not known to others, known to self) OR the Unknown (not known to others, not known to self). Personally I’m starting to believe that Eddie may reside in both. 

It’s far too early to draw any real conclusions, and theorizing on all of this is difficult. I feel as though - as usual - we have puzzle pieces but no frame of reference for the way they fit together, what picture they build. And who knows, tomorrow’s update may shred this to ribbons, but I doubt it. 

One thought I had was that they’re in cahoots about something - it doesn’t have to be something malicious or some sort of secret plot, it could simply be something they both know and are trying to keep quiet about. Eddie is trying to connect with Sally since they have this in common, but Sally is actively putting distance between them to preserve their secret / plausible deniability. Do I actually believe this? Meh. I’m just throwing spaghetti at the wall to see what sticks.

So current base thoughts: Sally is dismissive of Eddie either because he intimidates/scares her on an internalized level, or she’s actively trying to put distance between them for a currently unknown reason. There’s probably a secret third option I haven’t even considered!

#she's just so fascinatingly dismissive of him in a way she isn't with anyone else #she exclusively calls him 'mailman' she brushes him off when he tries to talk about her halloween costume- #i bet if anyone else has so much as Mentioned the word 'pedrolino' sally would be on them abt it #much like how barnaby had to Escape a convo w/ her bc she was that passionate #so what is it with eddie... why does she feel so strongly about him in such a negative way... #ITS KEEPING ME UP AT NIGHT <3 #there is so much to unpack there i feel but i dont have the right scissors yet... #homebogging #welcome home speculation #wh speculation #man i feel so bad for eddie #he's trying to be friendly!!! he's trying to be her friend so hard!!! MAN. #i suspect that if eddie snaps in some way (he probably will) it will likely be in relation to sally #bc no one else treats him that way. like. even like... howdy keeps up an amicable pretense #but sally is straight up out here treating him like a pack mule named 'mailman' and brushing him off with obvious disinterest/frustration #LIKE DAMN. GIRL. WHAT DID HE DO TO DESERVE THIS #i love it. its fascinating. i cant wait to see how that unfolds

[crimescrimson]

Ada Wong & Leon S. Kennedy: The History [ Resident Evil 4 (2023) ]

#crimson's gifs: resident evil #Resident Evil 4 #Resident Evil 4 Remake #Resident Evil 4 (2023) #RE4R #RE4MAKE #RE4 Remake #Ada Wong #Leon S. Kennedy #Leon Kennedy #Leon S Kennedy #Leon Scott Kennedy #Aeon #LeonAda #AdaLeon #Pairing: Keeping Score #Leon x Ada #Ada Wong x Leon S. Kennedy #Ive decided I fucking HATE re4r aeon #They cut their interactions and chemistry down to bare fucking bones and I dread to see what they do to 6 #Its the way that they've stripped Leon of all his compassion towards Luis and Ada and made him Vendetta angry when he WASNT #THATS THE FUCKING POINT!! HES NOT CHRIS #Sure hes in a shitty situation and hes angry about it but he also knows THATS NOT SPECIFICALLY ADA OR LUIS' FAULT #THATS WHY HE DOESNT TAKE IT OUT ON THEM IN THE OG #Hes annoyed with Ada at most in the OG because imo it follows Leon B where she dies for him so they never got closure and thats frustrating #But hes not specifically nasty to her when shes HELPING HIM LIKE IN RE4R #Even in remake timeline terms the stark shift in their relationship is just too bleak to feel right or make sense #Sorry to rant I just hate how this game massacred the camp fun and the compassion of the OG #This game is what re3 og fans think re3make did to them but at least that game only cut locations and strengthened the characters story #This game kept most locations intact and shit but massacred some of the most important relationships in the story and it kills me

[scalproie]

Domesticated Post-Tekken 2 Era Kazuya is my favorite to think about because this would be so good for him and everyone else but he would have an absolutely miserable time during it

#like I dont think he would REALLY miss the rich ceo lifestyle bc i dont see it as smth he ASPIRES to but as a means to give himself power #if you (jun) somehow manage to convince him that he does not actually NEED power then i think hes adaptable enough to ajust to a humble life #and the whole being rich thing fed into his worst traits #but I think being close to jun all the time would be torture for him bc he would CONSTANTLY be confronted to his own faulty morality #he cant help feeling above other common people bc he endured much more pain and hardships at 5yo than them in a lifestyle- #but he cannot act on his superiority complex about them bc Its Not The Right Thing To Do #he looks at his newborn son and feel *nothing* before feeling frustration and irritation toward *himself* #bc hes smart enough to know he SHOULD be feeling smth #and if he relunctantly admit this to jun she would tell him that if the best he can do (for now) is to not wish or do any harm on jin- #then it is good enough and he should not beat himself up about it (which he doesnt. but he does) #and even jun. she is another person he could lose and he knows deep down he would be happier without her #but being near her bring back to life smth that died years ago at the bottom of that cliff #and he wont admit it but hes scared to lose it again. even if right now its brings him nothing but discomfort and pain #hes not even sure if he *loves* her. and when he asks her whats in it for her. why she stays with him #(not out of self-consciousness but genuine confusion) she just smiles at him because he IS considering the feelings of someone else #like she is so understanding and he genuinely does try and its a really slow healing process #hes still gonna stay a little bit of a prick smug at times but at least he will be immensely more chill out #and even maybe fall in love with jun *jun* down the line. characters that fall in love with each other years into the relationship👍 #and his whole exploration of fatherhood with jin. him vaguely recalling smth nice jinpachi (or god forbid. HEIHACHI pre-cliff) did to him #and doing the same to jin out of the blue for the sake of experimentation #and jin's positive reaction making him FINALLY AT LAST feel some tiny tiny thing for his son. #also for all her tree-hugger talk. jun is right meditating in the forest DOES help kaz a lot #anyway. yeah👍 #tagging later #tekken

[databent]

why the fuck is it that some people cant seem to acknowledge that people can just... be disabled. not through any fault of their own, not because something "happened" to them, just because, you know, sometimes people have disabilities. like, come on

#.pdf #rd #kd #just a warning these tags are long. like. really incredibly long. i had thoughts. #sorry for the vague ass post i'm just upset about some stupid shit my dad said yesterday. #namely: outright telling me that he doesn't believe i have non-24 (circadian rhythm disorder). #and that even if i do he doesn't believe it's possible for it to actually be a lifelong and disabling condition. #*also: this post isn't meant to imply that disabilities that did have some inciting incident are more accepted or anything. #it's just that i'm frustrated with the “you're disabled? why? what happened?” sentiment a lot of people seem to have. #nothing happened to cause my disability. i'm just like this. no i can't change it. what the fuck do you want me to tell you? #i'd guess it probably has to do with society's focus on work and productivity and career-mindedness above all else. #and when someone comes along that doesn't fit in with the way things are structured it just doesn't compute. #because the idea of people who can't dedicate their entire lives to working is so fundamentally contradictory to their view of... i don't- #-know. meaning in life? fulfillment? that they feel a need to reject the possibility altogether. #this is mainly when dealing with invisible disabilities from what i've seen. because i think there's a tendency to view visibly disabled- #-people as belonging to a different category altogether. which of course is its own issue but i'm not visibly disabled so i don't feel- #-like it's necessarily my place to speak on that. #anyway. i just want my struggles to be acknowledged as real. because they are. and i need people to understand that I Have A Disability. #albeit one many people don't even believe could be real because there's a sort of belief that circadian rhythms are purely a product of- #-external forces like sunlight so “you can't possibly have yours be different and have you tried just going outside more?” sigh. #sorry i also just remembered my dad telling me he doesn't believe i can have something so rare because the chances of having it are too low. #which is some ridiculous logic to me. rare doesn't mean it's impossible. some amount of people have to wind up with it regardless. #i just lucked out i guess. #n24 tag

[pw-ps]

aa2796 -> pw-ps!

#i finally got rid of everything gabe related in my blog...that post had an. awfully good timing but yeah it has been making my stomach turn #just thinking about him since then. it took me embarrassingly long to fully come to terms that he's never going to apologize and do better #obviously this isn't about me and it's silly to get upset that celeb guy is actually shitty. but i did kinda imprint on him while i was #at rock bottom earlier this year. so....yeah.......... #um. sorry for the rambling. but yeah that's why i wanted to change my url and like...everything else #so frustrating too. man what the hell your parents escaped the holocaust. you were born literally in a dictatorship where people #were also being persecuted and an insane amount of ppl died/disappeared. you should know better #he's not even being ignorant btw like. i know that might make you feel better but he isn't. he's well-read in judaism and obv this doesn't #equate to zionism but considering how he is. there's no way he would call israel his home and wouldn't know any of its history #mine

[20w14a]

Do Unto Others by MSI gives me Elquackity vibes while Pt. 2 gives me Quackity vibes.

#qsmp #qsmp quackity #qsmp elquackity #elq act very holier than thou like the song #not necessarily in a moral scene but he just overall thinks he's superior/right and will try to do so in any means necessary #even manipulating people and do questionable mysterious things like kidnapping an egg etc etc. #the first verse feel so heavily elq to me because of the whole “jealousy” connotations the singer clearly has with “it should've been me” #elq goes a lot into how he IS quackity and will straight up deny anyone/become angry if someone says so otherwise #the phrase "do unto others' has heavy religious connotations but feels very displeased/livid when spoken throughout the song #steadily ramping up until it feels like a rage filled repetitive shout #the phrase means treat others how u want to be treated #but in both elq and q mind it would be the opposite bc in elq eyes the islanders/eggs wronged him while for q the federation did #“You did it unto me / And now I'm doin' it unto you” is very quackity-esque #he took his frustration of the federation out on fred and tubbo #calling tubbo a rat and kidnapping fred #the fact part 2 feels all jumbled and the words are breaking here and there is very quackity-esque after the fed brought him back #idk know why but q/elq with religious imagery is something neat to me i think its bc of the cross necklace/federation giving a certain vibe #sorry for tag rambling id rather not put in the actual post #/seed

[boyentity]

the way i would rather get electrocuted again than write this stupid essay

#i speakin #i have more important stuff to be doing but write this high school level paper for a COLLEGE COURSE #like literally the format he wants us to follow is the same fucking format i used back in 10th grade english i wanna scream and cry #he wants us to stretch 5 paragraphs out into 5 PAGES be fucking SERIOUS WITH ME RIGHT NOW #why did i TAKE this class #im so tired and i am using food as a reward for myself for writing it bc it's due at noon tomorrow #but im sorry i donnt wanna write abt an 80yo movie that barely has anything written abt it that i can use as a source #this is such baby level shit its frustrating #like how am i supposed to stretch 'cary grant was in this movie bc he was popular' for five fucking pages #im mad. tbh.

[dockaspbrak]

what the hell

#ok not to be rude but #i sort of cant handle the depression perhaps anymore like it is unending #i dont understand why god cant just give me theability to reanimate the dead or perhaps just do it himself #i miss the little guy i kind of dont know what to even do #i feel stupid bc i feel like its like....people dont really perhaps i just dont think people are that cool about talking abt grief #esp about pets..like #i feel silly for being so depressed but i also cant perhaps handle it #the self loathing is really hitting a peak this week idk like #where do ie ven go from here is my thought i guess i dont really want to be alive or do anything i just miss him so much #he was so sweet and small #i keep getting served videos about like senior 20 yr old cats being surrendered to shelters and like #im so mad like id do anything to have gotten 2 more years with him wht the fuck are you giving them up for #what the hell #its frustrating because ir eally dont want to be comforted or even spoken to about this im just like mad #mad and bargaining clearly i forget what stages those are #depressed yet pissed off also like what the fuck did he do to deserve this it was so fucking fast #cherish your fucking pets. treasure every fucking day #ugh #maybe ill try a different kind of eating again for awhile tbh lets see what thats like in the new context of living w regan #its hard bc its human nature to criticize and correct i think so its hard to feel like i have the space to do what i want? bc of that.... #idk idk

[x-letsbreaksomerules-x]

Sometimes i still think about deleting that joke post about fenris and his insane post nut clarity. people got so weird about it

#but i do get frustrated to this day that people think i’m just making fun of a guy remembering a traumatic incident #when thats explicitly not what happens. he REMEMBERS the trauma #its ALL he knows. he’s upset because he remembered stuff BEFORE the lyrium. like glimpses of his family #its why his sisters name sounds familiar when she says it. did you guys just miss all this it’s literally just outright said #and i still think its objectively a funny way to write this. sex is potent and powerful and it makes sense #but also. you gotta admit… busting a nut and having your amnesia cured is kinda funny #but people got so weird. people i don’t even know that i’ve never talked too!! #like who are you! why do you have some mysterious issue with me.

[fagofgod]

there are people saying jesusjudas isnt real toxic yaoi bc jesus wasnt toxic... yeah ok so i was about to start speaking but then i got sleepy and realised i probably shouldnt. say the words i was going to. um. hm. do me a favour dont look at the tags

#yippee goodnight someone should remind me to permanently block mar on all platforms someday #saying jedas isnt toxic on both sides is like shiori haters who dont think juri did anything wrong #... jedas is juriori for bible freaks. is what im trying to say. #ok. ok. goodnight #wait ok. so. so. jesus son of god. who cant just be in love with a man. his disciple. but he is. he is in love with him #jesus son of god. who is afraid and angry of this love that he shldnt have. pushing judas away. refusing to let him know why hes doing this #jesus son of god. who loves everyone. but still hates this one man. bc he cant atop loving him differently. #who sees judas as someone special. but who he cant let himself be too close to. so he loves him from afar. idolises him #but that isnt good for normal man judas. obviously. its weird and frustrating when the person you love appears to almost despise you #especially harder when hes literally the kindest and most wonderful man youve ever seen. so why does he hate you? help #yeah. ok. basically. jedas juriori bye bye #the bible #<- for me to find. hm. should make my bible tag something less. yk. someday ig #ughhhh

[todayisafridaynight]

I MEAN sawashiro gives me some "kids are fucking annoying" vibes but maybe it's just a "ichi is annoying" vibe

i think you are confusing kids with ichi, a very easy mistake honestly so i'll let it slide for now but you ARE on thin ice

#snap chats #no see that's always a question i have with myself #like is sawashiro good with kids or is he just adequate with masato #like evidently he has sympathy for kids but did he feel bad for masato because he knew he was the reason why masato was upset #its variables and shit yk but i would. ASSUME he's like. OK with kids #like even with ichi i think he's just especially frustrated with him because ichi's an adult who works for him #so he has more valid reasons to be short tempered with him. maybe not valid ways to EXPRESS that exhaustion but yk what i mean #like im gonna be more upset with an adult who doesnt know how to fuckin. idk get me a sandwich from 7/11 than a kid #like my man you know where the 7/11 is it's down the road and you know where the sandwiches are #but if my dumb ass is entrusting a kid to do all that by themselves then i wont be surprised if they get lost or confused #dude WHERE am i going with these tags. point is i dont think sawashiro would bitch slap a kid

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

head in hands . things need 2 stophappening i need a break

#dog snapped at me at work today. did not get bit or anything but hes a Big Dog and my hands are still very shaky #got home and found a bump on kotas head that was not there this morning and . maybe it is just the anxiety and exhaustion but #its reallyyyyy freaking me out #i dont. see anything . so it might just be fur but it doesnt Feel like fur and . aughg h hghghhghhhghghghhhhh #i cannot Do This rnnnnn #my worst client called me in for work at 6am tomorrow which is bullshit and also put in the notes #that their son is literally home ?!?!?!?!?!!?! but i still have to go and take care of their pets ?!?!?! #which is. extremely awkward and frustrating like Why Cant He Do It Hes Literally There #and their dog is. not very well trained and hes such a hassle to deal with. sigh #plus my grandparents are visiting and while i love them they are very much in . babysitter mode #which. i dont mind usually but god i have had the mkst stressful 3 days and all i want to do is sit in bed and watch adventure time #but even THAT isnt gonna make me feel better bc im into the like. sad arc. and thatll just make me feel sad and weird. :(

[gorefetishizer]

Masking my sensory problems less than before making my whole family worried cuz they interpret my body language in some way when i literaly just needed to come home take off my pants and watch bionicle videos in the dark

#MY BROTHER WAS CRYING CUZ HE ''DIDNT KNOW HOW TO HELP ME'' ????? dude i was just not talking...... #like he wanted to like rub my arm to comfort me or something bit i obviously moved cuz thats more stimuli but like. why you crying #did i really look like i was in that level of emotional pain????? i just was momentraely not talking. and not making facial expresions #why do ppl have such extreme reactions to this things why do they interpret me like this!!!! i dont understand #its so confusing to me and it makes me mad. and they fucking. pity me???? like feel sad for me???? when im not sad!!!!! #why do they wanna emotionaly comfort me when im not! emotional!!!! im not having an emotional reaction!!!!! leave me alone #i dont need to be treated like they do why does it hurt them so much that im different. im finally not faking im actually happier like this #but why does it seem to hurt them so bad. it has nothing to do with them #and the nerve. the nerve to be simpathetic to me NOW. when they never where before. like they arent now if i dont show strong signs #that they deem aproiate #im pissed. im frustrated. i dont get it #i truly do not understand

[strwbrymlkshake]

ohh I do want to pass away why am I so stupid

#mine #🎸 #why am i such a terrible person 😇 genuinely what the fuck #me when i want to cry and tear my skin off over a minor mistake ufhdshdjfjg can i stop being fucking stupid for once #crying over a mistake right NOW actually everything is so difficult i dont know what im supposed to do in these situations!!!!!!! #i get in trouble for not knowing what to do in social situations then i have to apologize and i didnt know THAT either. #bashing my head against the wall violence maiming killing death torture bloodletting slicing tearing defenestrating murdering annihilating #me anmd my epic autism powers. shouldnt i know better why csnt you understand!!! who is at fault here! i dont even know #ashshsjdksjfklsfke im wanna cry so hard everything sucks right now im too busy for this shit. for Emotions #why are you punishing me do you hate me?! did you never even like me at all are you trying to make me mad!!! why #im so tired and frustrated i want everything to go perfectly but its not nothing can be perfect in this terrible world he is going to hate #me now. hell why do i have urges like this it always ruins everything im being so selfish arent i aren't i arent i !!!!!!!! why cant we #be FUCKING compatible and perfect snd everything what is the problem am i the problem?!?? why cant you understsnd what im trying to tellyou #maybe it really would just be better if i died nothing good has happened or is going to happen to me since he probably hates me and #my life sucks!!!!! my face hurts from crying i cant cry properly it hurts it feels so hot why cant it end already!!!!!!! why cant #we be perfect like we are supposed to why cant you UNDERSTAND it seems easy to understand to ME whwueh i am mortified my throat hurts #my head hurts i hate this world why couldnt i resist why did i have to be vulnerable id be better off if. well i dont know #i do want to crush bones and flesh beneath my hands to be honest i dont KNOW i thought it was going well i thought it was good #the thread i am hanging on by is quite thin actually why do i care so much why do i care so little im going to explode right meow!!! #my mood is so ruined i dont know if im even used to this whole thing i cannot get in particular moods im so. rgrhrhggr none of this post #is going to make sense i just need to say words while crying then itll be fine probably #this is just another one of god's little tests i think that everyone will hate me no matter what in the end so i have to enjoy it while #it lasts. no matter how hard i try everything always ends up the same way. all this started because of my mistakes and itll end with them

[perenlop]

mlp season 9 is so weird tbh. literally feels like a lot of it is just recycled and like a lot of noodles got thrown at the wall to see if theyd stick

#the weird racism plotline between the 3 pony species (which was pointless both in the show bc it was solved quickly iirc #and in the long run bc g5 is in the same canon and that has the same plot) #the 3 villains being recycled from old seasons and uh ohhhh discord messed up and semi betrayed them oh no #if grogar was there for real i feel like itd be better tbh him just being discord was a bigletdown to me #twilight getting a second coronation??? like shes already a princess??? ik its so she can rule but why call it coronation #just felt weird to me. and it defeats the purpose of season 4 where she learns her place among the princesses and gets her own castle #it feels like they put that together just to make it feel more like a finale which ehhhh #ALSO why did they do that whole ''oh twilight doesnt believe in herself because discord helped her with her accomplishments #so that means he probably was behind every other time she saved equestria'' which is like. WHAT. ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT #first of all theyve gotta know at least four of those quests were totally them bc he was in stone for the first and was the second quest #and they did beat sombra on their own the first time so idk why sombra's second defeat was harped on #like twilight ur the smart one use youre head hes literally been either the villain/lockedin stone/drained of magic for most of your quests #and if theyre not implying that discord helped during all those then this plotline is still stupid as hell #oh no twilight discord helped you with ONE defeat so clearly every other quest you took was fake #im sorry i wouldnt be annoyed if the show didnt totally glorify itself with it and make itlike ''twilight has to learn to fight on her OWN'' #the ending of mlp is still very sweet its just frustrating i feel like a lot of stuff was just retroactively made less important by this #echoed voice

[sunnydice]

man.

#i had this whole post ive been trying to formulate for so so long. abt my issues w ceewilbur and ccwilburisms and #to clarify i do like cwilb he is one of my faves. ik it may seem i wanna bite his arm off smtimes and i Do but #its mostly bitterness directed to the stuff Around him if that makes sense. yk the response to lots abt him #the way the overcompensation abt how he can be villanized swinging into a state where he Cant and never Did and wrong and if you critique #or acknowledge it you get snipped at and demeaned and treated like its a targeted hit on the mentally ill when its like #a mild disagreement with one of the most popular characters in the fanbase Easily #and w cc wil i do think he is just sm guy. im sure he's a nice dude idrc abt the ccs usually but he seems alright enough even tho he has v #goofy ahh takes and opinions but that doesnt make you Evil #but when i dive into what really has made me feel so alienated and snippy its. llmao its the racism yeah lol its super very much the racism #its very very prevelent and very common and very unchallenged. and it like. upsets me so bad its why i keep bailing on making my actual #full detailed post abt it. cuz everytime i try to formulate my thoughts i just get upset and frustrated i wanna rip my hair out #its hard not to feel like im talking to a wall when its so common and unchecked and. ive seen rightful critiques of these spaces and how #ppl interact with them Openly Mocked and brushed aside and treated like 'petty sensative internet drama' that ppl need to 'just get over' #sorry man im a fucking 🇲🇽 i cant exactly log off and Stop Experiencing Racism. and sorry that me feeling alienated and tired and sad abt #it is an inconvenience for you llol #and like idk. im not upset w anyone in particular this isnt a call out post or vague who give a shit and. #eh maybe im stupid but i really really believe a lot of ppl arent doing it on purpose #its just bein parroted ik i get it but #am i rlly not allowed to be tired? why should it feel like my responsibility to hold ppls hand and go hey mb treat poc and darker skinned #ppl like ppl. maybe you should examine why you need so many things made palatable to you through conventionally attractive whiteness first #idk. idk!!! am i crazy who fucking knows #but it has been weighing on me stupid style so bad #the shrinking fanbase and primarily yk common stragglers has just. rlly felt like a magnifying glass to my already existing issues abt it #idk man. idk im tired and im at work its 100°+ and my head hurts so this is all yr getting. lea me alone #and again this isnt a vague who Cares. just wanted to get it off my chest finally #huri.txt #discourse #<- ig