#If not thatd be really embarrassing

[kitwing-moving]

its been another one of those days.... pass the cringeposts!!!!!!

#🐾.txt #not to be ummmm embarrassing but i like to think that #hiyori would let me cry on him after a really rough day and he'd be sooo reluctant to just like. brush it off like i say and to not #worry about it that ill be back to normal in a minute etc he'd get a little huffy and berate me for trying to play off my own emotions #so lightheartedly and for me to think about how thatd worry him no matter what i say to try and reassure him #and he'd say that he's there for me for a reason and id start crying again and try sooo hard to play it off. but he'd let me cry on him #until it was all out and he wouldn't move he'd just let me lay on him and cling to him #he'd wanna help me talk it out but i cant even describe my most basic emotions without a bit of difficulty HHDKWKE #joyful forecast

[selkiecoded]

im just really fucking tired of feeling like im always scrambling against the edge of shit, and not knowing whether its because of brain issues or what fucking ever or behavior i can fix if i just commit to fixing it. god. fuck. i really fucking need adderall.

#my consult for a consult basically said that if i went through the schools service i might not get an appointment til march #so im gonna talk it over with my parents next week and see if we can do it offcampus. i really dont know how to do the logistics of it all. #but i legitimately cant keep living like this. #im stressed and constantly miserable and embarrassed and i should probably talk to someone abt thoughts of self-loathing lol. #probably not helped by the fact that im extremely isolated. so you know. if i could fix just one thing about my life thatd be pretty cool. #sorry im tired and angry at myself i know nobodys going to get made for me venting on my own blog (except me) but still #fuck meeeee and i still have so much shit to do im so stressed and in a hell of my own making

[timeisacephalopod]

The fact that cigarette companies exist is fucking dystopian and a sign of the failure of capitalism as an ideology- cigarettes are a product that undeniably caused a bunch of different cancers, we've all seen the tobacco death stats on the back of cig cartons smokers have, and yet. And yet, for some reason instead of saying "zero businesses should be selling cancer causing products to their customers, certainly not when those cancer causing products are so dangerous even the smoke of the product causes cancers in the people around smokers. Businesses have zero right to cause a massive health crisis in the population like this when their only function is to make money- you cannot give people cancer for profit."

Like you'd assume giving people cancer for money would be some kind of fucked dystopian novel that'd get ripped on for being way too over the top and unrealistic but no, we literally live in such a morally bankrupt capitalist brain rotted society that we think selling cancer is fine, we won't do anything about a set of companies that exist solely to get customers addicted to their highly dangerous product for profit. Instead we'll act like it's smokers who need to take responsibility for the industry that's exploiting them. Fucking disgusting if you ask me, that we're more okay with companies giving people cancer than we are with governments giving people welfare.

#winters ramblings #my parents have been smokers for as far back as i remember #id really like to livht some ceos on fire for putting all these people at risk OF CANCER and like 72 billion kinds #so they can make MONEY. what kind of morally vacuous black hole of a person thinks thats acceptable?? #and they LOBBIED to hide any effects of smoking second hand effects included. fucking HORRIFYING #the fact that businesses do this a LOT- like bp shell and exxon all covering up climate change to make more money?? #capitalism is a failure because people will kill each other or even THE ONLY VIABLE PLANET TO LIVE ON IN OUR SOLAR SYSTEM #just to make money. like you can tell me about how horrible other economic systems are all fucking day #and frankly id be inclined to ahree with you on plenty. but capitalism is not a viable choice either #when THIS is the result. selling health crises to the population and killing the planet. name me another economic system thats done THAT #ill fucking wait because capitalism is it. embarrassing that people will defend this system #even more embarrassing that we hand wring over fst people being an epidemic to the point of systemic oppression #because THEY need to take responsibility for the health crisis they allegedly cause despite reporting going to the drs FAR less #than thin people so idk how theyre astrain on health care especially in the us where people literally die before going to emerg but ok #THEY need to be responsible for THEIR health crisis despite losing weight long term being NEXT TO IMPOSSIBLE #but tobacco companies can sell cancer to the point if being a WAY MORE SOLVABLE HEALTH CRISIS #but we cant do anything because being disgustingly cruel and punative to individuals is fine but oh dear LORD #how could we EVER treat businesses with more impunity than individuals because they cause INFINITY MORE DAMAGE?? #we couldn't POSSIBLY treat a structure of institutional power like it actually HAS power thatd break the illusion its all CONSUMERS faults

[roaringheat]

I survived the therapy appointment with only one embarrassing moment. literally half of it was just this fuckin image

#vark posts #i was like 'yea i can do convos with an expected script amazingly but as soon as its just simple talk with a coworker i die' #and shes like 'hm? 🤨 anxiety? 🤨 parental issues? 🤨 are you attention deficit? 🤨' #im jokin but she was really nice #she made some connections super fuckin fast that i just wasnt aware of at all #she pulled out some fuckin finger puppets at one point which was actually really sweet #felt like my inner child was happy lol #the embarrassing moment was cause i wasnt understanding the simple thing she wanted me to do and kept fuckin it up #overall good tho 👍 #i was kinda wanting something thatd would go all year but her style is more weekly for a couple months to tackle specific goals #so like whatever its good

[mechawolfie]

also i did end up making kim very very disappointed in me so i think i should die

#disco elysium #smudgy.txt #in my defense it didnt seem like smth that needed 2 b disclosed infront of titus (Asshole Who I Hate) #plus suggestion voice said not to. & i ALWAYS listen to suggestion voice. that guy seems to know whats what #& he hasnt steered me wrong yet. i think #though ill admit it was a lapse of judgement after *checks time on steam* #30+ hours of having hdb trauma dump on anyone whod listen #but recently ive realized that just bc i Can pick every dialogue option.. well it doesnt mean i Should #plus. what if the hardies made fun of me for it #idk why they would but. they could. theyre so mean 2 me #like what if i picked that option & titus is like yeah? bitch. #& then his boys start laughing at me & i lose all my morale instantly & die. thatd be bad #so really.. its GOOD i withheld very important information abt my relationship w the case from my partner #if harry dies of embarrassment.. well we cant solve anything now can we !

[ghost-yearning]

Im swooning 😩

Me when i can be someones platonic hoe-

#mlm #gay #homosexual activity #nblm #nonbinary #t4t nblm #queer #im the one being responded to btw #god i hope no one ik irl sees this #thatd be really embarrassing lmao #im gonna treat this blog more casually than i have in the past #so yeah #teehee

[wall-e-gorl]

Spotify wrapped is out! I have made a grave mistake in my listening habits

#the mountport musical in its entirety is on my everything everyday playlist...... i listen to it in its entirety every day #i didnt even THINK about what thatd mean #it means its really good and that im a bit embarrased about my thing now. i wasnt expecting to be embarrassed #spotify wrapped

[yappyappy]

want a partner who will do my pedicures for me

#why is it so hard to do by yourself 😭 #my feet are kinda ticklish though #ive never gotten a pedicure i always do them myself #so thatd be really embarrassing if i didnt like it #but i think i would 😌

[voidcoretxt]

the word misanthrope has been almost resonating with me lately in some way? its really got me thinking about. like. the Everything about me.

#i dont consider myself to be a misanthrope (thatd be so embarrassing jesus christ) but i am very distrustful towards like. humans in general #i approach basically everyone with the whole Youre Just Like Everyone Else You Will Hurt Me Too attitude #as well as sort people into these categories of ''better than/above me'' and ''worse than/below me'' #which is. really shitty. i Know that. #and. man. its even worse with people who i Dont judge as harshly #cause. sighhh. theres only like 3 people like that? people that i really loved and more importantly Trusted? #and they all left me. and two of them treated me like i was nothing before that. #so like. what was i supposed to take away from that lmao #i try to be better i try not to always assume the worst. but its hard #itll get easier tho. but ill have to do it every day thats the hard part. but it will get easier. #voidcore.txt

[lonelyquail]

by the way that odio playlist made entirely out of arch enemy songs is going well, I sent it to a friend for the vibe check and she said "this is good but you do know oersted would have a heart attack and die upon hearing this". I absolutely know but the fact is I'm currently very autistic about both arch enemy and the lord of dark odio. so he'll have to accept my music taste.

#a good wife supports their partners music taste no matter what. #a good partner thinks its really funny when their wife has a heart attack and dies due to being exposed to death metal #vee shut up #live a live spoilers #once i finish combing through the discography ill post it. this is the type of blorbo picks i would be embarrassed about #but like. its a playlist entirely of ae. if they were just on a normal playlist thatd be embarrassing but #here you know what to expect

[takemus]

(late but i saw your tags on one of the rbs, Please Go Off about your OCs-)

OASDHGKS now im kinda embarrassed to do this but ig i can give some super quick couple-liner gists of them under the cut

alex

ice phoenix and former prince of a destroyed kingdom meant to be a sanctuary for non-human entities (such as mythical and other supernatural beings) that wanted to also eventually welcome humans (long story short: shit happened and this never came to be)

outwardly cold and aloof; inwardly soft and cares quite a bit. gender af and has an air of melancholy to him. he was actually playful and mischievous as a kid...losing everything does that to you

cain

literally Just a Dude (at first). first human to enter the kingdom described above as a trial to see if other humans can be welcomed. winds up falling in love with alex. dies due to the Shit that Happened and becomes the next iteration of death (so not human anymore)

really bitter and cynical as a kid; comes to be a shitposting loser as death down the line. also really hot

leon

remember the part about cain dying? yeah he kinda does that again, sorry- (as for how death dies...that's a long story. dw he does come back in the end!!)

kinda-not-really cain's kid (sorta) and is the next iteration of death after the deities kill cain (time to be determined, as are all my oc-related things). has a...rough and difficult start, but is welcomed after things get settled!

very sweet, doesnt understand the world all that much, but is doing his best! very forgiving, probably hard to make angry (will probably cry over getting mad tbh). also doted on a lot (esp by his older brother figure)

btw if you want to see what they look like, i have a group photo of the oc gang (including a friend's oc and uh. goro akechi SDKGHDSKGSH [who is the older brother figure mentioned above with leon]) as my tumblr header (mobile)! alex is the blue haired boss bitch, cain's the sunglasses-wearing black haired dumb of ass (affectionate), and leon is the beaming baby boy sitting on the sofa arm

#egg answers #elizeshiro #oc info #character death #cw character death #i actually do love my ocs #and their lore is way more extensive than this #im really embarrassed asdghdskg #so im not doing so well at expressing my love for them and everything that they do #but if you are more interested #i have a carrd for my ocs #but some of the info there is out of date #esp their backstories #but i can send it your way if interested #also leon's technically not fully developed #so there's a lot to him im not entirely sure about yet #cain's also hard to make angry so thatd actually be kinda cute if leon also inherited that from him #long post #omg the app ate this post im going to lose my fucjing shit

[vampacidic]

ohhhhh i am feeling so lovey right now. i love all my friends here you guys are great :) hehehe. sowwy this means i've stayed up too late but today was a Little stressful so umm. i like you guys is what i'm trying to say. and i am glad. we are friends. hoohoo

#sage talks #i should. make tag for sleepy rambles #no i shouldn't thatd be embarrassing. then people will know i'm capable of love #um. i really don't know how to word it but it's just nice to have friends again #not even like we need to be close close. i'm just glad to chat with people some times. i love keeping a diary here #you guys are all very cool and don't let anybody tell you otherwise!!!! #im a little bad at conversation. that's why i don't talk to people a lot. but i just feel comfortable here. like i can just say whatever #well. anyway. thank you everyone here :) i am always here to chat if you'd like

[iwaasfairy]

Faiwyyy, àll these mentions of mirror mirror and indelible and jskdkd of course oikawa and atsuko, now i'm thinking about either satoru-nii or stepdad gojo in a hotd/got modern verse 🥹

Yan!Satoru-nii who does everything to prevent his little sis from being arranged to be married to the Zen'in clan or

Yan!Stepdad Satoru who only agree to be married to your mom because his end goal is you, who has the most ideal technique to be paired with the six eyes and limitless

I'm sorry but like the lack of gojocest fic is just 😔

Is thERE A LACK ???? 👁️👁️ bC I WIll gladly step up to the plateeee omfjdjdkgkg I mean there’s not enough hours in the day for me to write all the fics I wanna write but yeA YOURE SO RIGHT ꒰๑˃͈꒵˂͈๑꒱୭̥*ﾞ̥♡⃛ THATD BE SOOOO SEXXXyYYY I love satoru nii so much I have always loved the idea of big brudder satoru having a blossoming crush on his little sister anD ITs honestly mean n gross that I haven’t gotten to write it yet >:/

Skkskdkdmffj I can just imagine satoru being like the,,, he was the only child for a while until you, so now he’s just got an insane fascination for each of you stuff n seeing himself mirrored in you and it’s not like he wants to make you into him,,, it’s just that you look so fucking adorable following big brother’s lead. definitely if you’re kinda wide eyed and naïve n trust him too much for your own good. double definitely when you’re so dependant on him that you let him do whatever

like watching you as you undress and putting his hands all over n pinching and playing with your body until you can’t stand it. or sticking his fingers or sometimes him tongue into your mouth. or asking you to help him out, but really he just wants to embarrass you by putting you on your knees between his legs n shoving your head into his crotch, or holding you there, or generally just putting his crotch near you at all. and making you touch him “like this, like this, good girl—“ through his underwear even though you don’t understand what he gets out of it.

because then he always asks “do you like your big brother? you like me, yeah?” and “how much?” and he’s always so touchy with you and he dotes on you and he calls you a smart girl or such a good little sister when you listen to him,,, so of course you wanna help. Even if he has some weird requests

#tw.incest #tw.grooming #I wANNAAAA WRITE IR I WANNA SOOOBAD #I think of satoru nii too much he makes me sOOO Hot nflusteted #wAagataysteyr he’d talk you into doing the groSSESTTT Shit with a smile on his face

[luvjordie]

thinking ab steve seeing sinclair!reader for the first time in this au im thinking ab writing.

shes hanging out in nancys room, her first week back in hawkins in years. dustin leads steve upstairs to mikes room, but he stops just before the door to nancys room to tie his shoe, the younger boy leaving to mikes room since steve said he didnt need to wait. beside him was the muffled sound of stacy q blaring through nancys radio, accompanied by a voice he was sure he had heard before. “so nancy drew, whos the stud?” you say, picking up a polaroid picture of steve that you’d found laying tucked under something in her room. it had ‘1983’ scribbled on it messily “i didnt even know i still had that, god. that, my friend, is steve the hair harrington” hearing his name, steve lingered a little. tying his other shoe for good measure, and to not look like the creep he was definitely being right now. “no fucking way. thats steve harrington? the one who threw up on sarahs desk in the sixth grade?” see, contrary to popular belief, steve hadnt always been hot. he had his awkward phase, which was really the only impression youd had of him so far. he winced at the memory. the sound of nancys laughter filled the room, as he stood up. brushing spare bits of carpet fuzz off of his knees, he could hear muffled conversation going on behind the door, though he stopped paying true attention after the embarrassing trip down memory lane. he was fine for a while, in mikes room helping the boys with some lego project they used as an excuse to hang out some more with steve. hed forgotten all about the conversation he overheard. until the same voice filled his ears again. “hey lucas, i need to be home by nine i have shit to do in the morning, so hurry it up please.” steve had been sure his mouth was agape as he looked at you in the doorway. he wasnt the only one who grew out of the patented sixth grade awkwardness. you smiled at him, and he felt his cheeks heat up. that was when he realized he was still totally being perceived. that and the fact that lucas smacked him hard as hell in his bicep. it didnt hurt necessarily but it was enough to knock him out of his thoughts “steve fucking stop with the sister thing its getting old. and y/n, you cant rush art” “theyre blocks? i- just hurry the hell up.” you said, tapping your imaginary wrist watch. “ i can drive him” steve offered, as the boys all looked at him like he was speaking nonsense. “thatd be great,” you smiled once again, “youre steve harrington right?” you asked. you knew the answer, and he knew you did, but he nodded anyways. “yup. y/n sinclair i assume. its been a minute.” “totally” the interaction was awkward and short, but steve still found himself smiling and nodding like an idiot while you told lucas to call before he left, and told steve the cerfew. it wasn’t until you were halfway out of the door that the boys started harassing him for his obvious new found crush. “first nancy, now this. you are the scum of the earth” “leave him alone he oh so obviously has a type” “we might have to start babysitting you harrington” you laughed it off on your walk back to nancys room that night, but that definitely didnt stop you from letting him kiss you stupid in the back of scoops ahoy two months later.

#steve harrington #sinclair!reader #black!reader #steve harrington x reader #stevie #steve harrington x black!reader #x reader #fanfic

[meownotgood]

(zooms in) AKI TATTOOS. I HAVE THOUGHTS

i already love love loooove tattoos and i like giving a shitton to aki when i draw him but its like. i dont feel like hed be the kind of guy to have full sleeves or anything yk? its hot to imagine but i dont think hed fully commit like that and hed end up getting just a few tattoos that have an important meaning to him.

like maybe he has the date of his familys death on his wrist? like either the very inside near his hand or along the side of his wrist. i feel like itd be in roman numerals. or maybe he gets his family name as a tattoo to honour them? he definitely has a tattoo for his family bc its meaningful to him

i also feel like he got matching tattoos w himeno when they were both drunk, something silly he kind of regretted at first but now he cherishes. like a silly frog or smthn.

he also definitely gets either your name tattooed or gets matchies with you like the last anon said, i feel like thatd be really cute! maybe he also gets your favourite flower tattooed, but thats just because of my Aki Flower Tattoo Agenda. like imagine him w a pretty floral piece on his shoulder blade .. itd be so pretty ……………

- 🐙

I'M SO GLAD YOU MENTIONED IT BECAUSEEEEE THAT'S JUST WHAT I WAS THINKING ABOUT

I totally agree that aki wouldn't get a ton of tattoos, but I brought it up because I imagined him with a shoulder tattoo... like the kind that goes from your shoulder down the arm or across the back... god

and I love the thought of him having a drunken tattoo of something silly, he gets shy whenever you bring it up or touch it (it's just so cute, and you love how he makes an embarrassed face whenever you notice it)

#I agree so much of him having a sentimental tattoo to honor his family #what are the thoughts of him having tattoos to cover up particularly noticable scars? #I feel he wouldn't care about his scars too much #but I like the thought #a flower tattoo would be so pretty... #ask mags