#If you try me you'll find me

[hajihiko]

you know I had to do it (to em) <- link

#Hajime hinata #Izuru kamukura #It's both! Its HajiZuru you'll see #Fuyuhiko kuzuryu #Sdr2 #Super danganronpa 2 #Danganronpa 2 #Kuzuhina #Author said it can be read as both so I can safely tag it lol but!!! PLATONIC YEEAAHHH #Always a happy day when I find good friend fics <3 #An art #Wait I'm not thrilled with the colouring actually let me edit this more. #There. You didnt see it but a process occurred. #Friends and healing 🥰🥰 #I always try to capture the lips-between-teeth crying kind of face bc it's all I know. Everyone does that right

[myenterpriseisparked]

Okay I understand where people are coming from with the "emotional suppression in Vulcans is learned not genetic" talk re: "Charades" but, consider......... the emotional suppression is muscle memory, and the aliens took away the mental muscles that remembered how to do it. It's a crude metaphor on my part, but that was the way I saw it.

Also consider: it's a sci fi show using extremely high-concept bullcrap science on a weekly basis and maybe nitpicking it is a fruitless endeavor because none of it is going to make sense otherwise and enjoying the ride for what it is is a much more enjoyable way to engage with this franchise. Sometimes you need to shrug and let dumb things happen and laugh.

#i am so sick of whatching people find itty bitty things to pick SNW apart over #I'm trying really hard not to get internet preachy about it because everyone it entitled to their own opinions #but some people really beed to calm down and stop taking everything so seriously #Star Trek has NEVER had completely accurate science #or consistent rules within it's own universe #I mean look at Threshold #that is 1000% Not How Evolution Works #like at all #but we all laugh it off and throw a party about it every year #or how about the fact that Miles O Brien was a Leiutenant #and then he was suddenly an enlisted man #I could go on #but the point is that if you get caught up in the trees you'll miss the forest #and also a bundle of laughs because that was a very funny episode #was it perfect? of course not #but I am not gonna let the flaws ruin the whole thing for me #I had fun and laughed and smiled and that's all that really matters in my book #Strange New Worlds #snw spoilers #I'm really hesitant to tag this because I don't want people coming for my head lol #but alas I need to make sure people who haven't watched the episode can block spoilers

[ivan-fyodorovich-k]

I will be curious to read the vituperative denials of the validity of this article's analysis, which is pasted below the cutoff:

“Are you better off today than you were four years ago?” That question, first posed by Ronald Reagan in a 1980 presidential-campaign debate with Jimmy Carter, has become the quintessential political question about the economy. And most Americans today, it seems, would say their answer is no. In a new survey by Bankrate published on Wednesday, only 21 percent of those surveyed said their financial situation had improved since Joe Biden was elected president in 2020, against 50 percent who said it had gotten worse. That echoed the results of an ABC News/Washington Post poll from September, in which 44 percent of those surveyed said they were worse off financially since Biden’s election. And in a New York Times/Siena College poll released last week, 53 percent of registered voters said that Biden’s policies had hurt them personally.

As has been much commented on (including by me), this gloom is striking when contrasted with the actual performance of the U.S. economy, which grew at an annual rate of 4.9 percent in the most recent quarter, and which has seen unemployment holding below 4 percent for more than 18 months. But the downbeat mood is perhaps even more striking when contrasted with the picture offered by the Federal Reserve’s recently released Survey of Consumer

The survey provides an in-depth analysis of the financial condition of American households, conducted for the Fed by the National Opinion Research Center at the University of Chicago. Published every three years, it’s the proverbial gold standard of household research. The latest survey looked at Americans’ net worth as of mid-to-late 2022 and Americans’ income in 2021, comparing them with equivalent data from three years earlier. It found that despite the severe disruption to the economy caused by the pandemic and the recovery from it, Americans across the spectrum saw their incomes and wealth rise over the survey period.

The rise in median household net worth was the most notable improvement: It jumped by 37 percent from 2019 to 2022, rising to $192,000. (All numbers are adjusted for inflation.) Americans in every income bracket saw substantial gains, with the biggest gains registered by people in the middle and upper-middle brackets, which suggests that a slight narrowing of wealth inequality occurred during this time. In particular, Black and Latino households saw their median net worth rise faster than white households did—though the racial wealth gap is so wide that it narrowed only slightly as a result of this change.

A big driver of this increase was the rising value of people’s homes—and a higher percentage of Americans owned homes in 2022 than did in 2019. But households’ financial position improved in other ways too. The amount of money that the median household had in bank accounts and retirement accounts rose substantially. The percentage of Americans owning stocks directly (that is, not in retirement accounts) jumped by more than a third, from about 15 to 21 percent. The percentage of Americans with retirement accounts went from 50.5 to 54.3 percent, a notable improvement. And a fifth of Americans reported owning a business, the highest proportion since the survey began in its current form (in 1989).

Americans also reduced their debt loads during the pandemic. The median credit-card balance dropped by 14 percent, and the share of people with car loans fell. More significantly still, Americans’ median debt-to-asset, debt-to-income, and debt-payment-to-income ratios all fell, meaning that U.S. households had lower debt burdens, on average, in 2022 than they’d had three years earlier.

The gains in real income (in this case, measured from 2018 to 2021) were small—median household income rose 3 percent, with every income bracket seeing gains. But that was better than one might have expected, given that this period included a pandemic-induced recession and only a single year of recovery.

The picture the survey paints, then, is one of American households not only weathering the pandemic in surprisingly good shape, but ultimately also emerging from it in better financial shape than they were going in. And that, in turn, points to the effect of the U.S. policy response to the crisis: Stimulus payments, enhanced unemployment benefits, the child-care tax credit, and the moratorium on student-loan payments boosted household income and balance sheets, helping people pay down debt and increase their savings. In the process, these policies mildly narrowed inequality.

The U.S. government’s aggressive response to the pandemic, including Biden’s stimulus spending, also helped the job market recover all its pandemic-related losses—and add millions of jobs on top. The resulting tight labor market has been a huge boon to lower-wage workers. In fact, because the Fed survey’s income data end in 2021, it understates the income gains for the bottom half of the workforce, and the shrinking income inequality they’ve produced.

Hourly wages for production and nonsupervisory workers (who make up about 80 percent of the American workforce) rose 4.4 percent year-on-year in the third quarter of 2023, for instance, ahead of the pace of inflation. And this was not anomalous: Arindrajit Dube, an economist at the University of Massachusetts at Amherst, crunched the numbers and found that real wages for that same sector of workers are not just higher than they were in 2019, but are now roughly where they would have been if we’d continued on the upward pre-pandemic trend.

The reason for this is simple: Low unemployment has translated into higher wages. As a recent working paper by Dube, David Autor, and Annie McGrew shows, the tight labor markets of the past few years have given lower-wage workers more bargaining power than in the past, leading to a compression in the wage gap between higher-paid and lower-paid workers. Of course, that gap is still immense, but the three scholars found that the wage gains for lower-paid workers have rolled back about a quarter of the rise in inequality that has occurred since the 1980s.

So what should we take away from the Survey of Consumer Finances data, and from Dube, Autor, and McGrew’s work? Not that everything is fine, but that public policy and macroeconomic management matter a lot. Enhanced unemployment benefits, the child-care tax credit, the stimulus payments—these things materially improved the lives of Americans and helped set the economy up for a strong recovery. If the policy response had been less aggressive, the U.S. economy would be in worse shape now. This is something you can see by looking at Europe, where economies are growing far more slowly and unemployment is higher, while inflation is no lower.

Key to this story is the fact that lower-wage workers in particular would be worse off, because they have been among the chief beneficiaries of the low unemployment created by the robust recovery. It’s a useful reminder that stagnant wages are not an inevitable result of American capitalism: When labor markets are tight, and employers have to compete with one another for employees, workers get paid more.

So, even allowing for the high inflation we saw in 2022, no one could really look at the U.S. economy today and say that the policy choices of the past three years made us poorer. Yet that, of course, is precisely how many Americans feel.

Although that pessimism does not bode well for Biden’s reelection prospects, the real problem with it is even more far-reaching: If voters think that policies that helped them actually hurt them, that makes it much less likely that politicians will embrace similar policies in the future. The U.S. got a lot right in its macroeconomic approach over the past three years. Too bad that voters think it got so much wrong.

#someone somewhere out there will find this infuriating #I'm not an economist and almost every time anyone says anything about economics I think 'sure that makes sense' #so I post in my ignorance #try to resist calling me a retard when you tear this apart #and it's always the worst with things like statistics because someone's gonna be like 'well if you reframe the numbers slightly #you'll find that in fact this article demonstrates that we have less wealth per capita than your average North Korean'

[a-dragons-journal]

have you heard of KissingMidnight? back in the mythical community i used to hear bout her from time to time, a p-shifter who became a real mermaid. Now, I wonder... what do you think the true story was?

I hadn't heard of her by that name, but I'd seen the photos she posted as supposed "proof" of her shifted form. (Somebody posted a log of them here, for anyone who hasn't seen.)

The ironic thing is, blatantly faked "proof" like this (photos are grainy at best, especially the ones of "scales" where you can't really even see the supposed bumps she's talking about, and the tail is... obviously a fake? there's no life to that thing at all), as opposed to "that's a normal human thing that you are presenting as p-shifting" type proof, indicates to me that she was knowingly lying. If it was a photo of someone who genuinely believed what they were saying (which, at this degree of shifting, would have to be a hallucination, not just reading too much into normal human body things), we wouldn't be able to see the shift, because it wouldn't be physical.

There's a lot of reasons she might have lied about it, and I really can't speculate on it. She might have originally believed it and then not known how to back out when she realized it wasn't real and just doubled down instead. She might have been just a plain old troll, though it looks like she put an awful lot of effort into it for a troll. It doesn't look like she ever started up any groups, but it's possible she was partly looking to get power over people via claiming "secret knowledge" on an individual basis, since she did tell people to contact her directly according to that log. She might have just liked the attention. Who knows. I'd be curious to know her reasons, if anyone ever tracked her down, but I'm not going to spend too much time thinking about it.

#rani talks #asked and answered #anonymous #posts the grainiest color photo ive ever seen and calls it proof of having scales #ma'am those are legs with a few pixels gone weird #that could be anything up to and including bad photo editing #i'd bet that if you look around long enough you'll be able to find that exact tail she used somewhere #probably not for sale anymore but i am certain other people bought it and didn't try to sell it as p-shifting #i just don't care enough to put in the energy #reading through this she was a pretty clever liar and a pretty decent fake awful photos aside #does not surprise me that a lot of people fell for it #anyway #is that enough spacer tags? #i hope that's enough spacer tags. #p shifting

[maledistributionsystem]

Your personhood is not evidence of an irreparable and damning perversion of some sort.

You are not dangerous for having sexual desire, you are not dangerous for remolding your body, you are not dangerous for understanding who you are and how to be happier.

You're amazing, you're brave, you're being reborn but you're still the same, you the boss of your own body in ways our ancestors thought only gods could achieve.

And you deserve peace. Go relax, man.

#autoandrophilia #force masc #forced masculinization #autoandrophile #black ftm #black masculinity #MDS Originals #got a little emotional making this one. #yeah its directed at myself #trying to get over various traumas that congratulate me for suffering and punish me for relaxing or indulging. #bc yknow. you're allowed to be happy and peaceful. dont get fooled into thinkin you always gotta be fuckin Doing Something #you'll burn out like crazy and make yourself physically ill in long lasting ways. ask me how i know. #instead find a masculine comfort in understading your limits standing firm on what they are regardless of who wants to push them. #this gonna sound silly but im fr....be steady; firm; and unyielding like a stone in this aspect. you will be better for it.

[its-ate-oclock-somewhere]

do you believe you could change me, the way I've changed you?

#hannibal #will graham #molly graham #murder husbands #hannigram #hannibal was so real for saying this #but also #SUCH #a bitch #like #“hey don't worry about me trying anything” #“i'm not planning to escape” #“you know exactly where i am right now” #“so you'll know exactly where to find me” #“once you realise how much i changed you” #“and how much you need me in your life” #“and how ill suited you are to normalcy” #“come find me when you grow weary of your person suit” #“i'll be waiting”

[orchideae]

Starter call! Yep, you saw correctly. I've been making progress in my drafts, and I realized since it was mentioned the other day that I function a little better under pressure, so, yes.

These will be a little shorter (and I'm going to be a little strict with myself on that so that I actually get them written), so expect roughly a paragraph and if it stems from an idea that we've spoken about in plotting or whatnot, then it might be a little longer. But generally, they will be shorter starters that knowing me, will become lengthier threads as the replies progress! This is also welcome to non-Genshin blogs, but then please remember that I do not have any verses outside of Yelan's game canon, and so I'll be looking at your Genshin verses!

#[ ooc. ] don't try to make it logical or edit your soul according to the fashion. rather; follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly. #[ it doesn't matter if we already have stuff lined up-- it doesn't matter if i already owe you something (then you'll get /two/ things!) ] #[ it doesn't matter if we haven't thoroughly plotted yet; i'll wing it. but i always /love/ the challenge of winging something and then... #[ turning it into a proper plot. ] #[ and also know that if you've sent me a meme in the past; i may peek at it and see if i can incorporate them into the starter. ] #[ don't worry! this is a starter call; so i take all responsibility of getting something out. ] #[ i won't come to you unless i'm /really/ stuck on finding something. but do feel free to come to me with a suggestion. ] #[ all i ask is that we're mutuals! 💙 ] #[ and if you're a multi; please specify-- because otherwise i'm random'ing! which i'm also okay with this time honestly. up to you. ]

[morningstargirl666]

Me: [uses the word "debonair" perfectly in a sentence, knowing it's the right word for the job]

Me, ten seconds later: [searches up "debonair" in the dictionary because I don't have a fucking clue what it actually means]

#this is the problem when you read a fuck ton of literature #you just absorb words via some magical form of osmosis #suck it up like a SPONGE #you know how the words fit in the sentence #you know when a sentence SOUNDS right #but good luck trying to get me to explain to you the grammar rules or what the dictionary definition of a word is #to those who want to learn how to write #read #keep reading #and then read some more #and maybe one day you'll find the right words and put them in the right order #and then you'll nudge the world a little #tbbw

[mayasaura]

Something I'm gonna be so interested in finding out is the literal magical power dynamic between John and Alecto. Alecto is the source of John's power, but she can't do necromancy. She can do something, for sure, the way she moves through the River like it's her natural habitat, but all of this started because she needed someone else to wield her power. She couldn't do it herself.

#maybe the real rose bride was Alecto all along #but fr it seems like most intentional use of power and magic needs to be channeled through a champion or avatar #like a dnd god #so I wonder if she'll be acting for herself in the next book or if she'll be looking for someone she can trust to act for her #or if she'll need to find someone she can trust to act for her but love John too much and be too hurt by John to try #did she take Harrow with her bc she owes Harrow a debt or bc she needs a new champion #or both? #alecto the first #alecto speculation #ntn spoilers #nona the ninth #the locked tomb #tlt meta #starting to wonder if it won't be Alecto resurrection Gideon but Alecto giving Harrow the power to resurrect Gideon #which would be. so funny how badly Gideon could take that #oh sure you won't accept depending on ME for unlimited power but you'll take HER #not even clocking that the difference is taking Gideon would have destroyed her but Alecto isn't hurt in the process #tlt spoilers

[flowercrowngods]

it keeps dawning on me, on a daily basis, that i might actually genuinely be homeless soon

#the housing situation here is absolutely crazy. i don't stand a chance. it's so fucking scary #like i try not to obsess over it i try to remind myself that i have almost three months left to find something but *how* when there are #over 100 requests within less than 12 hours. *how* when i have no real job. *how* when there's no reason to let to me than anyone else #how do i not obsess over the absolute powerlessness in this situation. how do i not obsess over that #i genuinely cannot think about anything else and i have a uni report to write until monday #but all i can think is 'you'll be homeless you'll be homeless you'll be homeless and you have no power over it' #i refuse to cry in this library but someone anyone tell me how to stop obsessing and how to stop being so scared #over a hundred in less than 12 hours. i don't stand a fucking chance. you'd think this is berlin for how crazy this is #blah #not st

[craycraybluejay]

How many great artists and scientists and iventors dyou think died in slave plantations, concentration camps, and meaningless bullshit wars and genocides?

#i think about it every now and then and feel like crying #you know? #someone who died to the cruelty of humanity could have cured cancer #and their lives matter either way but #it causes me anxiety to think that even with whatever value I have it can only mean so much #people are irrational and cruel. i could invent fucking time travel and in some spaces it simply would not matter #how do you play at stocks and mind games with someone who does not Think in that way #a smart play for power or play for anything else is only useful so long as other involved parties arent insane or stupid #how frustrating is that? #irresponsible stupid people in power make my blood boil more than just the power itself #you cant even concede to someone like that either bc they wont understand compromise or surrender #but also its like telling a bully you'll tell his mom that his dad cheated #but the bully is stupid and beats you up anyway and now you both lose because youre definitely going to tell now #you could have come out both winners if he understood your leverage and backed off #but now youre both losers cause you are still all bruised and bloody and he gets to deal with his parents messy divorce #don't negotiate with stupid people. recognize when they arent understanding and just try something else like running #dont fret sometimes an appeal to emotion will kick em into gear #'ill tell your mom' vs 'your mom will be so devastated and sad when she finds out :(' #obv dont do that unless someones abusing their power over you/hurting you in a situation you cant just run from #because the best solution if possible is almost always run. leave. get away. #but if you have to fight you want to get at any angle you can #you want to corner the other person so they go from being offense to defense #and if youre just digging/prepping for a bigger thing you want to get them frazzled enough to make a mistake #again. this is for self defense especially in long term abusive/toxic situations #people who abuse using their power usually have ego problems. sometimes you can take a gamble and go for the ego #they do this to you. do it BACK. #and preferably have a weapon on hand if they are liable to violence and unpredictability #better to look for a lawyer than check on the status of your life and health insurances #it is never too late to fight back. some people will tell you helplines but they have not helped me or anyone i know #so i'm telling you how to fight back and protect yourself by any means necessary

[supercantaloupe]

truly detest how pcos tags/forums/etc are absolutely crawling with terfs

#(okay to rb but stay in your lane) #maybe i just want to look and see if anyone else has experienced what i went through today without seeing someone going like #'you'll never be a REAL woman because you DON'T HAVE OVARIES #and will NEVER understand the TRUE WOMANLY EXPERIENCE of having A VERY DISRUPTIVE AND COMPLEX ENDOCRINE AND METABOLIC DISORDER' #like i think there are more important (read: actual) targets to direct our frustration at here than #[checks notes] getting mad at a trans woman for saying she relates to some of the problems caused/faced by having pcos #like. idk. the fucking medical system and lack of research/treatment options #(also. christ. reducing every person w pcos into the 'woman' category automatically bc 'ovary'. #even though it's literally an intersex condition. yikes.) #also i don't know about y'all but i don't wish this on anyone? regardless of gender?? #i actually don't want trans women to have to experience this in order to be considered a True Woman #because i don't want ANYBODY to have to experience this. it sucks! it's not fucking fun! #i just wanted to try and see if other people have gone through the same thing i have. not expand my blocklist by half a mile tonight. #i wanna talk about me #even though i didn't exactly find what i was looking for (😔) and i had to play fucking whack-a-terf while searching #if there's any bright side to be found it's the number of posts/people affirming pcos as an intersex condition/identity #i saw someone say 'if you don't want the [intersex] umbrella for yourself you don't have to take it #but it's nice to have in the closet for a rainy day' #and. man. yeah.

[mushroom-for-art]

Gonna give this another go, preferably one of mine and somebody else's but like I'll do two from others as well

#Crackship meme #Requests open #You can either reblog this with who you want (please provide refs) #Or send me an ask with who you want (please provide refs of the other character that isn't mine or both if they're not mine) #Cause I'm not going running looking for references XD #If the reference is out of date and they look a little different in modern time let me know plz #If you want me to be real spicy about it you could provide refs of other characters in the chosen characters family #So I can like compare and try to find common traits/genes like oh a lot of these characters have x what not #Or you can just tell me like they have gene for x but it's just not shown on them ect so I can use that genetic dna info for the fusion #I did something similar with the Rue May kids as Rue has a tail stripe gene and while dormant in May she has the same so Beta has stripes #Pokemon crack ship meme #Also like only offer your own characters but that's a given I think #I'm gonna try to do these using a different art program and like different drawing medium entirely #So responses to these may be slow and may look a bit wack it's practice baby you'll be helping me

[culmaer]

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#nothing is more depressing than working on my cv #because I just don't feel like I have marketable skills #and so many of the writing and research posts I come across on job sites are like ''you'll be working alongside ai'' #I even saw a copywriter post that said ''you won't be doing any writing or editing. you job will be to refine and improve ai prompts #so that the ai can more consistently produce the texts we need'' #like hello #the person doing that job is literally making themself more obsolete by the day #so here's the plan #I need to take any job that pays vaguely well #and use that money to either do short corses #or save up to go so my masters #that conclusion is inescapable #just. for now I'm still stuck on step 1 : finding a decent job #and (perhaps I'm being too picky) but post covid I do not want to go back into anything in the tourism industry #it's too precarious and honestly just comes down to entertaining rich people which pushes me further left every time i think about it #I considered joining the communist party. but 1) they're still part of the tripartite alliance with the anc... which is a no from me #and 2) communist révolution should spontaneously happen in industrialised countries with surplus wealth when the proletariat arise #south africa does not have surplus wealth nor class consciousness really. it's still filtered through post apartheid racial groupings #which is unhelpful because the black bourgeoisie are not our allies just because they're black #and trying to impose communism in a society without the surplus wealth didn't work out too well throughout the 20th century #so what does that leave you with #parties like cope ? plagued by the same issues as the anc ? no thank you #(I did also study politics btw which is why I've even considered these career paths) #(although I haven't worked in politics or governance since graduation so maybe that doesn't even matter anymore it's been years) #all I want is a job that pays fairly and leaves me with enough free time to do my hobbies #I do not have the grindset I'll admit that #which is why I've enjoyed the art industry #but again. it just comes down to entertaining rich people in the small galleries which is needlessly stressful #and the larger non-commercial galleries and musea aren't hiring atm... #and that's it. rant over I guess since this is the 30th tag

[arcaneyouth]

having a chronic illness/disability and also having medical trauma is a bitch for obvious reasons but also like. being part of the disabled community n stuff. like yeah i want to show my love and support for disabled people and i dont want to be uncomfortable when they talk about their experiences. if they talk about specific experiences i will stop breathing while the panic hits me like many bricks

#negative #sorta kinda #a lot of disability posts are like 'if you are uncomfortable with (disability stuff) you need to reexamine yourself and #learn to live with it' and these posts are true and i do have biases i gotta be aware of #but theres also stuff i just cant become comfortable with. ive tried. ive been trying for a decade #it is simultaneously true that i should be allowed to avoid my triggers and that other disabled people shouldnt have to be aware that #im triggered by them existing #i dont feel bad about that i just feel bad that i am apart of this community too but theres spaces i just cant be in #its the same kind of thing with like. so you'll never find me putting my ocs in a medical setting #i could potentially do it since i know exactly what triggers me and what doesnt but its easier to just avoid it in my stories #but the thing about my chronic illness is its. an invisible illness #and a lot of the things i could bring up for my readers to understand they have My Illness are. things that trigger me #and again. i have tried so hard to be more comfortable with these triggers #its not happening. it is likely i will panic about this stuff the rest of my life #so now theres a disconnect between me and my ocs that are like me because i cant make them like me without freaking out #its just. man what the hell. #my disability that gave me medical trauma is preventing me from participating in disabled spaces i want to be part of #what the fuck dude

[set-wingedwarrior]

So, here's my plan:

I am going write down everything I'm doing around the house for the next few months, making sure that I do everyhing PERFECTLY, following EVERY SINGLE RULE my roomate made up, and even signing all the dates where I am not in the house (like when I am in my hometown, or even when it's a full day in university if I go out early morning and come back late evening) just to make sure that the times I got nothing done I got a valid reason (I fucking wasn't there).

I am going to do all of this, writing everything down as backup because my memory is shit, and the next time my roomate acts like a bitch and complains about whatever the drama of the day is I am going ballistic. I will have my backup and I will be ready to defend myself with concrete proof because I AM DONE.

And if she's still acting all cold and resentful, all because last time I dared to defend myself and talk back, then she's the problem. And I will tell her to her fucking face: if you're not able to see a genuine attempt at making things right and the good will to want make up for past mistakes (even if she fucking exagerated them, but I will cut this part out for the sake of peace), and everything is always bad and wrong, then you are the problem.

It's not my fault if you're never happy, and it's not my job to make you feel better.

#she's fucking insane #an evil part of me really wants to rattle her out to our landlord for some of her... legally questionable habits #and yell at her things that I know will hurt #I am not doing any of this though #not that she fucking apreciate or notice it #even less she shared the courtesy #she talks big about and empath and caring about others #but it's easy when the others aren't the people close that you see on a daily basis #i didn't see her try to understand me when things are bad #meanwhile i let slide many things i find annoying just because i know they are good for her #because i know she's not in a good place #figures that someone else fucking acts like this towards me #no one ever shares my courtesy or notice me trying hard #i am always the evil one #sooner or later i will actully be mad lose control and act bad #then you'll see #there's a reason i fight so hard to always keep myself under control #elo stuff #rant