#Im in fucking agony because of you roaches!

[hunterbunter3000]

i’m curious on what would happen if sweetheart actually flirted back with the boys, im just wondering how’d they react to it. same with if she did flirt back sexually

OOOOUUUUU THIS IS A GOOD ONE

(I have never flirted in my life at all-- you'll see that throughout this whole thing)

She's never really seen any of them in a romantic or even a sexual light. But after what happened with Alex kneeling and Soap pinning her down, her feelings are kinda starting to change 👀👀

Like with Alex, we was surprised about it, but he immediately goes with it and thinks he has a chance (She's drunk and forgets about it the next day AJAHA)

And with Soap, he just short-circuits LOL like especially when she has him pinned, she'll just look at him for the longest and say "I like you under me." HE'LL BE SO SHOCKED AND TURNED ON

With Ghost, he doesn't really flirt. He shows his romantic ways in his jokes and just taking care of Sweetheart. In my mind, they flirt by just telling each other jokes. And Simon always feels warm everytime

Price? I can't really see him flirt either, he shows his love through his actions (I honestly think that he'll be too rusty to flirt) maybe he'll say something cheeky 🤭

Krueger tries to flirt-- he can tease, but flirt? Why flirt just say that you wanna FUCK (bruh and he has. So many times to Sweetheart. I got a fucking drabble for that shit good lord)

Alejandro is shocked but he immediately likes it. He goes farther more, see where the line ends (hopefully never)

Rudy flirts with his poems, but Sweetheart flirts with him anyway because he's so easy to tease with. He just goes red and starts stuttering over his words, it's so cute to Sweetheart

Roach flirts by physical touch, he's always in Sweetheart's personal space, climbing on her, hugging her, booping her nose. And she does it back-- HE JUST FALLS ON THE FLOOR

Graves doesn't get to flirt with Sweetheart because she doesn't give him a chance to (she either kicks him in the shin or gives him the bird)

Gaz would probably laugh it off, since he's also a teasing flirt. But on the inside he is SCREAMING AND YELLING-- HE IS BANGING ON THE WALLS IN AGONY BECAUSE HE JUST LAUGHED IT OFF INSTEAD OF SAYING SOMETHING ELSE

Horangi wouldn't know what to do with himself. He also flirts through his poems, maybe let a Lil thing slide out here and there but really says how he feels about Sweetheart in his writing (and diary) but if she whispers something in his ear, all low and shit-- bitch we're going to his room.

König? Idk if he would flirt. He would be a playful tease, like "jokey joke haha" but if she would do more than that? If Sweetheart legit flirted with him? He honestly wouldn't even notice if she did. He would think she's joking and then go back to playful. It would take all day until he's laying down in bed thinking about, and then it clicks like "OOOHHHHHHH SHE WAS FUCKING FLIRTING ME FUCK"

#its so fun to make them suffer wth #task force 141 x reader #tf 141 #task force 141 #black fem reader #modern warefare ii #cod modern warfare #modern warfare x you #cod headcanons #task force 141 headcanons #los vaqueros #alejandro mw2 #mw2 rudy #black reader #ghost call of duty #price headcanons #kyle gaz garrick x reader #gaz x reader #cod oc #x fem!reader #141 sweetheart #hunter's ask lounge ☕️

[felix-volturi-stims]

I'm gonna say this once.

If you can get vaccinated for covid-19, GET VACCINATED! if you can't for reasons outside of your control, please continue to wear your mask and social distance.

If you anti-vax, I hate you disease spreading roaches!

#Im not holding back at this point #fuck you disease spreading roaches from the deepest pits of my heart #I cant fucking breathe #I cant see my kids #I cant kiss my hubby goodnight #I cant brush my horses dogs cats or even that stupid coyote of my brothers #Im in fucking agony because of you roaches! #I did everything right #I got vaccinated to protect my kids and family #I wore my mask all the time #I stayed away from others and even shopped online to make sure we got what we needed #but I guess it wasnt enough #if I die #the only good thing will be seeing my daughter again

[vanillarising]

im so overdue for a huge vent post truly arent i so here it goes even if its so so so so so cringe. every day i wake up and think about you, every second day i wake up and beg to go back to sleep and not wake up again, to have some kind of mercy killing in my sleep. i wish i could shake you and say i forgive you i understand and i see you and we never ever have to talk about any of this if i can just go back to having you as my friend, without all of the weird and heavy things. i wish i had killed myself months ago. i wish i hadnt left hospital so early and maybe i wouldnt be getting worse again now, i wish it had taken longer and i could have had the chance to revel in sunlight, bathe myself in warm afternoon light and actually feel it. i do everything to numb myself these days, i promise myself to stop smoking and end up delirious by the end of the night. i promise myself i will take care of myself today, and then workout for three hours until the pain in my leg from never ending exercise means sitting down is pure agony. i sleep as much as i can because i dread being awake. 

the worst thing, though, is how even whilst i sit in this pain i know yours must be so much worse, so much heavier and darker. it must cloud your vision. if i had it my way you would never feel any of this, you would be untouched by the world and see the good in everything. i wish i knew why you were like this, why you did what you did earlier, then maybe i could have wrapped my arms around your shoulders and held you and forgiven you then and there. i could have been a better friend and maybe you would have told me more. im sorry things were so fucked for both of us. i dont know why they were, and i dont know why as i get older i see more of our lives mirroring, i dont know why you of all people have to go through all this terror. i would do anything for things to be different

honestly my love i am thinking about overdosing but maybe on something more lethal if i can get my hands on something; there are some griefs too heavy to carry on my weak shoulders. god i hope you can carry it, there is so much, and your arms were always so thin and dainty, i worry every single jnight that it will be too much, too much and you will be gone. 

the people online who dare put your name in their mouth, they will never know you, you will always be so much more then speculation and anythign else that comes your way. but it is simply too much for me to hold, to write, to say, to think. all of it.

tonight i will sleep on the floor because my only safe place, my bed, was invaded by one singular roach but now i have bathed for three hours and still cannot trust my surrondings enough to go back there, i will cry for you while i am down there, i will pray to see your face smiling even just once more,

#diary

[delightfullygiddy]

And NO! I’ve got more to say! Because I’m NOt going to sleep with this shit on my mind and on my chest! 

So i find out most probably i have  Entomophobia going by my, not one, but 2 latest encounters with fucking roaches in the house. Because after this latest one, while I’m having fucking dinner, i realize a pattern. Not only do i get fucking stiff as a board but i realize im either holding my breath or not breathing at all and my nerves feel like they’re about to fucking pop and I can’t stop shaking. They are so disgusting and are literally the embodiment of filth in my mind and the creepy crawly trope. The whole shit just puts me on edge.

But nah, i could accept all that actually, IF, it wasnt my family’s reaction to my reaction. Not only is there any lack of concern but there is..for fuck’s sake, there is actual mocking after it. And my sister really fucking enjoys taunting the idea. Especially throwing around “It’s here to get you back for its cousin.” Yeah besides knowing that to be a fucking stupid thing i know isnt real, just reminding me enough about the other one isnt enough.. LIke I know its a fucking bug, I know something that i should not be afraid of.

Hey, but guess the fuck what? Turns OUt I FUCKING AM.

It literally is telling someone with irritional fear issues to stop being afraid right off the bat!

LIke, WOW! HOLY FUCK! SWEET FUCKING WILKIERS BATMAN! WHY THE FUCKK DIDN”T I THINK OF THAT 😃😃😃

I hate it. And..i know they see my reaction. I KNOW THEY SEE I’M UPSET WITH IT ALL WHENEVER IT HAPPENS. So why, WHY DO They Keep degrading me emotionally for it? LIke wow, i’m so glad on top of the anxiety and depression riddled existence that wreaks havoc on every living moment i have, you are also going to belittle my panic over bugs. Nice fucking A+ COuldn’t have said it better myself.

It makes me want to fucking scream and actually rip myself into shreds, 

AND another piece to the internalized agony pile another one of my fears go in my head.

#Entomophobia #I actually have a headache #and its worse because my dad does this thing #where he tries to make you feel better by coming up and being all chummy #but in retrospect still comes off as too aggressive to actually be helpful to the one in particular #like really hard pats on the back #and my whole method as usual with dealing with my family is just going stone cold #like fuck no #you've done this goddamned shit before and when i bring it to attention you either #say im overacting to the situation and say grow up #or belittle me and make excuses when i say your responses are hurtful to me and try and turn that back on me #like no i'e already learned you wont actually fucking listen to me #so I say nothing #because i GET NOTHING FROM YOU IN RETURN IN TERMS OF GROWTH AND CONSOLEMENT #personal post #im fucking tired #and i cant stop crying im just...hurt so much emotionally and mentally right now #i dont even fucking care anymore